Happy Halloween everybody.

Been a while but, long story short, things not really getting better here… more just meandering aimlessly from disaster to disaster and crisis to crisis…

But that’s not what this journal is for!

This journal is to announce, Feast of Samhain willing, I WILL be posting a Halloween story up tonight… hopefully I’ll be posting all three parts of it even!

My first attempt at writing in… a long while. So I hope you enjoy it… and here’s hoping it’ll be a sign of more work from me in the future.

Anyway thanks for reading and have a Happy Halloween!

Wish I had better news but I don’t.

My aunt, on my mother’s side, has passed away this morning.

She’d been having various cancers and other problems and been in and out of the hospital for the past few years which had kept us from seeing her. She ended up in the hospital again Monday with what might have been pneumonia… but they weren’t sure since there’d been so many other things wrong with her they couldn’t check. They did know hooking her up to a special mask and equipment would help…

Except she didn’t want that. She just wanted the pain to stop. If she was conscious she was fighting the doctors and wanting a DNR order so they were forced to keep her sedated and as comfortable as possible as much as they could.

And last night she passed in her sleep.

Shell shocked and numb right now. My uncle is left to deal with this since mom and I are still trying to keep things together from dad’s passing (and still desperately trying to get the will resolved) along with the house slowly crumbling around us.

Wish I could say this in jest but genuinely from the bottom of my soul FUCK

Happy Mother’s Day to everybody.

In other news it is also my Birthday and I am now 35 years old… yay.

As you might imagine things far from “happy” here.

We’re still dealing with the massive amounts of fallout from dad’s sudden passing including the fact that until the will is probated (which is going slowly) we can’t use or access dad’s accounts and things being exclusively in his name are… questionable if we can use. Dad has a LOT of stuff exclusively in his name.

Long story short onto of me having to rush to get my own business documentation to try and keep his business going we’ve also been locked out of the business bank account… whiiiiiich had the lions share of our on-hand money in it. We’re okays for right now but it’s… a day-to-day stressed trying to carefully manage everything while just being stuck waiting for news on the legal or the life insurance front since nobody’s getting back to us…

So… yeah older and so much more lost… poetic in a “cruel irony” sorta way I guess.

Anyway thanks for reading and have a nice day.

Hello everybody.

After a small viewing of just mom, my aunt, and myself and an only slightly larger burial service my father was laid to rest around 11:14 on April 1st 2025 at a wet and windy little cemetery next to grandma and grandpa’s graves.

After 5 hours driving mom and I are back home now.

As for how I feel… numb.

I couldn’t actually go into the room during the viewing. The one time I tried I saw him laying in the casket looking asleep like so many times I had to wake him up to take his medicine or do his work or for a thousand other reasons and I started blubbering… and I still had to drive out to the burial and drive home so couldn’t afford to break down there.

Still can’t afford to break down since I have a thousand and one things he left I still need to try to tend to…

But anyway wanted to give an update.

Thank you for reading and take care.

Hello everyone, a bit of an update.

The one thing we know more than anything was that dad wanted to be buried in the same graveyard as his parents… which happens to be in Louisiana. He never bothered to make any plans for his body’s transport from Houston TO Louisiana though… so that all fell to us. The only good news is the particular lot he’d be happiest with was available and, thanks to donated upkeep, we were able to get it for no change which is something…

Anyway past all of that we’ve opted for an internment… specifically because ALL the messes he’s left behind will require a certified copy of his death certificate to clean up (which can take 3 weeks or more to get) and we can’t GET any of those till he’s in the ground. That and we’re pretty sure dad wouldn’t like people just gawking at him in the state he was in and most of his friends who would come passed on before him. So Mom and I are going to Louisiana Monday to make the final arrangements and we’ll have a small service with likely only my aunt (dad’s sister, pretty much the only relative from his generation left who could attend) in attendance with us.

Then we’ll come back home and plan to have a proper memorial service for him sometime later when things have settled down a little. It’s not perfect but it’s the best we can manage considering…

As for how I’m doing… numb. Numb is the best term. I’m trying to keep dad’s business going (and fucking things up left and right since he left EVERYTHING in the air when he passed and they had to be done… tragedy or not) and dealing with the fact I’m more and more aware of how much everything in my life and the house just… bent to try and keep him happy. Try and keep him happy despite how bad he’d gotten physically and mentally. The feeling of “At least he can’t suffer anymore” mixed with the void he left and finding myself thinking “Dad wouldn’t like this/would want this” and remember he’ll never be a factor in this decisions again…

Right now I’m holding it together. Too much I need to do still. Just have to hold it together for now and the break later.

