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Posted 3 years agoHello. Things are on fire once more. Probably not bonfire-sze anymore, and more massive forest fire now? Intense and bad. Was very close to the edge of some stupid shit last night but I rode it out.
I need to deal with all the bullshit (if you're new to my health stuff btw, please read this post: https://www.patreon.com/posts/64240985 ), but I also don't want to leave y'all hanging on things too long since it's been a week now, so here's a very quick rundown of things, both health-wise and account-wise:
--Health: brain got worse and general situation got much more dire. This was after things ALREADY escalated after the hospital situation last weekend; I can't get a damn break!. Vision is worse too--as I write this, my cursor is x3 larger b/c I can barely spot it anymore when on the computer, and the eye doctor doesn't know why. BUT!!!! I have a telehealth neurology appointment tomorrow and that could possibly, finally, change everything. So I am hoping it does.
--Commissions: I know I keep saying this, but I wanna make sure it is repeated clearly: I am still trying to do what I can with coms. It's hard to do anything right now, but I don't want to ignore the folks who have trusted me to create something beautiful for them. I am doing my best to chip away at needed tasks, including this one, however slowly.
--Patreon Pause & What This Means: If you didn't notice, the Patreon has been paused for this month; I wanted to release a post before the end of March about that but was not able to, so apologies if this was unexpected. April's pause means no exclusive content posted on/owed from this page this month. will keep do my best to keep y'all informed on pauses month-by-month.
--Patreon Pause & What It Doesn't Mean: to be clear, the pause doesn't mean absolutely ZERO creative content, but until I resume my regular posting schedule again, expect minimal things that will also be shared publicly. I do want to share the vorey doodles I've been doing b/c I think y'all will enjoy that (I've picked up drawing [something I haven't seen as 'for me' in years] to help cope/process during this crisis, and tried my hand at different kink art, which is exciting and a nice way to destress after all the garbage. It also really helps me focus during call-based healthcare, usually try to stick to only SFW stuff [no kinky things obviously] then though haha)! I may also share the personal stories I've been doing, also as a way to cope. Though I want to make it clear that the more detailed "vent creations" take a lot of time to make--weeks or MONTHS--to be finished, and are not my top priority, but a way to relax here and there. In short, let me know if y'all will enjoy those things!
--March's Game: this is the 0.2 demo (which will have a public & Patreon version b/c of its kinkier material) of the Mark.it game ( https://tastyace.itch.io/escaping-i.....last-time-demo ); it's still a demo b/c the game is gonna be a long romp, like I discussed previously. I'm finishing that as fast as I can. The way things have heated up mid-March to now has been a constant, neverending hell. Creation is already not easy for me but jfc all this relentless badness persisting for weeks does not make it easier. I was able to finish something else for a related project, but once I turned my focus to this, life decided to throw me tighter through the ringer--joy. I would like to have it done by the end of this week ideally, but more realistically, it may take until next week. I will keep y'all updated on that.
--Long-form Lo-Fi Game: just wanted to let you know that the long-form game that was voted on at the start of the year ( https://www.patreon.com/posts/60430234 ) will be delayed until I am well again. Lofi Vore Games To Masturbate To is a project I have been very, very excited for since its title won by a landslide, and I want to be in top form to tackle it properly. Once I am closer to 100% again, I'll revisit this and let y'all know where that's going!
Oh, and this isn't part of the main list, but: I do want try and reply to messages a bit today. Thanks to everyone who's sent me things; like I keep saying, replies take quite a while sometimes b/c of my current condition, but I do try to at least read them. I deeply, deeply appreciate those who have reached out to me.
That should be all? If I've forgotten something (I do that quite a bit now) I will return to this post and update it.
Let me know your thoughts below!
I need to deal with all the bullshit (if you're new to my health stuff btw, please read this post: https://www.patreon.com/posts/64240985 ), but I also don't want to leave y'all hanging on things too long since it's been a week now, so here's a very quick rundown of things, both health-wise and account-wise:
--Health: brain got worse and general situation got much more dire. This was after things ALREADY escalated after the hospital situation last weekend; I can't get a damn break!. Vision is worse too--as I write this, my cursor is x3 larger b/c I can barely spot it anymore when on the computer, and the eye doctor doesn't know why. BUT!!!! I have a telehealth neurology appointment tomorrow and that could possibly, finally, change everything. So I am hoping it does.
--Commissions: I know I keep saying this, but I wanna make sure it is repeated clearly: I am still trying to do what I can with coms. It's hard to do anything right now, but I don't want to ignore the folks who have trusted me to create something beautiful for them. I am doing my best to chip away at needed tasks, including this one, however slowly.
--Patreon Pause & What This Means: If you didn't notice, the Patreon has been paused for this month; I wanted to release a post before the end of March about that but was not able to, so apologies if this was unexpected. April's pause means no exclusive content posted on/owed from this page this month. will keep do my best to keep y'all informed on pauses month-by-month.
--Patreon Pause & What It Doesn't Mean: to be clear, the pause doesn't mean absolutely ZERO creative content, but until I resume my regular posting schedule again, expect minimal things that will also be shared publicly. I do want to share the vorey doodles I've been doing b/c I think y'all will enjoy that (I've picked up drawing [something I haven't seen as 'for me' in years] to help cope/process during this crisis, and tried my hand at different kink art, which is exciting and a nice way to destress after all the garbage. It also really helps me focus during call-based healthcare, usually try to stick to only SFW stuff [no kinky things obviously] then though haha)! I may also share the personal stories I've been doing, also as a way to cope. Though I want to make it clear that the more detailed "vent creations" take a lot of time to make--weeks or MONTHS--to be finished, and are not my top priority, but a way to relax here and there. In short, let me know if y'all will enjoy those things!
