For good.

Contact details are here:

Skype: tenebryocta
Telegram: @ Flooftastic
Twitter: @ Flooftastic

I'll check back here for the rest of today, then I'm closing my account.

There are plenty of things happening which are getting me down but I'd be here forever if I tried listing them all.

I'll be around to fave stuff, but I won't be accepting any trades or commissions for the time being. If you want to stay in touch, I'm around on Skype. If there's enough demand, I'll make a Telegram or something.

See you guys, take care. I don't know when I'll be back posting art and comments.

I'm supporting tigers through sponsorship. It's pretty obvious that they're my favourite animal and I want to do what I can to help conserve these magnificent beasts. <3 Definitely go check out some of the conservation work that goes on. It's a tremendous effort which can only keep going with our help. Do it for tigers. <3

It's Global Tiger Day on Friday. I've done my bit to help tiger conservation and I feel happy that my little bit has gone to keeping such wonderful beasts alive. <3

 heavyhoss and  seltkie are in need of commissions to help pay their rent this month. These guys have really great talent; I've commissioned them before and the result was stunning. Definitely go check them out, commission if you can, if not, spread the word!

 dralffeine is in need of funds to help pay for dental bills! He's one of the most talented artists I've met here. You'd be getting some of the most exquisite attention to detail, definitely worth checking out. Commission if you can, but please, spend a couple of minutes just helping promote these three great artists.

Thanks for reading!

You realise some people you know seem to enjoy/prefer talking to others more than you.

Just me? Probably. Doesn't help the whole low self esteem, wanting to get to know more people thing when they won't enjoy talking to me.

 ian-exe's!

Go wish him a good one!

Thanks everyone for showing an interest. I'm getting a bit overwhelmed with them now so I'll have to close them.

The second part. I'm sick of my constant failure to fit in the fandom properly. It's killing my drive to draw and every time I log into FA, I'm fed up of knowing that I'll come off it feeling miserable. So, I should think that in the near future, I'll be leaving.

I dunno what is wrong with me but I have such a tendency to mess up.

Mrph.

I'm still doing the requests but I think I should call it a night. I'm so sick of inadvertently pushing people away when I'm desperate to make more friends here.

Leaving the site/fandom inches closer again.

I need to warm up, so Imma draw some characters.

They'll only be sketches, but hey, it's win win, right? Just leave a link and some idea of what you'd like!

That was one weird flight. Delayed by half an hour for seemingly no reason and lots of random changes of direction. It didn't help that I wasn't sitting by the window; I usually look out the window to get some sort of idea of where I am.

But eh, with three hours of sleep and no food in me at all because I feel sick, I'm home! I'll need a day to chill before I can get to some art I think.

Urrrrgh.

My limit is 25°C before I start feeling weird. I'm better in the cold. Around 0°C is preferable.

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Check out this artist for some beautifully finished work! And she offers work for really affordable prices! At the very least, go give Carrie a watch; she's amazing! :D

Despite it being a disastrous year for me, I came out with a decent grade.

Go me.

Yep.

That's all.

Enjoy your Thursday.

...why?

I've been in such a slump with art lately. I'd love people to notice my art for what it is, not just because I've drawn butts or fat characters or anything like that. Who honestly noticed when I started using new pencils, for example?

I get really upset when I get barely any interest in my art. I share most of my art with you all here. I thrive on constructive criticism as much as I do compliments. My enthusiasm for it is dropping, in all honesty. I'm just tired of not inspiring anyone.

Hi everyone.

I'm off to Spain on Saturday to completely die of overheating for the family holiday. I'll be away from home and art stuff for a week but I should still be able to chat some evenings!

I've begun work on a piece which should test my abilities! It's making me learn new things. Motivation is really low right now, though, so any kind of drawing is, in all honesty, becoming a chore. I want to keep going but self-esteem is nonexistant right now.

With all that said, I'd love to chat to some people. I miss talking to you all!

I may not actually get one right now, but I was wondering if anyone around was accepting commissions. Just want to see who's open!

What a shit past few days that was. I don't think I've ever been more of an emotional wreck, ever.

I'm really unhappy, essentially. Unhappy about my art, unhappy that I'm not making progress. Unhappy with life at home, how dad's ill again, the constant arguing.

However, I have spent the past few days planning a new approach which, although cutting productivity, should boost quality. But I don't intend on submitting anything until I've got something to be proud of.

Big thanks to everyone who has supported me over the past few days.

I can't do this

In light of that last journal and to make it easy for everyone, I've made a quick straw poll so I can get some help on what to do.

http://www.strawpoll.me/10609025

Please please please answer it if you can.

I don't feel like I'm making any progress anymore. Nobody noticed or remembered about my new pencils. I'm finding it impossible to improve now. I'm tired of not impressing anyone.

Hi everyone.

Here we go, I'm doing it, I'm going to open for commissions in a couple of days. Why a couple of days, well, my room has been turned pretty much upside down while I'm redecorating so working space is very much at a premium... As in, I can't get to my desk and my bed is situated diagonally across my room. I also have a trade to complete which needs to be done before I start accepting commissions.

However, I'll make use of this time to inform you of the details of these commissions:

- The price will be $10. This will buy you a cleaned pencil sketch of one character with shading
- I accept payment via Paypal only at present; to those who decide to commission me, I'll send you my Paypal details for transaction
- I'll be accepting two commissions initially, although if they go well, I'll open for a third slot

As for what I will and will not draw, I'd prefer to discuss through notes.

** This journal may be updated, so please keep an eye out. **

Thanks very much for reading, your support and I look forward to taking on this new challenge!

Just don't, I don't want to talk.