Anyway thank you for reading and I hope you have a nice day.

As of roughly 1:14 pm on March 25, 2025 my father has died.

I wish I had a better way to break my silence but I don’t. Hadn’t been able to art in any manner for so long due to stress… and now this.

Dad had been doing a bit worse and worse but always insisted he’d feel better tomorrow, he didn’t need a doctor, it was FINE… mom and I, used to his stubbornness, humored him since it hadn’t been worth the fight before… then on March 8th I had to rush him from a show to an emergency medical center. He had a terrible bladder infection so bad they were worried it did damage to his kidneys.

He had to stay in the hospital over a week with mom staying with him while I tried to keep things going before he was finally released to a care center for recovery… “He is getting better”… I should have been suspicious the second I heard those words. All of my grandparents seemed to be getting better… before just dropping dead. I should have been wary, I should have been on guard…

And yet I let myself get caught off guard when after 5 PM Monday March 24 I got a call letting me know dad had stopped breathing. Turns out he’d had cardiac arrest without any warning and they couldn’t get him breathing again till hours later at a hospital… at which point it’d been so long that on the slim, slim, slim-to-impossible odds he ever did wake up? The brain damage would insure he wasn’t dad anymore… and till he died on his own he’d be on life support suffering convulsions…

So mom and I made the choice to pull the plug. He’d never been happy with his deteriorating quality of life since the stroke and had been just doing worse and worse so at least he can’t suffer anymore…

But that leaves mom & I behind. Mom is trying to set up the funeral arrangements…

As for me? I spent most of the time waiting for him to pass calling all his remaining customers and supplies to let them know the news and I’d be taking over the business going forward. I also have to get together the bills and figure out the taxes since dad always REFUSED to let anybody else do it… and it now falls to me. Mom isn’t working anymore, she was forced to retire… so I have to keep the business going, pay the bills, keep us surviving…

How do I feel? Fuck if I know… sick in the head and stomach, numb, empty and I try and plan what to do, happy dad doesn’t have to suffer anymore, hating myself for not doing something about this somehow… all stuff I don’t have the luxury of feeling right now.

Anyway sorry this is how I break my silence and I pray all of you are doing better than I.

Merry Christmas everybody… no I’m not dead… at least in the physical sense.

Haven’t been on FA much the past several months for numerous… NUMEROUS reasons… health issues (both mine and my folks), financial issues, car issues, house issues, computer issues, and a thousand other reasons in-between. The sheer amount of MESS that happened on Fa during the in in-between didn’t help it any either…

Long story short? My ability to art has been dead in the ground for a while. I’m sorry for that.

Either way as we head into the new year I hope all of you have.a good one even if I dunno when or if more stuff will be posted here.

Take care, thanks for ready, and have a Merry Christmas.

The power literally just came back on here. Dunno if it'll stay on but going to enjoy it while I can...

Before I have to throw away everything in the fridge...

Or do all the washing we had to just... not do...

But most of all? I look forward to existing in a state other than "Sweaty" for the first time since Monday.

Thank you all for reading and take care.

Hey there everybody, typing this up while sitting in the car trying to charge our vital electronics with NO idea when I’ll be able to post it (turns out posting it while stuck in a McDonalds drive through same as the last one)… but to be honest I need to vent. So consider this your warning, if you don’t wanna hear more of my typical bitching here is your off ramp. With that said strap in.

For starters as some of you might remember we had one of the cars in the shop when the windstorm blew through and fucked everything over the first time. Well We finally got that picked up… and had to take the other car in for work. Then a few days later when we finally got the other car back? Literally a few days after? We had to take the first car back in for something completely unrelated to the initial problem. To make it short and sweet? All together it was just a bit under $3,000 to fix it all so we had vehicles.

Once that was resolved we finally started looking into getting the damage to the house fixed… and this is where we got a not unexpected but still unpleasant surprise. You see our house is old[/], very old and slapdash built in places. The windstorm took down the siding and the connected stuff in places… and the wood was so rotted underneath putting the original stuff back up wasn’t possible. The only solution was replacing it complete… well that or leave it open to let water and god know what else up into our attic to infest and damage the rest of the house… so replacing it all it was…

To a tune of $17,000 or so. With every possible discount and bit of leeway they could give us.

