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Posted 12 years agoHe awoke with a start in the middle of the night to a strange and un-nerving noise, as he looked around the room there was nothing but blurry darkness. As he reached over to the nightstand to retrieve his glasses he felt a sudden shiver run up his spine. Just as the shiver dissipated he heard a horrific scream from outside of his bedroom window. Quietly he jumped from his bed and slinked over to the window to peak out into the open field that his window over looked. As his vision adjusted the vegetable garden became clear, then the unkempt grass just beyond the rustic wooden fence where the field began. As he scanned the field with more diligence, a shadow rose and started running from the middle of the field became his focal point. He tried to muffle a small gasp that escaped his mouth with his hand as the shadow became more defined before it dropped down and quickly vanished into the thicket along the tree line.
He quickly ran across his room and grabbed his hooded sweatshirt from the closet and groped around for his boots, as the ground outside was soaked from the evening’s rainstorm. Quietly he made his way out of his room and down the stairs nimbly avoiding the loose creaking boards so not to wake any of his housemates that may have slept through that heart-wrenching scream. As he made is way through the living room he grabbed a lantern off the granite mantle above the fireplace. Quietly he questioned what he was doing going out into the night to investigate after seeing such an oddity. Quietly he opened the backdoor and went to step out onto the dark porch, but hesitated. After taking a few steps back he grabbed a knife out of the butcher block whispering to himself “best not to be completely stupid here”. Quietly shutting the back door was a bit more difficult than anticipated as his nerves were starting to catch up to him causing a bit of a tremble. Coupled with the cold crisp air rushing against his body another shiver ran down his spine causing the door to rattle as it closed.
Wincing from the noise of the door he slowly made his way down the porch and onto the paver stones that were speckled about the grass. Quietly walking along the stones, as he past the garden there was nothing of noticed disturbed or even foot prints in the recently turned soil. After a brief pause to thoroughly scan the garden slowly he reached the fence that lay between their yard and the fields. Cautiously he rested his hand upon the gate of the old rustic wooden fence while trying to work up the courage to open the gate and step off into the unkempt grass of the field they had been putting off mowing. “Yeah I’m sure you’ll sell the hay, lazy bum just trying to get out of mowing” He muttered to himself as he passed through the gate. Taking a deep breath he crouched down a bit more and slowly started to walk into the field. The field never bothered him at night frequently it was a spot for stargazing or parties, but not tonight.
Tonight the familiar field was foreign and with each step the grass slowly became taller and taller as he put more distance between himself and the safely of the fence, vegetable garden, and nicely mowed lawn. After a few more steps he heard a rustling and as he crouched down whispered “What the hell am I thinking, I may be dessert here?”. Slowly he scanned the field all around to see if anything may be approaching and his gaze fell upon the spot where the shadowy figure stood up. A sudden realization came flooding in that he was almost right at the spot in question and he whimpered slightly at the mired of scents as he steadied himself with his hand upon the ground. Just as he stepped forward he heard it again, a rustling of the brush but this time a gurgling groan accompanied it. Suddenly the smell of iron, no it was blood was overpowering every scent. He fell backwards and was about to sprint back to the house when he caught sight of a hand out of the corner of his eye. It was only just a bit more ahead where he saw the shadow scurry off from.
He couldn’t contain his curiosity and something prodded him forward. Slowly he regained his footing and approached the spot where the hand in question was. Trying to unnoticeably move through the grass he saw a young canine woman lying in the grass bleeding from gashes on her torso, arms, and legs. There were stars out but it was too overcast for much light. Taking in the surreal scene in front of him, trying desperately to process it. The flattened grass with claw marks in the dirt surrounding her body, a frantic trail through the grass that ended where she lay bleeding profusely. Her blood filling the claw marks left in the dirt. As he tried to wrap his head around the scene before him, he was startled back to reality as her arm landed on his knee and slid off. “Thank the gods she’s alive” he breathed with relief as he looked down at her hand he saw the blood smear across his knee and down his pant leg just as the smell of iron in the air filled his nose.
He shook his head and moved closer to her and took her hand in his while he crouched down next to her. He gently brushed her long auburn hair off of her face and tried to wipe away some of the blood and dirt that clung to her light colored fur.
