https://twitter.com/EndlessIStudios.....30204949929984

I've lost my job. I was fired for accusations of call avoidance when I wasn't. So now I'm job hunting, but while doing so, I'm opening up commissions again and clearing my list completely. I'm waiting on my 401k to be released to me so I can use that to pay my bills.

Spreading the word helps a lot, commission or donating also helps. I need to make around 500 a week to survive.

Please, help an artist out.

Happy Holidays and New Year, too~

Yeah...

https://twitter.com/SyraeUniverse/s.....386432514?s=19

Its fucking me and fucking WITH me. Anything helps. From signal boosting to commissioning and donating helps. A whole lot. (And honestly i miss doodling furries. I really do!)

Please, spread the word!

I finally finished designing and uploading everything onto my online webshop. I will be making more items and placing them on the website when I'm not at cons to sell products!

https://endlessistudios.fws.store/

SPREAD THE WORD MY LOVELIES~

Hey everyone, I'm sorry I'm not actively posting my art on a frequent state. I work 10 hour shifts at a bank on a 4 day a week basis. I mostly use one out of those three days off to recover and two days to either work on art, go try a new place to eat (Which I have a foodie blog on twitter incase you want to know. It's FoodieCyn), traveling to see friends, avoiding my house since there are kids and my sister is there please don't ask why I just don't want to get into it.

And did I mention I am stressed? I had a stroke scare back on the 8th. They think it's just a pinched nerve that is causing all the pain and issues. So I'm on a lot of medication not only from my doctor but for the pinched nerve and the over the counter for GERD and allergies. I'm feeling like I'm taking an entire pharmacy's worth of meds in one day and it just... depresses me so. I know it's for my health but it's not making me feel any better mentally.

Anyway, I'll be opening up a shop soon where you can buy some of my products like cute stickers, buttons, etc! If you have any idea on what I should sell on there, please tell me!

Also, I have split up my commission list for the following: Convention and Normal Commissions. That way I know which one is clearing up faster.I will show after I get a second little whiteboard to scribble them on. The last one is impossible to clean...

Anyway, if you have questions, just let me know and I will answer them asap. Until then... Hope to bring more awesome art for you to enjoy!!


Au revoir~

While I work on commissions, I have some other news

I have another set of stickers I'm going to work on. Thing is, I need funding to get the sticker project going. The stickers are of animals in the shape of beans called AnimaBeans. Here is the set I'll be working on next! Here is the first set I made! I will be producing more stickers to sell at future cons and online as well!

Anyway, the project is simple. I need to collect roughly around 500 minimum to get the time I need to work on them, select the proper colors and send them off to production (Which costs money)

So the donation pool is simple:
$1 = A thank you for donating!
$5 = A quick digital headsketch of your choosing
$10 = Sketched artcard done traditionally, mailed to you at no cost.
$15 = Lineart artcard with 1 color of choice done traditionally, mailed to you at no cost
$25 = Colored Artcard done traditionally, mailed to you at no cost
$30 = Colored Artcard + one sticker of your choosing
$40 = Colored Artcard + 2 stickers of your choosing
$50 = 1 digital headsketch + Colored artcard + 3 stickers of your choice.

To donate, please go to my Ko-Fi Page below.
https://ko-fi.com/endlessistudios

You don't need an account to join and it's pretty basic! Otherwise, I'd like all the help I can get! Spread the word if you'd like!

Until then, I'll work on my commissions, stay fresh and frosty!

Honestly, I would love to use it, but sadly it gets marked on paypal and I prefer it not being banned or frozen... So if you want to tip me, please do so on Ko-Fi or directly to my paypal. If you tip me a certain amount, it'll follow the same contributions that i applied on Ko-Fi. If you don't know what those level of contributions are... please read it here!

https://ko-fi.com/post/Monthly-Cont.....pdate-X8X1QX9P

Aside from that, have a good day! I'll be sketching out most of my commissions I owe. :D

Go ahead and throw me your questions. I will answer them honestly. :D

AWWW YEEEAAAAH HERE WE GO AGAAAIIIN~

Transportation:
Car

Staying:
Marriot

Arrival/Departure:
Wednesday (5/08) to Monday (5/13)

Room:
, and several more!

