FUCK FUCK FUCK

FUCK FUCK FUCK

I'm gonna wait till  n0ir finishes my ref before i move completely, and it's going to remain largely inactive till then, but yeah, go watch that account please, because this account will probably be dead completely.

Hopefully my mate is going to help me make my new profile look better than this one ever did, haha.


 Teran~


Forgot to link it first time, I'm a clever one xD.

Yeah, Bashbashi is doing an art raffle, and seeing as I've never done one before, I decided to give it a whirl! :D. So join the raffle dammit! xD.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4836195/ Dat journal

I guess I was just being stupid yesterday, I don't feel like that any more at all :c. I mean, I'm really sorry if I scared anyone, I was just shocked at my exam results and stuff, but I'm okay now, thanks to a nice long chat with  n0ir

I still need a little bit of time to recover, but I feel much better now.

I've recently been diagnosed with MDD. And things still keep on getting worse and worse. My mom may be fired because of the whole academy thing going on in English schools, and her absence, and as she's single, we may lose the house. With my dad gone, we'd be homeless, pretty much. Seeing as I -just- missed out on the grades to get to university as well means I can't go there to escape it. Things just keep on getting worse and worse for me. I've tried so hard to fight these urges, and I'm already receiving help but nothing works. I don't feel like my death would be a bad thing any more. I feel that it'd finally get me away from everything, like a release from everything.

I don't know what to do any more. I don't want to scare anyone, or annoy anyone, but, I really need to get it off my chest. Someone, please, help?

I've got about £40 to spend, and I want to get a clean picture of me and  n0ir but I haven't got a clue where to turn x3. I'd appreciate assistance, hehe.

Oh and £40 is about $60 btw.

My mom's in hospital, but with nothing to serious thankfully. What should I do with all this freedom? :U. I'm already pretty bored, hehe.

Looks pretty awesome! I mean, I pre-ordered it yesterday, but I feel like I'm the only one I know that's looking forward to it. Is anyone else gonna get it or is it just me? x3.

YES. All I need to do now is to start up a paypal account, which isn't too hard, right? D:. I only have about £50 left thanks to a shopping spree on steam x3

With all the stuff happening to me, I just feel so.... weak. Everything in my life right now feels... wrong.I don't know how to cope with things any more :c. I know I'm crying for attention right now but I feel like I'm almost completely broken. Not there yet, but well, yeah >.>.

What should I do? I mean... I feel like I'm a burden on everyone I know.

I'm not too learned on this, but our house's CO monitor in the boiler room must of been not working, out of batteries or... something, cos our house was flooded with Carbon Monoxide. No one else was in, and I got back from going out to the mall, and I started feeling pretty dizzy after a while and needed some air, so I went outside, then my mom got back with my sister and she thought the same, but we just thought nothing of it, but my sister lost conciousness, and we felt dizzier and dizzier, so we rushed outside, and called an ambulance. and she's in the emergency room now, and me and my mom have had blood tests, that came back okay, but I'm worried about my sister :S

I was going to take a nap rather than go out... how dangerous is Carbon Monoxide poisoning anyway? Did I get really lucky?

My god! First my grandparents now us! Surprisingly, they hardly took anything. The most expensive thing they stole was my mom's old laptop which doesn't even work, and a stereo that we don't use, so we got off rather lightly. I suppose our TV was too big to rob? I dunno. Thank god pretty much all of our valuables are upstairs. Although the front doors are broken, and they wrecked the place searching for stuff to take, although the didn't find anything.

Man, all this crime happening in my area is is making me feel really scared :S. I need some protection or something.

Submissive 96%
Experimental 89%
Degradation 82%
Bondage 75%
Exhibitionist 68%
Switch 64%
Masochist 61%
Dominant 54%
Vanilla 29%
Sadist 19%


http://quizfarm.com/quizzes/Sex/poe.....bdsm/index.php

I like this quiz :U. I'm a little surprisd about the 54% dominant xD. But I suppose it's balanced out by the 96% score on submissiveness. Isn't my mate lucky? lol. People should do it and post their scores :U.

Sorry for not replying to any of you guys, comments. It was rather difficult to get on the internet there, and when I did I sorta forgot >.>.

I feel much much better now, like normal even. Probably because of . He's amazing :U.

Got a cut on my foot that has lymphoedema, and the infection spread up my body and it was very VERY painful. I should be out from 3-7 days though which isn't so bad, and I've already had surgery. I've finally managed to get a connection on my phone to post this. I'm sooooo bored!

As a side, my lovely mate  n0ir has done a very good job of keeping me in high spirits, and I'm very grateful to him for that <3. Thanks hun.

I'm quite surprised it took me this long, I'm 18! But at least I didn't cut myself. Will the hair grow back quicker? Or is that just a myth? I dunno.

I can't wait for it to finish downloading! :D I can't believe he did that, he's so awesome, it really made me happy when i've been down.

They took pretty much everything of value in their house, whilst pretty much wrecking it in the process. That's awful! I hope they are okay. This city sure is going to hell 0____0.

I think I've been slowly been getting more girlish every few months, i mean, i'm not MASSIVELY feminine, i don't put on a lisp or anything like that, but... well, just look at my profile id, i'm not the most masculine of people x3.

But yeah, should i try and tone it down a little? I personally believe there's nothing wrong with it but my straight friends don't like it >.>

Whilst I was recording it, oh dear. This is the most awkward thing that's happened to me in my life, she just kinda stared at me. I'm not sure whether to laugh or cry x3. Probably both.

Yeah, help me take my mind off stuff by asking me probing questions! :D

Well... yeah title says it all. I've been wallowing around in my own misery for a while now, and i guess i should just look on the bright side of stuff for once. I guess that'd really help me and make my journals a lot less annoying x3.

My dad's taken a turn for the worse in hospital, like.... he's really bad ;.=.;. So bad that the doctors say that anything could happen, which is really... well scary. At least I'm not so ill any more but i'm really scared for my dad :c.

FEEL BAD FOR ME. I kid, but that's probably what my journals have sounded like recently. Sorry about that. I just need something good to happen for a change >.>.

I've been throwing up a bit cos I think I ate something bad last night. Cold, re-heated chicken from a dodgey Chinese restaurant, so I blame myself >.>.

At least this kinda thing only lasts for about 24 hours. But I feel awful and I cant stop throwing up >.>.