So one of the best people I know has a literal crap ton, (not actually literally. That would be gross and she's too cool for that but anyway...) of stuff for sale. A lot of it is either, adorable, amazing, soft, squishy and would more then likely make your day delightful.

So I need you to make your way over here: http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....er/175968/Open

But if you're too lazy, here's a collection of individual links. :3

Mercari: https://www.mercari.com/u/296493049/?page=1

Adoptables
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31654456/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31592749/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31550606/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31537879/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31366260/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31354664/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31190306/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30870822/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30845866/

A metric fuckton of characters: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30845774/


And hey even if you don't see anything you personally like or want, be a bro/dude/pal/buddy/guy and pass it around. There's stuff to appeal for everyone.

Well if you stopped and read this, I thank you. or to quote a super intelligent gorilla from the moon: "You have my Thanks."

I just need to shout at nobody right now, ignore me...

I feel like trash. I feel useless. I feel like I am just a problem for everyone.
I finally got a job and I couldn't be happier about that. But someone please explain why i don't feel happy. One of the few things I truly knew I wanted from life and I am not happy. Why do I feel like no one wants to deal with me, be around me, or look in my direction. I try so hard to at least fake being happy but I guess it still shows. What's wrong with me. Why do I feel this way. Why do I not want to wake up anymore. Part of me just wants to all at once step out of everyone's life because I know it won't make a bit of difference. And people tell me "Oh I would miss you.." but I doubt that. No one "misses" me.. I want to not feel this way anymore. I really do. But there is no solution to it I can find...I try reaching out to people but I am bad at talking to people. What I have to say interests no one but me. I'm not good enough and never have been good enough for any of the girls I have been with or tried to be with. So what is the point of me being here. Sure I care about everyone I know, but they have dozens of others who care too. And are no doubt more fun to be around and talk to. I want this feeling to end... The one person I thought would never leave me gets more and more distant as the days go by and I know I have lost them But a part of me refuses to accept it. Been talking to my mom alot about how I have been feeling and she keeps telling me it's okay to be sad but to not let it be who I am. But it has always been who I am. I just was just better at hiding it and I had someone that was here to distract my mind from all this shit. I am so tired of spending my nights curled up in a ball and sobbing my eyes out. So tired of hearing people say they are in my corner but when I turn to look there is no one in sight... I don't know anymore. Maybe I am just being a fucking idiot. That is a possibility.. I just want it all to end man... I have always envied the angels in the show Supernatural. Because they don't experience human emotions... I wish I was like that... I wish I didn't ear my heart on my sleeves so that everyone could kick it around like a hacky sack. Maybe that is my own fault...

Maybe it will always be my own fault...

Alright I'm done... needed to get that out...

Part of me wants to be something more. Something better. But that's not me.

I want to make you as happy as can be but that's not me. I try and try and try but then level of happiness you need is never the amount I can give you. The best I can do is keep your happy until that one shows up and does what I can't. As selfish as it is I don't want that other person to come along but they always do then after a while I am not needed anymore. I wanna be the one. But I am always number two or three. I'm accepting my role and being the guy who assists the one. But that doesn't make it hurt less. I will live I guess, it won't be a happy life but i will live.

And as far as I know I am doing the same to someone else which makes me hate myself more then I already do. So I can understand why it happens. Some people no matter how hard you try won't love you the way you want them to. I hate being a complicated asshole. But that's who I am. no matter how hard I try to change I never make any progress or becomes a better man. But i live with the pain. but one some nights it's too much to bear.

...I know I'm not good enough... Just wish I was..

For a while now I have been doing stuff for YouTube.



Gaming videos with commentary. I have been having a good time with it and it takes my mind of the shit going on with me right now. Lately I haven’t had the energy or mood set to really record much but I do already have a good bit of stuff on the channel. it hasn’t been getting as many views as I would have liked but I guess I can use this to advertise for it and get some traffic headed it’s way. I’m doing playthroughs for Batman Arkham Asylum, Anarchy Reigns, WWE 13 (mostly just random match ups that I rant over), and some other stuff I have planned in my head to record and post.


So yay for that. http://www.youtube.com/user/MutantZombieFox <——This is my YouTube.


I would love it if you could head over and check it out and even like, subscribe and all that good noise if you like the stuff I’m doing. And it would help if you passed it around and told your people about it.


Every little bit helps.

Now if you’ll excuse me I am going to go and rest while some stuff I record renders out.