Soooooo we were off to get a loan while they started the work since the longer we waited the more likely there was gonna be worse damage that cost more. The good news? They got the work done about a week before the Hurricane blew in and it looks like it held just fine. The bad news? The loan didn’t work out. Turns out there was several catches and clauses we did not want to be dealing with… of course we found this out at the very end after a week of working on this wasting a LOT of time… but better to realize before we signed any paperwork I guess…

So we’re having to close out and empty out one of the last saving accounts we have left (which takes a lot of paperwork in and of itself)and then just scrape to make up the difference. All the while I’m having to drive both my parents around to these loan meetings, to government offices to get the paperwork (since I don’t have the legal standing to get it for them), and everywhere else…

All of that ontop of multiple medical issues and meetings I’m having to try and keep straight. Getting both parents back and forth to their doctors and the new doctors their being recommended to and then to the new new doctors the new doctors recommended them to… of course I’m supposed to be seeing my own doctor about some stuff but I’ve been unable to get them to call me back and I just flat out don’t have fucking time[/] to go see them with all the other shit I’m juggling so that just will have to wait…

All of this while trying to keep dad’s business running and keep him alive while he’s fighting me every. single. step. of the. way.

So yeah… going on day 3 of sitting in the dark (dunno when I’ll be posting this up) I’m… a stressed to say the least. Hell most of the places I’d go to use wifi or anything like that are dead too so can’t even go try and do that. They’re promising they’ll have the majority of peoples lights back on by the end of the day… but even if they follow through on that the question would be “Will we be IN that majority?”… so jack all I can do but sit and wait.

Don’t have a proper way to wrap this up so just gonna stop it here for now. I thank all of you for reading and hope you’re doing better than us.

Take care and have a good day.

Hey folks, gonna be short here since I don't have much time.

If you haven't seen the news Texas and Houston got slammed by a Hurricane and thousands (or millions, I've heard it both ways) are without power... and my family is among that number.

Been meaning to share a journal to update you all on the problems going on here but that'll still have to wait it seems since I don't have internet or time (and am doing this in a pack McDonald's drive through in one pocket of the city that has power).

Just wanted to let you know we're alive. Hot, stressed, exhausted, and PISSED AS HELL WE'RE LOSING EVERYTHING IN THE FRIDGE AGAIN IN THE F*CKING SPAN OF A MONTH... but alive.

Thank you for reading and take care.

Over 4 and a half days later we finally have power back on.

Will it stay on? Dunno.

How much food did we lose despite using ice blocks and coolers? Dunno.

How much damage was done to the house? Dunno.

All I do know is I am sick, exhausted, and want to rest and so far the world refuses to let that happen.

Will update if anything changes. Take care and thanks for caring.

Hey everybody, been an interesting 40+ hours here.

For those of you who haven’t heard (and considering I’ve only have very limited access to news so that might be most of you for all I know) Houston Texas got FUCKED OVER by a storm Thursday afternoon… but lets rewind a lil since bad news never happens alone for me.

Thursday morning I started to do my errands and to drive to get breakfast… aaaaand the battery alert goes off in my car followed by it trying to die. Long story short 2 hours, a new battery, and lots of money later we find out it’s a lot more than just the battery that’s gone bad and we need a new actuator (I think that’s what it’s called) system among other things. All to a tune of $2000 dollars baring our car guy managing to get some deals for us… so I came home down one car and stressing over the cost. We’d been warned we’d get bad weather that afternoon buuuut we’d been warned before so we weren’t too worried…

Then a bit after 5 or we got multiple emergency alerts all at once and got to worry about it… as the sky opened up. We lost power by 6 and it has stayed out… along with the power pretty much everywhere in the immediate area. Turns out we got hurricane force winds tearing through… emphasis on tearing. Stoplights torn off their lines, trees down, power line poles snapped, power towers crumbled… long story short Houston is wrecked. We got lucky (we hope, still trying to gauge the damage) and only lost two section of fence, several chunks of siding, and we’ve got a big chunk of tree resting on our garage… our neighbors up and down the block had entire trees come down and more than a few hit their houses.

