My birthday is the 16th, awesome.. My grandmother is in the hospital with a serious case of pneumonia, not awesome..

I want to go back home to see her before she passes on.. I just never have the time nor money u.u It's honestly very depressing.. I don't know what to do.

I has animal crossing new leaf, who wants to play?

Go here!

http://www.furaffinity.net/full/10689474/

Fav it with the power of a billion suns! Omg the detail, so breathtaking!

Cowards. Specifically those that take the time to publicly attack someones character(not the rp kind) and then ignore any and all chance for discussion with the person who supposedly slighted them when said person wants that dialogue very badly to know what they did wrong if anything at all.

Sigh, fucking drama divas.

Anyone who plays League of Legends i'm on there with the summoner name of MiddleageDirtbag please feel free to friend me, just let me know who you are :3 Also i'm a huge noob and not up on the lingo.

There was a time where the thought of playing a woman online was crazy to me, I was a guy, I played a guy. My first 'Furry' character was Kit, a bear/fox hybrid that I played on a beseen chartoom called Miss Sonic's Chat AKA Missy's Sonic Chat AKA MSC, this was way back in the day circa 1996ish when I was still in high school. Back then I had a few 'internet girlfriends', not at the same time mind you, I’m not that much of a pimp, One of these girls was the one who introduced me to the concept of one sex role-playing the other. I wish I could say I handled the revealing of my then girlfriend at the time that she was a boy well, but back then I was very very green. I flipped out, raged and tore into this person who cared enough about me to reveal their true self. I acted like a child which is what I was at the time, not thinking past my own knee-jerk, confused revulsion. I wish I could find that person again to say I’m sorry and to thank them for planting that little seed in my brain which eventually made me into what I am today.

So to get into the meat of this whole journal, why do I play a herm? Well one answer would be that I identify with the concept of being both male and female at the same time. To clarify, I frequently find myself thinking more on the feminine side of things. I hold friendships and lovers mostly as I think a woman would; I say mostly because I do enjoy my male side to some extent, I love my dick, what can I say? But, on the other hand I wish with my heart of hearts that I was born a female, I want an attractively curvy body, breasts, and yes even a vagina, periods, cramps, births and all. Right now I’m with an amazing Trans woman whom I love and admire for all that she goes though mentally and physically to an extent that I can't even begin to imagine. And yet still I’m a bit jealous of her, in only that she's taken the real life steps to become her true self and I can only role-play it.

I play a herm because it feels the most like me, the true me. If there was a mirror that shows your true self, First: I'd find a way to steal it, Second: it'd show me as a woman with manly parts dangling between my legs. I always as a rule keep my herms rooted in some realistic proportions as well, I'm not knocking anyone who likes hyper but it's just not my thing, the only time my characters have large genitals are as a joke or if it makes sense for the species, such as horses and the like. I think what i'm trying to accomplish with this journal is to show that I don't play a hermaphrodite for sex, don't ask me why I felt the need to make a huge journal about it but I just felt the need to justify my own existence maybe. I love herms, I love the idea of them, I love seeing them in all shapes and sizes, species and orientation and they help me feel a little bit normal in my own head which I guess is the best part about it, having that mental outlet.

Anyways, I’m losing steam here, not sure what else to say, thank you those that read through this rambling stream of consciousness, maybe I’ll revisit this once I can organize my thoughts better.

TL;DR: I like hermaphrodites.

So I have a new power supply in here and it's working, so I just gotta get a new video card, i'm currently borrowing an older one from Jalen, so once I get my previously awesome vid-card back I'll be 100% again, things are looking up. <3

So I thought i'd write up a little journal about what has been going on in my life up to this moment in recent history. Let my friends know what's up and all that. So i'm sure some of you have noticed i've not been online often or at all for the past month or two, that is because of a few reasons, number one being that i've met someone, and we've entered in a low-key awesomely laid back relationship. This someone is known by a lot of folks so we've kept it pretty quiet just as a matter of course, neither of us really want this to blow up into a big deal from anyone, we just want to quietly stay together and have fun and such. Said awesome person is  Noben Noben here on fa, we've been roomies for a long time and eventually just kind of naturally fell together. Please do not pester or bother her about the relationship, or me for that matter, just let us be and we'll still be the same awesome folk we've always been. As for the other reason i've been scarce is that my PC decided to crap itself, the video card's memory failed and on top of that my power supply failed as well, so i've been trying to juggle rent, saving up for PC parts, and just life expenses in general.

