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Kuribu_Kun

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SORRY FOR SHOUTING.. I just wanted everyone to see and read it all.

My Twitter handle is @Kuribu_Kun, I've decided to just drop it here till I delete.

Friendly reminder to read my featured journal on account of me leaving Furaffinity! Please read for more information!

It's been how long since I put somethin' up? Oh.. too, too long. I've decided that I'm gonna be deactivating this account, as I now have a Twitter account where I'm gonna start putting art. Call it a fresh slate if you will. I wanna thank everybody for all the years spent here and for all the people I met.. if anyone would like my Twitter handle, by all means comment on here or send me a note. Soon enough, maybe in a week, I'll delete this account..
Thanks so much again for everything, everyone!

One day everything is OK and I have good friends who are always there. Next day they act like they don't know me or they are agitated at me.. I don't understand.. I never did nothing wrong I swear but why do people who I once was totally cool with ignore me or act like I'm a nuisance?? I don't get it.. It hurts.. I feel so alone and all I want is answers.. It hurts.. It hurts so much because I am afraid if I ask I will only make them more upset. I just don't desreve people in my life I guess because they seem to not care but I dunno why? What did I do to you? I tried to be there for you and I tried my best to be a great friend so please just tell me why do you hate me now! It's killing me! It hurts and it breaks my heart everyday I think about it.....

Tetsu has reached level 20!

S.P.E.C.I.A.L.

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Strength: 6
Perception: 6
Endurance: 8
Charisma: 3
Intelligence: 4
Agility: 7
Luck: 6

Increase Skills:

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Barter: 0
Guns: 100
Big Guns: 100
Explosives: 100
Repair: 69
Medicine: 38
Speech: -2947103
Oof: 92711847048401845142
Unarmed: 100
Melee Weapons: 0
Survival: OK I guess?
Science: Jimmy Neutron
Energy Weapons: 30, I mean they kinda real right?
Ching Chong: way too much
Illusion: 100, sike it's 0 [Illusion 100]
O N E H A N D E D: 8471773901038107482910
Memes: 100

Perk Selected:

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[Virgin of the Wasteland]
Whoa there sport, you have a radiation tumor down there or you just happy to see me? You gain +10 Agility and Strength upon hardness, but everything else such as S.P.E.C.I.A.L. and Skills -excluding: Oof, Ching Chong, Guns, Big Guns, Explosives, Unarmed, One Handed and Memes- Are set to 0.

(Also Balto is 100! Yay! ^^)

I have one here. If you would like too give me some support, it would mean a lot too me. I plan too make a visit to someone very special too me in a years time, so that is one of my objectives, and the funds would be nice too have. Every little donation counts. I thank you.
https://ko-fi.com/K3K3E8O0

English Translation:

Looking out the window at the Sunset Road
Gliding taillight rolling along
Steadily hurrying to my hometown
Breathless sighs echoing
Now I am all alone

Into the city twilight
He spoke of a dream
Longing for the scent of the city
I coldly crossed my heart
That I would not turn back anymore

A lonely man's hard feelings
Flying away into the night

I will recall all those memories with my heart
Goodbye was all I said
Please tell him I love you

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Japanese Romanji:

Mado-goshi ni miorosu Sunset Road
Nagarete ku taillight tsudzuku
Machi wa kaeri o isogu ashioto to
Yakeni sabishige hibiku tameiki
Ima ore mo aitsu mo hitori kiri

Itsunomani tasogare kono machi
Yumena no ne aitsu no kuchiguse
Akogarete ita tokai no kaori wa
tsumetaku ore no kokoro o yogiru
moudoru tokoro mo nai ore

Hitori kakushi kirenu omoi o
Yoru no yami ni sakebou

Mune shimiru omoide with my heart
sayounara wa saigo kotoba
aitsu ni tsutaete I love you

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Nihongo:

窓越しに 見下ろす サンセットロード
流れてく テールライト 続く
街は 帰りを 急ぐ 足音と
やけに 寂しげ 響く ため息
今 俺も あいつも ひとりきり

いつのまに たそがれ この街
夢なのね あいつの口癖
あこがれていた 都会の香りは
冷たくおれの心を よぎる
もう戻る ところも ない俺

一人かくしきれぬ想いを
夜の闇にさけぼう

胸しみる 思い出 with my heart
さよならは 最後の 言葉
あいつに 伝えて I love you

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uKzBCY3sIM (Album version)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p37pVvXxq0w (Live version)
https://images-na.ssl-images-amazon.....1l6MdWeA0L.jpg (Album cover)

Sunset Road by Hound Dog and Kouhei Ohtomo
Roll Over album copyright CBS/Sony, 1982

Well. As the clock strikes 12 AM here in California, it turns into the day I was born. So yea. 19 today. Huh... How I have grown.. Y'know technically I was born today later on at 6 PM, but oh well.