His finger brushed against a gash that ran down to her chin causing her to groan slightly and try to pull away from him. She looked up and before her eyes could focus there was such fear and intensity in them, frantically she tried to fight him off thinking it was that shadow again. Her hand quickly connected causing him to let out a yelp and wince prompting him to let go of her hand and rub his muzzle. Muffled through his hand he tried to speak as calmly to her as possible “I heard you scream, I came to help you” he rubbed his jaw a bit “But now I wonder if that thing is what needs help.” He said with a slight chuckle. “What happened?” with obvious tension in his voice he asked her as he surveyed the tree line and surrounding field to see if what ever that was intended on circling back for a second pass. Switching on the lantern and lowering a cloth shield to dampen the light he was finally able to see who she was and the magnitude of her injuries.
“Oh my god Kat what happened? What was that thing it was huge? It’s me Craig!” he said in a panic realizing the bloody mess in his field is one of his closest friends. “Kat can you hear me? Kat!!” The only response was some incoherent babbling. During this realization Craig had completely forgotten what ever that was that took off into the surrounding woods could of still been there. His voice was no longer calm nor quite as he tried to control some of the bleeding on Kat’s extremities. After quickly shredding his hooded sweatshirt with the kitchen knife. As he tried to tie off some of her wounds Kat let out a howl and went limp “Kat talk to me you have to stay awake!” Craig reached behind himself to grab another strip of his sweatshirt and no matter how much he searched he failed to find one. Quickly he went to pull off his shirt, as his tail shifted to keep his balance the tip ran across something.
As soon as his shirt came off he twisted to look behind them but couldn’t see anything, not a twig or even a bug. Suddenly the grass started to shift around and he could faintly make out a trail flattening that was scurrying around not far off from them. “Kat I think we need to get in the house! Kat can you hear me!” Frantically Craig started sniffing at the air “Dammit were upwind of what ever is out there, Kat please!” He quickly reached down for Kat’s wrist and quickly found a pulse, faint but a pulse nonetheless. “If you’re awake you’re gonna hate me for this, but we need to move now and this is gonna hurt” As Craig shifted to Kat’s side he looked down, with the lantern on now he saw that every puddle had various shades of red. ‘God’s I thought the rain had puddle in hoof marks. How deep are these?’ he thought to himself as he reached into one of the depressions next to Kat “Shit this thing must be huge!” he spat out as he shifted and quickly bent her knees up and hooked his arm under them. “ Owww you bastard” Kat spat out as if she was drunk. ‘Man I’m gonna get hit again, her stomach is gonna hurt those are so deep’ “Crraaapppp, owww leggo Kujo” He screamed as teeth sunk into his neck
“Kat please we need to move I can’t run with your teeth imbedded in my neck. Please you have to let go” Craig quickly unhooked his left arm from her knees and pinched her nostrils shut in a desperate attempt to get her to release her grip. ‘Between the crunching of grass from that thing over there and the gurgling there is no way I can tell what where what the hell are we going to do’ He thought. Through gritted teeth” this may back fire and your gonna hate me for it but you leave me no choice Kat” Craig said as he released her nostrils and moved his hand to her stomach “here goes nothing, sorry Kat” he groaned as his nails started to sink into one of the gashes across her stomach “Crap , crap, crap” Craig seethed as Kat bit harder until finally she threw her head back letting out a short scream just before passing out. Craig quickly propped her back against his knee and clutched his neck and seethed while quickly looking down to make sure she was still breathing “Great now she looks like she has rabies from all the blood frothing around her muzzle”. Out of the corner of his eye Craig notices that the trail in grass has gotten to be but mere feet away just the other side of the depression from where Kat had her final struggle with what ever that creature was “I really hope we can make it back to the house, I really need to get her wounds tended too, gotta try this again” Carefully Craig wraps Kat’s arm around his neck and picks her up in a cradle and tries to stand.
