dont freak out. DONT, FREAKOUT!!

just moving house... back to somewhere cheaper in a quieter town. less godamn bills to pay. period

point is, this will take up 90% of my time... from the moment i wake up (which is about lunch time for you candians) till the sun goes down. (which is probably close to midnight for you centeral americans) i absolutly hate this timezone. this will also make it easier for me to travle to work (which is in the final stages of application YAY!!!) so dont expect to see much of me for about a week

oh yeah... and expect epic suprise later

been accepted by QR-N got interviews TOMOROWS omg iz psyched off my face its just unreal

regroup...

so if i'm inactive for a while you know it all about the application prosses thing going down... clearly i'm not lookin for a desk job. so thats my excuse for any and all ignring i do to anyone

turns out my backup computer wasnt as severly damaged as i first thought. the bugs were purged by mighty AVG once i stuck a few lines of code right up the trogan's trapdoor...

though it is now permenantly faulty and probably only has a few months left... hopefuly by that time i will have this epic job and it wont fuckin matter

then i can go back to doin all the things i love... namely 'building stuff' and 'blowing shit up' with it

also i have been talked into smearing TF2 all over the harddrive when i get it so maybe i'll get to fight beside some of you poor dirtbags sometime ^^ i hope all my halo experience counts for something

my luck finaly dried up... its all over...
my final stable link to the internet has been severed with virus bombs... trojans rolled right on in and self destructed the harddrive, nothing important was lost

contact from me will be minimal at best... if at all. might make a whole bunch of head shots of random friends characters at different angles to pass the time... probably wiont post many of them

good news is i have an INSANE job offer with -QR National- that includes international work oppertunities which i will pounce on and travle to see all you awesome furs WITHOUT having to pay for it

so untill i get a new setup i am effectivly alone down here... just pray i get the job fast and hope other shit dosent go titsup

i fuckin haz the f-list bitches...

yes. i RP like a boss

yes. i'll try anythign once

no. i'm not handing them out just yet. people are gunna have to want them first

oh yeah. and guess what...

listen to this shit

it takes like 3 years to learn to drive a car downunder... seriously, 200 hours of loged L-plate supervised driving held for 12 months followed by redplate provisional license held for another year and a final greenplate provisional license held for a final year before you can carry an Open-license
it takes an aditional year of training to drive any kind of rig and yet another 6 months on that to tow multiple trailers... 100's of dollars in training and 1000's of hours of log time

now i just lerned today that learnign to fly an aircraft is easy... and fast... stupidly fast... maniacly fast, i mean seriously. its like 35 bucks to buy a manual in aironautical law and a free writen test that takes liek an hour to take which gives you a theory pilot license... then a recomended 8 hours of supervised flight time and 21 total hours of trainign to earn an open light pilot license... and again it is only another 5 hours of training to fly rotory wing aircraft

fucking hell... what in the name of the lord almighty is goign on? sure i mean the lesons are expensive. just an hour of flight time costs 80 in fuel and another 30 in maintainance, airospace and fuck knows whatelse. and freakign helecopters burn a litre of jet fuel per minute so thats like 320 per hour

so in light of this... im gunna lern to fly a freakin choppa. when i get the income and the free time to spend liek 2 weeks of my life learning to become a pilot

for shits and giggles
and maybe a future carrer



P.S. INXS rocks... imma play them in mah radio while pullin a hammerhead >=D

finances went down the tube so my 800 dollar high quality laptop is a no-go

HOWEVER

the 550 bucks i raised paid for a cheap no-name brand tablet PC and a heavy desktop *eeeww* the MONOLITHIC desktop *gag* will be running by tomorow night and the tablet will be in the mail soon after

i had to make compromises. i lack devoted graphics power on either machine so games and complex models are out of the question but the joint abilities of both tablet and PC will allow me to turn out much more REAL art *yay*

its not what i wanted but with shit the way it is i doubt it would have gotten much better... i hate being unemployed. i feel liek a total leach

hopefully this will be the last update on my situation untill i finaly upgrade for one i feel like i am spamming journals for no good reason an second after his there probably wont be anything worth writing about anyway

now, i have secured a relitivly stable internet connection. from this point on i will be on MSN for steady lengths of time although MSN is the ONLY messenger i will use. but there is always the notes system on here

due to the fact my current computer has a TINY screen i wont be viewing much of anyones art untill i upgrade. the number of problems and disabilities this thing has are unlistable but that is just more reason to upgrade as fast as possible

