I had a brief 30 minute talk this evening with my dad, coming out and telling him that I am bisexual. First off, for anyone who knows about my dad from either conversations with me, or have read my journals my dad is a very judgmental person, and old-fashioned.

I finally sat down with him and came out to him about my sexuality, how I also had developed feelings for another guy, who by the way is now my wonderful mate! <3

I was expecting the usual "fly off the handles" reaction my dad normally shows when something sets him off wrong, instead I get a rather calm reaction from him as I come out to him. Although we are both perfectly clear that this has not affected the status of our family relationship as son and father, I still do not feel any much closer to my dad than I had in the past.

Expecting questions of like, "When did you first realize you were bisexual?" "Who is this person you have met? What's his name? When and where did you meet him?" and "Is he bisexual/gay too?" all I get is random awkward silence from my dad with him saying he's never heard of bisexuals before and doesn't understand what bisexuals are.

I tried my best to explain to him that I liked both male and females, and the way my past relationships have been I have been heavily gravitating towards males more often.

I was expecting a blow up debate and argument to spring up, but it never did, my dad just sat there in that awkward silence every so often and then he would randomly bring up things like, "Well maybe it's because you're a fun person to be around. And people are naturally attracted to that." or "Are you just bored". Bored? Bored?? Why the fuck would I be bored about my sexuality that I need to explore same sex relationships?

Yes, granted I am a fun person to be around and to talk to, and that could be a small triggering factor of other guys liking me, but not the driving force behind my sexuality.

After meeting Inola online, and then finally in person he has sparked feelings in me I haven't felt in a long time. I feel my happiest when I am around him, or when I get that unsuspecting phone call from him. He truly has turned my world around, and for the better.

I never got asked by my dad when I knew I was bisexual, although I do believe myself that it occurred when I was younger, at least well before I hit puberty. I think about it now as I type this out and wonder if my fetish, and love for inflatables is somewhat of a catalyst to my bisexual side?

I know when I was growing up, and I am rather embarrassed to bring this up on here, but when I was younger and would watch Sesame Street, I would every once in a while get aroused by some of the live films that got shown on the show. Sounds odd I know, but I do think some of these films stirred something deep with in me that attracted me to guys.

I remember coming to Inola before we started dating and sheepishly telling him that there was one particular SS film that always aroused me and got me excited, and to be truthfully honest, every time I come across it on Youtube I still get that sense of arousal and attraction. I even showed Inola the video and consolingly he tells me that "It's alright. It just means you like guys.".

But ever since I met Inola I have been the happiest I have ever been in a long time, granted we live far away from one another there is not a day that I don't have him running around my mind. He has changed my life in so many different ways that I cannot find the right words to tell him what he really means to me.

But back to the subject at hand, I believe that the reason for my dad's awkward silence tonight is essentially chalked up as shock. I'm sure once it wears off and starts to sink in that he will have more questions and start to see me in a different perspective, one of acceptance of my sexuality, and for the man I love.

Inola; if you are reading this I know I won't be able to say all the things I want to say to you on here, as I would much rather do that alone with you, but you have made a big change in my life since I met you. You have made me happier than I have been in a long time, you've made me press through the days with a positive attitude, I feel like I can accomplish so much more with you in my life, and for that I am truly grateful for that. You mean so much to me my foxy, and I love you with all of my soul.

Here's my Top Picks for Electro-house, Dubstep, and Drum and Bass songs I like. Crank up the speakers, or slip on your earbuds and enjoy, My Top Picks!

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=lSooYPG-5Rg[/yt]
Porter Robinson- Sea of Voices. I want this played at my funeral.

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Vsy1URDYK88[/yt]
Porter Robinson- Language

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1w-e4.....-5pz_g_1d[/yt]
Wolfgun- Dawn. I love this song from him.

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?list=PL.....NN_hDuopPo[yt]
Wolfgun- The Woods. I thank  RyuSyro for getting me into Wolfgun. Thankies, draggy! <3

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?list=PL.....chHL-57i0[/yt]
Flux Pavilion- Blow the Roof. If Tico had his own theme song, well this would be it.