“Ugghhh” Craig groans as Kat’s weights puts stain on his neck ‘Wow my neck is not doing good here, I forgot just how sharp her teeth are’ runs through his mind as he wearily stumbles to his feet. As they slowly stumble out of the light of the lantern his eyes try to adjust to the darkness of the overcast night ‘I think we can make it Kat, I’m just glad I came to check on the commotion. I hate to think of what more could of happened to you, well its good she still with me so far and still has a chance’ runs though Craig’s mind as Kat lets out a whimper from pain as she takes a deep breath through her nose and slightly nuzzle into his chest. “How can you smell anything over the stench of this blood kitten, I guess that’s a good sign that at least your nose is alright. Gods’ know all I can smell is blood. I just wish you could tell me if we are being stalked. I can’t shake the feeling that we’re still being watched and followed” “craiiggzzz whuatch whout shuuur ddoiinn” “Kat you’re really worrying me, you’re slurring you’re words way too much for a sober vixen. I think you may of lost too much blood kitten. We’re almost back to my place…
He quickly ran across his room and grabbed his hooded sweatshirt from the closet and groped around for his boots, as the ground outside was soaked from the evening’s rainstorm. Quietly he made his way out of his room and down the stairs nimbly avoiding the loose creaking boards so not to wake any of his housemates that may have slept through that heart-wrenching scream. As he made is way through the living room he grabbed a lantern off the granite mantle above the fireplace. Quietly he questioned what he was doing going out into the night to investigate after seeing such an oddity. Quietly he opened the backdoor and went to step out onto the dark porch, but hesitated. After taking a few steps back he grabbed a knife out of the butcher block whispering to himself “best not to be completely stupid here”. Quietly shutting the back door was a bit more difficult than anticipated as his nerves were starting to catch up to him causing a bit of a tremble. Coupled with the cold crisp air rushing against his body another shiver ran down his spine causing the door to rattle as it closed.
Wincing from the noise of the door he slowly made his way down the porch and onto the paver stones that were speckled about the grass. Quietly walking along the stones, as he past the garden there was nothing of noticed disturbed or even foot prints in the recently turned soil. After a brief pause to thoroughly scan the garden slowly he reached the fence that lay between their yard and the fields. Cautiously he rested his hand upon the gate of the old rustic wooden fence while trying to work up the courage to open the gate and step off into the unkempt grass of the field they had been putting off mowing. “Yeah I’m sure you’ll sell the hay, lazy bum just trying to get out of mowing” He muttered to himself as he passed through the gate. Taking a deep breath he crouched down a bit more and slowly started to walk into the field. The field never bothered him at night frequently it was a spot for stargazing or parties, but not tonight.
Tonight the familiar field was foreign and with each step the grass slowly became taller and taller as he put more distance between himself and the safely of the fence, vegetable garden, and nicely mowed lawn. After a few more steps he heard a rustling and as he crouched down whispered “What the hell am I thinking, I may be dessert here?”. Slowly he scanned the field all around to see if anything may be approaching and his gaze fell upon the spot where the shadowy figure stood up. A sudden realization came flooding in that he was almost right at the spot in question and he whimpered slightly at the mired of scents as he steadied himself with his hand upon the ground. Just as he stepped forward he heard it again, a rustling of the brush but this time a gurgling groan accompanied it. Suddenly the smell of iron, no it was blood was overpowering every scent. He fell backwards and was about to sprint back to the house when he caught sight of a hand out of the corner of his eye. It was only just a bit more ahead where he saw the shadow scurry off from.
He couldn’t contain his curiosity and something prodded him forward. Slowly he regained his footing and approached the spot where the hand in question was. Trying to unnoticeably move through the grass he saw a young canine woman lying in the grass bleeding from gashes on her torso, arms, and legs. There were stars out but it was too overcast for much light. Taking in the surreal scene in front of him, trying desperately to process it. The flattened grass with claw marks in the dirt surrounding her body, a frantic trail through the grass that ended where she lay bleeding profusely. Her blood filling the claw marks left in the dirt. As he tried to wrap his head around the scene before him, he was startled back to reality as her arm landed on his knee and slid off. “Thank the gods she’s alive” he breathed with relief as he looked down at her hand he saw the blood smear across his knee and down his pant leg just as the smell of iron in the air filled his nose.
He shook his head and moved closer to her and took her hand in his while he crouched down next to her. He gently brushed her long auburn hair off of her face and tried to wipe away some of the blood and dirt that clung to her light colored fur.
His finger brushed against a gash that ran down to her chin causing her to groan slightly and try to pull away from him. She looked up and before her eyes could focus there was such fear and intensity in them, frantically she tried to fight him off thinking it was that shadow again. Her hand quickly connected causing him to let out a yelp and wince prompting him to let go of her hand and rub his muzzle. Muffled through his hand he tried to speak as calmly to her as possible “I heard you scream, I came to help you” he rubbed his jaw a bit “But now I wonder if that thing is what needs help.” He said with a slight chuckle. “What happened?” with obvious tension in his voice he asked her as he surveyed the tree line and surrounding field to see if what ever that was intended on circling back for a second pass. Switching on the lantern and lowering a cloth shield to dampen the light he was finally able to see who she was and the magnitude of her injuries.