--March's Game: this is the 0.2 demo (which will have a public & Patreon version b/c of its kinkier material) of the Mark.it game ( https://tastyace.itch.io/escaping-i.....last-time-demo ); it's still a demo b/c the game is gonna be a long romp, like I discussed previously. I'm finishing that as fast as I can. The way things have heated up mid-March to now has been a constant, neverending hell. Creation is already not easy for me but jfc all this relentless badness persisting for weeks does not make it easier. I was able to finish something else for a related project, but once I turned my focus to this, life decided to throw me tighter through the ringer--joy. I would like to have it done by the end of this week ideally, but more realistically, it may take until next week. I will keep y'all updated on that.
--Long-form Lo-Fi Game: just wanted to let you know that the long-form game that was voted on at the start of the year ( https://www.patreon.com/posts/60430234 ) will be delayed until I am well again. Lofi Vore Games To Masturbate To is a project I have been very, very excited for since its title won by a landslide, and I want to be in top form to tackle it properly. Once I am closer to 100% again, I'll revisit this and let y'all know where that's going!
Oh, and this isn't part of the main list, but: I do want try and reply to messages a bit today. Thanks to everyone who's sent me things; like I keep saying, replies take quite a while sometimes b/c of my current condition, but I do try to at least read them. I deeply, deeply appreciate those who have reached out to me.
That should be all? If I've forgotten something (I do that quite a bit now) I will return to this post and update it.
Let me know your thoughts below!
small good news, then big bad news [Brain Ablaze]
Posted 3 years agoBack but bad shit and no energy, link here:
https://www.patreon.com/posts/64658624
Update 4-4-22: hell has a postscript now:
https://www.patreon.com/posts/64694621
Update 4-6-22: brighter days ahead at last:
https://www.patreon.com/posts/64804824
https://www.patreon.com/posts/64658624
Update 4-4-22: hell has a postscript now:
https://www.patreon.com/posts/64694621
Update 4-6-22: brighter days ahead at last:
https://www.patreon.com/posts/64804824
Am being hospitalized against my will
Posted 3 years agoI begged for help with Brain Ablaze from somebody who could give it, begging & pleading, but also expressed suicidal thoughts. Hopefully I can get an MRI while there. They better not just send me home again.
Hopefully it'll be ok but I'm scared shitless. Kind comments are appreciated. I'll try to share this on aryion too before we get there.
Hopefully it'll be ok but I'm scared shitless. Kind comments are appreciated. I'll try to share this on aryion too before we get there.
trial by fire, each day is a new nightmare. Back on Thurs...
Posted 3 years agotoo much, sorry. Destressing, back with content & info later in the week. More here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/64095953
below rock bottom (health update)
Posted 3 years agoCW: Discussion of bad health stuff, including: depression, memory problems, and brief mention of suicidal urges.
Greetings.
First of all, to anyone who was messaged me in the last 10ish days or so: I am in a super bad place in my recovery process atm. I can barely do shit. I will focus on replying once I am in a better headspace, which will hopefully be sometime next week. Sorry for the wait and thanks for understanding.
Now to the main order of business. . .
I thought I'd let y'all know where I'm currently at. To begin, let me copy a summary from a message I sent to a buddy yesterday:
"I'm sorry to tell you that I hit what I thought was rock bottom, but then sunk even lower into a metaphorical, sunless abyss. That is where I am currently, and it is hard to see the light from down here. Logically I know I will not be here forever--I have been through so many difficult times in my life it is sometimes hard to remember them all--but unfortunately, that doesn't make it any easier. The emotional toll (overwhelming depression) along with the physical shortcomings (mainly severe memory problems) is a lot."
That sums it up. To elaborate, my mental state is in a cloud of hopelessness existentialism. My energy levels are minimal at best. My brain can barely remember the events of yesterday, nevermind plan for the days/weeks/months ahead--I see the past in broad strokes, able to know what generally occurred, but specific details are harder to pinpoint.
I know it's not as "bad" as it could be--I still have my long-term memory, so I'm not forgetting my own name or the people I care about; I can also still manage the monthly game and Patreon-exclusive stories, along with a few other things. But that doesn't make this easier to experience. In addition, I've had memory problems all my life due to neurodivergency, and have feared a deterioration like this since I was a child--so this kind of thing is literally a nightmare come to life.
I'm not fully sure how any of you can help me. Well, now that I think about it, I suppose there is one thing you can do:
Tell me your favorite works of mine. It can be a long or short, one or many. But my sick mind is stating that I produced nothing of value into the world, so hearing evidence of that being a lie is very much needed right now.
Please. I would appreciate it immensely.
That's all I have the energy to write. Thanks for reading. This'll be put on Patreon and on my main accounts.
Later.
Greetings.
First of all, to anyone who was messaged me in the last 10ish days or so: I am in a super bad place in my recovery process atm. I can barely do shit. I will focus on replying once I am in a better headspace, which will hopefully be sometime next week. Sorry for the wait and thanks for understanding.
Now to the main order of business. . .
I thought I'd let y'all know where I'm currently at. To begin, let me copy a summary from a message I sent to a buddy yesterday:
"I'm sorry to tell you that I hit what I thought was rock bottom, but then sunk even lower into a metaphorical, sunless abyss. That is where I am currently, and it is hard to see the light from down here. Logically I know I will not be here forever--I have been through so many difficult times in my life it is sometimes hard to remember them all--but unfortunately, that doesn't make it any easier. The emotional toll (overwhelming depression) along with the physical shortcomings (mainly severe memory problems) is a lot."
That sums it up. To elaborate, my mental state is in a cloud of hopelessness existentialism. My energy levels are minimal at best. My brain can barely remember the events of yesterday, nevermind plan for the days/weeks/months ahead--I see the past in broad strokes, able to know what generally occurred, but specific details are harder to pinpoint.
I know it's not as "bad" as it could be--I still have my long-term memory, so I'm not forgetting my own name or the people I care about; I can also still manage the monthly game and Patreon-exclusive stories, along with a few other things. But that doesn't make this easier to experience. In addition, I've had memory problems all my life due to neurodivergency, and have feared a deterioration like this since I was a child--so this kind of thing is literally a nightmare come to life.
I'm not fully sure how any of you can help me. Well, now that I think about it, I suppose there is one thing you can do:
Tell me your favorite works of mine. It can be a long or short, one or many. But my sick mind is stating that I produced nothing of value into the world, so hearing evidence of that being a lie is very much needed right now.
