Hewwoooo everyone! Hope you all have been doing well! (Even if it's during these dark times... ^^;)

I've been thinking, and wanted to tell you guys, that ever since I shared an IRL pic of myself, I figured I might as well go along with it and treat my platform here not only a space for my art, but also my fursuiting pics!

Not to mention, I have shared in my bio that I now have a music project! Even as we speak, I have been brainstorming some riffs, song titles, lyrics, singles, ep albums, full albums, etc. And perform it live at open mic or hopefully, underground punk or queercore venues! And this is just the beginning!

Secretly, I've been brainstorming merch! I wanna give a shot at selling stuff at the Dealer's Den at conventions. So I made some furry punk and queercore patch designs! Still thinking of t shirt designs, tank top designs, crop top designs, pins, and vice versa! And just now, I thought to myself this; If I'm doing all of this, why not make my own zine? Zine is basically like independent magazines from independent artists, creators, musicians, etc. It's a DIY thing not only on the surface, but also predominant in the underground scene! And that's where I wanna do it! However, this is just an idea, but I wanna hold onto it and keep brainstorming it because all of this is a VERY big step. DoorDashing isn't easy, I'll tell you that much, but it's better than nothing at all.

Also! I plan on remaking and upgrading my Twitch account! I've been thinking about being a furry twitch streamer for a bit. Either a furry pngtuber or so, or a 3D one (which would be awesome!), and hopefully make a lot of content and collabs!

That's all I have to share for now! I'm gonna be HELLA busy that's for sure. Wish me the best! Love you all and thank you all for the love and support! Seriously means a lot to me! <33

Heya guys! It’s been a while since I’ve been on Fur Affinity. A lot has been going on. So I’ll explain…as much as I can. Both good and bad.

Let’s cover the good stuff! :)

My New Art Style

As many you already know, I have a new art style! After painstaking days of trying to find it, looking at references, getting ideas, etc., I have finally found my own unique signature art style. I came up with a name for it. I call it “Cutie Toonie”. (Don’t judge me. X3) So from now on, that will be my art style. Also, about my other OCs, like Auro, Deolei, Munzee, etc., I decided that with them and Teono, they all moved on. They still keep in contact, you’ll just rarely see them. I felt it’s be best if I don’t have like…8 or more OCs lol. But, I think I’ll stick with just 4. Teono (Me), and 3 others, and that’ll be all. And with that, since I also draw digital art now, I’m still brainstorming my commission sheet idea. I’m sure you guys would love to get art commission of my traditional or digital art.

TL;DR - I have a new signature art style called Cutie Toonie. New OCs will come as the old ones will move on. They’re not gone forever. They’ll still be around here and there.

Partial Fursuit/Petsuit Idea

So I got this fun idea. Instead of spending thousands on a full fursuit, why not crack the code and get a partial fursuit then get a petsuit? (Wish I thought of this before lol) I feel like it’s easier to do that. So somewhere in the near future, you guys will see the irl selfies and pics of Teono the Fox! It’ll be very exciting! Plus I’ll hopefully visit more Furry Cons in my suit. I also thought petsuit because I have always imagine that despite wearing a fursuit, I still wear clothes. But with a petsuit, it’s be easier to do that. Of course in a fursuit, I could walk around without any clothes overlaying the fursuit (technically walk about naked), but I wanna bring the full magic of my fursuit in, and wear clothes, to feel like as if I am authentically my fursona.

TL;DR - I wanna get a partial fursuit and petsuit. I got a good feeling about it, and I think it’ll be awesome!

Eating & Living Healthy

Lately, I’ve been trying to monitor how much and what I eat. I wanna live a healthy and fit lifestyle. But I’m not aiming to be a bulky or muscular dude. I just wanna be lean and thin. Nothing more. Basically, I’m trying to eat a lesser amount than what I normally eat, and focus on eating vegan products, fruits, veggies, or so on. Though I know I’m not gonna be perfect at it, because I’m still gonna eat meat here and there. But still, I hope I do my very best at it. I’m also trying to get myself to visit the gym, and make it a habit, to burn calories, and keep a decent physique, now that I’ve figured out what my reps are and such.

