Finishing up with 's story. I have to put it on the computer with additions and subtractions that have nothing to do with math.

I've started a story for the anthology I already wrote one for. The first one is still getting published but in the Spring book.

My next commission is going to Pixel. Surprisingly, I figured out how to do the story as soon as I finished this one. I was really worried because I was not getting any ideas, then poof! Her story will feature some cool Transformation stuff. I don't know if there will be hypnosis... I still have to figure some things out with her.

Good tidings, happy halloween! :)

I GET A NEW WINDOW!!

Look at journal before this to understand...

**This is a true story. Names have been changed for their own protection... and mine.**

Epic morning: begin.

I nearly died twice, had my ass kicked, and my nipple has been twisted into hurtfulness. The story begins with my bf having a stupid/crazy/psycho/alcoholic best friend.

She wanted to see him this morning, on a Sunday at... 8am in the morning, she's drunk(this In Real Life matter of fact description should justify the description above, but there is SO much more untold evidence to this character).

I- just getting off work at 7am, being held back an hour already- am trying to have private time with myself in the office. Then all the sudden a rapping from the bedroom. I flinch a curious, perplexed eyebrow as to who could it be...

Suddenly, a shattering from the bedroom. I gasp and solve the mystery- Burglars! Shotgun was popping in my head as I make for the bedroom, right through my office door. Then I hear all the giggling. "(insert her name here)!!!! D: !! X( !!!"

Running to the front door, mixed with images of her dieing in a sea of ultimate Terribleness Satan himself would claim to be depraved, a shirtless male is on the front porch yelling "we'll fix it! we'll fix it!" This, automatically, I assume is a Military Variable, who I will call 107- which is a rough estimate with how many men she has slept with... this year at least.

So, I pass shirtless guy, going to the car. My intentions were- LICENSE PLATE Number!. So this deed would reassuringly not go unpunished! (This house is old. The windows will cost over 150 to fix). They both make statements of leaving, and I stand behind the vehicle.

OKAY! Quick and final reminder. When my window gets broken and drunk people are making an exit- there is an adrenaline rush that doesn't let me think a lot.

I stand behind the car, thinking they legally are not allowed to run over me! :) yay

I have to jump and roll off the trunk. "They're getting away, Howl!" my little buddy in my head says in utter contempt. "No fucking way!" I yell back to him. Then the slight wiggle of an open back door catches my eye! >:3 go wolf...
(PS- since standing behind the car, I had visually noted an oncoming trunk coming down my street towards us at 35-40mph, this street is small and ghetto, keep this in mind.)

The car backs out towards truck- I jump into back seat- light pole on side of the road threatens to hit door and make my life a raped nightmare of an existence- and mail box is behind light pole for a second round of making my life a raped nightmare of an existence.

So! I'm in the back seat. Military Variable says, "Woah, did you just jump into the backseat?"
"yes...yes i did.." half smiles, the kinda smile you see on a guy who got off work at 7am in the morning instead of 6 and had his window broke in.
"That's fucking crazy dude!" When a drunk military guy tells you did something crazy, you really did do something crazy.

I ride out a trip of two drunken people saying how stupid I am and how big a deal I'm making out of this... basically a lot of people telling you wrong... try to imagine a homosexual walking into a strict conservative chapel, where they wear white hoods, and holds all the goodness of the world in his hand- and then they beat him with stones... that was basically the car ride without the beating luckily.

So after stubbornly refusing to leave the car until I get a cellphone so I can make a call to my parents(parents First choice, then Police)- which this situation is ironic compared to going to jail and they wanting phone calls and what not. SO!

We get to my house, I stay hostage in the backseat; all the while, bf comes back with a phone. Police get called on the two drunk fucks. Waiting on the police... they try to get me out, threatening to beat the living shit out of me, reaching around for the door lock(the front seat door was open, drunk fuckin' idiots! haha) even twisting my nipple to have me get out so they can make a get away.

Authorities get there. All I want is to make sure to be payed- no one goes to jail. A lot of a mess, it would've been quicker if they just let me have my phone call. Like the Joker, "I just want my phone call."

This has been 2 hours of my morning in a small-not as complicated as in reality- nutshell.

I'm blame it on being a furry. Fucking drama.

NOTE to self: Make reenactment film for archive purposes.***

... I formerly withdraw my withdrawing from porn. I still will do porn. My deep dark friend who loves writing porn is yelling at me like a prostitute without street corners. Ugh, I cannot take the nagging feeling to do the dirty on duh papers. So- it's off.

SHORT VERISION

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IM BACK!!

