Howdy All!

Well I've reached that point in my life where I'm just not doing alot with my fursuit. It's one of Firestorm Studio's work. Its beautiful and has been kept in great condition! Please spread the news and the link so that everyone will have a chance to bid on it.

Thanks!

https://www.furbuy.com/auctions/1076014.html

Alright, so...  leomagna has got a new comic out. Those of you that know about FurPiled well this is the same artist. He's got a new one out. This time, well he needs a lil cash flo and i mean once outta college who doesnt right? Well for as little as 1$ a month,... and more is accepted and you get more Stuff for more Money and it's not outrageous c'mon... you give 40$ and 50$ for artists for one time commissions and its a one shot picture. This is just a monthly thing for as little as 1$ a month! thats 12$ a year!

So the new comic is being shown to people who pay the 1$ at least (JUST A BUCK!) Its getting release one page per week at a time. It'll be going on and Husky needs some help getting it started. We all like to help artists out. We all like to help great artists who develop great comics out right? So why not contribute a DOLLAR or more? C'mon guys. Help me spread this around, I want this comic to go viral and so should you the more money we raise the more comic we get!!!

http://www.patreon.com/Arthur_Husky?rf=110988 Please Go Here Sign Up and Donate TODAY! Paypal is accepted

Howdy all!

Well it looks like i'm gonna be in San Francisco from Thursday the 7th until Monday the 11th! I'd love to meet and hang out with some of my friends lemme hear from ya!!!

Me!

Alright everyone! I need help broadcasting for this artist. I need everyone of my friends and watchers to please post a journal explaing that :userautumnsunrise: is selling off an amazing Lion folio full of original images that will not be seen again! If it goes for 400$ or over you get something special! Please help out this wonderful artist and help her out and let her know how awesome she is!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11384189/

BID THERE!

Alright Music Fans! This fuzzeh ones stereo system is complete!

http://i214.photobucket.com/albums/.....ps18a3d839.jpg

http://i214.photobucket.com/albums/.....ps976e0ec3.jpg

I bought and installed it today! It is all yahama from what I can understand. Even the Display/Electronics Cabinet has yamaha on it!

Turntable - Yamaha P-20
Cassette Deck - Yamaha K-10
Equalizer - Yamaha GE-5
Tuner - Yamaha T-10
Amplifier - A-10
Speakers - Yamaha NS-A77

Again, even the solid would cabinet has the Yamaha logo on it! So with his new found enjoyment. I'd really like to start getting some records. I'm a 1980's fan of music so any really good albums you'd like to recommend would be amazing!

Thanks guys!

Howdy!

I know it's been a while since I've posted on here. But I need some help finding a home stereo. I'm looking for a receiver.. that is modern in function (like it can take the hdmi inuputs) But I want it "Vintage" "Retro" in look. If any of you are familiar with the 1980's...silver facings with wood grain laminate looking box... thats exactly what I'm after. I just want it modernized. Anyone know where I could find this online? My googling...isn't turning up much.

Howdy all!

Well, now that i've broke the news about buying a house well, its October! Which means my reading takes me to halloween stories. After finishing FANG vol 2, which I got at RMFC, I found it.... stimulating to this time of year. So, what I've decided is this year its going to be werewolves that I read about. Sadly, I went to my mainstream bookstores and Vampires are everywhere....thank you Twilight, but no... I want werewolves. I've already gotten a book on the historical aspect, but now... aside from "Without Reservations" I'd some suggestions on 1. A gay werewolf novel, 2. An adventure exciting werewolf novel

So anyone who has some suggestions please do list them, I'm going to be looking at all the suggestions. Now these dont have to be "furry" in origin, and PLEASE nothing electronic. Thanks guys!

P.S. I am running out of furry books to read :(

Howdy!

