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General | Posted 11 years agoHowdy!
I don't think there's really a direction this journal is supposed to go in. I felt like getting some things out because it's better to do that. Besides that, writing is cathartic for me, it helps focus my feelings and tends to strain out the random bits of crazy. So that's what this journal is really about, sharing some of how my mind thinks, approaches problems, and the random musing or two.
Before I move on any further I just wanted to say I'm doing much better from when I made my last journal. Problems got fixed and good news all around mostly, so nothing to really fret or worry about there. Though October hasn't been the easiest month for me.
So it's no real secret I don't have the best teeth. This stems from bad genetics, poor dental work as a child, and a fear of the dentist I mostly picked up from my mother growing up. It was never a huge concern of mine because I did the best I could to maintain them (not...best, but I did try!) but it seems fate caught up with me finally toward the start of the month. In the middle of the night I got a toothache on the lower left hand side of my mouth. Now, I'd felt a twinge here and there for years, always chalking it up to just sensitive teeth. It always went away after a moment. Only this time it didn't.
Still, I took some pain medicine, brushed and flossed, and just hoped it would go away. Nope. Not at all. It only got worse. The pain got worse as I waited, eventually working up into one of the worst headaches in my left temple I've ever, ever had. It was like what I could imagine a dagger being stabbed into the side of my skull slowly and over and over again. The only thing that only made those headaches go away was a hot shower. This was with, of course, a bad toothache.
I don't consider myself the toughest man on the planet or anything like that, but with as long as I felt the pain and the fear it could be something more serious I got scared. I cried a few times. Thankfully I have Bass. I feel bad though; I was insane and I often lashed out of him out of fear and the pain I was feeling. He never blinked an eye though, always stuck with me, and helped me when I needed it most. Finally I went to the dentist in the middle of a work shift because of the pain and ended up having six hour oral surgery to remove an impacted wisdom tooth and a molar with a terrible cavity. It hurt but the headaches stopped and I feel great now! Save for a hole where my teeth used to be...
Beyond that, October has been fine. Work stress (normal) and relationship stress (also normal). I went to my very first wedding today, saw Bass' little sister get married in a very rustic Texas themed barn. Was a beautiful ceremony and I know they'll end up with a happily ever after ending together. It was really wonderful. I'm estranged from my own family for various reasons and to be accepted into his family with such open arms is surreal and wonderful. Its something I'm very grateful for and humbled by. I often think I don't deserve it, that they could see something in me that would turn them away, but nothing of the sort has happened in over a year now. I shouldn't worry about such things and I'm working on not. I need to realize that people may just simply like me for who and what I am. I have few people in my life which I can say unconditionally love me, but every day I'm with Bass that list tends to grow a bit more as I make connections with his family. I'm very lucky, even if I don't feel worthy of all they've done for me.
I don't like the sense of doubt and worry I often put myself through. Anxiety has been my demon for the last couple of years, stress from work and friends from California scarred me in some ways, I think. A bad work environment coupled with watching people I truly care about start to crumble and fall apart, trying to help them but not make either of them hate me, it was too much. I think something broke during all that. My ability to simply let things go, to not read into every little detail, and its something I'm working very hard to undo. Again, Bass has to deal with that and its something I worry may hurt us as a couple. Often I find myself talking out my inner demons to him about the most mundane things and making them into huge problems that aren't even problems at all. He's patient and loving but the anxiety is always there, like I may just soak up his patience. Logically I know if he loves me as much as he clearly does he's not going to drop me if things aren't perfect and nor would I. We're at our best in a relationship when we aren't both perfect, when the other needs help That's where love shines brightest to me. He's put me first many, many times, and I'm honored to call him my boyfriend.
Anyway, musings over! I feel better. If any of this makes sense to ya'll then great! I'm working on another story, should have it posted soon!
I don't think there's really a direction this journal is supposed to go in. I felt like getting some things out because it's better to do that. Besides that, writing is cathartic for me, it helps focus my feelings and tends to strain out the random bits of crazy. So that's what this journal is really about, sharing some of how my mind thinks, approaches problems, and the random musing or two.
Before I move on any further I just wanted to say I'm doing much better from when I made my last journal. Problems got fixed and good news all around mostly, so nothing to really fret or worry about there. Though October hasn't been the easiest month for me.
So it's no real secret I don't have the best teeth. This stems from bad genetics, poor dental work as a child, and a fear of the dentist I mostly picked up from my mother growing up. It was never a huge concern of mine because I did the best I could to maintain them (not...best, but I did try!) but it seems fate caught up with me finally toward the start of the month. In the middle of the night I got a toothache on the lower left hand side of my mouth. Now, I'd felt a twinge here and there for years, always chalking it up to just sensitive teeth. It always went away after a moment. Only this time it didn't.
Still, I took some pain medicine, brushed and flossed, and just hoped it would go away. Nope. Not at all. It only got worse. The pain got worse as I waited, eventually working up into one of the worst headaches in my left temple I've ever, ever had. It was like what I could imagine a dagger being stabbed into the side of my skull slowly and over and over again. The only thing that only made those headaches go away was a hot shower. This was with, of course, a bad toothache.
I don't consider myself the toughest man on the planet or anything like that, but with as long as I felt the pain and the fear it could be something more serious I got scared. I cried a few times. Thankfully I have Bass. I feel bad though; I was insane and I often lashed out of him out of fear and the pain I was feeling. He never blinked an eye though, always stuck with me, and helped me when I needed it most. Finally I went to the dentist in the middle of a work shift because of the pain and ended up having six hour oral surgery to remove an impacted wisdom tooth and a molar with a terrible cavity. It hurt but the headaches stopped and I feel great now! Save for a hole where my teeth used to be...
Beyond that, October has been fine. Work stress (normal) and relationship stress (also normal). I went to my very first wedding today, saw Bass' little sister get married in a very rustic Texas themed barn. Was a beautiful ceremony and I know they'll end up with a happily ever after ending together. It was really wonderful. I'm estranged from my own family for various reasons and to be accepted into his family with such open arms is surreal and wonderful. Its something I'm very grateful for and humbled by. I often think I don't deserve it, that they could see something in me that would turn them away, but nothing of the sort has happened in over a year now. I shouldn't worry about such things and I'm working on not. I need to realize that people may just simply like me for who and what I am. I have few people in my life which I can say unconditionally love me, but every day I'm with Bass that list tends to grow a bit more as I make connections with his family. I'm very lucky, even if I don't feel worthy of all they've done for me.
I don't like the sense of doubt and worry I often put myself through. Anxiety has been my demon for the last couple of years, stress from work and friends from California scarred me in some ways, I think. A bad work environment coupled with watching people I truly care about start to crumble and fall apart, trying to help them but not make either of them hate me, it was too much. I think something broke during all that. My ability to simply let things go, to not read into every little detail, and its something I'm working very hard to undo. Again, Bass has to deal with that and its something I worry may hurt us as a couple. Often I find myself talking out my inner demons to him about the most mundane things and making them into huge problems that aren't even problems at all. He's patient and loving but the anxiety is always there, like I may just soak up his patience. Logically I know if he loves me as much as he clearly does he's not going to drop me if things aren't perfect and nor would I. We're at our best in a relationship when we aren't both perfect, when the other needs help That's where love shines brightest to me. He's put me first many, many times, and I'm honored to call him my boyfriend.
Anyway, musings over! I feel better. If any of this makes sense to ya'll then great! I'm working on another story, should have it posted soon!
Tough Times.
General | Posted 11 years agoIt's been awhile since I made a journal, or really posted anything here. For that I do apologize to people who are wondering where the hell I've gone to or when my next story is going to come out. Life has been a roller coaster for me for the last few years and that has thrown off my MOJO when it comes to writing. I don't want to project my feelings into the stories I have going on. That would taint it and the characters. I've thought about doing a new stand alone story and I've written a rough draft of an outline so...
Anyway, to people who have been waiting for me, I'm sorry. As I put in the subject of my journal, times are tough. Making adult decisions is hard and often not fun. I've had to go without things that I want and not so things that I'd like to do to try and be responsible. But even then things don't always work out.
Emergency expenses happen and they suck when they do. Car repairs are also expensive and suck just as much. We lived beyond our means this month for that reason and money has never been tighter. This week we had to choose which bills to pay at a timely fashion and how we were going to eat this week.
I feel bad for doing this, asking this. Everyone reading this has their own lives and are doing their own things with worry and regrets all their own. However, I've seen this community come through for people in need many times. I am no artist and I cannot compensate for generosity, but I can and will do something for anyone who feels generous. I want to apologize for even asking for a donation or a loan first and foremost, but... As I said tough times.
PayPal info is kshipley.work[at]gmail.com
Thank you again.
Anyway, to people who have been waiting for me, I'm sorry. As I put in the subject of my journal, times are tough. Making adult decisions is hard and often not fun. I've had to go without things that I want and not so things that I'd like to do to try and be responsible. But even then things don't always work out.
Emergency expenses happen and they suck when they do. Car repairs are also expensive and suck just as much. We lived beyond our means this month for that reason and money has never been tighter. This week we had to choose which bills to pay at a timely fashion and how we were going to eat this week.
I feel bad for doing this, asking this. Everyone reading this has their own lives and are doing their own things with worry and regrets all their own. However, I've seen this community come through for people in need many times. I am no artist and I cannot compensate for generosity, but I can and will do something for anyone who feels generous. I want to apologize for even asking for a donation or a loan first and foremost, but... As I said tough times.
PayPal info is kshipley.work[at]gmail.com
Thank you again.
Hella Cute Questions...ya'll.
General | Posted 12 years agoBored so I'm doing this. DON'T ASK WHY.
1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
My man, Bass.
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
Shy! But I try to hide it.
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
Radjin!
4. Are you easy to get along with?
I like to think I am. I'm a bit introverted though so some people mistake that for apathy.
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
Definitely!
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
People who I can relate to so easily.
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
Yep! We have a lease! =p But really, yes. I've never been happier.
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
Tricia Helfer
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
Depends on the time and place.
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Bass!
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
"lawl." XD
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
They're all country songs by Chase Rice. =p Lets just say his whole album.
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
I like it, yep.
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
I do!
15. What good thing happened this summer?
I got to move in with my beau. :D
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
I better get to! >\
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
Odds are yes.
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
Lol, no. Can't even remember his name.
19. Do you like bubble baths?
Not in a long, long time.
20. Do you like your neighbors?
They seem kinda loud. Maybe?
21. What are your bad habits?
Uhm...I'm a perfect angel! I may also be prone to hyperbole. >_>;
22. Where would you like to travel?
England.
23. Do you have trust issues?
I'm too trusting.
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
Watching TV with my beau. Just snuggling on the couch while the corgi plays.
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
All of it? XD
26. What do you do when you wake up?
Try to dodge the corgi whose woken me up. Every. God. Damn. Morning.
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
Darker. I would like to tan, not burn!
28. Who are you most comfortable around?
Bass!
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?
Nope.
30. Do you ever want to get married?
Yep!
31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?
Lol no.
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
A young Matt Damon would be fun.
33. Spell your name with your chin.
Chinberius
34. Do you play sports? What sports?
Used to play Raquet Ball.
35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
TV. Yay internet.
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
Yeah, wouldn't work out.
37. What do you say during awkward silences?
I try to make a joke.
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
I have him!
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
Favorite store...I love hobby stores, and shops with neat little things. I miss the Sharper Image.
40. What do you want to do after high school?
Go into IT...lol.
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
I do.
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
I'm thinking about something, I'm bothered, or day dreaming about space ships.
43. Do you smile at strangers?
Depends on if they look like they'll cut me if I make eye contact.
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
Can I have both?
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
The corgi.
46. What are you paranoid about?
What people think of me.
47. Have you ever been high?
Hotboxed.
48. Have you ever been drunk?
Yep, but not in awhile.
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
Yes. lol.
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
Red!
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
Now and then, but I think everyone does from time to time.
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
Be a bit thinner!
53. Favourite makeup brand?
Uhm... o.o
54. Favourite store?
Amazon?
55. Favourite blog?
None!
56. Favourite colour?
Blue
57. Favourite food?
Ramen!
58. Last thing you ate?
ice cream!
59. First thing you ate this morning?
I had some juice...then nothing until lunch!
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
A drawing context, writing contest...
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
I was a good kid.
