Hey friends, hmmm, well, I've never talked about this here before lol, but my client friends said it was important for me to share this kind of thing on the channel— I recently discovered that I have Borderline Personality Disorder, and I already knew I also had bipolar disorder before— Hmm, I never took that seriously, but maybe it explains why I show up online for a week and then disappear for 20 days or more.

I've decided I'm going to try taking the medication. I don't like it because it's 6 capsules a day, but I'm willing to try since, well, lol, I'm very inconsistent person as It seems..I'd like to be more consistent in showing up here every day of the whole month


I never sought treatment after all the abuse and aggression I suffered over the past 2 years, Those who have been around for a while know how physically injured I was and what a nightmare it was to get out of that situation, but I don't think I ever recovered from that so...

I'm also still trying to deal with the fact that after all this, my father looked me in the face and said that I shouldn't exist, And if I didn't exist, he wouldn't have to deal with all this aggression, abuse, etc. and that he tried to abort me but couldn't, and that he testified to this several times that I'm a waste of resources and effort, since in the end I'll become a TERRIBLE artist and I can't even do that right, And he loves to say that I will never be anything and will have nothing, and that I will die as a nothing.
Yeah i know that, thanks.


I've tried to disconnect, like, die, adios, ser you never again, from this world twice — this week and last week and a few times in the last year, And I really want to stop, my closest clients know what my arms look like and I don't like looking at them, so I really think I should try to get treatment and be more communicative about everything in general.
Something I'm not very good at...
I'm afraid to tell the truth and have people think I'm making excuses, I don't know...

I've been in bed for two weeks now, I decided to get up, take that pills and hope it works
I've handed in several overdue comms and still have many more to submit, so I hope these little pills will help me finish what I started

I'm the one who pays the rent, bills, food, etc. with my art, so I need to get over..my wife is sick and need me so,
I only have two choices: improve or improve.
Tho.. my interns need me so, I'm going to shove these pills down my fkin ass
I'm sorry if I haven't responded or delivered your artwork yet. I'm trying to improve; my head is just very, very complicated, and I'm trying to overcome it, and I will succeed.
I swear I'm not a scammer and I don't cheat anyone, I just have a very sick mind, there's something very wrong with my head, it doesn't work properly, I forget things very, very easily, I constantly find myself stopping work out of the blue to cut myself in a dark corner and pull out my own hair of stress

I don't want to try to disconnect from the world again or hurt myself again, I'm tired.

Is this compressible?

(Well, I'm taking olanzapine, topiramate, duloxetine, and 2 doses of divalcon.)

Best time for chats!! ❤️
Hi everyone! To make things easier for us to communicate this year, I'm going to list my schedule here so you know when I'm online! And so that communication problems won't be an issue for us anymore, and I know that's a problem I have quite a bit of.
In some countries, I know it varies from state to state, but this is just to give you an idea ^^ I live in Brazil, and we'll start with this schedule.
You can reach me (if there are no unforeseen circumstances) between:

BRAZIL [meeeee]
4:00 AM and 9:00 PM

USA/CANADA
2:00 AM and 7:00 PM

ENGLAND
7:00 AM and 12:00 AM

EUROPE (Paris, Italy, Germany, Switzerland)
8:00 AM and 01:00 AM

AUSTRALIA
6:00 PM and 11:00 AM

Mexico
1:00 AM and 6:00 PM

I hope this helps you!! I respond less frequently on weekends and will let you know if there are any holidays you don't know about here in Brazil!! Thank you friends, I am at your disposal. I hope we have a great year :D 🥹

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[ABOUT LATE COMMS!]

Hello everyone! :3 I'm here to talk about old commissions! As you all know, I haven't sold anything for a while so I can clear my backlog more and more! And it's quite reduced, thank God.

But if you have any pending issues with me, you can send me a message at madamtox on telegram or mamaedegato on Discord :3 and I will respond ^^ even if it takes a while, sometimes I forget but that's because there is a lot of stuff But my team and I are EVERY DAY trying to deliver everything that is pending with the highest quality!!

I'm here to resolve it either via refund or delivering the art ♥ I don't like intrigues and I don't want to steal from anyone LOL I work as an engineer too so I really don't need to steal from anyone ^^'

I know it takes a while, but that's because there are so many chats these days! But it's something that will be resolved by next year, and that's why I've put together a team :3
If you have any problem with me, send me a message and let's talk ♥♥ I'm here for everyone and to help and not to hinder or harm anyone ^^

My wife is very sick and I had to take time off to take care of her :(

Honestly hate messages don't affect me because I know I don't want to steal from anyone LOL, I don't really need it ^^, I'm disorganized because I let a lot of things accumulate, but unfortunately it happened and what we can do is be BETTER!

Please I insist send messages I'm here to solve things people ^^ I'm not here to hold or hurt anyone lolololo

We will definitely die one day :'v There's no point in holding on to hatred or fighting with anyone, if I made a mistake and we can resolve it, let's figure it out together!
I'm definitely the most forgotten and problematic artist around here but I have a good heart :D I'm sure

🙂🙂

Friends, I'm back on commissions after many exams my wife was diagnosed with: ankylosing spondylitis, fibromyalgia, patellar chondropathy and some other autoimmune complications.

It means that in a few years she will have difficulty moving, like walking, etc. It is a degenerative disease and there is no cure, so that's why I was offline for so long (I have to help her with some things during the day) ! I will do my best to provide a good life for her despite these conditions, but unfortunately it is what it is.

Thank you for everyone's patience!
I'm back in action :D thanks for the love!!❤️
May Halloween be very cool and exciting for all of us!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Guys I have some offers open!! Please purchase and help me get a new tablet to draw on! I don't have any spare drawing tablets!

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Hi everyone! I am very sick (got a pretty bad infection) and need to pay my rent so I decided to
open a single commission slot.

(Ref sheets and regular commissions)
Check my price below, art with more than one character have discount!!~~
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some art exemples~~
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To claim add me on discord (madamtox), telegram (Madamtox) or send me a note! tnx!

Hi guys :) I'm reddie, lady's wife, and she'll be home for a few weeks cuz she's very sick and still hospitalized, but she will send wips when she recover! Thanks.

Please guys don't worry! Unfortunately I can't respond to the notes but rest assured that she will be back soon!

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