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=uHABi.....-5pz_g_1d[/yt]
Doctor P- Flying Spaghetti Monster. Naturally I will point a finger at Saints Row 4 for this one.

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wnfLJ.....-5pz_g_1d[/yt]
Krewella- Enjoy the Ride. Enjoy the ride through life my friends!

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=0mVck88W01I[/yt]
Krewella- Live for the Night

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=x9IcY5vZLTc[/yt]
Porter Robinson- The Wildcat

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=CYuM2mtqRhk[/yt]
Kill The Noise- Black Magic (Kill The Noise part 2). Quite possibly the most Epic dubstep song!

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?list=PL.....w4GzXgXNA[/yt]
Knife Party- Rage Valley

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=s88JDxazUKo[/yt]
Knife Party- Bonfire. Fucking love this song!

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Zx8zyNvARo0[/yt]
Knife Party- EDM Death Machine

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=UQkT7.....-5pz_g_1d[/yt]
Datsik- Let It Burn

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?list=PL.....AqlSgbnWM[/yt]
Reso- Beasts In The Basement

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?list=PL.....eHCVRR2OE[/yt]
SKisM- Experts

[yt]https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tjKlBiWpE5k[/yt]
Borgore- That Lean

[yt]http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=pTaYDuz2N9M[/yt]
Modestep- To The Stars. Awesome song from Modestep, oh and dat guitar.

[yt]http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5WR1Mtgpx_I[/yt]
Modestep- Show Me A Sign. The song that made me fall in love with Modestep!

Inola called me on Friday to see how I was doing, as we talked we were talking about the different kinds of music that we both like. But there's some stuff we disagree on for music I'm a child of the 80s, so I enjoy my 80s Rock and Pop music, unfortunately Inola does not like the 80s. He likes Eminem and I cannot stand him, so Inola teases me more about today's rap he was like, "Oh I like Jay-Z and Nicki Minaj." And I was all like D: "You like Nicki Minaj??" Then I joke back, "I'm sorry hun but this relationship is over! Nicki Minaj freaks me the fuck out." I had Inola laughing so hard on the other end it was adorable, I was like "Please tell me you are pulling my tail, that you like her?" Thank goodness he was, I'd be a little embarrassed to call him my mate if he liked her. So I know once we move in together he'll try his hardest to annoy me by playing Eminem, I'll just counterattack back by crank up my iTunes and blast some Duran Duran, and U2.

I love you my foxy if you read this. Even tho you're a stubborn butt sometimes lol.

I just got a text from  morphy_darkstone, it sounds like Pittsburgh's mayor declared today Anthrocon Day. So, Happy Anthrocon Day everybody!

Hey all my furry, scaly, feathery, and squeaky friends; I hope you all have a Happy 4th of July today and be safe! I don't want to hear of anyone blowing their paws off. As for me I'm going to get a little bit of sleep in for a while, then get up and try and either replace the patch I put on my IW dragon, or start the long and daunting task of trying to find another leak on him. Then probably cook out on the grill this evening; I don't have anything planned for today, I'm not shooting off any fireworks, our town had their fireworks display last night while I was at work, and it sounds like some of the surrounding towns already had theirs already as well. Plus I really haven't gotten into the spirit of the 4th like I normally do, because on the 6th it will mark one year ago that my uncle passed away, and the 4th of July was one of his favorite holidays, so yeah. But anyway I hope everybody else has a good one today and stays safe, I think after I patch my dragon up, and have supper I'm going to curl up on my bed and watch some Game of Thrones later tonight.

I know I should have probably gotten offended or upset by this but it gave me a great laugh. Earlier this afternoon while I was out doing an errand I was confronted by a middle-aged woman in a store and she comes over to me and flat out asks, "Are you a faggot?". Apparently it must have been my mannerisms that alerted her to me, and she just casually comes up to me and asks me this. Just to fuck with her I was like, "Honey, I'm not gay, but my boyfriend is. He's crazy about dicks.". I never seen a person change a deep red color like that, and in under 5 seconds flat. It's too bad I didn't have Inola with me, we could have grabbed each other by the hand and sashayed away from her, leaving her dumbfounded and embarrassed. Normal people. God bless them, you've got to love them.