Well, seems fate is an interesting lady indeed. I have just purchased a house in Abilene, Tx. It's not big and grand but it's a nice lil starter home that I can afford on my salary. I'm hoping other Texan furs will want to come visit me in my home, as i'm hoping to make it quite the hang out place. At the moment I'm trying to figure out other shifts I can take to make 150$ extra a month so that I can get a hot tub in my backyard. I'm quite excited about this house, i really hope staying here in Abilene is going to be an okay decision for me. It's very anti gay, not many if any furrys here, and well..... not much to do here. But this house is mine and I can make it the way I want.... I'm settling down so I can join a gym, I can find a nice church where others my age go, I am in a neighborhood and my neighbor seems like an okay guy. I'm looking forward to to getting settled into the community and getting into the start of my wonderful life!

Sabian

Howdy!

Well, as some of ya'll know I'm going to RMFC tomorrow, well I needed something to help me travel with my fursuit head.

Disclaimer: I am NOT a fursuit builder. These people aint gonna know so I lied, I couldn't be truthful cause that'd be worse then lying.

I went to Dillards to ask for a plastic bag. I'm going to use it to put my fursuit head into it and use it to carry it around the airport and on the plane. The counter lady asked me "uhhh......what do you need it for?" Several things popped into my head that i wanted to tell her like "for my auto-erotic asphyxiation (sp?) fetish...." however I'm to nice, so I told the person at the counter that I desgined the "mascot" costume heads for football games and that I was flying to Denver in the morning with one, so I wanted to use the bag since it was thick plastic and carryable. The lady looked at me like I was fucking crazy.....then said "uhm,.....sir I'm afraid I need to call my manager to see about that."

The manager came down and I repeated my story. She nodded and then shook her head "I'm sorry sir,....I can't just give you a dillards bag." I was all "uhhh....okay?" She then proceeded to tell me all she could give me was a clear plastic garment bag, upon recieving the bag (that ripped the moment I got it) I asked her if I could buy a wallet, and her just put it in a BIG bag. She informed me that would be most impossible as they were only allowed to give bags out, to the appropriate size as needed for the merchandise.

I nodded my head, said thank you for the garment bag and walked next door to JCPennys. To which I then told the counter lady, I apparently have a very odd request.... at which she looked at me like I was about to ask her and her mother to have sex with me while I wore a chicken outfit. Then I informed her I wanted a large plastic bag,.... she nodded and said "Okay how big would you like?" I told her the correct dimensions and then she handed me the correct bag and asked me,... why I had told her it was such a weird request. I informed her of what had happened at Dillards and she laughed and said "they're snobby at Dillards"


So that was just,...fucking weird guys. So i'm sorry for all you fursuiters that have to go through such questioning when just trying to get a plastic bag.

The Texan

Howdy all!

Well, as luck would have it my boss has let me off of work. I've miraculously gotten a plane ticket. And I'm heading to Denver for Rocky Mountain Fur Con!!! I'm very excited! I've gotten "Volle" by  kyell leather bound and will be getting him to sign it for me. This will be the first book he's had leather bound to my knowledge. I will be rooming with 2 great friends:  lyonlover  beijinbeef So we'll be rockin it! Also hoping to chat with  blotch for a bit,...see Pi if she's around. Also if anyone is at RMFC that wants to meet me contact me and we'll see about hanging out!

See ya there!

Sabian IV

Howdy all!

Well, I'm officially moving away from Texas. I am sad to leave the state, but in an interest of preserving my sanity i'm afraid it is the best call. I am in Abilene, Tx right now with my loving family and I love them to death but all my friends from college and high school are elsewhere now. So after thinking about it for some months and trying to move to places like Boston or such... I've decided to move where my best friend is. I'm moving to Harisonburg, Virginia. I will be looking for a place to live and will be searching for a job there. I plan to move once I've got enough funds to cover me for the winter if I can't get a job, which should be about October. I am reaching out to Virginia furs,... so any and all Virginia furs, furs that know furs in Virginia, DC furs, please give me a shout as my best friend isn't a furry but I dont hold that against him. I'm looking for friends and people to hang out with. As well as furmeets to attend, poker nights to hose, and camping trips to take friends along on.