Either way the storm is passed and we’re back up to 90+ degrees (100+ if you factor in the humidity)… with no power. Worse? We only have mom’s car which we can’t get dad into so we can’t even try to flee.

And to really cap it off? Every time we’ve lost power like this? It takes, on average, two weeks before they’ll bother to get around to us to fix it… lord knows it’ll be delayed longer this time since the fucking first thing they did with half a million in the dark and downtown literally being swamped in broke glass? Try to make sure their baseball game went off without issue…

Yeah… my confidence getting this fixed anytime soon is low. Posting this from the only WiFi spot I could find (a long ways from the house) and can’t be on long either.

Anyway that’s the news and the news is bad, wish us the best of luck and take care.

Happy Birthday to me, the 34th year of the suffering that is life…

Aaaaand enough bad poetry for the moment. Minor update for everybody. The past month has been heck with multiple shows and trips, lots of problems inbetween, and just zero time to rest and recover (and if I was given time to do that you can be damn sure it gets yanked away before it does any good). Cause of that my art and stories are pretty dead. Anything I start I lose the will to finish before it’s even near completion… more so than normal anyway. Hope that changes in the near future but we’ll see..

Anyway on to other news. For my birthday I plan to (weather permitting) get an ass kicking… aka I’m going to go to a Yu-Gi-Oh tournament which, with how rarely I play, should go poorly for me but hey. Should still be fun. Gonna be playing Purrely for anyone in the know on the game and curious.

Thanks for reading, take care, and I hope you have a good day -hugs-

Happy Easter everybody and we’re finally back home here…

Since I sadly lack anything cute bunny or egg related to offer I’ll get down to brass tacks.

The trip was successful in that we got there and got back in all in one piece… what the trip decidedly was NOT however was easy. The chief issue (among many) was that dad made a little oopsy when he booked the motel room we’d be stopping at for the halfway point coming and going. What was supposed to happen was it would be somewhere along the quickest route roughly in the middle so that it’d divide the trip into two days with 6 and a half to 7 hours of driving a day…

What he actually did was book a motel that divided it into 5 and a half hours one day… and 9 (verging on 10) hours the next. And since I don’t think I mentioned this and it’s rather relevant… I find driving to be extremely stressfull.

So yeah… finally back home to try and rest… since I have to try and fix all the (metaphorical thankfully) fires that started while we were away from home tomorrow… which will be fuuuuun… oh and tomorrow is also April Fools Day… so really fuuuuuuun…

Anyway I hope all of you are having a Happy Easter and thanks for reading.

Hey folks, finally got an update for you here.

For starters things have been stressful enough here the few art based projects I've tried to start just dried up only half done... hope to get something post-worthy done soon but the focus and motivation just isn't there with how things are going.

Speaking of real life stresses...

Dad has his once a year show this week which means I will be driving him to St. Louis again... a roughly 13 hour trip. We leave tomorrow, drive 6 and a half hours, stay at a motel, then drive the rest of the way Wednesday. We repeat the journey in reverse Saturday and arrive sometime Sunday.

Long story short it's gonna be long and stressful for multiple reasons so please wish us luck on it... lord knows the roads haven't gotten any safer as of late, heck I passed more than one active burning car on the side of the freeway (complete with fire grew working to put it out) just today... so any well wishes are appreciated.

Take care, hope all of you are staying safe, and thank you for reading.

Happy New Year everybody!

And here’s to a hopefully better 2024… really, REALLY hope it’s better… things have been bad and stressful here riiiiight up until the end >,<

Anyway hope all of you are having a happy New Year and plan on trying to post up some actual art tomorrow to celebrate so hope you’re looking forward to that~

Take care, thanks for reading, and see you all in the new year~!

Merry Christmas and all other winter Holidays everybody, behold I bring you tidings of… well… not good and not cheer admittedly.

To abridge and remove details from a story involving family issues dad messed up a money/house/car related issue and it spiraled badly due a string of other mess-ups on his part (he insists he handle this and has refused to let anybody else touch it… this is the latest and worst of his… issues handling it and he’s now finally admitting he might not be able to do it anymore… which is a minor miracle at least) Christmas was functionally canceled here… or at least EXTREMELY curtailed. Been doing the best with what I could to get into the festive spirit but…

Between health issues, other family issues, business issues, and issues upon issues… things have been an utter wash so I’ve had to cancel a lot of things including the Christmas art/story I was hoping to do… will try again on those next year when I hopefully have more energy/focus for it…

Gonna still try and do a project based on the New Years (not telling which one though) even if it’ll probably be late so wish me the best of luck there.

