I was unexpectedly pulled out of town to go to another funeral. No one I knew, my friend just had to be comforted for a few days. All art I owe will be done by this week. I promise. Sorry again guys!

I am planning on shading this instead of flat colouring.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17826824/

 MaggyMutt
Maggy needs a sona idea :p if you guys maybe wanna help her out with some detailed descriptions or maybe some pictures or stuff :p it'd be a great help of ideas. Since I have halloween ideas all in my mind, it'd be hard to give her a normal idea.

Her favorite animals are:
Bat
Wolf
Dragon
Deer
Lamb

Her styles are:
Pastel Goth
Tomboy
Western

Her favorite colors are:
Grey
Black
Dark red
Skye blue
Dark purple
Cotton pink
Minty green

Thanks guys (:

She writes so if you love to read, this is we here you go :D

Hello my fellow fur friends and loves ❤️ You've all been so patient and been so caring and kind and understanding to all my situations (: I hope I haven't caused too much stress. I've read the kind comments and seen the beautiful art you all made for me ;u; you don't understand how love I feel and felt when Maggy showed me those things. I almost felt silly for what i had done.

I just came to let you know that im canceling commissions/freebies as of right now. I'd rather help Maggy with her new account to set her up. If you'd like me too, I can always post her account in a journal update since you all seem to love her so!

Who's excited to see this update!

First things, I want to apologize for not being as "active" as I wanted but she's been wanting a friend by her side for a while.

Misty is coming home later on today so if there is anything you'd like her to see or know just comment ^u^ or shoot her a note. She does miss you all and she loves you very much. She told me you guys keep her busy and help take her mind off the bad things. She appreciates it very much.

-Maggy

I feel like you guys appreciate when I give you updates on Misty. So, Im going to tell you more about her!

She's out of the CC now, but she isn't at home. Unfortunately, she wasn't being very smart and nearly got struck by a vehicle walking home. So, she's been staying at her dads (i dont know how that helps anything, theres more cars there) but she'll be back at home in a couple of days. Sorry for the lack of updates, I've been with her and comforting her. She'll back soon guys :)

She says she misses you too.

Just some words from Misty. I just got back and she wrote down what she wanted me to tell you guys.

"Hello, my fur friends! It's been a while hasn't it? I hope you're doing well and im so happy to know you guys! Thank you so much for your help and caring words, I'll be sure to get better ❤️ I heard I finally hit 100 subs! Woot woot! Thank you all, I love you all!
-Misty"

You should've seen the smile on her face when I told her how much you guys missed her. She's really happy to know shes made such a difference to you guys.
Keep on keeping on!

Im sorry.
I bet you wanted this to be Misty.
I have some...bad news.
I mean, there are good news too!
Misty is fine, she's getting better, and she's getting help (: that's the good news.
Bad news is it's going to take her a lot longer than anyone had hoped. I feel bad for her but she asked me to take charge of her accounts her and deviant art.
If she owed you art, comment below and I'll arrange any refunds.
My name is Maggy, and I'll be with you fir a few days-weeks.

Hey guys! This is like the millionth update I've made. I have been doing much art but that's cause the hospital has been only letting me use my tablet fir a few minutes. I was at the crisis center just to check it out cause I've never been there before and I can't have any electronics. So before I head out tomorrow morning here's a few things I would like to tell you guys.

Im coming out. Not as being gay. But as being dangerous to myself and others in society. As of late I've been really feeling ugh and there have been times i just didn't want to exist at all. And I took measures into my own hands.

I don't wanna depress, but I'm not allowed to use my tablet for the entire time im there. I don't know when I'll get out, they said a week minimum so... Here's what.

Im canceling commissions. My sister will be doing the refunding. Im sorry you guys!
My sister will be using certain bases of mine and making her own so she can keep the adopt page updated.
If you have any concerns, pleasure reach my sister through all means that you can through my stuff. My email, note my account, kik, etc. she'll answer for me.

Hey guys. It's been a while. Not really but eh. I just want to be honest!
I may leave FA soon, like completely. I'll keep my adoptable page up so don't worry guys (:
I'll finish up what I have now and I think im gonna set aside this page for a while.
Anyways, im back in the hospital for a few days now *sighh* but then it's over to the Crisis Center for reasons I won't share in this journal. Maybe I'll note some people about it.

Anywho, art is postponed, blah blah blah...

