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Posted 4 months agoI figured I'd make a journal to announce im back and working on drawing again!!
To keep it brief and simple, I disappeared because my mom died suddenly in early December and its been rough. BUT im getting back into drawing finally and it feels so good!!
Im going to start posting here again and you can also find me and my work on both Twitter and Bluesky! My bluesky is empty right now but I wanted to point yall in that direction because I know a lot of other furs went there from Twitter and im so behind lol. I'd super appreciate some support and followers over there to help me kick things off and find people again!
My bluesky is
badyeen.bsky.social
:3 excited to see yall there and im glad to be back!
To keep it brief and simple, I disappeared because my mom died suddenly in early December and its been rough. BUT im getting back into drawing finally and it feels so good!!
Im going to start posting here again and you can also find me and my work on both Twitter and Bluesky! My bluesky is empty right now but I wanted to point yall in that direction because I know a lot of other furs went there from Twitter and im so behind lol. I'd super appreciate some support and followers over there to help me kick things off and find people again!
My bluesky is
badyeen.bsky.social
:3 excited to see yall there and im glad to be back!
In Memory of Stormy 2008-2022
Posted 3 years agoOn the 18th my boyfriend and I had to make the hard decision to have my 19 year old cat put to rest.
It was all very sudden and I'm honestly completely devastated. She was my emotional support animal and a huge part of my life for over half the years I've been alive. She was my world and more and I don't know what to do with myself. I feel so lost and the house feels so empty... The whole thing feels like a cruel joke or a nightmare I can't wake up from.The loss of a pet
Posted 3 years agoJust figured I'd put this out there and explain more of my absence.
On the 23rd my boyfriend and I had to have out dog put down at the ripe old age of 16. His deterioration was very fast and in a matter of 3 days our dog Guinness was the furthest thing from himself, and we were forced to make the hard decision to let him go. It's been very very hard on top of everything else that I mentioned in my last journal.
We both keep expecting to see him and take care of him. It's left a huge empty hole in our lives and hearts. We miss him terribly everyday and just really wish we could catch a break...Life/art updates and grief
Posted 3 years agoI dont make journals but june was a horrible month for me. It's really hard to create art now and I'm really sorry to those waiting on art from me.
To try and sum it up as fast and as easy as possible. Early June i was in a near fatal car accident with my two best friends and my boyfriend. We were all pretty much fine with no serious injuries but the car was completely totaled after we popped a rear tire going down a steep mountain and slammed into a semi. It's been difficult drawing because my left shoulder was injured in the accident and I haven't been able to get it looked at yet. My shoulder aches and causes my arm to go numb from my shoulder to my fingers and causes me to have a very weak grip. It's not my dominant hand but regardless it's effected my ability to work since sitting at and leaning over my ipad/desk causes it to act up and hurt enough that it's distracting me and damaging my work flow. The trauma of the experience has effected me heavily as well.
Monday I also received a call from my brother (whom i haven't had contact with in years) and he told me that our grandma passed away. It's hitting me really hard and I'm mentally exhausted and the emotional pain has been debilitating. I lost my grandpa to covid in 2019 and this is digging up those feelings of grief as well. Regrets are a poisons tonic and I honestly don't know what to do with myself. I have no idea if she was hospitalize and no one told me, or if she passed peacefully. I don't know if there will be a funeral since no one told me what ended up happening with my grandpa in regards to that as well. I have a wonderful support system but regardless the lack of relationship i have with any of my family has left me feeling isolated in my own emotions. It's like being trapped in a room with a tiny window i can only look through and watch the people around me. I feel so very alone..
I'll keep rambling forever if i don't cut this short, but thank you to anyone who reads this and thank you for your patience with me.
I'm just not okay.