62. Been arrested? For what?
Maybe too good a kid.
63. Ever been in love?
Definitely!
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
...Just leaned in and kissed him. Was awkward. I think I tried to choke him with my tongue. Was such a stupid kid.
65. Are you hungry right now?
Nope!
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?
Don't have Tumblr friends!
67. Facebook or Twitter?
Twitter!
68. Twitter or Tumblr?
Twitter!
69. Are you watching tv right now?
Netflix is going.
70. Names of your bestfriends?
Radjin, Tahoe, Kaliko, Bass! No particular order.
71. Craving something? What?
I could go for some Ramen.
72. What colour are your towels?
Brown!
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
Two.
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Nope
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
Too many. XD They're on the shelf.
75. Favourite animal?
Wolf
76. What colour is your underwear?
...Red. HAd to check.
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Psh. Chocolate.
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
COOKIE DOUGH
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
Black!
80. What colour pants?
Blue camo bear print pajama pants!
81. Favourite tv show?
Been enjoying the hell outta American Horror Story.
82. Favourite movie?
National Treasure.
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
Uhm...the first one.
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
Mean Girls!
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? o_o;;
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
I actually don't like Finding Nemo. XD
87. First person you talked to today?
Bass!
88. Last person you talked to today?
Kaliko!
89. Name a person you hate?
Nope.
90. Name a person you love?
Bass!
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
Anyone at Fox News would be good.
92. In a fight with someone?
I don't think so?
93. How many sweatpants do you have?
None.
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
Too many.
95. Last movie you watched?
I watched Star Trek II yesterday?
96. Favourite actress?
Tricia Helfer
97. Favourite actor?
Iunno! I don't think about these things.
98. Do you tan a lot?
I BURN.
99. Have any pets?
Corgi!
100. How are you feeling?
Tired. A little lonely, but that's normal.
101. Do you type fast?
I like to think so.
102. Do you regret anything from your past?
Don't we all?
103. Can you spell well?
Yes and no.
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
Yep.
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
Yep.
106. Ever broken someone’s heart?
Yep.
107. Have you ever been on a horse?
Yep. Learned to ride when I was 8.
108. What should you be doing?
Probably getting to bed.
109. Is something irritating you right now?
Nah.
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
Oh yes.
111. Do you have trust issues?
I think so.
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Bass.
113. What was your childhood nickname?
Never had one.
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
Many times.
115. Do you play the Wii?
Sometimes.
116. Are you listening to music right now?
Never.
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
FAVORITE COMFORT FOOD
118. Do you like Chinese food?
Some!
119. Favourite book?
The Talisman.
120. Are you afraid of the dark?
Not always.
121. Are you mean?
Nope! Now shut up before I hit ya!
122. Is cheating ever okay?
Like cheating on me? No. Cheating on little things? Depends on the situation.
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
Not forever.
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yep.
125. Do you believe in true love?
Yep.
126. Are you currently bored?
I'm doing this, aren't I?
127. What makes you happy?
My friends.
128. Would you change your name?
Thinking about it.
129. What your zodiac sign?
Pisces.
130. Do you like subway?
I do. Haven't had it in awhile...hmmmm...
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
They'd know I was gay.
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Bass. Didn't I answer this one earlier?
133. Favourite lyrics right now?
Nah. pass.
134. Can you count to one million?
I'm sure I could.
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
"I don't know how that porn got there."
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
Closed.
137. How tall are you?
5'8"
138. Curly or Straight hair?
Straight
139. Brunette or Blonde?
Middle of both.
140. Summer or Winter?
Winter
141. Night or Day?
Night
142. Favourite month?
December.
143. Are you a vegetarian?
GIMME MEAT.
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
I like milk.
145. Tea or Coffee?
COFFEE!
146. Was today a good day?
Gotta have the bad to appreciate the good.
147. Mars or Snickers?
Neither
148. What’s your favourite quote?
It's the quote on my journal.
149. Do you believe in ghosts?'
I lived in a haunted house. I definitely believe in them.
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?
"In 1910, the leadership of the Templar Order met to devise what came to be simply known as the Plan, a stratagem that would ensure that their vision of capitalism would not only see the light of day, but would literally become the basis of modern society." -- Assassin's Creed Compendium.
1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
My man, Bass.
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
Shy! But I try to hide it.
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
Radjin!
4. Are you easy to get along with?
I like to think I am. I'm a bit introverted though so some people mistake that for apathy.
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
Definitely!
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
People who I can relate to so easily.
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
Yep! We have a lease! =p But really, yes. I've never been happier.
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
Tricia Helfer
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
Depends on the time and place.
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Bass!
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
"lawl." XD
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
They're all country songs by Chase Rice. =p Lets just say his whole album.
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
I like it, yep.
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
I do!
15. What good thing happened this summer?
I got to move in with my beau. :D
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
I better get to! >\
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
Odds are yes.
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
Lol, no. Can't even remember his name.
19. Do you like bubble baths?
Not in a long, long time.
20. Do you like your neighbors?
They seem kinda loud. Maybe?
21. What are your bad habits?
Uhm...I'm a perfect angel! I may also be prone to hyperbole. >_>;
22. Where would you like to travel?
England.
23. Do you have trust issues?
I'm too trusting.
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
Watching TV with my beau. Just snuggling on the couch while the corgi plays.
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
All of it? XD
26. What do you do when you wake up?
Try to dodge the corgi whose woken me up. Every. God. Damn. Morning.
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
Darker. I would like to tan, not burn!
28. Who are you most comfortable around?
Bass!
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?
Nope.
30. Do you ever want to get married?
Yep!
31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?
Lol no.
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
A young Matt Damon would be fun.
33. Spell your name with your chin.
Chinberius
34. Do you play sports? What sports?
Used to play Raquet Ball.
35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
TV. Yay internet.
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
Yeah, wouldn't work out.
37. What do you say during awkward silences?
I try to make a joke.
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
I have him!
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
Favorite store...I love hobby stores, and shops with neat little things. I miss the Sharper Image.
40. What do you want to do after high school?
Go into IT...lol.
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
I do.
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
I'm thinking about something, I'm bothered, or day dreaming about space ships.
43. Do you smile at strangers?
Depends on if they look like they'll cut me if I make eye contact.
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
Can I have both?
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
The corgi.
46. What are you paranoid about?
What people think of me.
47. Have you ever been high?
Hotboxed.
48. Have you ever been drunk?
Yep, but not in awhile.
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
Yes. lol.
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
Red!
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
Now and then, but I think everyone does from time to time.
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
Be a bit thinner!
53. Favourite makeup brand?
Uhm... o.o
54. Favourite store?
Amazon?
55. Favourite blog?
None!
56. Favourite colour?
Blue
57. Favourite food?
Ramen!
58. Last thing you ate?
ice cream!
59. First thing you ate this morning?
I had some juice...then nothing until lunch!
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
A drawing context, writing contest...
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
I was a good kid.
62. Been arrested? For what?
Maybe too good a kid.
63. Ever been in love?
Definitely!
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
...Just leaned in and kissed him. Was awkward. I think I tried to choke him with my tongue. Was such a stupid kid.
65. Are you hungry right now?
Nope!
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?
Don't have Tumblr friends!
67. Facebook or Twitter?
Twitter!
68. Twitter or Tumblr?
Twitter!
69. Are you watching tv right now?
Netflix is going.
70. Names of your bestfriends?
Radjin, Tahoe, Kaliko, Bass! No particular order.
71. Craving something? What?
I could go for some Ramen.
72. What colour are your towels?
Brown!
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
Two.
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Nope
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
Too many. XD They're on the shelf.
75. Favourite animal?
Wolf
76. What colour is your underwear?
...Red. HAd to check.
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Psh. Chocolate.
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
COOKIE DOUGH
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
Black!
80. What colour pants?
Blue camo bear print pajama pants!
81. Favourite tv show?
Been enjoying the hell outta American Horror Story.
82. Favourite movie?
National Treasure.
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
Uhm...the first one.
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
Mean Girls!
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? o_o;;
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
I actually don't like Finding Nemo. XD
87. First person you talked to today?
Bass!
88. Last person you talked to today?
Kaliko!
89. Name a person you hate?
Nope.
90. Name a person you love?
Bass!
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
Anyone at Fox News would be good.
92. In a fight with someone?
I don't think so?
93. How many sweatpants do you have?
None.
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
Too many.
95. Last movie you watched?
I watched Star Trek II yesterday?
96. Favourite actress?
Tricia Helfer
97. Favourite actor?
Iunno! I don't think about these things.
98. Do you tan a lot?
I BURN.
99. Have any pets?
Corgi!
100. How are you feeling?
Tired. A little lonely, but that's normal.
101. Do you type fast?
I like to think so.
102. Do you regret anything from your past?
Don't we all?
103. Can you spell well?
Yes and no.
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
Yep.
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
Yep.
106. Ever broken someone’s heart?
Yep.
107. Have you ever been on a horse?
Yep. Learned to ride when I was 8.
108. What should you be doing?
Probably getting to bed.
109. Is something irritating you right now?
Nah.
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
Oh yes.
111. Do you have trust issues?
I think so.
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Bass.
113. What was your childhood nickname?
Never had one.
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
Many times.
115. Do you play the Wii?
Sometimes.
116. Are you listening to music right now?
Never.
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
FAVORITE COMFORT FOOD
118. Do you like Chinese food?
Some!
119. Favourite book?
The Talisman.
120. Are you afraid of the dark?
Not always.
121. Are you mean?
Nope! Now shut up before I hit ya!
122. Is cheating ever okay?
Like cheating on me? No. Cheating on little things? Depends on the situation.
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
Not forever.
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yep.
125. Do you believe in true love?
Yep.
126. Are you currently bored?
I'm doing this, aren't I?
127. What makes you happy?
My friends.
128. Would you change your name?
Thinking about it.
129. What your zodiac sign?
Pisces.
130. Do you like subway?
I do. Haven't had it in awhile...hmmmm...
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
They'd know I was gay.
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Bass. Didn't I answer this one earlier?
133. Favourite lyrics right now?
Nah. pass.
134. Can you count to one million?
I'm sure I could.
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
"I don't know how that porn got there."
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
Closed.
137. How tall are you?
5'8"
138. Curly or Straight hair?
Straight
139. Brunette or Blonde?
Middle of both.
140. Summer or Winter?
Winter
141. Night or Day?
Night
142. Favourite month?
December.
143. Are you a vegetarian?
GIMME MEAT.
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
I like milk.
145. Tea or Coffee?
COFFEE!
146. Was today a good day?
Gotta have the bad to appreciate the good.
147. Mars or Snickers?
Neither
148. What’s your favourite quote?
It's the quote on my journal.
149. Do you believe in ghosts?'
I lived in a haunted house. I definitely believe in them.
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?
"In 1910, the leadership of the Templar Order met to devise what came to be simply known as the Plan, a stratagem that would ensure that their vision of capitalism would not only see the light of day, but would literally become the basis of modern society." -- Assassin's Creed Compendium.
2013 In Retrospect
General | Posted 12 years agoThe year is coming for a close (Or has come to a close for some of you!) and I wanted to just take a moment and reflect on the past year.
It's been a rough year for me and those close to me. I've seen people I truly love and care about go through some rough and emotional situations. I've seen friends laugh and cry and I've seen friendships grow and end. I can't say I always made the best decisions this last year but I did try my best; and I've done my best to keep my friendships strong. Unfortunately friendships come and go and some have moved on. I wish those people well in life and I am deeply honored you kept me close for as long as you did!
My biggest change in life this year was moving from California to Texas. I didn't know how I'd feel about it. I was scared, nervous, and stressed. Work had been driving me insane, along with struggles of people close to me, and being away from Bass, it wasn't easy. I had definitely slipped into a live day-to-day kind of mode and escaping from the stresses of reality whenever I could. I know it wasn't the smartest thing in the world and in retrospect I would have handled some of those situations differently. However, I don't dwell on the mistakes of the past and am trying my best to learn from them.
I will say that living in Texas has been a pleasant surprise. I had never driven that far before and I had a lot of fun seeing the country with Bass. I'll always have some wonderfully fond memories of Flagstaff Arizona and the expanse that is New Mexico! I've made some wonderful friends here in Texas, and of course I miss my friends in California. Just because I moved doesn't mean those friendships end, in my opinion at least, and I will maintain them as best I can!