Please. I would appreciate it immensely.
That's all I have the energy to write. Thanks for reading. This'll be put on Patreon and on my main accounts.
Later.
Medical Update; What's Next; How You Can Help
Posted 3 years agoI finally got to update the medical post with what's been going on. I will summarize/shorten it below, but you can read it in full here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/62042189
The Update:
First, I am calling this event "Brain Ablaze". Because alliteration and shorthand is nice.
More importantly, I haven't really turned a corner, and am now in a treatment program. I thought it would be very short-term, but the path to normalcy the outlined is going to take around 2-3 MONTHS, partially because of my previous doctor ("Doctor Dumbass") fucking up my care. I am ready to commit to that, but it means I have to prioritize getting better of course.
Everything is hard, including life essentials I took for granted--things like eating are now SO difficult. My brain is completely shattered, and I have to pick up the pieces, then repair the damage, bit by bit. I'm an optimist/glass-half-full kind of guy, but this whole thing has seriously tested my ability to find the positives in such a negative situation. I don't wanna unload too much about it right now--I literally don't have the energy and I've also been writing a vent fic that I hope to eventually share; it will be the space for that and explain more to those wanting to understand.
Oh, and I almost passed out while on the toilet on Monday! I went to my new doctor ("Doctor Goodperson") about that yesterday, and it turns out feeling like razors are coming out of your ass isn't a normal part of the human experience! I thought otherwise because of people (including a health professional) in my life I trusted, who dismissed & blamed me for the problem when I tried to bring it to light. Doctor Goodperson did what she could to dig deeper into what's going on, and referred me to other health professionals who can assist further.
In short, I am improving a little, but am DEFINIELY not much better yet. If I had to put a number to it, I'd say that I was 15% better last week, thanks to my psychiatrist tinkering with my meds to help me improve. This week, I am 18% better (so far). Yes, that's a 3% increase, which is good, but there's also a large 82% to go. That's gonna take a while.
What's Next:
I'm going to keep working with my health professionals to further my recovery.
I am not posting public stories again until further notice; I will resume them when I can eat 3 meals a day again.
Patreon-exclusives and monthly games are still on b/c those I can do at least. I'm thinking that Feb's game will come out the end of this week. As previously discussed ( https://www.patreon.com/posts/62784780 ) , the demo I released on Saturday will be March's monthly project.
I'm going to try to do small commission work for current clients.
How You Can Help:
I know that some of y'all want to do what you can for me--which I super appreciate btw! Your kindness during this period has been a real blessing to me during this hard-as-hell time.
So if you want to help, here's a few things you can do for me, in no particular ranking/order:
1. Leave a comment on this post! I like knowing that I'm not just shouting into the void when I make these updates. Even if it's just a heart emoji or "Get well soon," it tells me that I am being heard right now and that is Good.
2. Send me cute birds! Little cockatiel videos are my tiny ray of sunshine for me right now, but I'm a lifetime bird nerd (probably obvious lol) and not picky! Show me the adorable little floofy dinosaurs! I love seeing them! >u< And if there's other cute/funny stuff you want to share that's non-bird related, feel free to send it my way too!
3. Show my characters some love! I mostly mean thoughts/comments on my fellas but you can do other stuff too if you'd wanna; no pressure though! My new 7 Devourly Sins ( https://toyhou.se/TastyAce/characte.....folder:2807069 ) are ones I'd love to hear words on most, but if there's a Main OC ( https://toyhou.se/TastyAce/characte.....folder:1715877 ) you think is cool, tell me! Hearing peoples' appreciation of the characters I have is rad! Even if it's something as simple as, "I like their design," those things make my whole day a little bit better!
I know those aren't big/grand ways to help my situation, but the little stuff truly goes a long way, especially right now. Plus, I don't feel 100% comfortable asking for anything bigger than things like that at this time.
Also, if you want to reach out privately, PLEASE do it! Even if you've never messaged me before, I'm totally cool with random DMs! It's 100% fine as long as you're not a douchebag.
Alright, that's all for now. Stay safe out there, and until next time, I'll be fighting the good food fight to keep myself sustained. <3
The Update:
First, I am calling this event "Brain Ablaze". Because alliteration and shorthand is nice.
More importantly, I haven't really turned a corner, and am now in a treatment program. I thought it would be very short-term, but the path to normalcy the outlined is going to take around 2-3 MONTHS, partially because of my previous doctor ("Doctor Dumbass") fucking up my care. I am ready to commit to that, but it means I have to prioritize getting better of course.
Everything is hard, including life essentials I took for granted--things like eating are now SO difficult. My brain is completely shattered, and I have to pick up the pieces, then repair the damage, bit by bit. I'm an optimist/glass-half-full kind of guy, but this whole thing has seriously tested my ability to find the positives in such a negative situation. I don't wanna unload too much about it right now--I literally don't have the energy and I've also been writing a vent fic that I hope to eventually share; it will be the space for that and explain more to those wanting to understand.
Oh, and I almost passed out while on the toilet on Monday! I went to my new doctor ("Doctor Goodperson") about that yesterday, and it turns out feeling like razors are coming out of your ass isn't a normal part of the human experience! I thought otherwise because of people (including a health professional) in my life I trusted, who dismissed & blamed me for the problem when I tried to bring it to light. Doctor Goodperson did what she could to dig deeper into what's going on, and referred me to other health professionals who can assist further.
In short, I am improving a little, but am DEFINIELY not much better yet. If I had to put a number to it, I'd say that I was 15% better last week, thanks to my psychiatrist tinkering with my meds to help me improve. This week, I am 18% better (so far). Yes, that's a 3% increase, which is good, but there's also a large 82% to go. That's gonna take a while.
What's Next:
I'm going to keep working with my health professionals to further my recovery.
I am not posting public stories again until further notice; I will resume them when I can eat 3 meals a day again.