Description (out of suit):
Genderfluid, 6'0"
Around 260-280LBS
Undercut, brown hair. Hot pink top usually.

Art propaganda:
I'll be working at the Artist alley as usual!

Fursuit(s):
Maybe I will, maybe I won't, ask in person~

Relationship Status:
Single. Not really interested in having a boyfriend or girlfriend.

Who you hang with:
Any of my awesome art buds or conbuddies.

Main purpose for attending:
Work on art, have fun. I WILL BE HOSTING AN AFTER DARK PANEL!!

Where you usually eat:
Metro, Sushi place, a place with Gyros. I'm willing to try new places!

Parties:
Mmmmaybe.

Sleep/get up:
Normally crash out around 3-4am. Wake up around 9AM.

Do you talk in/out of suit:
Yes I do talk. C:

To get my attention:
Cyn, Ferret, Sass, Sass God, etc

Fursuit rules of engagement:
Ask in person~

Rules of engagement (out of suit):
Say hello! Tell me a joke! I'm okay with handshakes and permission for hugs. DO NOT TOUCH INAPPROPRIATELY.

How far is too far:
Treat me the way you want to be treated. Be nice? I be nice. Be mean? I will be mean back. And, again, do not touch me inappropriately. Things will go south incredibly fast.

Can I dance with you:
I'll try to, I suck at it though. I will try!

Can I buy you things:
Gifts are always appreciated!

Best communication medium to reach you:
Telegram, Twitter, Instagram, you name it~ EndlessIStudios

Birthday is today and I'm raring to do a special stream... Last month I paid for 23andMe to tell me my ancestry. I'll be streaming that live tonight around 10-11pm this evening.

If you'd like, you can come watch! Otherwise, I'm having a dinner party, having a few drinks and celebrating another year of survival. And I plan to keep going on strong.

It's all here!

https://ko-fi.com/post/Monthly-Cont.....pdate-X8X1QX9P

It starts tomorrow!! HAVE A READ, SUBSCRIBE OR SPREAD THE WORD!!

(In the meantime, I'll finish my commissions~)

So while I'm finishing up the last of my queue, I'm doing a poll for stickers to sell both online and, mostly, at conventions! But I need your help with voting.

If you have not voted yet, please do so! I need to know before the week ends so I can get to work on the stickers!

https://goo.gl/forms/BbNEpRmJD2uelYUr2

May this year be better than the last. :D

I'll be unloading lots of art soon enough and working on much more! I'm almost done with my queue, meaning I'll be open again for some awesome furry art!

Until then... HAPPY HOLIDAYS MY LOVELIES~

It was fun. There was some ups and downs, I got to cosplay for the first time as well as planning something big for FWA given that it's ready by that time. I have about 7 months with to plan it out...

Until then... STAY TUNED! <3

So, I'm making a plan for myself on clearing out my current commission list. I'm no longer accepting commissions until I clear out the current list I have going on.

And since I check my emails about 5 times a day RELIGIOUSLY...

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....L_WAITLIST.png

I decided to make it my commission waitlist. So, for those who have been waiting I am terribly sorry. I'm going to be working myself to the bone to clear this out. I'm trying to clear at least 2-3 a week here. My main goal is to have my entire list cleared out by the end of the year. If I'm able to get it down to a minimum of 3 left, I would be more than happy to open it again so that the turnaround time is much shorter than before.

Again, I sincerely apologize for such a delay. I'm going to strive my best to become a better, professional artist. And thank you for reading this!

So while I was at Pittsburgh to attend Anthrocon, a lot of things has come into perspective. While I've been thinking of these things, I've had a lot of fun. My feet hurt like hell, but it's worth the exercise.

