It's true.

"Theroaie" was alwasy something of a practice account. I place to get my feet wet just to see if I liked FA>

Well I think I've jumped into the pool a while back.

This is my new account. GO THERE! :)

 Henosis

It finally happened...

https://youtu.be/rNBWf54RvsI

Hello everyone, if you hadn't noticed I've been gone for a while. Actually I'm pretty sure none of you noticed as I said nothing about it before I left. I'm so sporadic with journal entries as it is, but here is a quick summery of what has been going on in my life.

At the End of May I moved out of my old apartment, but because of certain complications I couldn't move into my new place (right next door) for another month. So I put all of my stuff in storage and stayed with relatives who lived in town for a month.

Moving out was disastrous because I had one roommate who was graduating/getting ready to go to China and was losing her mind aaaaand the other roommate who was lazy, immature, stupid and was losing their mind as well, aaaaaand then they didn't help get the apartment ready and clean. Ultimately everything fell on my both me nd the other roomate who then had to leave early as well. So it all drove me up the wall. Now I'm better.. well sort of.

After that I had to cut my internet activity short as my relatives don't have the net. So I pretty much lived without the net for two months. May I say that being an internet junkie and then having it gone for extended amounts of time can be insanity in the making, but it was good not to be under the control of the dam thing.

So at the beginning of July I moved into my new place. Only to find out the landlord didn't do any repairs to the place. Its a long story but basically I have a lazy landlord.

Since then I have been trying to get situated, and finally got internet set up today.

End of story.

Wait! I turned 30 this last July. Yeah wow. I'm old! XP

And then I've had issues with work, blah, blah, blah!

So there you go. That's my story.

I'm itching to talk to all of you again and make some art to show you all. Also I VERY much down to talk. IM or message me!

Oh and I have over 6000 art entries I have to go through on my account. Apparently I never really visited FA while I was on hiatus. D:

Well you all have a good day/night or whatever time it is where your at.

All this talk of war and peace as of late has got me thinking wondering a great many things. Life is so fleeting, and yet me take it for granted. We do the same when discussing God and war. Its hard to put into words. How about I let Mr. Samuel Clements tell you about it.


https://youtu.be/r7yklOMWoXY

So I know nothing of actual music making skills, i.e. reading, writing, playing an instrument but music is till something I had a great appreciation for. So I have decided I am willing to delve into music creation. Of coarse I need a decent program that I can get started with that isn't too difficult and free to use. Anyone have any recommendations?

I haven't done it a whole bunch so I'm new to it but it seems like a lot of fun. I figured I'd ask you all to see if anyone is interested.

WE ARE EVERYWHERE!

I forgot to say it. I've been on a monster movie binge tonight. I hope everyone had a good time. :)

Which one are you?


(Also they left out art geek )

I realize this is a rant but I want to get this out.

I want to smack someone.

So when I talk to someone on IM I'm usually under the impression that they also want to talk. I treat IM'ing like a very casual visit. Its like you've come over to hang out and talk. If the person tells me they can't talk that's fine. I leave.

What bothers me is when someone I'm talking to says they want to talk but then leave in the middle of a conversation without telling me. Case in point, I was talking to a guy a day or so ago. He let me know that he had to leave for second. An hour later after waiting, I left. Now in this guy's defense perhaps something suddenly came up that was important, but this type of thing has happened before with him.

All I ask is if you decide you don't want to talk or need to leave, I really would like to know. I've been told before by people that they can't IM and that's fine. I don't like to impose on someone. The same thing goes for me, and I feel its rude to just leave without a word. The reason I say this is that when this happened I thought perhaps I has said something to offend the guy, of coarse I realized he had just left, but being that I'm paranoid I got worried.

So I just would love it if people told me they need to go. That's all. I don't think that's too much to ask.

I can't believe I'm asking for proper net etiquette! :D

Not real sure if anyone likes medieval folk music but I just found this little jem from . Its a whole symphony. The song is almost thirty minuets long and its right here on FA. If your interested go check it out. The artist is very talented. Its wonderful!

So I realized I've got a lot more watchers and I figured I'd like to know what your all listening to. I believe music is important for the mind. So if you have any new music recommendations let me know. I don't care if its something I may or may not like. I simply would like to know.

Also for some reason I've gotten into this band. I'm not sure why I like it but I've been listening to their new album non-stop for a few days.

https://youtu.be/NGuP6ZN8Qxo

Most of you don't know that I've been trying to finish a book I've been neglecting for a few years. Well November is National Novel Writing Month. Guess whose going to try and write a novel in one month.... yeah me. :D

God help me!

What is language without communication. What is Communication without language? Everything we are is in our language. I find this to be a wonderful expression of the importance of language. What do you all think?

https://youtu.be/J7E-aoXLZGY

Finished watching it. Hadn't watched in a while. Still great as always.

Yeah pretty much. What a crazy week. I'm sorry Denver but San Francisco beats you at everything except cost. Oh my poor bank accounts they scream from spending. I will pay for this! ... literally! :D Either way it was still an amazing trip. I've never gone on such an adventure. I plan to continue these types of trips in the future... except I will save up more money. lol!

So went to Golden Gate Park then Haight St for the sights and dinner. Golden Gate Bridge and the bay was beautiful. Its hard to put that beauty in words.

And then...

its a little dirty and everyone wants to bum a lighter from you but Haight is a little slice of the unshaven side of humanity. Its okay to see a grungier side of ourselves. The strange culture mixes well with the atmosphere.

It was a great day to end my trip.

