I have one, and have had one, never thought to share the friend code on here til now :P

0962-9456-5700

Comment me yours if you add me :3

Just this once I'm not gonna bitch here... Have some baby foxes
http://1funny.com/wp-content/upload.....little-fox.jpg
http://1funny.com/wp-content/upload.....little-fox.jpg

I really should force myself to keep practicing my sketching. I have picture ideas in my head, but I'm not nearly skilled enough to make them happen... Unfortunately I am busy today >>;

Dear UPS/Food and Drug Administration/Department of Agriculture/US Government,

My laptop is not food, or drugs, or in any way related to agriculture, so please stop checking it and send it to me already! I understand it came from China and thus is all super scary and such, but it's a LAPTOP! It came from LENOVO! I've been waiting for half a MONTH FOR THIS THING (oh and if you want to count since my old laptop broke, over a WHOLE FREAKING MONTH)!!!!!

*sigh* Sincerily,
Tarry

It is good, or at least as good as mine tend to get :P...
I bought The Sims 4, and may stream playing that once it finishes downloading :3

No real reason for this journal, just peeved that UPS tells me my package will get here today, then decides today it won't be here til Tuesday :P

Must..... nap...... ugghh.......... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Still can't sleep... Too busy alienating everybody around me... Not that this is helping, but on some level I just don't care enough. I'm tired of putting up the super-happy front, not that there are times that I really feel that way. I feel like it gets me into more trouble than it avoids, because I tend to go overboard and freak people out. If I drop the happy act, though, I just sink into the background, unnoticed and alone. I have yet to find any balance of the two that actually works without making me feel like a bipolar asshole.

Basically, if I ever seem off, I don't mean to upset you. I'm just so tired of feeling the need to put up a front for everyone... I'm scared, though, because while it feels like people generally don't like me with the front, I feel people will hate me without it. This all sounds so sketchy, like I'm lying to everybody I talk to, which isn't true. I'm just good at projecting happier than I am, with some glaring faults... I can genuinely be happy, but with my front that tends to become over the top. I get too excited that someone may enjoy my company that I feel I end up scaring them away. I've done this for years and hate myself for it... Not that it's intentional. I just feel like I always get hurt when I get excited about something, and try to lock it away...

TLDR: I'm just gonna go back to being curled into a ball and cry softly to myself because I totally enjoy scaring away everybody I meet...

I'm practicing my sketching... I'm not very good, and don't have a scanner to post good takes of my sketches, but I'll take pictures and shove them in scraps anyways for you people to laugh at me :P.

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https://furstre.am/stream/tarrien

I don't expect you to read this. I don't really expect anybody to read these... They are my rants and insights on my own life. That being said, and if you're still reading, go right ahead! If I wanted to hide this, I wouldn't post it here.

Anyways, now that it's the weekend, and I'm slowly pulling myself out of the crappy hole I seem to keep digging myself into, I guess I'm open to just seeing what's out here... My weekend is open and (probably) boring, so I'll probably just play video games or something. It's tempting to figure out how to do an internet stream, if only to reach out... I am not great at video games, but whatever :P

Have ideas for that? Wanna chat? Wanna tell me that I suck and should stop writing these journals (spoilers: I don't plan to...)? Throw some comments at me, or chat w/ me on Skype. I'll probably post again if I do figure out the streaming game, for my (2) watchers, and anybody else who stumbles over here.

TLDR: I'm a crazy person with rants, and video games.

Some days it feels like I just disappear from existence. I seem to slowly be heading there right now... Nobody will read this but it feels good to get it out there anyways. :/

For anyone coming across this page before I really get anything up, HI!

I've been sorta lurking around FA for a couple years, and now have put up a more public presence here. I really can't art (SORRY!!!!!), but I'm interested in meeting new people and getting to know the community.

My avatar/submission was done in gimp, which I have faint experience with, and I dislike it. I'm happy, however, that it at least gets a small amount of my vision across. I can't do clothes so PG nudity :P