if all goes well i should upgrade by the end of the week. if not then i guess it happens when it happens

igot the flu... i'mnot happy andthespace bar onthis thing is tempermental and severl keys dont work

ive seen ipods with more power than this fukin thng soshutup and del with it because it pisses me off too

cashflow is sssslllloooowwww... right now and $700 is beyond me. i will be callign in favors from everyone i know to raise this money ASAP but still no garentees as to the time frame

best case scenario: 8 days if everythign goes pirfectly

WHICH IT WONT BY INTERNATIONAL LAW OF 'THE WORLD ISNT THAT NICE'

most plausible scenario: 14 days if everything works the way the world lets it

and just incase the world dose particularly hate me which i am all but sertain it dose

Worst case scenario: 35 weeks if everythign goes completly titsup and everyone on planet earth seems to suddenly conspire against me

motherboard is gone, startup lasts 6-12 seconds then dies. but there is still hope for its verious components

HDD data was recovered. the salvage was very good but the computer i currently have is incapable of reading the backup disc so the recovery is still unknown

DVD drive was extracted and repaired. will be tested and sold
Ram is usable and salvagable. will be installed into next laptop
the remaining case will be reasembled and sold on Ebay for parts

all is not lost. my repair skill leveled and i got caps towards a replacement XD
FTMFW

also the replacement has changed
Acer notebook 15.6''
intel pentium quad core N930 2GHz
4GB DDR3 ram
500GB HDD
1GB ATI HD 5650
AUD $700

93.6 of 101.7 GB of the hardrive was accessable through standard means. the rest was damaged. fragmented or corrupted. mostly the OS and large programes which would have to be reinstalled on a new harddriev anyway

i am hoping all goes well. the drive never faultered once when i had it and it continued to protect my work even as i carried it on my person throughout the work day

the acer Aspire 5720Z is beyond even hope. but i will bounce back with avengance by upgrading and putting out for a solid state drive

previous : acer Aspire 5720ZG 15.4''
Intel Pentium dual-core 1.68GHz 1.64GHz
2Gb DD3 ram
160GB HDD
256Mb Nvidia geforce 8400m GS
AUD $890

upgrade : Toshiba notebook 15.6''
intel core i3 380M 2.53GHz
4GB DD3 ram
640GB HDD
512MB ATI HD 5145
AUD $849

current evens will be taken to a court of law
i will be paid compensation
a restrinign order will be requested

found this in my journals inbox so i stole it cos i could and cos i thought it would be fun

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Rules:
1. You must choose only ONE of your OCs. Do it again if you wanna use another OC.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OC's Quiz (your OC's name. Example: Kaiser's Quiz)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!

OC: Chip Stormcrow

1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
my given name is Charls Timothy Stormcrow but even my parents didnt call me that, everyone calls me Chip and i like it, so easy to say

2. Interesting...What's your current age?
32

3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
oh god... i have an entire databace of foods that i would continue to eat over and over

4. And your favorite drinks?
XXXX Gold hands down

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
... Jintulkin De'ryer

6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
its imposible not to kiss somethign as beautiful as Jinn

7. Classic question! What's your favourite color?
blue... cobalt

8. Who's your favorite author?
tell you the truth... i never read anything more interesting than a manual

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
fear drives what i do, hundreds of things frighten me but if i had to choose. leading my crew into a deathtrap and being unable to help them even with my life

10. Who's your hero?
... i never had a hero, really

11. OK, who is your worst enemy?
... oh my god... damnit... i dont have one enemy. i have millions, even people i dont know want my head on a plate

12. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
i fight my worst enemies all the time, it usualy results in them dieing or me leging it

13. Interesting...What would you do if you met your creator?
... i would have no idea... i would probably hate the bastard for making my past so damn painful but then i would probably breakdown when i remember that i have everythign i ever wanted

14. Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
heh. i am grown up. and i couldnt think of anything i would rather do

15. What's your worst nightmare?
being left to decompress

16. What's your lifelong dream?
to end all suffering and ensure that no other race meats the same fate ours did

17. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
i'd retire the happiest and most respected man in the galaxy

18. OK, where's your favorite place to relax?
in a dark open room with just me and my guitar or alone in a warm room with Jinn

19. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
if i'm not siting in my chair pretending to be doing somethign important i am walking down the hallways lookign serious. if not either of those i'm leading assaults on planetary targets and yelling orders

