They come and go, and normally show up at the most uncomfortable times.

Imagine, your sitting there and then SUDDENLY. Your wings are trapped under your shirt, you're sitting on your tail, your horns are tangled in your hair, and it just.... eh.

I is 16. ^-^

Well, its that time of year again folks. The seasons are changing, school is starting again, its cooling off, and im turning 16 on the 17th.


So basically, this month is a disaster lol

There's nothing wrong with what they do. Its simple. Its in human nature to laugh. We're meant to be laughed at. I am, so are you, and so is the old fat man down the street. You may not understand, but life is meant to be fun of. It makes others happy. I like knowing others are happy even if it means my dignity has been sacrificed. (Not that I ever had any)


And they actually keep records on actual horrible people. Like pedos, scammers, and most recently shooters. They do helpful things. Whats the lost of some dignity? Hell, we're furries. We have no dignity. So im sorry if this upsets anyone, my goal was not that. Go.ahead, turn me into the Kiwis or the mods or something. But what I say is true.

Life is for laughter. Thats it

Ask me anything. Do it.

wwwwwwwOOOOOOOOOp


This year I'm going to be able to go to my first con, even if its only for a day. Its the only furcon in my state, and its going to be awesome. I might even meet Telephone OoO

● If I died:
● If I fell:
● If I lived next door to you:
● If I showed up at your house unexpectedly:
● If I stole something:
● If I was murdered:
● If I cried:
● If I was hospitalized:

~What do you think about my~

● Personality:
(For eyes/hair/smile you can go off my art or whatever)
● Eyes:
● Hair:
● Smile:

~Would you~

● Trust me enough to sleep in the same bed as me? :
● Keep a secret if I told you one? :
● Hold my hand? :
● Study with me? :
● Cook for me? :
● Love me? :


~Have you ever ~

● Lied to make me feel better? :
● Wanted to kiss me? :
● Wanted to kill me? :
● Broke my heart? :
● Thought I was unbearably annoying? :
● Hated me? :
● Wanted to tell me something but didn't? :
● Wondered about my sanity? :
● Wanted to do something to me? :

~More ~

● When and how did we meet? :
● Describe me in three words. . . :
● What was your first impression of me? :
● What do you think of me now? :
● What reminds you of me? :
● When's the last time you saw me? :
● Are you going to re-post this to see what I'd said about you? :

Maybe. I've been doing my research, and my mom says she'll try to help me. I need a project to do over the summer.


I still think i'd make the head a commission though

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/crazyyote


Yall should go check them out!

Im so tired of here. This world is not my home. All I want is to go home. This feeling? Inescapable. Its like oxygen. And it can only be escaped by measures which could destroy a feeble body. I long to be beside my beloved again. Its all I want anymore. The tears won't stop flowing, no. I miss him. I miss home and I don't know how to leave. This is an inescapable hell. Not my home. Try it, sleeping. Dreaming. Dreaming you're finally back... but you awake again in vain to see the world you're stuck in. You go mad, don't you. Four hundred and sixty five years I've been gone. It's too long. And im tired of here. I want to go home.

Step one: Turn on the game. If you're like me, you're playing "Link to the Past"
Step two: Put off your quest, run around aggressively singing the theme song
Step three: Slash bushes with your spiral attack. Scream when an enemy pops out
Step four: kill enemies, laugh maniacally
Step five: get to the dungeon like your supposed to
Step six: there's jumping skeletons, yell about it.
Step seven: There's a room with balls. Run.
Step eight: yell more
Step nine: die to a enemy thing
Step ten: retry. Die again
Step eleven: repeat last step. Throw your Bendy plush in anger and yell
Step twelve: Realize what you just did, Chase after the plush apologizing profusely like the lunatic you are

Step thirteen: get to dungeon boss
Step fourteen: die like ten more times
Step fifteen: finally beat the stupid boss
Steo sixteen: yell in triumph, stop playing because your vocal cords hurt

What are you saying? You don't have the guts to do that. Go ahead. I can't afford to care anymore. Leave, leave this world, see what's next. Where im from, It doesn't matter. Nothing much matters today, nor the next. No I'm not from here. I long to go home. I long to be with my love. I can't afford to care. So go ahead and leave me here, go to the next level over. You won't ever see me there, because I belong somewhere else. I belong beside my love, and I can't afford to care. So, you can call me crazy for it, simply because you don't get it. And yet when you talk of ending it, you brush it off later, so I can't afford to care. Maybe my plans are crazy, I say not for that. The point is I don't care. So my friend, if this is the end, I can not afford to care.

Since I'm... apparently an official artist now, what would you all like to see? Or would you just like to see me do my own thing? Would you like to see more of my... "weird" art? (That ship art. You know that) I mean, I very rarely upload... I just don't want to bore you all. Please note: I am not taking request. This is not what this is. I'm just curious, and there's no guarantee I'll even upload for another while. (Im lazy)


Idk.