Anyway, it's kind of a rambling journal. I don't really know why I wanted to say these things, only that putting it down on digital paper feels good. I've made some great decisions and some awful ones. For those of you who've helped me through this rough time of my life, thank you. I couldn't have done it without you! For those of you I may have accidentally burned without realizing it, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to.
Anyway, here's to 2014 and adventure!
It's been a rough year for me and those close to me. I've seen people I truly love and care about go through some rough and emotional situations. I've seen friends laugh and cry and I've seen friendships grow and end. I can't say I always made the best decisions this last year but I did try my best; and I've done my best to keep my friendships strong. Unfortunately friendships come and go and some have moved on. I wish those people well in life and I am deeply honored you kept me close for as long as you did!
My biggest change in life this year was moving from California to Texas. I didn't know how I'd feel about it. I was scared, nervous, and stressed. Work had been driving me insane, along with struggles of people close to me, and being away from Bass, it wasn't easy. I had definitely slipped into a live day-to-day kind of mode and escaping from the stresses of reality whenever I could. I know it wasn't the smartest thing in the world and in retrospect I would have handled some of those situations differently. However, I don't dwell on the mistakes of the past and am trying my best to learn from them.
I will say that living in Texas has been a pleasant surprise. I had never driven that far before and I had a lot of fun seeing the country with Bass. I'll always have some wonderfully fond memories of Flagstaff Arizona and the expanse that is New Mexico! I've made some wonderful friends here in Texas, and of course I miss my friends in California. Just because I moved doesn't mean those friendships end, in my opinion at least, and I will maintain them as best I can!
Anyway, it's kind of a rambling journal. I don't really know why I wanted to say these things, only that putting it down on digital paper feels good. I've made some great decisions and some awful ones. For those of you who've helped me through this rough time of my life, thank you. I couldn't have done it without you! For those of you I may have accidentally burned without realizing it, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to.
Anyway, here's to 2014 and adventure!
Story Commissions -- OPEN
General | Posted 12 years agoHey everybody,
I know, long time no talk, but here's the deal. I'm in a bit of a financial difficulty at present and I need to revitalize my writing mojo -- which is where this idea came from. I've had several people come to me in the past and asked me about writing custom made stories for their character, backstory, whatever.
I know the market isn't high for this, and I know its not going to make my problems fall away, but I'm willing to give it a go if you are!
If you decide to do this, price will be based upon requested length of story. I can do a lot, change in perspective, location, character type and sexy moment. I have no problems writing something sad or negative. What I do have problems with is writing stories set in a very defined universe -- think Sonic the Hedgehog in his world -- its hard to be so constrained but its not impossible.
Anyway, hit me up with a note or a reply and we can work something out. My Paypal is TiberiusRings[at]gmail.com
Thanks for your time and patience!
-Tibby
I know, long time no talk, but here's the deal. I'm in a bit of a financial difficulty at present and I need to revitalize my writing mojo -- which is where this idea came from. I've had several people come to me in the past and asked me about writing custom made stories for their character, backstory, whatever.
I know the market isn't high for this, and I know its not going to make my problems fall away, but I'm willing to give it a go if you are!
If you decide to do this, price will be based upon requested length of story. I can do a lot, change in perspective, location, character type and sexy moment. I have no problems writing something sad or negative. What I do have problems with is writing stories set in a very defined universe -- think Sonic the Hedgehog in his world -- its hard to be so constrained but its not impossible.
Anyway, hit me up with a note or a reply and we can work something out. My Paypal is TiberiusRings[at]gmail.com
Thanks for your time and patience!
-Tibby
Changes 'n Stuff
General | Posted 12 years agoSo I don't know how many people were aware (if you follow me on Twitter I'm sure you knew by now) but I moved in with 
Bass
Life takes so many random and wild turns that we decided it was a good idea for me to leave California and move to Texas. ( I know, Bay Area to DFW is a change, but I had little holding me there and I wanted a change). We had an epic drive across country and I have mad respect for anyone who drives for a living, that shit is exhausting!
Anyway, I'm in Texas now! I haven't seen a single shoot out yet, or a cattle drive, or had a gun pulled on me. I think the Liberal Media has been lying to me.
Anyway, peace!
Bass Life takes so many random and wild turns that we decided it was a good idea for me to leave California and move to Texas. ( I know, Bay Area to DFW is a change, but I had little holding me there and I wanted a change). We had an epic drive across country and I have mad respect for anyone who drives for a living, that shit is exhausting!
Anyway, I'm in Texas now! I haven't seen a single shoot out yet, or a cattle drive, or had a gun pulled on me. I think the Liberal Media has been lying to me.
Anyway, peace!
FC, Volleyball, and Friends
General | Posted 13 years agoHowdy everyone!
I know I don't make journals often but that's intentional -- I microblog on Twitter quite often and that's where a LOT of my random musings end up (As well as political tweets, nerdy tweets, and so forth) but right now I'll share my experience at FC 2013.
This year was my third FC. FC Will always hold a special place to me because, three years ago, it was my first con ever. I got to experience it once at the Fairmont and now twice at the San Jose convention center. Below are my thoughts and feelings about what went on.
I got to stay in both hotels this year and I have to say that the Hilton won out this year. A lot of the problems voiced by attendees from 2012 seemed addressed. Staying at the Hilton didn't come with any of the problems a lot of friends at the Marriott were experiencing, such as elevator controls, an unresponsive air conditioner, and dirty room issues. The Hilton had no elevator wait outside of something you'd expect at a hotel, the rooms were large, spacious, and had some amazing views. Overall I think next year I'm booking a room at the Hilton completely.
I hung out with a lot of old friends this year including
Radjinwolf
Kashra 
Rudder to name a few. Rudder was my wingman this whole convention and was an amazing sport by allowing me to hijack his Twitter account and post obscene, out of character tweets. If anyone was offended by them don't blame him, it was mere completely and you should totally go watch him if you get the chance.
The Volleyball thing I saw happen was rather sad. While I can understand the initial anger of an overgeneralized comment, its best to step back and realize that perception is reality, and attacking someone who doesn't understand you isn't going to automatically sway their opinion. The girl in question did learn that the internet does not protect you from outlandish comments and that's fine. What crossed the line, in my opinion, was when people linked her straight up porn, said terrible and insulting things, and really didn't let up even after the FC Twitter account told the fandom to calm down. We're adults, she's a minor, and while age may not mean much to a lot of people it matters a whole lot to her parents and the law. That being said I'm glad it calmed down and things moved forward. I didn't hear anything about it again the rest of the convention.
I got to meet so many new friends, friends who I've known online for so long but never met in person. Had an epic Magic game in the game room Sunday night, had some great food...
And Single Barrel. My god, such an amazing place. Go there if you can!
Anyway, that's my thoughts on FC2013!
I know I don't make journals often but that's intentional -- I microblog on Twitter quite often and that's where a LOT of my random musings end up (As well as political tweets, nerdy tweets, and so forth) but right now I'll share my experience at FC 2013.
This year was my third FC. FC Will always hold a special place to me because, three years ago, it was my first con ever. I got to experience it once at the Fairmont and now twice at the San Jose convention center. Below are my thoughts and feelings about what went on.
I got to stay in both hotels this year and I have to say that the Hilton won out this year. A lot of the problems voiced by attendees from 2012 seemed addressed. Staying at the Hilton didn't come with any of the problems a lot of friends at the Marriott were experiencing, such as elevator controls, an unresponsive air conditioner, and dirty room issues. The Hilton had no elevator wait outside of something you'd expect at a hotel, the rooms were large, spacious, and had some amazing views. Overall I think next year I'm booking a room at the Hilton completely.
I hung out with a lot of old friends this year including
Radjinwolf
Kashra 
Rudder to name a few. Rudder was my wingman this whole convention and was an amazing sport by allowing me to hijack his Twitter account and post obscene, out of character tweets. If anyone was offended by them don't blame him, it was mere completely and you should totally go watch him if you get the chance. The Volleyball thing I saw happen was rather sad. While I can understand the initial anger of an overgeneralized comment, its best to step back and realize that perception is reality, and attacking someone who doesn't understand you isn't going to automatically sway their opinion. The girl in question did learn that the internet does not protect you from outlandish comments and that's fine. What crossed the line, in my opinion, was when people linked her straight up porn, said terrible and insulting things, and really didn't let up even after the FC Twitter account told the fandom to calm down. We're adults, she's a minor, and while age may not mean much to a lot of people it matters a whole lot to her parents and the law. That being said I'm glad it calmed down and things moved forward. I didn't hear anything about it again the rest of the convention.
I got to meet so many new friends, friends who I've known online for so long but never met in person. Had an epic Magic game in the game room Sunday night, had some great food...
And Single Barrel. My god, such an amazing place. Go there if you can!
Anyway, that's my thoughts on FC2013!
Weasyl
General | Posted 13 years agoSo yeah,
I'm not going to twist anyone's arm but I'm there now :D
https://www.weasyl.com/profile/tiberiusrings
You should take a look!
I'm not going to twist anyone's arm but I'm there now :D
https://www.weasyl.com/profile/tiberiusrings
You should take a look!
FCN 2012 Con Report
General | Posted 13 years agoHey everyone!
Been a long time since I did a journal, huh? Anyway I'll share with ya'll my experience in the Mid-West!
Yes, I went to FCN2012. I know, I wasn't very vocal about it BUT it was a blast regardless. Plus getting to surprise a few friends when they saw me there was almost worth it! Anyway, I left California Wednesday night with radjinwolf and landed early Thursday morning. Radjin's family is actually from Detroit so we spent Thursday with them and I had so many questions answered about Radjin's mannerisms! But alas, that's not for a journal!
Radjin and I hit up the con Friday and roomed with
brutusdbernard and Wolfine (Brutus' boyfriend, I can't find him on FA anywhere!) We'd been chatting on Twitter for almost a year and were close enough as friends that we felt comfortable enough to room with them.
What else can I say? I got to see
Tahoe debut his fursuit for the first time and I got to post one of the first pictures of it on Twitter (complete with hat thievery!), got to hang out with people like 
duskdargent and 
NovaShepherd and various other people. I actually watched my first fursuit parade even though this was my fourth con.
The bar at FCN was amazing! Definitely a wonderful place to hang out and enjoy reasonably priced drinks. The bartenders were all amazing, fully into the con and had a good time. One of them, I believe the one who was actually in the con's contract, made me a Portal shot with red and blue liquids and I had to share it with a friend per her orders. She wouldn't, sadly, tell me what was in it but the blue one had a distinct raspberry and blueberry taste.
The location, the people, everything was awesome. I had so much fun at FCN2012 that I'm more than certain I'll go back again. It was definitely fun stepping out of my West Coast bubble and seeing a whole new group of furs and seeing very few California furs for a change. I'm always up and open for meeting new people and making new friends. FCN2012 definitely accomplished that for me. It also made me realize how badly I want a fursuit. Mostly because Brutus was a fursuit whore and stopped every one we passed.
Oh yeah, I also got a few awesome sketches. Two by
markhale and 
Bauske with one being a Portal reference! I'll try and get them scanned in later.
Anyway, I had a lot of fun and will more than likely be there for FCN2013!
Been a long time since I did a journal, huh? Anyway I'll share with ya'll my experience in the Mid-West!
Yes, I went to FCN2012. I know, I wasn't very vocal about it BUT it was a blast regardless. Plus getting to surprise a few friends when they saw me there was almost worth it! Anyway, I left California Wednesday night with
radjinwolf and landed early Thursday morning. Radjin's family is actually from Detroit so we spent Thursday with them and I had so many questions answered about Radjin's mannerisms! But alas, that's not for a journal!Radjin and I hit up the con Friday and roomed with
brutusdbernard and Wolfine (Brutus' boyfriend, I can't find him on FA anywhere!) We'd been chatting on Twitter for almost a year and were close enough as friends that we felt comfortable enough to room with them. What else can I say? I got to see
Tahoe debut his fursuit for the first time and I got to post one of the first pictures of it on Twitter (complete with hat thievery!), got to hang out with people like 
duskdargent and 
NovaShepherd and various other people. I actually watched my first fursuit parade even though this was my fourth con. The bar at FCN was amazing! Definitely a wonderful place to hang out and enjoy reasonably priced drinks. The bartenders were all amazing, fully into the con and had a good time. One of them, I believe the one who was actually in the con's contract, made me a Portal shot with red and blue liquids and I had to share it with a friend per her orders. She wouldn't, sadly, tell me what was in it but the blue one had a distinct raspberry and blueberry taste.