I realized that I need to really spend more time on myself. Not as in do whatever I want, but to focus on myself specifiicaly instead of working on art all the time or spending time with other people. I need to personally spend time with myself. I need to treat myself now and again. I'm always worried about other people, stressing over everything in my life instead of just simply chilling the hell out.

I also realized I really, REALLY miss flying. Like holy shit it's therapeutic to watch the skies at that height. I've flown many times since I was nine months old. I hadn't flown in several years. Sure, I love to drive, but I get tired after so much. I rather just fly and rest after seeing such a beautiful view. I just love traveling in general and being in other places.

Another thing I learned is no matter how much anger or distaste I have of another person being within sights, I can still have a lot of fun and just move on. Sure, I was a pain in the ass, but I moved on and still had some laughs. Especially when having a pair of squeakers in my bra and having fun with all sorts of conversations. I spent a whole lot of time with my friends.

I really need to take breaks from art just so I can be re-motivated and work on my own stuff even. I want to really work on drawing more of my new otter character. I've also adopted a new character that I really want to draw out, too!! I know many people like Syrae, but I want to have other ones, maybe even have others like them too.

I also learned that a lot of my friends are doing patreon. And talking with them, what they view others around them as, really has shown the difference between me and them. I still love them all and they're my buddies.

Another thing is I really miss hanging out with my friends. I don't have that many here around me to spend time with. the only time I do is during cons. Sure, it's short, but sweet moments that makes me appreciate my time being around people I enjoy hanging with.

Most of all... I desperately needed that vacation. Everytime I said I'm going on vacation, I was going to cons, doing commissions and working at the artist alley. I really needed a break. After FWA, I was mentally and physically burned out to where for weeks on end, I would simply not draw or even game. I just wanted to rest. The trip to the con reinvigorated me and helped big time. I guess even artists need a vacation sometimes.

Overall, the con has brought a lot to my attention. I also saw some old friends, made new ones, had lots of laughs, deep meaningful conversations with many. I also got to meet a few people who are fans of my works. I got lots of hugs, pictures and memories to last me for a long time. I didn't really get to do much, but it was worth it.

Now that I'm home again, I'll be getting back to commissions and preparing badges for the next con. Again, thank you for being patient with me until I can get through my mental barriers. And for those who followed me, thanks for watching me!

I'm going purely as vacation, so if you see me come by and say hi! I don't bite! :D

I'll be mostly hanging out with and probably be settling in at the Zoo to art with some friends for a change.

See you there!

Lately I've been... feeling really burned out. I wake up, go to my dayjob, come home to eat within 15 minutes and work on art until I go to bed, rinse and repeat. On my days off I'm working on art as well as watching kids that don't know how to behave or be respectful in a house not of their own.

After the convention, I felt mentally and physically exhausted so badly I nearly contemplated on just quitting my job and sleeping my life away. Depression has struck me hard not because of the con... but because of life as a whole. I've been damn near tired of everything life to where I just want to sleep until I feel better. But we all know that never works out. So, I had to take a week or two off from working on art just to get the needed rest. Sadly, it wasn't enough since my days off means I had to deal with kids yet again.

I'm slowly falling back into working on art again, though as you all don't know, I'm not taking any more commissions until the current list is cleared out.

Which brings me to the good news. My current job has hired me to be permanent there as a debt collector and registration renewal issues resolver. I now work for a vehicle leasing company and, surprisingly enough, I really like working there. I have my own desk, my own computer. I get to decorate my desk area and even bring art supplies there to work on art if need be. It's a little laid back, but the hard work is very much satisfying. The pay is actually helping me keep not only my bills and rent afloat, but have wiggle room incase of emergencies.

Another good news is that because I'm permanent, I have Paid Time Off (PTO). So... GUESS WHO IS GOING TO ANTHROCON THIS YEAR!