This month also marks my birthday, on the 16th i'll be 31 years old, even though I still act 13 instead, heh.. I don't think i'll ever grow up. So yeah, I just wanted to let you all know what was going down with me at the moment, I've got a little bit of net presence back thanks to  caltsar Caltsar, gifting me a cute little netbook i've taken to calling Laserbeak. So expect to see me around a smidge more while I get used to this new netbook, I already know I hate touch pads. XD

This upcoming month has a lot of potential for coolness as well, keep on the look out for awesome things being shared and revealed, also i'll be going to RMFC with Noben this august. We'll even have a table in the dealers room so come by for some altermeta swag or just to say hello, we'll be wheelin and dealin some fun merch for folks as well as badges.

Stay frosty folks,
-Gabby.

so the other day my computer stopped working and we determined it to be the ram. now it seems likely the motherboard itself is fucked. and therein lies my problem, I cannot afford to buy a new motherboard/Ram/CPU combo. so, I really don't know what to do about this. if any of you have any help or suggestions please let me know, otherwise I guess it's so long until I can afford a new computer.

-Gabby

You know.. one of the -very- few things that I hate about My Little Pony.. is how eager everyone is to spoil it for everyone else who can't watch it the instant it comes out x.x thanks guys.

Trying to get back into Team Fortress 2. Anyone have any Engineer Items they don't want? Engie's are my preferred class.. my steam name is Koopa Kid or thekitfox4[at]aol.com whichever one comes up first. My steam avatar is a chicken eating ramen~

I'm just tired of life at this point. Not in the 'want to end it all' way, just tired of the shit it keeps shoveling at me. Tired of dealing with this money pit of a junk car my dad got me, it keeps leaking, keeps fucking up and I'm totally tapped out financially to deal with this mother fucker. I don't know what to do nor do I really know why I'm writing this out here, it just sucks. I'm not looking for asspats or handouts, I'm just venting. I hate being poor, I hate having family who think I'm a joke. I wish SOMETHING would go right for me, is that too much to ask, universe? I feel my jovial nature slipping, I don't want to joke as much any more, I'm not finding much to smile about any more, I'm just being beaten down into this lifeless husk that just slogs through all the shit without comment or complaint.

I've been so lonely and starving for some kind of loving contact with anyone, I feel like a wilting flower.. I think if I had someone to lean on emotionally I'd be better, and I love all of my friends out there in internet land but I think you know what I mean, some one really there physically. But you know.. it's been however many years, and I feel like an old man, to quote a good friend of mine I feel like an ogre, not fit for anyone's real physical affection. This sounds really pathetic reading back over it but fuck it, i'm not really in this for popularity or anything, like I said before i'm just venting and depressed, drifting along without a purpose and this shitty car dragging me down into the cold fucking briny sea. To those who read this, i'm sorry you had to sift through my stream of consciousness, but you are a true friend at least. Thank you for letting me rant and yell.

TL;DR: FML

-Gabby

They make awesome drink.

I bought all the fixins to make two pony themed drinks today, one was Pinkie pie and the other Apple Jack. I have to say both drinks fit their equine counterparts well. AJ's drink is strong, and sweet, it's very bold and gets your attention, while Pinkie's drink is amazingly delicious and will knock you on your ass if your not careful with it. AJ's is made with Whiskey, AppleJack(it's an apple bourbon), and hard apple cider in a low ball glass topped off with sparkling cider. While Pinkie's drink is Cake Vodka, Vanilla vodka, Tequila Rose and cake sprinkles in a lowball glass. OMG it's so delicious and it actually makes you feel very warm and content., I had two of each and I was GONE. I can't recommend the pinkie drink highly enough.

so yeah.. i'm drunk.. and will be later today as well <3

So.. I got a hookah, I'm very happy with it. No I don't smoke weed in it. it's pink and awesome.

Blargh, that is all.

