Its going to get a little early 3000's live journal here so read only if you care about the safety of another fur.


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I need actual help. For those who don't know I am a blind fur with some medical problems.

My current living situation has gone from bad to worse
Because of my eye degeneration I am reliant on others for transportation and other visual tasks. I currently live with my family because of my past mate leaving me destitute and homeless.

My family is now passed at me and wants me to leave because one of my medical problems flared up last weak and led to an embarrassing and shameful situation. My father is blaming me for his failing marriage since he. And his wife are passed and disgusted with me.

They at first subtly discussed me getting my own place, which I would have done already if disability payed a damn then mov ed on to more aggressive terms.

I should also mention my family's hatred towards guys, I came out last December, and anything anti trump.

I am not looking for charity. Just...if someone lives in an area that is safe and has low rental costs for that area it would be a major blessing to know of.

I currently live in the no longer safe or friendly state of Washington.

Please.

Help.

Hey all,

Its been over a month now since I came out to my dad. Iy was a very emotional and tear filled situation. I never actually thought I would do it. I never thought I would have the courage to. But here I am. Still not out publicly in my town (I dont want to be lynched or shot) but I feel lighter. Carrying things on your shoulders eith nowhere to rest will drag you down harder than you realize. There were times that I thought of ending my own life. I found a support group and joined anonymously and would stay up late crying in the fetal position hating who I was and unable to accept and love myself.

Thats where a large issue is. We have to love ourselves before we can be who we truly are. There is nobody on this planet who's opinion of you should mean more than your own. We are all stumbling blindly through this. There are no guides. There is no gold paint to guide us. We are together and alone. We can have companions on our travels of self discovery but each new step forward has to be your own.

Its a long unending road before us all but its the journey that matters. The decisions along the way define who we are. Each and every one of us is a special unique being and we must learn to accept ourselves and each other.

If any one of you is struggling or confused there are people who will listen and help. Anf if you feel like there isn't just reach out. Even I can offer a pearl of wisdom from time to time.

We all have the capacity for love.

~Tez

Hello lovelies. I am going to be offering a free holiday YCH! Please keep an eye out for the submission. It will be a random giveaway so be prepared.

-All the love
Tez

please! I just want help! I want to talk to someone about all this. I qant help. It shouldn't be this hard. The internet shouldn't be hidden behind a pay wall. LGBT support shouldnt close at 9 and be closed completely on Sundays. I shouldnt have to pull teeth just to talk to a person. I shouldnt have to cry myself to sleep every night and hide myself behind a fake smile.

Someone please help me.

I have been telling myself for 2 nights that I should just suck it up and not post this. However I'm at a complete loss as to what I should be doing instead so here goes.

I dont have many watchers. The few of you that there are, I want to thank you for reading this. I have written in the past couple months about my situation at home but I need to get this out somewhere. My "family" is almost completely full of dar right conservatives. They are the type that think counseling is pointless because I should just talk to the family about my problems. Then they tell me my mental imbalances are just a thing I can stop.

How am I supposed to tell them I'm gay? I can't even tell myself. Im not even sure I'm ciss. I have hid everything about who I am got so long that I don't even know who ot what I am. I have EXACTLY three friends irl. Only one of which I can meet in person. There are no support groups in this area. There is nowhere for me to turn.

I just want to yalk yo someone who has gone through this. I judt want a shoulder to cry on. I just want out.

I hurt. From my head to my heart. I am trapped, physically emotionally mentally and spiritually. Please help me. If you can't share this to someone you think can. I want help but there are no hands to grab on to.

I live in Washington state in the U.S.

I can text and call internationally if needed.

I cant be regularly online as I live in the country and don't have good internet.

Please help.

Sorry its been so long since my last update. Been working on a new drawing and its had me in a crippling depression. Drawing is done now though but im afraid to post it. The people I've shown it to haven't responded. Definitely not helping the depression.

I just feel really lonely right now. I could really use a friend.

Also I might have an adoptable im working on so keep an ear out.

~Tez

Where I live is a dangerous place. Not like a crime ridden back alley or in the shadow of a nuclear cooling tower. I live in a very very conservative and close minded community. It's a small town where most people will say hi and leave to anyone they meet but as soon as the person is out of earshot they will tear them apart if they aren't a cisgendered straight white Republican.

I wish I could say I'm being hyperbolic but even people I thought were friends are stuck in a specific mind set that is. Well it's dangerous. I am a gendergluid Male leaning bisexual fur. All of those things are taboo here. If my family were to learn of any of that I would be disowned and kicked to the curb and ostracised. I don't have options, I'm blind and can't work or drive. I'm stuck where I am eith only my kitty to keep me company and he is a dick from time to time.

I'm lost
I have nowhere to go.
I have no friends nearby who could save me.
I'm doomed.

Anyone want to adopt a blind Mousey?

~Your Mousey.