Alright. I'm being totally serious when I say this. 70 dollars. For bronycon. Please. Anything. I need at least 70 for admission. Plus some spending money. But being 15 I can't get a job and have no way of getting money. Please. Please. I'm on my knees here. It's in Baltimore this year, my town. The convention center is literally across the street.

One big reason. Flat broke and bioshock infinite just came out. I know cash by mail isn't the most ideal way to do things but really what choice do I have? I can normally bargain on prices though.

Pffffbblt. Im bored. Its sumday night and im bored. Why does that not suprise me? Anyways, hit me up on skype if you feel like a chat :P

Man. Everythings looking good. A junior is in love with me, youtube has made it possible to film from my phone, and im not a depressed fuck anymore! Ah. So yeah. I was thinking about making perler bead videos if anyone was interested. Its can be very calming. Maybe do some ASMR with it. And I made a facebook page too.
http://m.facebook.com/home.php?refs.....00004187918002

*snifles* I feel horrible. The one snow day I get and im sick. What are the odds? Im stuck in my house with nothing to do. My brain feels like its going to jump out of its skull and try to find something more interesting to do. All I can do is sit here and play minecraft. And it has quickly become very boring.

I hope hasbro is proud of themselves. They did it. They broke me. I have no words, for this.
http://www.derpyhoovesnews.com/firs.....ork-published/
What the hell hasbro. Just, wow. I have no problem with anthro ponies, but... Dont change the fucking name if the show youve had since the 80's! Its like theyre trying to piss off bronies. And they succeeded. First we have season 3, then we have this. Well shit. If this where theyve gotten to the brony population will have decreased 10 fold if this is put on air. I mean wow. Just... Just wow. FacepalmXinfinity hasbro.

Yeah. In a nutshell. Good-bad pattern. Im honestly lost in life. My heart shreded. My mind split between living and dying. Im honestly miserable. Miserably lonely. I go to school, no one says anything to me. I come home, no one says anything to me. Im not suicidal, not anymore. Im just lonely. I dont know what it is...

Im feeling better. Although my parents havent helped in the slightest. Essepcially my father. Hes a lazy drunk who cant learn to pick up after he cooks. So who does he yell at for not cleaning up? Me of course! Im just gonna perler bead before I lose me temper.

My friends are just assholes. My friend, strike that, FORMER friend was a complete ass to me for no reason at all. And when I called her out she staight up said 'your not my friend anymore'. Now I have a chipped tooth from the pure rage I feel and a tear streaked jacket from the sadness and depression Im feeling. I get the feeling, once again, none of my friends give a shit. I could commit suicide and no one would notice. And suicide doesnt sound half bad right now. Sounds like an eternal solution. Which is better then being around the worst people in the world. Note, this is my social life outside of FA.

MOTHERFUCKER! Some people are just.... UGH! If your reading this mantis, congrats. You got me so pissed off you made me make a journal just to vent out my massive frustration. I will never get that key back. NEVER. And you never even said sorry! Sorry for this rant but, i was afraid that if i didnt let out some frustration i wouldve litteraly gone out and snapped a dozen peoples necks. It doesnt take alot to piss me off. But sometimes... My anger gets the better of me. A golden key, wasted on mods I cant even use! All because he convinced me to use it! MOTHER. FUCKER.
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Sorry. Rant over.

Yes. Yes im refering to the season 3 finale. Im sorry but, no. Just no. Twilight as an alicorn... They broke me. Faust shouldve never quite. Because this is what the show has been reduced too! *sigh* the show is dead. I declare my self, a pre-alicorn brony. A brony before the twilight alicorn disaster. I cant enjoy such a cliched show.

I got a snow day and nothing to do. May as well see if anyone wants a request done.

Look, im going to be serious. I need people to buy commisions so I can buy a video game. Boarderlands 2 to be accurate. Please buy something! I havnt had a commission since last August.
Edit: Nevermind. I got it.

Ravens won! Yessssssssssss!

Anyone wanna play the 360 version with me? Its kinda lonely just playing by myself. ;-;

I doubt anyone will read this. But I feel like ive got the world on my shoulders. Me and my friend are having... Complications. I have midterms and a math final this week and the quarter ends friday. Its just... Ugh. I fucking hate growing up. No one listens to what you have to say. I could be god and no one lend me an ear. It makes me feel insignificant. Useless. And most importantly, unwanted. And when i feel unwanted, i get really really depressed. Like, near suicidal.

*groan* I've been in better moods. But let me tell you, the past two days have been absolute hell. First off, I dropped my iPod in the middle of the street and a asshole ran it over before I could pick it up. Then I lost my brand new pair of headphones. And it's been raining for the past few days. I'm just... Oh wait. No one cares. I forgot for a minute.

ermagahd! its so fun! may or may not to some perler art of it in the future, but for now, anyone want to play?

The worlds not gonna end. Now stop saying it is. And to prove it, the Mayans didn't have leap year. So the world should have ended years ago. but it didn't. plus, they Mayans don't have very much credibility since there all dead. Now shut up and merry Christmas!

Hehe. Found my second Perler board. Planning on doing some half life Perler art that I've been meaning to do for a while. Any suggestions?

But I'm having a hard time trusting anyone as of late. I'm pretty sure one of my friends, who've I've trusted for the longest time, stole my wallet when I wasn't looking. Not to mention another friend stabbed me in the back and told everyone in my class's that I'm a brony. Sorry it's just... I can't trust anyone now... It's sad to think that the people I've trusted my entire life just... Turn on me.

If there is any brony that is made fun of for being him or her self, then I know I'm not alone.

Today's the day. My birthday. Another year and I'll have my drivers license. Yay.

So, i was in art class today and our teacher told us about this guy who drew one monster a day for 100 days. I was thinking about doing something similar. Maybe. It would be for like, 10 days. Reason? Depressed (surprise surprise) and needed something to brighten up my day. Plus, I thought it would be cool since I just 666 veiws. What do you guys think?

I've never really liked this holiday. I mean, yeah I get days off school, but there's a big reason why... My birthdays the 25. My birthday is really close to thanksgiving... And as a result everyone forgets. If I were to throw a party, no one would show up and I'd be left alone. That's the way it's always been... Sorry, just this time of year is really depressing for me. But, about Perler beading, I've been super busy with school but I hope to get the raffle prize out before the post becomes swamped with postage. So, I have a lot if free time. Any ideas for next project?