Alright, sooo.

Got my shit together. Doing fine. Talked to the awesome wolf. Trying to talk to another wolf (but we'll get to that when I can really focus). BUT ANYWAYS.

Today issss... Saturday. Yes. So. That means tomorrow is Sunday. HOLY SHIT! Church day. Not for me, sillies... the other religious folks out there. :3

But anyways, that means a day off work because... I feel like it >8I Will aim on getting at least one commish done before I do my cycling trail and then work in the evening (or phonecalls... shuddup :U )

So yeah, day off. Pretty easy week for me. Expect those long overdue commishes to be out. Also... remind me to do, at most, 5 at a time from now on. I'm no iron artist ;~;

And... yeah. Weee~

~Viper


===== Commish list =====

1. Mylos (complete)
2. silverwolf62 (complete)
3. LupoZeWolf (complete)
4. Murrkurie (complete)
5. xXRyeXx (X)
6. Lenon (complete)
7. Nordia (complete)
8. Jelethorim (complete)
9. akumademoon (ccomplete)
10. Jaker (clear)
11. Deschy (clear)

So, I got a job. Yay. :/ With that comes ten-hour work days, Monday to Saturday. Phonecalls, order forms, team meetings, appointments, demos, shows. I sell knives, guys. If you're wondering.

Well, just wanted to say I know I have a few commissions left from a month ago. I'm on them, so bear with me. Trying to get through a shitty time and balancing work. I will get to them (hopefully before the end of this month). Thanks.

-Viper

SPOTS have been taken. All filled. I even had to add one o-o;;

I will be out of town for a couple days due to several job interviews, but I will continue with your commissions upon returning. Thank you :3

Keep in mind that the order in which I complete the commishes isn't based on the numbers below, rather who sends in their refs and stuffs first. The numbers are basically for my own benefit. :3

NOOOOTE: Send refs and other info to THIS email (don't note me on FA XP ): thevipes{dot}foxy{at}gmail{dot}com

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Commish list

1. Mylos (complete)
2. silverwolf62 (sketching)
3. LupoZeWolf (complete)
4. Murrkurie (complete)
5. xXRyeXx (reference + pose missing)
6. Lenon (complete)
7. Nordia (clear)
8. Jelethorim (clear)
9. akumademoon (clear)
10. Jaker (clear)
11. Deschy (clear)

I'm bored... here ya go :3

Level 1
(x) took one puff out of curiosity... never again) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 2

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
(X) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 5

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 8

Level 4
(X) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Furaffinity Friends
(X) Been To Paris
(X) Been To Spain
(X) Been On A Plane
(X) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 13

Level 5
(X) Eaten Sushi
(X) Been Snowboarding
(X) Met Someone Through Internet
(X) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 17

Level 6
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(X) Taken Pain Killers
(X) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(X) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(X) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 21

Level 7
( ) Had A Tea Party
(X) Flown A Kite
(X) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(X) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 24

Level 8
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(X) Gone Sledding
(X) Cheated While Playing A Game
(X) Been Lonely
(X) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO far: 28

Level 10
(X) Watched The Sun Set
(X) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 30

Level 11
(X) Been Tickled
(X) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(X) Been cheated on
(X) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 34

Level 12
(X) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(X) Had Detention
(X) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 37

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
(X) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR : 39

Level 14
(X) Hated The Way You Look
(X) Witnessed A Crime
(X) Pole Danced
(X) Questioned Your Heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 43

Level 15
(X) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(X) Swam In The Ocean
(X) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 46

Level 16
(X) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(X) Played Cops And Robbers
(X) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(X) Sang Karaoke
(X) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 51

Level 17
(X) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(X) Made Prank Phone Calls
(X) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(X) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 55

Level 18
(X) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
( ) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(X) Blown Bubbles
(X) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 58

Level 19
(X) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(X) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 60

Level 20
(X) Worn Pearls
(X) Jumped Off A Bridge
(X) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 63

Level 21
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cubes
( ) Kicked A Fish
(X) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(X) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars
SO FAR: 65

Level 22
(X) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(X) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(X) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
SO FAR: 68

Level 23
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(X) Climbed A Tree
(X) Had/Been In A Tree House
(X) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
SO FAR: 71