I am. But not to work there. I'm going PURELY for a vacation. To spend time with my friends and just for once slack off and art jam. Sure I will be open for pre-order badges for Anthrocon, but that's all I'll bring at the con for all to enjoy. If you want to commission me there, you can in person. Just hit me up when I'm there. Just don't expect it to be done at the con is all. :D

Another, bid sat, news is that I will be doing to MEGAPLEX, but I'm refusing to do the artist alley. And here is the reason why.

"This year Artist Alley will be taking a new Hybrid approach. A majority of the Artist Alley slots will be available for advance booking as part of your convention registration. These time slots are broken up into half day segments. You can pre-purchase up to 2 slots for yourself. Onsite, we will still be offering half day slots for free which will be issued via a lottery selection model every morning.... Artists wanting a slot can Pre-Purchase as part of their Pre-Registration up to 2 reserved slots while available."

In other words, they're setting it as somewhat of a dealer's den where people can prepay for a table. And those who want it free can only have it for half of the day. While this may seem alright to the Megaplex Staff, I.... honestly can't see this working out well. Last year there were more than enough tables. So why implement this now? Why have reserved places to pay for? You're treating it as a secondary Dealer's Den when it should only be an artist alley. This has disheartened me to where I just simply can't do artist alley this year. I'll be going and I will be doing preorder badges, but I think I'll just laze around again.

I'll also be attending to AWA this year as well in Atlanta because, fuck, I need vacations and time away from family and people in my area. But that's generally it.

I'll be attending to four cons this year, which is a first. But you know what? It'll be how I want things to be. I'll be happy.

Anyway, thanks for reading this. I appreciate it. I'll also be posting up the FWA aftermath... ... once I find where I typed the first half at.

Since yesterday, I will post up the aftermath soon. = u =

While I'm still working on commissions I owe currently... I have a special announcement.

I'll be doing a special auction of a sketchbook I've been working offline. Mostly at work since there was time in between calls lately.

Each day, I ink out a new page that I've sketched up on sundays (Since sunday is solely my day off from working on commissioned works.)

It'll be consisted of back-to-back pages of pokemon. there are 40 pages in this book!

Here's a sample so far!

http://endlessistudios.tumblr.com/p.....ook-im-working

Each week I've been posting a message on my public twitter account on saturdays to find out what should I draw next on the page! It has to be various pokemon that is yet to be in the book! So if you'd like to put your input in, do so!

I'll be selling the artbook either on here or on an official website for everyone to have a chance! This will be a rare, one of a kind sketchbook that the highest bidder can color in! and if it goes past a certain amount (Like... I don't know $800 I guess?), the last page will consist the winner's persona (or fursona) and 6 of their most favorite pokemon to make it a customized sketchbook!

This will be a general viewers sketchbook, I will be doing an 18+ anthro version afterwards when I get another moleskin sketchbook!

So, what do you think?

Seriously, if you ever need an update on what's going on with me or any art I'm doing (SFW stuff only), then it'll all be tweeted here on my open twitter account.

https://twitter.com/endlessistudios

Even if you don't do twitter, it's still best to read my ongoings on there. C:

The reason being that I've not been reporting much lately is due to real life situations.

Such as a citation I got back in November that I didn't deserve, struggling to pay it off before they take not only my licence, but my car insurance and costing me far more than I could really afford for. My family won't help, they say I should just pawn my belongings off when I've paid out of my own pocket for their citations they actually deserved (And those who donated money to me for this situation THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU LIKE HOLY SHIT). I'm still dealing with bills that should not only be my responsibility, but those whom I live with. Yet, I'm pinned for it. Many of you would play the "Don't care if shit gets shut down" but you have to understand that I get stressed and panicked about it. I can't leave it be unless it's dealt with. I'm heavily considering on moving out on my own if I'm paying more than half of the rent and ALL of the bills.

Or that I quit my job because I got tired of the mental abuse and bullying I got from customers over because their stuff is not working and they refuse to assist to fix a problem, only to end up with a charge when the technician gets there as well as hating my job. Not only that, I quit my job the week of thanksgiving because I simply just could not go anymore, coupled with depression to where I seriously questioned my values in life and just existing to where I went back to old eating habits and not caring. Though the silver lining to this is I found another job and trying to keep up with bills. I get paid more, but bills seem to go higher when I need it the most. But, I'm trying and do enjoy my job there more since it's not troubleshooting.

