I feel like only see me as a tool, that they can squeeze as much art as possible for cheap, a source of free porn, or their sextoy, to rp and entertain their ideas and when they are done, I can be ignored until they are horny again or they are just bored.

Maybe it's because I don't speak very much online, by making posts on social media, journals talking about personal stuff, talking about current events or anything. Could may be because I don't make enough art about current real world events, only making the ocasional kind of formal anouncements of comms open/closed or changes regarding patreon or commissions, or that I don't make enough "vent art", so people coming here may see me as just their empty piece of entertainment. Could also be that I don't have enough art of my characters doing other things than vore or some other kinks, so people think that they are just pretty faces that they can use like a sextoy, including myself.

The main reasons of why I don't really make some "vent art", is that often I rather just stop for a moment, at least try talking with a friend in private and draw something that makes me happy, so I just keep bottling up, a feeling of hesitation, afraid of bringing people trying to take advantage of a moment that I'm vulnerable, seeing as an opportunity to get to rp or groom me until they get a free drawing.

About my characters being viewd as just pretty faces with no personality, I couldn't really develope them further due the amount of stuff in the way, commissions, a patreon project that thankfully is coming to an end, didn't enough time that I could just sit down and focus on trying to put something out that would develope them further, wanting to use the small window I had to have fun or practice, fortunatelly things are about to change and soon I'll start to put out more stuff to develope my world and characters further. Not only that, I could spare some time to make some drawings that talks a bit more about myself, the "vent arts" for lack of a better name.

To put it short, I haven't been feeling very well, like everyone see me as a tool to either squeeze art out of me or just their sexual entertainment, and I'll be trying to change that.

I wanted to talk about more stuff that have been bothering be, but the journal would get too long and more rambly than it already is, so I'll leave them for a future journal, or most likely, drawings.

Anyway... Hope you guys are having a nice weekend.

Cheers.

I think I'll be taking comics out of commission, that's something I much prefer doing on my own. I like to release my commissions as fast as possible so they don't overstay their welcome, with comics very often that's not the case because depending of the lengh of it I have to keep coming back to work on them multiple times, it feels like it does not end and I just want to move on. Right now the only comic I want to work on is the KaneCon one, maybe after it I'll take comics as comms again using the same approach, 1 month a sketch the pages, other I line them and in the other I color, I hope this strategy works, but it will require some changes in my commission rules.

First thank you all those who bought commissions~

Now I'm gonna take a little break from it, take some time and make some drawings for me and also focus on making content on my Patreon (which I've been a bit slow with it, for those subbed there I apologise).

A little something I wanted to share, I think next time I open commissions my drawings will look different. Now I have a more clear path on what I want my drawings to look like and how to get there, I feel like I'm getting close, I just need to experiment with different brushes and pens.

Anyway, gonna take a break from comms, take my time to relax and experiment and I'll be working on stuff for Patreon, which btw, I'm going back into making 2D animations, so soon enough you guys are gonna be seeing some WIPs of the animation that folks on Patreon are currently helping me to put it together~

:3

If you are interested send me a note

The prices and ToS are linked on my profile~

:3

I'll be releasing on both of them, 4 pages of a comic I'm working on that will have I think over 20 pages. I'll be releasing it to the public once it's done~

There you will get early access for my comics, vote for sprite animations for me to make and get 10% discount when buying commissions.

So far I don't really have a schedule for the live streams, but they will most likely happen late at night, I'll be working on it's cover.

Patreon --> https://www.patreon.com/tairedfox
SubscribeStar --> https://subscribestar.adult/tairedfox (Still under review, just saying)

For a while I've been wanting to make a long comics, longer than the average that I usually do, the longest ones don't even get to 10 pages, wanting to make comics that goes to 20 or even chapters, with the theme not just vore for the sake of it, but something more.

Wanting to draw battles and power displays, like a "Shonen manga", and I already have some ideas in mind involving characters of mine, but I'm going to start after one that I'm currently working on with my friend  Jushy (which btw, give the boy some support, he makes good art~), I've made so far 5 pages, but there is going to be much more to come. Right now it's on hold, I'm going to finish with a costumer before going back to work on it and I'll begin to release first the pages on SubscribeStar and Patreon, and when it's finished I'll release to the public, here and on my other pages.

Speaking about them, now I have a more clear goal of what to do with them, I'll talk about it in a future journal, but from what I've said so far I think u guys got the picture, and not only that, I'll be also be making pixel art/sprite animation, I've been wanting to get into it for a long time, but things get in the way, I don't have much time to work on them right now, the little time I have I'm working on commission and making some drawings to self-indulge. About pixel art, I think I'm going after people that also make them to trade so I can practice and ask for help when doing it to learn how to make them.