TL;DR - I’m going vegan (I know not completely). Also trying to visit the gym and turn it into a habit.

And now…for the bad stuff. :(

Twitter

For those of you who know already, you can skip ahead on this one. For those of you who don’t know, Many weeks ago, Elon Musk took over Twitter, and it was anything but pretty. After he took over, and after a couple of tweets from him, all kinds of trolls and literally racist, fascist, homophobic, religious fanatics, etc. SPEWED their rhetorics, beliefs, and hate in their tweets. So much so, the mayhem was many times more frequent than before. (500%). Not only that, Elon Musk fired many associates that work on Twitter day in and day out. Hearing that, info spread like wildfire, and many different kinds of artists (furry, non furry, anime, cartoon, etc. alike) shared their links of their profiles on other sites. Afterwards, many bailed, but many stayed. I was in between of staying or going. But later on, after sharing my links, I decided that I will stay until I actually see Twitter’s complete decline. But afterwards, I moved my focus from that towards my art and new style that I adopted. So in the meantime, I’m still on Twitter. But I also hope it doesn’t go away. I’ve been on the site since 2017. I grew up with Twitter, and all of my mutuals on there too. It’d be heartbreaking.

TL;DR - Elon Musk took over Twitter, critically crippling it as horrible people had or are having a field day on it. I’m staying, but focusing more on my art, followers, and mutuals. Hoping and wishing the best of both worlds.

Jobs

For months, my parents have been on my back about getting a job, despite the fact that I have applied to as many places as I can at the same time. Right now, I’m working only 1 day a week at Hot Topic. And believe me, that is not what I want, but it’s better than no job with no income. Plus, being in retail for 4 years or more, I’ve had a lot of negative experiences, even thought it’s to be expected. But when it’s consistent, that’s where with me, raises eyebrows. So I’ve been looking at places based off of my interests, but I am running out of options, and I have been constantly arguing with myself, on whether I should just make an OnlyFans, or work at a Gay Nightclub or so, as a server or dancer. But due to my parents telling me stories of their friends getting in dangerous situations where they got hurt or “their dignity robbed”, and the one OF horror story that actually disturbed me, I’ve rejected the idea many many times out of fear for my life and safety. So…job hunting? It’s sucking worse than I want it to.

TL;DR - Job hunting has been very difficult. I’m low on options, and I’m on edge as my parents basically pressure me on getting a job or working 2 jobs.

My Mental Health & Well-being

Okay so…My mental health has been pretty screwed up for a while. My other therapist wasn’t much help, and basically was the kind that doesn’t hear you out, and instead, gives you activities. Now of course that may help, but what I do, it’s not just for fun, it’s to take care of myself and feel better. I don’t want any “activities”, I just want to be heard and understood. Because of unresolved trauma of my past that my parents basically put under the rug, and family drama between my parents and siblings that followed, it really did a lot of emotional and mental damage. Basically, now I have self harm scars on my arms. It’s not only embarrassing, but it feels shameful. I’ve also been down, hopeless, angry, stressed, anxious, on edge, etc. lately, and it is not fun. My self esteem is like…critically low too, so I’m also self conscious about myself on some things like my looks, personality, and vice versa. Luckily my health doctor is recommending me better psychiatrist or so. So I’m trying to get myself to get a better one.

TL;DR - Due to having a not-so-helpful therapist, family drama, unknown or unheard trauma, things have been hard, sad, frustrating, and painful. Looking into getting either a better therapist, or trying the site BetterHelp.

