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General | Posted 5 years agoWell as the title say.. figured what better way to make a new journal after long time here to say I watched my vehicle burn to ground on side of the highway.! What was supposed to be a day at home for weekend after working out if town all week resulted in hitting a deer and van instantly bursting in flames...
Was some of the most surreal shit I've seen watching your vehicle go up.. and knowing you had a bunch of tools and personal stuff in there as well. ironically not first time I had vehicle catch fire on me with me in it..
I think fire goddess is angry at me...
But am safe. Made it home thanks to cop giving us a ride to meet friend who took us home.
van is gone.. by time fire crews got on scene the fenders were melted off...
Was very surreal moment to say the least..
Was some of the most surreal shit I've seen watching your vehicle go up.. and knowing you had a bunch of tools and personal stuff in there as well. ironically not first time I had vehicle catch fire on me with me in it..
I think fire goddess is angry at me...
But am safe. Made it home thanks to cop giving us a ride to meet friend who took us home.
van is gone.. by time fire crews got on scene the fenders were melted off...
Was very surreal moment to say the least..
Maybe not so popular, but views none the less.
General | Posted 6 years agoI don’t normally share these kinds of posts, as some of the views are not always considered "acceptable" in today’s society.
In the recent couple years I’ve been noticing the growing amount of arguing and complaining going on online, and the lack of ability to accept difference of opinions or views. From what’s considered discrimination, disrespect to political. When did our world become so much of an entitlement society, where everyone is offended by every single thing that gets said and everything blown out of context.
This may get a bit long winded, so bear with me..
I do not usually share many of my thought or opinions online, especially on social media. For reasons as said not always most popular and best not start arguments.
I’ve struggled for a long time with various feeling on subjects, some I share closely with many yet shave very different views on. I guess I can start on the topic of the LGBT community, which I am a part of and have been a long time. Side of myself I had hid for a long time not wanting to be judged. Times have changed a lot form when I was growing up to what they are now and will continue. Yet I see young generations complaining more than ever about discrimination. Not that it is a bad thing, it is good to fight for equality. But at what cost do we decide that it may be in some ways doing more harm than good.
I see many younger people make comments of how bad things are for people of Gay, Bi, transgender and so on. How wrongly they are being treated. We loudly voice our opinions on the world that is trying to change but get upset cause it’s not “good enough”. We live I a society where people can openly express themselves. I drive across the city, walk through the stores and see couples of same sex walking holding hands, showing affection to eachother celebrating in the streets showing their pride. Nobody really batts an eye these days and when do its rare, especially when compared to how it was a few years before their generation. Being part of a bit older generation it wasn’t near as accepted and even still many of us that are older struggle with accepting things in public less easily as the younger generations.
Which also takes us the the recent elections.
I don’t really care for politics, but this year was one the first times I really took an interest in it and actually voted which takes us the equality in the LGBT community. Like many my friends and other alike I for fighting for equality, yet I wouldn’t dare share my political views with them cause it would get people arguing. While others were thinking of only equality and nothing else I thought of other aspects. Like economy which led me to stray away for other views.
But the point of this all is, is why do people’s different points of views always need to clash these days. Nobody seems to be able just accept difference of beliefs these days.
We live so much in a world where everyone things if it’s not same as my opinion it’s a bad opinion, and we are so quick to criticize others yet are no better at display ourselves.
Much like the recent discussions on the internet about remberance day as well.. So many people throwing around accusations about disrespect. From changing the supposed meaning of a symbol to disrespect if not wear it and various other subjects.
Disrespect takes many forms I think some people fail to realize. One the last things made a big deal of that I will focus on, that I’m sure with not be most popular with some people.
Lets begin with the the whole debate on the symbolism of the poppy. We all know what it symbolizes and represents and respect what it does and always will display. Honoring fallen and not fallen soldiers who gave sacrifice for the life with have today. Something I have a great respect for despite what anyone might try to say.
People like to throw about words about people showing disrespect for various things, from not thinking about a poppy as a symbol to immigrants or anyone for not wearing and screaming they disrespecting our soldiers..
Should it be displayed sure, is wearing it only way to show that honor and respect? No. I already know some will disagree with that. But fact is what one feels in your beliefs on the matter means more than wearing something.
Many people wear a poppy to show their support, all the power to them. Some of us don’t actively go out our way. While some people have no real care at all or barely understand why they should wear one, but wear one anyways just cause they think it’s the norm and they should. So what really is more disrespectful to people..
Personally to me not wearing one Vs wearing one just cause you think you should but not really care either way of the true symbolism of it. In my humble opinion the latter is much more disrespectful.
It is as I said one can show your support in various ways.
All of which leads things to me, I guess some this year probably looked at me and called out disrespect cause I never wore a poppy. Fine all power to you for your view as I respect it. You are fully entitled to that view. However also rember to not be so quick to judge.
A little about my family and it connection to military and war, if I go around enough within my family, from grandparents to relatives through blood and through marage, even ad friends into that mix I have have people with in my family that could be taken back to fighting in both world wars to Vietnam, even in Iraq.. many in my past family even fought against echother.
I have very deep respect of everything every one of them have gone through and done for us.
While I may not have worn a poppy this year, and like others you do not know what they may have been thinking on days of remberance..
Like a friend whom I may have only known online but came close to, died in Iraq. An Uncle I never knew but know through family in Vietnam, To a grandfather who served in WW2 no longer with us after batting cancer. Which can take one to things we do in life to show our respect in our own different way.
My grandfather’s 1998 Ford F150 xlt he had bought new, and rember to this day when he got it, still with its original cap that he got put on it right away. A truck now mine I have always felt fondness to in a weird way some may never understand, that will probably compel me to never sell it.. or to change too much. Right down to the two poppies still on the visor that have been there for over 20 years and will never be removed out of respect to him. Last two to be placed in that truck by my grandparents.
So before everyone judges people on what they do or don’t do. Focus on what’s important to you, and remember that everyone chooses to wear or respect and honor in defent way and does not make it any less important.
We live a world that is becoming more and more where everyone is offended by things. We do not take the time to look at the larger picture of life and focus so heavily on how something makes “us” feel we forget about others and how it affects them. We dwell on simple things rather than moving on, giving people who try to spread hate fuel to stoke the fire we all took part in starting. It takes both sides to extinguish a raging fire and losing your cool and stoking it cause you offended only makes it worse.
Instead limit the fuel, take things on a slower approach with more care and understanding. Things will be more likely to die down to a managble flame.
Too many forget to look at our own flaws in life before others. Our world has a lot to learn still and I understand many of the young generation are frustrated, but complaining about things solves nothing but doing something to change it does..
In the recent couple years I’ve been noticing the growing amount of arguing and complaining going on online, and the lack of ability to accept difference of opinions or views. From what’s considered discrimination, disrespect to political. When did our world become so much of an entitlement society, where everyone is offended by every single thing that gets said and everything blown out of context.
This may get a bit long winded, so bear with me..
I do not usually share many of my thought or opinions online, especially on social media. For reasons as said not always most popular and best not start arguments.
I’ve struggled for a long time with various feeling on subjects, some I share closely with many yet shave very different views on. I guess I can start on the topic of the LGBT community, which I am a part of and have been a long time. Side of myself I had hid for a long time not wanting to be judged. Times have changed a lot form when I was growing up to what they are now and will continue. Yet I see young generations complaining more than ever about discrimination. Not that it is a bad thing, it is good to fight for equality. But at what cost do we decide that it may be in some ways doing more harm than good.
I see many younger people make comments of how bad things are for people of Gay, Bi, transgender and so on. How wrongly they are being treated. We loudly voice our opinions on the world that is trying to change but get upset cause it’s not “good enough”. We live I a society where people can openly express themselves. I drive across the city, walk through the stores and see couples of same sex walking holding hands, showing affection to eachother celebrating in the streets showing their pride. Nobody really batts an eye these days and when do its rare, especially when compared to how it was a few years before their generation. Being part of a bit older generation it wasn’t near as accepted and even still many of us that are older struggle with accepting things in public less easily as the younger generations.
Which also takes us the the recent elections.
I don’t really care for politics, but this year was one the first times I really took an interest in it and actually voted which takes us the equality in the LGBT community. Like many my friends and other alike I for fighting for equality, yet I wouldn’t dare share my political views with them cause it would get people arguing. While others were thinking of only equality and nothing else I thought of other aspects. Like economy which led me to stray away for other views.
But the point of this all is, is why do people’s different points of views always need to clash these days. Nobody seems to be able just accept difference of beliefs these days.
We live so much in a world where everyone things if it’s not same as my opinion it’s a bad opinion, and we are so quick to criticize others yet are no better at display ourselves.
Much like the recent discussions on the internet about remberance day as well.. So many people throwing around accusations about disrespect. From changing the supposed meaning of a symbol to disrespect if not wear it and various other subjects.
Disrespect takes many forms I think some people fail to realize. One the last things made a big deal of that I will focus on, that I’m sure with not be most popular with some people.
Lets begin with the the whole debate on the symbolism of the poppy. We all know what it symbolizes and represents and respect what it does and always will display. Honoring fallen and not fallen soldiers who gave sacrifice for the life with have today. Something I have a great respect for despite what anyone might try to say.
People like to throw about words about people showing disrespect for various things, from not thinking about a poppy as a symbol to immigrants or anyone for not wearing and screaming they disrespecting our soldiers..
Should it be displayed sure, is wearing it only way to show that honor and respect? No. I already know some will disagree with that. But fact is what one feels in your beliefs on the matter means more than wearing something.
Many people wear a poppy to show their support, all the power to them. Some of us don’t actively go out our way. While some people have no real care at all or barely understand why they should wear one, but wear one anyways just cause they think it’s the norm and they should. So what really is more disrespectful to people..
Personally to me not wearing one Vs wearing one just cause you think you should but not really care either way of the true symbolism of it. In my humble opinion the latter is much more disrespectful.
It is as I said one can show your support in various ways.
All of which leads things to me, I guess some this year probably looked at me and called out disrespect cause I never wore a poppy. Fine all power to you for your view as I respect it. You are fully entitled to that view. However also rember to not be so quick to judge.
A little about my family and it connection to military and war, if I go around enough within my family, from grandparents to relatives through blood and through marage, even ad friends into that mix I have have people with in my family that could be taken back to fighting in both world wars to Vietnam, even in Iraq.. many in my past family even fought against echother.
I have very deep respect of everything every one of them have gone through and done for us.
While I may not have worn a poppy this year, and like others you do not know what they may have been thinking on days of remberance..
Like a friend whom I may have only known online but came close to, died in Iraq. An Uncle I never knew but know through family in Vietnam, To a grandfather who served in WW2 no longer with us after batting cancer. Which can take one to things we do in life to show our respect in our own different way.
My grandfather’s 1998 Ford F150 xlt he had bought new, and rember to this day when he got it, still with its original cap that he got put on it right away. A truck now mine I have always felt fondness to in a weird way some may never understand, that will probably compel me to never sell it.. or to change too much. Right down to the two poppies still on the visor that have been there for over 20 years and will never be removed out of respect to him. Last two to be placed in that truck by my grandparents.
So before everyone judges people on what they do or don’t do. Focus on what’s important to you, and remember that everyone chooses to wear or respect and honor in defent way and does not make it any less important.
We live a world that is becoming more and more where everyone is offended by things. We do not take the time to look at the larger picture of life and focus so heavily on how something makes “us” feel we forget about others and how it affects them. We dwell on simple things rather than moving on, giving people who try to spread hate fuel to stoke the fire we all took part in starting. It takes both sides to extinguish a raging fire and losing your cool and stoking it cause you offended only makes it worse.