Patreon-exclusives and monthly games are still on b/c those I can do at least. I'm thinking that Feb's game will come out the end of this week. As previously discussed ( https://www.patreon.com/posts/62784780 ) , the demo I released on Saturday will be March's monthly project.
I'm going to try to do small commission work for current clients.
How You Can Help:
I know that some of y'all want to do what you can for me--which I super appreciate btw! Your kindness during this period has been a real blessing to me during this hard-as-hell time.
So if you want to help, here's a few things you can do for me, in no particular ranking/order:
1. Leave a comment on this post! I like knowing that I'm not just shouting into the void when I make these updates. Even if it's just a heart emoji or "Get well soon," it tells me that I am being heard right now and that is Good.
2. Send me cute birds! Little cockatiel videos are my tiny ray of sunshine for me right now, but I'm a lifetime bird nerd (probably obvious lol) and not picky! Show me the adorable little floofy dinosaurs! I love seeing them! >u< And if there's other cute/funny stuff you want to share that's non-bird related, feel free to send it my way too!
3. Show my characters some love! I mostly mean thoughts/comments on my fellas but you can do other stuff too if you'd wanna; no pressure though! My new 7 Devourly Sins ( https://toyhou.se/TastyAce/characte.....folder:2807069 ) are ones I'd love to hear words on most, but if there's a Main OC ( https://toyhou.se/TastyAce/characte.....folder:1715877 ) you think is cool, tell me! Hearing peoples' appreciation of the characters I have is rad! Even if it's something as simple as, "I like their design," those things make my whole day a little bit better!
I know those aren't big/grand ways to help my situation, but the little stuff truly goes a long way, especially right now. Plus, I don't feel 100% comfortable asking for anything bigger than things like that at this time.
Also, if you want to reach out privately, PLEASE do it! Even if you've never messaged me before, I'm totally cool with random DMs! It's 100% fine as long as you're not a douchebag.
Alright, that's all for now. Stay safe out there, and until next time, I'll be fighting the good food fight to keep myself sustained. <3
having a bad time & could use some kind words
Posted 3 years agoDue to my medical stuff escalating ( https://www.patreon.com/posts/61869863 ; https://www.patreon.com/posts/62042189 ), I went to the hospital today. There was some good news there, and I was able to go home afterwards, but my experience was very negative. The staff were consistently talking down to me and were not very respectful over all. In addition to that, I was not told the results of any of the tests they did on me, and didn't know I had some Big Problems until I checked the online records. There's some serious stuff there--none of which they communicated to me in any way whatsoever.
This whole day has been exhausting, physically and mentally. I just feel very drained, and I could use some kind words right now. So if you appreciate me or my work, it would mean a lot if you left a comment below. Thanks.
tl;dr: I'm going through some shit. If you like me or my work, please comment below. It would mean a lot right now. Thank you.
This whole day has been exhausting, physically and mentally. I just feel very drained, and I could use some kind words right now. So if you appreciate me or my work, it would mean a lot if you left a comment below. Thanks.
tl;dr: I'm going through some shit. If you like me or my work, please comment below. It would mean a lot right now. Thank you.
Medical Hiatus (repost)
Posted 3 years agoHey y'all, just wanted to repost my last journal in case anyone missed it. I also recently added an update to the masterpost on what's going on: https://www.patreon.com/posts/62042189
If you already read this, feel free to skip it. Kind words are appreciated right now if you have any to spare. Stay safe out there. <3
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Hey everyone, TastyAce here. I hope you're doing well. This is something I'm sharing across all platforms. I've scheduled it to go up early on Patreon, and I am now cross-posting it to FA & Aryion, then sharing it on my Twitter & other places.
I had some stuff go down this month that seriously delayed my progress on various things, so I wanted to discuss that in detail. I want to be open with y'all about and make sure we're on the same page.
As this is a bit of a long read, here's what I'm going to do. For those who just want the basic info, I'm going to leave a "Short Version" below. If you want to read the complete details, you can see the "Long Version" on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/posts/61869863
Thanks for reading.
CW starts here: Mentions of depression, mental health, and periods.
I recently got on a new medication to help my brain, and things went very wrong. This treatment seriously messed up my head in various ways from the start of January onward. It made me depressed and extremely unfocused, rendered me barely able to work. and even removed me from the concept of time entirely at numerous points. It was scary, confusing, and bizarre.
At first I figured this was because of my PMDD ("Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder", PMS's fucked-up mutation that affects around 5% of AFAB people) , then my period proper. But I kept struggling even when those had passed. As I thought this was an anomaly that would be rectified in time, I continued my normal activities and didn't think anything of it, until I recently realized that I was so mentally unstable that I could not get work done.
By the time I was able to truly get a grip and start to understand what was going on/why this was happening, the end of the month was near. I still completed a few projects despite all this, and planned out a few things for the future as well. But I didn't get nearly as many things done as I would have liked.
CW ends here.
Here is the plan going forward:
1. I am taking this week to focus on my health and find a solution with my doctor asap. I've already been doing that, but I want to see if we can speed up the process and get things moving.
2. Because of that, there will be no public stories this week. There will still be a Patreon Exclusive.
3. I am not opening public commission slots right now. I want to focus on the work I already have and the work I will be getting on Patreon. Speaking of which. . .
4. Patreon commissions are still fine; as they're shorter, they'll be easier to manage, which will be good.
To those on the writing queue, I'm sorry for the longer-than-usual wait. I am trying to return back to normal and am working to get to a better place soon. My work for you will be completed as soon as I can get to it.
Thank you for reading. Stay safe out there.
https://www.patreon.com/posts/61869863
If you already read this, feel free to skip it. Kind words are appreciated right now if you have any to spare. Stay safe out there. <3
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Hey everyone, TastyAce here. I hope you're doing well. This is something I'm sharing across all platforms. I've scheduled it to go up early on Patreon, and I am now cross-posting it to FA & Aryion, then sharing it on my Twitter & other places.
I had some stuff go down this month that seriously delayed my progress on various things, so I wanted to discuss that in detail. I want to be open with y'all about and make sure we're on the same page.
