It is now my birthday here in Australia

today is my 20th birthday, I'm older

my computer died yesterday, it was an old pc my aunt gave me so I'm not very surprised but still means I'm not able to Draw at all now which isn't fun

it's my 19th birthday wooooooo

how do people i know get like 3 pieces of arts from Trades and Requests a week but no one ever wants to trade with me saying my art is bad and isn't good enough, these aren't even artists like realistic or very detailed, they are pretty similar to my own arts i just don't get it and it hurts to have my art called bad

I've been at a loss for motivation recently and i have lost all feeling to draw now after i found out someone i was doing a trade with blocked me. i was doing a trade with them back in September, i finished my part and they said they'd be done in october. i didn't speak with them so not to bother them. i finally thought i should ask why it has been so long yesterday but when i tried i found out they had blocked me. sadly i can't remember their discord since i got mad and closed dms so i can't see anymore, sona was a moose or deer that was black or a navi blue. so they got away with free art and i was so existed for the art they said they'd draw. also i mgiht of gotten sona look wrong since I've seen so many sonas so don't take my momery for 100%

it's my birthday now, also first journal because i didn't know how to do it