“Oh my god Kat what happened? What was that thing it was huge? It’s me Craig!” he said in a panic realizing the bloody mess in his field is one of his closest friends. “Kat can you hear me? Kat!!” The only response was some incoherent babbling. During this realization Craig had completely forgotten what ever that was that took off into the surrounding woods could of still been there. His voice was no longer calm nor quite as he tried to control some of the bleeding on Kat’s extremities. After quickly shredding his hooded sweatshirt with the kitchen knife. As he tried to tie off some of her wounds Kat let out a howl and went limp “Kat talk to me you have to stay awake!” Craig reached behind himself to grab another strip of his sweatshirt and no matter how much he searched he failed to find one. Quickly he went to pull off his shirt, as his tail shifted to keep his balance the tip ran across something.
As soon as his shirt came off he twisted to look behind them but couldn’t see anything, not a twig or even a bug. Suddenly the grass started to shift around and he could faintly make out a trail flattening that was scurrying around not far off from them. “Kat I think we need to get in the house! Kat can you hear me!” Frantically Craig started sniffing at the air “Dammit were upwind of what ever is out there, Kat please!” He quickly reached down for Kat’s wrist and quickly found a pulse, faint but a pulse nonetheless. “If you’re awake you’re gonna hate me for this, but we need to move now and this is gonna hurt” As Craig shifted to Kat’s side he looked down, with the lantern on now he saw that every puddle had various shades of red. ‘God’s I thought the rain had puddle in hoof marks. How deep are these?’ he thought to himself as he reached into one of the depressions next to Kat “Shit this thing must be huge!” he spat out as he shifted and quickly bent her knees up and hooked his arm under them. “ Owww you bastard” Kat spat out as if she was drunk. ‘Man I’m gonna get hit again, her stomach is gonna hurt those are so deep’ “Crraaapppp, owww leggo Kujo” He screamed as teeth sunk into his neck
“Kat please we need to move I can’t run with your teeth imbedded in my neck. Please you have to let go” Craig quickly unhooked his left arm from her knees and pinched her nostrils shut in a desperate attempt to get her to release her grip. ‘Between the crunching of grass from that thing over there and the gurgling there is no way I can tell what where what the hell are we going to do’ He thought. Through gritted teeth” this may back fire and your gonna hate me for it but you leave me no choice Kat” Craig said as he released her nostrils and moved his hand to her stomach “here goes nothing, sorry Kat” he groaned as his nails started to sink into one of the gashes across her stomach “Crap , crap, crap” Craig seethed as Kat bit harder until finally she threw her head back letting out a short scream just before passing out. Craig quickly propped her back against his knee and clutched his neck and seethed while quickly looking down to make sure she was still breathing “Great now she looks like she has rabies from all the blood frothing around her muzzle”. Out of the corner of his eye Craig notices that the trail in grass has gotten to be but mere feet away just the other side of the depression from where Kat had her final struggle with what ever that creature was “I really hope we can make it back to the house, I really need to get her wounds tended too, gotta try this again” Carefully Craig wraps Kat’s arm around his neck and picks her up in a cradle and tries to stand.
“Ugghhh” Craig groans as Kat’s weights puts stain on his neck ‘Wow my neck is not doing good here, I forgot just how sharp her teeth are’ runs through his mind as he wearily stumbles to his feet. As they slowly stumble out of the light of the lantern his eyes try to adjust to the darkness of the overcast night ‘I think we can make it Kat, I’m just glad I came to check on the commotion. I hate to think of what more could of happened to you, well its good she still with me so far and still has a chance’ runs though Craig’s mind as Kat lets out a whimper from pain as she takes a deep breath through her nose and slightly nuzzle into his chest. “How can you smell anything over the stench of this blood kitten, I guess that’s a good sign that at least your nose is alright. Gods’ know all I can smell is blood. I just wish you could tell me if we are being stalked. I can’t shake the feeling that we’re still being watched and followed” “craiiggzzz whuatch whout shuuur ddoiinn” “Kat you’re really worrying me, you’re slurring you’re words way too much for a sober vixen. I think you may of lost too much blood kitten. We’re almost back to my place…
Pictures????