As this is a bit of a long read, here's what I'm going to do. For those who just want the basic info, I'm going to leave a "Short Version" below. If you want to read the complete details, you can see the "Long Version" on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/posts/61869863
Thanks for reading.
Short Version
CW starts here: Mentions of depression, mental health, and periods.
I recently got on a new medication to help my brain, and things went very wrong. This treatment seriously messed up my head in various ways from the start of January onward. It made me depressed and extremely unfocused, rendered me barely able to work. and even removed me from the concept of time entirely at numerous points. It was scary, confusing, and bizarre.
At first I figured this was because of my PMDD ("Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder", PMS's fucked-up mutation that affects around 5% of AFAB people) , then my period proper. But I kept struggling even when those had passed. As I thought this was an anomaly that would be rectified in time, I continued my normal activities and didn't think anything of it, until I recently realized that I was so mentally unstable that I could not get work done.
By the time I was able to truly get a grip and start to understand what was going on/why this was happening, the end of the month was near. I still completed a few projects despite all this, and planned out a few things for the future as well. But I didn't get nearly as many things done as I would have liked.
CW ends here.
Here is the plan going forward:
1. I am taking this week to focus on my health and find a solution with my doctor asap. I've already been doing that, but I want to see if we can speed up the process and get things moving.
2. Because of that, there will be no public stories this week. There will still be a Patreon Exclusive.
3. I am not opening public commission slots right now. I want to focus on the work I already have and the work I will be getting on Patreon. Speaking of which. . .
4. Patreon commissions are still fine; as they're shorter, they'll be easier to manage, which will be good.
To those on the writing queue, I'm sorry for the longer-than-usual wait. I am trying to return back to normal and am working to get to a better place soon. My work for you will be completed as soon as I can get to it.
Thank you for reading. Stay safe out there.
Long Version:
https://www.patreon.com/posts/61869863
Explaining the Wait & Discussing Updates
Posted 3 years agoUPDATE: I've made a masterpost of medical updates. I will add to it as I learn more about my situation. https://www.patreon.com/posts/62042189/
Hey everyone, TastyAce here. I hope you're doing well. This is something I'm sharing across all platforms. I've scheduled it to go up early on Patreon, and I am now cross-posting it to FA & Aryion, then sharing it on my Twitter & other places.
I had some stuff go down this month that seriously delayed my progress on various things, so I wanted to discuss that in detail. I want to be open with y'all about and make sure we're on the same page.
As this is a bit of a long read, here's what I'm going to do. For those who just want the basic info, I'm going to leave a "Short Version" below. If you want to read the complete details, you can see the "Long Version" on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/posts/expla.....-wait-61869863
Thanks for reading.
CW starts here: Mentions of depression, mental health, and periods.
I recently got on a new medication to help my brain, and things went very wrong. This treatment seriously messed up my head in various ways from the start of January onward. It made me depressed and extremely unfocused, rendered me barely able to work. and even removed me from the concept of time entirely at numerous points. It was scary, confusing, and bizarre.
At first I figured this was because of my PMDD ("Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder", PMS's fucked-up mutation that affects around 5% of AFAB people) , then my period proper. But I kept struggling even when those had passed. As I thought this was an anomaly that would be rectified in time, I continued my normal activities and didn't think anything of it, until I recently realized that I was so mentally unstable that I could not get work done.
By the time I was able to truly get a grip and start to understand what was going on/why this was happening, the end of the month was near. I still completed a few projects despite all this, and planned out a few things for the future as well. But I didn't get nearly as many things done as I would have liked.
CW ends here.
Here is the plan going forward:
1. I am taking this week to focus on my health and find a solution with my doctor asap. I've already been doing that, but I want to see if we can speed up the process and get things moving.
2. Because of that, there will be no public stories this week. There will still be a Patreon Exclusive.
3. I am not opening public commission slots right now. I want to focus on the work I already have and the work I will be getting on Patreon. Speaking of which. . .
4. Patreon commissions are still fine; as they're shorter, they'll be easier to manage, which will be good.
To those on the writing queue, I'm sorry for the longer-than-usual wait. I am trying to return back to normal and am working to get to a better place soon. My work for you will be completed as soon as I can get to it.
Thank you for reading. Stay safe out there.
https://www.patreon.com/posts/expla.....-wait-61869863
Hey everyone, TastyAce here. I hope you're doing well. This is something I'm sharing across all platforms. I've scheduled it to go up early on Patreon, and I am now cross-posting it to FA & Aryion, then sharing it on my Twitter & other places.
I had some stuff go down this month that seriously delayed my progress on various things, so I wanted to discuss that in detail. I want to be open with y'all about and make sure we're on the same page.
As this is a bit of a long read, here's what I'm going to do. For those who just want the basic info, I'm going to leave a "Short Version" below. If you want to read the complete details, you can see the "Long Version" on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/posts/expla.....-wait-61869863
Thanks for reading.
Short Version
CW starts here: Mentions of depression, mental health, and periods.
I recently got on a new medication to help my brain, and things went very wrong. This treatment seriously messed up my head in various ways from the start of January onward. It made me depressed and extremely unfocused, rendered me barely able to work. and even removed me from the concept of time entirely at numerous points. It was scary, confusing, and bizarre.
At first I figured this was because of my PMDD ("Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder", PMS's fucked-up mutation that affects around 5% of AFAB people) , then my period proper. But I kept struggling even when those had passed. As I thought this was an anomaly that would be rectified in time, I continued my normal activities and didn't think anything of it, until I recently realized that I was so mentally unstable that I could not get work done.
By the time I was able to truly get a grip and start to understand what was going on/why this was happening, the end of the month was near. I still completed a few projects despite all this, and planned out a few things for the future as well. But I didn't get nearly as many things done as I would have liked.
CW ends here.
Here is the plan going forward:
1. I am taking this week to focus on my health and find a solution with my doctor asap. I've already been doing that, but I want to see if we can speed up the process and get things moving.
