Greetings All! ^^

These are currently the badges I am working on:

 unnameddragon (2 badges)

 waqiathunderwolf

 ajaxhusky

Scence it is a holiday season, and I work in retail, I have been kept pretty busy... ^^; I apologize for any and all inconvenience. I will also be mailing out  palasm and  lamper this week.

On a unrelated issue:  volando1 IS HERE!!! :D  tealeon and I are so happy to have our family together again! Kael is a wonderful person inside and out. He is sweet and kindhearted, as well as having an adorable smile and a cute butt! ;) I love them both very much and can't imagine having a better family.

And from our family to yours: Marry Christmas All! Have a safe and fun holiday! Hugs and Snuggles All Around!

Hi All!

My hubby  tealeon are thinking of doing a new TMI journal. You submit ANY question you would like either him, me or  volando1 (if he wants to) to answer. And we will, in a voice journal! :) Just let us both know what you think! And remember to submit a fun question. ;)

Here is a link to Teal's Journal for more info: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4030777/

Love You Guys!

Greetings All!

So sorry for my lengthy absence. Aside from personal matters (which I will get to in a minute), I recently got a new job! I now work at a Adult Novelties store! Certain people don't approve on my new job choice, but I LOVE it! The people there are so welcoming, open and understanding. :) I love who I work with and what I do: meeting fun people and playing with lots of fun 'toys'. ;) Not mention that my hubby enjoys helping me with 'product testing'. ;)

And now a few words about recent matters. (Okay, maybe more then a few)

As many of you may know, my husband's mate and by little brother,  magnakoji Has moved out of our home, and in with his new mate. Let me start by saying that this decision has been hard on all of us. There are certain people out there who have told  tealeon "I told you so" and have even gone as far as to tell him that Koji left because my husband was 'mean' to him or treated him badly. Those close family members, know that this isn't the case. While this was ultimately Koji's decision (as I am sure he will tell you), Teal wanted Koji to be happy. Despite my husband being deeply saddened and distraught, they both came to the decision to remain close because of there strong feelings for each other. Not many people out there can say that they are still close to there former lover. That alone should be proof of there love and respect for one another.

Aside from all the sad tidings,

My husbands other mate,  volando1 will be moving in with us soon! We both love and care for him deeply and eagerly await his arrival! <3 He is closer to me then a brother. and I am expecting lots of cuddles from him.

Well, that is pretty much it for now. I hope I helped to clear up any questions. I love all of you guys, and am sending you all a big hug full of fluffy goodness! :3

PS. if you would like a badge from me, please note me. I am open for commissions, but will only be taking them when I am sure I can fit them into my work schedule. Don't want a badge? Maybe a sexy pic or bust? just note me, title it 'commission' I will get back to you with the info as soon as I can.

ONE MORE THING!!!

To all those troublemakers out there (you know who you are): It is a good idea to think before you speak. I realize that thinking my not come naturally to you. In that case, if you don't have something nice to say to either my husband, me or another member of my family: don't say anything at all. People who have nothing better to do then cause problems, spread rumors or make ED pages, are not worth the time it took to type this journal. Just leave my family and I in peace as we will you (unless you start crap). Rember God hates assholes, so do I. :) Have a nice day!

Just because I am board, here is a Random Question Journal! And scene it is TMI, feel free to ask anything your heart desires! ;) I promise to answer any question truthfully! And, if you ask me a question, I get to ask you one, too... So, let's have some fun! :3

IFC was great! Had a lot of fun and was able to meet a lot of wonderful Furs! Such as  rinvis A very quiet and sweet guy, who even though we we not able to spend a long time together became close friends.  waqiathunderwolf A very lovable and cute guy who gives great hugs!  kuroryushin-kuma I am so glad to have been able to meet her. She is a amazing woman who has no idea how strong she truly is. I consider all these Furs close members of my Furry Family. I highly recommend Watching/Talking to them. They are very remarkable people and are excellent examples of Furry Community! :)

Also, I would like to welcome the newest member to my Family,  volando1 He is my husband,  tealeon's new mate and is as much a pert of our family as  magnakoji or me. I consider him a close brother and love and care for him deeply. He makes or family even more wonderful and special!