Instead limit the fuel, take things on a slower approach with more care and understanding. Things will be more likely to die down to a managble flame.
Too many forget to look at our own flaws in life before others. Our world has a lot to learn still and I understand many of the young generation are frustrated, but complaining about things solves nothing but doing something to change it does..
contemplations of a bear..
General | Posted 6 years agoSoo.. maybe a bit of a rant, maybe just contemplation... As of late its rather hard to tell..
Life is one of them things we all struggle with, be it making a living and or fitting in. Something I seem to struggle with most my life.
Most of my life been spent questioning who I am, who i wanna be.. As i grow as a person in my journey through life my questioning of myself remains same, yet changes significantly..
I never understood where i fit in, or where to start. I've done many things in attempt to fit only to hurt others. Mainly myself, leaving permanat emotional scars... Things i wish on no one..
I've been told it made me stronger. Perhaps it has, but i don't feel as though.. I've pushed most in my life away in atempt to protect myself, in fear of being hurt like so many times..
Do i even know what trust is anymore? Some days i ask myself if i do.. I know answer is yes, but its hard for me to do so most days. Put trust in others to many times only to get hurt. For some its easy, others.. Another story all its own. But one thing for sure. Its easily broken for everyone.
I look at myself, and see a loner.. most days i rather just be left alone. Not cause i dont like others, but cause i have no clue how to fit in. Watching others it looks so easy. Yet so far from it.. What is it im doing wrong. Is it me? Am i not likeable? Im told i am by few frienda i have, yet i feel like i just annoy others and they only tolerate me. I've hid who i was for so long i dont even know myself anymore.
My mistrust and fear of being hurt has a way od isolating me. From the very people i wish to be a part of, and as i lay in bed at night i question as to why i feel so afraid to open myself up to others. Afraid it show how i truly feel.
Some days i wanna strangle the world, others just curl up in a ball and pretend im a cub pretending world just a dream. That ill wake up and it all be better. Yet i wake up, still feeling alone..
I still question my sexuality every day, trying to understand where i fit in it all.. I used to tell myself these feelings are not okay, but i now just accept them as they part of me and not going away. But do I classify myself as bisexual, or just gay or what.. i know we constantly learning about ourselves, and these day I classify as pansexual as i do not really see gender in most people and care mostly about ones personality.. Yet i find myself more and more attracted to same sex the more I accept my feelings.
Life can be so confusing, and full of unknows amoung the world around us as well our own world within our mind. Some days I look in the mirror and wonder what happend, what went wrong? Or had anything even gone wrong..
My childhood, not much i can say other than alot of pain. Dont get me wrong, it wasnt all bad. However most of it left alot of permanant emotional scars. Some days things that shouldnt make me feel like i wanna panic when shouldnt. Floods of memories I care for no one to endure, of rape and torture.. Getting beat to an inch of your life, and hiding in the bushes as you cry yourself to sleep.. Is that the normal? I'm told its not yet it's been such a long part of my past, that some days calm makes me feel uncomfortable. Like the calm before the storm you wait for the inevitable of the hurricane to rear its ugly head.
Im told life is what you make it, yet sounds easy if very much not. The struggle with our own emotions and memories all to easily holds us back. Why is it so hard to make the change, to risk feeling volnerable for the good of our emotional wellbeing.. Yet so easy to hide, protect abd distance ourselves from everything, including of which could keep us safe and emotionally secure..
Life is complex to say the least. Full if un knowns and betrayal But also full love and compassion.
As much as im leery of life and others. I've met so many wonderful caring people, whom have helped me to learn more of myself than I could have ever imagined on my own.
Those special friends are what keep me going. What keep me from causing harm to my wellbeing and for that I cant be any more greatful
Life is one of them things we all struggle with, be it making a living and or fitting in. Something I seem to struggle with most my life.
Most of my life been spent questioning who I am, who i wanna be.. As i grow as a person in my journey through life my questioning of myself remains same, yet changes significantly..
I never understood where i fit in, or where to start. I've done many things in attempt to fit only to hurt others. Mainly myself, leaving permanat emotional scars... Things i wish on no one..
I've been told it made me stronger. Perhaps it has, but i don't feel as though.. I've pushed most in my life away in atempt to protect myself, in fear of being hurt like so many times..
Do i even know what trust is anymore? Some days i ask myself if i do.. I know answer is yes, but its hard for me to do so most days. Put trust in others to many times only to get hurt. For some its easy, others.. Another story all its own. But one thing for sure. Its easily broken for everyone.
I look at myself, and see a loner.. most days i rather just be left alone. Not cause i dont like others, but cause i have no clue how to fit in. Watching others it looks so easy. Yet so far from it.. What is it im doing wrong. Is it me? Am i not likeable? Im told i am by few frienda i have, yet i feel like i just annoy others and they only tolerate me. I've hid who i was for so long i dont even know myself anymore.
My mistrust and fear of being hurt has a way od isolating me. From the very people i wish to be a part of, and as i lay in bed at night i question as to why i feel so afraid to open myself up to others. Afraid it show how i truly feel.
Some days i wanna strangle the world, others just curl up in a ball and pretend im a cub pretending world just a dream. That ill wake up and it all be better. Yet i wake up, still feeling alone..
I still question my sexuality every day, trying to understand where i fit in it all.. I used to tell myself these feelings are not okay, but i now just accept them as they part of me and not going away. But do I classify myself as bisexual, or just gay or what.. i know we constantly learning about ourselves, and these day I classify as pansexual as i do not really see gender in most people and care mostly about ones personality.. Yet i find myself more and more attracted to same sex the more I accept my feelings.
Life can be so confusing, and full of unknows amoung the world around us as well our own world within our mind. Some days I look in the mirror and wonder what happend, what went wrong? Or had anything even gone wrong..
My childhood, not much i can say other than alot of pain. Dont get me wrong, it wasnt all bad. However most of it left alot of permanant emotional scars. Some days things that shouldnt make me feel like i wanna panic when shouldnt. Floods of memories I care for no one to endure, of rape and torture.. Getting beat to an inch of your life, and hiding in the bushes as you cry yourself to sleep.. Is that the normal? I'm told its not yet it's been such a long part of my past, that some days calm makes me feel uncomfortable. Like the calm before the storm you wait for the inevitable of the hurricane to rear its ugly head.
Im told life is what you make it, yet sounds easy if very much not. The struggle with our own emotions and memories all to easily holds us back. Why is it so hard to make the change, to risk feeling volnerable for the good of our emotional wellbeing.. Yet so easy to hide, protect abd distance ourselves from everything, including of which could keep us safe and emotionally secure..
Life is complex to say the least. Full if un knowns and betrayal But also full love and compassion.
As much as im leery of life and others. I've met so many wonderful caring people, whom have helped me to learn more of myself than I could have ever imagined on my own.
Those special friends are what keep me going. What keep me from causing harm to my wellbeing and for that I cant be any more greatful
Update on life of a bear.
General | Posted 7 years agoI figured it was time for a new up date, this bear is alive and relatively well. My absence from here this past year or so has be more or less a matter of motivation and time.
I recently few month ago moved to the city with my for a little over a year now mate. This last year has been tough financially but manageable, but its been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. year has brought lot of ups and down in both my personal life as well among friends and others i thought were friends..
right now im at a stage in my life of deciding to focus on myself after trying to be part of a local community, which over the last few months not been going so well. In short my emotions have been all over the place, not been sleeping and stepping back I felt has been right choice before I really snap and hurt friends before i do more damage..
Between emotions, depression and constant feeling of aches and pains last while its been hard to stay positive but this bear is trying.
Some days its getting harder and harder to do simple tasks like even using wrenches without my paws giving me pain to point i can hardly hold the wrench and feeling like it wants to lock up and a knee thats been progressively getting worse. may be time to start asking my doctor, as im still young. taking pain meds for the pain almost every day is not a good thing to do..
On another sorta plus side I have an appointment coming up for mental assessment, to help me understand my own mind. and maybe get real answers or help understanding why my mind thinks way it do.. maybe first step in getting the help mentally i really need. Maybe address the vulnerable and emotionally overwhelmed side i rarely show to only very close people.
soo.. yeah mind going blank now latter from your friendly bear friend.
*hugs*
I recently few month ago moved to the city with my for a little over a year now mate. This last year has been tough financially but manageable, but its been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. year has brought lot of ups and down in both my personal life as well among friends and others i thought were friends..
right now im at a stage in my life of deciding to focus on myself after trying to be part of a local community, which over the last few months not been going so well. In short my emotions have been all over the place, not been sleeping and stepping back I felt has been right choice before I really snap and hurt friends before i do more damage..
Between emotions, depression and constant feeling of aches and pains last while its been hard to stay positive but this bear is trying.
Some days its getting harder and harder to do simple tasks like even using wrenches without my paws giving me pain to point i can hardly hold the wrench and feeling like it wants to lock up and a knee thats been progressively getting worse. may be time to start asking my doctor, as im still young. taking pain meds for the pain almost every day is not a good thing to do..
On another sorta plus side I have an appointment coming up for mental assessment, to help me understand my own mind. and maybe get real answers or help understanding why my mind thinks way it do.. maybe first step in getting the help mentally i really need. Maybe address the vulnerable and emotionally overwhelmed side i rarely show to only very close people.
soo.. yeah mind going blank now latter from your friendly bear friend.
*hugs*
Update on my life and a needing advice on anxiety attacks
General | Posted 8 years agoI apologize for my lack of activity on my page.
As of late,my life has been really challenging and stressful.
Trying to achieve life's basic needs ,like a steady job,a place of my own ,being more outgoing,and all of that jazz...
You see,I've been a recluse most of my life and i would rather not see myself as being like this in the future.
I like to thank a few of you fellow furries for accepting me for who i am and gave me support.
*hugs you all*
Well anyways, here's my question about my anxiety.
I recently attended a social event that had a little more attendees than i was comfortable with.
It was fun until I just got overwhelmed and i let my anxiety get the best of me.
To those of you on furaffinity who also attended this social event, i apologize for my alkward behavior .......
I lost sleep over this.
But I am glad that I was able to attend this event and i had fun up to this unfortunate accident.
So can you fellow furries give me any advice on dealing with this social anxiety thing?
I'm trying to conquer this and i let anxiety get in the way of my life for far too long!
As of late,my life has been really challenging and stressful.
Trying to achieve life's basic needs ,like a steady job,a place of my own ,being more outgoing,and all of that jazz...
You see,I've been a recluse most of my life and i would rather not see myself as being like this in the future.
I like to thank a few of you fellow furries for accepting me for who i am and gave me support.
*hugs you all*
Well anyways, here's my question about my anxiety.
I recently attended a social event that had a little more attendees than i was comfortable with.
It was fun until I just got overwhelmed and i let my anxiety get the best of me.
To those of you on furaffinity who also attended this social event, i apologize for my alkward behavior .......
I lost sleep over this.
But I am glad that I was able to attend this event and i had fun up to this unfortunate accident.
So can you fellow furries give me any advice on dealing with this social anxiety thing?
I'm trying to conquer this and i let anxiety get in the way of my life for far too long!
No Bears!
General | Posted 9 years agoI'm cranky cause I've yet to ever see a bear featured in the FA banner..
Discrimination i tell ya, discrimination!! There should be a bear up there 24/7....
And no stereotypical gay bear... No offence to anyone who is.. *rolles eyes*
A normal bear...
Also happy late new years everyone *rolles eyes*
Discrimination i tell ya, discrimination!! There should be a bear up there 24/7....
