"When life really did you wrong today, remember- writing is therapeutic because the truth can be stranger than fiction. Just write it like it never happened." -Me

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"Fate is pissing in ma'h FACE!" -Me

----((In retort, a quote from a fellow incubi..))---

"To resist is to piss in the wind
Anyone who does will end up smelling
Knowing this, why do I defy?
Because my inner voice is yelling
There is a fist pressing against
Anyone who thinks something compelling
Our intuit we're taught to deny
And our soul we're told is for selling..." -Incubus; Out From Under

I'm going to start posting little snippets of my writing that I do for exercise when I can't concentrate on a story.

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*Writing and RP are fundamentally the same exact thing. And, also, in RP'ing... I charge by the hour. So make sure you got PayPal before putting anymore thought into RP'ing with me.

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"You're like my very own Jesus; I can throw you down, kiss you while you're bound, and nail you on the cross." - Me

So I went to the Pawn Shop the other day, you know; just to get rid of some stuff. I figured they'd be the place to take your old, useless junk.

And the clerk gives me a whole spill about the Bad Dragon product of mine, saying like "We don't carry those kinds of items here. We can't sell this here-" blah blah. And I was like "Excuuuuse me? What do you mean THESE kinds of items? Are you being Species'st?" They told me to leave.

I put the stupid thing away in the garbage bag, next to Congress. I went home. If they don't take Dragon Dicks, I doubt they would take the U.S. Congress. :(



*hope ya laughed*

I've gathered some inspiration and will be taken it a different route. It will still hold the same traditional rode, but I'm putting in a few turnpikes in its path to make the series better and more interesting.

Yes. I'm alive, but also, and most importantly for some of you, I'm still working on commissions. I have one of them Actually done-- just needs typing, as another is mostly finished.

Also. I'm back in school, so no more commissions.

Also. Could anyone give me some damn critique? Thanks.

Also. Does anyone know a site or group that looks for Abstract stories? Like a creative writing site/forum?

Also. I might be getting out of the Hypno-smut writing. The same act is getting old and tiresome.

When I first started writing: it was to convey a story that played over in my head. Now: I want to convey ideas, opinions, stretch imaginations and thoughts. Smut doesn't do that too well. I might just write full books and stop short stories all together.

And I truly believe this has nothing to do with any amount of watches or favs, like I usually rant about. This has to do with my ability to convey a story for a Purpose. I think the FACT that I no longer care about Watches or Faves, in consequence, gives all Smut stories No Purpose.

**********THEY ARE CLOSED FOR THE TIME BEING, KEEP AN EYE OUT FOR WHEN THEY OPEN AGAIN****************

Length: Short. 4pages for me. The size of the story-Patient Privilege.

Allows: Sex, Clean, Hypnosis, M/M, M/F(rare), Feet, Crossdressing, Trans., ... just ask, okay?

NO: watersports, scat, violence or gore in sex

Just send me your request via Note.

**********THEY ARE CLOSED FOR THE TIME BEING, KEEP AN EYE OUT FOR WHEN THEY OPEN AGAIN****************

Okay, me and my friends arrive in Orlando on Thursday(we like to settle in and get a feel for the area as a means of strategic con-going((and closer parking before the rest of the con-goers arrive))). We have a few drinks out by the pool, and the night somehow turns into an unexpected mini Pool Party for the three of us. I walk to a SevenEleven at my own risk of being mugged just for ciggs. This night makes us wonder, Could Elliot's Be Better Than This? I mean, we get there before the con actually starts and already are having the freagin' time of ours lives. What would Elliot's have to offer? Well, I would have to say, the furries. I probably would not have even half the fun(or the experiences) I did without a bunch of fucking furries.

So, my answer has to be Yes, it's a damn good Event. I drank, quite literally, every single god damn night. I met lots of cool people. And did I mention I drank every single god damn night?

Me and my friends kind of missed a bunch of the events, but I think we probably made it to the few that really needed attending(the pancakes, artist alley, Wet n Wild). I had a great time with everyone. I will more than likely attend next year's.

Cause' I'm headin' to Elliot's Spring Event today, it starts tomorrow but I'm off work NOW so this is just a mutha fuckin' treat to me right now X3

I might get a story done while I'm there too. Who knows! I hope so. lol

Like the title says. Still busy and internet is down. I will try to take this as a point to finish and post something. I have... about two to three, maybe more, projects finished and waiting to be typed and posted. Two need to be finished writing-wise(and they are typed, isn't that funny? non-typed finished works need typing, typed works need finishing!)

Even when I'm not writing, I'm reading and it lends me quite a bit of information( I love observations on the little things- those little gestures that brings the psychology to a character or situation or over-all plot... a sentence of gesture is probably the Kodac moment of writing, worth a thousand words if done right).

