I've had anxiety for about 3 days straight now. COVID-19 is scaring the shit out of me and causing me to go a little crazy, emotion-wise.

I'm trying to stay calm but it's incredibly hard.

So, like a majority of the people in the world, COVID-19 has had an effect on me. I, myself, am not sick, thankfully. But I will be struggling with finances due to the amount of cancellations for dogs at work.

With one of my roommates looking for a job, and the other on the verge of being temporarily laid off, I am the only one earning money for the apartment.

I'm scared.

So I'm gonna try streaming more to try and help keep our heads above water. I know my sister will probably be accepting commissions herself whenever her inevitable laying off happens.

I also have to take my ESA to the vet tomorrow on account of bloody stool. I'm betting it's just worms/parasites, but I'm very worried all the same. I'm lucky I pay for pet insurance, but still...

If you want to help with the situation, I will accept donations via PayPal (romulus_tyri@hotmail.com) and if you want a commission, be sure to try and catch my streams.

I loooove it when someone goes waaay far back in my gallery and then yells at me for being an inconsiderate jerk to rape survivors and whatnot and then block me before I really get a chance to say anything.

SO. I'll post my reply here and if they decide to poke their nose in here to see if I did anything, maybe they'll see it.

@mystery-sketch
Aight, while you're busy yelling at me on pictures I've drawn a year ago/close to a year ago. Please consider:

I am also transmasculine
I am also a survivor of multiple sexual assaults (I was raped at 14 and that fucked with me pretty hardcore)
I drew these as a way to cope with the bullshit that I was going through
I have taken a good break from drawing in general as I go through therapy and self care to get my life in order and overcome my own traumas and discover new, healthier coping mechanisms.
A lot of pictures I doodle have bruises/bites because I personally think they're hot?? I love marks but I can see how they upset someone.

May I direct you to the like all the recent pictures I've posted after,,, what- several months of not posting anything? I haven't gone through and deleted things from my gallery quite yet because I'm still just taking care of myself and now I'm in an extremely loving relationship with a sweet transboy and I'm learning more about healthy and equal relationships before the first couple I had was just me being used as a sex toy/maid/money provider.

So yeah, the pics are garbage. I will readily admit that and I will delete 'em. Past Wally wasn't in a good place mentally when he drew them and he didn't know how to process everything and he shouldn't have posted them while looking for pity/comfort because he wasn't getting it at that point of time.
I escaped the shitty place and my abuser, sought out help, got medicated, and I just haven't wandered back to delete the offensive pictures I drew while I was experiencing all that bullshit.

I'm sorry.

HeY I'M SORRY I HAVEN'T beEN arTINg aS mUCh as I SHOULD BE

I've been having a lot of wrist pain in my left wrist,,, and I'm left-handed. And my job requires me to use my hands a lot. And I talk with my family with my hands. And I'm a boy who's on the computer as often as I can be.

My sis has been giving me arm massages, i've been icing, and I bought a brand new brace that was recommended to sleep in by a few people so we'll see how that'll work.

AND LIKE CC HAS BEEN A WHOLE OTHER SHITTY MESS I'M TRYING TO DEAL WITH
so on top of trying to make that program work, I'm learning how to use SAI,,,

gomen ily all kisses~

Wolf

SORRY Y’ALL INTERNET WENT KAPUT DURING THE STREAM

THATS IT FOR THE NIGHT

there's been a lot going on

i'll try to stream tomorrow!

Absolutely meant to stream this weekend but i totally forgot it was easter. I'll try and stream tomorrow since it's an early day at work! Gomen for the wait and thank you for bein' patient while I get caught up on stuff,,,,,,

I know I meant to stream yesterday but I was just so tired, I went to bed at like 10,,, and today was a late day at work.
SO!!!

Y'all, I'm gonna stream tomorrow and finish up those commissions that a couple people got a couple streams ago! @_@;;;
I'm so so so sorry........

I'm so sorry for the lack of activity.

I'm still adjusting to having a full time job (very tired all the time,,,,), getting stuff situated in my new apartment with my sister, and I was finally stable enough to adopt a new cat!
I'm the proud papa of a sweet 2 year old manx baby girl and I love her so much. Her name is Cricket.

I don't think I'll stream tonight, just because it's been such a busy day
But I Will Stream Tomorrow, so be ready! >:3 !! I miss you guys!!

My roomies are leaving before my birthday so they're havin' a lil party for me

we're also celebrating My New Job~ AND someone's last day at his shitty job. AND!!!! Our shitty roommate moved out.
Just a lot of good things going on right now~!

It works out because I was gonna say goodnight anyway since I have a JOB INTERVIEW tomorrow! Haha! So goodnight everyone who was still in my stream!

Blissman2020– I’ll post your art tomorrow!