P.S. As my indecision with what specie I am grows and tosses and turns this way and that. I'm just going by the Texan to anyone who asks until I resolve my dilemma. The biggest problem with going to the cougar,... is a name. I'm thinking Xylan. But never sure, as i'm horrible with names.

Thanks ya'll,

Tex

Howdy!

Well,..3 more days and i'll be on the beach, in the Caribbean, drinkin rum, listening to the ocean surf while the sun goes down.

Thats right! This feline is off to St. Lucia for 10 days to go Scuba Diving! Taking pictures of the lil fishies, eyeing the european twink bois, and just lounging in the sun. Its supposed to be a wonderful vacation. I'm looking forward to it even if the comradeship isn't quite what I was hoping for. I'll be staying at a marvelous resort, eating some fine french Caribbean cuisine, and catching up on my reading.

Say Hi if you're in the neighborhood I'll stop by!

Sabian IV

Howdy!

Well, if any of ya'll have been long time followers. You all know of my eternal conflict of being a Lion vs. a Puma. I've recently been having thoughts due to knowledge of things... and my own Native Texan Pride (as Pumas are Native to Texas too) And, i'm debating a switch to a tawny cougar. I haven't made up my mind, and the mere THOUGHT of switching is killing me. I have alot of friends who've stuck with me thru the last change to a lion and well... I love them all. But some of them are reasons I dont want to switch back... due to their teasing and harrasing "well what are you today man? an elephant? a mouse? a heffalump? a woosel?" or "dude you're changing again?" etc etc and all that business.

I've long had a lion obsession and when I became a lion it hit a sharp increase before dying down. It was my belief that since I had "become" a lion, my overall need to date a lion, talk to lions, RP as a lion, and collect near anything with a lion on it....dwindled much to my happiness, since that was expensive and time consuming. I haven't done any commissions in a while, and only have one commission out still in the works. I need help guys, if you are my friends and you know this is you who will tease me, true it be good natured, but only two people can really tease me about this and me not feel like an idiot.

P.S. - I only want to be a pure lion or a puma. No Hybrids, I'd thought of that.

Thanks all, and please offer your opinions, I WILL read them.

Sabian or whatever the hell I'll call myself after this. I always hate picking names, very tempted to keep this name cause I love it.

Howdy!

Well all,.... I will be attending Furry Fiesta in Texas and at the Charity Auction will be donating well over half of all of my furry collection. Original art work signed from artists will be there, a street painting of wolves and the city, limited edition prints like some from Kyell Gold's works from the "Confidential Dossier" of which you can't buy anymore will be there along with their written counterparters, and lion things of all imaginable size. I will also be donating two pieces of signed literature into the swarm. So,...things will be added and I'm debating....donating a 16x20, limited edition, #1 of 5, Signed Blotch print, matted, and framed by me,..... http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1771730/ Though I may decide to do a private sale on this one. Cash only, anyone who's there we will exchange it. I am also letting go of this, framed as well by me http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4530829 . I hope these can all find homes that others can hold as much appreciation for them as I have. Everyone please come out and help out the charity auction!

Thanks and Gig'Em,

Sabian IV

Howdy!

Okay so i'm up at 5:30am, reading one of my books. I have on fox news (get over it those of you who are assholes about it, yes its morning I haven't had a doctor pepper, I can be judgmental piss off! haha :) ) So yeah, I was watching fox news and they were talking with a news correspondent in like New York or somewhere and a guy on Global Warming about the recent snow storm and the guy in New York was outside in the snow and behind him walking up... is a god damn furry in a POLAR BEAR fursuit, with a hawaiian shirt and a hawaiian lay. Does anyone know who that guy is? Cause... WOW...is all I have to say and I was half way scared and half way laughing my ass off.

Sabian IV

Howdy all!

Well, this lion's off to change his fortune in the wonderful city of Las Vegas! I'm gonna be going in February for about a week to the city of sin. You all know how much this Christian lion LOVES to sin, *snickers* cause that means he gets to go into the confession booth with those hot sex priests, seen here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2654088/ . Anyways so, yeah i'm off to Vegas and ready to hit up the gay side of Vegas. I've been asked to be a guest on Rabbit Valley's podcast so I'm going to try and make that, though I don't know what I'd talk about.