Went to the vineyards in the area. I tasted some really wonderful wines. I'm not really a wine person but it was all very good. I believe I've developed a taste towards Port. Also I got smashed off my ass. It doesn't take too much to get me drunk though. I'm not the alcoholic I used to be. I believe that's a good thing, but yeah I got drunk and then right after we went to a Vietnamese restaurant and I tried Pho for the first time. It was pretty awesome, but not as awesome as me running into a empty table at the restaurant knocking over things. Our waitress was very nice. I apologized profusely to her and told her I had not meant to cause her trouble. She told me that it was okay and it wasn't the craziest thing she'd seen. Mind you my friends are laughing/angry at me for not staying in my seat like they told me, BUT COME ON! I WAS DRUNK! WHEN I"M DRUNK I KNOCK THINGS OVER! On another note I talk slurred philosophy, astronomy, and point out how sexy everyone is, but I am never graceful. If any of this sounds fun to any of you then we should meet and drink someday. Anyway I tipped the waitress well.... I think so. It was sort of blurry at the end. I sort of threw random money on the table and hoped for the best. My friends said I did give her the proper amount for the trouble. God we only hit four vineyards today! What was I thinking not expect any of this? So we went home and watched more of the Avatar cartoon. Man this has been like the best vacation EVER!

It was amazing!

Also.. I'm visiting Castro tonight. Better put my sexy ghey on tonight. :D

but then I realized I was in Chinatown.

I'm still in awe...

So I'm off again. Running away out of state to the magical land of California and to the magical city of San Francisco.

I'm going to see some friends from college that haven't seen in two years. They recently FINALLY got married over the summer and I couldn't go to the wedding as it was all the way in Hawaii. So I suppose this is my way of celebrating their tying the knot or something.

I'm pretty sure I'll still be visiting FA while out there but not as much as I'm used to since I've never been to that side of the country and will be on wild adventures with old cohorts in crime.

So that is it. I wish you all the best.

Oh and since I am going to California I figured this was appropriate.

https://youtu.be/DcfErF3BNQs

An actual journal entry, wow!

It been a while since I've written anything of real substance here, so I figured I should write a brief entry on how I feel about my life at the moment.

Summer is ending, and fall is very near. The leaves started to change color way back at the end of August. Most people out here see this as an omen to a possible long bitter cold winter to come. Honestly my only wish is that winter keeps itself predictable for the most part, and that we actually get a "Fall" this year. Yes a good Fall, unlike that stupid crap last year where we had it for a week and then a massive frost killed all the color and we had four and half months of deathly brown.

At this moment in time I am complacent. The last few months have been hard on me. I can't say I'm miserable. I'm a very lucky person. I have a job (it annoys me but I have income), and a roof over my head. I have good friends and family I can turn to if I need help, and my roommates pretty much rock. I can't complain.

I think what I need to do now is look at how to improve myself and start building some goals to reach.

I've been aimless for a a while and it led me down a path of depression, anxiety, and despair. Medication has helped to keep some of the worst bits of depression from seeping up into my daily life, but medication isn't the only answer. I need to be more constructive and proactive about this. During the summer I went in to the college's counciling services. Unfortunately that ended with the college's new school year. I had hoped to continue with it but I may have to wait or simply seek help out somewhere else. We'll see where that takes me.

Through the summer session, I've come to realize a great deal of my problems that I thought had been dealt with were never laid to rest, but were simply sleeping, waiting for the moment when the stress was too much for my body and in the process reared its ugly mug when I was at my weakest. I ignored some pretty evident warning signs that an impending meltdown was going to happen. In retrospect, how could I have stopped it when I had no idea it was there. They say ignorance is bliss. Well that much is true.

So what now? Well first and foremost, my artwork. I hadn't created anything in so long I couldn't physically do it anymore, and forcing oneself to be productive when you've gotten used to doing nothing is very difficult. Old habits really do die hard.

So then I find myself here on FA, and wonder, "why in the hell am I here?" Honestly of all places. I could have decided to work on my Deviant Art account but instead I embrace the furry?

Well I have been meaning to get on here for a while. I think trying to push myself to work through my problems and move on with my life was a big part of why I'm here, and its helped strangely enough.

In the span of a few months I've met so many wonderful people here. I've talked art, music, history, the joys of dealing with depression, and epic geekiness with many strange and interesting characters. I've found myself becoming a FA whore, where I regularly log on each night just to see what new and interesting artwork someone has posted. perhaps I'm getting addicted, but I've begun drawing more and actually posting some work on here.

Also.. I have met a few of you who I must say are just fantastic people. I've written rather long rants and even flirted with a few of you. Considering I'm the poster child for introverted dysfunctional geeks that's pretty amazing.

Many of you have blown me away with your artistic skills and knowledge. you've really put me to shame, but while that may be only another sign to quit I have instead have attempted to use that to strengthen my resolve. I want to do amazing art like yourselves. Some of you might think that's a little harsh as everyone's art is different and each creative journey is different from everyone else, but I'm using this negativity to essentially say that I'm going to do art that kicks ass whether I like it or not.

I'm going to beat whatever the hell dragged me down. I can't say it will be easy and I'm sure I'm going to complain a lot and do a whole lot of epic drooling on other peoples work. I mean everyone needs a fanboy you know!

Okay, okay maybe I will tone the fanboy down a bit.I'm sure it must be off putting a bit. I tell you what. If I'm drooling too much just let me know. Sometimes I'm unaware of my actions. I really do need to pay attention. :D

I'm going to persevere.

That's the goal. We will see what becomes of all this. In the mean time everyone don't act stupid and stay safe.

-Theoriae

This is awesome on so many levels!

https://youtu.be/Xc90UhV6hJA

I just realized as I sit in bed and stare at my computer screen... I don't have any sweater vests. How will I ever been taken seriously as a geek if I don't wear any? God the things that you ponder at 7am...