My lovely  hyde3291 has commsions open and all slots are available ^^ Here is the journal with all the details:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8663116/
And here is, of course, a link too his profile:
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/hyde3291/

Please go have a look at his profile if you are interested. He could really use the money right now. I greatly appreciate it for having a look at this~
Here are some examples of commsions he has done:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26484917/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26516332/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26484877/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26534334/

Again I thank you~ please help my dear border collie Dante out ^^

Sometimes feelings can't be explained. Sometimes feelings are explained by someone who can't explain. No matter what, they will always be feelings regardless. But that's OK because feelings can still shape you and all that you do and that's the best way too express them. I have just been thinking really, as usual. You never really know a person until you stick around with them for awhile and just talk away. I mean yea. Duh, right? All their feelings and emotions, their achievements and mistakes, their sorrows and burdens, what makes them happy and how you can do it too. Obviously that applies too anyone. You don't really know someone just by seeing them. And in recent times I finally emerged from my lonely shell and met so many people. Something I needed. A lot. And yea coming out of your shell is something that happens, and no one isolates them self forever. It's just those I met....Hmm... wait I lost my thoughts...................... You see an artist's work. And like, you really don't think much of the one behind the work. Maybe. I dunno. Some people keep their emotions to themselves, others make it known. Wait..... Damn.. that's another thing is that sometimes ya feel something and ya think of a way too express it in your head and.. well I'm sure you know what you mean. Anyways. I had the opportunity too meet many people. I made friends, I became part of another family for awhile, I laughed much with many but also heard the burdens of many... I told my share too many. I lost some along the way too. I had mentors. I had a "second mother". I learned a lot from many. Things I should've learned myself perhaps. And finally I fell in... no.. I have someone I love, who also feels the same. It's just.. It's so funny how another person can really affect you. Whether good or bad. Hmm.... what am I getting at...? I guess... I guess I am just saying that I am glad to be where I am now. This life has never been uneventful. Hmmmm.... I feel like I had something I was trying too say when I started writing this.... Ah well... after all, they are just feelings. Something that cannot be explained so easily.. Ya just feel. And I am glad I am able to feel the things I do. Wait. No...... that's not what I was trying too say..... Oh man..... *sigh*.... I guess I just needed to surface some things I am feeling. Well for the most part. But perhaps I never will really understand how I feel. I might even sing the same song with a different tune if that makes sense. But y'know what. That's OK.

Only Love I can give from my heart just for you
Keep drying the tears from your misty eyes
Only Love you can see like a fire burning free
You make the flames of love grow high

City lights were wet on the streets
In the rain, I cried out your name
And I held you back and told you not to go
Cause I love you more than anyone

Take my hands and take me to the place
Where you go, wherever you may go
Love has no pride when there's no one left to blame
Only Love and nothing more to say

Only Love I can give from my heart just for you
Together that's the way I want it to be
Only Love you can sing like a bird on the wind
Forget everything left behind

Every night becomes another dream
In my life, each moment will be true
Even though they say that there's no chance for us,
but you see our love is here to stay
Every time I look into your eyes,
what I've got is all I ever had
Bring you close and whisper how I love you so
So stay with me my darling till I die

Only Love I can give from my heart just for you
Together that's the way I want it to be
Only Love you can sing like a bird on the wind
Forget everything far away

Only Love you can live
Beauty without a word
Keep drying the tears from your misty eyes

Only Love you can fly like a bird in the sky
Beyond this world and far far away
Forget everything far away
You are the only one... My love


Only Love (English Version), Blue Box Quarter Century Band and the Unreleased Song Book are owned by R and C Ltd. and Mother Enterprise

Music by Hound Dog and vocals sung by Kouhei Ohtomo

Only Love (English Version):
https://youtu.be/yprkURw2lpI

THESE PROJECTS WILL BE NSFW

I made like 3 list if ya include this one. I know I made plans previously but.. I watched certain certain movies and played certain games and well... feelings kinda changed on what I wanna do so.. lol here is an updated list. I gotta stick with it too sono more changing. No particular order btw lol