2. Because of that, there will be no public stories this week. There will still be a Patreon Exclusive.
3. I am not opening public commission slots right now. I want to focus on the work I already have and the work I will be getting on Patreon. Speaking of which. . .
4. Patreon commissions are still fine; as they're shorter, they'll be easier to manage, which will be good.
To those on the writing queue, I'm sorry for the longer-than-usual wait. I am trying to return back to normal and am working to get to a better place soon. My work for you will be completed as soon as I can get to it.
Thank you for reading. Stay safe out there.
Long Version:
https://www.patreon.com/posts/expla.....-wait-61869863
I'm taking suggestions for a new game!
Posted 3 years agoMore info & the suggestion rules here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/61276790
You MUST let me know your suggestion by the END OF TODAY! Those that do not follow the rules will be ignored.
I look forward to hearing from y'all! <3
You MUST let me know your suggestion by the END OF TODAY! Those that do not follow the rules will be ignored.
I look forward to hearing from y'all! <3
Notice: TOS Violation
Posted 3 years agoToday, I found out from a friend that two vignettes in my gallery do not follow the guidelines I've laid out. These stories were written for the same person. The commissioner requested them knowing my TOS & Wills/Won'ts full well (I had given them detailed information on the subject in question when discussing ideas), and I wrote/published the pieces not aware that they were crossing my boundaries.
I feel hurt and violated by this, and have deleted the pieces from all of my pages. This person will also be blocked from supporting me in the future and added to my blacklist at the end of the day.
To the commissioner: I have a Won't List for a reason. Despite knowing I wasn't comfortable with this subject, you snuck things by me to get the story you wanted. That is despicable, deceptive, and wrong, especially when it comes to NSFW material.
I don't know what else to say right now. Between this and that other commissioner threatening me over the upload date of their story two months ago, I just feel very disappointed.
Fucking hell.
P.S. I know the timing is strange on this, but to be perfectly clear, this isn't about the recent update I gave my TOS & Wills/Won'ts. This is about something that has been part of my guidelines for a very long time, not related to the new polish I gave my info.
I feel hurt and violated by this, and have deleted the pieces from all of my pages. This person will also be blocked from supporting me in the future and added to my blacklist at the end of the day.
To the commissioner: I have a Won't List for a reason. Despite knowing I wasn't comfortable with this subject, you snuck things by me to get the story you wanted. That is despicable, deceptive, and wrong, especially when it comes to NSFW material.
I don't know what else to say right now. Between this and that other commissioner threatening me over the upload date of their story two months ago, I just feel very disappointed.
Fucking hell.
P.S. I know the timing is strange on this, but to be perfectly clear, this isn't about the recent update I gave my TOS & Wills/Won'ts. This is about something that has been part of my guidelines for a very long time, not related to the new polish I gave my info.
Four Writing Slots Left, TOS, & Taking Suggestions!
Posted 3 years agoHello! A few announcements.
First of all, I have only FOUR commission left for January! :O You can see my prices & this month's discounts here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40857567/
I also gave my TOS a big overhaul last night, along with my Will/Won't/Maybe list. Before commissioning me, please read it here: https://tastyace.carrd.co/#commissioninfoandtos
Finally, I have a 2022 Suggestion Box open to the public, so if you have a minute, tell me what kind of content you want to see from me! https://www.patreon.com/posts/60781996
Patrons can also participate in additional polls that will guide my 2022 creations: https://www.patreon.com/posts/60430350
Thanks for reading. Have a great day! ^u^
First of all, I have only FOUR commission left for January! :O You can see my prices & this month's discounts here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40857567/
I also gave my TOS a big overhaul last night, along with my Will/Won't/Maybe list. Before commissioning me, please read it here: https://tastyace.carrd.co/#commissioninfoandtos
Finally, I have a 2022 Suggestion Box open to the public, so if you have a minute, tell me what kind of content you want to see from me! https://www.patreon.com/posts/60781996
Patrons can also participate in additional polls that will guide my 2022 creations: https://www.patreon.com/posts/60430350
Thanks for reading. Have a great day! ^u^
It's 2022!
Posted 3 years agoHappy New Year, everybody! :D It's 2022 at last!
If you missed my posts ending 2021, here they are:
Polls masterpost: https://patreon.com/posts/60430350
Reflection of the year & looking ahead to the next one: https://patreon.com/posts/60436123
Much love! <3
If you missed my posts ending 2021, here they are:
Polls masterpost: https://patreon.com/posts/60430350
Reflection of the year & looking ahead to the next one: https://patreon.com/posts/60436123
Much love! <3
Merry Christmas!
Posted 3 years agoI hope you all have a fantastic day celebrating this holiday! C:
December's Coms Open! 3 Main Slots & Wishlist Slots!
Posted 4 years agoNew month, new commission discounts! Stories with Christmas themes, and stories that are gifts to others, get 10% off. Get a story involving both and receive 20% off! If you are getting a story as a Christmas gift, you NEED to let me know up-front so I can make sure it's delivered in time for the 25th.
My specialty is vore and kink, but I have a very wide range, from comedy to drama. Please read my Will/Won't list & TOS here: https://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/tastyace/
There's also an alternate commission type: Interactives! If you liked my interactive stories (found here: https://tastyace.itch.io/ ), and wanted me to make one for you, the price is the Word Count + $15 per 1000 words (the coding fee).
ALSO! Since it's Christmas season, I'm trying out the Amazon Wishlist thing again! Here's the deal: instead of taking one of the three slots, if you get something from my wishlist ( https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/.....?ref_=wl_share ) and send me receipt of purchase, I will give you a story equal to the price you paid PLUS 10% more words (If you get something that gets you 1000 words, you get 100 more, etc etc). A good amount of the stuff on that list is for my friends, so if you choose to get something from there, I'd be truly thankful. <3
But for the main coms, I'm only opening 3 slots this month. I may open more.; we'll have to see.
Long commission example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35739748/
Short commission example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35437972/
My specialty is vore and kink, but I have a very wide range, from comedy to drama. Please read my Will/Won't list & TOS here: https://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/tastyace/
There's also an alternate commission type: Interactives! If you liked my interactive stories (found here: https://tastyace.itch.io/ ), and wanted me to make one for you, the price is the Word Count + $15 per 1000 words (the coding fee).