I'll be on for the remainder of the night since there's nothing to do here!
Love you all

Hey guys, sorry for being so inactive. Finished my 32 hour shift work, only being able to check FA EVERYNOW and then.
God im so tired.

At this point, you guys can butch at me, I don't even give a damn.many unpaid for art will be done at a time i find acceptable, whether you like it or not. Art that has been paid for with money or points will be done sometime soon, haven't thought if a date yet. Sometime soon.

Im sorry if I seem mean but 32 hours of work with no sleep can really mess me up. To answer your questions!

-Yes I did have breaks.
-I didn't use them because I have multiple jobs plus some studying.
-I work as a coach and had 3 hours of packing, I also am a hairdresser (not professionally get) but people still come to me to get their hair done and it can take anywhere from a few minutes to hours. I also am helping my friend move which has been taking multiple days and hours as well.
-as I said previously, art will be done when I say so if it wasn't paid for
-bases are done just need to do the line work and coloring
-I am fine
-im going to be sleeping for who knows how long and I'll be up, when im up.

If I didn't answer a question, please. Don't hesitate to ask, I'll answer them when im up and well. Another thing, I am going to be going to the vet tomorrow and that's going to be putting a lot of stress in me because god damn, my rabbit needs his tooth gone and im tired of seeing him In so much pain. It hurts me and I don't think I've every cried over an animal so much. So with the 32 hours of absolute pain and stress, my rabbit isn't making it better.

My anxiety has gotten the point where even a simple thing will start an attack. I've have put in situations where I (I was safe, don't worry) could conspcentrate because of stuff.

I'll answer questions about this!
-im extremely claustrophobic and I spent 27 hours being surrounded by screaming kids who kept latching on to me and not giving me personal space
-im hydrophobic and I was constantly having water splashed at me (we were having a fun water day and kids don't know when to stop)
-I get severe anxiety when im left alone or feel like someone forgets me and my friend was late from grabbing because she had forgotten. I don't blame her, but it freaked me out.

If you have anymore questions please let me know, I'll answer, and won't be mad. Just need to vent a but,

This summer has been the worst summer if my life. But I wanna thank you guys for caring and accepting me and my flaws, and helping me grow past some of my issues by listening and giving me help. So thank you all, I love you all.

Goodnight!

So, I just wanted to thank you guys for all the amazing comments ;^; they were so sweet and understanding. I haven't responded to them all yet but I surely will!

Anyways, I sat in the waiting room from like idek 3ish to 7ish? All AM guys. I almost passed out but there were so many people who kept being out infront of me. Honestly, I don't mind, but it got quit annoying when someone who was there to remove a cast got out i feint of me.

Again, anyways, sorry I get side tracked. They have ZERO explanation but im on all these hardcore drugs right now and they make me a little loopy and tired and it messes with my visions. I have all the sketches done for the free pony stuff ^^ I just need to line and color (: may take longer than I expected.

Also, if you guys wanna help me reach my goal for getting a new laptop you can go to my commission sheet! They're open :D
https://www.furaffinity.net/full/17472745/

Yes.
Well no.
Just hear me out. By the time you guys actually get the chance to read this, I'll probably be at the hospital ANYWAYS!
But to answer your questions!
No, I'm not dying
Yes, your free ponies will be done
No, I won't be gone for long
Hats all the questions i can think if that don't involve why I'm going.
But here, I'll tell you why I'm going anyways. It's been no surprise I've gone through and and back. First i almost break my hand, then i lose a close friend of mine. It's no shocker that im a depressed insomniac either. Or, maybe to you guys it might be! That's half the reason why I'm going to the hospital.
As of late. I've been getting so stressed that my heart actually begins to hurt, my sides and back muscles begin to tense and it causes unbearable pain. It's been happening for months now and I've been to the hospital many times, been through many blood tests, urine samples, cat scans, eye tests, stuff like that and the doctors are unsure what causes so much strain in my body when im nervous or stressed.
The pain has moved up to my chest and it actually feels like someone is stabbing me. Im toying this up as im in my way to the hospital, so when you guys read this, I'll probably be there getting more tests and stuff done.
My life is full of so many good things this summer...

*cries*

But, I believe I'll be fine, but I'll be gone for a bit. I might check up on FA while im in the waiting room, but no gaurentees. Just wanted to let uo all know that you guys are fantastic and have Been so supportive over my art! I wish I could give you all hugs.