And now, some bad news... I am sure that most of you know of all the drama that has gone on with my family and a certain Fur at IFC. Well, last night, another Fur, very close to us whom  tealeon once considered a brother; openly threatened my husband and family. Even getting on video chat through Skype and laughing at us. Laughing when Teal told him he was thinking of suicide, calling Teal a 'Drama Queen'. Saying that he would 'beat up' all of us and anyone else who was hanging around us, should he see us at a con. When I asked him why he was doing all this, he stated "Because I can do whatever I want to. No one can stop me." He said this laughing, before sticking out his tongue and ending the call. Apparently, the reason why this person said and did all things was because of the person from IFC, who had caused a lot of drama. Because of this, legal action is being taken against this person. The fact that immediately after he did these things, he attempted to apologize saying, it was the medicine he was on caused him to do it, is irrelevant.

Please, I encourage all the members of our Furry Family to support  tealeon and our family. We want nothing but to be left alone by those who wish to do us harm or or cause us trouble. The only reason why we have responded to either of the two people mentioned above is because they kept coming after us, even after us stating we wished to be left alone.  tealeon Is understandably depressed and upset and really needs the support of his true friends and family. Please, message him, text him. Let him know that there are still friends that care.

Thank you all for your continuing support of my wonderful family and myself. You are all loved deeply, and have a special place in our hearts.

Koji is finally here! Home in Texas with me and hubby,  tealeon We are so happy to have our whole family finally together! :) I love my husband,  tealeon dearly. Just as he loves me. He and  magnakoji share a very special kind of love. A love that is just as wonderful as the love that  tealeon and I share as Husband and Wife. And I love them both, so much. They bring so much love, caring and understanding into my life. They are two beautiful and wonderful men who make the World a better place just by being in it. With my family together, I am looking forward to a bright future, full of cuddles and snuggles and, of course, video games. <3

I love you, so much my cute Angel, Dearest Little Brother,  magnakoji For all of our talks and for all the time you comfort me and make me laugh.

And I love you, my Adorable, Handsome, Funny, Caring, Supportive, Hard-Working, Husband  tealeon No one could ever take your place in my heart. You truly mean the World to me.

These two give my life purpose and meaning. I want nothing more then to be the best Sister and Wife I can to them.

I know we are not a conventional family, be have as much Love and Acceptance as any other family would. Thank you so much to those true friends of ousr who have been supportive of us and our relationship. We consider you all members of our extended family. <3 :)

To my Dearest Husband,  tealeon

I know that you have had a horrible week. You have been betrayed by people with whom you work with, put in fear of loosing your job and have had many disaggrements with friends that have led to a lot of stress on you. But I know what has bothered you has been what people have been saying to you. About you and about us...

I know that you blame yourself for your feelings about  magnakoji and that no matter how many times I tell you differently, you still think that you are a bad husband because of it. That you are being unfair to me and Koji. That could not be further from the truth.

You, both, put my feelings above your own. My happiness over yours. You both show me so much respect and love that I know our family will work out.

People, who call themselves friends have spoken there mind about our relationship. Called us all sorts of names. Said all kinds of things about all of us. Have said that our relationship won't work out.

What you have to understand is those people, say things based on there experience. Some feel the need to voice there concern, because they don't want us to get hurt.

They may have met other people like us, but they have never met us. They don't know how beautiful the love you have for  magnakoji is, how amazing and strong the love that we have together is. They can say what they want, make there assumptions. No relationship is perfect but it is perfect to us.

Let me say, that your feelings for  magnakoji and his feelings for you, do NOT hurt me. You both inspire me to be true to myself and my feelings.

I know the love you have for me. Nothing and no one anyone can say or do anything to destroy it. You would never leave me for anyone. And I would never leave you. You do not hurt me. You care for me for me when I am sick, hold me when I am scared, reassure me when I am nervous, provide for me, work hard everyday so we can have a life together. Everything you do, shows me how much you love me. Please, never let anyone say anything to make you think otherwise.

You did not trap me into marriage, I married you because I love you. You did not trap  magnakoji he loves you, too. We all love each other, just like any other family. Neither of us would want to be with anyone else.

Yes, we are in a very unusual relationship. But unlike others that may have failed, we won't. We all love, care for and respect eachother's feelings so much, we will always be together.

Don't let anyone use me as an excuse agginest you, for being a bad husband. Your not. You still love me. Just as I love you. Just because you have feelings for another person, doesn't take away from the feelings you have for me. Other people don't understand because they are not in our situation. Don't let them bring you down, Baby. You are a beautiful, big hearted, caring, kind, funny, gay husband. I am so proud of you. For having the courage to be who you are. I want you to love who you are. I don't want you to hide anymore.

People are always going to say there opinion, express there beliefs, tell you there feelings or experiences. You have to be ready for that. And know, in your heart, the truth.