ALSO! Since it's Christmas season, I'm trying out the Amazon Wishlist thing again! Here's the deal: instead of taking one of the three slots, if you get something from my wishlist ( https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/.....?ref_=wl_share ) and send me receipt of purchase, I will give you a story equal to the price you paid PLUS 10% more words (If you get something that gets you 1000 words, you get 100 more, etc etc). A good amount of the stuff on that list is for my friends, so if you choose to get something from there, I'd be truly thankful. <3
But for the main coms, I'm only opening 3 slots this month. I may open more.; we'll have to see.
Long commission example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35739748/
Short commission example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35437972/
No story today (doctor's appointment & other bad stuff)
Posted 4 years agoNot posting today, sorry everyone. I have a doctor's appointment that's gonna be taking up most of my energy, and on top of that, my mental health has hit an all time low b/c of shit that went down over the weekend.
I'll post and respond to messages on Tuesday; I don't have the energy to do either at the moment. Here's hoping tomorrow is a better day.
I'm sorry. I'm trying my best. The past few months have been very difficult, possibly one of the worst times of my life (it's up there, at least). I'm just trying to get through.
Until tomorrow, then.
I'll post and respond to messages on Tuesday; I don't have the energy to do either at the moment. Here's hoping tomorrow is a better day.
I'm sorry. I'm trying my best. The past few months have been very difficult, possibly one of the worst times of my life (it's up there, at least). I'm just trying to get through.
Until tomorrow, then.
We Made It; 1 Com Slot Left; & Thank You
Posted 4 years agoThis is something I'm posting on all platforms.
First of all, a celebration! The Kickstarter I'm running with Ianaro made its goal! ( https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ects-of-desire ) I'm so happy that we can make Objects Of Desire a reality. >u< It's very exciting!
Second of all, I only have 1 commission slot left for this month! So if you want it, grab it while you can! I might take on more, but it depends on how I'm feeling & if I have the capacity for it.
Finally, I wanted to thank you all for reaching out to me after my post yesterday ( https://www.patreon.com/posts/58494918 ). It's been a rough ride, and all of your kind words are very appreciated. <3
I'll resume writing next week; I'm excited to get back to it. Thank you all again!
First of all, a celebration! The Kickstarter I'm running with Ianaro made its goal! ( https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ects-of-desire ) I'm so happy that we can make Objects Of Desire a reality. >u< It's very exciting!
Second of all, I only have 1 commission slot left for this month! So if you want it, grab it while you can! I might take on more, but it depends on how I'm feeling & if I have the capacity for it.
Finally, I wanted to thank you all for reaching out to me after my post yesterday ( https://www.patreon.com/posts/58494918 ). It's been a rough ride, and all of your kind words are very appreciated. <3
I'll resume writing next week; I'm excited to get back to it. Thank you all again!
2 Commission Slots Left, KS Ending Soon, Some Serious Stu...
Posted 4 years agoHey everyone! This is a post I'm making across all platforms.
A few announcements. First, I only have 2 more story commission slots open for this month: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40857567/ So if you want a story, grab one asap. I don't plan on opening anymore slots this month, for reasons I'll get into below, but if that changes, I will keep you all posted.
Second, the Kickstarter I'm doing with Ianaro is ending in TWO DAYS! Our game is only $125 away from being funded, so if you want to see it happen, PLEASE pledge to the project: https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ects-of-desire
Now onto some more serious stuff.
November has just started, but it's already been a difficult time for me. From being threatened by a client ( https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44494596/ ) to receiving some very bad news concerning my family, my heart has been quite heavy. I thought September/October was a low point for me with the emergency, but I was wrong--things have gotten, much, much worse. It's not something I feel I can really discuss here, but just know that I am struggling.
I plan to primarily focus on my family stuff this week and try to sort that out, keeping commission work to a minimum. I will resume full speed ahead next week. This means if you're on the writing queue, you shouldn't expect a draft of your story until then, but it depends on how I'm doing--I tend to continue working even in the most difficult of times, so you might get one, you might not. We'll see if I have the energy.
The reason I haven't really talked about what's been going on is because I have an obligation to my clients to keep working, but I can't go on like this. I need to take some time to focus on my own struggles, and deal with that before returning to writing. Stories will still be posted daily as normal, unless I release a blog post saying otherwise, and November's game is still on track to be finished in time.
If you want to help, kind words are very appreciated right now. Cute pics of your characters/sonas are also lovely. Just knowing that y'all care is really nice, and I was touched by the people who reached out to me when things got rough in September/October.
That's all I have to say for right now. I hope you've been doing well, and I'll keep you all updated as things go.
Thank you.
A few announcements. First, I only have 2 more story commission slots open for this month: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40857567/ So if you want a story, grab one asap. I don't plan on opening anymore slots this month, for reasons I'll get into below, but if that changes, I will keep you all posted.
Second, the Kickstarter I'm doing with Ianaro is ending in TWO DAYS! Our game is only $125 away from being funded, so if you want to see it happen, PLEASE pledge to the project: https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ects-of-desire
Now onto some more serious stuff.
November has just started, but it's already been a difficult time for me. From being threatened by a client ( https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44494596/ ) to receiving some very bad news concerning my family, my heart has been quite heavy. I thought September/October was a low point for me with the emergency, but I was wrong--things have gotten, much, much worse. It's not something I feel I can really discuss here, but just know that I am struggling.
I plan to primarily focus on my family stuff this week and try to sort that out, keeping commission work to a minimum. I will resume full speed ahead next week. This means if you're on the writing queue, you shouldn't expect a draft of your story until then, but it depends on how I'm doing--I tend to continue working even in the most difficult of times, so you might get one, you might not. We'll see if I have the energy.
The reason I haven't really talked about what's been going on is because I have an obligation to my clients to keep working, but I can't go on like this. I need to take some time to focus on my own struggles, and deal with that before returning to writing. Stories will still be posted daily as normal, unless I release a blog post saying otherwise, and November's game is still on track to be finished in time.