That’s about all. There are other stuff I thought about talking about, but one is for a surprise, and the other one, still nervous or anxious to announce. But overall, things have been up, down, good, bad, soft, rough, the whole deal. But, I hope things will look up once everything is said and done. And finally, it feels good to be back. Love you guys, and thank you for your love & support. I sincerely appreciate it. 💙

Hey, guys! I wanna let you know that my commissions are now open 24/7, 365! Since I always or usually forget to close my commission, I thought to myself, "Screw it. Just keep it open." :P

So, if you're interested in getting a commission from me, just send me a DM anytime! ^^

Yeah. It was a prank. I guess an April Fool's Prank. :P

But as the song from Germs suggests, and it applies to what I,  AaronDrawsArts,  THEMRCAGD, and other of my close friends

What We Do Is Secret

But don't worry. I'm planning to start drawing again. I just need to find the right time to do it because now I am becoming more busy at my job as I was offered more hours. You know I couldn't have turned the offer down.

Hey guys. Sorry that I have been inactive...again...and as usual. I wanna draw, I really do, but I basically have too much on my mind. I'll break it down for you.

TL;DR
My job has been a massive hassle. Family situations have not gotten better, mostly with my older sister. Been struggling with dark emotions that I cannot stand, nor did I ask for, as well as deal with self-hate. I am trying to draw new things, such as Anime Characters/Human Characters, but it's been really hard.




My Job
So, I basically work as a Stocker at a small grocery store. I get paid well, but to...maybe somewhat of a brutal or damaging cost. Basically, when I go to work, I have to wake up at 4 AM to go to work at 5 AM. Stay until 9 AM or 2 PM. And I am at work almost every day. I only have 1 or 2 days off, and I barely have time for myself. For I always come back home from work, either dead tired, or very frustrated. Sometimes I am a people person, but because of my job, most of the times, I'm not.

My boss is mostly upbeat with everyone else, but is never upbeat with me. He's always strict on me with bizarre and impossible expectations. And since I am a seasonal associate, I try everything in my human abilities to reach his expectations. I have even gone as far as to neglect my spiritual, mental, emotional, and physical health and wellbeing just to work hard and keep my job. And before the owner moved to Germany, he was a sexist, and he had that vibe that intimidated me. He seemed like a nice guy, and dresses very nicely, but I always saw him as the owner who was a force to be reckon with.

At work, I feel overworked, underappreciated, and I may seem happy sometimes, but on the inside, I am not okay. I always worry about the day where I either get let go, or stay. If I stay, wonderful. Then I'll be able to achieve my goals. However, if I do get let go, that'll also be the day where I abandon retail jobs. I can't do it anymore. I just don't feel it is healthy for me. so I'm better off at looking for Photography Jobs.



Family Issues
My older sister basically treats me with negativity often, and it's wearing on me. She usually judges me, the way I am, and the life I live (sometimes on that part.) And my parents, (mainly my dad) has said that he doesn't favor me or my sister, he loves us the same, but when my older sister says whatever to me that annoys me, upsets me, or whatever, no one says anything. But when I say something about it, or I call it out, I'm always in the wrong. Eventually, I decided to just cut her out of my life. I don't bother talking to her or anything. But I still don't know why I give her attention from time to time. I wanna stop doing that. But that has been driving me insane. Her horrible attitude that makes her seem immature and such. And the past and previous family drama I had that were barbaric and such, I've mostly been isolating myself from my family, or when I do come out of my room, I always have this sick feeling that even when I say or do a simple thing, someone gets upset at me for it, knowing that I haven't done anything wrong.

My dad says to just be myself, but when I do, someone has a problem or I get judged by my older sister for it. So I'm always scared, uncomfortable, or whatever, to be myself outside of my room. I always feel like someone has a problem.



Inner Turmoil
I have been struggling with anxiety, depression, frustrations, suicidal thoughts/feelings, stress, self-hate, self-doubt, etc. I've been having nightmares often, and I have nonsuicidal self-harm scars, due to these dark emotions being overwhelming when things get out of control. I have forgotten how to love myself, and Idk how to love myself again. I'm trying to figure out on where to start, and how as well, but because of these dark emotions, and all of what is happening, it's like trying to find a needle in a haystack. And a very small needle in a huge haystack.