20. We're done! Now tag whoever the hell you want.

the usual suspect.. she knows who she is

i was blindsided by a (posibly) bipolar (posibly) psychotic midget with a broom... (teams of psychologists cant figure out WTF is wrong with him) 2 days ago now, and i recon' i recieved a hairline impact fracture to my upper left arm just above the elbow due to the severity of the attack but i KNOW for a fact there is a crushed tendan in my leading hand which forces me to drop EVERYTHING. those are just 2 of the injuries i recieves but dispide the wide spread damage i still have full use of my arms and i am cast-free for now...

anyway. i got so damn bored today i went through my CD's case and pulled out a random...
1993 game of the year edition Age of Empires... i fucked it off and re-installed AoE III for lolz and shits. and dude did i forget how fun it was.. IDC what you think about RTS mates it is beyond the definition of satisfying to tell queen Lizzie to go stuff that surrender up her ass and continue blasting the fuck out of her coloney with a fleet of Imperial Men'o'War

i just sat there for a half hour watchign the high-poly buildings decintergrate under the constant streem of cannon fire, shrapnel flying everywhere, cannon balls breezing through and rolling on the ground (probably lauching at the buildings weaksause construction) and dude was it the most satisfying thing on earth. i totaly ragged out on that stuck up bitch and IDC if i'm being disrespectful i'm fuckign australian so i can rag on the queen as mush as i bloody well want

and now i'm back down to earth. after a short bout of bruitaly psychotic behavior and mass raging against the NPC i am now stress freaking free. so bring on the haters cos i has cannonfodder europeans

g'night everybodeh'

yes its that time again, the time where advancements have gotten to the point where no-one understands any of my ramblings. the following will be very long but will be sliced up into subjects so you only have to read the shit you are very confused about which I know everyone one of you is about one thing or another. If you didn’t already know the FSSN is not and dose not conform to many of the normal or standard ideas of what makes a starship so do not assume anything. I will cover pretty much everything and even recap some old stuff for the new peeps who even give a shit to open these things. I don’t expect anyone to read it all but I do recommend you read the ‘ships systems and technology’ subject just to give you an idea of what is and isn’t standard for my fleet

subject: main characters
if you didnt know already I have 3 main characters. over the past year they have gone under some minor changes and additions... mostly minor. so this one is short

the first of which is Fleet Admiral Chip Stormcrow. i shouldnt really have to spill his profile beyond that. his personality as a whole is easy to get along with and he is quite a likeable person. adventurous and understanding, but due to occupational hazards he is hard to get close to for the fear of loosing a loved one. he is single and plans to stay that way having ended his active quest for a soul mate long ago. now, his place as leader is questionable due to the fact his commanding spirit rather than his command ability put him in charge. it is his sheer strength of heart and will that makes him a powerful and effective leader. he is a vicious fighter in any field of battle but will always take as many non-violent options to resolve the situation first and then consider non-lethal but inevitably it comes down to 'us vs them', a very competent engineer and a vast scientific knowledge make him very unpredictable at times. his ability to analyse a situation or a person quickly and adapt accordingly is also legendary. he is nearly unstoppable but that is him alone. other people are just liabilities in this instance because of his lack of command training he cant always convey his thought to the rest of his crew effectively. but even if the situation goes titsup which it usually does he has the uncanny ability to pull a miracle literally out of his ass. that not helped by his poor choices and timing

the second is my dragon... Veteran Captain Xander Fletcher. he is the polar opposite to chip in many respects besides a likable and understanding personality. he will deliberately look for the fight and will more than likely take the first shot in any battle, he boarders on psychologically unstable when in said fights. he can be callus when crew die under his command but usually ends up drinking away his problems. he too is single and plans to stay that way having ended his search for a mate but he is a total player and will not hesitate to rip everything off at a moments notice. everyone knows he is minus a wing but with some simple engineering he is still flight worthy. being a GENETIC dragon he has been programmed with 20 years of command experience, 20 years of flight experience. 10 years of tactical training and 10 years of weapons training. he is designed from the ground up to cause a fucktone of damage with surgical precision but though all that he is little more than a broken hearted little boy