Another being that I'm not able to get loans to play catchup on bills that none of my family helps me with, yet their only solution is to pawn my stuff off like usual just to clean up their messes. Let alone leave me with children in the house when they clearly know I draw dicks at home when need be. Or the fact that they make a mess of my house and leave me so stressed to the point where I strongly dislike my family in general. Another being to where I feel ostracized and overworked to where I need to stop working on art just to get a breather otherwise I feel like I'm nothing but an art machine putting out pieces just to keep up with the daily payments in life. I just want... to work on art and relax. I have no choice than to be forced and deal with family.

A lot is going on in my world. I'm trying my best, my absolute best, to finish them in a timely manner. I've been posting much updates on my personal twitter, but I should be posting it in my public twitter. Again, I'm deeply sorry I've been taking so terribly long trying to finish art, but please understand that where I am in life is not in the best place. And depression is not helping. Especially when I'm struggling to fight back against it and keep working. Regardless of it, I'm still drawing. I'm working my hardest.

I wanted to make sure this is loud and clear to you all that I'm not trying to avoid you all, I'm stressing myself to an early grave at this point. I'm not taking any more commissions. And if I do, it means I'm in dire need of the cast and nothing more. The inquiry is, should I give a daily update on my twitter or on Tumblr just to keep everyone involved about my personal, offline life??

Please, continue to be patient with me. Thank you.

So... yeah.

http://endlessistudios.tumblr.com/p.....irma-aftermath

It's all there.

It decided to spike my lemonade with too much sugar.

In other words, the reason why I’ve not been seen posting art lately is because I’ve been horribly and terribly depressed for a week. Just last week I was diagnosed with Onset Diabetes (type 2).

And while many say “You’ll be fine” “It’s manageable” “get over it things will be okay”, my brain doesn’t function like that. I was fighting myself to accept that this is my life now. I’m still struggling to understand that this is what path I took. And it was my own fault for taking this path. So I’m trying to slow down, and if I can, start walking backwards to reverse it.

Diabetes runs in my family quite well. Many people have it. Mom was diagnosed it last year and she’s struggling to maintain it. While my family is being “supportive” about this new found discovery, I’m not accepting of it. Probably because my sister keeps rubbing the whole “You need to get over it, you don’t have cancer” and my mom being “stop being a bitch and get over it”. I don’t fucking care who you are, trying to play that sort of competitive game of “who got it worse” is going to piss me off. It sucks in general, regardless of what one has illness-wise. So instead of being more upset about it... I decided to flip the finger at them. I changed my diet, removed 95% sugars in my foods and drink.

While it took Mom a year to drop it by 100 (She’s still within 200-300 range), I was able to drop mine within a week in the acceptable range of blood glucose levels. Meaning, I was at 167 last week. Within five days, I dropped it to being 102 and trying to maintain it there (But every now and then slip to 120 region due to adjusting sodium levels). I know I can manage it with dieting and exercising.

It’s the depression that keeps me from functioning mentally. I’ve been doing as much overtime just to forget my woes, my thoughts on it because if it kept haunting me, it would control my day. I would sleep the day away. I would care less about everything around me. I was losing my appetite and was getting lethargic about it. So work helped immensely on avoiding the depression.

Surely, it’s starting to fade and I’m getting used to the fact that I’m diabetic. Granted, I get easily frustrated each time I get hungry because I’m trying to find ways to enjoy meals I enjoy now and then, but in smaller portions and diabetic friendly with no aftertaste (Like diet soda. Fuck that shit).

I’m still struggling, don’t get me wrong, with my mind on it, but it’s much easier. Fuck you, Depression. Fuck you, Diabetes. I don’t have time for your shit. I have art to complete. A life to make of my own. And I’m not going to have any of it.

I’m strong and I will persevere.