April 29, 2010; sometime between 12:00am and 12:20am a man came into my work('man' might be giving him too much credit). I was sweeping the bathroom and heard the door. I turned and there he stood, red towel draped and covering most of his head, and he pointed a gun at me. He demanded something along the lines of money, open drawer, hands up- my body was in motion to do all the above Without request(the gun, it seems, is a powerful tool of translation- FOOD, MONEY, Your Life)

Needless to say, I am alright. I can jot down on things done in life - Be Held Up at Gun Point*check*.

I wasn't planning to tell everyone, but then I like writing. And this is a good reason for why I write journals- To Tell You I'm NOT Dead.

Those who don't read the journals, well... if something DID happen, they would be the stupid MouthBreathers who ask questions like "Do you do commissions?" when the commission info is somewhere Very Obvious. They will ask "What happen to Howl? Oh, guess he's just taking a while on the story" when my journal hasn't been updated in two years.

Mostly, I think it's cool that I found a Good Reason to update my journals more often.

P.S.-I'm not dead yet. ;3

Okay. Just woke up about thirty minutes ago, and suddenly it came to me of what I was dreaming about.

I had a beach party with 2(the gryphon, yes) and Mathew Ebel. I don't know why, but 2 had this really badass, chromed out recording set up(the mic was ridiculously pencil sized). We all just chilled out and had a good time. Liquor was involved. Maybe this is foresight into the future *crosses fingers* I HAVE been wanting to go to the beach(which is just a weird-ass feeling bc I don't like the beach or the sun or the sand, maybe mostly the water, but the sun burn- ouch).

Anyways, I'm still looking for a room, refer to journal before this. It's been a whole day and still no replies to my post in the forums, I will have to try others...

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1363935/

I'm heading to Orlando for Elliot's Spring Event. Could you guys get the word out I'm looking for a room? You can refer "who-ever" to my post about the room https://ele.furryhost.com/node/178.

Thanks.

And I might have a room soon anyways, but I'm asking for the assistance in case I don't... I don't like to waste time when it comes to finding rooms.

Waterways. Just finished reading it over the course of 3? days. So much emotion, drama. I got teary eyed. I got angry. I got passionate. Oh, and it ended, too(at some point, I had forgotten -_-). Only complaint- it ended. The story was so rich that I ate it up way too fast, and now I kind of feel sick from the whole roller coaster ride that is Kyell's brilliant writing.
No. This author doesn't need any more advertisement or publicity through any means of my much less-significant furryself, but the book is good. It's great, and it's worth reviewing and letting others who'd like to read something Pro-gay(it really reached into some very significant facets, and he really put some different scope on the 'same-old' issues-I think) and also furry(yayy!) know that is in fact, the shit(-I think).
It's a little slow, but you find yourself smiling after a few pages, then maybe laughing. Then you feel for these damn adorable characters and you just can't put the damn thing down afterwards. Or maybe it's just me.

Oh! Other stuff.
Still have a story for Saravok, still too lazy to do anything. I manage to work on a different story, and it is very promising from where I'm standing.

Oh, and I picked up the old book I wrote at the age of 17(over a hundred pages with the coffee stain at the corner) and uh.. edited a few pages for fun... then read it... then started to see why I wrote so much... and why I committed so much and now I'm back on it. I don't know what that means for the other projects, but I can say that whether it's writing or editing... I'm still improving myself with the experience. Editing this story is opening a lot of different ideas for my own writing, maybe even help me conquer the deep residing fear of failure and make it worth publishing...

OH! one more!! thing! Expect Poems. Lots of poems. 30 to be precise. I've strangely have been thinking of them, and then I saw this thing over in the Update at the Writer's Block. So, treating it as a sign... I will probably participate in this April-poem-thingy.

http://www.aolnews.com/nation/article/bill-oreilly-joins-albert-snyder-father-of-marine-in-battle-over-funeral-protest/19422884?icid=main|aim|dl1|link1|http%3A%2F%2Fwww.aolnews.com%2Fnation%2Farticle%2Fbill-oreilly-joins-albert-snyder-father-of-marine-in-battle-over-funeral-protest%2F19422884

This outraged me on the verge of tears. Stupid to get emotional, I guess... but this is just TOO far. I'm mostly outraged by how obvious which side is the Bad Guy here and no one is making the "RIGHT" call on this. The First Amendment was made to balance and nullify persecution, not protect it.

I will be thinking of a way to make my own First Amendment rights known to these monsters of religion.

Slacking. I can't get myself to write anything. I'm going to have a smoke and try to feel better.