Out for breakfast with my mom on Monday she proceeds to tell me that my former best friend, who within the past six months has recently got back into contact with me after an argument we had several years back which lead to the dissolve of our friendship. Apparently, recently, my friend who keeps in regular contact with my sister both had met up for lunch one week and my friend proceeds to tell my sister about me coming out, and having a boyfriend.

First off, I am not pleased with my friend going straight to my sister and telling her about me being gay, and having a boyfriend. Secondly, I'm not thrilled that my sister had to hear it from my friend, and then goes to rip into our mother about it! My sister is furious that I haven't told our dad about coming out, and about me dating Inola.

I'm still terrified of coming out to my dad, and lord knows what he will say or do if he finds out from my sister before I have a chance to confront him about me being gay. I hope my sister is smart and descent enough to not tell our dad.

I know my mom is here to back me up, and I need to find the time as well as the courage to stand up to my dad and come out to him as well. After all, it's going to be a matter of time before he figures out why I am going to Chicago every year around Thanksgiving, and it'll be a matter of time before Inola shows up at my front door, coming to visit, I just can't say he's a friend just here to visit me.

I need all of the strength and courage I have inside of me to finally come out to my dad, and hear what he has to say and figure how it's going to change my life.

UPDATE: Had orientation this morning for about an hour, I go back Friday morning to do training on the computer, should be easy if everything comes back to me. My official work date is Saturday night. I wasn't too thrilled when I saw what days off I had to the days I actually requested. Actually had Fri and Sat planned for my days off, Sat at least so I could make it to a furmeet, instead I get Mon and Tue off! Really?? These were the same two days I had off when I used to work here before... Seriously, who does anything on a Mon or Tue? Oh well, at least I'm back to work again and making money.

In the past few months I have become more and more at ease with my sexuality, I initially thought that "Hey! I'm bi, and that's fine.", but recently I those past few months I've noticed a change in my observation towards the opposite sex now. In the past, yeah I would catch myself looking at both sides of the fence, and taking notice of both sexes. But more recently I have begun to look less and less at women than I used to in the past. There'd be times if I'd be out somewhere and it didn't matter if I was with family or friends, I'd do a double take on a girl out in public if she caught my eye, but now I find myself where if I make eye contact with a girl anymore it's just for a brief moment and that is it, nothing more.

The people who know about my new found sexuality towards guys are; my mom as she was the first person I came out to, a good close friend of mine since high school, my sister had an inkling suspicion about it, of course my ex wife knows, and one of my other friends I had since grade school now also knows. I think after my second marriage I should have realized I was playing on the wrong side of the field, lol, because both marriages ended in divorce.

I appreciate the ones who have accepted my sexuality, and I love them dearly for it, the one person that I know who will have a difficult time with it is my father. Like I've told people before I have never really been close with my dad, and it's always hard to tell him something because he's constantly judging whatever you do. There have been numerous times so far that I have been alone with him and wanted to just come out and tell him that I am gay, but I am always in fear of what he would say if I told him, I always kind of want my mom there to back me up for support.

My dad is going to have to know about it eventually, especially if my mate comes to visit me? Also, the fact that someday Inola wants me to move to Michigan to be with him, I am sure my dad will be asking why I'm moving to Michigan? My dad is going to be retiring at the end of the month, I've already asked Inola if he could come visit me sometime over the summer, and I need my dad ready for when he ever decides to show up.

I'm constantly worrying about how I am going to tell him, how I am in love with this wonderful guy I met from Michigan, how he has stolen my heart, and how he's made me feel more alive and happier than I have ever been in my entire life. I want him to support me, tell me that he still loves my regardless, I want him to accept my being gay, and being in love with another guy who I love dearly. I need to get over the fear of my dad judging me, I want him to be the father I never had growing up, one who is going to stand behind me and push me on, and be there for me. I'm just so scared right now, because I don't want or need him telling me who I should and should not love.

