Got my account worked out and I am able to access my stuff again!

Hey guys, figured I'd ask about this here. Anyone know anyone willing to DM/GM a game with a centaur character or a mounted character? I always seem to have trouble finding anyone that wants to even consider them, even if stats exist in the book (like Shadowrun

I don't want special stats or extra moves. I want to do it to role-play my fav mythical creature in a game that is supposed to be brimming with mythical creatures and encouraging imagination.

I'm not a min/max player usually. I just want to have a purpose in the team and a character i'm happy with. I love storylines.

Again, ANY game is awesome. I will learn any system, i'm a quick learner and love getting to know new world settings.

Dusting this little corner of the internet off and taking a look at it. Seeing what I can salvage and such

I am currently closed for commissions until I get my groove back. this will probably take a while

Still nothing. no contact, no response. not even an attempted “the fuck are you?”

This burns so much worse than just being snubbed out of $24.

I am so so sad of waiting months for sketches and flat color linearts, especially when the artist claims that you’d get the art two weeks from payment. I just don’t understand how I keep finding the artists that do this and it really bums me out… I don’t think i’m expecting miracles, I’m just asking for a less insanely long wait….

Basically I just want my art from this person so I can stop following them on tumblr. they aren’t very pleasant, and I don’t agree with some of their views, and THATS FINE, I’d just want to walk away, but I can’t because I’m waiting for the art, but I fear pushing them too hard because I worry they’ll take horrible vengeance on me by making the art a Paint scribble or something.

I seem to have all the bad luck in finding artists. I always find the really sweet, friendly ones that have good art.... but let themselves get really overloaded and end up with months long turnarounds. I know life comes up... I'm an artist, I know it takes a while to draw... I'm just... sad from waiting multiple months to receive a sketch/doodle commission or single character/no background image. And I don't want to say anything because I know I should be patient, but....

I dunno.... it makes me lose interest in commissioning ANYONE. Which is sad. Because I LIKE commissioning people.

Am I wrong in getting a little sad while waiting? Is it not really that long a wait?

After a trip to the emergency room involving a mental breakdown, and an extended stay for recovery, I'm back! I think.

Here's the deal in a nutshell. I had a friend (and ex) who liked to do art. On occasion said friend would do art for me (like for my birthday or something).

The friend and I have since had a falling out, and looking at the art pieces reminds me of bittersweet things. But it IS good art. So I've kept it so far.

However, at the moment, I'm trying to clean my room and cut down on the amount of just general stuff I own (running out of storage space, trying to avoid a hoarder situation xD).

So my question is... what to do with said friend's art? Do I return it somehow? Keep it? It seems such a shame to trash it...

For that matter, how many people here keep their old art? Do you keep it? What about when it tends to build up? All the sketches and line art and such.

My puppy, my kitty, Mythbusters, singing boyfriend, and looking through labled animal anatomic dissection photos until I fall asleep while taking quizzes on them to improve knowledge of said animal anatomy.

Sukoshi Con 2013
It’s Monday today and I am recovering from an absolutely AWESOME weekend spent with my SO at Sukoshicon in Destin, FL.

Whee, I don’t even know where to start with a recap!

I didn’t get to go on the first day, unfortunately, because I’m just getting back to work and had a midshift to complete that day. But Saturday I was all wound up and ready to go! Preston came over and we got ready, I pulled together an outfit in a bit of a hurry. I originally meant to suit the whole con, but Preston convinced me that learning the layout on the first day would be to my advantage (so true!). So instead I wore a gi and yukata with slack pants, my japanese headband, and my horse ears, paws, and tail. I have to say, I think it pulled together pretty alright :3

Once we got there, there was SO MUCH to see! Even for a small con! I was pointing cosplays out, I saw two fursuiters (made me a little sad I didn’t suit that day), I saw so many awesome things both in the artist ally and the dealer room. I was a little disappointed that there was no Utena merchandise, but it ended up being ok in the end because I got to commission someone to draw a picture of myself hanging out with Utena and really, that’s more awesome anyway xD

The second day was more awesome continuation of the first day. This time though, I got to put on my reindeer/horse fursuit! I had so much fun running around that way! I put a smile on people’s faces, goofed around, took pictures…. it was amazing. I even had a tiny little girl ask me if I lived at the north pole and if I knew Santa. Cute!

Unfortunately, my SO has all the pictures, so I’ll have to steal them from him >.>

oh! and I got to play games! D&D 3.5, Dixit, etc. And I met people! Friends from GMG and new people that I got contacts for… you know, all that fun socializing stuff. It was really cool. I’m normally very very shy, but I even spoke up at a panel a couple times!

As far as things I bought, I think the list goes something like this:

Mass Effect Wallet

Commission of me and Utena <3

Print of art of Sailor Uranus

Sailor Moon hat

Decals of TMNT, Godzilla, and Firefly

a fluffy pink tail

and I thiiiiiink thats it. If I forgot anything, it’s only because the fun was too awesome to remember everything xD

So, health update. Psychiatrist thinks my depression may ACTUALLY be due to stress involved with dealing with a mild form of autism or asperger's syndrome. yeah, yeah, all my internet savvy friends can commence with the giggles now. I promise not to use it as an excuse!