Level 24
(X) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
(X) Gone Streaking
(X) Visited Jail
SO FAR: 74

Level 25
( ) Played Chinese Chicken
(X) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(X) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(X) Broken A Bone
(X) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 78

Level 26
(X) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(X) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
( ) Caught A Butterfly
(X) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(X) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 82

Level 27
(X) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(X) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(X) Cheated On A Test
(X) Forgotten Someone's Name
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
(X) Gone Skinny Dipping
(X) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
SO FAR: 88

Level 28
(X) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(X) Had A Cavity
(X) Black-Mailed Someone
(X) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 92

Level 29
(X) Been Used
(X) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(X) Bitten Someone
(X) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 96

Level 30
( ) Been shot/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
(X) Flattened someones tires
(X) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on (I usually do)
(X) Got five dollars or less worth of gas

TOTAL: 99

I'm just a pawn. Something to fulfill the instinctive needs of others. A victim to human nature.
To other boys, I'm just a virgin ass they can fuck...
To girls, I'm their damn tissue and pool to dump their miseries and woes in...
To my family, I'm just an asset; money for them from taxes...
To my school, I'm just a face to give them more money; they use me to get a better rep...
To my country, I'm a pawn; they can care less if they lose me in a game of chess. I'm just a fucking decoy...

What irks me most is the idea of being a sex toy. "Oh, he's a virgin... I don't care if he's taken, I wanna ram his ass." Rid of my hopes to have a romantic first, rather than a lustful fulfillment.
Why s human nature so? To toy with the weak, and use them fr lust.They're nice to you, but all they really want is to stick their dick in you fucking ass. "Oh you care for my feelings? My struggles? My anguishes?" "... nope. Just wanna fuck."
I will never forget that. Never. Not from one person, but from several, with different variations.
I sicken myself, knowing that this lust also lies within e. Sure, it's human nature, but knowing tat I could manipulate a poor soul just to fulfill my needs?... Tch... if this is human nature, then I want no part of it.
Throughout history, there's evidence of lust, not just sexual. For land, for money, for resources. This ends in fighting, and the bystanders suffer. As the saying goes: "When the rich [lustful] wage war, it's the poor [victims] who die."
... I feel sick of myself for having these traits. Lust. Manipulation. The ability to hurt an innocent soul, as has happened to me many times
... the thought of my boyfriend having been fucked in various ways before, and being told this... jealousy... envy... anger... I regret asking the details...
Why does human nature torture us so?!.... I don't want it anymore... I want it to go away... I hate it. I hate myself for having ownership of it... i can't live with the consistency of this nature... the ability to hurt, the ability to be hurt, and the thoughts of loved ones and their lust... like a dagger to my heart...
I want it to go away...
I can't live with it anymore..
The one who prevented me from the realities of human nature... is dead. He's been dead. The one I called a cousin. The one I wanted to be... He's gone...

... please... make the thoughts stop... make them go away... I need a savior...

So, it's been a week since I last spoke to my boyfriend... not really sure where he went. Kinda just.. left without any notification. Again, communication... but whatever.

Anywho, spring break is over-awww. So, classes are back in session. BUT. Graduation is fast approaching. Can't wait. Really should get into actual college and stuff. So. Yeah. More drawings on the way, perhaps. Just a quick 411 deal here. Ta-ta.

~Viper

So yeah... I've... completely lost the motivation for school... for drawing... for anything, really.

So... I dunno... guess I'll take a hiatus after uploading one more submission... This is... really starting to hit me hard. I'm being yelled at, avoided, used and it's all just sucking...

This year overall is suck. Foreclosure... three close friends died... again, no motivation... started out the year alone... hmh...

I don't even feel like talking to anyone right now... guess I'll just... be back whenever... Laters

~Viper

Looked interesting... so I decided to do it.

The Rules: This is fun to do. Just read the 'offense' and if you've done it, you owe that fine.
You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine.
NOTE: fines to be added once, not for how ever many times you have done it. And be honest.