Posted 12 years agoWould anyone on some off chance have pics of my suit??? Being all scatterbrained I can't find mine and being my first time suiting didn't really carry a camera too much :o( Around the center be it thurs, fri, sat; especially at night?
Slippin Away
Posted 12 years agoTough times upon us
Like seasoned leather sat in the sun
Times ahead loaded with questions
Are they real or are they fake
Dreams utterly absurd
Yet there none the less
Going forward
So you think
All reversed
No way up
No way down
Yet decipetion moves you on
Things once gain are now lost
You think you can but just no steam
Bolts a popin but no brass
Not a stove pipe
Not a jam
Down range blank
You think you know but yet you don't
Mechanisms gone, buttons and all
Going forward
So you think
All reversed
No way up
No way down
Yet decipetion moves you on
Which way to go
You think you know
Sadly there is no transfer ticket
The city now seems at a loss
No way to get there
So there is no way back
You ponder and wonder seeking a path
All directions seem possible
Just vines and ivy as far as sight can see
Going forward
So you think
All reversed
No way up
No way down
Yet decipetion moves you on
Ensnared in the depths of the unknown
Yet a challenge to surpass like many of past
Moving forward yet not quite
Seeking the light in depths of who know's what
North is north and south is south
More thicket to clear
You just keep pushing on
But no end in sight
Going forward
So you think
All reversed
No way up
No way down
Yet decipetion moves you on
A flash and a bang
The clearing ahead is all you envision
Warmth of the sun to set you free
To bask in it's heat
All days of days in recent time past
You trod and you plod
Through grime and all mud
The sounds of the city
All just beyond
Like seasoned leather sat in the sun
Times ahead loaded with questions
Are they real or are they fake
Dreams utterly absurd
Yet there none the less
Going forward
So you think
All reversed
No way up
No way down
Yet decipetion moves you on
Things once gain are now lost
You think you can but just no steam
Bolts a popin but no brass
Not a stove pipe
Not a jam
Down range blank
You think you know but yet you don't
Mechanisms gone, buttons and all
Going forward
So you think
All reversed
No way up
No way down
Yet decipetion moves you on
Which way to go
You think you know
Sadly there is no transfer ticket
The city now seems at a loss
No way to get there
So there is no way back
You ponder and wonder seeking a path
All directions seem possible
Just vines and ivy as far as sight can see
Going forward
So you think
All reversed
No way up
No way down
Yet decipetion moves you on
Ensnared in the depths of the unknown
Yet a challenge to surpass like many of past
Moving forward yet not quite
Seeking the light in depths of who know's what
North is north and south is south
More thicket to clear
You just keep pushing on
But no end in sight
Going forward
So you think
All reversed
No way up
No way down
Yet decipetion moves you on
A flash and a bang
The clearing ahead is all you envision
Warmth of the sun to set you free
To bask in it's heat
All days of days in recent time past
You trod and you plod
Through grime and all mud
The sounds of the city
All just beyond
Times Long Past
Posted 12 years agoLife never seems so fragile as we look forward with an indestructible mindset
We strive for the best moving forward to the next objective
Just another notch in the belt
We concour our future with an unquenchable thirst
Be it for money
Be it for fame
Be it for recognition or admiration
But all for something...
In a flash
Times long past, so far behind
Some good, some bad
Memories none of any less importance, just ordered particularly
Lessons learned and achievements gained or ground lost
Time is money as we gain years the scales should shift
Workin to the bone all for the joy
The love of the job
To be there in the thick of it all
Immersed in the chaotic order of the world and all it's gloss and grime
You dodge one obstruction and hop the next to just drive on
Money, recognition, awards, grades
What ever your poision
In a flash
Times long past, so far behind
Some good, some bad
Memories none of any less importance, just ordered particularly
Lessons learned and achievements gained or ground lost
Sometimes you stumble and keep on pushing on into the red
Some stumbles you can't avoid now matter how hard you try
They floor you and sometimes you just can't get up
Persistence is suppose to equal momentum
They forget to tell you not always foward
Momentum lost so hard to regenerate
Like pieces have been taken out of that white picket fence puzzle
In a flash
Times long past, so far behind
Some good, some bad
Memories none of any less importance, just ordered particularly
Lessons learned and achievements gained or ground lost
The more time passes the more that is lost
Sometimes thats just life
Not all wounds heal
Delt an inconceivable hand that has no happy ending
Try to move foward but hitting a wall
just another obstacle to overcome
Some things you don't see as you wind down
Tough to swallow as you stutter in your movements and shudder in place
In a flash
Times long past, so far behind
Some good, some bad
Memories none of any less importance, just ordered particularly
Lessons learned and achievements gained or ground lost
Just gotta keep climbing
Fighting
Pushing forward
Trying to regain time past...