LONG VERSION _v_
((More info why further below. (For anyone who cares, cause I probably wouldn't.) ))

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--Other news: Doesn't really matter because I'm behind major school work, and I barely touched anything. Wow. It sucks.--

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I did a lot of thinking and decided that if I were to take my stand against this, I would have to do it reasonably. I believe it's alright for anyone to be Really upset about the earlier issue, just as long as there is no extreme action taken. For instance: Flaming, Hurting, or Giving up your own hobbies. Even though, I believe, they have hurt us, it won't do any good hurting them or ourselves. It does no good sending our anger or thoughts their way because frankly, they don't care.

They don't care. They really don't. All they wanted was to be on tv. That's why this fandom is the way it is... all kinds of people are furries, this includes the fame hungering whores like these two turned out to be. That's how I see them since they didn't get on the show to brighten our image(or theirs for that matter). I would have known VERY well that if I were to be invited, I wouldn't go- I don't need fame and most of all, I know I would be their to be ridiculed and made fun of. Sticks and stones- my ass.

Words are powerful. Why is it that we underestimate their power? It makes some of you-what?- horny, cum, smile, laugh, cry, sleep...? Still pretty powerful for these words to do that. Not just stick and stones to me.

I could see Chew's Husband, he looked... sad. I kind of think it wasn't his idea even. It even looks like they try to bury down the jabbing comments Tyra makes, like "Do you look at Mickey Mouse-" or something like that. It's intention was too clear to me. Makes me wonder why Chew thought it was worth the degradation... Or if it wasn't by the end...

More reasons why we should hold back our vengeful spiting is because we don't think enough when we're mad. I have anger issues and I know full well. Both of them might have lost their jobs or something, whatever- because of showing up on the show and admitting such... Nasty, despicable little secrets.

I can say that since, well; I'm not saying it to them. And I'm not talking "behind their backs"... no, this for view publicly. More like, speaking in front of them out of ear shot. It's better we speak nasty things in our own "open privacy" then directly to them who probably don't want to hear them in the first place. And most of all, I really needed to just write so bad.. .uhhhhggg.. feels so good.. words.. ohmMM.. yea..... like.. better than taking a good poo. oh baby.

As a writer(and an opinionated one at that) I have to comment on this, for the sake of the watchers who read these trivial journals XP

No names or fingers have to be involved. But this is sad. Despite the constant debate whether this fandom is sex or not; I simply only need to say this.

My family knows I am a furry. They do not know what I do in my bedroom. They do not need to. They know I love animals, werewolves, and all else in between in a way that I am a fan of all aspects.

My mother has JUST read, for the first time, a short story of mine of the furry variety, mostly cause it's clean(NOTE- I don't go showing my sex at anyone). I'm happy she finally can see the CLEAN work I can produce concerning this fandom, and it won't be the last. She wants to even show it to her friends, which surprised even ME!

NOW- How are those friends going to react if they happened to hear about this episode of the show?

I have been misrepresented, and their is no remorse on the offending party's part. All I want is an APOLOGY to the furs who this person has thoroughly offended- and to the lives they had COMPLICATED. That's not too much to ask

Despite my amateur drawing skills, I hope to achieve a basic concept of drawing to an extent I can pursue making my own comic series. In real life, my humor comes and goes, in extremes even. I can have the whole room cracking up and then I can just be like.. leave me alone I will make you cry in shame of horrible jokes.

But my imagination has a knack for creating whacky circumstances, juicy characters for said situations, and the ability to evolve everything into an eventual plot.

In the mean time... I'm working on character detail and such.

Okay, just finished a new story. Got to type it. It turned out longer than I had anticipated, and there are still a lot of details I left out that will be added as I type it up. 21pgs handwritten. Should be about 6-8 typed.

That would be a payed commission size. Haha XD

Also, quickie commissions about to be out of my style. I have way too much school and many projects(like writing a book and a series). I will be doing the commissions I got and probably be closing out Quickie Commissions.
Payed commissions are still accepted.

You might think- hey, the artist wants their work see or whatever.

NO! WRONG! This freakin' place is making money off of things that is not their's to make money off of.

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 damnevildog saw this site where they steal art from FA and possibly other places:

http://yiffhentaiporn.com/index1.htm

I have seen many of those pieces displayed in FA.

Please make a journal and spread the word, thanks!!!

I've finally finished Zsisron's commission, you may have noticed. I have finished the short for the anthology, which I have been told is accepted and will be included in the publishing-yays! I will get more info if I can put up a description of the story on this site.