The location, the people, everything was awesome. I had so much fun at FCN2012 that I'm more than certain I'll go back again. It was definitely fun stepping out of my West Coast bubble and seeing a whole new group of furs and seeing very few California furs for a change. I'm always up and open for meeting new people and making new friends. FCN2012 definitely accomplished that for me. It also made me realize how badly I want a fursuit. Mostly because Brutus was a fursuit whore and stopped every one we passed.
Oh yeah, I also got a few awesome sketches. Two by
markhale and 
Bauske with one being a Portal reference! I'll try and get them scanned in later. Anyway, I had a lot of fun and will more than likely be there for FCN2013!
Final Fantasy XI and Nostalgia
General | Posted 13 years agoBeen awhile since I wrote a journal so I figured I'd write this one!
Everyone has something they remember fondly; a book, a movie, or a video game. Years ago I was a far greater weaboo than I am today. I was glued to most things Final Fantasy (Note: This was back when the franchise still had good story telling) and Final Fantasy XI was right around the corner. I remember clearly that I upgraded my silly old computer back in 2003 for the express purpose of playing this game and had my Dad get my copy of the game from the GameStop on his way home from work.
I spent years in Final Fantasy XI and have some amazing memories. I've met and maintained some awesome friends in that game that have actually transcended it and the adventures I'll have in there are looked back on with a sense of epic awe. "Did we really take a WHOLE alliance of level 30 players up Delkfutt's Tower?!" "Did we really run a whole Alliance around the world to get the items for your Airship pass?"! "What, a whole alliance to get my pimp hat?!"
That's one thing I miss from current MMORPG's. The sense of community has been removed. While I understand it's a good business practice to reduce the difficulty and focus more on solo content, it's painful sometimes. There were a lot of boring times in Final Fantasy XI, such as standing around looking for a party in Jeuno, but there were some amazing adventures too. In today's games there just isn't the same feel. Going to a dungeon and fighting bosses for loot is fun but its such a different dynamic then older games. Part of the fun, sometimes, was going across the deadly landscape, casting Sneak + Invisible and running through deadly tunnels to that one sweet camp site. People had secret spots and a good group could get you leveling so very fast. (Rangers, anyone?).
I was recently talking to a new friend about his own experiences in the game and yes, we share a lot of things, and it did inspire me, briefly, to try and return to the game. However I realized that if I went back I would never capture what I felt back then. Nostalgia is a powerful thing and I feel like if I did venture back into the history-rich world of Vana'diel again it would be different. An expansion and various add-ons have come out since i left the game and the world has undoubtedly changed. Friends are gone and the landscapes where I used to venture forth with friends for experience points are probably void of life. The game has moved out of it's peak and is on a slow and subtle decline, but I will always remember my time in that game.
Why do I remember such memories fondly? The whole idea of an MMORPG is a fictional sense of accomplishment but when compared to modern MMORPGs the accomplishments in FF XI were a lot more extreme and harder to achieve. It took effort to get to Jeuno, get your chocobo, airship pass, your ranks, your missions, and if you wanted the full story of the game you had to work at it. When you did something amazing like defeat a Prime Shiva or Ifirit with a balanced party you felt epic. You stormed a volcano to fight the g'damn thing!
Oh well. I've decided to keep Final Fantasy XI in my memories. I'd rather look back and remember it as a vivid world full of friends and challenges. Not the empty shell it has probably become.
Everyone has something they remember fondly; a book, a movie, or a video game. Years ago I was a far greater weaboo than I am today. I was glued to most things Final Fantasy (Note: This was back when the franchise still had good story telling) and Final Fantasy XI was right around the corner. I remember clearly that I upgraded my silly old computer back in 2003 for the express purpose of playing this game and had my Dad get my copy of the game from the GameStop on his way home from work.
I spent years in Final Fantasy XI and have some amazing memories. I've met and maintained some awesome friends in that game that have actually transcended it and the adventures I'll have in there are looked back on with a sense of epic awe. "Did we really take a WHOLE alliance of level 30 players up Delkfutt's Tower?!" "Did we really run a whole Alliance around the world to get the items for your Airship pass?"! "What, a whole alliance to get my pimp hat?!"
That's one thing I miss from current MMORPG's. The sense of community has been removed. While I understand it's a good business practice to reduce the difficulty and focus more on solo content, it's painful sometimes. There were a lot of boring times in Final Fantasy XI, such as standing around looking for a party in Jeuno, but there were some amazing adventures too. In today's games there just isn't the same feel. Going to a dungeon and fighting bosses for loot is fun but its such a different dynamic then older games. Part of the fun, sometimes, was going across the deadly landscape, casting Sneak + Invisible and running through deadly tunnels to that one sweet camp site. People had secret spots and a good group could get you leveling so very fast. (Rangers, anyone?).
I was recently talking to a new friend about his own experiences in the game and yes, we share a lot of things, and it did inspire me, briefly, to try and return to the game. However I realized that if I went back I would never capture what I felt back then. Nostalgia is a powerful thing and I feel like if I did venture back into the history-rich world of Vana'diel again it would be different. An expansion and various add-ons have come out since i left the game and the world has undoubtedly changed. Friends are gone and the landscapes where I used to venture forth with friends for experience points are probably void of life. The game has moved out of it's peak and is on a slow and subtle decline, but I will always remember my time in that game.
Why do I remember such memories fondly? The whole idea of an MMORPG is a fictional sense of accomplishment but when compared to modern MMORPGs the accomplishments in FF XI were a lot more extreme and harder to achieve. It took effort to get to Jeuno, get your chocobo, airship pass, your ranks, your missions, and if you wanted the full story of the game you had to work at it. When you did something amazing like defeat a Prime Shiva or Ifirit with a balanced party you felt epic. You stormed a volcano to fight the g'damn thing!
Oh well. I've decided to keep Final Fantasy XI in my memories. I'd rather look back and remember it as a vivid world full of friends and challenges. Not the empty shell it has probably become.
FC 2012 Con Report
General | Posted 14 years agoHowdy All!
I'm tired as hellllllll!!! I really can't describe how much cons wipe me out BUT I will say that I had a blast.
FC 2012 was my third con EVER and the only repeat con I've been to (FC 2011 was my first) and it was at the new location, the SJ convention center with the Hilton and Marriot flanking the convention center.
I had such a great time. I only had a room at the Marriot for Friday and Saturday because I'm a local SJ resident who lives like ten minutes from the hotel. I managed to get there early Thursday after picking up a few pals from the hotel.
What can I say about a con that everyone hasn't heard all ready? I got to see old friends like
Linkin_monroe and Tahoe and see a bunch of local people again outside of our usual haunts! It was really wonderful to just see everyone again.
We even managed to squeeze in a game of Battlestar Galactica. Cylon's won. Sorry. I was also a cylon.
My biggest gripe about the whole con was the sensation of being spread out. According to Twitter on Sunday the convention was near 3,000 attendees. While that is a lot, the whole thing just felt spread too thin. There needs to be a zoo or something that everyone can just go to mingle. Having to sit in a lobby to just run into people was hard, especially since the Hilton was so far off in the distance.
One of the biggest highlights was getting an INCREDIBLE sketch of Tiberius and Luther from Red Lantern by the incredibly talented
Rukis I'll post it soonish. :D It's really good and I'm such a bottom in the pick. But I don't care. It's Luther.
Also, being the authority on furries in newsboy caps, wtf FC2012! I saw newsboy hats EVERYWHERE. If they're coming back in style then yes, 'cause I want more. But I got told a lot that I started a furry trend. Guess that makes me hipster, I was wearing those hats before they were cool.
And yes, I also look like my fursona. =) hoodie, hat, and shorts! I did forget the orange undershirt but oh well.
Time to relax and get this con crud out of my system.
-Tibs
I'm tired as hellllllll!!! I really can't describe how much cons wipe me out BUT I will say that I had a blast.
FC 2012 was my third con EVER and the only repeat con I've been to (FC 2011 was my first) and it was at the new location, the SJ convention center with the Hilton and Marriot flanking the convention center.
I had such a great time. I only had a room at the Marriot for Friday and Saturday because I'm a local SJ resident who lives like ten minutes from the hotel. I managed to get there early Thursday after picking up a few pals from the hotel.
What can I say about a con that everyone hasn't heard all ready? I got to see old friends like
Linkin_monroe and Tahoe and see a bunch of local people again outside of our usual haunts! It was really wonderful to just see everyone again. We even managed to squeeze in a game of Battlestar Galactica. Cylon's won. Sorry. I was also a cylon.
My biggest gripe about the whole con was the sensation of being spread out. According to Twitter on Sunday the convention was near 3,000 attendees. While that is a lot, the whole thing just felt spread too thin. There needs to be a zoo or something that everyone can just go to mingle. Having to sit in a lobby to just run into people was hard, especially since the Hilton was so far off in the distance.
One of the biggest highlights was getting an INCREDIBLE sketch of Tiberius and Luther from Red Lantern by the incredibly talented
Rukis I'll post it soonish. :D It's really good and I'm such a bottom in the pick. But I don't care. It's Luther. Also, being the authority on furries in newsboy caps, wtf FC2012! I saw newsboy hats EVERYWHERE. If they're coming back in style then yes, 'cause I want more. But I got told a lot that I started a furry trend. Guess that makes me hipster, I was wearing those hats before they were cool.
And yes, I also look like my fursona. =) hoodie, hat, and shorts! I did forget the orange undershirt but oh well.
Time to relax and get this con crud out of my system.
-Tibs
FC Meme -- I'm all ready here!
General | Posted 14 years ago- Where are you staying?
Marriot!
- When are you arriving and departing?
I live in the area. I'm about ten minutes away from Downtown San Jose. I am all ready here. =p I will be hanging out at the con Wednesday to Monday pretty much. We do have a room there.
- How are you getting there?
Car. If car breaks down other peoples cars!
- Rooming with?
Keto RadjinWolf kashra
- Who will I likely see you with?
Hard to say! So many friends are going to be there. I plan to be with varying groups of people. Probably always with at least one local fur.
- Con Plans?
Meeting friends, maybe getting some sketches done in my book, having fun and partying! I think
Rikoshi and I are going to do a con Battlestar Galactica boardgame thingee. We'll see!
- How can I find you?
Twitter! DMs and tweets. If you have my number a quick text works! (No, I don't just give my number out to just anyone).
- Do you do free art?
Don't draw!
- Do you do trades?
Give me good beer and I'll trade you anything you want. o.o
- Will you be going to parties?
Probably throwing my own but definitely!
- Will you be performing?
If I'm drunk, does that count as performing?
- Do you smoke?
Ew! No!
- Do you drink?
Yup! Want to buy me a beer?
- Gender
Male
- Can I hug you?
Yup!
- Can I talk to you?
Always
- Will you be at any panels?
Doubtful.
- Can I touch you?
I may charge you. o.o
- Can I buy you drinks?
Hell. Yes.
- How old are you?
26
- Can I snuggle with you?
Maybe! We'll talk at the con.
- If you're pissed off, should I approach you?
If I'm pissed off I'll probably go somewhere alone, soooo maybe?
- Are you nice?
Find me someone nicer.
- Cliquey?
I have a bunch of local, close friends that obviously know me pretty well. However, a con is about seeing those people you rarely get to see so I'll do my best to never come off as cliquey.
- How tall are you?
5'8"
- Can I take pictures of you?
If I'm naked...yes, but I get to delete them if I don't like the. =p
- Will you get anything commissioned?
Probably! I'm kind of an art whore.
- How can I get your attention?
Bring me a beer. You'll have my undivided attention.
Marriot!
- When are you arriving and departing?
I live in the area. I'm about ten minutes away from Downtown San Jose. I am all ready here. =p I will be hanging out at the con Wednesday to Monday pretty much. We do have a room there.
- How are you getting there?
Car. If car breaks down other peoples cars!
- Rooming with?
Keto RadjinWolf kashra- Who will I likely see you with?
Hard to say! So many friends are going to be there. I plan to be with varying groups of people. Probably always with at least one local fur.
