Hard to find time and energy for drawing lately. I have been working on several pieces over this time, but none of them are finished yet. However, I've been taking lots of nature photos, as I in fact often do. Maybe I should upload photography as well?

So, I'm entering paid internship starting tomorrow, and if all goes well and the work environment and pace fits me, then in a month I'll have a job. So that's a good development.

Undying Wayfarer, the first comic I started working on, is in a somewhat weird state. I started working on it all the way back with a more or less clear idea of what I want to achieve and what story I want to tell. And then it just fell apart in my head. I no longer know in what direction I want to take that story, so I don't know when will I continue working on it.

Somehow, trying to rest is still difficult. There is so much I want to do, but there is never enough time in the day, and the looming sense of eventual deadline where I will have to stop resting leads to a paralysis of indecision.

Mostly resting right now. Been scribbling some sketches a little bit, but nothing new to show yet.

Oh, and also I just graduated college, so yeah, I'm tired and need some time.

Sorry if I haven't been checking your artworks all that often lately - I've been rather busy and exhausted due to study in the past few months and simply have no time or energy to give your art the attention it deserves. Hope you will understand.

I have a new character artwork, but since FA is in read only right now, you can check it out on my other platforms:
BlueSky
DeviantArt

I think one of the most cruel and hurtful revelations one can experience is to realize that entire years or even decades of their life have been stolen from them, that the crucial formative moments that facilitate growth either never happened or were poisoned, leaving you maimed and broken.

Still, this revelation is important because after you get it, you can identify what is missing and work out the tools and ways of reclaiming those stolen things. Gradually, step by step, regrowing yourself into the person you should have been and who you probably always were deep down.

I have updated the page 10 of Summoning because it was too muddy due to my brush settings being off at the time after updating my system. Now it looks better and more readable.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58780394/

Just a reminder that I am active on BlueSky

https://bsky.app/profile/taraelblac.....ng.bsky.social

I still have Twitter too but not everything I post on other platforms gets posted there because reasons, so BlueSky is better. Plus it's more cozy there.

I decided to make a new folder for artworks that center around the theme of childhood. It's kind of a new development for me, since I usually draw things that aren't exactly innocent or childhood-related in any way, but recently I started delving into it mostly for the purposes of therapy and getting in touch with the parts of myself which I've been neglecting for years. I suppose it's kinda babyfur-adjacent, but I don't like the idea of tagging my art as such, so I will not assign it to that category. So yeah, a new folder for the cute and innocent stuff.

As this comic suggests, there are some changes in my life as of late.

After deeply analyzing my identity, behavior and thought patterns, I had my long established idea of self shattered and can no longer deny to myself the truth. The truth being that I just don't fit into society's rigid idea of gender binary. Therefore, screw that rigid framework, I'm not going to try and squeeze myself into it! I'm still in the process of self-exploration but for now it seems the most proper of existing terms to describe my identity is genderqueer (though if I were to label myself, I would use a word "fairy", lol).

I'll continue to use mostly he/him pronouns for now, but they/them is fine too. I also don't plan on going through any medical procedures since I am pretty satisfied with my body as it is and the euphoria that comes from appreciating it (transmedicalism be damned).

So yeah, now I have a more clear understanding of who I've always been.

I've uploaded a new page of Undying Wayfarer comic (only took me a whole year, lol) and also added buttons in the description of each page for easier switching between them
You can check out the comic here.

I neglected to mention it beforebut it has been gnawing at me lately, so I'm doing it now: this artwork I made 2 years ago was inspired by an image I generated using Wombo AI. It was ONE and ONLY time I ever used generative software in my creative process, because back then I was not aware of the full implications of this technology and it's exploitative nature. I should have announced it earlier and, tbh, shouldn't have used that software for inspiration in the first place, but here we are. I might remove this image from all my galleries later depending on feedback.

Schizotypal Personality Disorder is such a weird area, which only gets weirder the more I read on it and compare the info to my experiences. It's like some kind of blend in between various conditions. Not quite Schizophrenia, not quite Autism, not quite ADHD, but has overlap with all of them.

Just sitting here in the middle of this wonderful mind-bending flower field like a very confused anxious fairy.

Plartat lore has been revised.

Previously, the idea was that Plartat were originally animals much like humans and only later transformed themselves into mold. Now this is not the case. Plartat have always been a type of fungal colonies who gained sapience in evolutionary process. The descriptions of the following artworks have been altered:

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/46466041/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43764427/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43937184/

Turned 23 today. The year was quite productive for me in terms of personal growth, study and art. Mental health is kinda complicated, because it has generally improved a lot, yet depressions have been replaced by unhealthy amount of anger and bitterness and I feel how it is making me worse as a person. I am trying to fight those emotions, I know what causes them and I am trying to limit those external influences (it doesn't always work).

I have just updated all the pages of Undying Wayfarer comic by adding shading and fixing a few things. Hopefully it looks more presentable now. I will begin work on new pages now, so stay tuned!

The whole comic can be found here: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....Wayfarer-comic

Well, this year was very productive. Lots of changes, change of the place of study being the most drastic one and probably the best choice I made in quite some time. First semester in 4 years without depression and unfinished tasks. Looking forward for another one ^^

Happy new year, everyone! I hope 2022 was productive for you as well and I wish you luck in the next one!

It seems like there is a good chance that the government of my country will soon ban displays and descriptions of anything queer in the media, as well as expanding on the "propaganda" law.

Those bills however, even if passed, are anti-constitutional and even if they weren't, they are still full of shit and are a violation of human rights and dignity.

What does it mean in regards to my art? Well, it means that I'm going to draw even more gay stuff just out of spite, lol. Expect more swell and juicy content here and on my other social media pages.