As you all can see, I have a lot of commissions up. I still am accepting them. I have a gift story for . I really wanted to try doing a muscle-hypno piece. I think I'm pulling it off well. It's just time, ugh!

So. That gift story, then Pixel's, then Firhax's, siege's(actually my own idea I really want to get down), then fenrirkar, and ... my own ideas... Wow, that's a lot. Wish me luck and enjoy the stories!

STILL DOING QUICKIE commissions. Also, I've been offer paid commissions, so those are an option as well.

Still doing FREE Quickie COMMISSIONS. The last few stories are example of what Quickie Commissions are like. Just send me a note and I'll put you on the new LIST I made up on my Profile :D.

In other News.

I have a drawing tablet, so those who like to OC; which I've found to be a lot of fun, just let me know. I'm semi good at the drawing stuff. ^^ I will try to post a few of my quick sketches. They'll be in scraps more than likely.

I wrote 's commission, and I'm just not pleased with it. I have a lot of other projects I'd rather be working on than editing this one.

I'm simply requesting help with editing it while I work on other projects. I have this short I really want to finish for the anthology. Then there are Two commissions so far.

So, I could really use the help. Just send me a note or whatever.

I did an experiment of writing a story as fast as I can.  siege's character Wox was my little test dumby for it and it's been a hit so I figured I will be opening up for Quickie Commissions. I won't be so picky about these as I was the last ones.

Commissions are still FREE until I decide to change that, which won't be anytime soon cause I don't really need the money anyways.

To those who Previously Asked for a commission and was turned down can still ask again, or even re-ask for a commission and I will probably say yes. I'll be starting a list as well.  zsisron is at the top of the list until I finish his story... which will happen as soon as I get this Final Exam out of the way this Friday >_<

Finals are coming up, that means I'll have a LITTLE bit of time when the summer semester ends. I believe this will be the last summer semester I'll do for a while. It was not fun.

Got a little short story that will more than likely progress into a random scenario trilogy that will have some guidance to a mysterious motive of Madam Ordella. She can be a little cruel, and she has a knack for being even more brutal to her victims. She can't help it. Immortality gets boring.

I've been in a drawing mood from looking at too much FA I guess. So I've been in my living room a bunch(after doing some hardcore school work) sketching out pics from my Xbox and listening to music. Also got me to do some Icons for my stories. I thought it would be better to have a few keywords "up front" so readers will know what to expect. --Especially since my last story featured a male and female. I've kind of missed doing those. My male on male fancy has been quenched, but will stick around anyways because I can't resist all the good aspects two males can bring to romance.

I still have the short I want to do for the Anthology, but I still have 's commission. I have to shovel the guilt and get this short done because there is a much more "real" deadline for the Anthology. Maybe my more dutiful side won't allow it, and possibly the fulfillment of a needier deadline will inspire to get the next done? -I don't know! Rambling.

PS- thank you for letting me know how to do this:

This is to everyone of you that I've spoken to over the years and who have committed a good deal of conversations and companionship to our conversations during that time.

Thank you.

Please forgive me for my frequent absence. Especially now, as I have more on my plate than ever and I believe it only gets worse from here. School, writing, and my own personal life are chronological sponges to my ever few hours of the day, soaking up every bit of my time.

To you guys and gals, I am always believing you have the patience to keep me in your friends list. Thanks a lot. From here on I need mostly support as I embark on pursuing my full potential as a writer. I plan to prove it as I write to get into a furry anthology that's in the works. If I fail, it is all too obvious that I will keep trying. I just hope, most of all, that any mistakes will be learned from and improved upon.

Thanks again everyone! I'm not dead, just busy.

PS: I can always keep up with everyone through offline messages if you need to speak to me about anything or whatever the hell you need to say so bad. :P

Still doing FREE commissions.
Wanna know what I'm looking for, well just go have a read of my latest story, Harder Than It Seems. The piece was requested by blu. He pitched me an idea and we went back and forth until I felt ready to start. I feel real proud of the story, and that's the kind of Free commissions I am looking to take... something that will challenge me as a writer.

In other news. My next commission is for Zsisron. He requested one thing... and I kind of just took it and went with it in my own direction. I admit that I feel kind of bad for hopping his idea like this... but that makes me want to do the story better... so I'll let him see the finished version and let him decide if he wants it posted.

Preview: The idea is a dragon recording a diary for his trip to investigate a missing missionary in a safari location. His dreams start to be invaded by a mysterious "beauty" and he starts acting differently then how you got to know him before.
Lots of character detail in this. I won't say when, and I won't say what I'm aiming for to finish it in case I jinx myself. But it's the next one in line

AFTER THAT- I will be writing a piece I came up with myself. It will feature a Hetero theme. OMG yes. I've been in the mood to see some womensss... and not men that look like women, even those are Very nice.

