Well, I'm started on the remake of
"The Dread Pirate" Tabor's head. I
went to the Home Depot and got a
bunch of aluminum bar stock
(3/4"x 1/8"x 48") and made the
skull cap that will carry the balaclava
that the foam bits and ultimately
the fur. I wanted a rigid under
structure so I'd have a solid base
to attach the ears to. Everything
is pop-riveted together (dang those
things are handy). I'm waiting on the
arrival of te foam-backed vinyl
material to make the balaclava,
hopefully it will arrive in a day or so
so I can get working on it. I just finished
tearing down the old head and salvaging
the ears and eyes. Once I have something
to look at, there will be pictures.

I also constructed a tilting/swiveling work
stand to hold the head as it's built. Should make
things much easier. I'm also NOT using spray
adhesive this time. Those VOC's are wicked.
I'll be using lo-temp hotglue.

Well, if you've been following my attempts at fursuit
building, you know I haven't been too successful nor
very pleased with the results. Well, while I was at FWA
I went to a panel on fursuit head construction and took
a bunch of pictures of every stage of construction. Now
armed with a bit more info, we'll give it a try once again.
Only thing I'm going to save from the previous head
are the ears and the eyes. I'm proud of both. The rest
all gets recycled.

Well I'm at a friend's house in
St. Augustine Fla, It's nice here,
but I don't think I could live here.
The summers are very hot and
humid and there are the hurricanes.
They're about a mile from the beach
and perhaps 9 feet above sea level.

My friend told me they have to evacuate
at least once every hurricane season,
hang out in the gymnasium of a local
school and pray that there is something
to come back to after it's over. They
can't get homeowners insurance here.
The insurance companies just won't
write a policy, or if they do, the rates
would be prohibitively high.

That being said, it still is very pleasant
here. I've been sitting out on the
screened porch, watching the little
lizards running around, sunning them-
selves and making new lizards.

It's pretty nice here, if a little
pricey. I attended a panel on
fursuit head construction and
came away with a raft of ideas
to reconstruct Tabor's head
along more realistic lines.
Took a bunch of pictures of
heads at various points in
their construction and got to
see just how far I had wandered
off the track. When I get home
it looks like my head will be
totally torn down and re-done
once again. The only thing
I'll be salvaging will be the ears.
I'll also have to order more faux
fur since I don't have enough
to cover the new head, but
I found a source that has MUCH
better prices than where I shopped
before, so that's something.

Tomorrow early I leave for the
next leg of my journey, south
to see some friends in St.
Augustine Fla, then it's home
up I-95. I'll be back in NY
most likely this coming Friday.

Then I'll get mugged by my dog.

Avast ye scurvy landlubbing, ground
swoggeling, whoreson slut-mongers.
It's Oi, the Dread Pirate Tabor, come
to loot, pillage, plunder and rape. Oh
and could you validate my moorage
please?

Well in a couple of hours I'll be rumbling down the highway
in search of the lost city of Atlanta. So if you see a silver-grey
Passat wagon that looks sort of lost, most likely it's me.

Kinda pricey, but my old ebookwise ebookman
was starting to show it's age and I've really
gotten to like being able to carry about a device
that's paperback book sized that can hold a fair
percentage of the library or congress, yeah I do
a lot of reading. Now I need to find a program
that will translate doc, pdf, rtf and other files to
the Kindle's native AZW format. Any suggestions
would be most welcome. Amazon will do it for me
for a dime an item. I'd rather be able to do
it for free.

The fursuit won't be. I have finaly
recognized that I have no talant, or
more rather my nose has been rubbed
in it enough that I'm willing to tuck my tail
and submit to reality.

The head sucks and I don't have the
skill to make not suck, so when I get
back from FWA, I'll be looking for
someone to build what I can't.

Oh well it wasn't too expensive a lesson.
I only flushed $400 or so down the
toidy to discover that I can't make a
bunny fursuit. Too bad I didn't
see that sooner and write it off
before I'd already spent enough
to have had a really nice one built
by someone who knows what they're
doing.....Foo!

Yes, the fursuit head is back in the shop.
This is how it looked when I finished it
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1779587/
and the more I looked at it, the less I
liked it so today I tore it back down for a
rebuild with a narrower muzzle with more
slope to the nose and bagged the camera
eye system (which means I get to do new
eyes). I'd like to change the ears as well,
but that would require me to tear it down
even further and with less than 3 weeks
until FWA, I doubt I'd have it ready if I
did that, so we'll do what we can and see
how it goes.

Sex in the Morning or Sex at Night?
At night after a long hot shower together.

Naughty Pics or Naughty Home Video?
video, if I'm fooling around with someone, flipping
pictures/pages would be distracting.

