man i wont sleep tonight im on my third monster and im going crazy but im fine physicly im drawing and talking and playing video games all night and will be here all night so lets party it up my style.

i may have not been making any new stuff or journals but im still on this site

ok so im working on a new art idea im doing its a digital one so it will take time but i can be done

i wont be on much for a wile because im extreamly sick

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eAJ_6ByEgeU&feature=related

just been rockin out and wanted to share some music http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6DvvyPcWOpA&feature=related

soon ill be doing a fan based idea i will be doing a meme on youtube now dont be shocked and suprised its just how i will do things right now soooo just to say shits goin doooooowwwwwwnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!

now im confused how do many artist digitaly adhance thier drawings i use paint.net but im wondering what the real artist use to do that leave a comment and ill check it out.

you cant break a man like a animal. modern men think that they are great they slowly think that their act of self defiance to prove them self better than everyone else its an act like a gorrila thumping his chest. its just when they finaly think that they are that a great all knowing powerfull bieng then thier fall will be slow and hard just like a skyscraper you give it an earthquake it shall come near to falling then just one simple push and its gone destroyed its own might killed itself. its not just easy to do iether a mind of a man is complex. mankind has always considered its choices justified like when a person ruins anothers life thats a way to justify oneself but if you can show a person what monster they are and how horrible thier actions are then show that you relish within doing so then you became thier personal monster but do not forget to have the muscle to back up the words or you find youself eating them for breakfast with a side of pain. man also thinks that you yourself is not important but the fundamental element of life is but its not its all about yourself and your family and assets. all these thing should be put into consideration upon any action because every action has a reaction basic know how teaches you so. you may not realize it but just taking and giving can give you friends or enemies. what doesnt kill you makes you stronger just like a word can spark a revolution so can a word start a war. word are the most powerful tool of man they can do many things that we cant do alone. we always need our allys to help. you may not realize it but we use others on a consistent bases to survive or to thrive in your own little system that circles around one being or object.

today is going to be sooooo stupid. ive had enough of this valintines shit in elementry i dont need to see it again. god its just repitition of the same shit every year do this do that get this be friendly dont fight dont hide go ask a girl out get rejected its just life for me

in my favorite game far cry two i wanted to show people why i think the main bad guy in the game is interesting http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cCJBOZC7XdQ

last night i had a viris hit my computer and take complete controll. to bad for it i have alot of system wipe and reinstall discs so now im back and my computer is totaly clean

the bigest argument and most time consumed one ever, is it ok to wear socks and sandles i have to say its a argoument thats as old as greece so you can guess its a heated discution i just wonder if its good or bad does it depend on what you look like. because i have worn then a couple times ive got some heat from friends but i shruged that off but i want to know more in what others have to say about it.

im afraid my left eye is geting worse i noticed ive lost alot of feeling in it not to mention that it has already been damaged suverly and has istigmatism so im going to go see the doctor to see whats rong im afraid ive lost some nerves in my eye if that true i might loose my left eye all together but its not good that i dont feel almost any pain in my eye.

its 5 in the morning and im jamin to AC DC and matalica and waiting for shit to happen so i have somthing to do until then ill just be jamin to the beats of AC DC

recently i wounder as i stare at the stars thinking what it would be like to be them going on an ever lasting course circlng around and traviling not knowing thier destination or thier fate but having bred true life and fueled diffrent generations of creatures and having its very inside boil up and purfusly erput seding the skys to darkness and turning ever asting light into a temporary darkness then light once again seeps through the crack and new life sprount from the ashes of the past only to help push forth thier own survival as one.

well i guess that want so bad a days suspension and all the art that made me famouse gone so its all good my mistake my problom. well im just chillin this morning litrily all the rooms in my house are geting heat exept mine im freezing in here and im ready to get goinn on my 6am bike ride i got a half an hour before i head out so i will be checking art out.

i know it might piss some people to hear this but i must admit it was my own doing in my trollish way i had tried to get revenge for somthing hapend but now im bieng reported im not to mad i can live with the consiquences set forth by the admins i know i might be banned permenently or tempereraly but i knew it would hapen the moment i read the persons mesage i am sorry to my fans i realy fucked up this time depending on what happens i will live with my disicion on my consence knowing that both me and arctixfawx probobly will always fight for stupid reasons but what ive done is done and what he did is done as well i will probobly be the only one facing the consequence for my actions but for me its just another day where shit happend and i got in trouble i dont enjoy being in trouble its just part of me i have bad luck realy bad self controll and i should try to do somthing about this i should have reported him first but no im a shit head who just has to get revenge it may taste sweet but the taste soon biters so now i wait for the consequence of my actions knowing it wont be good for sure and i will be the only one in trouble but im used to that so till i meet my consequence without interference i will be just hangin aroud and somthing ive been wanting to say for some time is that im not realy 21 im 14 and im proud im proud i admit my faulters and im proud i can do it without hesitation.
yours truly nate slomdexter

i will trolafy anyone who want to be trollafied just tell me and i will trollafy you or i can also shoop the woop you or even NEDM you its your choice

due to the sudden insane amout of favorites and watches and view i am going to show you my reaction to todays crazy fan attak in the best way i can http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T3n0vBcW5fc&feature=related

i had 320 views this morning its up to 380 so fast i cant belive it i want to thank fans and artist looking at my stuff i owe it all to you the poeple for my views and favorites so thank you!

ive had enough i will give 1 warning before i block someone for troll styled comments like "this meme is outdated" ya that doesnt change anything ok that a troll coment ok i dont need to hear that shit on my page and if i catch a person doing it twice i will block them

i got up and have been looking around at some of the cool art on FA so im just chillen and doin absolutly nothing.

soon as i scrough up the money im going to do some grafiti on some wood and make my furry character nate so that should be fun

whell i sit alone at 5:45am wondering why the hell am i up then i remember that i have to go biking at 6am so im on this for a wile in the morning then i will be on at late afternoon. why i call this the blues is because my recent failure haunts me deeply inside and destroys me slowly from the insde out i slowly dip into depresion not sure what to do now but all i know is i have to keep going in life.