the third is everyone’s favourite lizard. lieutenant commander Jintulkin De'ryer. she has become incredibly popular to an astonishing level and has gone under more than just minor tweaks. her entire personality has been changed and much of her past is not militaristic like a normal Dacliny should be. no, she was a slave... not a slave like you know, she was adopted from an early age and slowly programmed by her father figure. she was raised well. educated well. fed well and cared for but still made to do hard, repetitive work in less than ideal conditions. in a space faring fleet having a poorly educated, poorly treated slave work on ion-drive engines is so obviously stupid its... obviously stupid. She is a rare species of Dacliny and to her owner she is little more than a prize. The person who adopted her was a starship captain. When she was brought aboard his crew then joined in her personal hell. the elusion of love was embedded in her mind when they said they loved her when she did what she was asked which could include doing her work expertly and without supervision or doing ’favours’ for the father figure and the crew he carried but not often was the case. although again she was not a normal slave. she has free will and military training. but this life slowly got the best of her... she knew this wasnt right and fell into a depressive spiral every time she was taken advantage of and left to her work sore and broken. seeking her own destruction she stowed away on an ODN ship... looking for death she basically displayed herself to a spray of bullets… which never came. chip could not shoot a proud creature so defencelessly splayed out as her. now she is a part of the crew, treated with respect. loved properly but still her programmed mind can not be un-programmed due to its simplicity. she isnt stupid by any means. she just has incredible difficulty learning beyond what she already knows and remembering what is and isn’t acceptable but she is so hard not to love she can get away with a lot more than she should

subject: weapons / weapon upgrades
this is a broad subject concerning all the weapons currently in use from sidearm’s to citadel missiles but the only real change is in the designations and capabilities of these weapons. the FSSN is a virgin fleet. it is the first and only stand of vessels to leave earth for any extended period of time and much of its technology is inconsistent to the age and often modified heavily. the FSSN's main firepower comes from the array of Gauss rifles. electromagnetically accelerated weapons. this weapon is still very new and ofcourse is unrefined in some respects. their bore refers to how large the round is that it fires not how wide the barrel is, most gauss rifles have a barrel much larger than the round that is fired

personnel weapons are obviously the smallest of the weapons. there are mounted variants used on fighters and other vehicles but thats not important. gauss weapons at this stage are power sucking cannons, forcing one into the shell of a frontline assault weapon is nearly impossible, gauss rifles are therefore assigned the role of tactical weapon or support. finally drawing the line and going back to the old reliable ballistic weapons for frontline tactics. this creates a contrast at some points where one officer might poses an assault rifle and another officer beside him a gauss rifle. Although gauss rifles like this have taken over for anti-material rifles and long range sniper rifles

leaf turrets are the smallest of the mounted weapons, fixed weapons can be of any variety but fixed weapons arent interchangeable. turrets are. leaf turrets are computer controlled light defence guns usually a 58mm minigun or an avenger missile pod used on small ships for their own defence. these sort of weapons arent really good against anything much bigger than the ship that wields them

M5 base guns are the next turret up. the designation M5 just refers to the area of hull the mechanism take up, M5 turrets are manually controlled hard defence guns for larger ships. most common is the Dual 105mm gauss repeater. these can be spread across a large hull in numbers and if given the change can lay down an incredibly directed stream of fire. although the 105mm isnt particularly large bore the sheer amount of power that can be funnelled into these turrets gives them a fast recharge time so keeping the fire on isnt a hard thing to do

M10 base turrets are the work horses of the fleet. most are manually controlled. barrelled or podded large bore weapons designed specifically to deal heavy damage over short time, Hammer turret and the legendary THOR gun are among the M10 range. these turrets move slower but depending on the situation rarely have to move anyway

M20 base turrets are monsters. they are only fitted to the largest of ships and are manually controlled from a remote point within the ship that carries them. very few things come up against these and live to tell the story

standard missiles are the Avenger and the Hammer missile. Avenger missiles are the smallest and are only 3 metres long. stacked in a pod of 16 only takes up 3 cubic metres, the Hammer is much larger, being 10 metres long and stacked in a pod of 16 takes up 25 cubic metres. each missile capable of using all types of warhead, C7 explosive (naturally), cobalt mass warhead and caesium reactive. the Hammer comes standard with explosive warheads and the Avenger comes standard with caesium reactive warheads. each missile is most effective with one warhead over another

citadel missiles are the Cearess and the Quarter missile. ceares missiles are a massive 20 metres long and 1.25 metres in diameter, they used to carry all warhead types but now due to resources limitations only come with mass warheads which they are most effective with anyway. quarter missiles are the largest of the missiles, 20 metres long and 2.5 metres in diameter. these are the only missiles to posses thermal nuclear warheads however the FSSN has vowed never to use them against a planet's surface