Preview: A fox that is into art gazing while in the midst of being completely doped out on grass is invited to one of his favorite artist's studio. There, she has a "special" piece to show him and see if he appreciates her "talents".

After that, I might post Howl's First chapter... depends what I can add to it before I get done with these.

Alright, well I'm closing down towards the end... well, I think I might only be halfway through with this shit! O.o ..jebus...

But I've written all I feel comfortable writing in my notebook. I plan to sit with some "niceness" and work on finishing the rest of bluedude's commission.
Oh, and I've got a title for it. :3 I searched to see if it had been taken it seems it hasn't. So, everyone should be looking forward to the new story this weekend, named......

Harder Than It Seems

My notebook is down to the last page (a page I had to salvage, it had a title of a song I was going to write but I didn't get past the title). I will be looking for paper before I go to work. I need to read some history and hopefully it will be slow by the time I'm writing. My goal to finish the story is this weekend, but I don't actually see that happening.

Realistically, I see me putting out a nice story by next week, but then again exams are then. So, I think I will push myself for it. Once that is done, I will be pushing to get a few more parts on the first chapter of Howl's story done so I can post him and he can be read for the first time by many readers! WORKING!

This commission has been quite the beast trying to wrestle down, but I think perfection takes time! :3 I Just finished the first sex scene, but don't worry... I have been writing the other scenes in the mean time.

I learned that I like to write in my notebook, but I don't want to write the sex scenes in there in case someone gets nosy when I put it down. I like to write all around the story, skipping from scene to scene. This gives me a chance to get a better feel for the whole story and add more stuff to different parts and make a better blend of writing.

I almost have a chapter done for Howl. I believe he has ten pages in my notebook alone(twenty-something double spaced, that's how I write). The commission has... uhmm... 22 double spaced? Then two full un-spaced pages on the laptop. I still have Many scenes to go. I am debating whether or not to split it up. Hmmm........

Btw, reading Out of Position for the second time. Just as good as the first. :3

I'm doing a lot of these journals. People might be thinking-"why doesn't he apply the energy to finishing a story!" Well, I kinda do. I just started on the first of the free commissions. It's a sweet story and I predict it will be one of my most well-written. It my be my best!

It's not going to be too smutty, but it will have sex in it. It's going to be average size story, a short none the less. I have the beginning and the ending planned out perfectly, not I just have to write what's in between.

Everyone can thank bluedude for this wonderful idea. He messaged me about doing something and I was intrigued and we managed to work something out. My mind was buzzing with every reply he made to my questions. I will probably post our conversation so everyone will see what it is Exactly I was looking for when I started doing these free commissions. Someone, bluedude nailed it. Thanks, dude. :P

Doing free commissions in writing. I need to practice more and since I don't feel like making the time of coming up with stuff like I usually do, I will just take ideas people want to see written.
What's this mean?
Means I will write a story if you give it to me.

Does this mean I do it for free? Yep.

Does this mean I will do any story? Almost. I don't like diapers, scat, watersports, nonconsensual, vore, unbirthing, or gore.

Does this mean it has to be sexual? No! I actually could do a normal drama/action story or something. I'm looking for challenges.

Why am I doing this? I'm looking for a challenge.

What for? Cause I want to write better.

Since it is free, does that mean I do any story no matter what? Nope.

If I say I will write a story, does that mean it will be finished on a certain or expected time? Nope, but I will be challenging myself with my own schedules.

Will the stories I write be perfect? nope

Will they be Super Long or crappily short? I decide, don't worry, it's free. :)

SO- How do I get a free story? Uhmm.. message me and we'll work it out from there.

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As for an update. I wrote more for Howl. I am prancing all over the story idea I have for him and it looks like a few novel is developing. I haven't felt this ... "feeling"... since the last book I wrote(it did not get published because it was too ameture for my taste. I wrote it at 16. It was fun, though. Got less than 200 pages typed.)

That is a good sign. It means I will keep writing, which I LOVE writing Howl. I relate well to his character and the events in his life. This makes me think I should keep this up so I can be familiar with this enjoyment and I can fluidly transition this into any story I write!

Although... before I can publish Howl's story. It is imperative that Jerinoh's story is heard first. What does this mean? Well, it means the revision for What Happens After... HAS to be completed. More work, but a good thing for readers since I have lots of things in mind for that series like I had said in the last update.

