Im back yooooo

Well guys, here I am in the truck on my way to Oregon. The trip out was not an easy one, but I came to the conclusion that I'm truly excited to be there. To find something big.

This wasn't really supposed to happen..this trip to Oregon...I was supposed to be elsewhere..or was I? Maybe this was my way of learning who I really am, because I've spent days upon days of internal thoughts arguing and speculating as to how I got here and why, and though it's hard to draw conclusions that extend beyond the average "Well it wasn't meant to be.", I have figured out reasonable and valid reasons to explain myself.

Anyway, while I'd love to go off track and explain my appreciation for such a failure, and my reasons behind it, I'll just leave you with this:

Things happen and they happen for good reason. Understanding why things are the way they are is the bulk of the journey through self-discovery, I believe, and I think that this chapter in my life is coming to a fulfilling end for the most part. Sure, there are a few holes here and there, experiences I wish I could have had and lessons I wanted to learn, all halted against a dead end - the harsh, unforgiving wall that is disappointment. But its okay, I've turned around to see a whole new chapter in my life, and I realize that there will be a lot of those walls (although its hard to imagine it being worse than that), but I've got a life to look forward to with the beautiful art that is music, and with an amazing selection of people that love and care about me, and even look up to me in some cases.

I'm excited guys <3

WOAH, GUYS I GOT MY FIRST DJ DECK THE OTHER DAY.
So this bad boy here is a Reloop Terminal Mix 4, and I just got my first beat match with it, so if you want, I captured it on camera and you can watch it here: https://m.facebook.com/story.php?st.....99395&_rdr

Music by Deadmau5

I CAN WATCH PORN AND FEEL JUSTIFIED!! xD
Oh OH OH AND THE FILTER ON FA WILL SHUT DOWN LEGALLY

Lol the first couple things that come to mind right there xD
Seriously though, awesome. Strip clubs. The ladees. This is legit guhz

My move to Oregon is happening and I'm excited. I love Minnesota, but something about Oregon just screams opportunity. Whether that's with music or even just meeting new people, it's gonna be neat. It'll be a nice way to move on from things. It'll be a step up.

One reason I don't wanna leave? Friends. Another? Owl City. Adam young from Owl City.

THE ADAM YOUNG from OWL CITY grew up and still lives in Owatonna, MN, only two hours south of where I'm currently living. I shit you not it's the truth. The only reason I'm proud to be a Minnesotan is because I stood within a 500 mile radius of the man that absolutely inspires me. The man that drives me forward during any situation. Holy fuck.

I need to meet him. I want to meet him so badly before I leave. I want to drive to Owatonna and meet him. So very badly. So that's what I'm gonna do. I plan on going out there before I leave..if its possible. It needs to happen. And then, after a buy a new copy of Ocean Eyes, he can sign it for me...? Ughhhh I would cry so so so hard p~q He is so amazing...

Anyway...aside from my fangirling, I plan on meeting some furs in Oregon and making some connections. So I'm looking forward to that.

Also! I'll be going to college for radio broadcast so I can get experience with a variety of audio equipment. Soon afterwards, I can branch off and get to a more in-depth and specific audio career.

I'm also going to be saving up for a couple CDJ's and a mixer, and I plan on DJ'ing and getting some gigs n shit. Ladies will love me so hard @w@
Lolyeahright. xD but in reality, that would be a great way to get my name out there.

I've never been one of those overcomplex guys who make their music projects huge and complicated as fuck, but you don't need to stack or even arrange a TON of shit to make a good song. My music us simple, yet it sounds complete (at least to me it does) So I am confident that I'll get noticed much more in the future.

Maybe even release a hit single that could get me famous..? And then I could meet up with Adam...oh my god...and we could collaborate....OUR MUSIC WOULD KISS THE FACE OF THE EARTH AND SEND YOU ON A JOURNEY TO DISCOVER THE UNIVERSE AND ALL OF ITS GLORY.

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I don't know guys, I'm excited. A lot of my journals may be a bit pointless, but writing helps cleanse my thoughts and keeps me from thinking too hard on things.

Love you guys, and again, if you haven't watched my  melodicat page, I highly encourage it, since this account is gonna be dead for the most part. And I need help getting out there a bit more!

I can't log into my Melodicat account!! I recently changed my password and it wouldn't let me in, so I thought that maybe I just forgot it, so I reset it to the one I thought it was, and the reset was successful, yet when I go to login with it, it STILL says there is an error. My name is right! The password couldn't be wrong, I just reset it! What the hell!?

I LOVE YOU. *keegan gives you warm and fluffy hugs*
>w<!!!!!!!!