PAWJOBS
1. Dodger (Oliver and Company) ~ Man he is just so sexy.. the way he talks and moves and.... talks... just... just the sexiest dog in New York City~^^

2. Tramp (Lady and the Tramp) ~ Definitely have to do him. Really wanna do him. Gods, he is so attractive.. I have a vision of... sausage links, pawjobs, alleyways and making ends meet. Life x for y. Paws for food. Perhaps, right? Something different. ^^

3. Balto (Balto :v) ~ Gonna go at it again at the sexy, hot hero of Nome, Alaska. Second one and definitely not the last one. Probably my favourite character too draw now. Can't get enough of that sexy hybrid~ I have a sketch of it posted here already soooo.. there's your WIP lol ^^

4. Thunderbolt (101 Dalmatians 2) ~ The one-of-a-kind wonderdog. His character is so cute and attractive, not too mention his "Preeeeecisely!" Oh man that has gotta be the sexiest thing ever sorta lol, Thunderbolt is one handsome dog. I uh.. I bet his paws can do.... w-wonders... <3

5. Dogmeat (Fallout 3 or 4) ~ Okay so I had too really think about this one. Not because I am deciding if I wanna do it. Hell yea I'm gonna do it. But more of which Dogmeat too draw. Fallout 3's Dogmeat who literally CANNOT DIE! (I mean I was able too take on 2 Deathclaws with just Dogmeat, An almost broken .32 caliber revolver and a low condition Vault Suit.) Thing about 3's is that he really has no personality. He just kinda follows you around and kills things but... I dunno. He's kinda cute. I really like his design too, 'specially his eyes lol. Course from time to time I kinda... y'know stare at his brown paws and... well.. wonder. Fallout 4's Dogmeat is just..... just.... oh man he is just so so soooo cute~~ You can give him goggles and a little bandanna, then I have a mod to give him a little doggy backpack and a hat <3~ I really have thought about doing that cutie too ^^ I just can't decide. I really like them both.

Mightyena (Pokemon Emerald) ~ I always had a huge thing for Mighyena's. I have a male named Hieno whom I raised from being just a Lv. 3 Poochyena and I love him to death lol. They are just the best and are actually kinda sexy. I really can't stop staring at their paws either... I have to draw a Mightyena giving a pawjob~ I guess I can say there was also another.... influence but.. i won't say lol


SPECIAL PROJECTS
1. Amber (Scooby-Doo and the Alien Invaders) ~ Will do this when I learn the Hanna-Barbara style a bit more. I struggle with her a lot. I really wanna make this into a collaboration. It will be a challenge but fun to see what can be created as a team ^^

2. 1 Year of Tetsu (Amaterasu Pawjob) ~ This May on the 20th is Paw Day and that is when I made my first post. It was a humble Amaterasu pawjob on a 9x12 sheet of printer paper. Paper from the school library. I wanna redo it digitally before the next Paw Day too show how much has changed in a year of art.


That's all I really can say. I don't wanna bite off more than I can chew so I am just gonna take it easy. Now. Some updates. I have applied for college now so that is gonna change how often I draw. Then again, at least I will have a consistent schedule unlike that hellhole Wal*Mart. I won't take that many classes either so I will always have a healthy amount of time. Guess it's back too the books. At least a 2 year degree. I dunno. Number 2. So my tablet is acting weird. I can't say what exactly. Yet. But as I draw, I will have a better analysis of what is goin' on. Hope it's not jacked up. Just lettin' ya know. Slowly I have been getting on drawing again. Motive builds and so will confidence. And with many stresses subsiding, I can say that things are alright now. Soon life will just recenter itself. Just hold strong and keep on.

END LOG

So too start off this journal, I decided to stay home and go too college. The lifestyle away from home was not what I wanted. While I am going back to school I need a way too make cash so I may start taking commissions. Maybe. I just need too get myself straight on drawing first so.. Yea. It hasn't been that well.

Second has been my recent behaviour for the past few months, this month especially. I sincerely must apologize for my actions. I complained and vented way too much. Whatever problems I have now, it will just be wise too keep them too myself. That's probably what seems best even if I must bottle it up tight. Anyways. Yea. There's the whole month of January boiled down.