Anyway, I have to have neuropsychological tests done to confirm her theory, and the doc that was going to do them doesn't network with my insurance. out of pocket cost? $1500.

She also wants to double the dose of cymbalta I'm on and put me on ambien as well x.x

I don't have the money for all of this....

Tomorrow is gallbladder surgery, at a lovely 6:30am xD I guess they won't have any problems knocking me out for the procedure.

Then again, I've been asleep literally all day. Still tired though. hopefully I sleep through the night okay.

So i'm trying to make money with my art.

I know i don't have the world's greatest art skills, and I'm not trying to take business away from everyone else, but any help you can give me in getting my business off the ground would greatly help.

questions:

Should I be trying to take commissions to begin with?
This is my biggest question. I've seen where people post and comment that some beginners probably ought to focus more on improving their skills before taking commissions, and I worry that I might be in that boat.
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/tieran/
https://www.weasyl.com/profile/tieran

Is there a way to know if you've got a bad name already?
I admit, a number of times, long long before, when I was putting out feelers for seeing if I might want to do art for extra income, I offered free requests. I also admit, I didn't have the discipline to finish them. I actually sketched them out even, but, well, was a dumb kid and didn't continue it to the finish.
I feel I am more disciplined now, having participated in the equinexchange community successfully for a long time now, having turned in my part of the trade consistently on time. I worry, however, that I may have tainted my reputation already.

How should I get my name out there?
I've already posted my commission chart to my page and to DA, and made journals, but I don't know where else to post. Should I look into a banner? How much advertising is too much? Where is it appropriate?

Is offering a special deal in exchange for a review a good idea?
I have a deal going on where the art is half off if you write a journal about your dealings with me (good or bad). I figure it helps everyone involved. Is this a good idea? Is there a way to make sure it works out? As far as payment goes, should I be charging the full amount, and then refund half when they write the review, or just charge half (what I intend to do right now).

Has anyone made artwork to sell at a local fair, and is this a recommended course of action?
A little off topic, but it's another route I'm considering.

Comment on this journal and I'll...

1. Tell you something I learned about by looking at your Fa page for 15 seconds

2. Tell you a color you remind me of

3. Tell you my first memory of you

4. Ask you a question

5. Tell you something I like about you

6. Give you a nickname

7. Tell you the object that is to the left of me

8. tell ya something ya didn't know about meh

9. tell you my first impression of you

10. Dare you to do this yourself in your journal

Anyone still offering invites? It looks super cooooooool

*acting like That Kid on the playground* Hey guys, what'cha doin? Can I play? :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Bad news: I have been diagnosed with gallbladder disease. ....it is painful. I am in pain.


Good news: boyfriend found out, and ran to research the disease, AND offered to cook foods for my new restrictive diet. Sweet boyfriend is sweet ♥

I was so sleey.
Am. Am still sleepy

I got some coffee thinking it'd wake me upp. It didn't

I'm just shakey and sleey.

Arms feel weak. Legs too. Not as bad as arms. I think its another of my spells. The sleepy thing.

Don't want to sleep

Tired Had to get symptom recorded.

Its 2:47m

Standard commission price list: http://www.furaffinity.net/full/8936199/

Trying to get this off the ground, up and running, etc. I'm REALLY trying to turn this into something I can use to even lightly support myself just a little bit, so I'm not as much of a burden on those taking care of me.

In light of this, I'm offering a special discount opportunity. If you could kindly write a review of your experience in commissioning me, and/or help spread the news about my open commission status, I will give you %50 OFF your commission price!

Below is a list of my commission prices, with the special discount price next to it in parenthesis.

Thank you very much for your consideration!

Traditional
uncolored: $10 ($5)
colored: $15 ($7.50)

Digital
Icon: $3 ($1.50)
Badge or Bust shot: $5 ($2.50)
Doodle: $8 ($4)
Expression Sheet: $15 ($7.50)
Reference Sheet: $35 ($17.50)
Full Figure, no background: $25 ($12.50)
Full figure, background included: $40 ($20)

Additional characters = +1/4 total price of commission

Have something else you're looking for? Just ask! I'm willing to work out a price :D

I can't get videos to play smoothly on my laptop anymore. They're always choppy, in both audio and video, whether I'm watching something that has to buffer, like Youtube, or something actually on my hard drive (home vids, etc).

I've tried a lot of things to fix this.

I've cleared a bunch of stuff from my hard drive
I've emptied the recycle bin after clearing stuff
deleted a bunch of programs
run several virus scans, spyware detections, etc
ran a de-frag
messed with my computer's settings
restored setting to default
deleted MORE extraneous programs
checked my internet settings
cleared temporary files
cleared internet history, cookies, etc
unloaded any add-on programs on my browser...


