Many cryptic clues but one of definite answer, a statement that I knew was coming. I can't believe it's all over, the end of what I hoped for a life-long relationship with me and  TerraFoxx, has come to an end after nine months, parting ways without any hatred or malice but the acknowledgement of what we've gained from it all.

I'm still friends with Terra, though I fear that I'll grow distant from him, like the many previous relationships I've had, and this fear is something I'll forcefully fight to prove myself wrong. I don't want to cut all contact with him, I'll be supporting him for what he does, as usually, and I know he'll do the same.

I guess I don't have time to mope around, I do need my break down though, and that will come eventually, but while I'm single, I'll keep going in life and prove why the single life isn't bad at all!


I guess after coming to terms with what has happened, it's more of an indefinite break than an end of the relationship. He needs the break to focus on university and next year, while I need the break to get my life sorted out and show that I can get somewhere in life; just need to prioritize.

Any good/decent artists who are good at drawing furries on bicycles? The pedal-kind of bicycle, not the motor one. Any help would be great :3

23rd birthday today, let's see how many birthday messages I'll get here :P

You guys, help me!

I'm looking out for a potential artist to commission later in the year for a project I'm working on, but they need to be cheap and decent quality. My budget has yet to be decided to but it needs to be decently cheap and good/enjoyable quality :3

I've already got two names noted down, just need more so I've got more to choose from :3

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4875374/

Pimpin' ain't free >.>

Does anyone know of any decent fursuit makers who are open for commissions? Preferably one that does "follow-me-eyes" :3

I think it's safe to say that my own sanity has broken new boundries because of what I done yesterday, nothing bad mind you but it's something only the fool-hardy would enjoy doing.

Basically, I cycled 32 miles to the furmeet on zero sleep and managed to fall asleep while cycling there! I didn't stop once to buy drinks or even rest my legs, managed to get there in a record-breaking 2 hours 16 minutes and 45 seconds, then I decided to break logic and cycle home, another 32 miles, and I only stopped once but managed to get home in 2 hours 37 minutes.

Other than my own cycling exploits, there wasn't much happening with the meet as several regulars didn't turn up for various reasons and my own tiredness levels didn't help Dx

I guess I'll try to be more active on here, though what's the chances it'll work? :P

1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? What's your name?
Sparky, though I'm usually called Daley by non-furries.

2. How tall are you?
5'7"

3. Natural hair color?
Black

4. What about eye color?
Brown

5. What orientation are you?
Pansexual/bisexual

6. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Open relationship

7. What do you do in your spare time?
Play Yu-Gi-Oh!, football/soccer training, cycling

8. What's your job?
Unemployed

9. What's one thing you like about yourself?
I'm always there for people when they need someone to talk to.

10. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
Lack of motivation for the important things in life.

11. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met?
I'm retarded? But in a good/weird though.

12. Of what faith/religion are you(if any at all?)
I lost my religion to R.E.M.

13. Do you drink?
Only soft drinks, I won't drink alcoholo

14. Do you smoke?
No

15. What are your fears?
Being alone in life with nobody around me.

16. What are your dreams/goals?
Dreams: Travel the world and experience different cultures.
Goals: Getting a stable job and stable income, also to score a goal for my football team in a competitive match.

17. Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
I've had many crushes and quite a few ex's. Two ex's I don't bother with anymore, two I keep in contact with (irregularly).

18. Who's your best bud?
Quite a few people, mostly Yu-Gi-Oh! duelists I've met online and in real life.

19. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
Pop Tarts, if I've got any, or maybe spicy noodles or chocolate

20. Favorite drink?
Apple/Pineapple juice <3

21. Favorite color?
Red

22. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Teleportation.

23. Favorite movie?
Quite a few, if I'm honest.

24. Least favorite food?
Mushrooms D:

25. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
Starter: Garlic Bread
Main: 20oz Sirlion steak, well done, with chips
Dessert: Freshly made apple pie and custard

26. What do you drive/wish you drove?
Nope, I prefer to cycle everywhere.

27. Most disliked bug?
Woodlouse? I don't know, none of them really bother me

28. Most hated pet peeves?
People who waste your time and stop bothering with you once they've gotten something from you.

29. Dislike in life?
Being unemployed.

30. Most annoying?
Making a bet and not putting money on it.

31. Most disliked TV show?
Soap opera's and reality TV shows.

I'm gonna upload a selection of the hundreds of pictures I took while at ConFuzzled, only uploading the best one's but over a period of time because I hardly use FurAffinity :P

So it's that time of the year where I post a meme about a convention I'm going to!


What is your gender?
Male

How old are you?
22

How tall are you?
5'7

Are you in a relationship?
Yes, open relationship though

Where are you staying?
The main hotel

What day are you getting there?
On the Thursday.

Who will you be with?
Many people I know from Twitter <3

Do you have art in the art show?
Nope

What suit(s) will you have?
Birthday suit!

Can I dance with you?
Depends on my mood but sure

Can I touch you?
Yeah but keep common sense yeah?

Can I talk to you?
No, social interaction is forbidden in the code of the Aspergers :P Nah, go for it!

Can I hug you?
Why wouldn't that be a problem?

Can I take photos of you/with you?
Go for it! I want my fame :P

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
As long as it's soft drinks of the sort, no alcohol.

Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
Nope, I'm straight-edge.

Can I give you lots of money?
Sure <3

Can we hang out?
Go for it! But I do try to keep myself busy and move around, who knows what I'd be doing though!

Where will you be most of the time during the con?
In the hotel!