And no stereotypical gay bear... No offence to anyone who is.. *rolles eyes*
A normal bear...
Also happy late new years everyone *rolles eyes*
All bears unite! and dance
General | Posted 9 years agoLets celebrate bears and all unite to Dance!!!
https://youtu.be/8CnFo7qinng
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8CnFo7qinng
https://youtu.be/8CnFo7qinng
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8CnFo7qinng
tagged by one of them tagging things...
General | Posted 9 years agoThis bear named 
tagged me with this 100 questions.. oh goody goody gosh!!
................................
001. Real Name: Cole
002. Nickname[s]: Jason, Theo, Teddy, Grumpy.. few others I wint meantiin
004. Male Or Female: Male
005. Elementary: to many to list dont really rember names.
006. Middle School: same as above
007. High School: yorkton regional
008. Hair Color: brown with natuaral red highlights
009. Long Or Short: long
010. Loud or Quiet: both but mostly quiet
011. Sweats Or Jeans: both
012. Phone Or Camera: Both.
013. Health Freak: yes and no
014. Drink Or Smoke: don't do neither!
015. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: maybe
016. Political orientation: Have no idea what this means. ..
017. Piercings: no
018. Tattoos: no, but may consider
HAVE YOU EVER [BEEN IN]:
019. Airplane: yes
020. Car Accident: no
021. Fist fight : to many
FIRSTS:
022. First piercing:
023. First Best Friend: I thought it was that kid when we were kids
024. First Instrument Played: forget. And I probly sucked it anyways
025. First award: track and field, high jump
026. First Crush: can't remember. .....
027. First Language: English
028. First Big Vacation: Vancouver B.C. Canada
LASTS:
029. Last Person you talked to online or in real life: my mom and my other friend tyrone
030. Last Person you texted: my brother
031. Last Person You Watched: donno
032. Last Food You Ate: french fries
033. Last Movie You Watched: Norm of the north
034. Last Song You listened To: arctic shske from above.
035. Last Thing You Bought: transmission....
036. Last Person You Hugged: forget. Think it was Dave.
FAVES:
037. Food: stuff that taste good
038. Drinks: see above
039. Clothing: clothes?? t-shirts and dark clothing I guess.
040. Book: can't remember
041. Color: blue and black
042. Flower: im not sure. I have several hard to narrow
043: Music: a little of everying.
044. Movies: anything with bears
045. Shoes: cheap but functional, bit I like my sandals..
046. Subjects: donno, art I guess
IN THE PAST YEAR (2015) I ... :
"X" is for "yes"
047. [] Kissed in the rain.
048. [] Celebrated Halloween
049. [x] Had my heart broken.
050. [] Went over the minutes on my cell phone.
051. [X] Had someone question my sexual orientation.
052. [] Came out of the closet.
053. [] Got pregnant.
054. [] Had an abortion.
055. [X] Did something I regretted.
056. [X] Broke a promise.
057. [x] Kept a secret.
058. [X] Pretended to be happy.
059. [] Met someone who changed my life.
060. [X] Pretended to be sick.
061. [] Left the country.
062. [X] Tried something I normally wouldn't like, and liked it.
063. [X] Cried over the silliest thing.
064. [X] Ran a mile.
065. [X] Went to the beach.
066. [X] Stayed single.
CURRENTLY:
067. Eating: left over rice.
068. Drinking: ginger ale
069. Getting Ready To: havnt decided yet
070. Listening To: recording of sound of water/waves and fog horns in the background. What I find it calming
071. Plans For Tomorrow/Today: if it dries of enough from rain swath rest my barely down
YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want to have kids? Only with the right chick that I'll think I'll never find!
074. Want To Get Married: only with right furson whoever he or she may be.
075. Careers in mind: idk, have my whole life ahead of me.
WHICH IS BETTER ON BOY/GIRL :
076. Lips Or Eyes: Eyes
077. Shorter Or Taller: dont really matter
078. Romantic Or Spontaneous: both
079. Nice Stomach Or Nice Arms: depends on person
080. Sensitive Or Loud: a mixture of both
081. Hookup Or Relationship: relationship on my terms!
082. Troublemaker Or Hesitant: hesitant (better safe than sorry! )
HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost Glasses/Contacts: no
084. Ran Away From Home: more than once.
085. Held A Weapon: more than one
087. Broken Someone's Heart: plenty I guess. ..
088. Been Mistaken for the Opposite Gender: no
.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself: I try to
091. Miracles: every day is a miracle
092. Love At First Sight: we'll get back to you on that!
093. Heaven: Im mixed but for most part yes
094. Santa Claus: the real man behind the story not the made up version.
095. There was spose ta be sumpthin here.... who cares!
096. Magic: I a wonderful thing.. I dunno had to say something
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is There One Person You Wanna Be With, Right Now: ..... maybe.....
098. Are you seriously happy where you are in life: No.. not even close.
099. Do You Believe In God: yes and no. I believe in life
100: whst was this one again.. wont tag anyone....
tagged me with this 100 questions.. oh goody goody gosh!!................................
001. Real Name: Cole
002. Nickname[s]: Jason, Theo, Teddy, Grumpy.. few others I wint meantiin
004. Male Or Female: Male
005. Elementary: to many to list dont really rember names.
006. Middle School: same as above
007. High School: yorkton regional
008. Hair Color: brown with natuaral red highlights
009. Long Or Short: long
010. Loud or Quiet: both but mostly quiet
011. Sweats Or Jeans: both
012. Phone Or Camera: Both.
013. Health Freak: yes and no
014. Drink Or Smoke: don't do neither!
015. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: maybe
016. Political orientation: Have no idea what this means. ..
017. Piercings: no
018. Tattoos: no, but may consider
HAVE YOU EVER [BEEN IN]:
019. Airplane: yes
020. Car Accident: no
021. Fist fight : to many
FIRSTS:
022. First piercing:
023. First Best Friend: I thought it was that kid when we were kids
024. First Instrument Played: forget. And I probly sucked it anyways
025. First award: track and field, high jump
026. First Crush: can't remember. .....
027. First Language: English
028. First Big Vacation: Vancouver B.C. Canada
LASTS:
029. Last Person you talked to online or in real life: my mom and my other friend tyrone
030. Last Person you texted: my brother
031. Last Person You Watched: donno
032. Last Food You Ate: french fries
033. Last Movie You Watched: Norm of the north
034. Last Song You listened To: arctic shske from above.
035. Last Thing You Bought: transmission....
036. Last Person You Hugged: forget. Think it was Dave.
FAVES:
037. Food: stuff that taste good
038. Drinks: see above
039. Clothing: clothes?? t-shirts and dark clothing I guess.
040. Book: can't remember
041. Color: blue and black
042. Flower: im not sure. I have several hard to narrow
043: Music: a little of everying.
044. Movies: anything with bears
045. Shoes: cheap but functional, bit I like my sandals..
046. Subjects: donno, art I guess
IN THE PAST YEAR (2015) I ... :
"X" is for "yes"
047. [] Kissed in the rain.
048. [] Celebrated Halloween
049. [x] Had my heart broken.
050. [] Went over the minutes on my cell phone.
051. [X] Had someone question my sexual orientation.
052. [] Came out of the closet.
053. [] Got pregnant.
054. [] Had an abortion.
055. [X] Did something I regretted.
056. [X] Broke a promise.
057. [x] Kept a secret.
058. [X] Pretended to be happy.
059. [] Met someone who changed my life.
060. [X] Pretended to be sick.
061. [] Left the country.
062. [X] Tried something I normally wouldn't like, and liked it.
063. [X] Cried over the silliest thing.
064. [X] Ran a mile.
065. [X] Went to the beach.
066. [X] Stayed single.
CURRENTLY:
067. Eating: left over rice.
068. Drinking: ginger ale
069. Getting Ready To: havnt decided yet
070. Listening To: recording of sound of water/waves and fog horns in the background. What I find it calming
071. Plans For Tomorrow/Today: if it dries of enough from rain swath rest my barely down
YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want to have kids? Only with the right chick that I'll think I'll never find!
074. Want To Get Married: only with right furson whoever he or she may be.
075. Careers in mind: idk, have my whole life ahead of me.
WHICH IS BETTER ON BOY/GIRL :
076. Lips Or Eyes: Eyes
077. Shorter Or Taller: dont really matter
078. Romantic Or Spontaneous: both
079. Nice Stomach Or Nice Arms: depends on person
080. Sensitive Or Loud: a mixture of both
081. Hookup Or Relationship: relationship on my terms!
082. Troublemaker Or Hesitant: hesitant (better safe than sorry! )
HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost Glasses/Contacts: no
084. Ran Away From Home: more than once.
085. Held A Weapon: more than one
087. Broken Someone's Heart: plenty I guess. ..
088. Been Mistaken for the Opposite Gender: no
.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself: I try to
091. Miracles: every day is a miracle
092. Love At First Sight: we'll get back to you on that!
093. Heaven: Im mixed but for most part yes
094. Santa Claus: the real man behind the story not the made up version.
095. There was spose ta be sumpthin here.... who cares!
096. Magic: I a wonderful thing.. I dunno had to say something
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is There One Person You Wanna Be With, Right Now: ..... maybe.....
098. Are you seriously happy where you are in life: No.. not even close.
099. Do You Believe In God: yes and no. I believe in life
100: whst was this one again.. wont tag anyone....
Happy Canada Day!
General | Posted 9 years agoHappy Canada Day!
yeap its July 1st already.. and i forgot it was today.. i loos track of the days sometimes..
but i know now so..
to all my fellow Canadians and non happy Canada Day celebrations..
now ill go smack myself for dicking around yesterday and not calling the auto recycles for an axle for the truck cause everyplace closed today...
now i have to wait till tuesday cause ill be out of town on monday for work..
yeap its July 1st already.. and i forgot it was today.. i loos track of the days sometimes..
but i know now so..
to all my fellow Canadians and non happy Canada Day celebrations..
now ill go smack myself for dicking around yesterday and not calling the auto recycles for an axle for the truck cause everyplace closed today...
now i have to wait till tuesday cause ill be out of town on monday for work..
Places to find me TMI thursday , and other randome stuff!..
General | Posted 9 years agoYeah i noticed everyone else is doing the where else to find me thing.. im not a member many other places..
but i can be found at these places and if i make accounts else where ill probaly update this..
DeviantArt: ColeJa
Facebook: ColeJAbe
Twitter: ColeJBear
Skype: Colejabe
Also I was late for the TMI tuesday thing so ill do a TMI thursday?... yeah i donno whatever.. ask away the questions if you like
just none to weird if it can be avoided. well i guess you can. ill just decice if i want to answer them when the time comes or ill give an answer that dont really answer. lol!
Also for the random, this bear is not amused.. well its not to bad a job but i tell you why is it that you can get a vehicle with no leaks and when you get it it starts leaking?.. well i did take things apart..
Recently took over possession of my Grandfathers truck, it never had a leak ever on it but the torque converter was bad. so i dropped the transmission to change the converter, even though i take the percussion of putting a new seal in.. nope.. wasnt good enough.
i tell you that transmission was the most pain in the ass to drop of any i ever dropped, but all went well.. no leaks for a week, other than the output shaft seal on the transfercase. no biggy.. got that fixed and transmission was good for a whole month, bone dry so i stopped checking trans fluid every time.. then on a trip to town RPMs started showing funny on highway. WTF but it seemed fine afterwards didnt feel like it was slipping.... got home parked it, next day its fin goes in gear take off then it suddenly disengages out of reverse and drive for a second then slaps in,, thinking what the hell. check trans oil and dipstick bone dry. DAMIT.!!.. find oil is seems fin but the leak was slow.. now its getting worse and i cant drive more than 20 min and it almost empty... NO!! i dont wana pull that thing off again... this time as a percussion i got all new seals and gasket for Trans pump... even new bushing.. if it leaks again after that ill be one very unamused bear...