- Con Plans?
Meeting friends, maybe getting some sketches done in my book, having fun and partying! I think
Rikoshi and I are going to do a con Battlestar Galactica boardgame thingee. We'll see!- How can I find you?
Twitter! DMs and tweets. If you have my number a quick text works! (No, I don't just give my number out to just anyone).
- Do you do free art?
Don't draw!
- Do you do trades?
Give me good beer and I'll trade you anything you want. o.o
- Will you be going to parties?
Probably throwing my own but definitely!
- Will you be performing?
If I'm drunk, does that count as performing?
- Do you smoke?
Ew! No!
- Do you drink?
Yup! Want to buy me a beer?
- Gender
Male
- Can I hug you?
Yup!
- Can I talk to you?
Always
- Will you be at any panels?
Doubtful.
- Can I touch you?
I may charge you. o.o
- Can I buy you drinks?
Hell. Yes.
- How old are you?
26
- Can I snuggle with you?
Maybe! We'll talk at the con.
- If you're pissed off, should I approach you?
If I'm pissed off I'll probably go somewhere alone, soooo maybe?
- Are you nice?
Find me someone nicer.
- Cliquey?
I have a bunch of local, close friends that obviously know me pretty well. However, a con is about seeing those people you rarely get to see so I'll do my best to never come off as cliquey.
- How tall are you?
5'8"
- Can I take pictures of you?
If I'm naked...yes, but I get to delete them if I don't like the. =p
- Will you get anything commissioned?
Probably! I'm kind of an art whore.
- How can I get your attention?
Bring me a beer. You'll have my undivided attention.
Fur Fright Con Report.
General | Posted 14 years agoSo I'm exhausted when writing this and relaxing for the couple hours I have before we go to the airport and head back home to California and recover from a wonderfully awesome con! Let me get started!
To be clear, Fur Fright 2011 was my second con ever (FC 2011 being my first), so I have very little to base some experiences on. This was also the first con in which I had to travel more then ten minutes to attend (I live just down the road from FC), so this was a whole new experience for me!
For those who don't know, FF this year had my mate, Keto as the guest of honor along with JD Puppy. That being said, my con experience was a little different then what I'm sure the average attendee experienced. This was also a first for Keto because he actually had to table in the 'Den for the first time ever! He sold a plethora of things from posters to amazing paper toys he designed with the help of our wonderful friend 
dbear
It was a unique experience sitting in the dealer's room helping Keto sell his things. People would come around and we'd talk, Keto would make some sales (or take sketches), and all in all just a great way to see a lot of people come about. I loved the experience all most as much as just chilling in the lobby and seeing friends come around.
I will say this con gave me a chance to meet a lot of east coast furry friends I've made via FA and Twitter. I really couldn't have asked for much more then that and apologize to anyone who I didn't get to spend a lot of time with; con's are an incredible experience and time, while we think is endless on Wednesday night, seems to have flown by at light speed by Sunday evening. If only we didn't have to sleep! (I tried not to!).
The dinner for the sponsors was wonderful, the Masquerade was awesome, including Keto laughing as loud as he could about a joke that had been made 30 seconds ago (Thanks JD for explaining it to him! All of us who have known him for awhile now knew that Keto had the joke explained to him when he bursted out laughing in the middle of Wag's skit. That's easily one of my favorite memories of the con).
The closing ceremonies were awesome, too! Xerxes ( I don't know which one, so if anyone knows a keyboard singing furry by the name of Xerxes let me know!) did a great song that wasn't able to be sung during the Masquerade for technical difficulties. And while the song took a playful shot at me I couldn't help but laugh (as did all my friends!).
For the record, the con was capped at 1.5k attendees this year. What was the grand total of those who were able to get badges? 1,485. Just fifteen furries off! Thats incredible. Wonder what it will be like next year.
It was wonderful seeing Belic again, meeting friends I hadn't seen since FC (or ever), and making new friends! I really couldn't ask for a better experience and Fur Fright was easily a great con.
My next con is FC 2012 and that can't come soon enough. I hope people make it out!
Oh yeah,
Keto pierced his nose.
That's all!
-Tibby
To be clear, Fur Fright 2011 was my second con ever (FC 2011 being my first), so I have very little to base some experiences on. This was also the first con in which I had to travel more then ten minutes to attend (I live just down the road from FC), so this was a whole new experience for me!
For those who don't know, FF this year had my mate,
Keto as the guest of honor along with JD Puppy. That being said, my con experience was a little different then what I'm sure the average attendee experienced. This was also a first for Keto because he actually had to table in the 'Den for the first time ever! He sold a plethora of things from posters to amazing paper toys he designed with the help of our wonderful friend 
dbear It was a unique experience sitting in the dealer's room helping Keto sell his things. People would come around and we'd talk, Keto would make some sales (or take sketches), and all in all just a great way to see a lot of people come about. I loved the experience all most as much as just chilling in the lobby and seeing friends come around.
I will say this con gave me a chance to meet a lot of east coast furry friends I've made via FA and Twitter. I really couldn't have asked for much more then that and apologize to anyone who I didn't get to spend a lot of time with; con's are an incredible experience and time, while we think is endless on Wednesday night, seems to have flown by at light speed by Sunday evening. If only we didn't have to sleep! (I tried not to!).
The dinner for the sponsors was wonderful, the Masquerade was awesome, including Keto laughing as loud as he could about a joke that had been made 30 seconds ago (Thanks JD for explaining it to him! All of us who have known him for awhile now knew that Keto had the joke explained to him when he bursted out laughing in the middle of Wag's skit. That's easily one of my favorite memories of the con).
The closing ceremonies were awesome, too! Xerxes ( I don't know which one, so if anyone knows a keyboard singing furry by the name of Xerxes let me know!) did a great song that wasn't able to be sung during the Masquerade for technical difficulties. And while the song took a playful shot at me I couldn't help but laugh (as did all my friends!).
For the record, the con was capped at 1.5k attendees this year. What was the grand total of those who were able to get badges? 1,485. Just fifteen furries off! Thats incredible. Wonder what it will be like next year.
It was wonderful seeing Belic again, meeting friends I hadn't seen since FC (or ever), and making new friends! I really couldn't ask for a better experience and Fur Fright was easily a great con.
My next con is FC 2012 and that can't come soon enough. I hope people make it out!
Oh yeah,
Keto pierced his nose.
That's all!
-Tibby
Fur Fright
General | Posted 14 years agoWhere are you staying?
The main hotel.
What day are you getting there?
Should be there by Thurs. Afternoon. Leaving Monday.
Who will you be staying with?
Keto kashra Radjinwolf
Who are you hanging out with?
Keto! I'll be helping him out when I can. Other then that, anyone who appears. Looking forward to meeting new people and seeing old friends.
What is your gender?
Man. But if you want to go down and look for me you're welcome...
How old are you?
The perfect age! :D
Can I talk to you?
Can you? I don't know! May you? Of course you can. I'm not a cliquey kinda guy. The only reason I may cut a conversation short is if I'm going from Point A to point B and need to get there quickly. Other then that I'm more than happy to stop and enjoy the moment with anyone!
Can I touch you?
Sure! Hugs, handshakes, back rubs, shoulder pats, etc. Though if the hand goes into the clothes you best have permission first!
Can I hang out with you?
Sure! I don't see why you can't hang out with me. Just make sure you don't reek of a gym or something or are leaking from a random orifice.
How can I find you?
I'll be with Keto a lot so if you can find him you'll probably find me. I'll also be keeping updates via Twitter and stuff so that's also a great way to find out where I am. You could always DM me on Twitter to find out where I am, too.
The main hotel.
What day are you getting there?
Should be there by Thurs. Afternoon. Leaving Monday.
Who will you be staying with?
Keto kashra RadjinwolfWho are you hanging out with?
Keto! I'll be helping him out when I can. Other then that, anyone who appears. Looking forward to meeting new people and seeing old friends.
What is your gender?
Man. But if you want to go down and look for me you're welcome...
How old are you?
The perfect age! :D
Can I talk to you?
Can you? I don't know! May you? Of course you can. I'm not a cliquey kinda guy. The only reason I may cut a conversation short is if I'm going from Point A to point B and need to get there quickly. Other then that I'm more than happy to stop and enjoy the moment with anyone!
Can I touch you?
Sure! Hugs, handshakes, back rubs, shoulder pats, etc. Though if the hand goes into the clothes you best have permission first!
Can I hang out with you?
Sure! I don't see why you can't hang out with me. Just make sure you don't reek of a gym or something or are leaking from a random orifice.
How can I find you?
I'll be with Keto a lot so if you can find him you'll probably find me. I'll also be keeping updates via Twitter and stuff so that's also a great way to find out where I am. You could always DM me on Twitter to find out where I am, too.
Hamlet's Father
General | Posted 14 years agoI had no idea what was swirling around this book until after I purchased it. I've been an avid reader of Orson Scott Card since High School when a friend suggested I give Ender's Game a shot. From that book I read both branches of the Ender/Bean saga, his Alvin Maker series, and a few random books of his here and there. Suffice it to say, I've read a majority of his books.
I told my room mates that i had ordered the book (Since I couldn't find it on my Kindle) and they both balked at the purchase. It was then that I was far more then just a simple rewrite of Hamlet, it included anti-gay themes that had recently upset the gay community to a froth. I was then posed with two choices A) Return the book or B) Read it for myself. I decided on the latter because I was a fan of Orson Scott Card and I wanted to see if the rage online was justified or if it was overreaction.
To clarify, the book (Novella) is really short. less then 100 pages (Keto joked I could finish it in a couple hours -- I did). It was originally published in an anthology of various works from various authors and didn't draw as much attention to itself until a publisher decided to print it as a stand alone book.
To get right down to it, yes, there is anti-gay tendency in the book right from the beginning. If you've never read anything by Card it usually is a journey of a young boy into adolescence and then adulthood. However, during a lot of those "boyhood" chapters, Card finds ways to make sure the boys are naked, in showers, etc, however his books never exhibited anything in terms of a homosexual relationship (or even a heterosexual, beyond a kiss or two).
The books strife between Hamlet and his father is he feels shut out of his father's word from a very early age. All he wants is to be taken on the hunt which he is always left behind. However, on each hunt one of Hamlet's friends is always taken and returns sad or disturbed. Horatio, upon his return from the hunt with Hamlet's father, is in near tears and very forlorn.
The book continues with elements such as this; Hamlet's friends are taken to have private time with Hamlet's father while Hamlet wonders what he's done wrong. There are remarks such as "You are the luckiest boy in Denmark," or "You have no idea how much your father loves you," implying that Hamlet's father is, obviously, not taking his son to be molested and raped out in the woods.
Ultimately the big reveal happens right at the end of the book with the confrontation of Cladius, where Hamlet's mother and Horatio reveal what really happened. In tears, Horatio explains that he is broken because of what happened with Hamlet's father (he actually tried seducing a young squire) and goes on to list all of Hamlet's friends, some of whom are angry and disturbed or who formed "foul" sexual relationships with one another.
So, in essence, the anger about the book is justified. It obviously casts homosexuality in a negative light but also classifies homosexuality in the same realm of pedophilia, molestation and rape.
It honestly surprised me that Card had written such things, using homosexuality and pedophilia as a literary avenue to move the plot along. There was no need to do this (granted it is a rewrite but this was very, very specific in terms of making gay = bad). The idea a famous author could do something like this, a writer who is actually being used in schools (Ender's Game) could publish such anti-gay sentiment. In a way one of my favorite authors is forever tainted in my eyes. I don't think I can ever truly enjoy one of his books again without thinking about Hamlet's story.
However, if (when) Card dies and they find his gay child porn folder on his computer I'll just say "HA" with the rest of the world.
That's all.
-Tibs
I told my room mates that i had ordered the book (Since I couldn't find it on my Kindle) and they both balked at the purchase. It was then that I was far more then just a simple rewrite of Hamlet, it included anti-gay themes that had recently upset the gay community to a froth. I was then posed with two choices A) Return the book or B) Read it for myself. I decided on the latter because I was a fan of Orson Scott Card and I wanted to see if the rage online was justified or if it was overreaction.
To clarify, the book (Novella) is really short. less then 100 pages (Keto joked I could finish it in a couple hours -- I did). It was originally published in an anthology of various works from various authors and didn't draw as much attention to itself until a publisher decided to print it as a stand alone book.