Other
I've been trying to draw new things, mainly human anime characters, but I suck at drawing anime, let alone humans. But I try and try, and when I start drawing, whether it's Furry-related or Anime-related, my energy and desire to keep going or do it, either slowly, or quickly deteriorate. Like as if I hit a tall sturdy wall, and I get stuck as I struggle to find my way around it, and it's been getting on my nerves as I get frustrated with that and myself included.



And I think that about covers it. All of that is the reason why I have not been drawing and such lately. I am really trying to readjust things so I can get back into the swing of things I once was before. As well as be more happy, self-loving, self-confident, more motivated, etc. But again...I am very sorry guys. It's just....been really hard lately. :(

Hiya, guys. I know it's been a while since I did some artwork for you guys, and I sincerely apologize for it all. I'll explain what's going on.

I'm moving to a new house with my family, but it's been weeks, almost a month, and we haven't been able to move in early. So things have been stressful, as my parents have been stressed out of their minds as they work hard, every morning and every evening to make the money to pay bills and such.

There has also been some family drama going on too. And that has been doing a number on my depression, anxiety, stress, intrusive thoughts, suicidal thoughts, and I haven't been taking good care of myself mentally, emotionally, and physically. And that's another thing. I have been depressed and such, as I suffer suicidal thoughts, intrusive thoughts, (sometimes) nightmares.

I have also been getting into other things. Such as Skateboarding, Punk Rock, Ventriloquism, and drawing anime too. I have been brainstorming MANY OCs. Furry, Scalie, Anime, Hero, Villain, etc.

I also got let go from my job because of Business Decisions to cut hours for all associates, and cut away Part-Time Associates, and Seasonal Associates, and I was a Full-Time Seasonal Associate. Luckily, I can be rehired, but I feel as if a lot more has been put on me as a truckload of job opportunities have been presented to me.

So mostly, I have been trying to take care of myself, practice things, brainstorm ideas, adjust things, take care of stress and such, and it's the reason why I haven't drawn lately and such.

TL;DR: I have a lot of pressure on my back about the move, losing the job, personal struggles, family drama, and taking care of things.

Again, I sincerely apologize for my inactivity, and I hope you guys understand.

For days, I have been struggling to take care of myself mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. It's been hard to focus on those due to stress, frustrations, and pressure at work, and at home. Weeks or so, I have been depressed and such, and I even had nightmares that really brought me down. So now I REALLY must focus on taking care of myself, so I can remove all of the dark and negative emotions that I have been balling up and hiding away for weeks, maybe even months...or years.

It's very unhealthy to hold those emotions in for so long. And before I knew it, it's starting, or has been doing a number on my health in all of the categories. So, I'll be away for a while for Self-Healing. And I have also forgotten how to forgive myself and love myself, and I wanna know how to do those again.

And that's right. I have also been suffering from self-hate too, as well as self-doubt. I couldn't stand having these feelings and beliefs any longer. I know deep down in my heart, I love myself, and I can forgive myself. It's just that right now...Idk how...

So I must be away until then. I hope you all understand. And I apologize for the hiatus, but it is that important. Pray for me, wish me well and best of luck. I love you all. God Bless. <3

P.S.: I'll still chat with my friends from time to time. But still...I must do this. But not alone.

I want to let you guys know that I'll be absent for a little while. I'm getting caught up in more things that'll keep me pretty busy. Including the fact that I have Wisdom Tooth surgery coming as well. And I'll be working hard to get my Fursuit too. I'll still be available here and there, but it won't be as often as I use to, for now at least. I mean, I just have a ton of stuff, work, responsibilities, concerns, worries, stress, and such on my back, and I am still trying to take care of myself physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.