Anyway beyond the griping I thank all of you for reading, hope your season is merry and bright, and wish all of you a Happy Holidays!

Take care.

Happy Halloween everybody!

Not gonna be doing much to celebrate it here sadly… but do have some good news.

I managed to get my Halloween Story for this year finished and will be posting it up a little later! Hope you all enjoy it if you take the time to read it.

Past that… things not good here. Lots of stress, lots of problems, lots of things going wrong, very little in ways to resolve any of it, and very little chance to rest or recover. Could go into details but rather not at this point.

Just gonna thank all of you for reading and hope you have a happy All Hollows Eve…

With any luck I’ll figure out something to do in time to have some Christmas art ready in December… here’s hoping.

Take care.

Hey everybody, it’s been a while.

Sorry for not updating more but just haven’t felt the energy to do so for a while due to multiple reasons… along with the fact no individual “Thing” felt worthy of posting an update on… buuuut pile them up and you eventually get a crushing force that squashes me flat if I may poorly misuse and analogy.

One big issue right now is our internet is going back on the fritz (via the form of infuriating amounts of slowdown and lag) without any obvious reason why (we’ve check the normal reasons as much as we can to no results) to the point that it’s virtually unusable for long and random portions of the day. The fact I can’t really feel confident leaving dad alone for long periods as of late hasn’t helped either since it means I can’t just run to a place with free wi-fi to use it there without any number of issues cropping up.

Next, and if you’re in certain parts of America you probably already know about this, is that the heat is killing… well… just killing. Plants, people, roads, wills to live… having to spend most of the days with a fan on me as as many lights out as possible in the house and I’m still getting sick from the heat. Times when I have to run out in it to do work or because dad demands something and won’t be talked out of it just being worse.

These two things have essentially combined together to insure any ability to produce postable art or writing I might have had is just… dead. Hope when something changes (for the better I’m praying) this’ll change to but at the moment I sit down to try and get any of the stuff I want to do done and… nothing happens. For people hoping for more work from me I am sincerely sorry for this.

Anyway onto more topical things… as of last week dad has a horrible toothache in one of his teeth he KNOWS is bad so his decision was to call the dentist to set up an appointment to get it looked a-HA! Nope. He decided he’d refuse to do this and try to self medicate with old pain killers from when he’d had his kidney stones for… reasons. Just reasons. He wouldn’t get the dentist to look at it to see if it was gonna have to be pulled, he wouldn’t call his doctor to find out how long he needed to be off his medicines before it could be pulled, and he wouldn’t do ANYTHING because he hurt too bad to focus and he was sure the old medicine for something completely different would fix it when it wouldn’t…

He finally gave up on that, very very begrudgingly (he’s still trying to mess with his medicines cause “I know wha I’m doin DON’T FUSS AT ME” to quote him if we don’t watch him) and we’ve gotten the needed double checks to bring in in Wednesday for the extraction so hopefully that’ll go well. The big issue is we have a show this weekend and as usual dad’s police is “I do EVERYTHING minor and unimportant first cause I like that stuff better and then leave all the stuff that is hard but VITAL to the show for the end because I don’t want to do that and I assume I’ll have plenty of time and nothing will go wrong”… well things have gone wrong and he’s now entered in the “Blame everybody else for me not doing what I was supposed to do sooner” stage… with me being his favorite person to shift blame to. For the record? If I tell him to do something his reaction usually amounts to “I’m going to wait longer to do it now just cause you fussed at me” so I’ve given up on that for the most part… it’s all his own damn fault and he doesn’t like it when I let him know one bit.

Anyway this slightly more heated than intended rant is better cut short than let run on so gonna call it here. The short of it is the rest of this week is going to be heck and for the foreseeable future my ability to get online dependably will be sporadic and slow at best. I am sorry.

Thanks for reading, hope all of you have good days, and take care.