To get right down to it, yes, there is anti-gay tendency in the book right from the beginning. If you've never read anything by Card it usually is a journey of a young boy into adolescence and then adulthood. However, during a lot of those "boyhood" chapters, Card finds ways to make sure the boys are naked, in showers, etc, however his books never exhibited anything in terms of a homosexual relationship (or even a heterosexual, beyond a kiss or two).
The books strife between Hamlet and his father is he feels shut out of his father's word from a very early age. All he wants is to be taken on the hunt which he is always left behind. However, on each hunt one of Hamlet's friends is always taken and returns sad or disturbed. Horatio, upon his return from the hunt with Hamlet's father, is in near tears and very forlorn.
The book continues with elements such as this; Hamlet's friends are taken to have private time with Hamlet's father while Hamlet wonders what he's done wrong. There are remarks such as "You are the luckiest boy in Denmark," or "You have no idea how much your father loves you," implying that Hamlet's father is, obviously, not taking his son to be molested and raped out in the woods.
Ultimately the big reveal happens right at the end of the book with the confrontation of Cladius, where Hamlet's mother and Horatio reveal what really happened. In tears, Horatio explains that he is broken because of what happened with Hamlet's father (he actually tried seducing a young squire) and goes on to list all of Hamlet's friends, some of whom are angry and disturbed or who formed "foul" sexual relationships with one another.
So, in essence, the anger about the book is justified. It obviously casts homosexuality in a negative light but also classifies homosexuality in the same realm of pedophilia, molestation and rape.
It honestly surprised me that Card had written such things, using homosexuality and pedophilia as a literary avenue to move the plot along. There was no need to do this (granted it is a rewrite but this was very, very specific in terms of making gay = bad). The idea a famous author could do something like this, a writer who is actually being used in schools (Ender's Game) could publish such anti-gay sentiment. In a way one of my favorite authors is forever tainted in my eyes. I don't think I can ever truly enjoy one of his books again without thinking about Hamlet's story.
However, if (when) Card dies and they find his gay child porn folder on his computer I'll just say "HA" with the rest of the world.
That's all.
-Tibs
The End of a Mistake
General | Posted 14 years agoToday, September 20th, 2011 the end of Don't Ask Don't Tell ended for the United States Military. What does that mean for the nation? We're a little bit more progressive and a little more tolerant. Men and women who want to put their lives on the line to defend the country no longer have to fear being dishonorably discharged merely because of who they choose to love.
Does this mean the military will be waving the rainbow flag anytime soon? Probably not. Just because policy has changed doesn't mean the mentality of a lot of old commanders has changed. Progress takes time regardless of any political or governmental policy put in place. It is a clear indication that the youth of today are far more tolerant of homosexuality when compared to their parents (in a very generalized sense). The old guard will have to be slowly rotated out and that takes time.
I just felt like making a journal (I don't make many of them) was important for this event. I love American history and I am a gay man living in the United States. I have, currently, several friends who are gay and serve in several branches of the military, and I felt like recording my own personal feelings about the event. I'm just happy a mistake has been corrected and that a lot of soldiers can stop worrying about something they shouldn't have to worry about if they choose to defend this country.
In that note, a video! This was posted today and I wanted to share it. It's about a gay soldier serving in Germany who comes out to his family in Alabama about being gay (On today, with the end of DADT), and he gets nothing but love and support. Its a wonderful indication that times are changing. The soldier also shows his face for the first time online (He had been tweeting and making posts about being gay in the military but never showed his face).
Anyway, here's a link to the video: http://www.youtube.com/user/AreYouSuprised
Does this mean the military will be waving the rainbow flag anytime soon? Probably not. Just because policy has changed doesn't mean the mentality of a lot of old commanders has changed. Progress takes time regardless of any political or governmental policy put in place. It is a clear indication that the youth of today are far more tolerant of homosexuality when compared to their parents (in a very generalized sense). The old guard will have to be slowly rotated out and that takes time.
I just felt like making a journal (I don't make many of them) was important for this event. I love American history and I am a gay man living in the United States. I have, currently, several friends who are gay and serve in several branches of the military, and I felt like recording my own personal feelings about the event. I'm just happy a mistake has been corrected and that a lot of soldiers can stop worrying about something they shouldn't have to worry about if they choose to defend this country.
In that note, a video! This was posted today and I wanted to share it. It's about a gay soldier serving in Germany who comes out to his family in Alabama about being gay (On today, with the end of DADT), and he gets nothing but love and support. Its a wonderful indication that times are changing. The soldier also shows his face for the first time online (He had been tweeting and making posts about being gay in the military but never showed his face).
Anyway, here's a link to the video: http://www.youtube.com/user/AreYouSuprised
If You've Got Nothing Nice To Say (Meme)
General | Posted 14 years agoGoes to show if you've got nothing nice to say, don't say it at all. Why must we as society put each other down? It seems that's all we're good at, putting each other down and not lifting each other up.
I want people to say something good and lift others up. Lets be positive eh?
Find 10 people, give them a nice compliment
Let those people know how you about them.
Tag some friends (optional)
Re-post this journal.
1) keto I'm starting with you because you're so much more than just a mate to me. From the moment I met you you've made me smile and find the good in everything. You make my days brighter.
2) radjinwolf You're so much like a father to me. You've helped me on things from money to my papers for school. I owe you so much you can't believe.
3) kashra You're so smart! But really, your intelligence and knowledge of just about everything is refreshing. You keep me in check and when you're around it saves me a trip to Wikipedia. =)
4)
kaliko You've been a fan of my writing from the get-go. You stuck with me for the longest time and you're someone I can always turn to for help. Emotionally you're a rock to me and you get my sense of humor. You can also take a punch!
5)
archwolf You've been a good friend going on ten years. You're down to earth and give me a reality check on things. Plus you watch West Wing. I <3 you for that.
6)
november You're so cheerful and silly! You're combative in shooters and you're a nice guy all around! You help inspire me and I love swapping stories about Housing and Resident Life stuff!
7) linkin_monroe You're a sweet dobie. You're a blast to talk to online and hanging out at FC you made the con for me in so many ways. I still look back on the pictures I have and smile!
8) tahoe You're smarmy and funny. You let me tease you about being a ferret and you tease me back! I love your sense of humor and I can't imagine not being friends with you.
9:
kayko I love chatting with you! You get what I say and you like to talk shop with me about writing to random books we read. We have the same taste!
10: dbear We've only been friends a short time BUT you're awesome guy. You're creative and brilliant and talking to you is inspirational. Your sense of humor makes me smile and you bring my mate so much happiness. For that alone I consider you one special guy!
I'd name more BUT its late. <3 you all.
I want people to say something good and lift others up. Lets be positive eh?
Find 10 people, give them a nice compliment
Let those people know how you about them.
Tag some friends (optional)
Re-post this journal.
1)
keto I'm starting with you because you're so much more than just a mate to me. From the moment I met you you've made me smile and find the good in everything. You make my days brighter. 2)
radjinwolf You're so much like a father to me. You've helped me on things from money to my papers for school. I owe you so much you can't believe.3)
kashra You're so smart! But really, your intelligence and knowledge of just about everything is refreshing. You keep me in check and when you're around it saves me a trip to Wikipedia. =) 4)
kaliko You've been a fan of my writing from the get-go. You stuck with me for the longest time and you're someone I can always turn to for help. Emotionally you're a rock to me and you get my sense of humor. You can also take a punch!5)
archwolf You've been a good friend going on ten years. You're down to earth and give me a reality check on things. Plus you watch West Wing. I <3 you for that.6)
november You're so cheerful and silly! You're combative in shooters and you're a nice guy all around! You help inspire me and I love swapping stories about Housing and Resident Life stuff!7)
linkin_monroe You're a sweet dobie. You're a blast to talk to online and hanging out at FC you made the con for me in so many ways. I still look back on the pictures I have and smile! 8)
tahoe You're smarmy and funny. You let me tease you about being a ferret and you tease me back! I love your sense of humor and I can't imagine not being friends with you.9:
kayko I love chatting with you! You get what I say and you like to talk shop with me about writing to random books we read. We have the same taste!10:
dbear We've only been friends a short time BUT you're awesome guy. You're creative and brilliant and talking to you is inspirational. Your sense of humor makes me smile and you bring my mate so much happiness. For that alone I consider you one special guy!I'd name more BUT its late. <3 you all.
Tagged meme.
General | Posted 14 years agoI don't really know anyone to tag who hasn't been tagged already. I'll answer the ten questions though!
The Rules:
- You must post these rules.
- Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
- You have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
- Go to their pages and tell them you tagged them!
1. I used to work for Disney in Orlando.
2. My very first furry character was a red wolf named Shane.
3. I'm an avid reader. I own a Kindle and love it.
4. My Favorite period of History is The Early Republic and my favorite war is the War of 1812.
5. I used to be a firm believer that Twitter was the stupidest thing on the planet. Now look at me on Twitter. =p
6. I switch between Boxers and Boxerbriefs depending on the day.
7. My favorite shooter game is the Resistance: Fall of Man series.
8. I play MMORPGs off and on and have spanned several games (FF XI being my favorite).
9. I LOVE History. Keto doesn't but that's okay. He's much more musically literate than I am.
10.I used to bleach my hair. Only one picture survives and I am not posting it online. =p
There you go!
The Rules:
- You must post these rules.
- Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
- You have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
- Go to their pages and tell them you tagged them!
1. I used to work for Disney in Orlando.
2. My very first furry character was a red wolf named Shane.
3. I'm an avid reader. I own a Kindle and love it.
4. My Favorite period of History is The Early Republic and my favorite war is the War of 1812.
5. I used to be a firm believer that Twitter was the stupidest thing on the planet. Now look at me on Twitter. =p
6. I switch between Boxers and Boxerbriefs depending on the day.
7. My favorite shooter game is the Resistance: Fall of Man series.
8. I play MMORPGs off and on and have spanned several games (FF XI being my favorite).
9. I LOVE History. Keto doesn't but that's okay. He's much more musically literate than I am.
10.I used to bleach my hair. Only one picture survives and I am not posting it online. =p
There you go!
UCLA Student Wins at being racist.
General | Posted 14 years agoI don't usually use my journal for a lot of things outside of the furry world. Politics and social events are best saved for things like Twitter but this video absolutely stunned me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lg3tIERI-D4
I'm a UC (University of California) student myself. Though this girl is from UCLA, a sister campus, it made me laugh and then made my jaw hit the floor. I go to one of the most diverse campuses in the country and you never see something like this, or hear about it, and yet it seems to still exist. The UC system is supposed to admit the best and brightest of California and facilitate a liberal education in which tolerance and understanding are paramount. The years of Euro-centric dominance of the higher education belong to our parents. I just don't understand how someone who goes to such a very liberal school, in a very diverse region of the country, could be so close minded to another culture.
What really drove the nail home was the remarks about the tsunami event that just hit Japan. There is a thing at being annoyed at people who use their cell phones in the library. It's annoying. I understand. But tolerance and understanding, especially after a disaster that could impact an entire country seems like pretty basic knowledge and fundamental understanding of what it means to be a human being. We all have our pet peeves about just interacting with people. Mine is two slow people walking on a sidewalk and taking up the entire length of it. However, you don't classify such annoyances to a single race. Yes, maybe she witnessed a lot of Asian-Americans and transfer students using their cell phones during the tsunami event but if MY country got hit with a giant tidal wave right before a 9.0 earthquake (it was upgraded) I'd not give two shits about people around me if I was checking on those I love.
So yeah, my rant. Basically tolerance and understanding of other cultures is what the University should be preaching. Seems like UCLA failed in that area. And her mother.
~Tibs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lg3tIERI-D4
I'm a UC (University of California) student myself. Though this girl is from UCLA, a sister campus, it made me laugh and then made my jaw hit the floor. I go to one of the most diverse campuses in the country and you never see something like this, or hear about it, and yet it seems to still exist. The UC system is supposed to admit the best and brightest of California and facilitate a liberal education in which tolerance and understanding are paramount. The years of Euro-centric dominance of the higher education belong to our parents. I just don't understand how someone who goes to such a very liberal school, in a very diverse region of the country, could be so close minded to another culture.