Hey folks, i'm gonna be at RMFC on the 13th from around 10 am to 6 pm(maybe) So if you wanna see me just look for the possibly the only King Koopa there. I'll probably register under Gabrielle Street if I do at all, I'll be hanging out with my roomies and such. see you guys there~

Okay so, this year I might be going to RMFC, we'll see how the monetary situation is after bills and such.. but even if I do go i'll just be chilling out in the lobby saying hi to folks and whatnot. If anyone I know (besides my roomies) are going to this con let me know! And if not.. come next year so I can see you!

It was a good day. Minimal drama, no one really getting upset at anything, had a good lunch and made plans to do awesome fun stuff later in the week. all in all a good 30th.

as of.. oh say.. 13 minutes ago I am now thirty years old, hoo boy. I'm an old man D:

Happy Birthday to mee~

It was all well and good in my household, I was dodging everyone flu and colds and I was doing great, that is until last night a customer coughed on me.. I didn't think anything of it until I got home and started feeling bad, I was freezing, so cold I couldn't even think straight and I burrowed into three layers of blankets and tossed and turned for several hours because I couldn't get warm enough I finally fell into a fitful sleep around 9:30 am and woke up at 12 noon. Ugh.. That's the major problem working out in public with a lowered immune system, I get sick so easily and when I do get sick I hold on to it for a long long time. this isn't a pity post, it's more of a FML post, I was so good at dodging the stuff at home it was work that finally got me x.x

Does anyone know where the Oil pressure sending unit is located on a 1994 chevy lumina z-34? I have the part but the shop wants $192 to install it :/

So i've started World of Warcraft up again, let me know who plays where and whatnot, i'd like to play with friends :D

I thought i'd mention this, my xbox gamer tag is: koopa kid1981

theres a space between koopa and kid but not the d and 1981 if you add me tell me who you are and that you added me from FA :D I play mostly halo reach online anymore but I sometimes do Crackdown 2

Lets see how many people don;t actually do this :P

1. What do you think my character would have a job/career in?
2. What is unique about my character that you enjoy?
3. What are his/her flaws?
4. What are some changes you would like to see?
5. What would you like to see my character doing in future pictures?
6. How old does my character look?
7. On a scale of 1-10, how attractive is my character?
8. On a scale to 1-10, how sexually attractive is my character?
9. On a scale to 1-10, how well does my character fit me?
10. If you could, how would you personally change her to fit me better?

this should be interesting..

[ ] you meow/bark to get attention
[ ] you find pets toys amusing
[ ] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[ ] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food
[ ] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you
[ ] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection
[ ] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and brings it back
Total: 0

[ ] you love to be scratched behind the ear
[x] you love fish/meat
[ ] you like to stick your head out trough the window of a moving car
[ ] you like when people pet your head
[ ] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper
[ ] you think feathers are fun to play with
Total: 1

[x] you sleep a lot during daytime
[ ] you enjoy scaring birds
[ ] you lick peoples faces to show you like them
[ ] you bite people if they annoy you
[ ] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours
[ ] milk or water is your favorite drink
Total: 2

[ ] you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it
[ ] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it
[ ] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit
[ ] you enjoy long walks in the park
[ ] you meow/bark when you see something you want
Total: 2

[ ] you call your hands and feet "paws"
[ ] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about
[ ] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk
[x] you really enjoy cuddling
[ ] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up
[ ] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around
Total: 3

[ ] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep
[ ] you meow or bark very often
[ ] you hide when you get scared
[ ] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house
[ ] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[ ] you tend to chew on stuff a lot
[ ] you like to do tricks to get a treat
Total: 3

[ ] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it
[ ] you refer to your self as an animal
[x] your username has something to do with animals
[x] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[ ] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better
[ ] you look for edible stuff often
Total: 5

[ ] you often find yourself looking through the window for a long time
[ ] you like to say hi to strangers
[ ] you like to be petted when you have done something good
[ ] people think you act like a pet
[ ] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like
[ ] you like to eat grass
[ ] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water
Final Total: 5

Now, take your score and multiply it with by two to get your final score.

10% furry ...this is not surprising. I am a King Koopa after all. Not one of you fuzzies :P