If you want to help, kind words are very appreciated right now. Cute pics of your characters/sonas are also lovely. Just knowing that y'all care is really nice, and I was touched by the people who reached out to me when things got rough in September/October.
That's all I have to say for right now. I hope you've been doing well, and I'll keep you all updated as things go.
Thank you.
No story today
Posted 4 years agoSorry y'all, it's been one hell of a week. -_- Hopefully will be around for live writing.
No story today, too busy
Posted 4 years agoWill resume tomorrow hopefully!
2 Truths And A Lie WINNER!
Posted 4 years agoHey everyone! I'm here to reveal the winner of 2 Truths & A Lie!
First though, a reminder: IanaroTheCorgi & I are running a Kickstarter! It only needs $105 to get fully funded. Go do so here: https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ects-of-desire
Now let's do this!
Let's go through the statements one by one.
1. Outside of my TastyAce account, I am an award-winning game developer.
TRUTH! I've been recognized quite a few times in the field, which is very meaningful to me. I was even nominated for a pretty significant achievement in [FIELD REDACTED] this year, and it was such an honor.
2. I hate butternut squash.
TRUTH! I have hated butternut squash since I was a child. Yuck! >m< Do you like butternut squash? Feel free to argue with me in the comments lol.
3. I can write up to 1200 words per hour.
LIE! I can actually write MORE than 1200 words per hour when I'm in the zone (in one recent com, I clocked at 1500 words per hour), which I'm very excited about lol. >u< To be fair, I could have phrased this better, but there you go.
Of everyone, AzarionSWE (FA) and sheq2 (Patreon) guessed #3. And the winner is . . .
. . . AzarionSWE! Congrats! :D
Thanks for playing, everyone! <3
First though, a reminder: IanaroTheCorgi & I are running a Kickstarter! It only needs $105 to get fully funded. Go do so here: https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ects-of-desire
Now let's do this!
Let's go through the statements one by one.
1. Outside of my TastyAce account, I am an award-winning game developer.
TRUTH! I've been recognized quite a few times in the field, which is very meaningful to me. I was even nominated for a pretty significant achievement in [FIELD REDACTED] this year, and it was such an honor.
2. I hate butternut squash.
TRUTH! I have hated butternut squash since I was a child. Yuck! >m< Do you like butternut squash? Feel free to argue with me in the comments lol.
3. I can write up to 1200 words per hour.
LIE! I can actually write MORE than 1200 words per hour when I'm in the zone (in one recent com, I clocked at 1500 words per hour), which I'm very excited about lol. >u< To be fair, I could have phrased this better, but there you go.
Of everyone, AzarionSWE (FA) and sheq2 (Patreon) guessed #3. And the winner is . . .
. . . AzarionSWE! Congrats! :D
Thanks for playing, everyone! <3
Let's Play 2 Truths & A Lie! Win a Story!
Posted 4 years agoHey friends!
In case you missed it, my bud IanaroTheCorgi & I are running a Kickstarter! It only needs $105 to get fully funded.
https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ects-of-desire
Now onto the show!
___________
I'm giving away a free 1000 word commission! All you have to do is play 2 Truths & A Lie with me, and guess what the lie is! Just comment/reply with the number corresponding to what you think the lie is.
You can also play on Twitter here: https://twitter.com/ace_tasty/statu.....918476294?s=20
And on Patreon here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/57972026
I will randomly choose the winner from those who guessed correctly on November 1st.
Here we go:
1. Outside of my TastyAce account, I am an award' winning game developer.
2. I hate butternut squash.
3. I can write up to 1200 words per hour.
Good luck!
In case you missed it, my bud IanaroTheCorgi & I are running a Kickstarter! It only needs $105 to get fully funded.
https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ects-of-desire
Now onto the show!
___________
I'm giving away a free 1000 word commission! All you have to do is play 2 Truths & A Lie with me, and guess what the lie is! Just comment/reply with the number corresponding to what you think the lie is.
You can also play on Twitter here: https://twitter.com/ace_tasty/statu.....918476294?s=20
And on Patreon here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/57972026
I will randomly choose the winner from those who guessed correctly on November 1st.
Here we go:
1. Outside of my TastyAce account, I am an award' winning game developer.
2. I hate butternut squash.
3. I can write up to 1200 words per hour.
Good luck!
Kickstarter Drabble--Gets Longer As More People Pledge!
Posted 4 years agoWe're at 25% raised for Objects of Desire on Kickstarter! Thank you all for your support! To thank you for supporting me--& give you content I KNOW you'll love--for every 5% raised, I'll write more of a vore drabble for you all. You're welcome! :3
Here's the first part of the drabble. Next part at 30%:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44144574/
Here's the first part of the drabble. Next part at 30%:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44144574/
The KS is at 25%! Can we get to 30% today?
Posted 4 years agoGo back it! https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ects-of-desire
Synopsis: Athena is a down-on-her-luck dom & poly career gal who can’t seem to find love, no matter what she does. But, when she stumbles upon the Objects of Desire cafe, she meets 3 men who might be able to give her what she needs…& something more.
RT our tweets about the game: https://twitter.com/IanaroTheCorgi/.....48613181251588 ; https://twitter.com/ace_tasty/statu.....60886659518469 .
Back the game! https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ects-of-desire
Synopsis: Athena is a down-on-her-luck dom & poly career gal who can’t seem to find love, no matter what she does. But, when she stumbles upon the Objects of Desire cafe, she meets 3 men who might be able to give her what she needs…& something more.
RT our tweets about the game: https://twitter.com/IanaroTheCorgi/.....48613181251588 ; https://twitter.com/ace_tasty/statu.....60886659518469 .
Back the game! https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ects-of-desire
October's Commissions Are OPEN! 5 Slots!
Posted 4 years agoMore info here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40857567
I look forward to working with you! There are only a few slots open right now, so grab one while you can!
I look forward to working with you! There are only a few slots open right now, so grab one while you can!