I hope you guys can understand. And I apologize for all of this, but things have been even more hectic than I want it to be, or should be. It's a lot to cover, because it's so overwhelming and such. But I'm afraid I'm gonna be absent until things...or everything, calms down.

It...got kinda wonky. Like, when I was away for Spritiual Healing and Self-Care in physical, emotional, and mental sense. But at first, I forgot about closing it, then I didn't even bother to close it, as I left it open, because I still had some commissions to do or so, and usually, after I close commissions, I post the artwork. But for now, it got pretty sloppy, and that was my fault. So for now, commissions are closed. I just feel disoriented. >.<

Hiya, guys. I have been busy and away for a while. I'm still trying to heal myself, and I now work at a Full-Time job. But I know that things will get better for me at some point. As long as I keep trying and not give up, I will be okay. And I refuse to give up. I really do appreciate your support. It means a lot. ^^

Hiya guys. A little announcement I wanna make. My Patreon is still open for support, and it's important. I think I finally found a place that I wanna move into. Not only that, I want to achieve my Fursuit Goal. That would be the biggest achievement in my life. As well as other things too. Your support is VERY appreciated, for it would help me achieve my goal, and be able to pay the rent, pay for important stuff, such as medication and so on, and live happily too.

I can't say where exactly because I wanna keep that private. I hope you can understand on that. But I can say that it's an apartment complex. My therapist thought it was a good idea to start in an apartment if I am moving out on my own.

But again, the support is needed and very much appreciated. And I am not saying all of this to get you guys to support my Patreon to gain popularity, or to get attention, or stuff like that. That's just greedy, and basically lying. And that's not cool...at all. I am being dead serious when I say all of this.

Again, please come support my Patreon. It is very much appreciated a lot, and it really means a lot to me.

My Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/TeonotheFox

Hey, guys! Today, commissions are open! Take a look at my commission info at the featured art!
If you're interested in getting a commission from me, send me a DM! ^^

Hey, guys! Don't forget, come support my Patreon. I decided to change the rewards in the tiers to make things a little more interesting. If you're interested or curious, then click on the link to see what's up. ^^

https://www.patreon.com/TeonotheFox

Since I got started on my Patreon, I forgot to mention that Commissions are almost ending, and I'm pretty late on previews. For all of that, I apologize. I've been caught up in a lot of stuff, as well as making sure all is set and well, wandering in artwork ideas, trying to set them up one by one, etc. ^^;

Commissions are about to end. So if you're still interested, send me a DM on here, or my Twitter while it's still open. Here's the link to my Twitter: https://twitter.com/TeonotheFox

But from now on, there will be previews of special artwork or just my artwork in general. If you like to see the sketches, WIP (Behind the scenes), or the artwork before it's public, come support me on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/TeonotheFox

I have officially joined Pillowfort! If you want to give my Pillowfort account a follow, then come on in! :D

https://www.pillowfort.social/TeonotheFox

Please Read.
This does not go out to my friends.

If anyone is wondering why my Discord, Telegram, and Steam link isn't here, it's because I am closing off DMs and so on after a friend that I have tried to help for 2 years, showed me that he can't be help after sharing me a graphic image of him cutting. After 2 years, I cannot take it anymore. I am not a psychologist, yet I am being treated like one. It stresses me out really badly, and it hurts to even deal with it. I don't mean to seem mean, but there's only so much that I can handle. I have my limits.

I tried my best to help, but it just seems like nothing's working. I have already lost friends, or have them leave me because of stuff like this. And I hate to talk about topics like this, but understand that there's only so much that I can handle. So for a while, I am not sharing my Discord profile, and my Telegram profile either. Those will be deemed as "For Friends Only" for a while. I hate to go that route, but understand that I alone,, am struggling with stuff and pain also.