What really drove the nail home was the remarks about the tsunami event that just hit Japan. There is a thing at being annoyed at people who use their cell phones in the library. It's annoying. I understand. But tolerance and understanding, especially after a disaster that could impact an entire country seems like pretty basic knowledge and fundamental understanding of what it means to be a human being. We all have our pet peeves about just interacting with people. Mine is two slow people walking on a sidewalk and taking up the entire length of it. However, you don't classify such annoyances to a single race. Yes, maybe she witnessed a lot of Asian-Americans and transfer students using their cell phones during the tsunami event but if MY country got hit with a giant tidal wave right before a 9.0 earthquake (it was upgraded) I'd not give two shits about people around me if I was checking on those I love.
So yeah, my rant. Basically tolerance and understanding of other cultures is what the University should be preaching. Seems like UCLA failed in that area. And her mother.
~Tibs
Valentine's Day Meme (I'm bored!)
General | Posted 15 years agoSo keto is sick right now and sleeping in the other room. He's been medicated and put to bed so I'm going to do this to simply amuse myself. =)
1. Are you single or taken?
Taken. Our Anniversary was on Jan. 30th.
2. Chocolate or flowers?
I've been given both! It's really sweet when you get a gift from someone you love a lot. I would have to say THIS Valentine's Day is a chocolate one.
3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
I came to the Bay Area on Wednesday and its been sorta a celebration since then. We gave gifts early. Right now I'm taking care of him because he's under the weather. =)
4. Do you like anyone?
Psh. I like him so much I love him.
5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
This is our second Valentine's Day together.
6. Who do you want to spend Valentines with?
I'm spending it right now with him! Even if he is dead to the world. =)
7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
It's been my sister's birthday for 22 years and THAT has always diminished the holiday in my mind. I've never made a huge deal out of it besides the giving of a sweet little gift. If you know us at all you know we're pretty sappy year 'round and don't need a holiday for it. =)
8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Yup.
9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
Define "love letter"? I've been romantic via words before.
10. Do you believe in Cupid?
o.o;; ...Really?
11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
Not that I can remember. MAYBE a little bit of candy way back when? Not sure.
12. Do you still send out Valentine cards?
Naw! A little cheesey.
13. Do you like candy hearts?
Someone brought cupcakes with them on top of the cupcake. I promptly removed them before eating said cupcake. >_>;
14. What is something you got last Valentines?
He drew me a picture. =3 "Nothing's Wrong with Sap!" Which is pretty much our first kiss.
15. Is Valentines depressing?
It can be. I do know its annoying for singles and wonderful for couples. I've been on both sides and I know it sucks. The trick is, if it bugs you, don't drag people down who are enjoying it. It's not fair to make someone as miserable as you are simply because of circumstance.
16. How is your love life?
I really have to say its wonderful.
17. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
Nope!
18. How many roses would you want?
If they were from him it could be a weed and I'd love it.
19. Will you have a girlfriend/boyfriend this Valentines day?
I have a wonderful boyfriend.
20. Do you look forward to Valentines day?
If I don't remember to call my sister and wish her a happy birthday the wrath of my mother crashes down on me. >_>;
21. Who was your last Valentine from?
Dah Ketoz!
22. Who do you expect to get a Valentine from this year?
No one? I got a gift from him and that counts. Right? =3
23. Who would you most like to receive a Valentine from?
This question is somewhat repetitive. XD Keto of course!
24. How many Valentines will you be sending this year?
Just the one to him!
25. Have you ever not received a Valentine?
o.o; Does this matter? When they were given our like candy growing up I never cared.
26. What was the most Valentines you received in a single year?
Uh...counting elementary school? Like 30?
27. Have you ever received an anonymous Valentine?
Nope!
28. Have you ever sent an anonymous Valentine?
Nein
29. Will you be sending an anonymous Valentine this year?
Nope!
30. What was the best Valentine gift you ever received?
The picture. This year Keto got me something very sentimental. =3
31. What was the worst?
Nothing at all?
32. Have you ever started dating someone on Valentines day?
Nope!
That...was a little annoying. But it kept me busy for a few minutes. Yay distraction!
keto is sick right now and sleeping in the other room. He's been medicated and put to bed so I'm going to do this to simply amuse myself. =) 1. Are you single or taken?
Taken. Our Anniversary was on Jan. 30th.
2. Chocolate or flowers?
I've been given both! It's really sweet when you get a gift from someone you love a lot. I would have to say THIS Valentine's Day is a chocolate one.
3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
I came to the Bay Area on Wednesday and its been sorta a celebration since then. We gave gifts early. Right now I'm taking care of him because he's under the weather. =)
4. Do you like anyone?
Psh. I like him so much I love him.
5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
This is our second Valentine's Day together.
6. Who do you want to spend Valentines with?
I'm spending it right now with him! Even if he is dead to the world. =)
7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
It's been my sister's birthday for 22 years and THAT has always diminished the holiday in my mind. I've never made a huge deal out of it besides the giving of a sweet little gift. If you know us at all you know we're pretty sappy year 'round and don't need a holiday for it. =)
8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Yup.
9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
Define "love letter"? I've been romantic via words before.
10. Do you believe in Cupid?
o.o;; ...Really?
11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
Not that I can remember. MAYBE a little bit of candy way back when? Not sure.
12. Do you still send out Valentine cards?
Naw! A little cheesey.
13. Do you like candy hearts?
Someone brought cupcakes with them on top of the cupcake. I promptly removed them before eating said cupcake. >_>;
14. What is something you got last Valentines?
He drew me a picture. =3 "Nothing's Wrong with Sap!" Which is pretty much our first kiss.
15. Is Valentines depressing?
It can be. I do know its annoying for singles and wonderful for couples. I've been on both sides and I know it sucks. The trick is, if it bugs you, don't drag people down who are enjoying it. It's not fair to make someone as miserable as you are simply because of circumstance.
16. How is your love life?
I really have to say its wonderful.
17. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
Nope!
18. How many roses would you want?
If they were from him it could be a weed and I'd love it.
19. Will you have a girlfriend/boyfriend this Valentines day?
I have a wonderful boyfriend.
20. Do you look forward to Valentines day?
If I don't remember to call my sister and wish her a happy birthday the wrath of my mother crashes down on me. >_>;
21. Who was your last Valentine from?
Dah Ketoz!
22. Who do you expect to get a Valentine from this year?
No one? I got a gift from him and that counts. Right? =3
23. Who would you most like to receive a Valentine from?
This question is somewhat repetitive. XD Keto of course!
24. How many Valentines will you be sending this year?
Just the one to him!
25. Have you ever not received a Valentine?
o.o; Does this matter? When they were given our like candy growing up I never cared.
26. What was the most Valentines you received in a single year?
Uh...counting elementary school? Like 30?
27. Have you ever received an anonymous Valentine?
Nope!
28. Have you ever sent an anonymous Valentine?
Nein
29. Will you be sending an anonymous Valentine this year?
Nope!
30. What was the best Valentine gift you ever received?
The picture. This year Keto got me something very sentimental. =3
31. What was the worst?
Nothing at all?
32. Have you ever started dating someone on Valentines day?
Nope!
That...was a little annoying. But it kept me busy for a few minutes. Yay distraction!
FC 2011 Report
General | Posted 15 years agoMy first con ever and it was a blast. I was thinking about how to write this and I simply couldn't think of how to condense it anyway. I went with my mate and close friends but I met so many awesome people. Highlights were seeing so many awesome friends I only see online in person, and meeting friends of friends, and expanding. I got to see them in action and eat with them and just... you know, have a great time. =)
I have a few pictures and I'll refrain from cluttering my scraps with all but a couple perhaps. Some are just too awesome to not share with people who weren't there. I have some videos and I may put them on YouTube but... who knows? =p I'm tired as hell! Cons are exhausting work.
Oh yeah, the furries who snapped the elevator cables, glad you're all safe. =)
-Tibs
I have a few pictures and I'll refrain from cluttering my scraps with all but a couple perhaps. Some are just too awesome to not share with people who weren't there. I have some videos and I may put them on YouTube but... who knows? =p I'm tired as hell! Cons are exhausting work.
Oh yeah, the furries who snapped the elevator cables, glad you're all safe. =)
-Tibs
FC Meme!
General | Posted 15 years agoArrival and Departure:
I live in California and I'll be staying with some friends well before the con. Keto will probably drag me to the hotel as early as Wednesday.
Staying at:
Fairmont San José hotel
Mode of Transportation:
Driving! Not too far.
Room Share:
Keto radjinwolf kashra
Major Plans at the Con:
This is my first convention so I'm not sure! Just hanging out and meeting all the awesome people I haven't yet met in person! Maybe some art? Iunno!
Who Will I be with:
I'll mostly be with my mate keto but that doesn't mean I won't be around seeing everyone!
Do you do free art?
I write stuff. You wouldn't even want the free art I'd make.
Do you do trades?
I'll trade something for a free beer!
Do you do commissions?
Nah. =p
Do you have prints/ CDs ?
N/A
Fursuit(s):
No Tibs suit yet. =p I do want one though.
Attending Parties:
Oh yes! Already promised to one, will be at many others.
How best to find me:
Twitter! Just Tweet me or DM me on Twitter. Message me on FA before the con, e-mail, IMs, or find Keto. =p He'll know where I'm at if I'm not with him.
Stage Performance:
I may make Keto sing karaoke. =p
Drink:
I like beer but I try anything once, especially if its free.
Smoke:
Nah
Hugs:
Introduce yourself and ask of course. You tackle hug me I probably won't be offended though.
Talk:
Meeting people is what a convention is about!
What is your gender?
Male
How old are you?
25 though no one would believe me.
Can I touch you?
Well, its not a felony to touch me, but if it goes below the belt you better get clearance. =p
Can I buy you lots of drinks?
YES! You want to buy me a drink I'd love that.
Can I give you lots of money?
Yes. I likes money. Lots of it!
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs are cool. Snuggling I'd have to know you a bit first. Nothin' personal!
How tall are you?
5'8"
You look pissed off out of suit. Can I come up to you?
Well, I don't have a suit but if I'm upset you can come up and talk to me. Usually getting my mind off whats bugging me improves my mood considerably.
Are you nice?
I'm nice. I love meeting new people. Don't be afraid to say hi.
Are you cliquey?
This is my first con so I may hide behind the personal bubble of my friends for a little bit but I'm going to shatter it and I certainly won't exclude anyone. So the answer is no, I'm not cliquey.
Can I stalk you?
Just say hi and stuff. You don't have to stalk me and I won't bite you. But if you stalk me I may look at you funny.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say Hi, introduce yourself, etc. Something flashy would amuse me.
Can I take a picture of ya?
Of course. Iunno why you would though!
Can I steal ya away for *censored*?
I have a wonderful mate. Spoken for gents, sorry!
Would ya like to get a commission done of ya?
Always like art. So yes!
Yay, first con meme done!
I live in California and I'll be staying with some friends well before the con. Keto will probably drag me to the hotel as early as Wednesday.
Staying at:
Fairmont San José hotel
Mode of Transportation:
Driving! Not too far.
Room Share:
Keto radjinwolf kashraMajor Plans at the Con:
This is my first convention so I'm not sure! Just hanging out and meeting all the awesome people I haven't yet met in person! Maybe some art? Iunno!
Who Will I be with:
I'll mostly be with my mate
keto but that doesn't mean I won't be around seeing everyone!Do you do free art?
I write stuff. You wouldn't even want the free art I'd make.
Do you do trades?
I'll trade something for a free beer!
Do you do commissions?
Nah. =p
Do you have prints/ CDs ?
N/A
Fursuit(s):
No Tibs suit yet. =p I do want one though.
Attending Parties:
Oh yes! Already promised to one, will be at many others.
How best to find me:
Twitter! Just Tweet me or DM me on Twitter. Message me on FA before the con, e-mail, IMs, or find Keto. =p He'll know where I'm at if I'm not with him.
Stage Performance:
I may make Keto sing karaoke. =p
Drink:
I like beer but I try anything once, especially if its free.
Smoke:
Nah
Hugs:
Introduce yourself and ask of course. You tackle hug me I probably won't be offended though.
Talk:
Meeting people is what a convention is about!
What is your gender?
Male
How old are you?
25 though no one would believe me.
Can I touch you?