I hate to think I have to do that to feel better, but this moody shit is just annoying as Hell... I'm going to do some different writing to get this off my chest(stuff I obviously won't post XP ).

Sorry for friends who haven't heard from(online). I've been really busy on some personal issues. I'm constantly fucked up it feels like, at least every hour before work. (this stuff makes Working for 7/hr FUN! I could retire at this rate and be content) I might have a problem, that will have to wait till I finish dealing with the relevant issues.

And thanks for those online friends who I've used to get my fix. You are probably the few to hear from lately.

Got something written for Saravok and could have finished it a week ago. Then this shit drops in my lap and I've lost of my hard work-attitude. Been binge eating some.. But I think Chinese is a good way to stay thin, I'll be experimenting with that lol ...

Don't worry about me. I have some great irl friends, and I'm still able to keep my little jokes in my head going and still able to laugh on occation. Now, excuse... I have to be going to work...

-From,
the Non-demon form of Howl

The series is lagging behind. It might be two weeks before I get the next part posted(that is the part AFTER this one, Temporal Spectrum Part 2).

I still got some writing done, just not for the series or Taking Calls Part 2. I'm writing a story on the side that started out as a short submission, and it's growing into a full length. It might be published by itself. Who knows. I've got over 50 hand-written pages, and I don't think it's even half way finished.

I'm also stuck on page 3 of the Pet's Revision. I hope to do 20pages a chapter. I posted 8 chapters on Yiffstar/now sofurry.com ... and people are still faving the story which has surprised me. I'm redoing because I like the new ideas and details I have planned for it. The characters are much two dimensional. They can be a lot better, and will be. Then, after I publish Pets: The Wolf Mistress. I can start on Pets: Return of a Dark Fox.

The series is coming along well. I had to shorten the next chapter with a part one because I didn't feel that it was complete yet. There isn't a lot of evidence of why the Spectrum is Temporal. That becomes more obvious with the new introductions in the next part.

Taking Calls Part 2. I know everyone really liked the first one, and I am super happy about that. I don't whether I got a lot of feed back or whatever for the expectation of part 2 or just everyone liked the first... but I have to do a two. I don't know exactly what is going to happen in it. You'd think One thing leads to another. It might not. I don't like giving in so easily to the predictably premise line. I plan to struggle out of everyone's simple expectations and give you all something. And that something has to be Hot and Unexpected.

So in all: Taking Calls Part 2 has not had any work on it, but a lot of thought. And the thought has brought me to understand that the next part WILL BE- HOT and UNEXPECTED! :D everyone can be happy, i guess.

Okay, IMPORTANT!!
GO here- http://www.furaffinity.net/user/pomosexualfurry

and post a shout, please. It's fun!

ALSO
Story Updates!

Starting a series. The segments will be short and sweet. I aim to pack every little tid bit with something that develops plot, makes drama, and/or is fappable (fappable- something that can be fap'd to).

ONE /mooore/ thing-

I love you all.

ONE 'moooooore' thing-

Still writing for the Fang submission. I don't even freagin' know if I am half way. This is good. It means it is probably so good that I can't even predict where it ends. But I keep in mind 'too much of a good thing...'.

ONE ^MOOOOORE^ thing-

I Fucking hate alot of furries right now. I just posted a submission, and I only get.. what? a few favs *loves yas* and .. 1 or 2 watches *luvs u just as much* Now.. watches, okay, but where in great God's ANUS are my FAVS *ANGRY FACE*

I'm a fuckin' pimp of writers! Where da' fuck are my hoes at. NOT YOU HOMIES. WE COOL! I know where my homies at, where THE FUCK ARE MY FUCKING HOES AT?!! UAHHRGGFFFfff..

I'm lookin' at the fucking numbers ASSHOLES! I got 80 watchers. 80! I feel glad to have em'. NOW WHERE THE FUCK THEY AT! I don't see fuckin' 80 favs. Or 40 fuckin' comments! (statistically speaking... if there were a god... I should at least get half of favs in comments)

I've been doing this for almost a GOD DAM DECAD!!! (epid GDD drop) Ya know? What have you been doing for a decade? JACKED OFF? If you jacked off regularly for a GOD DAMN DECAD(two GGD drops, epicer) wouldn't want to know that you were pretty fucking good at? FO' FUCKIN' RIZZLE my Dizzles! Howl ain't got no Favs up in the HIZZLE~!

---SHORT VERSION--
Basically, I've been getting a lot better at this writing thing, and I seem to be even less appreciated. Oh, I'm still putting at stories, more in fact than ever. And thank yous to  gillpanda for the praise to the story I submitted for him. He was very appreciative.