Armageddon weapons are obviously the most powerful of all weapons in our grasp. the 1000mm gauss rifle and the Moonraker missile are such weapons, these are basically 'fuck you' buttons. the 1000mm gauss rifle or Thousand gun is incredibly directional, this weapon says sir issac Newton is the deadliest bastard to ever have lived and launches a quarter tonne of cobalt at 30 times the speed of sound, ignoring energy shielding completely by its sheer mass and impacting the nearest solid object with a total force i havent yet calculated beyond a guess. Moonraker missiles have a much shorter range but are no less devastating. using a caesium reactive warhead they impale their target and force a blast of pressurized hydrogen into the ship effectively ripping it apart from the inside out layer by layer. almost sadistic if we werent shooting at ships. no, the crew dont feel a thing

subject: ship systems and technology
this is probably the area with the most new updates. most of it will be very scientific but i will attempt to keep it simple

Autopilots are a new venture into the operation of starships. each one unique to every ship with a computer system capable of operating one. Each have different voices. different interfaces and different thresholds. an autopilot dose more than just pilot the ship, it has control over many systems. not every system mind you but enough to merit having physical cutoffs if anything bugs the computer. communications is the biggest part of the autopilots hold. it makes life on the ship so much easier. the autopilot broadcasts warnings and messages over the intercom automatically. it can be used to identify problems, lock doors, communicate between crew and ships, it can use the intercom to track the voice of someone so they can be located with a fare amount of accuracy and it has the ability to give information on anything to anywhere, AND to some extent capable of running tests, scans and even playing music. although the system is still very simple it has sever limitations. ofcourse the engines are part of its control. the autopilot can start and shutdown engines, it can reduce and increase fuel flow to a certain restriction set by the physical throttle controls, it can change direction, it can change to generator only mode. most other systems the autopilot branches into are for advisory reasons rather than control. like the weapons systems. the interface just places a calculated representation of the guns path or the missiles trajectory on the operators HUD and advises ammunition levels if needed. and no. the system is NOT an artificial intelligence. it is just a simple set of subroutines that can respond to a voice command prompt. like the voice recognition on a laptop only with a much smoother voice and a far more advanced interpretation

Environmental systems are the basis of any maned vessel without question. On an FSSN vessel the environmental system includes air reprocessing, circulation, temperature regulation and compression. Now, this is not one hub system but infact 3 separate sub-systems. Starting with reprocessing. air is generated through photosynthesis in a greenhouse on larger ships and through a carbon filter on smaller ships, both require 0 electrical energy to operate and will always run at 100% if not damaged or destroyed. Nothing particularly new. The circulation and the compression system are interlinked. a series of 5x20cm ducts spread fresh, breathable air to every room and hall on the ship. In the event of a decompression a spring loaded 5cm steel gate will snap closed at a sudden pressure change isolating the decompressed zone from the rest of the ship loosing very little atmosphere besides what was in the room already. These valves are into and out of every room in the ship. And finally the heating system. The VAST majority of space is a temperature range of -265 degrees Celsius. That is colder than liquid nitrogen FYI so heating is essential but the energy required to heat an entire ship to 20 degrees Celsius is incredible using conventional means. There has been a recent upgrade to this system. Read the ‘Engines’ section for details

Engines are the next most vital system. They provide thrust allowing control and motion of the ship obviously but FSSN engines also produce electrical power for the ship. All engines run on powdered uranium which is stored like a liquid but when compressed behaves like a solid giving us the mass needed to initiate critical mass. The larger the grain of powder the more blast effect increasing thrust but larger grains have less mass per litre increasing consumption rates. This reaction is incredibly hot and even though the reaction flame never touches any component of the engine the heat will inevitably destroy the engine either resulting in critical mass or total internal failure. computer cores of larger ships had a similar problem but a coolant system protects the electronics from heat damage. Using a hydraulic fluid the consistency of marmalade jam containing 35% iron absorbs and distributes heat from the cores to a heat sink on the ships hull. This system was duplicated and multiplied in size by an factor of 8 and covers the entire ship to connect the engines components to heat sinks all over the hull, this system regulates the heat from the engines incredibly well and infact reduces the entire ships heat signature by distributing a percentage of that heat throughout the ship itself and by opening or closing heat sink grates we can regulate the environmental temperature very easily and very quickly. This is just another example of the FSSN’s incredible ability to use one system for multiple tasks