On a brighter note got done seeding on the farm.. YAY!!
no i have time to fix everything else..
Anyone out there thats won the lotto wiling to share with me? just kidding.....
but really you welcome to share...
also after much convincing form a friend, decided im gona try and work on my social skills. im to much a loner... yes i admit i need to get out more. *rubs shoulder* yeah i keep to myself to much. wouldnt say its a bad thing but its not really a good thing either..
its to easy for me to go into loner mode.. i need to work on not doing that... hopefully...
ANYWAY!! back to my TMI Tues.. err.. Thursday err i mean late Tuesday.. oh whatever!! just ask any questions if you want...
but i can be found at these places and if i make accounts else where ill probaly update this..
DeviantArt: ColeJa
Facebook: ColeJAbe
Twitter: ColeJBear
Skype: Colejabe
Also I was late for the TMI tuesday thing so ill do a TMI thursday?... yeah i donno whatever.. ask away the questions if you like
just none to weird if it can be avoided. well i guess you can. ill just decice if i want to answer them when the time comes or ill give an answer that dont really answer. lol!
Also for the random, this bear is not amused.. well its not to bad a job but i tell you why is it that you can get a vehicle with no leaks and when you get it it starts leaking?.. well i did take things apart..
Recently took over possession of my Grandfathers truck, it never had a leak ever on it but the torque converter was bad. so i dropped the transmission to change the converter, even though i take the percussion of putting a new seal in.. nope.. wasnt good enough.
i tell you that transmission was the most pain in the ass to drop of any i ever dropped, but all went well.. no leaks for a week, other than the output shaft seal on the transfercase. no biggy.. got that fixed and transmission was good for a whole month, bone dry so i stopped checking trans fluid every time.. then on a trip to town RPMs started showing funny on highway. WTF but it seemed fine afterwards didnt feel like it was slipping.... got home parked it, next day its fin goes in gear take off then it suddenly disengages out of reverse and drive for a second then slaps in,, thinking what the hell. check trans oil and dipstick bone dry. DAMIT.!!.. find oil is seems fin but the leak was slow.. now its getting worse and i cant drive more than 20 min and it almost empty... NO!! i dont wana pull that thing off again... this time as a percussion i got all new seals and gasket for Trans pump... even new bushing.. if it leaks again after that ill be one very unamused bear...
On a brighter note got done seeding on the farm.. YAY!!
no i have time to fix everything else..
Anyone out there thats won the lotto wiling to share with me? just kidding.....
but really you welcome to share...
also after much convincing form a friend, decided im gona try and work on my social skills. im to much a loner... yes i admit i need to get out more. *rubs shoulder* yeah i keep to myself to much. wouldnt say its a bad thing but its not really a good thing either..
its to easy for me to go into loner mode.. i need to work on not doing that... hopefully...
ANYWAY!! back to my TMI Tues.. err.. Thursday err i mean late Tuesday.. oh whatever!! just ask any questions if you want...
My Thoughts to everyone in Fort McMurray Alberta
General | Posted 9 years agoIm sure many already have seen and heard about the fires up in northern Alberta Canada by now.
Anyways my thoughts and prayers go out to everyone up in Fort McMurray...
https://youtu.be/aC2iPvXAggM
Anyways my thoughts and prayers go out to everyone up in Fort McMurray...
https://youtu.be/aC2iPvXAggM
New journal? a little music and ask me question if you like.
General | Posted 10 years agoyeah like the title say, a new journal, i haven't made a new on in a long time and really the other one was just weird, almost as if it wasn't me talking, yeah i wonder why that was.
Anyway!! so here is a new one, and really i have no idea what to write as honestly im not very good with words. really all im really doing right now is sitting here listen to some music and getting lost in melody drawing an absolute blank as to what i should put here. maybe i should post what im listening to to make this journal less boring??
right now im listening to
In Stereo by Gateway Drugs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kClYLbkUsBQ
Sun In Your Eyes by Gatway Drugs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Dh2rApikFA
Los Angels by The Midnight
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P7GxB9pEzZQ
Your Dark Brown Eyes by Roald Velden
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdkR41tORFo
Lean On feat. MØ by Major Lazer & DJ Snake
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YqeW9_5kURI
yeah okay enough music..
~~~~~~~~
also if anyone likes they can ask me any questions they can think of. i see a lot of others doing that inkida thing on her, so what ever you wanna know and ill try to give an answer.
im sure there are many here that would like to know things about me, or maybe not and you just wondering what up with this weird bear..
anyway just ask away whatever you like.
just no weird ones.. =/
Anyway!! so here is a new one, and really i have no idea what to write as honestly im not very good with words. really all im really doing right now is sitting here listen to some music and getting lost in melody drawing an absolute blank as to what i should put here. maybe i should post what im listening to to make this journal less boring??
right now im listening to
In Stereo by Gateway Drugs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kClYLbkUsBQ
Sun In Your Eyes by Gatway Drugs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Dh2rApikFA
Los Angels by The Midnight
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P7GxB9pEzZQ
Your Dark Brown Eyes by Roald Velden
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdkR41tORFo
Lean On feat. MØ by Major Lazer & DJ Snake
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YqeW9_5kURI
yeah okay enough music..
~~~~~~~~
also if anyone likes they can ask me any questions they can think of. i see a lot of others doing that inkida thing on her, so what ever you wanna know and ill try to give an answer.
im sure there are many here that would like to know things about me, or maybe not and you just wondering what up with this weird bear..
anyway just ask away whatever you like.
just no weird ones.. =/
Another journal
General | Posted 10 years agoWell I'm scared of things as usual!
There's another bear on fa ,that totally terrifies me!
idk why he terrifies me? He's older than me by about 12 years!
I'm this magnificent Kodak brown bear but coward away like a bear cub whenever this short and mean black bear comes around! Speaking of coming around. I'm glad that me and this black bear has over 1,500 miles between us! But he says iffin he wins tha Texas lottery, he's ah'gunna gat in his Toyota Previa and comes after me! But I'm think I'm safe since he doesn't waste a dime on trying to win the lottery. He has some money. But he says "iffin you're no flea market or sume kinda hifi stereo gadget, et's no worth mah tyme!"
well...... that's all i got to say for now!
There's another bear on fa ,that totally terrifies me!
idk why he terrifies me? He's older than me by about 12 years!
I'm this magnificent Kodak brown bear but coward away like a bear cub whenever this short and mean black bear comes around! Speaking of coming around. I'm glad that me and this black bear has over 1,500 miles between us! But he says iffin he wins tha Texas lottery, he's ah'gunna gat in his Toyota Previa and comes after me! But I'm think I'm safe since he doesn't waste a dime on trying to win the lottery. He has some money. But he says "iffin you're no flea market or sume kinda hifi stereo gadget, et's no worth mah tyme!"
well...... that's all i got to say for now!
New year with a new journal.....
General | Posted 11 years agoNew journal for the year and to freshen up the page.. Maybe..... I donno... This bear is drawing a blank as to what to write.. I'm board, and its winter! I should be hibernating!!... Yet I am not.... Sadly.. Instead I'm just sitting here with the winter blues, waiting for another 4 months to pass and be summer again.. Summer.. So nice and warm, but hopefully not like last summer... Which was cool and felt like a cool spring the entire time.. We had warmer temps in the Fall than we did though summer.!!. What was up with that.?!.. Oh well.... Winter.. Just a season that is to long compared to the rest, making you long for the other seasons and enjoy them more... Also makes for a good time to spend more time indoors in the warmth listening to good tunes by a cozy fire.. :-D
Enjoy the music everyone..
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
Solarstone feat. Clare Stagg - The Spell (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/yPLUw7q0e74
Aes Dana - Aftermath 05
http://youtu.be/Y2b3lJOPl1Q
Aes Dana - Aftermath 03
http://youtu.be/pPIFRNSNF2E
Empire Of The Sun - We Are The People (FlicFlac Remix)
http://youtu.be/Zwxb-bOZKTI
Aes Dana - Haze (Celestial Mix)
http://youtu.be/LaOmhGSHDg0
Arty - Logic Symphony (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/9bgzWlIDyg0
Axwell - In My Mind
http://youtu.be/8RuEsQx0NbE
MacRamsey - Palm Beach (Musty Remix)
http://youtu.be/QOUGXkutlAw
Reflekt - Need To Feel Loved (Adam K & Soha Vocal Mix)
http://youtu.be/OsJSwGc4lsA
Andy Moor feat. Jessica Sweetman - In Your Arms (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/GKBTy1KBiQ8
Daga - Happiness Is A Choice (Jayeson Andel Remix)
http://youtu.be/cI_wC8iljrQ
Mykleby - I Flew Away (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/xna2AMUFSR4
Mykleby - Gaia (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/9N8aJfySZi0
DGM - Aura (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/9spTwTmf7B4
Alex H - Right In The Feels (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/miJ-nUmgHss
Enjoy the music everyone..
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
Solarstone feat. Clare Stagg - The Spell (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/yPLUw7q0e74
Aes Dana - Aftermath 05
http://youtu.be/Y2b3lJOPl1Q
Aes Dana - Aftermath 03
http://youtu.be/pPIFRNSNF2E
Empire Of The Sun - We Are The People (FlicFlac Remix)
http://youtu.be/Zwxb-bOZKTI
Aes Dana - Haze (Celestial Mix)
http://youtu.be/LaOmhGSHDg0
Arty - Logic Symphony (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/9bgzWlIDyg0
Axwell - In My Mind
http://youtu.be/8RuEsQx0NbE
MacRamsey - Palm Beach (Musty Remix)
http://youtu.be/QOUGXkutlAw
Reflekt - Need To Feel Loved (Adam K & Soha Vocal Mix)
http://youtu.be/OsJSwGc4lsA
Andy Moor feat. Jessica Sweetman - In Your Arms (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/GKBTy1KBiQ8
Daga - Happiness Is A Choice (Jayeson Andel Remix)
http://youtu.be/cI_wC8iljrQ
Mykleby - I Flew Away (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/xna2AMUFSR4
Mykleby - Gaia (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/9N8aJfySZi0
DGM - Aura (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/9spTwTmf7B4
Alex H - Right In The Feels (Original Mix)
http://youtu.be/miJ-nUmgHss
How things change.
General | Posted 11 years agoWell i thought it was time for a new journal, other was getting old. . and now to the point..
First off. Something i just realized i been here for almost 4 years now and it sure dont feel like it. But i can be happy to say the time i spent here has helped me in my life a lot, in that meeting some really good people and a couple in particular that have helped me greatly.. To a point i wonder if i would still be here if not for them. They helped me change a lot, although i still got a lot more change i need to to make to be free of my past. Mostly.....
A big accomplishment for me is i not felt suicidal in just a little over a year now. And is thanks to two that helped me realize life worth living and always there when i need to talk, and need a kick in the butt cause im not completely there yet.
They helped me me learn to accept and like who i am..
Anyway to wrap up my rambling, i just wanna say thanks to the ones that have been kind to me. And especially to those who chose to be some of my best and only friends i really ever had.. *HUGS* Soo. Thanks..
Now it time to focus on myself and my own life, now that i feel like i actually belong and deserve to to be in the world....
_______________________________________________________________________________________________
Here is just some random music, rather varied but something for everyone i guess..