Hey folks… been meaning to make a journal but for multiple reason I haven’t felt up to it…

For starters? I’m not leaving… I don’t think my work breaks any of the new guidelines, I’ve been too stressed to really read them, and I don’t have any back-up places but I’m not leaving since I’m fairly entrenched in FA as it is…

Probably gonna try to back-up as much work as I can before the new rules go into effect all the same just in case…

Next up… I’d meant to post up more stuff in May but things went pear shaped including dad letting himself get hacked, again, and us having to deal with the fallout from it. He’s backslid to admitting he can make mistakes and mess-up now yeah… but it’s not HIS fault when he does it so we can’t be angry at him and he doesn’t have to give up any control of the family accounts to us -_- fortunately it was just his own email he f*cked over rather than the bank accounts this time…

But yeah… sick, stressed, and just flat utterly exhausted here so dunno when I’ll be able to post more even though I’ve got stuff in the works… I apologize and appreciate your patience.

Thanks for reading and have a nice day.

Hey folks, mom and I are finally back home to try and rest after the day.

Long story short is everything looked good... or specifically "No worse than was expected given her age and condition"... good enough they opted to just use a chemical stint rather than surgery which is always welcome.

Either way she'll be recovery for at least a week and having to take it easy (meaning I'll be fielding all of dad's demands till then... yaaaaaay) so here's hoping that goes well.

Now if anybody needs me I've been up for a long time and I'm gonna go pass out.

Thanks for reading, have a nice day, and take care.

Hey folks, this journals really late due to bad weather messing with the internet here but first off...

Happy Mother's Day everybody!

Next... to the updates.

I'll start with the Tax stuff I mentioned in the birthday journal. Despite dad not doing his due diligence (or letting us do it) it's not on him in this case... we've confirmed the problem lies with the post office failing to deliver it once and then just... keeping it. So we have to find out where it ended up and get it from them. Wish us luck there.

Second I'll share some slightly more uplifting news... yesterday I attended my first Yu-Gi-Oh tournament in over five years (and I mean at all, haven't played the game in over that long) at one of the few places around who host them. I went in expecting to lose and ooooooh-ho-ho boy did I. Got my butt kicked left, right, front, and center... but I mostly went to get a feel for the game and to learn how to play my deck (which was a little more complex than I was used to) so that was fine. The fact that all the other people with no wins dropped out lead me to end the tournament with two byes instead of proper matches was a downer but what are you gonna do. Oh! For those curious? I was playing Purrely~ Had been collecting them over time cause they're adorable and decided to take them for a spin~

And last, and more relevant, update for today relates to mom...

The appointment Wednesday went well since it turned out to just be drawing blood and paperwork... but I need to get her down by 6 in the morning on Wednesday for surgery and might have to just stay with her... meaning we have to somehow set it up so dad can be by himself for most of the day (which is a tall order since he can't get his own food, drink, or other stuff anymore, he just can't carry it). And that's only cause we, after great effort, managed to talk him out of coming with us (which would have caused a lot of trouble) like he wanted to. We're still working on it but one way or another I get to worry about dad and mom at the same time...

Since this is a check up of her heart and last time they did this they found something seriously wrong just unexpectedly forcing emergency surgery (serious surgery rather than just check-up) on the spot and they kept her overnight. Praying there isn't a repeat of that and one way or another will be very stressed and busy come Wednesday...

Wish us the best of luck and any prayers/well-wishes are welcome.

Thanks for reading and have a great day.

Happy Birthday… oh Happy Birthday…

Hey folks, the date is now May 11th also know as my Birthday and, as per yearly tradition, it’s currently a clusterf*ck if you’ll pardon my language.

My original plan had been to, on the way back from the order I had to deliver, pick up pizza and enjoy it before opening my gift to myself (a box of Yu-Gi-Oh cards, my biggest vice and something I can knowingly get myself and still feel surprise as I open each pack to see what I get like a gambling addict futilely trying for a jackpot) and otherwise relax…

Here’s how that’s not panning out.

For starters the weather has been utterly foul this week with constant downpours and thunderstorms. There hasn’t been any flooding (for us anyway) but due to most drivers in Houston reacting to rain via utterly losing their minds the roads have been nothing but crazy drivers, wrecks, and wrecks involving crazy drivers… fortunately it is SUPPOSED to clear up till the weekend here…

Unfortunately the same can’t be said about the two wonder little surprises courtesy of dear old dad…

First off the solar panels he insisted we get and are installed and working (aka WAY past the point of no return)? Due to him misreading (via looking at it, reading it, and then deciding what it said irregardless of what it ACTUALLY said) we’re going to be on the hook for a pretty penny we aren’t going to be able to get deducted like he thought… which is going to be a problem. To the point the solar panel people are cheerfully suggesting ideas that would likely put our ability to keep the house in danger as options to pay it off… though we do have other options we just have to explore them first.

