im getting married i know i dont come on here much but though i would let you know november 20th

and dead inside and my wrist are stainded

anyone that makes fursuits and stuff like that i need your info and prices for a fullsuit

well im just a bit lonley tonight and the only thing on my mind is  MordecaiRigby and it sucks we live in two diff states man i cant wait to see him....on another note its lonley after fur con has come and gone and now there really isnt anyone to hang out with meh.

so happy that i got to see all of my friends specially blue fox <3 man thanks people for one of the best cons this year

for me and the bf

oh yea starting my traviling gypsy quest

my boyfriend is coming from chicago just to be with me here in cali i cant wait for him to get here only three days till he gets here

break down number 5 today yea its getting worse

well its sad to say that stalking cat a really good friend of me and squee and jamestwolf has committed suicide on the novemeber 5th i guess its true remember remember the fifth of novemeber now i have to and its two days before my bday this happend....i miss you man i hope your ok where ever you are

and just wanting a great girlfriend to spend it with this fucking sucks

and i turn 21 and im going to vegas for three days so if u live in az hit me up i want to see you all

i cant wait today is the day i get my communist cutie mark tattoos wooohoo they are going to be on the sides of my hips im so happy and its all free

i cant beleive how much of a hypocrite you are to me its not fucking funny how much pain you have put me through enough abuse 4 years of age to 20 to be exact and im fucking done with it your not even my real parents

i feel so close to loosing it and i need to vent but the problem is i dont know how to talk to someone about what and why im feeling this way i have been feeling really iffy about me and my boyfriends relationship on top of it i just want to leave cali and never return i want to leave so bad but everytime i grab my escape plan it poofs away....i feel sorta trapped and lost and i feel like im just going to die here and idk what to do what really bothers me about my boy is the fact he never tells me what he is going to do at least let me know ur safe you know like he im going out for awhile text u when im home jus to find out u have been there for hours at your house u just forgot to call me because u were stressed idk man it bothers me

im so fucking sick of this shit i cant sleep havent been able to get a full nights rest in three to four days and im so cranky i snapped at my dad broke down crying and now i cant go back to sleep i hate this bullshit. i was on trazadone the only thing that help keep me asleep see my problem isnt falling asleep its staying asleep i wake up on the hour every hour and if im not on my meds anything can wake me up so when my dad went in to my room today i flipped fucking shit because he woke me up

i need to get a cute couples icon done for me and my mate can anyone help with that please?

thats what i have really bad on the left side of my throat right now and the swelling has gotten so bad that there is pressure inside my jaw bone going into my face. Its a little bit better now the swelling has gone down since they put me on antibiotics and a steroid and pain meds (norcos woo hoo) but besides the fact is im slowly trying to get better right now

i thought that i could handle seeing stuff of yours still around here on FA and stuff but man every freaking time i see something or read something or anything i cant stop breaking down idk what its wrong or if i havent gotten fully not over it but past the hard feeling of your death yet but these stream of tears wont stop and i just wish i could give you a hug one last time man and tell you how much you had helped me out and told you how much it meant to me when you told me congrats on when i got engaged or how happy u made me every time i saw you at a con because i knew i was going to get a big fucking hug from you man. i havent even been able to talk to anyone really about you since everytime i do i break down so bad i go into massive anxiety attacks. idk what i should do right now but i just want to say thank you for everything you have ever done for me vex i know you cant see this but maybe you can idk but really thank you and i miss u so bad and i know every one else dose too....

to see my boyfriend today its going to be a fun day but at the same time can i have you guys pray or do whatever it is yall do for my boyfriends dad is going into open heart surgery today

ok guys there is one lie in here find it...


1) i had my right boob signed by tommy lee and rob dyrdek

2) i have six tattoos

3) my hair color is blonde not red

4) i have a horrible singing voice

5) i do poi/ fire poi

6) i have 4 cats

7) im an anime geek

8) im 20 years old

9)i sleep with a stuff animal still

a las vegas fur as of tomorow i will be on a grey hound going to vegas so if any of u furry good ol pals of mine live out there and want to see me please for the love of fuck hang with me since i have no friends i know out there so far....

i sometimes feel like i am just a bother to people or that im just not wanted and idk why i feel this way and i mean i have been feeling this way for a while but pretty bad since i got home from the boyfriends pad yesterday i felt ignored in a sense after i got home and that i was just bugging him maybe its true that im just a big loser and that i d bother everyone ho hum

yea im really happy so while i was at anime expo walking around i met my idol nate wooldridge and took a pic with him well turns out he kinda liked me too that night so he asked me if i wanted ti hang out with him...HELL YEA I DO and we run around will all the xgame people together and he actually asked me if i wanted to be his girlfriend AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH and yep now im his

i finally figured out what i am today and why i have been confused i had thought that i might have been a trans for a while but knew it wasnt right for me today i was looking through stuff and found someone talking about gender fluid and i read up on it and yep its def me and i love <3


for those that dont know what it is

Gender Fluid is a gender identity best described as a dynamic mix of boy and girl. A person who is Gender Fluid may always feel like a mix of the two traditional genders, but may feel more boy some days, and more girl other days.
Being Gender Fluid has nothing to do with which set of genitalia one has, nor their sexual orientation.
No, I'm not a boy, and I'm not a girl either. I am gender fluid.