Find Yourself - Brad Paisley
http://youtu.be/47ijszjjzDs
Here I Am - Bryan Adams
http://youtu.be/zAMllDA9glg
Mad World - Tears For Fears
http://youtu.be/SFsHSHE-iJQ
Midnight City - M83
http://youtu.be/dX3k_QDnzHE
Push The Limits - Enigma
http://youtu.be/k1ktapNmi-s
Adiemus - Karl Jenkins
http://youtu.be/0PpbYJyWBMU
Cathar Rhythm - Era
http://youtu.be/obUqLOme52k
Misere Mani - Era
http://youtu.be/BgpXMA_M98o
Lady of the Lake - Diane & David Arkenstone
http://youtu.be/Ix3JO08eXq8
On My Way - Phil Collins
http://youtu.be/8o8nZ_dZOC0
Acquiring Satellites - David Arkenstone
http://youtu.be/13eoMZ72HvI
And since we all Furries.. I like how it feels
http://youtu.be/qcFybw4mSOk
First off. Something i just realized i been here for almost 4 years now and it sure dont feel like it. But i can be happy to say the time i spent here has helped me in my life a lot, in that meeting some really good people and a couple in particular that have helped me greatly.. To a point i wonder if i would still be here if not for them. They helped me change a lot, although i still got a lot more change i need to to make to be free of my past. Mostly.....
A big accomplishment for me is i not felt suicidal in just a little over a year now. And is thanks to two that helped me realize life worth living and always there when i need to talk, and need a kick in the butt cause im not completely there yet.
They helped me me learn to accept and like who i am..
Anyway to wrap up my rambling, i just wanna say thanks to the ones that have been kind to me. And especially to those who chose to be some of my best and only friends i really ever had.. *HUGS* Soo. Thanks..
Now it time to focus on myself and my own life, now that i feel like i actually belong and deserve to to be in the world....
_______________________________________________________________________________________________
Here is just some random music, rather varied but something for everyone i guess..
Find Yourself - Brad Paisley
http://youtu.be/47ijszjjzDs
Here I Am - Bryan Adams
http://youtu.be/zAMllDA9glg
Mad World - Tears For Fears
http://youtu.be/SFsHSHE-iJQ
Midnight City - M83
http://youtu.be/dX3k_QDnzHE
Push The Limits - Enigma
http://youtu.be/k1ktapNmi-s
Adiemus - Karl Jenkins
http://youtu.be/0PpbYJyWBMU
Cathar Rhythm - Era
http://youtu.be/obUqLOme52k
Misere Mani - Era
http://youtu.be/BgpXMA_M98o
Lady of the Lake - Diane & David Arkenstone
http://youtu.be/Ix3JO08eXq8
On My Way - Phil Collins
http://youtu.be/8o8nZ_dZOC0
Acquiring Satellites - David Arkenstone
http://youtu.be/13eoMZ72HvI
And since we all Furries.. I like how it feels
http://youtu.be/qcFybw4mSOk
music to enjoy..
General | Posted 11 years agoI just like these songs...
And my life very much relates to them.. kinda....
anyways, enjoy them everyone..
http://youtu.be/xLYiIBCN9ec
http://youtu.be/ysSxxIqKNN0
And my life very much relates to them.. kinda....
anyways, enjoy them everyone..
http://youtu.be/xLYiIBCN9ec
http://youtu.be/ysSxxIqKNN0
A bit about me
General | Posted 12 years agoI got this from 
tavimunk from a journal he did on DA..
although im not a baby fur or anything I can still answer all but one...
So here goes.. and hope you all are able to get to know me better.
What's your fur name and how did you come up with it?
My fur name in full form is Jason Nicholas Bear, but in short I just always use Jason Bear or Jason.
I cam up with it cause my middle name is Jason and my first name, Cole. is derived from the Nicholas and of course my fursona is a bear
What's your favorite color?
My fave color is dark Blue, but I also really like dark Reds and black.. although i really like all dark colors as well
What was your favorite subject in school?
My two fave subjects in school was Art first and Electronics
What kind of music are you into?
Well im not really into anything in particular, but i love everything from rock,pop, new age, classical, techno\trance, ambient\instrumental and alot more
However I tend to lean towards ambient\instrumental and 80s rock\pop
How did you get into the furry fandom?
Well always was a furry you could say ever since i was a kid, even though at the time I didnt know what the fandom was then or what even being a furry way back then was.. But but i got aware of it and into the fandom around 2005 but had not became active in it till around 2010
How did you choose your fursona?
Mostly cause of my love of bears, but growing up i had alot of nicknames that were associated with bears, like Grumpy bear, teddy, growly bear.. etc.. As well one of my favorite cartoons TaleSpin had an influence as well, and as some may know my fursona does have a lot of similarities to Kit CloudKicker
What was the first age you remember liking diapers?
Not being a babyfur, this question dont apply to me and cant answer.. However i can say that, as i was told i had the tendency to always try to take my diaper off as a kid and run around the house nakie..
What do you do for fun?
For fun I do a number of things, and one could say Im a bear of simple pleasures.. I love outdoors and being outside and love to just watch the skies and the stars and especially the Northern Lights when i have the chance to catch them, and its not to cold a night. I also very much enjoy just watching animals as well going to the lake and watching the water and the waves. The sound of water puts me very much at ease..
I dont really like sports much at all, but i do however have an interest in automotive racing type sports, and i particularly love to watch rally racing when i get the chance..
I also really like photography and like to go for walks and such and take photos and stuff..
What are some things that make you really happy?
First and foremost my friends are what really make me happy, as they are the ones that truly seem to understand me. Also doing heartfelt things for those i really care about and knowing its well appreciated also really makes me happy and makes me feel like im cared for, and being able to just be myself and letting my goofy playful and calm side out also makes me really happy
What are some things that make you really sad?
There are a lot of things that make me sad, in fact i cant even begin to say them all hear as i would probably end up writing a novel. but i can say that seeing other, especially my friends and others of whom i care a lot about sad or hurting.. Seeing others in just general bad situations makes me sad as well.. but there are a lot more things in my life that make me sad as well.
What are some things that scare you?
I dont really have to many physical fears, but i do however have a lot of mental and emotional fears like becoming my father for example
Do you like to plan things out in detail or be spontaneous?
A bit of both depending on the situation.. some things i really plan out in detail, and cant think strait while doing it if i dont have it planed out.. while other things im very random and spontaneous and sometimes confuse people with my randomness sometimes..
What was your life like growing up?
this will probly be a bit long.. but here goes
My life growing up was a rather traumatic experience for me, and pushed me to develop a lot of physiological issues as well some physical..
Growing up my father was extremely abusive, and when i was about 5 years old, I fell off the top of a grain bin trying to hide from him during a drunken rage of his and suffer severe brain trauma. All of which led to me being in a coma for a couple moths the spending most of my early childhood years till i was almost 7 years old in hospital and in recovery till about the age of 9 around the age of 9, i wanted badly to go to normal school as up untill then i was home schooled, cause i wanted to feel like a normal kid and make freinds. However it did not go as i though it would and because at the time my speech was still a little off for my age and my sense of coordination was off as well i got really teased a lot, however i did make one friend, Megan and she became one of the best friends i had ever had. but half way through my first year in normal school things went down hil for me when a few older kids grabbed me in the locker room, took my pants and tied me to the flag pole in fron of the school pretty much naked except for my t-shirt minutes before the school bell rang and the whole school came out, leading to me attempting suicide and leading to my long history of suicide attempts and stays in mental facilities. Also growing up I also got sexually abused and molested by my father from the time i was about 5 till i was about 10 as well, which added to much of my issues... my first of two times being in a mental facility happened when i was about 11..12 years old, and i was rather forced to go to the place and spent over a year in the place, almost 2 and half of that time i spent it completely emotionless. after getting out thereg got somewhat normal till i got involed in gang related stuff trying to fit in which got me in trouble with he law and getting a juvenile record and then latter on my family moved again for the.. 5th time and things got somewhat more normal but my father remained abusive towards me, my brother and my mom till this day..
Hope i not bore everyone with that little life story..
Will you ever grow up or always be young at mind?
I have grown up as a person, however i will always remain young at heart and forever be like a big kid.. mostly cause of being deprived of being one, and being able to be one when i was one..
Who in your life has influenced you the most? How did they do it?
I can say my mom being one, as if not for her constantly pushing me to do my best it keep trying i would not had recovered as well and as fast as i did.. My friend Megan who was always there for me no matter what others though of me or of her for being my friend.. and as well two of my best friends in the world have influenced me a lot in the last few years and yous know who you are..
What embarrasses you?
Im actually really not sure, there are a few things but it really comes down to my mood, and how its said..
Who's your best / closest friend?
Growing up and up till only a few years ago it was Megan.. she was my closes friend since i was 9 years old up untill a year ago when we lost touch after she moved. she knew everything about me, even my furry side, in fact i think she knew me better than i knew myself, and she never judged me once..
Now however it would be two people that i have met through the furry fandom that have came to be my best and closest friends, both of which live nearly, or more than 2000 miles from me i want to see more an anything in the world..
Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
Im an introvert.. i love to be around others, epecially those i care for.. but i also very much need alone time and have a strong need to be able to reflect on my thoughts and emotions, and while i can tolerate... i dont like large crowds of people... but thats not to say i dont like to be around people as i very much like to be..
Are you proud to be who you are and do you have any regrets?
For the most part, yes i am..
tavimunk from a journal he did on DA.. although im not a baby fur or anything I can still answer all but one...
So here goes.. and hope you all are able to get to know me better.
What's your fur name and how did you come up with it?
My fur name in full form is Jason Nicholas Bear, but in short I just always use Jason Bear or Jason.
I cam up with it cause my middle name is Jason and my first name, Cole. is derived from the Nicholas and of course my fursona is a bear
What's your favorite color?
My fave color is dark Blue, but I also really like dark Reds and black.. although i really like all dark colors as well
What was your favorite subject in school?
My two fave subjects in school was Art first and Electronics
What kind of music are you into?
Well im not really into anything in particular, but i love everything from rock,pop, new age, classical, techno\trance, ambient\instrumental and alot more
However I tend to lean towards ambient\instrumental and 80s rock\pop
How did you get into the furry fandom?
Well always was a furry you could say ever since i was a kid, even though at the time I didnt know what the fandom was then or what even being a furry way back then was.. But but i got aware of it and into the fandom around 2005 but had not became active in it till around 2010
How did you choose your fursona?
Mostly cause of my love of bears, but growing up i had alot of nicknames that were associated with bears, like Grumpy bear, teddy, growly bear.. etc.. As well one of my favorite cartoons TaleSpin had an influence as well, and as some may know my fursona does have a lot of similarities to Kit CloudKicker
What was the first age you remember liking diapers?
Not being a babyfur, this question dont apply to me and cant answer.. However i can say that, as i was told i had the tendency to always try to take my diaper off as a kid and run around the house nakie..
What do you do for fun?
For fun I do a number of things, and one could say Im a bear of simple pleasures.. I love outdoors and being outside and love to just watch the skies and the stars and especially the Northern Lights when i have the chance to catch them, and its not to cold a night. I also very much enjoy just watching animals as well going to the lake and watching the water and the waves. The sound of water puts me very much at ease..
I dont really like sports much at all, but i do however have an interest in automotive racing type sports, and i particularly love to watch rally racing when i get the chance..
I also really like photography and like to go for walks and such and take photos and stuff..
What are some things that make you really happy?