Im only gunna have three slots k? I just need a bit of cash to try and either fix this stupid tablet or get a new laptop :p

So three slots are open!

You can go here
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/17524044/

Or straight to my commission page
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/17472745/

Or you can get a 5$ BG/wallpaper thing
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/17522582/

My iPad that I use to make my art on just fucking shattered! I mean, yeah its usable but ughhhhhhhh. This sucks.

Im going to finish up my owed work tomorrow so if I owe you something you'll get it tomorrow, Im just really angry at the moment. God this sucks. I need a new laptoppppppp so I don't need to use this tablet.

Does anyone know if you can even replace the screen for an iPad? I know you can for the iPhones and stuff but can you for an iPad?
-n- so mad like what even.

You guys know you like the sound of that. I know you do.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:47060695

Who's excited :D ?!
I know I am haha. I'm not posting it with out a cover page first. If you want some art to be posted as a cover page. It can literally just be a page with a title on it, go to my latest contest pic. Or, hell, I might just make it. Although I need help thinking of a name. ;-; HALP.

MAIN
>Amaryllis
>Semira
>Ebony

BG
>Stiletto
>Daylight
>Zilidian
>Ze'ev
>Proxie
>Lillith
>Magic
>Kit
>Draken
>Rascal
>Rain
>Arloste
>Alegria
>This Wolf
>Zack
>Abel
>Angela

Name: Starry "star" nightstreak
Age: twelve
Species: Fox/Dragon
Is seafoam green w/purple foot/paws
Has a purple stripe down her muzzle, back, and tail spooltted with silver stars
(Same for belly fur) has spaded Dragon tail. Eyes are blue
Has purple tipped fringe fyr on the side of her face

Okay, so im just trying to cheer my self up a bit, hence the whole doge title going on. I just recently (like seriously 30 or so minutes ago) found out that my best friend of so many years took her own life. I don't want to sound so greedy when I say this but I feel the most impacted, besides her family of course. She was with me for so many years and to find out that I couldn't really help her, help what she was going through tears my hearts to shreds. I just...

...

Well, I just wanted to let you guys know im holding off some commissions. First my hand and now this. Art is just getting in the way. I mean, art makes me very happy and I think I want to get art for her or even make some, just so I can have something. She was a fur friend as well. Didn't have an account because she had no access to internet at her home but her and I would sketch together all the time. She never really made herself a Fursona, but her favorite animal was kangaroo rat.

It's been so hard for me, and it was just so sudden. She wore dog tags all the time. I had bought her a plush kangaroo rat maybe four years ago, just as a surprise "I love you" gift and her mom had actually come over and given it back to me, saying it was one of her prized possessions and she knew that she'd want me to treasure it like she had for so many years. Ugh my heart ;-; to be honest, this is just a vent thingy. You don't have to read this, you don't even have to comfort me. I just really...reeeeally want to get it off my chest, as a coping thing.

I always thought losing someone was painful, but dear god does it ever hurt. Im so sorry for all you guys that lost someone. I just want to give you guys hugs, comfort you. If anyone is ever feeling the need to take their own life or know someone who is suicidal, just please never do it. I know the pain, I know the loss. Please, you are so loved and no one deserved to take their own life. Were given this gift for a reason. You all mean something to someone.

*hugs* Im going to stay on for the remainder of the night, maybe make a small doodle in rememberance, then im going to log off for a while. Any where from a week to a month. Im sorry if this holds back any art, but I'll get some done while im on my grieving time. You guys, and all the art you do, really cheer me up. I love making art for you guys and knowing the joy it brings. I want to do it, but I just can't right now.

I hope you understand. Sorry for this journal being long and so sad. It's just a long vent. I loved her so much.

*clears throat* I wish you guys could here how I said that title xD anyways, I thought I'd make an update journal. These are kinda popular ;-; I just wanna fit in ;-;
Love me!
Anyways, uuuuUUUpDATE
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Commissions firstly, I have two but Im working on one of them until the other gets paid.!
-line art is done for gotta colourrrrrrrr
-need payment from >.> sorry dude! its justa precaution
Requests! These aren't open but I did have some from before I closed them.
- i HAVENT EVEN STARTED THIS ONE YET OH NOOO ;-; so sorry
Art tradessssss(snakes)
-line art is done for :D
-finished
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So there we go! Done did the journal for updates!!
>.>
...
Okay
...bye >.>