Hey mister/miss! It's been a while since an update and I feel melancholy, so I thought I'd just make a little journal to keep my mind at piece.
So what's new with me? Thanks for asking! :D

Music is growing so much with me. I'm involved with so many projects right now, and each song I make is seeing nothing but improvement!
My album is being pushed back a bit so that I ensure my tracks are as high quality as they can be, and the album will be available for free with the option of paying a dollar for preordering, which will give you a bonus track, in which I would love to feature  kayobe

I don't know guys. Things are awesome, but at the same time they kind of suck. I keep grieving over stupid shit, and I get pissed off and it's an easy way to ruin my perfect day. I presented my proudest piece of work, WhoWeAre at the talent show last Thursday, which was one of the coolest days in my high school career. It was just amazing to see people wave their lights across the auditorium and cheer and scream as I DJ'd my track in front of the entire school. So that was pretty awesome.

Maybe one of these days I can DJ for Anthrocon?
Oh dear...wouldn't that be an interesting story to tell...? -w-

I can't listen to Owl City..*curls up in the corner*
o~q
I'm trying but I'm dying very slowly inside as I do...
These songs used to bring me happiness and confidence. Now look at me.

That1Furry is single...again.
Look at me go. Breaking hearts for a living. I'm a natural.



Lol

I can't even believe this. Okay, so allison, a good friend of mine pulled me aside saying my step sister is spreading rumors about how I apparently molested her when she was 7 (that would make me 9 at the time) and that I masturbate in the shower.

Idk. What I did to deserve that but me and my parents are gonna have talk...with her.
Wish me luck. If I die I loved my life. Somebody embrace must my music
Lol

The majority of the population disgust me personally. I just feel the need to rant. And bear to mind that i am really talking about everyone who isnt a furry or an artist of some sort, otherwise they disgust me. Especially men around here. Disgusting pigs. No sense of direction in life. Always after the female body and never the person they are. I truly feel bad for women in relationships like that because they act like its a normal thing. I could do so much better than those fucks..
This isnt jealousy, but rather a rant about the unfortunate fact that the majority of the amazing people in society with fhe potential to bring the enjoyment of a lifetime to others are hidden from the world. people like me who sit there with that potential, but nobody cares enough to try and get to know me.

I girlfriend wants me to go to choir and tell the teacher she would be late for a meeting. I do. I make it halfway through the classroom making my statement to the instructor before everybody made it apparent that she was already there sitting right behind me D: There was only a handful of people too! How do I even manage to miss that!?

Anyway..threw a sucker wrapper at the ground yelling "dangit!" and left the room

xD

No its not the end of the world and no im not an emotional mess, but Im feelin so loooonelyy..

Right now kik is all I got. ItzThat1Guy54
Keegan needs company o~o

My phone plan is out tonight! Im gonna br quiet for a few weeks until i renew it! (currently i do not have internet access at home)

AHHHHHOHMYGODIMFANGIRLINGTAKETHISANDLOVEITFOREVER
http://youtube.com/watch?v=-PKNuZovuSw&sns=fb

It's a great traditionally animated music video for Kesha's song "Die Young" featuring anthro characters from the animator's we comic and a couple of other supporting artists. It's beautiful umg

My own copy of FL Studio 11.
My friend let me install and unlock his copy, but i cant register it so I'm stuck on FL Studio 10 and I'm getting outdated.

That and sunset overdrive. WEEEEEEEEEE

Ahhhhh! >w<!!!!!!
More stories nobody cares about!

So I drew this picture for this girl, Mia, as a nimbat. We were supposed to go to class together but forgot it was homeroom day so we had to go do that first, so she was questioning whether or not i was going to let her walk to class alone and I told her I would meet her after homeroom and we could walk together to class. And I did and she smiled when she saw me and then we were walking then she grabbed my hand and I was just like BDKSNDNBXKXMnkdkxbcjckdmurrrrr
It was adorable.
We held hands all day and then she kissed me on the cheek when she said goodbye xD

Nobody has ever done that to me and I'm in my senior year lol

Anyway. I'm real excited!

Ever since I was emotionally crushed and beaten for no good apparent reason as I became single, I can't listen to Owl City anymore..p~q

But I want to so bad. But all of his songs were adorable little love songs that I always would relate to me. And now none of it means anything and I feels like I'm drowning myself in my past emotions when I listen to it. But GOD DAMN I LOVE HIS MUSIC I don't know really what to do.

I just get all sad when I listen to it, regardless of whether or not I'm over this whole situation by now, which I am. I feel alive. I feel like i have my life back. I literally feel like I woke up from the dead and its just awesome, but then stupid little things like this try to ruin my mood. >~<

I feel sorta anxious so I decided I would do something and take my mind off of things.

So I will announce stuff!