Sorry, had to make an Anne Rice "Interview with a Vampire" subject joke. Anyway. The interview went well, it was short and painless lol. Then had to go to the hospital for my drug screening, pee test. xP Which I know I shall pass. Pretty much all I've got left to do now is wait for that crucial phone call of, "When can you start?". I keep telling myself, "You are doing this for your fursuit. You are doing this to buy more inflatables down the road. You are doing this, so you can attended more cons in the future.". And the good thing is this is all old hat for me, back at my old store, I know my way around the place, I know the people there, and I've done overnights before. Things be looking up for this wolf!

Got me an interview tomorrow at my old store, I'm pretty confident and sure I've got this job. After all, my old manager has told me that four people have either been let go, or walked out on their jobs. Good! Means I can get into one of those spots. Wish this wolfy luck! ^^

Hey everyone, just letting ya know that my computer is acting up, so to any of my friends I have on Skype that are on here you'll have to either note me on here, or Facebook if I have you on there, or text me if I've got you in my phone for the time being. Going to try and solve the issue myself, before I call in my friend who is knowledgable about computers.

I freaking bawl every time I listen to it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lSooYPG-5Rg

Monday while sitting at my desk, on my computer I hear a dull thud against my floor followed by a crack, I turn around in my chair to see what had happened. The glass covering over my lights in the ceiling came crashing to the floor and busted into several pieces, what bothered me most was that my IW dragon was sitting inches away from the catastrophe of busted glass. Getting up from my chair quickly; I pick my dragon up and move him clear out of the way of the glass, and lay him on top of my bed as I started to pick up the larger chunks of the heavy glass globe, and picking up some of the smaller, easier pieces of glass to pick up, before getting the vacuum to vacuum up the rest of the smaller, tinier pieces.

Later on I find that Spark (my dragon) is slowly losing air. Leaving him up over the night, the next morning I notice he is considerably softer and has lost more air overnight. I put more air into him and leave him up during the afternoon, as the day went on I started to notice his head starting to dip down, I knew right then and there that he must have gotten poked by a stray piece of glass that must have bounced up from off the floor and punctured him. I deflated him for the rest of the day to get him out of the way as my dad and I replaced the glass cover to my lights.

Today I blew him back up to search for his wound using the old soapy, warm water method to find where he was leaking from. First place I looked was his left leg which was closest to the busted glass, first I wet the bottom of his foot with the water and did not discover any damage, next I checked the side of his leg and within a minute without using the water I found a small cut into his vinyl where some glass must have poked him. Heartbroken that I let my poor inflatable dragon get injured; I deflated him once again, and neatly folded him up, texting my mate to see if I could send Spark to him to patch him up as I do not have my spare patches on me, and I cannot find the proper glue to use for repairs anywhere around here.

I feel awful that my poor dragon got injured, I more pissed about the damn glass cover from the light fixture coming off and busting into my carpet. So I am cautiously walking around my room finding stray, tiny pieces of glass in my carpet every so often.

I suppose since I have access to a working internet connection, and computer I could probably download the rest of my MFF '13 photos on my digital, and then try uploading them on here again. After all it's been over 5 months now since the con, and no time to keep putting it off, or I'll just end up waiting until December to get more pics and uploading them at the end of the year. Damn my procrastination.

And now here's your daily dose of drum & bass. Turn up the volume and annoy the neighbors! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nFe.....K_orB-5pz_g_1d

I've become increasingly aware in the past few years now, and it seems more noticeable today than it has in the past, but I am becoming more and more intolerant of idiots, assholes, and rude people in general out in public. I think I have developed this from my mom, tonight we went out to eat and a couple of booths behind us was a young mother of 20 something out with her two little brats... er, I mean boys both of which were at least 10 and younger, and I can only assume her own mother. The younger mother didn't do anything to keep her two sons in check, they were constantly getting up running around the place, one of them got up a was wandering the hotel lobby (the restaurant is connected to the hotel FYI), he kept going over to the travel map, and destination guide booklet rack and kept pulling maps, and booklets out of it, and messing it up for other people.
At one point he comes back to the table with stacks full of maps, and booklets and does the mother tell him to go put them back? No, she instead orders another beer for herself. Way to go mom, keep drinking to forget about your child getting into trouble.