I can't sleep. I have been thinking about much and must put it down on paper to piece my thoughts together. Where to start? I've been thinking about what to do and where I want to go. Job Corps is a program that offers free training in a trade like construction, welding and computer technician. My other option is my only way too stay here at home. I must go back too school. Do I stay or do I go? Job Corps is so far across the U.S. Who knows where I will end up? I won't be able to have nothing with me. My computer and tablet yes, but so much more. I will be on my own for two whole years. I will have my freedom from home and can make my own rules..... But... at the same time.. I will have too leave so much behind. This town I couldn't give 2 damns about. I'm talking about what I do at home. I won't have no fridges to raid. No home cooked dinners, only shifty cafeteria food. I can't even cook myself because all I can use is a microwave. I will leave my little dog Scrap behind too. I will miss the little boy. No more Balto or Bolt plushy to have with me whilst I sleep. I can't risk taking them with me. They cost me a lot. I can't take my Xbox 360 too. No more games with my best bud. No more Soul Calibur. Whose gonna defeat Zinyak in Saints Row 4?? No more hysterical Youtube videos with my bud. I will have a roommate and crabby ass neighbors so I can't laugh loudly like I could here. No more duels. No more Fallout. No more Hound Dog CDs. Nothing fun too do and all alone because there will be no internet in the dorms. I will have too leave the comfort of my room too just say, "Hello ^^". I can't draw the... sexy stuff either because I will have a roommate with me who will prolly be up in my grill. Living off 25 dollars biweekly. Other shit things. Probably even training for a job I don't even want. All for my freedom on my own. To fill the adventurous need I have always wanted. Or if I choose to stay at home. School here and there. Frustrated. Going through classes worrying again whether i pass or fail. What if this even worsens my motivation too draw.. It's.... Bad enough as it is.. So.. What if school is expensive. I can't get a job. I can't after getting a soiled record. If I get student loans I will have to stress about school and paying it off. I will be at home too and it can be hard living at home sometimes. Which is why I isolate myself in my room. I dunno what to do. Do I want to leave all this behind for freedom and independence with me and me alone as my own boss? Or do I want to be here with everything staying the same? Whether the good, bad, stressing and down right fun? What if I go? Will I hate it? Once I go then i can't go back. Will I enjoy my freedom? What if I stay? What can I do too afford it? What if it's costy? What if I cam find some kind of financial help? No loans. Will o regret staying?.... I.. Lost my thoughts... Im to tired I guess. What happens now can be only be those two. I will always keep in mind that, though I may not have a lot of friends, I have the truest and supportive friends I could ever have. And I always will have my homie havin' my back. Whatever happens from here on will be on my terms. My say and my say alone. Not my mother ordering me. Not my brother forcing me. My grandparents begging me to stay and my little sister holding me back telling me to please not too go. Zalle Kuribu needs to make a decision on his own. Will all these be worth freedom? Will it not? No one has no say in this. It's just me.

January 5th, 2018 on Friday at 2:41 P.M. Pacific time.

Whatever log this is....
For awhile now I have had awful feelings of depression. I am not happy with where I stand now. I have not drawn a single goddamn piece of art in a long while because I once again have no motivation or energy to draw.. I blame my fucking job... Always have.. It's drained me of all my motive to become a better artist. Art is my dream. My passion. I live to do art. My purpose here is to do art. I want to learn it. But my computer is only collecting dust.. I barely open it up. But day in and day out i have to report to work, and it is so miserable being complained at all day standing for hours on end expected to constantly move around in circles. I'm not happy. At all. And another thing is is that I may end up being fired because I am always getting in trouble for my lack of performance. I have no motivation to work there though.. I may say it's good that I do not have to work but the thing is I have no choice. If I do not have a job, then I can't help those who have asked for my help. I can't just turn my back like that. And second, there is no work here in this small area I live at. It will tale forever to find work. Lastly, if I do not have work I will have to go to school which is stress beyond stress taking classes that are stupid hard because I am a D student and they will not benefit me in my dream of art. I do not want to go to that. Not again. I just can't do it.. But if I don't do anything then I will have to leave home. Which also I am picked on by a few people in my home too. One reason I am always alone in my room with my dog. If not my mother that will make me leave, then it will be my older brother. By force if he has too, which I know he will... I will have no choice but to leave to another town or even state and just.... Do something..... Anything. Even if I have to live outside and draw there.
I don't fucking know. I really don't know what in the hell I am gonna do then... I can't lose my job, but if I do stay, I will never have no energy to draw and improve. I literally have not tried to learn anything from my Master as of late because I have not tried anything at all to get my ass to dtow. I just lock myself away upstairs wishing for things to get better.... I don't know..... I don't know what I am gonna do... I don't wanna give up on art.. But I still need to, in one case, help. And want to help for the other case. But will remained drained... If I do have to leave home, I will just wander around and draw. Maybe. I don't god fucking dammit know.... And I already know for goddamn sure I will not go back to school that has no benefit for me.. And that there is no work here in this hellhole town, or even in the surrounding towns. Aye ya.......... I have not done a single thing since I have finished Balto.. Just sketches that remain unfinished because I just don't want too finish them... All because of everything going on... I just have so many bad feelings... I have not gotten good sleep, I am just over eating, and my hygiene has depleted. My face has not been shaved, and my hair is a mess. Hell. I don't even comb my hair 100 times anymore. And I love my hair. I just feel awful. No motivation, no energy and no passion to improve... But what can I do... I don't know... I just don't know.....