I turn 26 on the 15th this month~~
I do not feel like I'm gonna be 26 years old. I have been an actual, full fledged adult for 5 years and that??? Is baffling??? Just wait until I level up one more time in like 30 years. Then I will be the most adult I can be 'cause then I can order off of the senior menu. LMAO

anyways- other things. TL;DR at the bottom.

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To those who are new/have been keeping track of me since I announced my Abusive Situation and when I finally Got out thanks to the aid of a few friends, I have been living with my sister and a couple of her roommates, one whom I've known since I was little and a new dude who moved her from Florida so he could be closer to his girlfriend who doesn't live with us but visits very frequently.

There was a falling out between everybody and one of the roommates and she is officially moving out. She has a placed, signed a lease, and that means I'm gonna be able to get my own room here in this apartment. My goal is to get a job first, and I got a job interview this Monday so I'm very excited for that and I hope it goes well. I've missed grooming immensely (grooming Furfrous in pokemon ain't cutting it LOL!!) and I'm excited to hopefully go back to work soon.

With her moving out, she is taking her cat with her and while I have grown very fond of that little guy, this opens up a door for me to get my own kitten so that I'm extremely excited about. If you talked with me at any point, I probably would've mentioned my 3 cats that I had.

During the breakup, I didn't get to keep any of them. I only got to keep my fish- don't get me wrong, he's a really pretty betta fish and there are two bristlenose plecos that share a tank with him, but I didn't get to keep any of the FURbabies.
I didn't want my guinea pigs, I loved them, but I was heavily guilted into buying them for my ex who promised up and down to help take care of them but never did and complained to me when he felt they were being neglected. He gave them away to a local pet store.
I wanted the two ferrets we had, Admiral and Dee. He "didn't like having boy ferrets" so he just called them "girls" so that our cat was the only boy in the household which... was a little dumb, I mean... it doesn't work like that. I wanted them, but he said that since I left, I didn't deserve them, so he gave them to his sister.
I desperately wanted one or two of our cats. Specifically the two that I picked out, and he outright refused to give any of them to me. Agent and Riot were the two that I really wanted but Agent was MY baby. He was even named after my OC- (Agent October is his full named and he was named after This Character, whom I've had since like... 2009, 2008.) and no matter how much I begged, I asked, I tried to make a deal with, he refused to give me ANY of the pets that I paid for, that I took to the vet, that I fed, that I did everything for. I have no chance in getting any of them back.

Long story short- I will be able to get my own kitten... and it will be mine and no one will take it from me ever again because that was one of the most traumatizing things, having my babies taken away...

Now for the Extra Fun Part :1

My abuser was still contacting me
He continued to guilt me and yell at me even long after I left. It's been about 7 months since we broke up, 5 since I moved away. He still emailed, still messaged, and harassed me while doubly saying that I was harassing him. When I didn't even engage or attempt to make contact. He ended up being kicked out of the apartment we lived in because he continued to scream and harass the neighbors and the complex refused to renew his lease and he ended up going to live with his grandmother. BUT NOW. The complex is telling me that he and I owe them $350 for the move out fees and repairing the complex from the damage he's done (he let the animals shit everywhere and he put holes in the door so I imagine a lot of things needed to be replaced) but I don't have that money. I have about $500 in savings but that's ALL I have, i can't afford to lose more than half of that right now. I have a job interview coming up, like I mentioned earlier, but right now I have nothing and I'm incredibly stressed about that going to collections because said he'd take care of it. FUNNILY ENOUGH. When I contact him about him, he doesn't answer.

so I have to come up with $350 so I can get that cleared and taken care of so I can apply to this apartment and not have that dinging me and preventing me from getting on the lease.

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TL;DR
My ex still sends me messages here and there to yell at me. He kept/gave away all of our pets and now I'm looking to getting a new one that he can't take away from me. The apartment we shared keeps contacting me about the $350 we both owe them and he said he'd take care of it but hasn't done anything about it. I'm very stressed because I'm looking into signing onto the lease with my sister and her roommate once the one that there was a falling out for leaves but I don't know if that'll leave a mark on my record or not as an unpaid fine and make me unable from getting on the lease.

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I'm sorry for the wall of text, this is just a big general update of what's going on since it's been a hot minute since I updated anyone.

I am still safe, I'm traumatized from my experience but I'm in a very loving, new relationship and a very caring and healthy environment where I'm slowly healing, I'm gonna be getting a kitten (possibly for my birthday if I can get the funds for everything), I might be getting my own room- I haven't had my own room since I was like 5 years old, I'm stupid excited for the new Pokemon games and Detective Pikachu, I really hope I get a job for my birthday lmao.
My sister and I were talking and I was telling her 2019 is gonna be the year I get back on my feet and where I'm allowed to be ME again.. because I haven't been able to be me for 5 years.