Vibrator or Dildo?
I've got several dildos, one's even inflatable. Most of the vibrator's
I've tried don't vibrate enough.

Bedroom Sex: Lights Off or Lights On?
lights on low.

Word preference: Pussy or Cunt?
either word's fine, but girls arn't to my taste.

Spanking Over the Knee or Spanking Only During Sex?
Depends on how subby I feel.

More Exciting: Sex in an Elevator or Sex in an Airplane?
Well I've never tried it in a plane

Word preference: Cock or Dick?
Cock

Rope Bondage or Bondage Tape?
Rope. Taking the tape off afterward would hurt like hell.

Which threesome: Boy/Girl/Girl or Boy/Boy/Girl?
Boy/boy/girl... The girl can take pictures.

Sex While Strangers Watch or Sex with a Stranger?
I've done both, I think I'd rather know the person I'm sexing.

Newly Discovered fetish?
Sex with a person in a hot fursuit might be fun..

Master or slave?
Too subby to be a convincing master.

Slut or whore?
Neither. I just like sex.

Light Bondage or heavy?
light. Being trussed up like a Christmas goose
doesn't sound like much fun.

Whispering or screaming?
You know how to make your lover scream when you're having sex?
Call him up and tell him.

Ever lost your sanity?
Well the people at the mental hospital think so.

Most coveted perversion?
Playing 'bitch' for a hot canine.

Under the boot or wearing the boot?
Neither.

Hot Candle wax or warm?
warm

Relationship Status:
Long term, but it's gone completely Platonic.

Orientation:
gay

Body type:
For me or my partner? I'm kinda chunky.

Religion:
Catholic


Zodiac Sign?
Libra

Smoke / Drink:
No/ and I shouldn't. I'm an alcoholic.

Current Location:
Bayside NY.

Your Weakness:
Sexy males.

Your Best Physical Feature:
My mind such as it is. The rest of me is kind of shop-worn.

Your Bedtime:
earlyish.

In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:
yup

In the past week have you masturbated:
No.

Number of Piercings:
none

Number of Tattoos:
1 on left forearm, a fennec fox

Do you consider yourself perverted?
nope

At what age did you lose your virginity?
I was raped by an older boy when I was 13

Have you ever deflowered a virgin?
I don't think so.

If you give head, do you swallow?
sometimes

Do you like oral stimulation of the anus?
But of course.

Do you like penetration of the anus?
Oui!!!!!!!

Have you ever tried fisting?
No and I'm not likely to either.

How would you rate the intensity of your sexual desires? On a scale of
1 to 10:

6 or 7

Nymphomaniacal?
Yes, when I was a teener I could scarcely keep my paw out of my pants.

Do sexual preoccupations interfere with other activities?
A couple of times spotting a cute kid on the sidewalk has nearly caused me to become intimate with the back bumper of a bus.

Are you promiscuous?
no

Do you ever regret sleeping with someone?
no, though I've regretted not sleeping with a few people when there was a chance

Do you ever have phone sex?
No, the lube dries out and makes the buttons sticky.

Do you ever call a 900 number (or similar commercial service) for phone sex?
No.

Do you ever make obscene phone calls?
Obscene? No. I don't have a video phone.

Have you ever had a sexual experience that defies your "normal" orientation?
Once. Couldn't get it up.

Have you ever made yourself up to resemble the opposite gender?
Once for Halloween.

Have you ever had an erotic experience with a transvestite or transsexual?
Yes, was interesting but not my thing.

Do you find feet, toes, or shoes erotic?
No not really.

Do you find underwear, lingerie, or hosiery erotic?
No not really.

Do you find long hair, cut hair, or shaved hair erotic?
Hair is nice, but not necessary.

Have you ever peeped on someone?
No.

Have you ever used a recording device such as a video camera to peep on someone?
No

Have you ever been caught peeping on someone?
no

Have you ever "flashed" someone?
With a camera? Yes.

Are you a sadist or masochist
Not masochistic am submissive. There IS a difference..

Have you ever slapped, spanked, or whipped someone during a sexual act?
No.

Have you ever been slapped, spanked, or whipped during a sexual act?
yes

Have you ever cut, scratched, pierced, or stabbed someone during a sexual act?
scratched. Then I trimmed my nails.

Have you ever been cut, scratched, pierced, or stabbed during a sexual act?
Been scratched.

Do you like bondage?
It can be fun.

Like to be tied up?
Not a big interest unless it's with a big dog.

Like to tie up partner?
No.

Have you ever participated in a threesome?
Yes.

If so, what gender were your partners?
guys

What is the maximum number of partners you've had during a sex act?
4

What is the most people you have slept with in a single day?
6

Does the idea of sharing a partner (such as inviting a neighbor to have sex with your spouse) excite you?
Not really.