There was more than I wanted to say, but it's better leave it for another journal so I don't get out of the main topic... Anyway, wash your hands, take care and be safe everyone~ :3

(My birthday was yesterday actually)

Thank you everyone who have been watching me through all these years, and for those who came here recently, I hope you enjoy it~

Anyway, be safe everyone, take care

Thank you for the people who bought, once I'm done with the commissions in the queue, I'm gonna practice some more pixel art, that's something that I want to get nailed this year because I want to start working on making games and mods. I'll be opening a SubscribeStar later on now that I have a more clear idea of what to do with it, all I need to do now is practice, I'm even considering going after someone or just ask for help when the time comes.

I hope you guys are doing good despite this pandemic going on around the world. Stay at home, wash your hands and stay positive... Sorry I don't have much to say on that regard >wo"

Anyway, be safe~

For my new years resolution regarding art, I want to:

- Change a bit and Improve my style, specially in the way I color my art;
- Improve anathomy (so I can better mess with it);
- Get better at Digital Painting;
- Learn Pixel Art and Sprite Animation;

Nothing too out of the ordinary, I've started doing these things even before this new year to begin, but this year at least I hope to have them nailed, specially pixel art and sprite animation, because I would like to start making some mods for some games, like Starbound, and even try to make my own little game on GameMaker.

Anyway, Happy New Year Folks~

:3

Sorry, no christmas art this year cuz I have nothing in mind on that regard <:3

Anyway, wish you all a merry christmas and happy new year~

I don't think I know what to use it for, and now I'm tired of trying to make that thing work, I've been trying since before I went to Ireland and have no idea of what to do with it, since I've made it I've been throwing things against the wall to see what sticks and nothing. I've only been stressed out trying to do things with it and make it work, but everything I try seems to just make things worse.

If I'll set up something like it again in the future, probably, friends of mine have said that things like these works best if I have original content to post, such as webcomics, youtube videos, game dev and stuff like that, at the moment, despite wanting to do those things, specially make videos and games, I have no skill to make them and will take a while until I finally can do something decent with them. I could do some comics, but I don't think doing right now is a good idea since there is some things that I'm still learning, like environments, specially open ones, comic structure and even a style on which to make them.

I've been thinking about getting into 3D Modeling, Pixel Art, 2D Animation (or even 3D), but one thing at the time, I'm still trying to improve my characters anathomy, when I get to a point where I'm comfortable with, I'll try expanding to other areas.

Anyway, I'll still be doing livestreams on Picarto, but a bit more irregularly and on random stuff, it could be a commission, could be my own stuff as well. I'll be looking for an irl job so I don't have to rely on commissions very much, it's money could be used for other things, like buying a new drawing tablet, a new PC, or buying commissions from other artists when my hands are full~

I've not been in a very good mood in the past few days, as much as I love drawing vore and other belly related stuff, I'm really not enjoying working on commissions and requests. All I want right now is to just do my own thing, I want to make more paintings and improve on it, experiment with different art styles, make different types of characters with different body shapes, different types of vore, some non-vore stuff like stuffing, inflation and pregnancy and not even belly related.

There is so many things I want to draw and I'm not enjoying drawing commissions recently because I'm feeling like they are holding me back and they are feeling very repetitive, like I'm making the same type of vore, always in the same art style, the same context and outcome.

Another thing that have been bothering me was that I didn't really had the time to make anything to tidy up my pages, such as Icons, Banner and now with Picarto, Overlays, etc., I still haven't made a price sheet, and when I have the time, I have no ideas of what to make for anything. This might be a small detail for a lot of people I think, but I really want my pages to look attractive, cause a good first impression, instead of something hastely put together.

Anyway, sorry for the rant, I'm gonna take another break from commissions, make my own things, spice things up and tidying up the place, I'll still be doing live streams on Tuesday and Thursday nights at 8:00PM EST, but I won't be working on requests for some time.

Hope you guys had a nice Vore Day.

I'll be opening again next month, in the meantime I'll be making drawings that people on my Patreon have voted on how to make it and make drawings on my own.

# I didn't forgot about the Asriel CV animation, gonna work on it while commissions are closed >w<"

I've decided to update the ToS regarding commissions and prices, and the changes are:

- I'm not accepting commissions that involves my characters in them.

- I'm not accepting commissions that involve canon characters from shows or games, but Fan Characters/OCs I'm okay with.

I'm not taking them anymore for commissions for pretty similar reasons, both of them are for pretty personal reasons.