We strive for the best moving forward to the next objective
Just another notch in the belt
We concour our future with an unquenchable thirst
Be it for money
Be it for fame
Be it for recognition or admiration
But all for something...
In a flash
Times long past, so far behind
Some good, some bad
Memories none of any less importance, just ordered particularly
Lessons learned and achievements gained or ground lost
Time is money as we gain years the scales should shift
Workin to the bone all for the joy
The love of the job
To be there in the thick of it all
Immersed in the chaotic order of the world and all it's gloss and grime
You dodge one obstruction and hop the next to just drive on
Money, recognition, awards, grades
What ever your poision
In a flash
Times long past, so far behind
Some good, some bad
Memories none of any less importance, just ordered particularly
Lessons learned and achievements gained or ground lost
Sometimes you stumble and keep on pushing on into the red
Some stumbles you can't avoid now matter how hard you try
They floor you and sometimes you just can't get up
Persistence is suppose to equal momentum
They forget to tell you not always foward
Momentum lost so hard to regenerate
Like pieces have been taken out of that white picket fence puzzle
In a flash
Times long past, so far behind
Some good, some bad
Memories none of any less importance, just ordered particularly
Lessons learned and achievements gained or ground lost
The more time passes the more that is lost
Sometimes thats just life
Not all wounds heal
Delt an inconceivable hand that has no happy ending
Try to move foward but hitting a wall
just another obstacle to overcome
Some things you don't see as you wind down
Tough to swallow as you stutter in your movements and shudder in place
In a flash
Times long past, so far behind
Some good, some bad
Memories none of any less importance, just ordered particularly
Lessons learned and achievements gained or ground lost
Just gotta keep climbing
Fighting
Pushing forward
Trying to regain time past...
Solstice (The Night of Nights)
Posted 12 years agoThe moon shines down with its beautiful glow, the light always renewing.
This one effervescent more than any other, so blue, so clear.
I can feel the electricity in the air as my hair stands on end and senses heighten.
I feel the rush, the familiar welcomed rush, adrenaline abound.
I relish the all encompassing power that floods in and takes control.
My haunches taunt.
My claws dug in.
I love this feeling and call out to my brethren spread through this night.
The night of nights that we all anticipate with giddy excitement.
I feel like I can fly as I look up but one thing is amiss.
I feel my tail can no longer wag as a scent fills my nose now all is complete.
Engulfed in each other's presence we watch the games on this, the night of nights.
The time of this solstice dwindles down, we lay interwoven upon the knoll.
Watching the stars dance across the sky lit by our beautiful blue moon.
This one effervescent more than any other, so blue, so clear.
I can feel the electricity in the air as my hair stands on end and senses heighten.
I feel the rush, the familiar welcomed rush, adrenaline abound.
I relish the all encompassing power that floods in and takes control.
My haunches taunt.
My claws dug in.
I love this feeling and call out to my brethren spread through this night.
The night of nights that we all anticipate with giddy excitement.
I feel like I can fly as I look up but one thing is amiss.
I feel my tail can no longer wag as a scent fills my nose now all is complete.
Engulfed in each other's presence we watch the games on this, the night of nights.
The time of this solstice dwindles down, we lay interwoven upon the knoll.
Watching the stars dance across the sky lit by our beautiful blue moon.