Quantum drive is an experimental self-perpetuating warp drive that can be fitted to most ships using pods with 2 compression shafts each used ALWAYS in pairs running on unstable fuel sources… beyond that everything is [CLASSIFIED]

Subject: starship database
A complete database including dimensions and capabilities of all ships would take forever to write. Instead I will use previously submitted material. A link should contain specifications of each ship within the artist comment window. This list will be in ascending order of their designated type

Hailfighter}
Uprizing } http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5450241/
Skimmer }

Type4 . battleship (3 working variations)
rush and tackle veriant http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4771347/
bullnose veriant http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5355964/

Type19 . freighter http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4771643/

Type26 . destroyer http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5450486/

Type34 . frigate (all variations not submitted)
standard veriant http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4727859/
sniper veriant (not submited)
mine layer veriant (not submited)

Type71 . tactical cruiser http:// www.furaffinity.net/view/4802066/

Type98 . super freighter http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4812661/

Type104 . Heavy cruiser (no current referance avalable)

Type108 . Repair station http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4754047/

Type111 . defence station (3 working variations)
A-veriant http://www.furaffinity.net/view/457...../#cid:34068924
B-veriant http://www.furaffinity.net/view/457...../#cid:34106945
C-veriant http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4583429/

Type125-A . heavy battleship (only one of these exists) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5439478/

Type125-B . battle-carrier http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5434773/

scenario: what if Chip flied QANTAS airways insted of FSSN starships

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fej9EWWLSsw

one of you may have seen this before but fuck you! this is exactly what i would end up doing

if i wanted to end my carrer in the space of 10 minutes

i just got handed a first class oneway ticket down the freaking shitter. it seems my newyears resolution now is to do the same thing ive done in the past 3 years ALL OVER AGAIN, damnit

since i left school ive been getting jobs mainly through experience, last year my job contract expired and now i have to search for another job which souldnt be hard BUT GUESS WHAT? my years of engineering experience IS NOW WORTH ABSOLUTE JACK SHIT so my current progress conserning EVERYTHING i have started since this time 3 years ago has to bloody reset. thank you very much mutherfucking burocratic bastards

so i took this oppertunity to see how much piss i could take back from the government, although this government has been fairly nice to hang around and so i normaly ignroe the occasional bullshit but this latest bout of taking my plans and feeding them into a wood chipper is something i cant ignore. to fix my infact salvagable plan i'm going back to school and geting sertifications across subjects including automotive industry, electronics and information tecknology. these main corses to resume my plans will only take about a half a year but i thought fuckit if i am gunna be at school i might aswell do the full year so i'll take an art or design corse for lolz later. the Southern Queensland Institute of TAFE is not quite highschool and not quite university but i can still suck education costs and personal loans out of the fucking australian tresury which right now wont suffer from my scabbing and it is satisfiying that i dont have to pay for my bits of paper that say i can do this shit, apparently knowing this isnt good enough you have to have a PhD wright you a note to say you DO know your shit. i wish i could just give a demonstration of how awesome my skills are and that would get me in but no life just isnt that easy

this vertual armageddon has also made me think. while on my long 'build shit fo lolz' rampage i took a look back on my own designs and foud them quite lacking in many respects, previously my designs were for easy construction but now that i am going through all this shit i might as well get my moneys worth... my troubles worth and build ships that look good and still do their job and then some. so expect lots of updates from now on and alot of reconstructed ships... atleast the ones i intend to eventualy construct if nothing else

WHEN DOSE THE TORTURE END!!!!! first the whole centeral eastern region of australia was flooded with the worst rains we have ever seen in 100 years, it filled our largest dams that were almost completely empty to overflowing in just under a week, we were bruised and hanging on ourselves but now the largest cyclone IN AUSTRALIAN HISTORY comes in and kicks us in the guts whiel we are injured. i know australians are suposed to be touch as nails but cyclone yasi has torn through our best banana crops and flattened 70% of them, killing our entire out shipment for the next 2 years

its too much for even us, and that gives me the god given right to bitch about it. i know you amerricans know what tornados do, you have them all the time but we dont have cyclone reinforced houses so anything within striking distance of the cyclone is completely flattened and considering that the cyclone is covering ALL OF QUEENSLAND which is a good fifth of australia for those of you who care at all, i am on the very edge of the queensland/new south wales boarder and i can see the clouds from it

more FUCKING flooding, more FUCKING houses decimated, more FUCKING inundated crops, more FUCKING GODDAMNED BY THE JESUS DEATH!!!!!!!!

i cant believe this shit, what next? a motherfucking tsunamy followed by a fucking nuclear strike? i feel like we are being targeted here because western australia is still bone dry but who cares about them because they only hold an 8th of the total australian population, the real juice of population is on the eastern shore, queensland, new south wales, victoria and even south australia... all these people and major cities on the eastern shore, and guess where all the damn shit desaster weather is comeing from? thats right! THE FUCK MOTHERING EASTERN SHORE

GOD FUCKING DAMNIT

right, i feel much better now...