About my characters, This is something quite intimate to me, I usually feature my characters in drawings with someone else when the same person is also a friend of mine, usually do this for Trades and Gifts, but I'm not doing this for Commissions because it feels weird, being put together with some random person, doing things that most of the time are out of character and out of place. This is kind of the equivalent of being paid to say "I love you" or "you are my best friend" to some rando, for me this it's pretty awkward, so I'm having none of it.

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About Fan Art Commissions, as much as I like to work on them by myself, I most of the time don't like to work on them when people request them for commission. It feels out of touch or worse a waste of an idea, because sometimes I wanted to make something involving for example, canon characters of MLP, and a costumer appears and commissions me to make canon characters of MLP, but what he wanted is completely different of what I wanted to make, I accept because I need the money, but I don't like what I did and just wasted the energy that I had to work on what I want to something that in my head is just worse of what I wanted to accomplish... So I decided that I'm not taking Fan Arts with canon characters as commissions anymore... BUT I'm happy to work on your Fan Character/OC of that show or game you wanted~

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The prices had a bit of an increase in price and I changed the products a bit the way I charge for background and extra characters when there is more than 3 characters on screen. I'm considering giving some monthly discounts for an specific theme, for example this month I'm considering giving some discounts on commissions that have to do with Pregnancy and Unbirth.

I think that's all I have to say, if you are interested, please send me a Note :3

I don't know for how long, maybe 2 or 3 weeks... I just need to rest, have fun drawing again, something I wasn't having for quite a while now and I feel I've reached my breaking point, feeling very sad, exausted and pretty frustrated that for a quite long time I couldn't make anything that I really wanted and have fun with it, couldn't just practice something new and improve my art...

Gonna try now put myself back together, have fun, come back with something new, maybe better than what I can currently make. I'll also be tidying up my Patreon, organizing and deleting some posts so it's easier for the backers to keep track of my content there.

Anyway, take care of yourselves, now it's my time to do it.

I'm 24 now... If I went to the US, I know I could drink after 21, what can I do now that I'm 24? owo

Also, still working on that Toriel animation, resumed working on it once I got here in Brazil, and I think I'll be done with it this weekend, if not, next week definitelly will be done~

:3

I don't to go back any time soon and stay as long as I did, exactly 7 months from October 1st to April 1st... It was a pretty expensive, but quite bad experience.

Not sure of what to write, part of me just want to move on like this didn't happened... But I'm going to try to summerize

Weather was terrible, cold and windy, the food (from the host families I've stayed) were pretty tasteless, constantly throwing salt on it, really not wanting to eat any soft or mashed potatoes any time soon.

The job I've stayed there for 1 month, from the end of November to the beginning of January screwed me by telling me to wait until the end of the month for them to call me, just to be told that there is no more job for me there and I should look somwhere else, and at that point I was very short on money, spent the February and March asking money for my parents in Brazil to pay for my stay in the host family that I was...

The school classes were very boring in the first 3 months, but damn the last 3 months of class of my next level were horrible, mostly because of the teacher's fault for being so unsufferably sarcastic and sassy, specially towards man by making fun at their expense. The students... Were a bit difficult and awkward to engage with, I didn't often hang around with them mainly because they rather stick around with folks with similar nationality, was the only brazilian in a table filled with taiwanese folks speaking in mandarin. Other brazilians were not very nice to hang around with them, mostly because they didn't seems to want to hang around with other brazilians and a couple that seems to want to have a conversation, it's just to talk about how much he hates Brazil, how much it sucks compared to any other country, everyone is better than us and stuff, we call this in Brazil "stray dog syndrom", and I someone that quite like the country where I'm from, didn't sat very well.

Anyway... just glad that I got out of that bureacratic nightmare of a continent that every day things seems to just been getting worse and worse

Oh, one thing also that I'm very glad of coming back, is that there is no more shitty adds from Wish shop on my celphone everytime I get on YouTube!

I'll write about my experience in Ireland soon enough, just wanted to say that I'll resume working on the commissions this week and next one the patreon animations~

I'll be just liking and sharing other people drawings there... of the few that I follow and are still using it.

I don't like uploading my stuff there very much because of how complicated and messy it is to use, I have no idea of how can I separate the things I upload from the things that I share, so everything I make and upload ends up burried under the things I share of other artist and makes quite hard to keep track of what I've posted there because even in the option of editing your posts everything is mixed up... To put it short, Tumblr is just messy and hard to customize, for me at least =w="

Since that Toriel animation is taking longer than what I expected, I'm making a poll of what should I draw in the meantime, just so I have a bit of engagement with people there, I'll be making maybe a couple sketches or 2 digital paintings like I did with TweetFur recently. There is 2 options to vote: Pokemons or Digimons. Whoever wins, probably on Monday because of the 1 day delay for me to make this journal I'll tell who is the winner, and in the next post I would like to know which pokemon is your favorite.

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