I can't wait to be back in the city with all the lights, the sounds, the beggars, and....lets not forget the pickpockets! I love the Vegas Strip. It really is everything this cowboy lion loves. I get to stay in an awesome hotel on the strip and be way up high so I can be sure and see all the lights. I'm gonna hit up the black jack tables, poker tournaments, and slot machines. Also gonna try and hit up a gay club one or two nights after I loose my usual 20$ and decide to quit at gambling. Hahaha, I have SUCH a gambling problem,....I loose more then 20$ and am pissed and decide to spend it on other better vices.

Hopefully wont end up behind bars thanks to the Vice Squad. If so, I'll be sure to give a full report! If anyone reading this is in Vegas and over 21 give me a hollar and we'll try and hang out. A note: I dont live the vicinity of the strip, unless i know you. So don't be expecting me to take a taxi cab to you or meet up off the trip. Sorry guys, just a safety thing for me.

Sabian IV

Well,....

I just turned in my final research paper. It's finished and over with,... I have completely finished college. I will be walking across that stage Saturday and receiving my Bachelor of Arts in History from Texas A&M University. It's been a long, hard, difficult, and emotional road. The friends who know me know that I've cried, sweat, bled, worried, freaked, and completely broke down from my stay here in college. I fought tooth and nail to get in, got in, worked not so seriously, got kicked out, fought tooth and nail to get back in, got back in, then worked hard and long to make sure I was able to stay. The day I got my Aggie Ring was one of the happiest days of my life, one of which I hope to pass with my family and friends as I receive my degree from Texas A&M University. The college my parents went to, and the college I've wanted to attend since I could understand what college was. I know my parents are proud of me, which makes me happy. But, I can honestly say I'm extremely proud of myself. I went on campus today and walked around and thought to myself "Yes,....I did this. I belong here. I am part of the Aggie Family and Tradition through my own perseverance." My sense of belonging and accomplishment have increased ten fold as I realize i'm about to join the alumni of Texas A&M University. I have fulfilled one of my life's major goals. Now,....to step foot into the world and hang on tight.

Gig'Em Aggies,

Sabian IV

Howdy All!

Well, November 9th.... it's that time of year again... My Birthday.

As I've gotten to college and moved away from my family and other very close friends. I've seen the magnificence given to this day dissipate more and more each year. Well, i'm sorry to say this year is no different then the last 5 here in college. This isn't an emo journal or a sob story merely just an observation.

Heh, I sorta regret it's had that impact. I'd really love to be kidnapped from the library while I work tonight and taken to dinner with some of my good friends and a small cake at the end of dinner. A couple of bday cards. Nothing to fancy or big, I find myself not really wanting many "gifts" or such.

Becoming 24 is a different matter. I realize how much my life is progressing and all the things I've still yet to do. Not like... sky dive, or bungie jump, or be a porn star (heh heh), or win the lottery. But,.. more about finding a special someone, finding what I want to do with my life, where i want to spend my life. The deeper decisions and questions. Sadly, I keep using my parents as guides, which as they've said is a horrible example. They met in the 8th grade, stayed together and got married right after college. My father was already called doctor at the age of 24. So it's tough trying to establish where I want or need to be in my life having them as my role models.

Anyways, I wanted attention for my birthday so wish me a Happy Birthday everyone!

Sabian IV

Howdy!

Well i've been invited to a BDSM Costume party. Now the funny thing about the bdsm community in my area is that well most are straight or lesbian. I am the ONLY gay guy in my group....it sucks balls. Because while the females will play with me, they wont do certain areas cause they dont want to "offend" the gay guy and the males aren't secure enough in their sexuality to play the "gay" guy.