First and foremost my friends are what really make me happy, as they are the ones that truly seem to understand me. Also doing heartfelt things for those i really care about and knowing its well appreciated also really makes me happy and makes me feel like im cared for, and being able to just be myself and letting my goofy playful and calm side out also makes me really happy
What are some things that make you really sad?
There are a lot of things that make me sad, in fact i cant even begin to say them all hear as i would probably end up writing a novel. but i can say that seeing other, especially my friends and others of whom i care a lot about sad or hurting.. Seeing others in just general bad situations makes me sad as well.. but there are a lot more things in my life that make me sad as well.
What are some things that scare you?
I dont really have to many physical fears, but i do however have a lot of mental and emotional fears like becoming my father for example
Do you like to plan things out in detail or be spontaneous?
A bit of both depending on the situation.. some things i really plan out in detail, and cant think strait while doing it if i dont have it planed out.. while other things im very random and spontaneous and sometimes confuse people with my randomness sometimes..
What was your life like growing up?
this will probly be a bit long.. but here goes
My life growing up was a rather traumatic experience for me, and pushed me to develop a lot of physiological issues as well some physical..
Growing up my father was extremely abusive, and when i was about 5 years old, I fell off the top of a grain bin trying to hide from him during a drunken rage of his and suffer severe brain trauma. All of which led to me being in a coma for a couple moths the spending most of my early childhood years till i was almost 7 years old in hospital and in recovery till about the age of 9 around the age of 9, i wanted badly to go to normal school as up untill then i was home schooled, cause i wanted to feel like a normal kid and make freinds. However it did not go as i though it would and because at the time my speech was still a little off for my age and my sense of coordination was off as well i got really teased a lot, however i did make one friend, Megan and she became one of the best friends i had ever had. but half way through my first year in normal school things went down hil for me when a few older kids grabbed me in the locker room, took my pants and tied me to the flag pole in fron of the school pretty much naked except for my t-shirt minutes before the school bell rang and the whole school came out, leading to me attempting suicide and leading to my long history of suicide attempts and stays in mental facilities. Also growing up I also got sexually abused and molested by my father from the time i was about 5 till i was about 10 as well, which added to much of my issues... my first of two times being in a mental facility happened when i was about 11..12 years old, and i was rather forced to go to the place and spent over a year in the place, almost 2 and half of that time i spent it completely emotionless. after getting out thereg got somewhat normal till i got involed in gang related stuff trying to fit in which got me in trouble with he law and getting a juvenile record and then latter on my family moved again for the.. 5th time and things got somewhat more normal but my father remained abusive towards me, my brother and my mom till this day..
Hope i not bore everyone with that little life story..
Will you ever grow up or always be young at mind?
I have grown up as a person, however i will always remain young at heart and forever be like a big kid.. mostly cause of being deprived of being one, and being able to be one when i was one..
Who in your life has influenced you the most? How did they do it?
I can say my mom being one, as if not for her constantly pushing me to do my best it keep trying i would not had recovered as well and as fast as i did.. My friend Megan who was always there for me no matter what others though of me or of her for being my friend.. and as well two of my best friends in the world have influenced me a lot in the last few years and yous know who you are..
What embarrasses you?
Im actually really not sure, there are a few things but it really comes down to my mood, and how its said..
Who's your best / closest friend?
Growing up and up till only a few years ago it was Megan.. she was my closes friend since i was 9 years old up untill a year ago when we lost touch after she moved. she knew everything about me, even my furry side, in fact i think she knew me better than i knew myself, and she never judged me once..
Now however it would be two people that i have met through the furry fandom that have came to be my best and closest friends, both of which live nearly, or more than 2000 miles from me i want to see more an anything in the world..
Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
Im an introvert.. i love to be around others, epecially those i care for.. but i also very much need alone time and have a strong need to be able to reflect on my thoughts and emotions, and while i can tolerate... i dont like large crowds of people... but thats not to say i dont like to be around people as i very much like to be..
Are you proud to be who you are and do you have any regrets?
For the most part, yes i am..
Just a little bit of stuff to say..
General | Posted 13 years agoWe all know that life changes and happens in ways we dont always want.. somethings cut us so deep we never completely heal, while others makes us so happy it makes us cry... While other things just leave us confused and not knowing what to think...
We all have our secrets that even our best friends will never fully understand, as its up to us to let them know the real meaning behind it...
In the next little while i will be posting a picture.. a colored version of a previously posted line art, of my furnona as a cub.... Not sure when.. it depends when I finish it.. The drawing has a special meaning to me, one I hold very dear yet leaves me quite confused.
Depending how things go it may be the last thing I submit for a while, I dont really know yet.. so I will say now that the picture will be kinda dedicated to everyone in their life and those simpler times, especially those of you I hold dear to me..
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Here are a few quotes that may or may not make you think about life...
Words that in a way, made me think of a very good friend.... and you know who yous are...
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.
- Unknown
things you probably never knew or thought about....
At least five people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
At least fifteen people in this world love you in some way.
The only reason anyones would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.
You mean the world to someone.
If not for you, someone may not be living.
You are special and unique.
Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
Always remember the compliments you recieved. Forget the rude remarks.
Always tell soemone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.
Never give up on anybody;miracles happen everyday.
Be brave even if your not, pretend to be. No one can tell the difference.
Think big thoughts, relish small pleasures.
Learn to listen. Opportunity sometimes knocks very softly.
Never deprive someone of hope, it might be all they have.
Strive for excellence, not perfection.
Don't waste time grieving over past mistakes. Learn from them and move on.
Don't expect life to be fair.
Remember:Success comes to the one that acts first.
Laugh a lot.A good sense of humor cures almost all of life's ills.
Don't miss the magic of the moment by focusing on whats to come.
Watch for big problems. They disguise big opportunities.
Never cut what can be untied.
Remember that nobody makes it alone. Have a grateful heart and be quick to acknowledge those who help you.
Never underestimate the power of a kind word or deed.
Never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them.
When someone hugs you let them be the first to let go.
- Unknown
We all have our secrets that even our best friends will never fully understand, as its up to us to let them know the real meaning behind it...
In the next little while i will be posting a picture.. a colored version of a previously posted line art, of my furnona as a cub.... Not sure when.. it depends when I finish it.. The drawing has a special meaning to me, one I hold very dear yet leaves me quite confused.
Depending how things go it may be the last thing I submit for a while, I dont really know yet.. so I will say now that the picture will be kinda dedicated to everyone in their life and those simpler times, especially those of you I hold dear to me..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Here are a few quotes that may or may not make you think about life...
Words that in a way, made me think of a very good friend.... and you know who yous are...
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.
- Unknown
things you probably never knew or thought about....
At least five people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
At least fifteen people in this world love you in some way.
The only reason anyones would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.
You mean the world to someone.
If not for you, someone may not be living.
You are special and unique.
Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
Always remember the compliments you recieved. Forget the rude remarks.
Always tell soemone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.
Never give up on anybody;miracles happen everyday.
Be brave even if your not, pretend to be. No one can tell the difference.
Think big thoughts, relish small pleasures.
Learn to listen. Opportunity sometimes knocks very softly.
Never deprive someone of hope, it might be all they have.
Strive for excellence, not perfection.
Don't waste time grieving over past mistakes. Learn from them and move on.
Don't expect life to be fair.
Remember:Success comes to the one that acts first.
Laugh a lot.A good sense of humor cures almost all of life's ills.
Don't miss the magic of the moment by focusing on whats to come.
Watch for big problems. They disguise big opportunities.
Never cut what can be untied.
Remember that nobody makes it alone. Have a grateful heart and be quick to acknowledge those who help you.
Never underestimate the power of a kind word or deed.
Never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them.
When someone hugs you let them be the first to let go.
- Unknown
Yes or No
General | Posted 13 years agoA little something i got from someone over on DA
it passes time and the new journal lets people know im still alive..
Very important Rules:
1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No .
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks.
3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!
Feel free to ask me anything after reading...
Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? --- No
Been arrested? --- Yes
Kissed someone you didn't like? --- Yes
Slept in until 5 PM? --- No
Fallen asleep at work/school? --- Yes
Ran a red light? --- Yes
Been suspended from school? --- Yes
Experienced love at first sight? --- Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? --- No
Been fired from a job? --- Yes
Fired somebody? --- No
Sang karaoke? --- Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? --- Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? --- Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? --- Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? --- Yes
Kissed in the rain? --- Yes
Had a close brush with death? --- Yes
Seen someone die? --- Yes
Played spin-the-bottle? --- No
Sang in the shower? --- Yes
Sat on a rooftop? --- Yes
Taken pictures of yourself naked? --- Yes.....
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? --- Yes
Skipped school? --- Yes
Eaten a bug? --- Yes
Sleepwalked? --- Yes
Walked a moonlit beach?--- No
Ridden a motorcycle? --- Yes
Dumped someone? --- No
Forgotten your anniversary? --- No
Lied to avoid a ticket? --- No
Ridden on a helicopter? --- Yes
Shaved your head? --- Yes
Blacked out from drinking? --- No
Played a prank on someone? --- Yes
Hit a home run? --- No
Felt like killing someone? --- Yes
Cross-dressed? --- No
Been falling-down drunk? --- No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? --- Yes
Eaten a snake? --- No
Marched/Protested? --- No
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? --- No
Puked on amusement ride? --- Yes
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? --- No
Been in a band? --- No
Knitted? --- No
Been on TV? --- Yes
Shot a gun? --- Yes
Skinny-dipped? --- Yes.!...
Caused someone to need stitches? --- Yes
Ridden a surfboard? --- No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? --- No
Had surgery? --- Yes
Streaked? --- No
Taken by ambulance to hospital? --- Yes
Passed out when not drinking? --- Yes
Peed on a bush? ---Yes
Donated Blood? --- No
Grabbed electric fence? --- Yes
Eaten alligator meat? --- No
Eaten cheesecake? --- Yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? --- Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? --- Yes
Peed your pants in public? --- Yes
Written graffiti? --- No
Still love someone you shouldn't? --- Yes
Think about the future? --- Yes
Been in handcuffs? --- Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? --- Yes
Believe in love? --- Yes
it passes time and the new journal lets people know im still alive..
Very important Rules:
1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No .
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks.
3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!
Feel free to ask me anything after reading...
Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? --- No
Been arrested? --- Yes
Kissed someone you didn't like? --- Yes
Slept in until 5 PM? --- No
Fallen asleep at work/school? --- Yes
Ran a red light? --- Yes
Been suspended from school? --- Yes
Experienced love at first sight? --- Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? --- No
Been fired from a job? --- Yes
Fired somebody? --- No
Sang karaoke? --- Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? --- Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? --- Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? --- Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? --- Yes
Kissed in the rain? --- Yes
Had a close brush with death? --- Yes
Seen someone die? --- Yes
Played spin-the-bottle? --- No
Sang in the shower? --- Yes
Sat on a rooftop? --- Yes
Taken pictures of yourself naked? --- Yes.....
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? --- Yes
Skipped school? --- Yes
Eaten a bug? --- Yes
Sleepwalked? --- Yes
Walked a moonlit beach?--- No
Ridden a motorcycle? --- Yes
Dumped someone? --- No
Forgotten your anniversary? --- No
Lied to avoid a ticket? --- No
Ridden on a helicopter? --- Yes
Shaved your head? --- Yes
Blacked out from drinking? --- No
Played a prank on someone? --- Yes
Hit a home run? --- No
Felt like killing someone? --- Yes
Cross-dressed? --- No
Been falling-down drunk? --- No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? --- Yes
Eaten a snake? --- No
Marched/Protested? --- No
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? --- No
Puked on amusement ride? --- Yes
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? --- No
Been in a band? --- No
Knitted? --- No
Been on TV? --- Yes
Shot a gun? --- Yes
Skinny-dipped? --- Yes.!...
