Kinda bored at work and felt like sharing. Most if not all my circle of friends knows how I feel about this subject. However I feel like sharing for some reason today. Pretty much this is a list of drugs and my experiences with them. A few of you might not like this journal because a lot of the fandom is rather straight edge and I respect that. Also, if you want share your experiences too.


Booze and Tobacco: Yes, I'm including these two. I still occasionally drink booze, usually either wine or scotch. It's just something that I treat myself with once in a great while.  Vizaxyn and I go down to the Old Port and get a few glasses of wine with dinner. When  iiiiiiiiiiii is here we get a bottle of Johnny Walker to share.

I used to be a tobacco smoker (cigars) for about five years. I didn't start smoking until I was about 26. I was curious and thought 'why not'? While I enjoy tobacco I find that I enjoy it too much. It was a habit that was more trouble than it was worth so almost three years ago I quit cold turkey. After the first three days I stopped being jittery and angry.

Pot: I have tried this a couple of times. It really doesn't do anything to me. I think the most I have ever had was a -very- mild tingling feeling that went away very quickly and that was supposed to be very strong weed. I tend to pass when it's offered.

Mushrooms: This is my drug of choice. The reason being is that it's non-toxic, leaves your system in 24-36 hours, and most drug tests won't pick it up. My first time trying them a friend named Mike (AKA The Mushroom Wizard as he was known to a lot of people in the shroomer circles) introduced me to these when I used to go over to his house to play poker. He gave me the basics on what to do after i take them and such. This was back in 2006. I did a lot of research after taking to him about them. After I was confident in what he was telling me I got an '8th' (it was a bit bigger than a traditional 8th which is 3.5 grams) and took them home. I split them with Vizaxyn that night. It was like a carneval in my head. I saw flashing patterns on the walls of our darkened bedroom, heard phantom music playing in sporadic bursts and had such a mellow and laid back feeling. I loved it.

I continued to educate myself, picking up information where I could. I find that I'm more creative after a trip. When it's over I feel like I've had a solid 8 hours of sleep.

Cocaine: I have been offered but I declined each time. I've heard about how that stuff 'tries to own you'. I have a bit of an addictive personality so cocaine would be very bad for me.

Opiates: I do not like these. Not at all. The only time I have ever been on them was prescription stuff after having my wisdom teeth pulled. If I can absolutely avoid them I will. Not because they are addictive but because I hate the way they make me feel.

Meth: This shit to me is poison. I will not try it.

Acid: This is on my 'I need to try it once before I die' list. it's stronger than mushrooms so I'll have to be careful but if Steve Jobs can handle it I can too.

DMT: This is one of those that I'm a little leery of trying but I think I'd take it if I was offered some from a trusted source.

Pharmaceutical Drugs: I see these around and pass. Just really not my thing.

MDMA: This is a club drug. I'm on the fence with this one. On the one hand it sounds nice but on the other there is a reason that people that take a lot are called E-tards.

Bath Salts: Fuck bath salts! If bath salts were a person I would come up behind them and fuck them in the side of the neck with a flat head screw driver until they stopped moving or the cops came and pull me off of them. I have to deal with crazed assholes on this shit. I don't know if they are going to attack or mosey off with that weird rabid pitbull look on their eyes.

That's pretty much all the ones I have been offered or really have an opinion on. Again feel free to share your experiences. I'm interesting in hearing them.

Swiped this from  Tamara


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A lot of people like to focus on the bad aspects of life. Stress from work, school, or relationship (or the lack of one) can weigh down on people. However, what is often overlooked are the things that make us happy. This is intended to be a feel good thread. Let us know what makes you happy!


I'll go first.


1) fishing
2) bowling
3) indoor gardening
4) listening to really smooth music
5) swimming in the ocean when it's warm enough.
6) cuddling with Vizaxyn or Brace.
7) listening to a distant thunderstorm.

Share what makes you happy. Hell, you might find stuff in common with others here on FA.

I feel that my stress levels are starting to lower quite a bit. I noticed I'm a much nicer guy when I'm chilling out. I'm not as sarcastic, venomous, or acidic. I also feel a lot better.

A few more friends have more or less thanked me for letting Sanita 'die off'. I didn't realize how much against the grain that personality was. Good riddance!

I'll be writing a little more in the weeks to come. I'm getting a bit of inspiration here and there so the mental juices are flowing. I'm also distancing myself from bad influences. I'm not cutting people out per say, just not chumming it up with people that aren't good for me.

I'm also taking up a few hobbies like bowling. I suck at it but it's still fun. I might try some indoor gardening as well. I've ordered some ghost mushrooms (they glow in the dark). I'll take some pics after they grow for you guys.


That's pretty much it. I'm doing good. I'm happier. I'm also banned from World of Tanks until tomorrow morning. Most of you reading this journal know why. Yes, it was worth it.

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You may have already heard but the actor that played Tony Soprano passed away. He was 51 and visiting his parent's land in Italy with his family. His 13 year old son was with him when he had a massive heart attack followed by a stroke.

I love The Sopranos. It was one of my all time favorite shows.

I'm getting back to this account. I think the 'Sanita experient' is over and was pretty much a failure so I doubt it'll be going much unless I just have it as a whatever account. The reason i'm abandoning it is because writing under that alias took me to some dark places and turned me into something I grew to hate. It took someone special in my life to give me a wake up call.

I'm still going to take it easy for a while. Likely I won't be doing much for the summer so i can focus on getting back to being me. I have a lot of repair to do so I'll be busy with that. I'll still post pictures from time to time but writing will come later.

I want to get back to being a good person. I turned into a real jerk as of late and that isn't me. It's not me at all.

right now I'm in a great deal of emotional pain. I am in the after math of a huge break down at work. Lucky I am the only one in the office today and it's been slow. I finally stopped crying about 30 minutes ago. I'm a ball of rawness at the moment but, like scrubbing off layers of dead skin I'm better for it. I feel 'clean'.

I have three hours of work left. I think I can make it until then. I'll just go home and go to bed.

When I wake up tomorrow I'll start to rebuild myself. I'll be more positive. I'll try to not get all snarky and vicious like I was. As far as that special person I mentioned before, you know how you are. Thank you. I doubt you will ever truly know the extent of the good you have done in my life. I just hope I'm there if you ever need me like I needed you today.



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