Well, my best friend from the group came by as he has been in Houston for the past few months he wanted to come to the party. Now my friend we'll call him "the bunny" is straight but has slight bi tendancies. He is a twink body type and deliciously sexy. So he tells me for the party he wants to go in a miniskirt and such. I'm fine with this and even more fine when he asks if he can use my apartment as the place where he will "nair" his legs. For those of you who dont know, nair is a hair removal cream. We did use the Nair for Men, so the smell was slightly bearable...as womens nair... is toxic in the air LOL, not really but its bad.

So I'm there to keep him "company" also to watch him do this in a thong, because he wont be nude in front of me. *sad lion is sad* anyways, so I'm under the impression he has done this before. That is soon obviously not the case as he barely uses any for his first leg and we wait the time, and then it just comes off in patches. I then inform him, back in my younger (18-19) days that I had a boyfriend that loved nair and also liked his bigger guys like me smooth (I have thus rethought this idea as I dont like looking like a fat hairless 15 year old pre-pubescent, I'm fine being fat and hairy and believe thats how it should be). So I confess to have using Nair many times....

So there I am instructing this Straight guy on how to nair his legs, and I'm sitting there squirting the cream into his paws and then yelling at him if he's not applying it thick enough on his other leg. So we set to work, and i'm telling him the time limits to keep it on, to apply it in a pattern, and then telling him to take it off in a pattern. He soon says "I bow down to your mastery of things gay" which I just have to laugh at. Needless to say this one works the way it's supposed to. I look at the other leg and we dont really have alot of nair left cause damn this bunny was hairy. So we worked on that one, which I've been laughing calling him "patches." So I'm actually getting alot of the stuff out of this bottle and he is amazed that I keep coaxing cream outta the bottle, and he starts making MORE gay jokes *rolls eyes* Little does he know he's gonna get cuddled to and groped tonight when we have the share the "ONLY" bed at my place. *Evil Lion Grin*

So, he's in the shower right now shaving the slight patches that we were unable to really get off or fix on the first leg. I feel happy in that I've actually helped out a straight guy in the art of nair. LOL even though I haven't done it for years and will continue to not do it except perhaps in certain areas and only if my lover asks it of me. I aslo can't wait to get my friend in just a miniskirt and tackle hug and fondle him till he just freaks out from a gay guy touching him!!!!!! I'm going to call it even for the mess of hair and ick that is clogging up my bath tub now cause I know he wont clean it.

Sabian IV

Howdy!

Okay I just finished my first read thru of Heathen City, Vol 3. I would like to add that I just read Vol's 1 & 2 to get a review and catch up with my reading. First of all, I have to say,.....I want to get inside Alex Vance's head with a desk, a full library, and a computer and set up shop there. I have to say I am very impressed with this latest issue. The only over works of his that I have read is Chapter 1 in Kyell Gold's "X". Even that caused me to sit down with a notepad and work on the story and research and look up because I have to say it challenged my knowledge and understanding with the terms and thoughts presented in the text.

This volume of Heathen City has stretched my mind. I am finding problems in connecting all the dots as for me personally the story line is difficult to follows thanks to this hop around stuff that Vance is doing. This style I think would be better for a movie then for this story. The language seemed perhaps a bit deeper as I sensed more strings connecting everything, which with more read overs with a notepad and perhaps more read overs of volumes one and two will explain better. I will say, I do not enjoy the non english portions of the speech. I do not know italian or whatever it is these guys are speaking. Granted there are hints at what they are indeed saying I would appreciate either a sub text at the bottom of the page or for these to remain in english.

Now, Heathen City, Vol 1.... was packed full of nudity/sex/etc... to get readers attracted and going "oh fuck porn yay!" The story was fairly obvious with a twist that wasn't revealed and hinting at even more plot twists through out the course of the story. Heathen City, Vol 2... was packed full of backstory, still had some nudity and sex, and started to break the ice of how....bizarre and pyscho Vance was going to go with this story. I say this with the utmost respect. I believe most of the readers of this journal who have read these stories would agree with me as it was a bit of a "huh?" moment when we the story starts talking about a horse gone crazy. I dont think I fully enjoyed or understood Vol 2 untill i finished reading Vol 3. Heathen City, Vol 3.. as my first read thru. Has my mind spinning... and that's all I can really say now. I'm struggling to tie things in and figure out exactly happened and really get a grip on the story.