I would've loved to slap her on the way out, especially her own mom, who didn't have the cojones for not discipling her grandkids since her daughter was doing a smashing job. Apparently mom didn't teach daughter the value of discipline when she was growing up. Another time my mom and I were out to eat (same restaurant) there was a middle-aged couple sitting at a table behind me and my mom says to me, "I'd like to go over and smack the woman behind you. She just keeps staring over here.". Without missing a beat I tell my mom, "Should I turn around in my chair, face them, unzip my pants and whip it out in front of them and say, 'You see something you like over here?'."

This is to my own mom I say this to! Not a group of my friends, my own mother! The lady who gave birth to me! LOL.

Thank god my mom has a great sense of humor and just starts laughing. I was like "Oh my god! I cannot believe I just said that to my mom!".

I'm starting to become more outspoken the older I get, I could care less if I trample on people's toes, piss them off by saying something to rub them the wrong way. After all I wasn't put on this earth to please everyone.

Times like these I thinks that's why my dad eats his food fast when we're out to eat somewhere, so he doesn't have to endure the rude bullshit like tonight. Lmao XD

I'm bored, so here's some useless knowledge to pass on to you all.

The average lifespan of a tarantula is 25 years. With me being around them, that lifespan will be cut far shorter than 25 years.

And now back to your regularly scheduled furry tomfoolery.

*releases a big sigh, and curls up on his bed under his blankets, cuddling his wolf plushie, and cries*

I miss my mate. That is all.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hlV.....-gYgFsdlTxu_XQ

I am starting to become sick, metaphorically and literally with the constant change in the weather here in Nebraska. Two beautifully, warm days in a row, with some thunderstorms scattered about yesterday, today cold, windy and snowing again! FUCK YOU MOTHER NATURE, PULL YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR ASS, YOU BITCH! I think it's time for me to move out of this state somewhere where it's warm year round, and I don't have to deal with this kind of bullshit weather anymore. ><

The TOP 3 dubstep and D&B songs I've been listening to this week:

Reso- Beasts In The Basement https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1gA.....K_orB-5pz_g_1d

Datsik- Let It Burn https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UQk.....K_orB-5pz_g_1d

SKisM- Experts https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nFe.....K_orB-5pz_g_1d

Turn your speakers up, and annoy your neighbors! >:3

Last night I was flipping through channels around a quarter to twelve trying to find something decent to watch, then I stumble upon MTV! Lord knows why, since I haven't bothered watching that channel after the 90s but, something caught my eye, it was their original show, True Life. The show was covering three different lifestyles around the U.S. one of which was about an 18 year old girl who was a furry from California.

I was rather surprised by her story, since all the stories are told from the person(s) perspective and not by the network itself. She was your average high school student, who lived at home and engaged in drawing furry art, and even designing and making he own fursuits. When she first found out about the fandom she was like most people in the general public and thought all we did was dress up in weird animal suits and have sex, until later on when she discovered more about the fandom she was instantly drawn into it.

The cool thing is both of her parents are super supportive of her being a furry, although her mom still likes to tease her about being a fur, but still supportive nonetheless. This girl was desperately trying to find other furs in her area but was coming up short, so she struck out to San Fransico for the Chinese New Year in China Town to see if she could meet any furs, while she was in one of her several fursuits she had made, this of a dragon.

Although she had gotten a lot of attention from parade goers with her suit and getting pics taken, she did not however find any other furries that day. Her last resort was to attend a convention, her parents helped her along and found her a con she could go to without interfering her going to school, so they picked Rocky Mountain Fur Con. Her parents even went along with her to the con, and helped her around with her suit!