I'm trying to gather myself, make myself live happily like I use to when I was a kid. Now lately, and tbh, I have been depressed, sad, angry, etc., and none of this is helping. If anything, it's just making the pain and struggle I have more painful and hard. I'm sorry. But I just need some time away. No new DMs and such. I just...need some time. Don't take any of this the wrong way. I'm just trying to help myself before anyone else. I feel like if this gets any worse, I wouldn't be the me I want to be. I'd probably be mentally and emotionally broken. As well as being even more mentally and emotionally hurt than ever.

Right now...I need a break.

Hey guys. I may not be one to get on serious or venting topics, things have been bothering me to the point where I'm gonna have to address it. This doesn't go to my friends btw.

Now I understand that if you want to message me, or meet me, or whatever, you want to socialize and such, which is fine. But understand and know that when it comes to it, there are boundaries and such that I have that I need to tell you about.
When you message me, or want to meet me, and when I introduce myself, or when you do, I don't want our first meeting to be a cuddling role-play, or a sexual one. I am not into NSFW RP whatsoever, and I only RP with my close friends that I know well. When you, or want to keep "licking my face", nibbling my tail, rubbing my chest, tummy, or at worse cases, "down there", it brings me out of my comfort zone, and I don't like it...at all. It makes the whole situation very awkward and uncomfortable.

I don't want to feel awkward or uncomfortable. I'm more than willing to socialize, get to know one another, and make friends, but as I said, there are boundaries that need to be known. And I don't want you to get angry, or emotional, because that can make the situation worse. Maybe even more awkward or more uncomfortable.

I apologize if all of this is coming off as harsh. Things have been very rough lately. I got let go from a job I hated so much, I had to deal with family drama that put me in the worst sad and bad moods, I've been feeling sad, and maybe even gloomy lately, and COVID-19 has been making job hunting a lot harder than it should be, since I have to wait longer for a hiring manager to call, and I'm trying to find a job where I can be more happy and such, even if it's a retail job. So I am stressed out, and I am trying to find ways to cope with the stress.

Again, I am sorry if this is upsetting to those who wants to send me a DM, but I feel like I need to take in responsibility for my boundaries and manage my regulations a little better. And please, just because if you know me only a little bit, and I know you only a little bit, please don't try to RP with me right away or whatever. Like I said, I only RP with my friends that I am close with or know well. We still need to learn about each other, and again, like I said, it makes me feel very uncomfortable, and it makes the whole thing very awkward.

That's all I wanted to say. I just felt like it was best that I finally got this off of my chest. I hope you can understand.

I may not get myself involved in serious topics, but since the coronavirus is still active, all I want to say is PLEASE, make sure you wash your hands, cover your coughs and sneezes, and/or clean things that are filthy. Stay healthy! 💙

Hiya, guys. I apologize for my hiatus, so I'd like to explain what's going on.

Lately, I had to put my Fursuit Goal aside because right now, my current job, (Cart Retriever at Shoprite), has...been very bad for me. I have 2 bosses that almost no employee in the store can stand, not even me. I have worked very hard dragging and pushing heavy small and big carts around, in a huge parking lot. The problem is, someone or a group of people in Human Resources...or even those higher up the ladder, thought it would be a good idea to only have 1 Cart Retriever work in a huge parking lot, holding over 100 people, and get the carts. But the problem is this, I cannot get a lot or all of the carts to the entrance in a short amount of time, that's basically impossible. So my bosses' expectations are way too high, and are expecting far too much out of me.

When there are no carts, and as I struggle to get them, they keep calling 1 person from every department to help me, then there are my 2 bosses coming outside, scolding and blaming me, not acknowledging that I am doing the best I can, and that their expectation is more than I can do. They basically disrespect me and even turn their backs on me as I try to explain to them. On the next day, HR called me in, and they were discussing, saying that I'm "not focused on my job", they even said that people complained about my enthusiastic and positive personality. I explained that I'm only trying to be positive and such, but they basically said that they don't want me to be positive, and they want me to be a negative and "emotionless robot". And they nearly gave up on me.