I am proud to say and have the ability to announce that I will be releasing my first full length album sometime around next April! A stretch goal of at least twelve tracks, all of which will be original compositions from scratch! (so basically no remixes or covers)

I am very excited. I have nearly finished my first track, and with all the new mastering techniques I have developed over the past few months, my music sounds very well done and nice to listen to! No clusterfuck of instruments that scramble your brain as you attempt to figure out what you are listening to! xD

Anyway, this track sounds beautiful, and I can't wait to share it with you guys. I will upload it here, however after that, all my uploads will be on my  melodicat account.
I will be uploading every other track as I complete them, leaving half of the album a secret until its release in 2015. x3

The album will be called "Found and Lost". Not many details are really present to share so keep an eye out for it! And please, if you could support my Melodicat account by giving it a watch or spreading the word through journals or something, it would mean the world to me! I really want Melodicat to become a bit of an icon in the furry musician community. I know I have the potential!

Any help will not go unnoticed. I promise you. And it will not go unrewarded. For both me and those who help get me more publicity! Thanks guys! Message me if you have any questions about anything! <3

Theressomegirlsatschoolthatthinkimadorableandtheresthisonethatsreallycoolthatsaidalltheothergirlsshouldfuckoffandnowimjustlikebdoaboxbaosnco bb dlnvjs
I'm so-I can't even HOW!?

This is a huge thing for me. I will be graduating high school this school year and will be moving with my parents over to Oregon on the west coast! I'm kind of excited in some ways!
But see my original plans..well. They didn't work out the way I thought they would, to put it simply.

Am I gonna meet anybody on here? Does anyone reading this live I Oregon? That would kick ass xD You see, that's why I'm excited. I want to meet people. Minnesota isn't exactly known for having a large community of furries or things of that sort, or at least not where I am.
Oregon is going to have tons of different kinds of people! I'm gonna go to furmeets and such and its gonna be great xD

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What sucks though is that I have to ditch my friends and shit. I may not have many, but the ones I do are super close and good to me. I also have to ditch some of the newer relationships I've been making over the past few weeks with a couple people. What happens if for whatever reason Im in a relationship by the time I graduate? Idk really. I'll cross that bridge when I get there I guess.

Oregon though! Sounds fun :3

Should I sing? My music. Should I do it? xD I have been writing down stoofs that are nice but bxksndkskpdnsk
Idk. I'm bored. So I thought I would write something.

So yes. I think I might sing lol. No I'm not beautiful. But I'm descent. No need for auto tuning. Since I am everything but tone deaf xD

I'm feeling great, and this whole music thing? I am taking it really seriously. I want to start on my next album. I'm gonna have fun figuring out a theme for it. Last theme was the universe and what makes it so great, this theme might be more along the lines of staying positive about things or something like that. Not sure yet. But I like to tie space into everything in one way or another lol

I have my life back it seems. I feel no need to be away from people.
SOE AIEM BAHK

I am leaving for a while.
A longer while.

I am not in the mood. I don't want to be in this state of mind.
Plus I FUCKING WROTE THIS JOURNAL FOUR TIMES BECAUSE IT KEPT ERASING.

anyway. It's four in the morning. Almost 5. I am getting tired to the point where I can't remember 5 words back. I'm a sad person, I know.

Lately that has been taken quite literally.
I feel dead.

My heart is a tad bit broken at the moment.

But you know what? It's alright.
I am a great person. I can do so many things.
I have the gift to be a great sympathizer.
Something not all people are born with.

I make fuggin music. Dude. That's something I would have died to see me accomplish when I was younger. I am learning how to fulfill a dream.

/somebody/ out there will appreciate me.

This all sounds selfish, but its a great thing to know how great we are as individuals.

Either way, the other day a friend told me this: "Dravin, be fucking selfish for once. It never hurts to get full of yourself every once in a while. All you ever do is focus on others and never on yourself."

It kind of hit me how true that was. Its crucial to worry about yourself and yourself only every now and then. (although some instances of this reasoning were a load of shit *cough*)

So anyway. I will be gone pursuing me.
If I do come back, it will be obviously to show off my art lul. Melodicat will be more active however, since I like to make music a lot.

I even might start up Youtube again! Although that requires a lot of energy and enthusiasm.
That I don't really have..

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The sort of dead feeling I have right now is either me being tired, my anxiety, or both lol

So I'd love to talk to some people again! I would love to talk to new people with new ideas and perspectives. My mind has been reserved for a LONG time. Its time to open it back up!

So if you want to chat, just let me know your Skype or messenger of choice or whatever.

Now. Im going to sleep probably. Goodnight.

Yeah I nearly just planted my face into my phone im so tired. xD

So recently I made a very very cool deal with somebody very very awesome, and I need some money in my paypal! My goal is to get over $15 so it's not that hard at all.

I'm opening sketch commissions! $8 a piece, shaded and simple background, pencil and paper stuff. Things I'm actually good at.
So please! Note me if you are interested in a sketch commission!