That's all for now. :3

Probably thinking, "Oh, right another update." Well, right it's another update! >:P

Yes, I've been quiet and inactive for months. I have a lot on my plate. Finished reading Out of Position. If you haven't bought it, then you're missing out on a crucial requirement of your life. IM DEAD SERIOUS! lol As serious as I can get about something, at least. I read the book in no time cause I couldn't put the damn thing down, and now I think I will reread it. It will be the first book I've ever reread.

NOW- Update on my writing.

I'm proud to say that reading Kyell's book inspired me and showed me a little of what my writing has been missing. Also, thinking a lot about writing while being under the influence of certain things have also showed me what I am missing.

It's not fun anymore. I'm not pleasing my expectations and I'm chaining myself down to something that everyone likes. I was originally trying to give the Hypnofurry field a good amount of stories, but I am worn out. I need to venture off the radar.

What Happens After... is going to be drastically changed. What is on Yiffstar is merely a SAMPLE of what I have in mind. The first chapter will have a lot of scenes and more characters. Everything will be more detialed and the chapter titles will be changed to snippets of a dialogue that happens at the end of the story. This is going to be a trade mark of this series and world. Howl's own story is coming out quite nicely in my head. I really can't wait to get on to that, I might finish a chapter and if Im pleased I will post it.

No not mine, but it was so great I had to make a journal entry about it!

Go check out Kyell's upcoming novel Out of Position! I love it so much.

http://orcas.yiffstar.com/?pid=52029 a link to the yiffstar chapters.

The real deal comes out the last day of this month, I will be in line with my internet tent erect and my sleeping bag ready to get the first copy. ;)

Just a little journal entry on a comic I stayed up LITERALLY all night reading. I started from the beginning, which is exactly where I recommend starting. For the ladies and gentlemen who are starting late like I had, I present a very awesome comic.
http://www.pholph.com/index.php?Strip=1292
Jack.

I had a handful of tear-jerking moments, which is a Very rare thing for me being so emotionless sometimes. If this series was a god, I'd make living sacrifices to it, but it's not so that won't be an issue, I assure you. :3

Also, be sure to know the characters. They make multiple appearances down the (long) road.

To get on the journal's discussion, I absolutely love this series as I said before. I heard of it long before and was quite set off as it sounded (almost exactly by the way it was described) like Piers Anthony's On A Pale Horse, which will be a favorite of mine. Since it sounded like a copy; I lifted my head and turned the other way, contented that I had avoided a copy cat story.

Not to surprise anyone, but I was wrong. This story has a few similarities to Piers Anthony's story, but this one carries itself so well. And it looks into a lot of issues, not in just the living aspect but also the after life's issues. I find myself being quite frustrated with Heaven whenever a dweller of hell finds out there is a way out, but figures out he or she has to find out on their own.

The most frustrating part is the Angels. They do nearly nothing. They seem almost useless. There are, of course, some exceptions during the story. *sigh* If anyone else has more to bring on the subject, go ahead. :)

I think it is more appropriate now than ever to celebrate the beginning of this new year with the revamping of two series of mine. Alot of furs out there seemed to love Pets and What Happens After... Well, Ive already copied the files over to the laptop and work can begin now. I even took a little reading of Jerinoh's Capturing.. I was impressed, but saw a lot of easy mistakes and now I know this needs to happen. I will be redoing What Happens After... first since 1) It's shorter and 2) I need to finish it. Pets is already finished, but I have yet to venture on the opening I left it.

So, once I'm finished reworking this series, it will be posted as a whole here on FA. Everyone of my watchers will get to the chance to read a more Detailed and maybe some parts that weren't there before. Hopefully I can expand all the character as well and mamke the story much better than before. Hopefully.

Also, while I'm at it, I'll release what I have in the works at the moment. I embarking on Howl again. My first time was starting from the beginning, when he died and went to hell to find his brother. This time, I am trying to jump from the middle. Not too far past his change into the demon he is, but right before he faces the true severity of situations his demon form presents. So, all in all, I'm writing a story with Howl in it.. for those of you who don't know, this story takes place in the What Happen After.. series.

I still have a jumble of papers of another story I started on. I desperately need to finish it. Hopefully, after that one I can do another case study for the GIBM.

Overview of this journal: Redoing two series, a very promising story series on the way, a short that lingers unfinished, and others that are waiting.

New Icon. That's all.




Just kidding. Have a story ready to go up and have a really awesome idea after that that I'm eager to try. Which means, it usually will get done within a month's time. :/