Caused someone to need stitches? --- Yes
Ridden a surfboard? --- No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? --- No
Had surgery? --- Yes
Streaked? --- No
Taken by ambulance to hospital? --- Yes
Passed out when not drinking? --- Yes
Peed on a bush? ---Yes
Donated Blood? --- No
Grabbed electric fence? --- Yes
Eaten alligator meat? --- No
Eaten cheesecake? --- Yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? --- Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? --- Yes
Peed your pants in public? --- Yes
Written graffiti? --- No
Still love someone you shouldn't? --- Yes
Think about the future? --- Yes
Been in handcuffs? --- Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? --- Yes
Believe in love? --- Yes
Why do people do things?!!..
General | Posted 13 years agoI guess im just blowing off steam here.... but i cant stand the things some of the people do... i just went for a drive last night to see more trees ripped out... it all you ever see out here.. and im sick of it!!!...... Its always the really big farmers.. they come in buy up all the land, and push all us small farmes out, and then they bring the bulldozers in... rip out 20 acres of trees, and then only farm 4 acres of what they cleared cause they cant farm the rest cause its under water.... im sick of it, everything about what makes it nice out here where i live is being destroyed.. im sick of seeing piles of dirt and logs everyplace!!!
this last time just really set me off cause they tres that got cleared i had just been back in them a few weeks ago... and those trees had kinda held a special place for me as a kid.... there wasa little tree house back there that i always spent a lot of time in as a kid... and now all of it is gone!!!.. not one tree left.. even the tree house, well what was left of it is gone..... and the thing the pisses me most is its down in a low spot where the water sits so they will never be able to even farm it.. so it will get left for the tres to just slowly grow back which will take like 20 years to come back like it used to be!!.....
this last time just really set me off cause they tres that got cleared i had just been back in them a few weeks ago... and those trees had kinda held a special place for me as a kid.... there wasa little tree house back there that i always spent a lot of time in as a kid... and now all of it is gone!!!.. not one tree left.. even the tree house, well what was left of it is gone..... and the thing the pisses me most is its down in a low spot where the water sits so they will never be able to even farm it.. so it will get left for the tres to just slowly grow back which will take like 20 years to come back like it used to be!!.....
Snow.?.... This time of year?!....
General | Posted 13 years agoI couldn't believe it when i woke up this morning.. i thought that breeze coming through my window feel a little chilly all night, and i woke up this morning to everything covered in an inch and a half thick blanket of white... it supose to be warm this time of year, what up with all this miserable weather...!!
We not suppose to be seeing this!!... http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8049314/
at least it did kinda look nice though.......
We not suppose to be seeing this!!... http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8049314/
at least it did kinda look nice though.......
Some random stuff...
General | Posted 13 years agoWell first of all.... I am tired as hell and could sleep for 3 days strait..... Been so much to do around here I barely have any energy left..... I need a very long vacation from my life.. Something permanent.... On a side note my hand is really healing nice all that left is the scar obviously... But it really hurts though...... I guess I been using it to much....... At least seeing how it gonna be raining for the next couple days I will have a bit of a rest....
Secondly.... I'm just doing this randomly to get my mind off other things.. Another long meme that will probably help others get to know me who don't...
I got from
chipmunkfan19
52 Secrets About Yourself
Be HONEST no matter what.
1. What is your natural hair color?
Born brown, then turned blond, then brown again when I was about 4
2. Where was your ID pic taken?
Well since I don't have one, no idea....
3. What's your middle name?
Jason
4. Your current relationship status?
Single....
5. Honestly, does your crush like you back?
Heck if I know..
6. What is your current mood?
Depressed and lonely....
7. What's the color of your underwear?
Well since I'm not wearing any, I will say they invisible..
8. What is one thing that makes you happy?
Being able to talk to my friends
9.Who was the last person you cuddled with?
Can't remember
10. If you could go back in time, and change something what would it be?
There are lots of thing I would like to, but at the same time I don't. Cause otherwise my life may have been much different and may have never met and know some of the really special friends I do...
11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day?
Bear
12. Ever had a near death experience?
Never kept track, but I will say about 10 or so...
13. Something you do a lot?
Think about my friends... Some more than others..
14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
I can't remember the name, but it an instrumental song..
15. Who did you copy and paste this from?
Look up top!..
16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
I don't know anyone.. But
fredvegerano's is 1 month after mine soo.. It close....
17. When was the last time you cried?
The day before yesterday..
18. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
No!....
19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
Telekinesis because that is sorta like the ultimate superpower
20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Eyes
Sorry number 21 went is on vacation
22. What's your biggest secret?
Something only a couple people know, something that has haunted me since I was 5 years old...
23. What's your favorite color?
Blue and Black
24. When was the last time you lied?
Today....
25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
Yes!
27. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Dr. Pepper
28. What's your favorite smell?
I have to many to pick one....
29. If you could describe life in one word what would it be?
Complicated
30. When was the last time you gave/received a hug?
in person I forget, but online through words a few minutes ago.
31. Have you ever been kissed in the rain?
I was kissed in the snow... Does that count...
32. What are you thinking about right now?
This thing.... My friends, and how I wish I could visit them....
33. What should you be doing?
I don't know, maybe trying to find something to eat....
34. What was the last thing that made you upset?
I care not mention it here...
35. Do you like working in the yard?
Yes....
36. If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
I don't know... I guess I'm just happy with the one I have..
37. Name 5 things in your closet:
I don't have a closet... Just a dresser
38. Do you act different around your crush?
Kinda, but only cause I get nervous..
39. When was the last time you slept with a stuffed animal?
Last night... I have 12 on my bed...
40. How many times do you take a shower a week?
Depends on week, but in the rang of.. 1 to 3
41. Do you brush your teeth everyday?
No.... And I really should more than I do....
42. Have you ever said something stupid in front of your crush?
I say something stupid in front of anyone...
43. Have you ever watched a hockey game?
Once......
44. Do you lie about your age?
No!...
45. Ever been jealous about something stupid?
Everyone has
46. Do you pick your nose today?
No......
47. What's the one food you hate?
Don't know
48. What's the one junk food you cant live without?
Anything that tasty...
49. How old were you when you found out Santa was fake?
A long long time ago when I was very young... I will guess around 6 or 7
50. Do you smoke?
No
51. Describe your favorite underwear you have?
My favorite undies are the invisible kind.... I like to feel free and airy!!...
52. Did you lie in any of these questions?
You will probably never know.....
Secondly.... I'm just doing this randomly to get my mind off other things.. Another long meme that will probably help others get to know me who don't...
I got from
chipmunkfan1952 Secrets About Yourself
Be HONEST no matter what.
1. What is your natural hair color?
Born brown, then turned blond, then brown again when I was about 4
2. Where was your ID pic taken?
Well since I don't have one, no idea....
3. What's your middle name?
Jason
4. Your current relationship status?
Single....
5. Honestly, does your crush like you back?
Heck if I know..
6. What is your current mood?
Depressed and lonely....
7. What's the color of your underwear?
Well since I'm not wearing any, I will say they invisible..
8. What is one thing that makes you happy?
Being able to talk to my friends
9.Who was the last person you cuddled with?
Can't remember
10. If you could go back in time, and change something what would it be?
There are lots of thing I would like to, but at the same time I don't. Cause otherwise my life may have been much different and may have never met and know some of the really special friends I do...
11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day?
Bear
12. Ever had a near death experience?
Never kept track, but I will say about 10 or so...
13. Something you do a lot?
Think about my friends... Some more than others..
14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
I can't remember the name, but it an instrumental song..
15. Who did you copy and paste this from?
Look up top!..
16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
I don't know anyone.. But
fredvegerano's is 1 month after mine soo.. It close....17. When was the last time you cried?
The day before yesterday..
18. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
No!....
19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
Telekinesis because that is sorta like the ultimate superpower
20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Eyes
Sorry number 21 went is on vacation
22. What's your biggest secret?
Something only a couple people know, something that has haunted me since I was 5 years old...
23. What's your favorite color?
Blue and Black
24. When was the last time you lied?
Today....
25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
Yes!
27. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Dr. Pepper
28. What's your favorite smell?
I have to many to pick one....
29. If you could describe life in one word what would it be?
Complicated
30. When was the last time you gave/received a hug?
in person I forget, but online through words a few minutes ago.
31. Have you ever been kissed in the rain?
I was kissed in the snow... Does that count...
32. What are you thinking about right now?
This thing.... My friends, and how I wish I could visit them....
33. What should you be doing?
I don't know, maybe trying to find something to eat....
34. What was the last thing that made you upset?
I care not mention it here...
35. Do you like working in the yard?
Yes....
36. If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
I don't know... I guess I'm just happy with the one I have..
37. Name 5 things in your closet:
I don't have a closet... Just a dresser
38. Do you act different around your crush?
Kinda, but only cause I get nervous..
39. When was the last time you slept with a stuffed animal?
Last night... I have 12 on my bed...
40. How many times do you take a shower a week?
Depends on week, but in the rang of.. 1 to 3
41. Do you brush your teeth everyday?
No.... And I really should more than I do....
42. Have you ever said something stupid in front of your crush?
I say something stupid in front of anyone...
43. Have you ever watched a hockey game?
Once......
44. Do you lie about your age?
No!...
45. Ever been jealous about something stupid?
Everyone has
46. Do you pick your nose today?
No......
47. What's the one food you hate?
Don't know
48. What's the one junk food you cant live without?
Anything that tasty...
49. How old were you when you found out Santa was fake?
A long long time ago when I was very young... I will guess around 6 or 7
50. Do you smoke?
No
51. Describe your favorite underwear you have?
My favorite undies are the invisible kind.... I like to feel free and airy!!...
52. Did you lie in any of these questions?
You will probably never know.....
Just somthing to relpace that older really long one..
General | Posted 13 years agoYeah.. the old one was long and kinda messed my profile page up..
guess in this one i will just say im relatively aright.. just really annoyed with not being able to use my hand.. for those who know nothing of it, i cut my hand on some glass really deep a couple weeks ago and cut a tendon... which i had to get repaired... stitched back together and i been wearing a splint soo i cant bend my hand for the last couple weeks... hopefully i will get it off by the 9th......
also one of my cats is now at peace in the back yard... she seemed a little odd the othe day, and for the first time in 2 years she came and followed me to bed and around 2 am yesterday morning i watched her pass away..... we had found her as a stray 8 years ago and she was a fair age then, soo she was a fairly old cat...
also a while ago i was thought to be at risk of being pre diabetic, which i found out now that i am..... soo.. yeah.. i guess things could be worse though..
anyways.. yeah.. take care everyone..
guess in this one i will just say im relatively aright.. just really annoyed with not being able to use my hand.. for those who know nothing of it, i cut my hand on some glass really deep a couple weeks ago and cut a tendon... which i had to get repaired... stitched back together and i been wearing a splint soo i cant bend my hand for the last couple weeks... hopefully i will get it off by the 9th......
also one of my cats is now at peace in the back yard... she seemed a little odd the othe day, and for the first time in 2 years she came and followed me to bed and around 2 am yesterday morning i watched her pass away..... we had found her as a stray 8 years ago and she was a fair age then, soo she was a fairly old cat...
also a while ago i was thought to be at risk of being pre diabetic, which i found out now that i am..... soo.. yeah.. i guess things could be worse though..
anyways.. yeah.. take care everyone..
Just a random meme, to help everyone get to know me..
General | Posted 13 years agoWe've all seen what you can do, now let's see what makes you tick :) Answer the following questions (honestly!) and share with the world who you really are.