Who are you rooming with?
 TerraFoxx <3

Attending any events?
Not that I know of?

How can I find you at the con?
Tweet me as Sparky15756 or look for the guy with a red wolf tail and black shirt with long black hair and maybe even glasses depending my mood.

Are you doing anything in line with the theme?
Nope.

Not that I approve of it anyway but all my plans worked and now I'm in a relationship, albeit open relationship, but I'm still happy that I've waited just over 18 months to find that special someone <3

Now that the blushing face has got your attention, time to bring you to the main reason of this journal:
I'm courting/dating someone local :O This, in itself, is a miracle because of the law of logic saying that there won't be anyone local who I'd want to date.

Bad thing? He shares the same furname as my ex. Well it's not much of a bad thing but it's kinda awkward but...HE'S GINGER! I LOVE ME A GINGER! And he looks like The Joker/Aurora killer o.o; I ain't saying anything else yet, don't want to jinx it, but I can see something great happening between us.


Basically: I've found love and doing relationships the proper way - Getting to know the person <3

NO. NOT YET. FUCK YOU. I WANT EASTER BEFORE I DO THIS MEME.

And we have lift-off! I've got the stream on Paws-Up Radio, taking you into the weekend! www.pawsupradio.com / http://radio.pawsupradio.com:8000

I guess I'll be returning to streaming music for Paws-Up Radio, from next year, after a successful show. :3 Though I don't know when I'll be DJing :3

It's my birthday today, go crazy. :P

I'm surprised I've even got people watching me. :O I don't upload much or even post journals, as I've got Twitter as my main source of communication to the masses.

www.twitter.com/Sparky15756

But yeah, alot of fun is happening over the next few days. <3

Yes! After going through ALL of the backdated submissions, watching people who I want to watch and dealing with comments and other thing, I've got no new messages to deal with on here!

Really?! You guys are doing TMI Tuesday on here too?! That's insane! Though you won't be getting anything from me until I've had my query from Dragoneer answered, though I'm not expecting anything from it but the worst. XD

I could be returning to FurAffinity because I feel that I should be more social in the fandom than stick with certain forums; Twitter; Skype; Facebook. Though I need to decide whether to do a favorite-bomb or to do set of bombs to ease the damage, as there is nearly 7,000 art submissions to look at D:

I don't know when I'd be fully returning, but it'd be sometime this year. o.o

And to celebrate, I've redo Travie McCoy's "I Wanna Be A Billionaire" lyrics:
I wanna be a fursuiter, so freckin' bad.
Hug all furs, I never could.
I wanna be on the cover of Furs Magazine
Smiling next to (Uncle) Kage and You
I'm leaving it at that, because I can't be bothered doing the whole song. XD


But in order to do this, I need to find a fursuit maker. There's, over nine thousand, many to choose from but I'm not sure where to start. I've looked at the UKFurs fursuit makers list but it might not be up to date. D: B3Mascots look good but I'll need to save up more money.

Already got £390 saved up, mostly from selling Yu-Gi-Oh! cards. Though once I get to £500 then I'll look, even harder, for a commissioner. Donations are accepted but not compulsory ^.^ Nor will I beg for donations. :3

If any of you lovely people are going to ConFuzzled then try and spot me there! I'll be walking around with a laptop case, wearing a red poloneck and black shirt (unsure of the shirt design yet).

Just so you know, you can also follow my 'busy' life on TWITTER. It's alot easier than waiting for spordic journals like this one!

http://www.twitter.com/Sparky15756

Around 3 years ago I met a guy, on here, and after getting to know him for a few weeks/months I believed he was the right peerson for me but as he lived in Arizona I knew that a long-distance relationship wouldn't work between us and my common sense/shyness stopped me from asking him to be my boyfriend.

Now fast forward 3 years: I've had 4 long-distance relationships.
1st and 2nd: Was desperation really, both based in America. I wish I didn't get into the 'relaationship' at all but alas I can only laugh now.
3rd: Doing things properly, like I did with the guy in Arizona, but it was cross-country. We've since split and moved away from each other before coming back into each others lives as I unravelled the lies of what happened but forgave him.
4th: Another cross-country but out of lust and desperation, honestly wish I didn't bother with it but a part of me is glad that I did because I helped that person out and he's currently better off than he was at the time.

I thought I found someone, in Decemember 2011, but it turns out that he's got a girlfriend and won't admit it desperate me having enough evidence to prove it all.

Now between those 3 years I've hardly spoken with the guy from Arizona, well sporidically as I tried to push him out of my life but mainly so he didn't get hurt, but now he's back in my life and he'll be visiting me sometime over the Summer and I honestly can't wait.

But, over the past few weeks/month, I've fallen in love with someone else and even more funny is that the person I've fallen in love with lives in New Mexico. He's got a girlfriend though and I'm respecting his relationship status, while being a good friend to him and improved/improving his life.


The main point of this journal is to vent out the fact that I love two people in America but don't want to hurt any of them, I love them both and they both love me but if the chance was given for me to choose ONE then I'd have a hard pick. I guess it'll be hard for me to choose ONE person when I love many people. Maybe I'm better off being single but yet I also want to settle down with a job and a love life with someone of whom I love.


I'm probably just being stupid, as it's still a long-distance but I know what I'm doing and not going for the relationship but keeping the friendship with both of them and everyone else as I value friendship more than anything.

I don't know, maybe I've changed my perception of love over the 3 years. I know I'll figure something out, I always do, but I'm only thinking like this because I've been single since August 2011 and despite it being a long time I'm actually coping really well.