Have you ever had sex with a relative?
nope

As a minor, did you ever have sex with an adult?
no.

As an adult, have you ever had sex with a minor?
yes

Have you ever had sex with a person of retirement age?
Hell, I'm retirement age.

Have you ever had sex with an animal?
You and me baby ain't nothing but mammals so lets do it like they
do on the Discovery channel

Having been bitten several times by having
internal hard drives suddenly eat it and discovering
I've lost a large chunk of my files that didn't
happen to have been backed up on CD roms,
two years ago I used my incom tax return to
buy a Western Digital 2 tb "My Book" external
drive. It's currently running in raid 1 mode
(1 tb with mirroring) which turned out to be a
good thing. Drive B just decided to eat itself.
If I had been in raid 0, I would have had
twice the space, but whatever had been
sent to drive b would be currently plucking
a harp in data heaven.

The unit is out of warranty, but I lucked out
at my local staples and found a 1 tb sata
drive on sale which has taken up the place
occupied by the old b drive and the unit
is now busily rebuilding itself. 26 hours
from now things should be happy again.

Ever met someone to whom the glass is
always 'half empty'? You know, the sort
of fellow that always has to find some
fault with everything. Now can you imagine
having to live with them? I do, because
mister "gloomy Gus" is my mate.

Example, we're on our way to the park
with our pup and Tom spots a black man
pushing a shopping cart with stuff in it
down the sidewalk and starts ranting
about 'f*cking homeless people coming
into the neighborhood, etc, etc. I glance
at the person...."Tom, that's the guy who
delivers the weekly shopping circulars,
you see him every week." "Oh..."

Tom gave me a look that said clearly
he was upset that I had pricked his
little bubble and destroyed his opportunity
to say something bad about a total stranger.

If this only happened once and a while,
it wouldn't bother me so, but this sort
of thing is a more or less daily occurrence.
Something goes wrong with something
around the house and will he accept my offer
to fix it? No, he'd rather buy a new one or
hire someone to do it because it would force
him to acknowlage that I didn't leave
most of my brains at the bin last year.

I suppose he needs to put people down so
he can feel superior or somrhing like that.

Basicly he's a nice guy and I do love him,
but this ugly facet of his personality really
gets to me sometimes and makes me either
want to have several stiff drinks or go to the
local pistol range and shoot the hell out
of something............

Well, my shrink decided that Effexor XR just
wasn't doing it, so now I'm taking Cymbalta.
Don't know quite what I think of it yet, I've
gone around sort of in LaLa land all day as
if I'd smoked several joints, but without the
munchies. Well I guess that's better than
black depression, just don't ask me to do
something that requires one to have their
wits about them, because my head feels like
it's filled with goo...

No not to have weird and perverted
Warner Bros. type toon sex but to
have a good surface to beat on
hot metal with. I've also been
looking at forges and am debating
whether coal or gas fired would
better suit my needs. Coal for
the sense of tradition and for
ease of beating carbon into hot
steel, but LP gas offers quicker
heating and fuel is easier to
obtain. What's a wannabe smithy
to do.....

Well, tomorrow we will bear witness to a event
of truly historic import. The inauguration of
a black man to the highest office of the land.
President of these united states.

One hundred and forty five years from the
year that president Lincoln issued the emancipation
proclamation, finally some of the promise
that America has made to the world that
no matter who you are or what your parentage,
if you are willing to work for it, there is nothing
that you can’t achieve. Even the unlikely goal
of becoming president.

It has only been forty years since Stonewall, so
I guess that means it will be another one hundred
and five years before we see an openly gay
president and god knows how long until we see
a president of the furred persuasion.

I for one would love to see "The First Alpha"
marking his territory in the oval office and the
"first bitch" regurgitating food for her pups in
the Lincoln bedroom. Perhaps then our civilization
would change it's self-destructive course and
start taking the needs of other species and
that of our fragile world into consideration.

I guess though, I’ll have to be satisfied with the
inauguration of Barak Hussein Obama. Baby
steps before we can walk, or run.

Unless there is reincarnation, I guess I won’t
be alive to see any these other wonders so
I guess the fact of Mr. Obama’s presidency
will have to be wonder enough.

I've got this sneaking feeling.. I've done
myself damage today...

This morning, 9 degrees when puppy and I
hit the park. He sees a squirrel and bolts,
hits the end of the leash like a tone of bricks
(or a very strong husky) and my paws
shoot out from under me and I crack
the back of my head on the pavement
hard enough to see stars. I lay there
for a good two or three minutes, unable
to move. I've felt sickish and head achy
all day. Bet you a couple of donuts that
I've got a concussion.

Oh well, lots of people have told me
I've got a broken brain, ever since I was
carted off to the bin two years ago.
If I still feel this crappy tomorrow,
I'll probably go in for a check up...