--ragerant over--

now before anyone makes a gay joke you should go ahead and check my userpage

the reason for this is to realise a personal revolation and i hope none of you take any of what is about to go down personaly, seriously or let it affect how you see me

several mates draged me out to the bar a few weeks ago... i got totaly hammered and ofcourse you know that when someone is drunk they show their true side. i was so loose i was basicaly reciting erotica as i sat there laughing at everything that was barely funny atleast that is what i was told the next day. those same friends said and i quote "mate, you were the beast last night. we gunna hav-ta get you smashed just to have fun with ya' anywhere?"

ofcourse when it was said to me i had no idea what he was saying but about a week ago i remembered it and thought on it more... basicaly he told me to losen up. i took a long look at myself and realised i was a complete hardass at work and a total 5th wheel everywhere else, i was far too serious for my own good health

im a furry! i'm suposed to be an animal with higher brain functions! doing and saying whatever i wanted whenever it suited me!! at that point i droped whatever it was i was doing, riped off my underware and proseeded to play rock music at top volume playing along as best i could. the bass line vibrated everything... EVERYTHING, about an hour or 3 later i went and abused my internet connection combing FA for as much porn as i could find

1900Kb's later i went and posted around 200 comment for no reason beyond "your pron is the shit". that bout was a week ago... since then i have continued on a similar yet far less consentrated path. on reflection my conclusion is that i have been undeniably corrupted by my stupid atemp to get in touch with my animalistic side, taking into acount that i can define the boundery between fantasy and reality well i found the many kinks that populate this vast social valley ARE COMPLEATLY EVIL in the sence that they draw you into looking at them and slowly convert you as you fail to restrain yourself from opening more... although the ones that are truely evil like hard vore and scat i would rather suicide than open those but the kinks that can camoflage themselves as something more normal are obviously doing something right, you should give them credit for being close. also taken into account true tallent and planning rather than just complete mindless sexy kinks.

fanart is somethign that is rather frequent and most of the time i would auto suicide aswell no matter the content but again skill and planning sometimes counters the scarring i will resieve. and now the grand total of my experience has tought me never to do anything like that again because it hardly changed my bounderies i just learned that those bounderies are designed to be walked... i still hate and like the same things at the same level as i did before save for some extreme circumstances

i will be far more open with myself from now on. no more deliberatly avoiding a situation and no more woundering if this person likes me or not to send a comment or not

and before you ask. no i will not list my kinks beasue a previous convosation with someone who shall remain nameless was rather unenthusiastic about my many changes of heart... you should all remember that i am the same person you all know, just a little more fun and a little more open to others

if any of you have seen the news lately you shoulod know about the relentless deluges falling on Australia. THIS IS A NATIONAL CRISIS. flash flooding is destroying millions of dollars worth of vehicles, homes, businesses and roads. the city i live has been devestated by the flash flooding, we got 4 inches in under 2 hours. 75% of queensland is a natural desaster zone... this is a HIGE state, 70 people are missing and 9 are reported dead, children among those

luckily i am far enough away from the floods to be out of danger but i am far from uneffected, the artirial highways leading into this city have been severed rather drasticly,, back roads are swept from the maps, 70% of all bridges over water corses I DIDNT EVEN KNOW EXISTED have been wiped from the map, food stocks are runnign low. so far the power grid remains largly intact but i fear in the coming rains there will be a geater loss of power

the hard truth is that most of this flooding is hitting rural comunities mroe than the large ones, Brisbane capitol is among those effected, the brisbane river broke its banks and caused more damage than any previous flood

if you are being spamed to give to relief efforts for flood effected people in australia YOU ARE NOT BEING BULLSHITED the damages are quite real and most of the strories are quite accurite including the ones stating 'dosens of cars being picked up in the warer and sucked under bridges at HIGHWAY SPEEDS'