Ya know with today being Thanksgiving and all, I might as well say what I have to say.

This past year and the year before have taken a toll on me, and often times I am just sad and whatever. I lost a lot, but at the same time gained a lot. This year was almost also as bad, but before I could even say that truly, people have came into my life. I have met some great friends.. friends I never thought I would have because since I was out of school, I have been so so lonely.. Those who I have met have given me something I never even thought I would need. But they have, and eternally I am truly grateful for you all, and I thank you for being in my life. You all truly given me something I would never ever trade in the world. I thank you all.. I thank the Gods.. My family and my dear friends.. my mentors, current and...... the former... To all those who I stand with, and all those who stand with me, let us all move forward together as we go onward and forward towards the future.... And... let nothing. *NOTHING* slow us down...

Thank you..
愛, Zalle Kuribu
(Love)

"THANK YOU! THANK YOU! DOMO ARIGATOU! THANK YOU EVERYBODY! I WANT YOU!!! IIIIIIII NEEEEED YOU!!! EVERYBODY!! I! LOVE! YOUuUuUuU!!!"
~Kohei Ohtomo, Hound Dog
Yumenoshima Live, 1994



https://youtu.be/a5MCjJ8keEo
Hound Dog ~ Road (Live) ~ Yumenoshima Final '99
It's all in Japanese but what he is singing about is the road ahead, and all his loved ones he wants to take it with. It's a very wonderful song and one of my personal favourites.

Every business has a phase. The holiday season just so happen to be the busiest. After Christmas I will be working less than 20 hours at my Walmart, so I imagine I would have time too chill.. My mother has other ideas.. If I work part time, she said, then I will have too go back too school or find another way too make money.. I wanted to work part time to casually put more time into my art and too learn. But now I have no choice. Tramp and my entire project list must be on hold while I prepare for this time. I will have to improve significantly to take commissions, so I am stopping everything I am doing.. Though to be honest I have not done much since Balto. I've been having a break as is getting to know my new friend and Master, which by the way..... Best time of my life, perhaps ours~^^

*Clears throat*

Anyways. It is inevitable. After the holidays, *commissions will be open* It is my only way to make money, because Amaterasu damn me if I have to go back to that hellpit school.

October 23rd, 2017 (My sister's birthday) 9:27 A.M. PST

BOOK, 2 LOG 1:
With each day going by, it seems things are changing. Time flew. Nothing will ever be the same again. But do not let that be a bad thing. Let's let this be a time to embrace change. Let's move with this. Nothing or no one has been lost. I still have everyone with me. I was taught well. But now it's time to start over again.

I am not afraid though.. I will be strong.. I was never alone....

And I never will be............

Thursday- October 5th, 2017 9:10 A.M. PST

LOG 13

Currently working on: Balto

Up next: Tramp

What to expect:
Steele
Jenna
Kaltag
Star
Mightyena


Special projects:
Amber
Amaterasu
Tetsu no Ohkami

SFW projects in mind: 5
"A Search for a New Hope"
"Heroes"
"Dogs of War: WWII"
"Hero Boy"
"Tetsu reference sheet"

Estimated time to finish list: sure beats the hell outta me :v

I am now taking suggestions and challenges. You choose the theme and everything, and I will attempt my best at it. This is to help me improve in all angles. Leave your suggestion in the comments below. CAN BE NSFW OR SFW.

If you do leave a challenge for me, I may not get to it right away but will still consider it.

September 27th, 2017 9:54 P.M. PST

Side Log:

No particular order, but Balto is being worked on at this moment.

1. Balto (handsome guy)
2. Tramp (something different to be tested)
3. Jenna (to make history)
4. Steele (a huge ass maybe)
5. Amber (because I grown this huge love for her recently)
6. Amaterasu (It's Amaterasu. C'mon now.)
7. Mightyena (I love Mightyena)
8. A pup from Paw Patrol.... (Cough)
9. Secret (?)