But yeah that's it!
And if you want, you aren't required, buuuuUUUUT, I stream tonight at 9pm, Westcoast time. Commissions are always available BUT. I need something to draw in-between commissions. COMMENT WHICH NEW STARTER YOU WANT ME TO DOOBLE ALL,,, EROTIC LIKE. LMAO Mention what gender you'd like to see too. Y'all got 9 hours, GO!

~Wally

HI SO I DIDN'T REALIZE I DIDN'T MARK SOME COMMISSIONS I GOT AS "TRACKING NUMBER NOT NEEDED" SO IF Y'ALL GET AN EMAIL FROM ME FOR A COMMISSION YOU BOUGHT FROM ME, SORRY LMAO

So I went on Domestic Violence Leave back in October so I could move away and out of an abusive situation, and the company I worked for promised to hold a spot for me in the company so I could just transfer into a new store with no problem (I've transferred stores and it was so easy and quick)

aaand for some reason this store I applied to transfer into insisted on doing interviews with me instead of just transferring me like at my last location did. I had one interview, it seemed to go really well- I even tried to go through the interview as Wally instead of my deadname and the person was really receptive and sweet. I let them know I was on a time limit to get into a new store but I have 5 years of experience in a grooming salon, 3 years a groomer, and 1 year as a manager. I wasn't looking for a manager position, I was looking to be part time pet stylist,,,,

I just got an email saying they weren't going forward with my application and because of me waiting on them after a very promising interview-- everyone was excited to have someone apply with as much experience as I had-- I just... am separated from the company now.

Couple of my friends think it's because I'm Trans and introduced myself as such.... I sent an email to HR asking for an explanation as nicely as I could because I am very confused as to why this transfer didn't go as smoothly as my last transfer did and I'm... really really hoping it's not because I faced discrimination due to being a transman.... I was afraid of that in the first place but I really hope that that isn't the reason I didn't get this job.

and I really hope I'm not sounding whiny?? I'm just... really upset.

I revamped my resume with my godsister and I'm gonna start applying to places tomorrow so I can keep grooming...

If you would like to help support me while I'm looking for a new job, you can buy me a Ko-fi or donate directly to PayPal

thank you

I meant to stream but my mom visited instead. Would you guys still want me to stream?

Food's almost done and then I'm gonna eat so much until I'm fat and then I'm gonna stream!

https://picarto.tv/WigglyWolf

I promise I didn't forget to stream tonight! I've just been Very Busy!

i need a hot minute to settle
i cried a lot on my return trip

I board my plane in about an hour! But I’m gonna fly for the first time to meet my sweetheart for the first time after knowing him for 12 years!!

Don’t expect too much activity from me this upcoming week!
And thank you to everyone who commissioned me and donated. I literally couldn’t have done this without all of the support from y’all.

Thank you so much

Alright! Wolfie out! See you guys later!!!

I go to Ohio on the 30th! So I'm taking one more chance to stream!

Christmas is done so I am gonna stream again now that hopefully there will be more people. Hehe! Just giving you all a heads up that I WILL BE STREAMING TOMORROW.
If you haven't followed me on Picarto yet

https://picarto.tv/WigglyWolf

Do that! Make sure you get to know when I'm up and going. ^^ !!

Reminder that stream commissions are discounted
Donations to my Ko-Fi or Paypal are always super appreciated! And it lets me know how much you like my art and things that I do!

Okee, that's it! See you tomorrow!

I super planned to stream around 8:30 this fine evening

but my roommate is having a WiFi party with friends and they're all on a Discord call while playing online Stardew Valley.

I'm having fun watching, but I can't stream when all that's going on! I will definitely try to stream Before 10 PST. That's in 2 hours! Keep an eye out for my picture!

If you haven't yet, you should follow my picarto so you can keep track of when I go live!
https://picarto.tv/WigglyWolf

i gotta,,,,, make a coffeee......

but I stream soon! Accepting commissions.
yeah
c o f f e e n o w , , , ,

https://picarto.tv/WigglyWolf

So my laptop's had a pretty bad cooling sync for awhile and now it's really starting to struggle. It gets very hot when I try to have photoshop open and OBS at the same time.
NEVER FEAR THOUGH!!!

I have ordered a Nice Cooling Fan for my laptop to perch on so snuggly and comfortably and it should be here Monday! I'll test it out then and maybe stream some more~?
I also got more tablet pen nibs because my old one was scratching up the tablet a little. Oops,,,,

I'm going out to reconnect with a few friends over some ice cream BUT!!

when I come back, I'll stream!

they're just sitting there not being admired and it needs to change.
I drew these awhile ago,,,

I have left Seattle.

I am back in my hometown. I am safe. I am away from my ex who was hurting me. I had friends to pick me up, back me up, and help protect me when we were gathering the last bit of my things.

I'm exhausted, but I am safe.