After all of that, I have nearly suffered mental and emotional breakdowns, I have been stressed out for what feels like months, I feel disrespected, and when I go to work, I feel depressed, angry, and low on confidence, and I have been feeling this way for a while. As I can no longer take this kind of abuse anymore, I have been working extra hard to buy myself Photography Equipment to work at a Photography Job, and quit working at Shoprite. I have decided to work at a job that evolves around more of my liking and such, something that makes me happy.

Also, I have been having some bodily medical concerns too. I visited the doctor...twice. So things are out of control, and I couldn't draw, nor focus on drawing and such.

When things calm down and get a little better, maybe I'll draw. Right now, I need to get things under control, and take care of myself.

See you guys later. Also really busy too... >.<;

Hiya, guys. It's been a while since I made a Journal Entry. But anywho, I have been busy like crazy lately. Since I'm a Cashier at a grocery store, there's a lot of things that I'm working on before I COMPLETELY aim for my Fursuit Goal. I also had to buy some art and electronic material, I'm working for a PS3 Console and 3 PS3 games, and I have $100 to give to my friend for an artwork request commission. But I also have gifts to give to my parents and older sister. I'm also planning on buying a 3D Printer, and 3D Printing Material, some painting tools and paint so I can print some busts and figurines of my OCs, or maybe for gifts for my. I also want to buy a plush of myself (Teono), which costs $150.

And I need to buy an AV Cord for my PS2 off of Amazon. So...hehehe...I have a lot of stuff to do. And it's pretty bizarre. But the worst part is my job. I know that through all of this process, I have to deal with people that make stuff complicated, or throw temper tantrum when something doesn't work out, gonna be sleepy a lot as I wake up early and work all day, and frustration is gonna fall all over me as I deal with the ridiculousness at work. But in the end, it'll all be totally worth it.

After all of that, it'll be the Grand Finale. I'll work hard for my Fursuit. But I also have to buy some spare clothes and ducktape, and I know that I'm gonna need some help to make a ducktape dummy. ^^;

But hey, again, it's all worth it. And I am excited. :)

I'll still draw and share my artwork. It'll just be extra slow because of all of this.

You guys have a nice day. Love you all. 💙💙💙

I just wanted to get this off of my chest. I basically took a look at my previous journal entries and whatnot, I could not help but just cringe a little over them. I never knew that last year, and before, I was really cringy and clingy. What's worse it, I felt like I was popular, but knowing that I wasn't because I just joined the Furry Fandom 2 years ago. Overtime, we take a look back at what we may have done in our lives. We may laugh, or cringe, but for me, I wish it was all for laughs. It's just mostly cringe-worthy stuff.

Most are just mostly about little and unimportant situations, that (possibly) no one would even care about, and isn't much of a big deal. Sometimes I wonder to myself, why did I do this, and why did I think it was a good idea? Would anyone care? Probably not. But that's fine. You don't have to care. Some were some serious situations, but Idk if I did the right thing talking about it, or not. I guess it mostly depends.

Maybe I just wanted to keep you guys updated, and I mean those who are interested in my artwork, and wanted to see more. I don't mean to single anyone out, but...you know, if you catch my drift in what I said.

I am honestly disgusted and ashamed of the cringy journal entries I have done, and I honestly hop to not make more again. Forgive me for talking about this, but it's better to let it off of my chest than keep it. It isn't mentally and emotionally healthy at all.