It doesn't matter what people may think or say. You will hear a lot from everyone, we all will, throughout our lives. Just remember that I am here for you. Always have been and always will be. : )

I Love You, My Dearest <3

Ps. I love you, Dearest Little Brother and Angel,  magnakoji And I thank God for everyday I get to have you and  tealeon in my life.

This week seems to just get worse...

I have a panic attack at work because of a family emergency and have to leave. Get told my boss today that I have been absent 6 times in last year. He says that even though I have doctor's notes and good reasons, 6 times in one year is 'too much'. I need to work on it and work harder... This week at work I learned that a long time friend I told pretty much all of me and my husband's secrets too, told everyone about it. And she was the one person I told everything to. All about my husband being gay, Koji moving down, all of our plans... EVERYTHING. Then I find out that all my co-workers have there own opinion of my life and relationship with my husband and my marriage... While they are being my 'friends' to my face they are talking behind my back. Saying I should not be with my husband. Our relationship is wrong. I should not let him be with Koji. I should divorce him... And more horrible things...

And, I found out that they think that when I call in sick, I am faking because I have,"problems" at home... Really! I love my life! I love my husband and my little brother more then anything else in the World. They are the most important people in my life. We just want to be happy together...

Today, I discovered that a close friend of my husband and mine, has gone missing for the last 24 hours or so... He isn't answering his phone or texts... We are deeply concerned that something has happened to him...

I don't know how much more of this week I can take... Please, if you pray, pray for my family. Our friend...

Thank you all for your support and prayers.

Despite the Strep Throat and Respiratory Infection (Me) and the Sinus Infection (Tealeon) we had a wonderful week off together! From when we got diagnosed on Friday, till today when Teal had to grudgingly return to work... :( I miss him already.

We had one of those weeks where we just had fun! We got Baskin Robbins ice cream to help with our throats. I had mint chocolate chip, Teal had Daiquiri Ice. We played video games and ate ice cream, while snuggling under blankets. Despite feeling so sick, we were actually happy. Just being able to be ourselves and take care of each other.

On Sunday, we checked into the Renascence Hotel, where we spent our first night as man and wife a year ago. We had dinner at Red Lobster, then ordered room service, from the hotel for desert. We ate over price gourmet pie while watching a marathon of Mythbusters. Just like on the night we were married. (minus the room service)

Last night, we grabbed some good grub from from Central Market and watched Mystery Science Theater 3000.We snuggled under our blankets, eating ice cream and enjoying cuddles.

Yeah it may not seem like much to some. But we enjoyed it. It was a wonderful week that I wish I could relive over and over. Even if it meant I had to get a shot each time. It was THAT wonderful! Thanks for a wonderful Sick/Anniversary week that I will remember forever, Dearest Love! : )

PS. Sick Sex is awesome with a sneezy seadragon! ; )

Hey everyone! I'm doing some trial conbadges for:  Tealeon,  Magnakoji,  Volando1, and  Nekari89 for AnthroCon.

I'm not doing commissions for them YET. I want to see what you all think if them first and if you like thier designs. They are themed to your character's attributes/surroundings. They are half body behind a name plate showing your fursona's name.

Tealeon and Koji will be done soon and will be uploaded for opinion.

If I DO do them for commission, here's what to expect:

They are traditional; colored pencil only
They can ONLY be picked up at the designated con unless you yourself wish to print and laminate them yourself
I am still a progressing artist, so I will only open "slots" instead of free-order commissions

Thank you, and I hope you all enjoy! Prices will be determined based on what people expect and their reactions to the initial badges already done ^^

I have been struggling with a lot of different feeling lately. Feeling overwhelmed, in general. I have been praying and asking for help. Today, I happened to find this while watching Veggie Tales on Net Flix. It has really made me feel a lot better. If your feeling depressed or sad. Think your about to give up. Please watch this. No matter what your feelings are about religion, or even Veggie Tale, this is a really pretty song that I thought would help someone.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=df8RHGiA5pA


Hurting yourself or committing suicide is never the answer. Weather you believe in God or not, you are loved. And your pain won't last forever. I love all you guys and consider you all part of my extended family. *hugs you all* ^^ <3

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3370932/ Don't miss your chance to get some amazing art from an amazing artiest! Good Luck!

Greetings, All! ^^

I can hardly believe that I have had the privilege to be married to the most wonderful man in the World for the last year. It has been a hard first year on us both. But out of all the struggles, I know we are stronger for it. He has brought so much happiness, love, kindness, support and acceptance. He has also brought me a whole new family of brothers, not to mention one very sweet guardian angel (Koji).