Secondly we found out that the guy who handles our Taxes… never got them so hasn’t started on them so we’re in serious trouble. Specifically what happened was I did my part to get the stuff together at which point dad finishes it, gets it in an envelope, and I mail it off with a tracking number. Well I got it ready… and dad kept putting off finishing it because whatever HE wanted to do had more priority than it. He kept delaying till we were late then when we FINALLY managed to get it mailed off? He never bothered to follow up with the tax guy about whether he got it… or… ANYTHING really. He also filed away the info so neither I nor mom could check on it (which to be fair we didn’t think of doing since all his other sh*t kept us busy… the best we could do was ask him about and have him brush us off) and didn’t check on it either… or at least i have no reason to believe his claims he did check up on it since the first time he checks up on it with me watching to make SURE he checks up on it? The tax guy gets back to us to let us know he doesn’t have it and we’re in big, big trouble.

The ONLY silver lining in all this mess is that Dad has finally, finally, FINALLY accepted that he has a problem. The stroke did a lot of things to him but the worst thing it did was make his existing stubborn streak MASSIVELY worse. Up till now any mention that he’s making a mistake, or needs to let me handle something, or is making the wrong choice would be met with either being ignored, stubborn insistence that he’s right, or outright petulant anger from him as he refused to even consider that he might have a problem even after thing after thing blew up in his face (to the point i’ve been having to halfway police his emails and phone calls so he doesn’t give some other scammer control of our bank accounts AGAIN)…

Now? Now after literally reading a contract, deciding it said something completely different, and rereading it to flatly find out that no he had been wrong and there was NO excuse to cover it he FINALLY admits he has problems. It remains to be seen if this will finally translate to him no longer hoarding the family’s information and vital tasks (like taxes and bills) to himself and actually letting me take care of them or at least help… but it’s a first step.

Anyway onto the last and most worrying (yes, I know, more worrying that financial issues and the tax man cometh) problem to land on the week of my birthday…

Last Friday I took mom to get a check-up. It was a brief check-up and everything seemed to be alright. This Thursday we got a call from the doctor… I’m taking her back in for more “tests” on Friday to prepare her for “surgery” on the coming Wednesday… aaaand that’s it. No details, no why, we literally know NOTHING save that Mom might be having surgery on Wednesday…

So gonna kindly ask you postpone Birthday wishes today and simply send well wishes to my family in general at the moment, I think we might need that more here.

Anyway thanks for reading, sorry for the long and depressing rant, your cake slices and Eeyore (seem fitting all things considered) theme goodie bags are by the door, and take care on your way home ^,^

Hey folks, you might remember last time I mentioned the technician blamed a tree for the outage?

Well what it looks like is the neighbors tree, which has grown to hang over part of our house at this point, disrupts our internet connection whenever it moves and just keeps disrupting it forcing it into a constant cycle of trying to reconnect with the satellite that basically kills our home internet.

The short of it is we have home internet unless the wind is blowing enough to move the branches of the neighbors tree... and we live in Houston TX so...

We dun got home internet.

Posting this at the bookstore cafe again. We're looking into trying to get a tree trimming service to come out as soon as possible without losing our shirts in the process...

So yeah, wish us luck.

Thanks for reading and take care.

Update from yesterday... Internet is back.

Why?

Dunno, just decided to work again.

Why did it stop working in the first place?

The technician just shrugged his shoulders, made a bunch of guesses, and blamed a tree so... damn you trees I guess?

End result?

We have internet back but no guarantee it won't just throw a fit and stop for over 12 hours in the near future again making us having to redo this whole debacle...

On a more serious and somber note my aunt does indeed have cancer. We were privy to the details (we don't even know which biopsy came back with it really) and while the term "Early Stages" was floated we know next to nothing about it beyond that my aunt and uncle will be seeing a general practitioner Monday who will tell them more. So all we know is it's cancer and we know nothing. At the moment aunt is too sick/tired for use to visit them (not that that's surprising) so the visit is canceled for now.

Prayers and well wishes are welcome at this point, too drained and stressed to properly freak or panic as it is... just hit the "F*ck I'm Tired" plateau it seems...

Anyway thanks for reading and have a nice day.