Sabian IV

I swear to god i'm not even joking...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A_eZ3dLa8bI

The sounds really dont help it's cause

So,... I was reading a story by  hawkwolf and well he was able to put in words something I was not. I have been trying to explain how high my sexual libido is. I hate it, i truly do I really wish I would hurry up and grow out of this part of my younger 20's. Its so annoying to have "sex" going through your head every minute of everyday. Finally H.A. Kirsch wrote:

"I am not satisfied yet. I doubt I will be. I never feel satisfied. It's a constant roar of sexual need in my ears. If I manage to quiet it down, then all I want to do is sleep from the sheer exhaustion of ejaculating fifteen, sixteen times in one day." -Harley

"that always-there buzz of sexual need."

So, that is how I feel every day and no one seems to understand that it ISNT fun pawing so much everyday or always being primed for sex. I don't know why people think it's so much fun but it's not fun and not cool. It's near a curse. I cherish the times that I have actually been like what was said.... when it is managed to be quieted down. But he's right, once its finally quiet you're exhausted and just want to sleep you can't get up and do anything and enjoy the silence.

Sabian IV

Okay... so I was looking up old songs that I haven't heard in a while and I came across this really awesome one. So I watched this and they had this song and it was animated. I sent it to one of my friends along with this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0nGgvFt2OVQ

Me: I can totally just see that after driving to long..... driving down the road and pass a truck stop.

Friend: haha yeah i would take that as a sign i needed to stop driving for a while

Me: or at least never eat those burritos from "Joes Burrito Stop" again

COMMENTS PLEASE!...except how much you hate country music.

Okay, first of all Australians.... win. I don't care what you say Aussie boys just know how to talk and I will go like a kitten to any Aussie boy who talks to me.

British accents,... cool, intelligent, attractive

PuertoRican,... well they got that tongue thing with the r's

Spanish... I do actually like I have to say it's classy (note: true spanish, not Mexico)

Russian... I've yet to truly run across a guy with a russian accent, though I think it would be interesting

Country boy.... well I am a country boy a heart but.... that just doesn't quite do it for me as I grew up with it

Georgian/Alabama/Deep South... I am quite a fan of this accent and I love to hear it...

Scottish...... accent is just lovely

Irish.... when I hear this I'm connected to the words and just WAIT for a "funny" sounding word

I know I've missed other accents, but the whole boston, new york, jersey.... you don't count.

Cheers!

Sabian IV

Howdy!

Well, i'm feeling well like shit right now. Again, i'm told writing things makes you feel better. So here it goes. I've already actually started working on a new writing experiment about a Jock Tiger and an Academic Panther,...dealing with anthropology and gay stuff of course. We'll see how that goes, but I can't write at the moment cause I just don't feel happy or like writing.

Perhaps some think this is just a poor pitiful me post. Well it is, cause you're supposed to write it out and make you feel better so this is personal self help therapy? Anyways.... where to start. I woke up this morning all congested and crap debating if I wanted to go to class. I felt really tired and said screw it, I don't wanna go to Civil War class today. It isn't so much of a bad thing as i'm very fluent in Civil War history. So I slept past lunchtime and missed the Indian food that I was gonna treat myself to today.

I've been wanting to start working out again, but I just haven't had a day that I've felt good enough to put myself through that torture. I know I need to do it I just need someone here to motivate me. Hell, motivation in general is needed, and that "oh well you're making yourself healthier or look better" crap can go fuck itself. I've been procrastinating going to the grocery store as all the blacks and mexicans (sorry not gonna be politically correct if I offend,... well it's not meant to offend so dont get offended), anyways all the blacks and mexicans here at HEB crowd up the alleyways and scream at their kids. I wanna tell one of them "Ma'am it doesn't matter how many languages you scream at your children unless you beat their ass they're going to continue to run rampant amongst the store and scream their head off" So.... I've been eating rather even more unhealthier.