the floods have claimed lives, what you are hearing is probably true if not under egsadurated, the drives for cash and whatever are not bullshit and hardly over the top

yeah i know its 4.30 but i dont care youre more important than my state of mind

all day i sat around the house with mates and mates of mate most of who i dont even know the names of but even with the booze disapearing rapidly and all the laughs and hugs it still felt kinda hollow and it took me all day to figure it out

you guys werent there... i probably spend more time on FA than in reality, probably because reality sucks and most humans arent worth the light of day none of them give a bloody shit about anything i have to say, if it isnt already in existance then its imposible. you will atleast spend enough time to look and to think and actualy watch for the next thing to come along

i am far from you now but 20 Xmases from now and we will all be getin pissed and floating around aboard Deliverance i just hope 20 more go faster the the last 20



i love you guys and there is absolutly noting you can do about it

before you answer a stupid question, i know full well what the change means and no, i am not going to jump into the shitstorm about who believes who's fetish is better and all that BS

the question is about why all these furs are going out of their heads about this eradication of cub porn... some are over-joyed and they made a huge celebration about it, others (mainly the ones who write/draw/watch the stuff) are all up in arms about defending their rights and all that. i have PERSONALY read 12 journals about the subject, all of them powerful, all of them hate-filled in some way, most of them long but none of them were the same and yet neither did they seem to change. the fact is that everyone is effected by this, i know i am even though i dont personaly like or even pay any attention to the genre. from this point of view the AUP change was a necessity simply because if it didnt change then the rest of FA was going down the tube aswell. now that blatent cub porn is now illegal makes the haters greatfull and the watchers hatefull, now these two parties are merging like a storm system developing into a hurricane. the haters hate because they are self-absorbed and the watchers are hating back because now they have nothing else to fight for. its desgusting how one can joy over the loss of the other just because the one didnt like what the other liked.

i stand in the croud that dont like cub porn, i have my reasons, so dose everyone else but i will not riot over its eradication simply because of that fact. normal people would see furry art just as we see cub art, unless you are a furry you dont understand, because i dont fully inderstand cub art i cant pass judgement... and neither should you, i am ashamed at all those who threw their crap the first chance they got


this journal is just to make you think and throw you into a shame spiral. i dont even want to see you reply to this journal unless you are informing me that you read it or that you are a good little furry and you stayed in your own genre

i write this in responce to some recent goings on in the wonderful world of 'the Storm'

most important is my changing occupations. i will soon be enlisting in the AirForce as a diesel fitter. i will be out-of-state for training but that wont be for a while yet so dont worry i am not leaving just yet

next is my faultering internet connection, my wireless router AND trancever need servicing/replacing but i might as well just save for an entirely new computer... and maybe a scanner that works, and a fucking tablet, then perhapse my sketchbooks will be more than just dust collecters... i still think i suck but my gallery needs REAL arts

number the third; in reformating my book i have cut much of the original story and pasted it elsewhere down the line. the whole series of three books is the origin of the Federal Stelar Servent Navy and each book is told from the viewpoint of a separate one of my three main characters

Chip Stormcrow reads how humans sacrified their very humanity to survive: Physical Endurance
Xander Fletcher tells how the human race can simply overlook everything but his own wants: Spiritual Endurance
Jintulkin De'Ryer tells of the first RSSN mission and how it defined their place in the universe: Mental Endurance

4th on the list includes no major advancements in ship design but a significant impovment on the AT-RO project. most small WDS's now use worm drives to give more power, all SCCGR's use pneumatic rams not hydraulic because they are lighter and faster and now all NMS components are coated in a mildly condictive layer bonded to the original skin

for those of you who dont know Automated Treversing Remote Opperatable units are a complex type of Wire-Drawn Servo, Natural Motion Simulated automiton (saying 'robot' is considered racist you know?) these machines are NOT expendable. each is custom made and is designed to do multiple tasks including the use of Self Contained Colapsing Glider Rigs. an AT-RO is usualy used in situations where us mere mortals could not survive in conditions or complete the task in the given time

last call is on a current task for a freind of mine. you know who you are. and i promis i will complete the ship, full colour and everything before i leave for my 11 weeks training

i got called away for a couple of days really short notice and i didnt have time to sort out all the shit i had to and now i am paying for it

for those of you who cared i was up in some god forsaken shore restarting the engine of a beached freighter. was fun... sort of besides the lack of food and really misurable conditions

i have messages upto the shits... i will look at them all but i wont coment on many