To my Dearest Husband, you have made my life beautiful. You give me a reason to wake up every morning. You are truly the most Perfect Husband-even if you don't see it yourself. One day, you will see the amazing and special person you really are. I thank God daily that I get to wake up in your arms and cuddle next to you every night. Truly, thank you for loving me.

To the first of many more Anniversaries to come! Thank you to you all who support us and to all the friends I have made. I love and care for you all. And Teal and I look forward to meeting all of you someday. Till that day, you will be in my heart and my prayers.

Hello Everyone! ^^

I haven't had a new idea for a journal in a while so I decided to make a question meme! You can ask me any question. Seriously! ANY question you want too. Weather personal, funny or random. You can ask as many as you want, too. But for every question you ask me, I get to ask you a question too. So, I guess it is kind of a 'getting to know you' kinda thing. I look forward to any and all questions!

-- Thank You All --

I have a new AVI!

And so do they!!!

I can't believe that Furry Fiesta is this weekend! I have no idea what to pack or wear! It is my first Con, so I don't want to make a fool of myself. I am kinda worried that no one will like me... But, I hope to have a good time there. My husband and I will be treating it like our Honeymoon, and I can't wait to have that time off work either. ^^! Is anyone else going?If so I would love to meet you!

What kind of wife am I?... This question has been in the back of mind for many months, now it is all I can think about. I keep hearing that I am the 'only' wife that would allow her husband to have a mate. If that is true, does that mean what I am doing is wrong? Does it make our marriage any less special or valid? Is it wrong that I have my own conflicting feelings of sexuality? I have my own curious fetishes and desires. Does that make me a bad wife? I am married. I shouldn't be feeling this way, should I? I sometimes still feel a little hurt when I think of my husband with another person. But I think that it is cute to see my husband with his mate, is that wrong of me? Am I sinning? Will my current actions and feelings dam me to Hell? Will I ever be able to see my mom in Heaven? I am very proud of my gay husband. And I love that he has a male mate, whom I also love. Is that wrong of me? Is it wrong for a wife to feel and act the way I do?

*-My Husband-*



You are the world to me. My friend, lover, spouse, mate, hero, the one person who makes my life worth anything. Your my reason to live each day. I would never want anyone else, ever. Your the one person whom I know I can truly trust with my heart and my feelings. You have brought so much joy and love into my life. I look forward to each day knowing that I will see you. It may sound weird or clingy, but I cannot wait till you get home every night. So I can kiss you and run my fingers through your hair. So I can hug you close and hear you say that you love me, because that is how I know it will all be alright. You are my one and only. I will never leave you. You could never say or do anything to change my feelings or love that I have for you. I thank you everyday for all your love, support and understanding.



*-My Little Brother-*



Even though I haven't known you for a long time, I have a special place in my heart for you. Your wonderful words of wisdom are spoken with love and honesty, from your warm heart. You put all other things aside, just so you can help by listening. You have helped me in so many ways, I can't count. I consider you my personal guardian angel, sent by God to help me. I am truly eternally grateful to you. I know you may not think so, but you are perfect to me. And, like Teal, I would not have you any other way. Everything about you is special. The way you always know just what to say, the cute things you do, the happiness you bring into both of our lives. You make our family more wonderful. And I am truly honored to have you in it. I am counting the days until you can be here forever.