Well, its not a felony to touch me, but if it goes below the belt you better get clearance. =p
Can I buy you lots of drinks?
YES! You want to buy me a drink I'd love that.
Can I give you lots of money?
Yes. I likes money. Lots of it!
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs are cool. Snuggling I'd have to know you a bit first. Nothin' personal!
How tall are you?
5'8"
You look pissed off out of suit. Can I come up to you?
Well, I don't have a suit but if I'm upset you can come up and talk to me. Usually getting my mind off whats bugging me improves my mood considerably.
Are you nice?
I'm nice. I love meeting new people. Don't be afraid to say hi.
Are you cliquey?
This is my first con so I may hide behind the personal bubble of my friends for a little bit but I'm going to shatter it and I certainly won't exclude anyone. So the answer is no, I'm not cliquey.
Can I stalk you?
Just say hi and stuff. You don't have to stalk me and I won't bite you. But if you stalk me I may look at you funny.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say Hi, introduce yourself, etc. Something flashy would amuse me.
Can I take a picture of ya?
Of course. Iunno why you would though!
Can I steal ya away for *censored*?
I have a wonderful mate. Spoken for gents, sorry!
Would ya like to get a commission done of ya?
Always like art. So yes!
Yay, first con meme done!
Happy Thanksgiving!
General | Posted 15 years agoI'm sure the millions of journals being made on this subject make it a bit annoying to read, BUT I feel like I should do it. I hope everyone has a happy, wonderful holiday and never forget that what makes you thankful and feel special in this world. I could rattle off my own list but if you've known me for awhile now you can probably guess what I am thankful for.
Be safe and enjoy the holiday!
-Tibs
Be safe and enjoy the holiday!
-Tibs
Fursona/Avatar Tidbit Meme
General | Posted 15 years agoStolen from 
unshackledfenrir
Rules: Just throw little tidbits of info about your character[s], or the process of creation.
Try to come up with five tidbits, at least. You can continue with more if you want. If you can't come up with five, that's fine.
1. Tiberius Rings is my main "fursona" as in, he is the type of personality that I feel represents me as a person to the fandom. I was originally going to use Slayn for this but I felt like his unique history and background specific to the universe I created around him would have made it harder for people to relate to who hadn't read my stories. Tiberius came about so I could avoid that problem.
2. He looks pretty much identical to Slayn, my favorite fictional character to write about. The key difference is (besides outfit choice) is Slayn has a tattoo on his shoulder where Tiberius has no markings like that. They may look alike but they are completely different, especially in personalities.
3. Tiberius' history is a mystery to many people but a very select few who I bounce ideas off of. He IS linked to my Half-Moon Tribe but lives in the modern world. How did this happen? You'll see when I get to writing it. In modern times he's a courier for various individuals and loves free running due to living in cities most of his life. Things that go fast appeal to him and he's always pushing to see how fast he can go. Motorcycles are his latest obsession due to the speed and the lack of something confining him.
4. The worst kept secret about Tiberius is his name. I'm getting my degree in History (before going to law school) and Roman history has always been a hobby of mine. The story I tell is I just stole the name from Emperor Tiberius (who was after Octavian, who was after Julius Caesar). However, some people know I like Star Trek. James T. Kirk's middle name is Tiberius. I fell in love with that name when I heard it in movie VI: The Undiscovered Country years ago and told myself I would use the name as a character. So there you go, I'm a huuuge nerd. =p
5. A lot of my HMT characters represent parts of my personality. For example, Slayn is my determination and drive and to try and see past the obstacles to the larger picture. Avalon is my romantic side and my protector side. What I feel a good lover should be. Renin is my desire for knowledge and Reyna is my understanding that with age always comes wisdom. Jack is my sense of humor and guile coupled with innocence wounded, vulnerability that everyone has but shields through various ways.
So there you have it. I spilled the beans on some secrets I'd been playing close to the chest. =p
Feel free to do your own. I would tag people but...consider everyone who reads this tagged! >3
-Tibs
unshackledfenrir Rules: Just throw little tidbits of info about your character[s], or the process of creation.
Try to come up with five tidbits, at least. You can continue with more if you want. If you can't come up with five, that's fine.
1. Tiberius Rings is my main "fursona" as in, he is the type of personality that I feel represents me as a person to the fandom. I was originally going to use Slayn for this but I felt like his unique history and background specific to the universe I created around him would have made it harder for people to relate to who hadn't read my stories. Tiberius came about so I could avoid that problem.
2. He looks pretty much identical to Slayn, my favorite fictional character to write about. The key difference is (besides outfit choice) is Slayn has a tattoo on his shoulder where Tiberius has no markings like that. They may look alike but they are completely different, especially in personalities.
3. Tiberius' history is a mystery to many people but a very select few who I bounce ideas off of. He IS linked to my Half-Moon Tribe but lives in the modern world. How did this happen? You'll see when I get to writing it. In modern times he's a courier for various individuals and loves free running due to living in cities most of his life. Things that go fast appeal to him and he's always pushing to see how fast he can go. Motorcycles are his latest obsession due to the speed and the lack of something confining him.
4. The worst kept secret about Tiberius is his name. I'm getting my degree in History (before going to law school) and Roman history has always been a hobby of mine. The story I tell is I just stole the name from Emperor Tiberius (who was after Octavian, who was after Julius Caesar). However, some people know I like Star Trek. James T. Kirk's middle name is Tiberius. I fell in love with that name when I heard it in movie VI: The Undiscovered Country years ago and told myself I would use the name as a character. So there you go, I'm a huuuge nerd. =p
5. A lot of my HMT characters represent parts of my personality. For example, Slayn is my determination and drive and to try and see past the obstacles to the larger picture. Avalon is my romantic side and my protector side. What I feel a good lover should be. Renin is my desire for knowledge and Reyna is my understanding that with age always comes wisdom. Jack is my sense of humor and guile coupled with innocence wounded, vulnerability that everyone has but shields through various ways.
So there you have it. I spilled the beans on some secrets I'd been playing close to the chest. =p
Feel free to do your own. I would tag people but...consider everyone who reads this tagged! >3
-Tibs
A year ago today my life changed forever. [Warning: SAP]
General | Posted 15 years agoA year ago today my life changed forever. What happened to me? Well, to be cheesey, I met my boyfriend, keto Some people are asking me, as of late, how we met and what happened to us that got us to click and I figured our little story is worth sharing, if just because I'm full of sentiment and always try to remember the good things that happen to me.
A year ago Keto was holding a kind of lottery commission. You were to guess between the numbers of 1 and 200 and the closest number would get his coveted spot. Back then I didn't really have much of an FA. I didn't even have a custom avatar and no pictures. I was mostly working on the now long gone Yiffstar where, in my opinion, writers were more easily noticed then on FurAffinity.
I had found Keto's artwork on another site and realized he was pretty good! I was hesitant to get a commission as I had never obtained one (and now, thank you Keto, you started an addiction. =p). I had the extra cash so I figured why not? I wouldn't win anyway so what was one note going to cost.
Little did I know I would win.
Now, I had to think up an idea. I had entered not expecting to win so I barely gave it much thought. I came up with some rough idea and Keto and I began to talk. He helped me refine the idea and we talked it over and he began to sketch and send me WIPs of my first commission (It's my featured submission). He also invited me to join him on Stream while he drew my picture so others could watch. I got a headset and joined him for one of various streams. There we talked and joked, got to know one another and learned things about him. I was sad when the work was complete because I really enjoyed his company and didn't expect him to talk to me much longer after that since he's got a pretty busy life. I had developed a crush on him but let it go as best I could because I didn't want to, you know, freak him out.
Surprisingly, he didn't just vanish into his own bubble. He began to talk to me, as did some of his best friends. October would move on to November and December, and it was clear we both felt something from one another. We're both sappy love struck fools, love a lot of the same things, and realized just talking to one another made us happy. It wouldn't be until January that we got to meet in person and to keep it brief, we became "official" on January 30th 2010.
How has my life changed since then? I've met so many wonderful people because of Keto. He's been an emotional anchor for me and someone who can make me smile just by doing his daily activities. He's someone whose always so happy and grasps life by the horns and makes the most out of every moment, and being part of that is so wonderful, and such a blessing. We've been on trips together from San Diego to San Francisco, and a brief trip to Las Vegas. Celebrated birthdays together and been on the phone together when circumstances keep us a part. We've had many laughs and wonderful moments and low moments when one of us needs the other emotionally. In a lot of ways I can honestly say I feel complete with him. I never realized how much of life I was missing until I found him, on accident, and honestly would give him anything I could without a second thought. He makes me selfless and is always a moral compass. I know as long as I'm near him I'll be a better person.
On a side note to those who were wondering about Keto's raffle a year ago. His number was 151 and my guess was 147. Keto surprised me with two bracelets with our names and those numbers on them, since they brought us together. We also joke that I got the artist with my commission and as such have made the best furry deal in history. =p
I could probably write a book drowning the audience in how I feel about him but I know what it's like to have a relationship thrown in someone's face. However, I felt like I had to put this down on paper (metaphorically) because it's important to me. If someone rolled their eyes at me for writing this that's fine. As a writer I'm the most expressive when I write and this was something I'd been thinking of doing for weeks now.
So, in the end, I've had one wonderful year with Keto as first a friend and then a mate. Here's to many, many more.
keto Some people are asking me, as of late, how we met and what happened to us that got us to click and I figured our little story is worth sharing, if just because I'm full of sentiment and always try to remember the good things that happen to me. A year ago Keto was holding a kind of lottery commission. You were to guess between the numbers of 1 and 200 and the closest number would get his coveted spot. Back then I didn't really have much of an FA. I didn't even have a custom avatar and no pictures. I was mostly working on the now long gone Yiffstar where, in my opinion, writers were more easily noticed then on FurAffinity.
I had found Keto's artwork on another site and realized he was pretty good! I was hesitant to get a commission as I had never obtained one (and now, thank you Keto, you started an addiction. =p). I had the extra cash so I figured why not? I wouldn't win anyway so what was one note going to cost.
Little did I know I would win.
Now, I had to think up an idea. I had entered not expecting to win so I barely gave it much thought. I came up with some rough idea and Keto and I began to talk. He helped me refine the idea and we talked it over and he began to sketch and send me WIPs of my first commission (It's my featured submission). He also invited me to join him on Stream while he drew my picture so others could watch. I got a headset and joined him for one of various streams. There we talked and joked, got to know one another and learned things about him. I was sad when the work was complete because I really enjoyed his company and didn't expect him to talk to me much longer after that since he's got a pretty busy life. I had developed a crush on him but let it go as best I could because I didn't want to, you know, freak him out.
Surprisingly, he didn't just vanish into his own bubble. He began to talk to me, as did some of his best friends. October would move on to November and December, and it was clear we both felt something from one another. We're both sappy love struck fools, love a lot of the same things, and realized just talking to one another made us happy. It wouldn't be until January that we got to meet in person and to keep it brief, we became "official" on January 30th 2010.
How has my life changed since then? I've met so many wonderful people because of Keto. He's been an emotional anchor for me and someone who can make me smile just by doing his daily activities. He's someone whose always so happy and grasps life by the horns and makes the most out of every moment, and being part of that is so wonderful, and such a blessing. We've been on trips together from San Diego to San Francisco, and a brief trip to Las Vegas. Celebrated birthdays together and been on the phone together when circumstances keep us a part. We've had many laughs and wonderful moments and low moments when one of us needs the other emotionally. In a lot of ways I can honestly say I feel complete with him. I never realized how much of life I was missing until I found him, on accident, and honestly would give him anything I could without a second thought. He makes me selfless and is always a moral compass. I know as long as I'm near him I'll be a better person.
On a side note to those who were wondering about Keto's raffle a year ago. His number was 151 and my guess was 147. Keto surprised me with two bracelets with our names and those numbers on them, since they brought us together. We also joke that I got the artist with my commission and as such have made the best furry deal in history. =p
I could probably write a book drowning the audience in how I feel about him but I know what it's like to have a relationship thrown in someone's face. However, I felt like I had to put this down on paper (metaphorically) because it's important to me. If someone rolled their eyes at me for writing this that's fine. As a writer I'm the most expressive when I write and this was something I'd been thinking of doing for weeks now.
So, in the end, I've had one wonderful year with Keto as first a friend and then a mate. Here's to many, many more.