[ ]Smoked weed -- $10
[ ]Did acid or pills -- $5
[ ]Ever had sex at church -- $25
[x] (1) Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- $40
[ ]Had sex with someone on MySpace/Facebook/Bebo/FA? etc -- $25
[ ]Had sex for money -- $100
[ ]Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican -- $20
[x] (2) Vandalized something -- $20
[ ]Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10
[x] (3) Beat up someone -- $20
[x] (4) Been jumped -- $10
[x] (5) Cross dressed -- $10
[ ]Given money to stripper -- $25
[ ]Been in love with a stripper -- $20
[x] (6) Kissed someone who's name you didn't know -- $0.10
[x] (7) Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15
[x] (8) Ever drive and drank -- $20
[x] (9) Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50
[ ]Used toys while having sex -- $30
[x] (10) Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20
[x] (11) Went skinny dipping -- $5
[ ]Had sex in a pool -- $20
[x] (12) Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10
[ ]Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20
[x] (13) Cheated on your significant other -- $10
[x] (14) Masturbated -- $10
[ ]Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend -- $20
[ ]Done oral -- $5
[x] (15) Got oral -- $5
[x] (16) Done / got oral in a vehicle while it was moving -- $25
[x] (17) Stole something -- $10
[ ]Had sex with someone in jail -- $25
[x] (18) Made a nasty home video or took pictures -- $15
[ ]Had a threesome -- $50
[ ]Had sex in public -- $20
[x] (19) Been in the same room while someone was having sex --$25
[ ]Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars-- $20
[ ]Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20
[ ]Had sex with someone under the age accepted by rule of thumb (half your age plus 7) -- $25
[x] (20) Been in love with two people or more at the same time-- $50
[x] (21) Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- $25
[x] (22) Went streaking -- $5
[x] (22) Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15
[ ]Been arrested -- $5
[ ]Spent time in jail -- $15
[x] (23) Pissed in the pool -- $0.50
[x] (24) Played spin the bottle -- $5
[x] (25) Done something you regret -- $20
[ ]Had sex with your best friend -- $20
[ ]Had sex with someone you work with at work -- $25
[ ]Had anal sex -- $80
[x] (26) Lied to your mate -- $5
[ ]Lied to your mate about the sex being good -- $25

Total: $400.60

:3 I'm worse than I thought...

Ah yes, February. The month of looooooooooooove~... :I come one guys, really?

Anyways, I've got ALOTTA shit to be talking about... but I shall reduce it into a mere summary :3

So I moved. Yep. About 5 miles... some direction. Foreclosure shit and whatnot. The new house is neat, anyways. Also, the high school decided to move the International Baccalaureate senior class to a nearby community college... so yeah, woot, college life. Of course, having to miss some days to move has me in a shithole right now. Still catching up.

Likewise... kinda... got admitted into the Air Force Academy. Yerp. Additionally, Embry-Riddle and Northern Arizona U wants me. That means that ROTC wants to give me a scholarship. Let's see how that turns out 9-9

Bought a commission. $60. Hoping it's worth it :3

But yeah, I may be taking a slight hiatus from drawing so I can catch up with classes and prepare for those fucking finals >.>

There's mah update. Lalalala-lalala~

So yeah, it's 2010... woot :I

Anywho, yall may have noticed that I've been lacking in drawing and sketch submissions. This is because of school. Yes... I is a learner :U

But, two submissions will be updated (hopefully) within the next week. Maybe I'll take a two-week hiatus from commissions, just so I can focus on schoolins (bad grade last semester, have to make it up).

But yeah, there's my update. Started off the new year working and lonely (my poor kitten lost all forms of his communication for the time being :c ) so I've been a bit more aggressive with things. Escuse any temper I may have in the next month ^-^"

Peace, love, blahblahblah.

~Viper

I rest on my bed,
My eyes trembling
And my heart beating.
It is calm.

I look up at the ceiling
And wonder:
Where is the sandman
Of the night?

He has not graced my
Dwelling with his presence tonight.
In fact, he has avoided
The territory for days.

To sleep is to dream.
And I cannot sleep
For I do not dream.

I dream blackness.
Blackness for hours.
Nothing to think back on
Upon waking.

Why sleep
When there's no meaning?
Nothing to look forward to.
Nothing to see.

I am simply a blind man
Walking in my imagination.
Nothing but blackness
Surrounding me.

So why sleep?
I will not.
My body fights me,
But I shall win.

Only then,
When fighting my body,
Will I get what I hope for...

A dream.