When I was in school as a youth, perhaps
the subject I hated the most was history.
I felt that there was nothing so useless
as the names of wars and the endless dates
one had to memorize to pass the tests.
Perhaps it was merely the way history was
taught back then, because I find it fascinating
today, particularly that of the Roman Empire.

There are so many parallels that can be
drawn between their civilization and ours.
Particularly their collapse and fall and the
one that awaits for us which even now
slouches it's way to Bethlehem waiting to
be born.

Civilizations rarely fail from stresses from
the outside, they succumb to internal rot.
There are many factors that played a role
in the collapse, some great, some small;
but three that stand out the most are the
facts that at the end they were over extended
militarily on several fronts, public morality was
declining and fiscal irresponsibility at all levels
was rife. Sound familiar?

Perhaps we should all get fitted out for one
last great toga party because I sense the
end a comin' round the bend..

I just woke up from this dream with this final
image in my head. A bunch of lupine soldiers
sitting around on bivouac out in the brush, about
to tie into their MRE's ((Moose Ready to Eat) it
says so right on the packages). One wolf (with
a goggle eyed expression) has just opened his
and a sexy, barely clad moose babe (complete
with dance-pole) has just popped out. All the
other soldiers have disgusted looks on their
faces and one's muttering, "Dammit! that's the
third time this week he's gotten one from the
Vegas packing plant."

I've got to have a long talk with my psychiatrist
when I see her this weekend. Them bad feelings
are coming back big time. Amongst my pharmacopoeia
of ailments is clinical depression. Up until recently,
we were able to medicate my psyche from a state
of utter black despair and suicidal thoughts to
moderate sadness, but lately I find myself
drifting into that black spiral again which can
only end in a couple of places, neither of them
good. Either I start self-medicating with potentially
lethal amounts of scotch whenever I feel that
I'm becoming a danger to myself or I wind up
doing something drastic and irrevocable. Man
I wish she could find something that would keep
me on an even keel, for more than a few months.
Right now I'm feeling pretty bleak.

Insomnia, here I come. Every few nights or
so, I just can't get to sleep. Those were the
nights when I would usually down a half a
bottle of scotch and pass out, but that led
to serious depression and a suicide attempt
which put me into a mental hospital November
of 2007. I've got some sedatives which may
or may not do the job, but it beats punishing
my liver or laying awake all night watching
the clock slowly go around. Good night all
I hope.....

10 degrees this morning with a 45 mph
wind, just the sort of morning weather
to really make you think twice about
taking our pup out for his morning walk,
but considering the alternative of a
mess on the floor, out into the cold we
went. He sniffed and left his pee-mail here
and there, but no zoomers. Oh well.

For the fifth or sixth year in a row, my
mate is elsewhere on New Years Day.
This year he decided to go to Atlantic
City, while I stayed home with the dog.
Granted, Blue is excellent companionship
and I do like those early morning doggy
kisses, but just once I wish Tom would
spend a New Years Eve with me. Granted
he'd probably wind up watching the ball
drop on the telly while I snored, so I guess
I'm just too boring for New Years.

Proposition eight. Old news by now, but
I’m writing this to clarify my feelings.
it’s probably a good thing that I no longer
live in California, because if I did, I’d
most likely become a bomb throwing
anarchist or some other sort of radical.

You’ve really got to love organized religion.
The Catholics tell me I’m going to burn
in Hell. The evangelicals consider me
an abomination in the eyes of God and
the Mormons regret that it’s no longer
all right to kill us outright (it’s in their
book).

I think I’ll stay safely pagan. The Mother’s
laws may be harsh, but at least She doesn’t
mind that I’d rather be fucked by boys
than do my heterosexual bit to add more
babies to an already overburdened eco-system.

Alone again for New Years. Tom's
decided to go to Atlantic City for
New Years Eve. Every New Years
it's the same thing. He finds
something else to do, rather than
spend it with me. I know we've
been together for over four
decades now, and perhaps I've
become a bit boring and predictable
(I'll probably fall asleep before the
ball drops), but I'd rather surrender
to an early slumber with someone
I love, rather than be alone listening
to the dog snore and make funny
noises while he dreams.

I must be blind, dumb, old or stupid
(perhaps all 4) but I have no idea what
this FA ranking thing is or how it works
or if I even want to know. Color me
confused.

Be afraid Atlanta, home of the Coca Cola
museum and other fun things. This bunny's
decided to go to Furry Weekend Atlanta,
where the high-tech bunny pirate suit gets
it's shakedown cruise. Hopefully my
electrics won't fail and the ventilation fan
will keep me from collapsing from heat-stroke.
Damn the carrots, full speed ahead!!!!!!