In the end, she did meet several furs at the con and made fast friends with them, hung out with them during the con, and she ended up meeting a few more furries at the college she's now attending.

I was happy to see this story on so many levels, one of which being that it wasn't recorded by a mainstream network or done as a TV talk show, it was just a natural girl who told her own story of how she found the fandom and got to where she is at now. Secondly, her parents! These were the coolest parents I have seen by far of supporting their childs lifestyle of being a furry. They did not bash the fandom, they did not lecture their daughter about the possible dangers, or views others will have of her. They supported her for what she loved, they complimented her abilities of make her own suits, and the suits themselves.

She even had one lady in her town commission her to make a partial suit for a Halloween party, that part was pretty cool to see as well because it gave the woman such joy of owning a partial suit, but it also gave the girl a lot of confidence, and pride into her work that she does.

All in all it was a very intersting story, I just wish more people out there could watch this and see what the fandom is really like instead of labeling us as "freaks" and "degenerates", and for parents or families of furries to be a little more supportive of us and our lifestyle.

A selfie questionnaire I took from  NodakJo, because I am bored and listening to FurCast on Saturday night.


Name? Christopher, or Chris, I also go by CJ but not often. Karl Cage as my pen-name.

Fursona Is? Tico; a gay, gray, pink, and purple timber wolf.

Gender? Male

Faith? Metodist. Rarely a church goer, except for weddings and funerals.

You Look Like?
6' 2", brown hair, blue eyes, average build, drop dead sexy (to my mate at least) not sure what other people think of my looks?

Music?
I've got a wide range I like, but I don't like Opera, hip-hop/rap these days, and country. I'm a big 80s music fan, 90s alternative, dubstep, classic rock, whatever really. I pretty much have an eclectic taste in music, just don't sit me down and make me listen to the top three and we'll be good.

Movies and TV Shows?
Movies? I'll watch anything except a strict romance movie, romance comedy on the other hand, is okay.

TV shows; Doctor Who (I'm a Whovian and proud), Da Vinci's Demons, gonna try and start back from the beginning of The Walking Dead after a friend of mine introduced me to a few episodes from the first season. Family Guy, American Dad, Bob's Burgers and Robot Chicken for cartoony shows. And I love any British comedy from early Benny Hill, Monty Pythons Flying Circus, to modern shows like Little Britain, and I'm Alan Partridge.


What am I like?
I'm funny, very caring towards my family and friends, I love to try new things from time to time. I can be outgoing sometimes, but I'm usually pretty laid back.


Where Do You Live?
Smack dab in the middle of Nebraska, okay maybe not smack dab in the middle but it's close enough.

How Long have I been a furry?
I've been interested in the fandom for about 13 years, but I didn't create my fursona and start to become active in the fandom until a few years ago.

What Video Games do I play?
Anything that involves shooting at things, blowing shit up, wrecking vehicles, and has a sick soundtrack. In other words, anything that involves collateral damage, blood and carnage I'm likely playing it.

Other Facts?
I love writing! I've enjoyed writing stories since I was in Junior High. I'm currently constructing, building story ideas, revamping, and writing on a fantasy based storyline centered around a mystical group of warriors known as Sigils of the Blade in a vast fantasy world named Runehaven. I would like to have hopes of getting these published one day.

Yesterday I went back in to my old store and reapplied to work there again. I also got to talk to my old boss/manager and he seemed pleasantly surprised to see me, he even urged me to go reapply, also caught up with a lot of all the old people I used to work with there. One of my friends said that the store was looking for help, and said since I knew the job already that he was pretty confident that management would start me off with higher pay wage! So things are looking up at the moment for me, I'm keeping positive about getting hired back on and working with everyone again. Now the upside I'm looking at of all this besides having a good paying job once again, and benifits/insurance is that the first few checks I will make can go towards getting my fursuit made.