And I wish it were just video, but at the moment, that's the most pressing problem. All my programs are also taking a depressingly long time to load, and any new page/tab is like.. a two,three, even five minute wait for it to open!

it's really insane, and I have no idea how to fix it x.x

yep. confirmed. thanks to some strange thing happening to a CD I was saving things on, I lost three years worth of downloads, paintings in progress, sketches I was going to refine, and favorite images. I'm..... gonna go terrorize a video game world.

A friend of mine suggested that starting a vlog might help track my anxiety/depression as well as help me get over certain anxieties and perhaps meet people even!

If you'd like to see my very first vlog post, go here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kc3k.....sgEDdfsXl_8sCQ

It happened at approximately 0400 hours.

A 4am call to the restroom woke me from my slumber, tugging me reluctantly out of my dreamless sleep.

Taking a moment to try and wish my bodily needs away, I listened to my slightly increased heartrate before sluggishly un-draping the blankets from my body.

I should have known something was wrong then, but to my half-aware mind, all was still well.

It wasn't until I was standing up and turning towards the door that I noticed my trusty pet and ever present partner, Fable, was missing. He always sleeps by my bed. Or at least in the same room. Never leaves my side. And yet, his blue plaid blanket lay empty. Something had disturbed him.

As I took the strides necessary to bring my to my destination, I happened to glance down towards my feet, as if my gaze had been guided by some silent instinct, developed over generations.

That's when I saw it.

The Enemy.

It was beating a hasty exit from my room, racing to cross the exposed ground between the threshold of the doorway to some hidden crevice. Trying to infiltrate the rest of the house, having breached the previously perceived safe haven of my room.

But despite the tremors of revulsion and fear that racked my body, I wasn't about to let it succeed in it's foul mission. I knew then, in a moment of truth that cleared my mind of the lingering clouds of sleep, that only one of us was going back to bed tonight.

I attempted stealth first. My judgement must have still been slightly fuzzy. The Enemy knew it had been spotted, and I should have known that too. It had become still. Too still, like a bull and matador face-off. My attempt to bludgeon it from behind was doomed to fail from the start, and I watched in frustration as the bastard switched course, diving for the living room and ducking beneath a desk with the speed only it's kind can carry.

For a moment, the both of us thought it was safe.

But I knew this had to end tonight.

I passed the living room, where it turns out Fable had sought shelter, momentarily ignoring my foe in a false retreat. A risky decision, for I had given it the chance to get to better cover, but I knew my enemy. I knew it would relax, thinking it had bested me. It would be there when I returned.

And so it was, still half-hidden, mocking me with it's fat, ugly, dark form when I came back, wielding a new weapon. A more advanced weapon than my enemy knew how to prepare for.

Chemical warfare.

I smoked the area, and though I lost sight of it, I could hear my enemy scuttle in a panic. When the spray cleared, I had completely lost visual, but I knew it wasn't over yet.

The stairs were there, next to the desk. From the advantage of height, I could look down the back of the desk and see where my foe had gone. I sprayed, sprayed, and sprayed again, mercilessly cloaking the intruder in dizzying fumes, until finally I got what I wanted.

It ducked out from the desk, dashing back towards my room, in a panicked and confused retreat.

I dropped the final blow then, heart pulsing quickly as I crushed my wretched enemy.

The roach was finished.

But the damage had been done.

When I spotted it, the thing had been crawling OUT of my room.

That meant it had been IN my room before, while I was sleeping.

And so I sit here, at the table in the living room. Awake. Alert. Unable to sleep for the fear of other roach invaders hiding in the room I once thought safe.

Curse you, Roach. And all your kind.

So... I know most people won't understand this, but I've kind of... lost... and aspect of myself? Like... it feels like it's not there anymore. This will sound incredably bizzare, but it's almost like she died or something.

I'm forming a new one. And using a shark this time.

I don't know anymore...

My therapist wanted to discuss furries yesterday. Which is fine, I suppose, except that furries have little to do with the state of my mind or whats wrong with me. Or with how to ease back into working life, if that is indeed possible. I need HELP.

The psychiatrist she tried to hook me up with hasn't called. I'm calling them tomorrow. We've had paperwork problems. Not a good start.

My neurologist evidently didn't schedule a results appointment. I'll have to call her tomorrow too.

General practitioner Dr. Haven't heard from him.

Missed my past couple of lupron shots for my endometriosis. Been so busy running around everywhere else, and more importantly, my parents are so busy I feel bad asking them for yet more drives to yet more appointments.

Therapist told me on the way out of appointment that someone called and told her my case at walgreens was closed? I have no idea. I wasn't contacted, that's for damn sure.

Mom wants me to apply for ebt, medicaid, and/or disability.

Dad doesn't want to help me with the legalese part of it all, because he thinks that applying for all that means I'm giving up and deciding to never go to work again.

I'm feeling so.... run down. I'm debating hospitalization again, but if it didn't end up helping all that much last time, what the hell is this time supposed to do?

And I got so lonely last time... I missed everyone.






Not that much anyone talks to me these days





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how many people still read my posts anyways? still care?




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