Sunshine warms the world below to chase away the cold remorse
Rain washes away the sadness, scents the air anew again
Snow is cold and crisp, yet still pure as it touches down
Wind carries songs and stories and cries of many upon its wings

It's funny. Really. How you think its all a joke. You laugh, you laugh at it all. Don't you think at all? Who does think, really? Go ahead. Keep throwing it out there. Your accusations. Saying these things. Saying I've talked of sacrifice. Saying I've threatened to use your blood for a ritual. I didn't. And you say so all because of one thing I never even talked about. So how do you know? How can you know anything when I hardly talk at all? You think you're doing something right when you yell "sheep, sheep," at me in the halls. But I don't hear you. I don't hear anything. Those knife wounds words leave? They don't hurt. They're not bleeding. Just empty where part of me used to be. But it doesn't matter. Neither do you. You're words? Ha. How do you know? How do think at all? Sheep? Everything you say has no basis in this world, neither do I. Tick, tock. I'm tired of your ridicule of something you know nothing of. Look at me. Look at me. My heart? You call it defective? Its still beating, beating like a drum to the songs in my mind. You know nothing. And never will.

It's funny, really.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8639724/




Go there. ^^^^

Eh, im bored. So have this thing.



So, school is cancelled today. Because it's snowing. I'm honestly annoyed. I like school, ya know? My friends are there, and there's pizza. But no, the sky had to become a Heather grey and pour it's fluffy white crystals onto the world below it. Not to mention its cold.
So yesterday, I drew an anthro cat. She was cupcake themed. I don't know if I'll use her for anything or not, though. I normally draw most things for practice. I do like her design though.
Major accomplishment of the week: caught myself a shiny vulpix in pokemon ultra sun. Took me two days of chaining. Her name is Hope. She is sassy.
Oddly, I have star wars music stuck in my head. The reason why is ridiculous. Look up "Duel if Fates actual lyrics" and click the sing along version. I question the sith....
As for not so good things, one of my friends has accused me of talking about sacrificing people, something I've never done. And they seem to think I'm going to do it. No... im not. I think I know why they think that... and it just bothers me. But I don't want to talk about it. So yea.


So, im going to close off this journal now. Feel free to ask questions (not about the thing I mentioned though) I hope you all have a lovely day. ^-^

Roses are red, ink is black
Once hearts taken this turn, we can't ho back
I know maybe im not the most brave of souls
And yea, I don't think through my goals
But I know for fact that you don't care
And it means so much more then is fare
For I am naught but a peasant to you
And loyal to the King, I shall see it all through
For once I feel fine in this land
By your side, hand in hand
Some call us crazy, maybe its true
But for what it's all worth, Love
Im glad I have you




(Im sorry)

In the morning the sun rises, and the moon sets.
Or perhaps its the other way around. Simple actions are such if viewed through a mirror.
Mirrors. Shining glass as they are, only show the truth, lest they are shattered by the hand of a tired mind.
And what is the mind, but the methodical ticking in all of us? Do we know the true power of our own conscious, and our own dreams? And what are dreams but a reflection of thoughts...

I

Didn't


Have



A



Heart

Hey, school, shut up about our future careers, its not like im gonna live that long anyway
Hey, body, can you maybe do something other then hurt so bad its hard to get up
Hey, friends, stop being sad. Im trying to make you happy.
Hey, old enemy, stop trying to start shit. It's not like its worth it any more
Hey, self, why are you doing this anymore?

Where oh where do I start? Oh, I know school. We're nearing the end of the semester, so they're all pestering us about our grades. "Get extra help" "You aren't doing good enough" "You'll never graduate"

So. Encouraging. Hahahaha, in fact our school has already had a shooting threat this year. Yes, the kid was joking, yes we've all made that joke, but they didn't tell us that. Kid got kicked out.

My irl friends? All depressed and stressed. No, I can't do anything. How can someone like me help anyone?

Im tired... I lose more sleep then I should.. .

My pokemon game is pissing me off

Being in love sucks because im probably trash then and probably crazy and should die but idk this is tge first time I ever even felt this before. Idk. Idk anymore


Im done with stuff.

My mom is going in for surgery today. I've been hiding it well but im actually worried. So... yea. If we talk today and I snap at you, im sorry, I don't mean it. Im just stressed.

. Whats your First name?
Allison. Yes, yes, im screwed, I know

2. Whats your favorite food?
Spaghetti.... I always eat way to much and get sick

3. Favorite culture foods?
Um, I don't know really. Whatever doesn't burn me

4.Whats your favorite cartoon?
My Little Pony and Steven Universe. Also, Scooby Doo is cool

5. Favorite video game character/creature?
Bendy. Forever. <3

6.Whats your most hated cartoon?
Pretty much any attempt to remake old stuff. The reboots all s u c k

7.Whats your favorite video game/games?
BATIM. Also Pokemon

8. Whats your favorite sport? (can be something you do or don't do and just enjoy watching)
I don't really watch sports, but have you ever witnessed the insanity that is professional table tennis?

9.Favorite toy? (please nothing sexual)
My Bendy plush. UwU

10.Most important person to you in the world?
I can't possibly pick just one...

11.What scares you.
NOTHING

12.Why so short?
I AM NOT SHORT

Feel free to repost with your own answers and let her know so she can read (She's bound to show up in the comments)

I'm just holding out now, not that I know what for
You see this world isn't mine, but I cannot find the door.
The way out of here, the way to you.
I'll find a way through.
Until then my wits are done
So hard to stay when you just want to run.
This isn't fun
I'm losing sleep
But sleep is for sheep
My stomach always feels torn
My mind is worn
This is not my world, love
This is a scorn.