eyes wide open
Posted 12 years agoYou sit upon high judging as though you are some omnipotent force
Though you are as fragile as I, you think along a different plane of thought
You blame hate and belittle yet you are the one outside our boundries
We ready for marrage the most sacred of all things as you hide
Eyes wide open just in time
Woken from a dream
A nightmare in the making
Pulled from the forge just in time
I thank thee for the cold
As I reconnect to all that I am I'm all the stronger
Your deceptions fall on deaf ears and blind eyes
No longer blinded by you I move forward
Alone again the world bleak as before but yet a ray shines down
You enlighten as you tear down the apparition of what you claimed would be
I thank thee below for without earth to ground us these apparitions would take us away
Gaia I thank thee
Eyes wide open just in time
Woken from a dream
A nightmare in the making
Pulled from the forge just in time
I thank thee for the cold
With out the ground
With out the flora
With out the fauna
To be amongst and connect with you in basest of levels and each above
We would float away into an oblivion
Nothing but darkness and oblivion avoided by the grace of whom you choose
Naked and cold I wonder why but in this hidden corner of my soul I know it has to be
Eyes wide open just in time
Woken from a dream
A nightmare in the making
Pulled from the forge just in time
I thank thee for the cold
In our darkest hours we see our true selves
A candid, an avian
It matters not as we can all fly when we find ourselves
The sky is not even the the limit, for you have opened my eyes to the real depths of my soul
Not just what I think I can do but what I can really be
As I soar I see those tied down by those that are limit or blinded and wish to free
Eyes wide open just in time
Woken from a dream
A nightmare in the making
Pulled from the forge just in time
I thank thee for the cold
As I cut those ties that bind me loose some join my pack in the sky as they do the same no matter the species
We are all from the earth we belong to Gaia
As we all return to her be it burial or cremation
She is our life bearer no matter religion
She is our provider
As we once were we shall return
Though you are as fragile as I, you think along a different plane of thought
You blame hate and belittle yet you are the one outside our boundries
We ready for marrage the most sacred of all things as you hide
Eyes wide open just in time
Woken from a dream
A nightmare in the making
Pulled from the forge just in time
I thank thee for the cold
As I reconnect to all that I am I'm all the stronger
Your deceptions fall on deaf ears and blind eyes
No longer blinded by you I move forward
Alone again the world bleak as before but yet a ray shines down
You enlighten as you tear down the apparition of what you claimed would be
I thank thee below for without earth to ground us these apparitions would take us away
Gaia I thank thee
Eyes wide open just in time
Woken from a dream
A nightmare in the making
Pulled from the forge just in time
I thank thee for the cold
With out the ground
With out the flora
With out the fauna
To be amongst and connect with you in basest of levels and each above
We would float away into an oblivion
Nothing but darkness and oblivion avoided by the grace of whom you choose
Naked and cold I wonder why but in this hidden corner of my soul I know it has to be
Eyes wide open just in time
Woken from a dream
A nightmare in the making
Pulled from the forge just in time
I thank thee for the cold
In our darkest hours we see our true selves
A candid, an avian
It matters not as we can all fly when we find ourselves
The sky is not even the the limit, for you have opened my eyes to the real depths of my soul
Not just what I think I can do but what I can really be
As I soar I see those tied down by those that are limit or blinded and wish to free
Eyes wide open just in time
Woken from a dream
A nightmare in the making
Pulled from the forge just in time
I thank thee for the cold
As I cut those ties that bind me loose some join my pack in the sky as they do the same no matter the species
We are all from the earth we belong to Gaia
As we all return to her be it burial or cremation
She is our life bearer no matter religion
She is our provider
As we once were we shall return
squirrelly rath
Posted 12 years agoSquirrelly rath.... that is all
Foamy the squirrel gotta love em!
Foamy the squirrel gotta love em!
