I'm genuinely having a hard time trying to decide whether I should save up for rent in the future, or save up for a fursuit lol

So if you're a Canadian like me, you'd know that we're celebrating thanksgiving this sunday! I'm actually working on an art piece rn for it (guess what the theme is,) so expect it then! I have the plan of introducing Felix's parents, and I'm having a lot of fun making their designs honestly. So yea, I'm really excited to get the drawing finished and show you guys. :3

Yeah I dunno why I disabled this account lol, sorta gave into peer pressure I suppose. but anyways I'm back, I'll try to post art when I can!!!

I feel like I wanna learn how to draw blobs, they seem hard to do tho, should I actually try and invest the time into figuring out the shapes and stuff?

Yeah uh it's Canada Day lol, Happy Canada Day to like the 1 person that follows me that lives in Canada. Oh yeah and Pride Month is over, so big sads.

Guys help I've recently been dreaming about fatfurs, I'm genuinely confused why it's been happening so often lately. I know I'm into fat furry men but am I really that obsessed?

hell yeah men men men i love men so much fat furry men 🔥

My new pc just arrived in the mail! (I'm not saying it came in the mail) So yeah expect uploads again, especially considering me and my bestie are gonna be having our one year anniversary, so I'll probably be drawing something with him in a vc tonight :3

So uh, yeah my laptop stopped charging on thursday lol, i’m working on getting a new computer as soon as possible so I can continue posting here! I might try to do paper sketches for now lol

Guys help I've had artist's block for what feels like a month now, I dunno what to draw, and I don't wanna draw my sona for the 15,000th time. I just need simple ideas, just little doodles I can make.

LMAO the site is struggling so much it took me like 30 seconds to actually finalize my post this is so chaotic

yeah I need switch 2 money lol, if I ever figure out donations then I'll probably open, well, donations :P

I will NEVER become an nsfw account, I won't EVER post anything to do with private parts or sex, I dunno I'm part of the 1% of furaffinity that's actually repulsed by that stuff, it just seems so.. icky..

Yeah so I got paypal set up! All I gotta do is figure out how to put money from paypal back into my bank account and we're golden! I'll be posting a sorta commission guide soon, showing off prices and what I will and won't do, stay on the lookout for when I actually start doing commissions!

Hiiii guys, gals, and non-binary pals! I'm sure hardly any of you noticed, but I was gone for a week, my laptop's charger broke lmao. Anyways I wanna talk about what I did while I was gone! First off nintendo switch 2 direct, it was amazing, mario kart world looks amazing! same with the botw and totk upgrades! I went to go see the minecraft movie with my brother the day it released, me and him had a blast, I'd highly recommend watching it if you haven't. Oh also I might start doing commissions, sorta depends on if I can get my banking info put into paypal, so stay on the lookout for that!

So I've been thinking about actually using blender, since I'm starting to get interested in Minecraft fatfurs, maybe have the style be a mix of the Minecraft style and some cel shading. I dunno I feel really unhappy with how I do my art, so I feel like I could do this instead!

Soooo I was gone for a week, and for good reason. I went on my first ever vacation! Went all the way to Punta Cana, honestly the plane wait times were unbearable, especially the one for going back home, but I had a fun time on the trip! I ate tons of food (go figure~) went swimming a lot and even got to play in the ocean! I got back home at like 3 AM and I don't plan on going to bed tonight, I still feel energetic, besides there's no school tomorrow lololol

I feel awful every now and again because of how I acted one time, it was with someone I rarely ever talked to, and the last time I talked with them was me apologizing for being rude to them, I asked them if they hated talking to me or something, since I felt like they were trying to get through our conversation and being a lot more dry than usual. I dunno I always feel awful seeing their sona, it reminds me of how I fucked up, god I struggle with getting over stuff, I've debated to myself about apologizing again, but I dunno if they wanna hear it from me, especially since they started ghosting me.

Yeah, a lot happened on tuesday, to put it simply: someone found this account and posted it in a public server and started acting like it was the end of the world that I'm different, I left the server the same day, but the guilt didn't go away, about half an hour later my bf went to go confront those people, and when he came back he actually seemed like he was seriously considering suicide, what a bunch of dickheads.. istg I felt like I was gonna start crying for a solid hour after I deactivated my account. The next day I ended up taking a mental health day, cause I felt like I needed it after what happened, and I feel like it was for the best, I even got to cook for myself, since my dad was out of the house! Thursday I went back to school, and it was pretty smooth, other than remembering that this happened towards the end of the school day. Anyways I'm probably gonna try to figure out if there's a way for me to get back the stuff I deleted, if not then I can just reupload them, it isn't that big of a deal. Also I was actually thinking about alot of you guys, I really care for all of you. <3

SOMEONE IN A COMMUNITY IM IN FOUND THIS ACCOUNT AND POSTED IT IN THE SERVER, IM PROBABLY GONNA DELETE ALL MY WEIRD STUFF, AND GIVE THIS ACCOUNT ONE DAY BEFORE DELETION, I ACTUALLY FEEL REALLY STRESSED HOLY SHIT

I hate sfm fatfurs, it all just feels lazy as hell, like "oh yeah I took a model of a Pokémon from the models resource and added a sphere as a belly", it's all just so bland an uninspired, which is why I feel so much happier when I see one that actually uses a custom model with a modeled belly, cause it's just so refreshing.

Yeah I just thought of this honestly, I kinda wanna have a place where everyone can hang out and just have fun together! Might start working on it tomorrow!

It’s like 12 am rn, and I dunno I wanna talk more, so ngl I hate it when I don’t get comment responses, I understand that the person doesn’t have to, but still it makes me feel left out when the person responds to someone else’s comment but not my own, FOMO sucks lmao.

So uh, Idk I wanna get some more things off my chest, the main one being the fact that I often feel awful over the fact that I feel sad if I don't get attention, it's actually a serious problem lol, it's actually to the point where I cause controversies if I don't get enough, essentially I get desperate for attention that I start to do awful things, it's not like illegal, it's more just that I do really weird stuff just to get attention. I dunno it makes me feel guilty, there's just so much wrong with me lmao. I have nothing else to write about for now, I might do more of these types of journals, but I don't wanna bombard you guys with all my feelings, since I don't wanna make anyone else sad.

So I didn't really have any art planned for Christmas, other than my bf's present, but that'll probably stay private between us. Anyways I just wanna confirm that I'm still alive, and Christmas actually went well (other than another breakdown over how I only have 2 years left before I feel like I'll have to move out) so yeah, I dunno what else to say lmao, merry Christmas guys! <3