There is my list so far on characters I wanna draw. What they do should already be expected. Just have a look at my gallery for a hint.. lol

Have any suggestions? Go ahead and comment here.
THESE WILL BE NSFW.

Nighty night.

September 4th, 2017, The Eve of Remembrance 7:03 P.M. Pacific time

Log 9:
It has been another year since I have met you, and in that time so much has changed. I still think about what has happened that fateful night.. everyday.. And all that has happened to get where I am today. You have taught me so much. You gave me a reason to live again, even when times were dark. You restored my faith in humanity, the world and my faith in Kamisama. I had hope, and it was all thanks too you.. You promised you would always be there... You were like an older sister too me, and dare I say.. you were like a mother too me... when my real family could not accept the road I have chosen... you were there.. You were my best friend..... I never wanted to hurt you.. I was so wrong.. I was blinded.. And before I knew how much you meant too me, you were gone forever..

I never wanted too say goodbye.. I never meant too hurt you... And now nothing would be the same again. No more telling you, "good morning!~" everyday before I went too school, no more, "please rest well!~" before bed, no more long conversations that went on forever almost everyday, no more of me hearing you talk about all the Okami of the universe, no more me talking about my worries too you, and most importantly.... no more moments of teaching me about life.. All you wanted was for me too be strong. Too be happy. And too improve myself. I failed you. I was selfish, and I let the hatred I had before take over again.... I was a fool..... I am so so sorry.... And now.. I will never see you again..

I thank you so much for everything you have ever done. And y'know.... since you left, a lot of change has come.. I am finally pursuing my love for art, I am doing my best in improving myself as a person everyday, I have made so many great friends, I have been finding my own answers and I have a great Sensei who teaches me so much! I am not alone! I never was! Everyday I have been doing all I can too practice faith like you told me.. And every morning, afternoon and night, I pray to Amaterasu and all of Kamisama. I pray for all my family. For all my friends. The world. That now and forever more we can all become stronger! And I made a promise since that night too never take my family and friends in vain ever again.. And always wish that... It could have been the same for you too..... And pray that one day you may forgive me for the way I was.. And for you too.. that you will have a happy new life in Japan......

If only you knew...

If only you knew how much you mean too me. How much I miss you. How much I wish I could do it all again if I could. How much I want to speak with you and see you again..... If only you knew how much I love you!! I'm sorry!! I'm sorry for everything!!! AND I PROMISE I AM GONNA GET STRONGER!! I PROMISE TOO REFINE MYSELF EVERYDAY!! I PROMISE TO BE THE MAN YOU WANTED ME TOO BE!!! I WILL NEVER GIVE UP, AND WILL NEVER BACK DOWN!! YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT!

Goodbye!! Thank you for everything! I am gonna miss you, y'know! I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU!

I LOVE YOU!!!~~





"Onward and forward towards the future. Let nothing slow us down."


Sensei.......... thank you....




~"Kuribu-kun"



(I met you on September 5th, 2016 at 5:46 P.M. pacific time)
Update: September, 5th
Would you believe it rained just a little.....?

September, 4th, The eve of the 5th 11:53 A.M. Pacific time

Log 8:
Has the 5th of September come already..?

August 26th, 2017 10:26 P.M. Pacific time

Log 7:
Ever since I started working, my mind and body have been tired.. and this weekend I wanted to dedicate to drawing... only to have done squat.. I had a whole lotta motivation, but then it goes and plummets.. I wanted to draw and practice more.. but I can't.. I have little motivation right now..... almost none.. I'm just too tired and I am getting frustrated so easily...... dammit............... dammit.... I don't know..all the practice was in vain, because I can't draw... I just.. I was ready to step up. I was learning a new technique. I had a plethora of ideas for drawings.. I was practicing all day.. but I never have enough time now.. Always always always have no time or motivation coming home........god dammit man................... the hell do I do.........?

I don't know..

I just... I just wanna improve... but my motivation and enthusiasm I had is not there.. my mind is tired... no matter what I do.. I can't muster the strength...

August 1st, 2017 6:12 P.M. Pacific time
Log 6:
So now I have artblock.. and it weighs a ton! I have a PLETHORA of sketches that are unfinished, and I do not think I can muster the motivation to finish nothing..... hmm.... I need inspiration.. or.. something.. but what..? Grrr.. I dislike artblock so damn much, it feels like a medical condition..! m(;_ _)m