READY? GO!
1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? What's your name?
Cole, but sometimes i get called Grumpy or Growly Bear..
2. How tall are you?
I'm about 6 feet..
3. Natural hair color? (if you can remember it)
Brown
3. What about eye color?
Green..
But been told it sometimes shifts to a slight grey-green when i get really mad..
4. What orientation are you?
Bisexual.. but i only let it out online, and very few people i know in person know... well only one to be exact..
but i still prefer a female partner more though...
5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Single
6. What do you do in your spare time?
Draw, read, write sometimes, take photos, chat with my online friends, watch movies, listen to music... munch on something good to eat..
7. What's your job?
I farm... Raise sheep to be exact..
But also have the odd job here and there to help pay bills, but they never last... i always get let go either do to them finding out about my past with my social and mental issues.. or someone pushes my buttons in a really bad way and i snap.....
8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
I can be very tolerant of others and their views. i try to accept everyone for who they are and their beliefs, just so long as they do so to me. im very open minded..
I can be very loyal and when needed to be I try to be there for my friends, even when it ends up getting me hurt sometimes... Also my sensitive side that often shows when someone i care about is in a bad situation or need comforting...
9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
My temper and anger problems are the main ones....
And while i like my sensitive side, i also very much dislike it as well.. cause often I am over sensitive and and emotional, and get hurt really easily by things most other don't.. or while watching T.V. or just thinking to my self..... Something will set me off and i get really teary sometimes, and can be really a bit awkward at times..
As well i very much dislike most of my child hood, as i grew up in a not so good environment.. which cause me to have some very messed up ways of thinking....
And i wish i could learn easier like others.... while people tell me im smart, even the simple things that most grasp right away can be a real challenge for me...
10. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
Really shy at first but i open up once i get to know you, yet still not i big talker...... but once i do i tend to not shut up and ramble your ear off... i also tend to get really excited easily sometimes, and when i do i get my words all jumbled up and kinda stutter.. cause i think faster than i can speak.. And I have long shoulder length curly hair...
GOOD! HOLD ON, YER COMING UP ON SOME DEEPER QUESTIONS NOW... READY?
11. Of what faith/religion are you (if any at all?)
Well as far as religion my Father is Catholic and my Mom Pentecostal.. but i my self or my family does not follow anything particularly..., but i consider my self as just Christian, but my knowledge of the Bible is quite limited...
12. Do you drink?
No.. only the odd small on during a special event, but i can honestly say i can count on one hand how many i have had in my entire life of 25 years...
I hate drinking with a passion and would not care if i disappeared completely from the planet... The shit stole away and destroyed my childhood, leaving me nothing but heartache and pain..
13. Do you smoke?
No...
14. What are your fears?
Becoming my father... and loosing those i care about
15. What are your dreams/goals?
To find my peace in this world... Find that special somone who makes my feel complete, and to become a father and try my best to be the best father i can.... Give them everything i never had with mine, the things every child should have...
16. Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
Crush yes.. on two of my best friends..
Ex's yes...... the one.. she just used me... and the other.. he was a sick pervert..
ALMOST DONE!!! TIME FOR SOME LIGHTER TOPICS NOW :D
17. Who's your best bud?
Megan... i have know her for 16 years...
And i cant forget Freddy!! fredvegerano even though i only know you online you are like my own brother..
and there Tyrone too..
thetyronelectric
18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
Chocolate... and coconut.. and a Dr. Pepper..
19. Favorite drink?
hmm.. i donno.. well i really like Dr. Pepper.. and cranberry juice..
20. Favorite color?
Black and Dark blue
21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Telekinesis
22. Favorite movie?
Well.. my all time fave is The Chipmunk Adventure.. but i love many others as well like An American Tail, Kung Fu Panda, Land Before Time, The Lion King.......
23. Least favorite food?
Dont know..
24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
Last meal!... i cant decide.... grabs everything i love and pigs out......
25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
Well currently i drive an '83 Mustang GT Hatchback.. with a slightly modded 302 V8 putting out about 190 HP and 280 Torque, into 5 speed manual transmission from an '88 mustange..
LAST 5 QUESTIONS. YOU'RE IN THE HOMESTRETCH, COME ON, YOU CAN MAKE IT! LET'S SEE WHAT GETS UNDER YOUR SKIN.
26. Most disliked bug?
Spiders and Ants.. im not horrified and afraid of them.. just dont like them..
27. Most hated pet peeves?
To many to list....
28. Dislike in life?
Many many things...... mostly how society portrays things and stereotypes others...
29. Most annoying?
Certain noises...... some things drive me up the wall... people who act like they know everything but have no idea what the hell they are doing.. and the list could go on forever..
30. Most disliked TV show?
Most reality shows.... shows like family guy, and overly violent shows....
READY? GO!
1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? What's your name?
Cole, but sometimes i get called Grumpy or Growly Bear..
2. How tall are you?
I'm about 6 feet..
3. Natural hair color? (if you can remember it)
Brown
3. What about eye color?
Green..
But been told it sometimes shifts to a slight grey-green when i get really mad..
4. What orientation are you?
Bisexual.. but i only let it out online, and very few people i know in person know... well only one to be exact..
but i still prefer a female partner more though...
5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Single
6. What do you do in your spare time?
Draw, read, write sometimes, take photos, chat with my online friends, watch movies, listen to music... munch on something good to eat..
7. What's your job?
I farm... Raise sheep to be exact..
But also have the odd job here and there to help pay bills, but they never last... i always get let go either do to them finding out about my past with my social and mental issues.. or someone pushes my buttons in a really bad way and i snap.....
8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
I can be very tolerant of others and their views. i try to accept everyone for who they are and their beliefs, just so long as they do so to me. im very open minded..
I can be very loyal and when needed to be I try to be there for my friends, even when it ends up getting me hurt sometimes... Also my sensitive side that often shows when someone i care about is in a bad situation or need comforting...
9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
My temper and anger problems are the main ones....
And while i like my sensitive side, i also very much dislike it as well.. cause often I am over sensitive and and emotional, and get hurt really easily by things most other don't.. or while watching T.V. or just thinking to my self..... Something will set me off and i get really teary sometimes, and can be really a bit awkward at times..
As well i very much dislike most of my child hood, as i grew up in a not so good environment.. which cause me to have some very messed up ways of thinking....
And i wish i could learn easier like others.... while people tell me im smart, even the simple things that most grasp right away can be a real challenge for me...
10. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
Really shy at first but i open up once i get to know you, yet still not i big talker...... but once i do i tend to not shut up and ramble your ear off... i also tend to get really excited easily sometimes, and when i do i get my words all jumbled up and kinda stutter.. cause i think faster than i can speak.. And I have long shoulder length curly hair...
GOOD! HOLD ON, YER COMING UP ON SOME DEEPER QUESTIONS NOW... READY?
11. Of what faith/religion are you (if any at all?)
Well as far as religion my Father is Catholic and my Mom Pentecostal.. but i my self or my family does not follow anything particularly..., but i consider my self as just Christian, but my knowledge of the Bible is quite limited...
12. Do you drink?
No.. only the odd small on during a special event, but i can honestly say i can count on one hand how many i have had in my entire life of 25 years...
I hate drinking with a passion and would not care if i disappeared completely from the planet... The shit stole away and destroyed my childhood, leaving me nothing but heartache and pain..
13. Do you smoke?
No...
14. What are your fears?
Becoming my father... and loosing those i care about
15. What are your dreams/goals?
To find my peace in this world... Find that special somone who makes my feel complete, and to become a father and try my best to be the best father i can.... Give them everything i never had with mine, the things every child should have...
16. Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
Crush yes.. on two of my best friends..
Ex's yes...... the one.. she just used me... and the other.. he was a sick pervert..
ALMOST DONE!!! TIME FOR SOME LIGHTER TOPICS NOW :D
17. Who's your best bud?
Megan... i have know her for 16 years...
And i cant forget Freddy!!
fredvegerano even though i only know you online you are like my own brother..and there Tyrone too..
thetyronelectric18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
Chocolate... and coconut.. and a Dr. Pepper..
19. Favorite drink?
hmm.. i donno.. well i really like Dr. Pepper.. and cranberry juice..
20. Favorite color?
Black and Dark blue
21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Telekinesis
22. Favorite movie?
Well.. my all time fave is The Chipmunk Adventure.. but i love many others as well like An American Tail, Kung Fu Panda, Land Before Time, The Lion King.......
23. Least favorite food?
Dont know..
24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
Last meal!... i cant decide.... grabs everything i love and pigs out......
25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
Well currently i drive an '83 Mustang GT Hatchback.. with a slightly modded 302 V8 putting out about 190 HP and 280 Torque, into 5 speed manual transmission from an '88 mustange..
LAST 5 QUESTIONS. YOU'RE IN THE HOMESTRETCH, COME ON, YOU CAN MAKE IT! LET'S SEE WHAT GETS UNDER YOUR SKIN.
26. Most disliked bug?
Spiders and Ants.. im not horrified and afraid of them.. just dont like them..
27. Most hated pet peeves?
To many to list....
28. Dislike in life?
Many many things...... mostly how society portrays things and stereotypes others...
29. Most annoying?
Certain noises...... some things drive me up the wall... people who act like they know everything but have no idea what the hell they are doing.. and the list could go on forever..
30. Most disliked TV show?
Most reality shows.... shows like family guy, and overly violent shows....
To a great friend and artist!!
General | Posted 14 years agorecently fredvegerano closed his account on DA.. yesterday.... For those who knew him, you know how kind he was to everyone, always had kind words of encouragement for others art, and how great an artist he was with his heart warming pictures and comics..
As well how great a friend he was to everyone!
I found out what he was doing though a note he sent me saying it was his last note to me, and about an hour latter he closed his account....
Found out this morning that it was due to his account being hacked..... And the business that his mom and him had was closed.. As well he is also having problems with his vision and other health issues as well, and was told by his doctor to stay from a computer for a while to better help his vision recover...
His account is still open on Fur Affinity, where he made a journal telling about what happened, as well he put up his last picture as a good bye to everyone...... He was one of my best friends on here, and treated me like his own brother.. I will surely miss him, as well be missed by others and always be in everyone's heart..
you will be missed buddy.. *HUGS TIGHTLY*
*Edit*
Fred has recently re-opened his account on DA, as to properly say goodbye to everyone there..
He posted a final picture there as well of himself with Tommy and Little Polar bear.. you can see it here.. http://fredvegerano.deviantart.com/.....dbye-288977051
fredvegerano closed his account on DA.. yesterday.... For those who knew him, you know how kind he was to everyone, always had kind words of encouragement for others art, and how great an artist he was with his heart warming pictures and comics..As well how great a friend he was to everyone!
I found out what he was doing though a note he sent me saying it was his last note to me, and about an hour latter he closed his account....
Found out this morning that it was due to his account being hacked..... And the business that his mom and him had was closed.. As well he is also having problems with his vision and other health issues as well, and was told by his doctor to stay from a computer for a while to better help his vision recover...
His account is still open on Fur Affinity, where he made a journal telling about what happened, as well he put up his last picture as a good bye to everyone...... He was one of my best friends on here, and treated me like his own brother.. I will surely miss him, as well be missed by others and always be in everyone's heart..
you will be missed buddy.. *HUGS TIGHTLY*
*Edit*
Fred has recently re-opened his account on DA, as to properly say goodbye to everyone there..
He posted a final picture there as well of himself with Tommy and Little Polar bear.. you can see it here.. http://fredvegerano.deviantart.com/.....dbye-288977051