And, I figure I would end this on a good note. Thank you, fans. Who still watch and fav, at least, one of my every two stories. I don't expect to get more than 5 favs for every submission these days. It's just demoralizing to see... 80 watchers and have not even 10 favs. Less than 80 people really don't give a damn, and it is just Dumb. I rather have the Real statistics. How many really like my writing? I won't ever no, because even a LESS percentage read these journals! The horrible Irony. Oh wells, loves ya!

PS- For the first furs who comment, I'm going to start randomly hiding free commission rewards in my journals. I will spread the word personally so the same person doesn't keep winning haha.

FWA- who's going?


This journal seems slightly premature. :/

Okay, just to let everyone know, I finished Firhax's commission. I want to post it, but I am waiting for feed back from him to see if everything is right and all that. Gill the panda will be having a story finished shortly for him. :)

The siege will be recieving another from me, courtesy of me for the awesome character, Wox!

ALSO! Some NEWS!

I will be submitting a fantastic piece to Fang Vol.4 (hopefully I can finish before the deadline) I have an AWESOME IDEA for this one. It will actually have Hypnosis and Sex in it! It will have a WONDERFUL plot, as well. I started writing on it last night. I will see about posting a bite size of it on here for you guys.

MORE NEWS!

I'm thinking about making a Friends List in my description. SO.. who goes on there be happy and keep talking to me, whoever isn't on there- well you should talk to me more! Drop me lines, keep up with me, ask me questions as if you give damn about me as a person! Like you would want in return from a friend ^^ Of course, I can't keep up with everyone.. so it is difficult.

MORE NEWS! FUCK!

I'm thinking about making a music account. I will post something about that if it becomes a final decision.

It has come to my attention! It is a REALLY BAD IDEA to play a certain Goo Goo Dolls song to anyone who had recently lost a limb or multiple ligaments. Mostly the Chorus.

Ecstasy is all you need
Living in the big machine
Oh you're so vain
Now your world is way too fast
Nothing's real and nothing lasts
And I'm aware
I'm in love but you don't care

Turn your anger into lust
I'm still here but you don't trust at all
And I'll be waiting
Love and sex and loneliness
Take what's yours and leave the rest
So I'll survive
God it's good to be alive

((CHORUS))
I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for you
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you

Still in love with all your sins
Where you stop and I begin
And I'll be waiting
Living like a house on fire
What you fear is your desire
It's hard to deal
I still love the way you feel

Now this angry little girl
Drowning in this petty world
And I'm who you run to
Swallow all your bitter pills
That's what makes you beautiful
You're all or not
I don't need what you ain't got

I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for you
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you

I'm blind and waiting for you
I'm blind and waiting for you No I can't believe it's coming true
God it's good to be alive
And I'm still here waiting for you
No I can't believe it's coming true
I'm blind and waiting for you

Big Machine by Goo Goo Dolls

Roll the window down-this!
Cool night air is curious.
Let the whole world look-in
Who cares who sees what tonight?
Roll these windows down
to catch my breath again.
Go and go and don't just
drive me home then back again!

Passenger by Deftones feat. Maynard

A mild scope of emotion to give everyone an update on my mood. Determined is still part of the Mood, but for those who know this song- it's what I live in.

I'M ON A BOAT!
~LEFT~ Im ON A BOAT!
~RIGHT~Im ON A BOAT!


FUCK TREES I CLIMB BOOIES MUTHA FUCKAH!
(you try it!)

... Like the mofo title says.

Went to Orlando. What I've learned- Bill and Ted ROCK >:O in there Halloween Adv., Saw is ffff***n' scary as hell, I love zombies in army clothing with flamethrowers scarring the shit out of my bf, I love Hamlet 2, and that you can have the most amazing vacation if you have the money!!!

BTW- I went to Orlando. For Halloween Horror Nights(this explains all the scariness and Bill and Ted's Excellent Halloween Adv.) we had a great hotel for cheap- also, Cable=me watching Hamlet 2 on HBO and laughing my ass off(some of you might receive a random link to Youtube vids of Rock Me Sexy Jesus((ps-you got servedhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=86Vd3fjP4Ks)))

But, this was prolly my most Fav vacation evah! And I have been to goddamn Honduras and stayed at a place called Fantasy Island(it most certainly earned its title through example in my opinion-all you can eat Lobster dinner..*dies happy))
It's just that a bunch of things were so fun, walking around the streets. Good weather- it rained the first night but drizzled just enough to ADD to spooky Scare Zones but not enough to send the actors inside. Tired as hell last night when we got back- and advertisement for Affordable Yummy DELIVERED Pizza at our fingertips. YES, alot of things went right these past two days that made my vacation the best I can remember!

Back to school, work, and writing.