This is the first journal I have ever done. I put off writing one for fear of sounding stupid or random, and I honestly I don't know of a better way to respond to all of the comments made on Teal's most recent journal, then with a journal of my own. So, here goes... In order for you all to understand what we (Teal, Koji and i) have been going through, I have to start with an event that took place this past October. I think we all know what I am talking about but I will say it anyway:Brian's death... I truly didn't understand the full impact on my husband but I did see all the pain he went through. The Insomnia, not eating (he lost more then forty pounds in less then 3 months!), the vomiting, all the Depression... He was on depression meds for a month just to cope. He also tried to kill himself... many times... As hard as it was for us to go through, there was always one thing that made him feel better. Talking to everyone on FA. He said that through talking to people and making journals, he was able to cope with this loss, and make living a little easier. It was during this time that Teal revealed to me that he believed that he was bisexual or maybe even gay. I admit I had some feelings about that when I marred him, but this realization didn't change my feelings for him. In fact, it made me feel happy, even proud of him. Because Teal no longer had to hide his true feelings. And he trusted me enough to tell me. I was a little worried at first, I thought that he would not find me desirable anymore. Teal comforted me by saying that I was the only woman he could ever love in that way, and he would never leave me for anyone-not even another guy. With this realization did come happier times, but also fear. You see both Teal and I were raised Christian. And now on top of everything else, Teal was worried that his feelings were damming him to Hell. I tried to help him as best I could, by comforting him and reminding him of what I was taught. God made us all, and he loves all of us no matter what. Being gay doesn't mean and automatic Hell sentence. But as much as I tried to help him, I knew I could not truly understand what he was going through, and as much as I wanted too, I could not not help him... I felt powerless... I could not help the one I love... Then, my prayers were answered. Through talking to various Furs on FA and Skype, Teal was able to meet, Koji. From the start, they seemed to me, to have a special connection. An understanding that up until then I believed that only Teal and I had. Then one day while I was at work, I learned that Teal tried again to kill himself by jumping from our balcony. I am unable to use my phone at work and did not receive the messages until I got off work, more then three hours after he jumped... Words cannot describe the feelings I had... I was unable to help him again. But, thank God, someone was. Koji stayed on the phone the whole time with Teal. Talking him away from a higher balcony, when the jump from ours didn't have the desired effect. If it wasn't for him, Koji, I don't know what would have happened to Teal. I don't want to think about it... In the days and weeks that fallowed, both Teal and I started to talk to Koji regularly. He not only helped Teal in the way I couldn't, but he helped me as well. Not only by listening to me, but by speaking truthfully from his heart. I really admire him for that. And as my and Koji's relationship became that of a 'big sister' and 'little brother' relationship; his and Teal's changed as well. Scence Teal had confided his true feelings to me, he had been discussing 'experimenting', to see if he really liked it or if he was just chorious. I didn't know what to think about it at first. He is more then my husband. He is also my best friend, truly. We were each other's first date, first kiss, first time seeing the opposet sex naked. We were virgins until we were married. We had known each other 5 years, dated 3 years, engaged nearly 2 years. It was hard for me to imagine him with anyone but me. But, I truly wanted him to be happy, so I wanted to do my best to stay opened minded... I know that this is where most of you came into the story, Koji coming down to visit. But most of you don't know that this is not why we wanted him to come down to Texas. Koji needed help establishing himself as an independent person. Never being on his own or having a job, Teal and I wanted to help him. We arranged for Koji to come down and visit, see if he liked Texas enough so that he could move here and get a job and be independent. That is why we wanted him down here. The main reason, anyway. I cannot speak for Teal or Koji or there true feelings for each other, but I can say that what I saw between them was a truly sweet and wonderful kind of love. While Koji was here, him and Teal made sure that they discussed with me 'anything' they wanted to try, to make sure that I was comfortable with it. At first, I thought that I would be... I wanted so badly to be... I could see the feelings they had for each other, all the love and understanding. I felt like I was the third-wheel. The one in the way... If Teal hadn't married me, they could truly be together... We all talked. Many, many times to make sure that I was ok... I thought that I was. I truly wanted to be. But after seeing my husband show affection to another person... I cannot explain the pain that I felt.... I don't know if I can ever fully explain it... My mom died one month before I turned 10 and I can safely say that this week has been the most painful, emotional week of my like so far. And if it wasn't for Kyle and Koji, I don't know what would have happened. They saw I was upset and they stopped. They both told me that my feelings were priority and if I didn't feel comfortable with something, they would not do it. I even now still feel bad but both have told me not too and have apologized for hurting me. They put my feelings before there's. Even though they love each other in that special way, as Mates; they still did not want to do anything to upset me. That made me feel so loved and special that they would do all that for me. I know that ours is a unique situation and that not everyone would understand or accept it. I'm sure that there will be a few Furs that think that I am a very nieve person. Or, that what the three of us have is either weird or wrong on some level. And I do appreciate that there are Furs who wanted to make sure that I was not being treated badly or anything. That is why I wrote this extremely long and ( I'm sure) boring journal to set right what everyone thought about our situation. And I just want to make clear that my feelings were given priority. As I have said, I do truly apologize to Teal and Koji for thinking I would be ok, then not being ok. I know that they have been telling me for months now that if I was not comfortable with it, nothing would happen. Please do not judge Teal harshly by his last entry. I know he accidently worded it in a way that made it sound as though he blamed me. I assure you, that is NOT the case! Teal was very upset when he wrote that, and that is why it sounded the way it did. Come on! You guys know Teal. Do you really think he would do something like that? He did become very sad today when he read all the comments on the journal. So sad he tried to hurt him self because he thought that people believed that he was a horrible person... He loves and appreciates all his friends and extended family on FA. We both do. And I truly care for you guys, too. I love my wonderful gay Hubby and I am very proud of him! Not just because he works at a hospital helping to save lives everyday, but because he introduced me to my new little brother and angel, Koji.