On perhaps a better note, I have this... BDSM group party i'm supposed to go to tomorrow night. It's a fun safe non sex environment for which people to explore certain fetishes. Being the only gay guy in the group means I have to rely on females to experience these things as the males cannot bring it upon themselves to do things to another male. Now,... this isn't much of a problem except my "dom" and I put this in quotes cause.... she only has that title in respect of when we are in a scene. However, she's tending to take her "dom" ness a bit to seriously. Now I WOULD explain to her the problem...except well, how do I say this... she's a female. If you bring up one point against the female they will continue to hound you about it and use it against you WAY after the argument has taken place. She likes to act like a dom over me, which I absolutely despise the domination act except from one guy who manages to pull it of as just normal, he knows who he is. Anyways this female ....likes to act all dom and wants everyone to treat her like a dom, except when you tell her some things as a Dom she gets pissy like a submissive and goes and pouts and then well shit just goes down hill.

I was asked to go to dinner tonight at 5pm. Everyone was supposed to arrive at 7 and we go to dinner promptly after. After 12 txts of me going WTF @ 8:30pm I finally just call the person. We're supposed to have a group of 15 when I actually get to the restaurant it's me, the dom acting female, and this guy that drove up to see her. She tells me she didn't want to invite anyone else. Well..... you ever feel like a third wheel? I swear I was basically sitting at a different table! So.... now I got to put up with her at tomorrows play party. I'm sorta looking forward to it, but also sorta not cause I'm not sure if I trust her to keep her personal feelings OUT when she is trying to do her scene with me.

On the another note. I'm lonely as usual. My friend with benefits system dried up when my friends suddenly get boyfriends, this has happened with all of them in less then 2 weeks all together. That's leaving one helluva pent up lion. I'm sorry my paw, porn, and a fleshjack just ain't managing to satisfy. I also keep wanting to post on sex sites, but I value my disease freeness way to much, so I continue to go without sex. I personally am proud of myself for doing so, however.... I find the more I go without sex the more stress I go under, the more I POP at people, and the more frantic and jittery I am.

Also,... DAMN DISNEY for they're marketing genious (thanks Rapier) on making a "Vault" and putting films in it and only making them available for certain times. I want "The Lion King" on dvd thanks to my recent hanging out with  lyonlover I have had a revitalized interest in lions. The panther thing has almost died (thank god, i was getting worried) and I am back on track for a love of lions. I want the DVD of "The Lion King" I also want the other soundtracks and CD's that go with it. I'm also again starting to find feral lions hot... (Simba....HOTNESS) and have been wanting to find more Lion King Gay fiction sites or just Lion King Gay Fiction Stories at all.

Well, I think that's about all the stuff I wanna admit to that I'm feeling at the moment. I'm all jangled up and not sure exactly what else I'm frustrated on. I do know that I'm done looking for a boyfriend. I'm just looking for friends now and hopefully to restore a friends with benefits system. I just want friends to start hanging out with and doing things. I wanna go to the pool hall at nights. I wanna go do putt putt gold for the helluva it. Laser tag would be fun. I'd REALLY love to go camping now that the weather is turning nice again. I wanna surround myself with good friendly people that aren't social misfits, addicted to substances, or just plain stupid. I want to have religious discussions that are friendly so I can talk about my own search for it. I want to have friendly political discussions again, I had so much fun discussing politics and other types of "hot" discussion with a friend who also got me addicted to that Max Colberg report....he knows who he is. Anyways, I miss having that type of friendship and discussions of people to just be around.

I used to only surround myself with people I wanted to stick my cock in. That's....not so great to be honest. Most were poor health, substance addicted, anti establishment people that provided a supreme hatred and stereotyping of furrys to me. I've finally realized sex isn't making me happy,....it does make me able to keep my sanity, but I don't want to keep trying to surround myself with people I want to have sex with. So... I think i'm finished blabbering on unless I go off on another tangent again...

Cheers,

Sabian IV