Hiya, guys. I'm gonna have some time off. I still have depression and other mental struggles. If I still struggle with it, it's basically lingering around me, and that's not the Teono you all know and love. The Teono you all know and love is the fox full of positivity. I'll find many ways to help me. Even spiritually. I also have to pray for myself. So I need God's help on this one too. I'll do my very best to lift and help myself up. I know I can do it, and I know that I'll get better. However, I can't do it alone. I'll come back, but when I do, I'll be a brand new, improved, and better Teono than the one you're seeing now. I also want to let you all know; I deeply love, care, and respect my friends. I would never want to harm or sadden them. It goes against me and my friendship pride. Please, pray for me, wish me the best of luck, support me, and never forget, I love you all lots. <3

Hiya, guys. I want to let you know that, for now, I'm taking a break from drawing NSFW artwork, and...other stuff like that. I want to start spiritually redeeming myself. Yes. I am a Christian. I was always shy to open that up to you. I thought you guys wouldn't like the fact that I'm a Christian. I was also bullied for that a lot, so I was...very shy to open up to you guys about my religion... :(

Anyway, this is very important for me, so I need this. I'm worried about my spirituality. Knowing that I was told that a negative spirit is trying to manifest itself in me, and I never realized, and now I know that, and understood why, lately, I have negative feelings from time to time, and I don't want this at all...

So I need some time to spiritually help myself, pray, and so on, so I can keep my TRUE spirit, and cast out the negativity, negative feelings, and keep the negative spirit out and away from me. I'll still draw, it's only SFW this time.

Hey, guys. I wanted to make a Journal Entry that'll tell you why I haven't been very active lately. I'm still dealing with my GED, but I am almost done, I just need the motivation to actually make a big step towards getting my diploma, and I'm currently trying to find it. But I've been feeling down when I go to school, like, whenever I go to school, I usually feel "Meh" or "-_-" when I'm there. And I'm slowing down too, which is annoying because I want to actually work hard. And my parents (almost) asks if I made any progress daily. And sometimes, when I don't go to school, I get scared to answer, but there are reason why I don't go. And even the school gave me the option to go or not, and I don't take that option for granted.

I was also dealing with financial problems when I started getting overdraft fees, which wrecked my bank account horribly. I'm getting my money back, but before, I had to pawn games at GameStop to get some money to help myself. And now, about my job, after working for almost a week because of Valentine's Day, I had a decent paycheck, and was able to get one half of my money back, but I had to pay my mom $50 for my phone bill. And yes, my mom said that I have to pay her $50 each payday. To be honest, it's unfair, but my older sister does it, but she gets paid more than I do, and I'm currently working on Minimum Wage. So it's tough... >~<;

Also, my relationship with my dad is getting a lot better, but my relationship with my mom sometimes is very bad. We would have arguments, but compared to the arguments that me and my dad use to have, the arguments between me and my mom are a lot worse. Like, before, when my mom asked in a straightforward way if I had the $50 for her, but, I mistakenly, (and didn't want to), remembered her constantly talking about the $500 for my other laptop, and things went sideways. To the point where my mom kept yelling at me, "What's wrong with you?!", and "There's something wrong with you!". I told her that I hated it when she said that, but she repeated, "There's something wrong with you!". And when I told her again, (even though I shouldn't have), she said, "Who cares?!" She didn't seem to care. And after that, that made my self-esteem hit rock bottom. I started to have thoughts of self-hatred, feeling worthless, and I was heavily depressed, more depressed than I have ever been. And that was when I gave up trying to express to my mom. She doesn't care... :(

Also, I lost 3 friends. The first one took advantage of all of my help when I wanted to help him when he was having hard times, the second one was upset and didn't like how positive I am, my personality, and who I am, and the third one didn't, and couldn't accept the fact that I don't like yiff and lewd topics. But I guess you can say, "They weren't your friends in the first place anyway." Yeah...I know...

But...yeah. It's been very rough lately. That's why I haven't been very active. And for that, I apologize. I hope that I'll be able to relax, and things will get better for me.

I had a great day today. ^^
I was gonna do an artwork, but I'd rather get some rest today. So, after taking a nice hot shower, I am going to take a nap with Lo-Fi music playing quietly. UwU

After that, I'm gonna cook a delicious meal to enjoy while I'm naked. X3