Sometime in Feburary I emailed Mary Mouse about my Certified badge I had her make me after MFF. She emailed me back a day later saying she had all of the fall and winter tags done and mailed out sometime in December, and here it is for me middle of Feburary and no tag still. We both agreed that it must have gotten lost in the mail as I never received it, and she never had it returned to her.

So she happily agreed to make me a replacement at no charge. Today I received my replacement tag in the mail at my parents house, I was happy and excited that it came! To give this story a funny ending I get a text from my ex wife later in the day to tell me that my lost Certified tag showed up today in the mail at her house! LOL

Thank you Norfolk post office for getting my badge to me 2 and half months after I should have had it. *shakes his head*
And these people complain that they want more days off??

Well, what is there to say? I missed getting to see the first guest he had on the show, and caught the middle of the show with Boomer the Dog. *rolls his eyes* I don't personally think that this guy was a furry, or even knew about the fandom at all. His story and interview just made us look even worse than we already are with the help of the mainstream media and that godforsaken CSI episode.

First off, Boomer's homemade "fursuit" (if you could even call it that) was supposed to be a shaggy sheepdog, it pretty much looked like someone took a paper shredder and dumped it all over him, and that's what it was, shredded paper, it looked awful. Even the dogs at the dog park he was visiting at cautiously approached him in his suit and then turned in terror as if to say "Fuck that!".

They showed him eating actual canned dog food, and drinking and eating from pet bowls! He says he only does this once in a while when he wants to connect more to his canine side.

Of course Boomer is a 48 year old, with no job, lives off money his mother put in a trust for him, and is single. Dr. Phil even asked if he had gone on any dates in the past, Boomer's reply was, "No" then without missing a beat Dr. Phil was like, "I wonder why?".

To me the guy who portrays Boomer was not a legitimate furry in my opinion. I think he was just some guy who thought he was a furry after watching an endearing animal movie when he was a kid and just got crazy overboard. And technically, I'm not sure if Boomer's elevator goes all the way to the top floor.

The girl after him was actually a furry, she had a professionally done fursuit and showed it off in her story and even brought along the head to the show to show Dr. Phil. Her story is that her mom dislikes the fandom, thinks that it's ridiculous to dress up in suits, and thinks that the fandom is littered with thugs, murders and rapists! The girl actually allowed the show's camera crew to take short snippets of film at one of the cons she was attending.

It hit a brighter side for a bit during that point, the girl defended the fandom saying furries are very openly accepting towards everyone. Her downfall was she was 20 years old, living at home, a high school dropout, and unemployed only living off money she makes from commissions. So there again, the general public will look at us as not only freaks, but also as socially awkward lowlives who don't move out of out parents place, are jobless, and uneducated.

I admired the girl's story over Boomer's, she tried her best to explain that furries are not how you see them on tv shows, or on major news networks and how the mainstream media wants the public to see us.

All in all it was painful, yet intriguing to watch. I had my mom watch it with me and gauge her reaction. She doesn't believe 3/4 the crap Dr. Phil even covers on his shows, afterwards I sat with her and we discussed the show and I told her that the fandom is so much more good than how tv portrays us. My mom is a very open minded and understanding person, and she knows the pride I have for the fandom and how much I educate her on it. She is still new to the idea of me being a furry, but she respects my choice for being who I am. I just wish more people were like my mom, or other open minded people.

We (the Nebraska/Western Iowa furry group I belong to) have came up with what essentially became the running joke of the night last night, and possibly a new euphuism for the fandom.

As more of us started to gather at the bowling alley, and waiting to get into the party room to start suiting up and collecting money for bowling, I asked one of our furry members if they would hold my tail, while I stepped away to use the restroom. After getting back and putting my tail on my friend  harvestthehusky said to me, 'You know, we could use "Can you hold me tail" as a euphuism for sex in the fandom.' I started laughing, and casually agreed with him that it should become one.

So throughout the course of the night, someone would make reference to that joke. Even at several points in the night one of my other friends would always walk by me and lift my tail up. Oh you silly, silly Nebraska/Iowa furs, I love you guys to no end!