the last few weeks I've been really worked up about the quality of my art to the point where it became unhealthy, I made 5 or so pieces in one day and uploaded none of it because of my own bullshit standards. I constantly feel judged about ANYTHING I create irl and have been using the internet as a safe space to share stuff, but that wall is almost broken and I start to get shaky whenever I feel like I'm sharing too much of myself.

to the people who asked about commissions: there are much better artists to buy something from.

EDIT: that's silly, I'm being silly

I was actually going to draw today, but my tablet's pressure sensitivity pooped out on me.

My tablet """installs the drivers""" and then doesn't do anything. The pen makes no response and there's no evidence of anything being installed at all. Apparently I need the CD disc to actually do anything, and that was gotten rid of a long time ago. I'll have to save up for a new tablet... again... and, being a 19-year old with no job, that's gonna take a while.

EDIT: I miraculously found the disk in the garage! :D :D :D

My laptop was broken under mysterious circumstances about a week and a half ago, so I had to use my old one for that time. Poor thing couldn't even run SAI. ;n;

BUT! As of yesterday, my good laptop is now fixed, working and in my posession! Back to the grind at last.

I got a new phone via a roomate's convoluted generosity shenanigans! Thanks buds!
Still have to go without a laptop, though. That sucks.

The good news is that I have a metric fuckload of drawings I haven't uploaded yet!

Things happened at home, and I'm now without a laptop and phone. I'll be on when I can, but I don't know how long that'll be. Could be 3 hours, could be several months.

*floats away*

It's technically Tuesday where I am, time to reel in possible inquiries from my tiny amount of interested followers! Yay!

I'm trying to be more active here, too. I also really like sharing suspiciously personal information with random strangers over the Internet. Everyone wins!

I was gonna start doing these on Tuseday, but then I remembered Tuesday is stupid.

I've been heavily and relentlessly sidetracked over the past month. I got sucked back into Everquest for a bit, then switched to WoW after a few weeks of not knowing what to do at max level.

Before anyone asks what server I play on, prepare to be disappointed! I have no way of actually purchasing a subscription for the foreseeable future so I settled with a WotLK private server. It's fun and wonderfully bug-free, but I feel all gross not playing on the real servers, y'know?

Kik basically guaranteed its death. It's removing hashtags and usernames in the next update in favor of the bullshit scan code system. There goes one of my favorite past times, then.

the kobold is now 19! Rejoice!

IT'S 11:07 PM
IT'S MY HATCHDAY IN 53 MINUTES

WOOOOOOO 19 YEARS LET'S DO THIS

I, uh... I like Homestuck now. I had no interest until 3 days ago, and after looking at the first page I still haven't closed the tab cx

Oh, and Merry Spookmas! <3

This is mostly a filler journal so my raffle advertisement isn't at the front forever.

IN OTHER NEWS, THE RIDONCULOUS RACE IS MY NEW FAVORITE SHOW OF ALL TIME.
It's pretty much The Amazing Race + Total Drama World Tour, and it's A M A Z I N GGGgggGGGgGG! I've been binge watching it for the last 2 days.
Rock is my favorite anyone right now! I love his personality and enthusiasm and hair and everything about him! Chet & Lorenzo are pretty great too.

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I'm advertising the Animation Raffle  GypsyWolf is hosting!~

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Signal boosting for Shu~
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If you can't buy anything I'd appreciate it if you could spread the word.

Two of my closest furry friends on Kik hate each other now, and a third is leaving the fandom altogether.
I'm a pretty emotional person and it's a curse in times like these. I'm literally crying right now. I barely held it together when someone I didn't even know left the fandom out of drama, and now it's three people I genuinely enjoy talking to... I have no idea how I'm gonna handle this.

EDIT: I'm getting a lot of support through other kik people and a certain FA friend (you know who you are! <3), which is wonderful! I'm gonna be fine!

POST-EDIT EDIT: The friend who left is now back, woohoo! The other two are still working things out, though.

Nobody in the history of the world has ever loved a video game more than I have with SSX 3.
Viggo Rolig is my spirit animal.

I'm mostly over it now. Blah.

I wish there was a temporary suicide button. Not really a 'suicide' per se, but more of a stop-existing-for-a-while thing. I want to skip to the part where I can keep living normally knowing my secrets disgust most people. I've spent the greater part of five years hoping they didn't find out about it yet, and guess what? They found out. I'm ashamed to even be turned on by anything now; it'd just be more proof I'm the worst human being on the face of the planet.