I'll be there laying and waiting lyrics
Posted 12 years agoI'll be there laying and waiting
Lyrics By: Mingan Ohanzee
(Think slipknot type of tempo and feel)
I'll be there laying and waiting
Seeing everything capabable of thee
All your horrifying atrocities
Waiting for the time to land of thee and hopefully even make you see
I'll fly around where you can't see
Always in the shadows just waiting
I'll swoop down when you can't see and be there waiting
You'll never know where I can be to pounce down upon thee
Once you see your atrocities
There maybe more in the wings to shed their mercy upon thee
But only if you can see what you've become
An amalgamation of all that should not be
But there you are all the while just placating before you turn on me
I'll fly around where you can't see
Always in the shadows just waiting
I'll swoop down when you can't seems and be there waiting
You'll never know where I can be to pounce down upon thee
You'll be caught within my mercy all while I'm waiting
But once your within my sights I'm not sure what might be
Guess there's a time when we will see
I hate the fact that's how it will
I guess we just shall see
I'll fly around where you can't see
Always in the shadows just waiting
I'll swoop down when you can't see and be there waiting
You'll never know where I can be to pounce down upon thee
Gonna find ya
Gonna getcha
Your time will come
Lyrics By: Mingan Ohanzee
(Think slipknot type of tempo and feel)
I'll be there laying and waiting
Seeing everything capabable of thee
All your horrifying atrocities
Waiting for the time to land of thee and hopefully even make you see
I'll fly around where you can't see
Always in the shadows just waiting
I'll swoop down when you can't see and be there waiting
You'll never know where I can be to pounce down upon thee
Once you see your atrocities
There maybe more in the wings to shed their mercy upon thee
But only if you can see what you've become
An amalgamation of all that should not be
But there you are all the while just placating before you turn on me
I'll fly around where you can't see
Always in the shadows just waiting
I'll swoop down when you can't seems and be there waiting
You'll never know where I can be to pounce down upon thee
You'll be caught within my mercy all while I'm waiting
But once your within my sights I'm not sure what might be
Guess there's a time when we will see
I hate the fact that's how it will
I guess we just shall see
I'll fly around where you can't see
Always in the shadows just waiting
I'll swoop down when you can't see and be there waiting
You'll never know where I can be to pounce down upon thee
Gonna find ya
Gonna getcha
Your time will come
spinning
Posted 12 years agoWe started out right, moving forward falling in love the the world just beyond our grasp. Each day faded to night without notice as we stayed arm in arm. Our love grew strong and our future bright. But then there was an unknown misunderstanding.
We chase our tails
Running in circles
To dizzy to comprehend
World keeps spinning
Then there you are
We catch our bearings and things seem right but yet not as they were. We move forward while standing still yet some how things seem right. My love still grew and our future became clear to me. All I want is you for all eternity to call my mate, my love, us. Some where a miss step in the dance of our lives.
We chase our tails
Running in circles
To dizzy to comprehend
World keeps spinning
Then there you are
My eyes focus all I see is you even as the world spins and spins. As we fall down we catch each other and all is right. But once its broken it can never be whole again no matter how hard we try. A key piece is missing unknown to me. I wish I knew. I search and search but its not there.
We chase our tails
Running in circles
To dizzy to comprehend
World keeps spinning
Then there you are
Far away ever fading...
We chase our tails
Running in circles
To dizzy to comprehend
World keeps spinning
Then there you are
We catch our bearings and things seem right but yet not as they were. We move forward while standing still yet some how things seem right. My love still grew and our future became clear to me. All I want is you for all eternity to call my mate, my love, us. Some where a miss step in the dance of our lives.
We chase our tails
Running in circles
To dizzy to comprehend
World keeps spinning
Then there you are
My eyes focus all I see is you even as the world spins and spins. As we fall down we catch each other and all is right. But once its broken it can never be whole again no matter how hard we try. A key piece is missing unknown to me. I wish I knew. I search and search but its not there.
We chase our tails
Running in circles
To dizzy to comprehend
World keeps spinning
Then there you are
Far away ever fading...
hmm furry or not
Posted 13 years agopassed through 
[x] you meow/bark to get attention
[x] you find pets toys amusing
[] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food
[] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you
[] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection
[/] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and bring it back
Total: 2.5
[x] you love to be scratched behind the ear
[x] you love fish/meat (I like meat more than fish, both are yummy)
[] you like to stick your head out through the window of a moving car.
[x] you like when people pet your head (scratching)
[/] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper
[] you think feathers are fun to play with
Total: 3.5
[] you sleep a lot during daytime
[] you enjoy scaring birds
[x] you lick peoples faces to show you like them
[x] you bite people if they annoy you
[] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours
[] milk or water is your favorite drink
Total: 2
[x] you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it
[] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it
[x] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit (I will own one soon, but I most likely will not be wearing it)
[x] you enjoy long walks in the park
[] you meow/bark when you see something you want
Total: 3
[/] you call your hands and feet "paws"
[x] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about
[ ] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk
[x] you really enjoy cuddling
[x] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up
[] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around
Total: 3.5
[] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep
[x] you meow or bark very often
[] you hide when you get scared
[] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house
[x] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[] you tend to chew on stuff a lot
[x] you like to do tricks to get a treat (depends)
Total: 3
[x] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it
[x] you refer to yourself as an animal
[x] your username has something to do with animal
[X] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[x] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better
[x] you look for edible stuff often
Total: 6
[] you often find yourself looking through the window for a long time
[x] you like to say hi to strangers
[] you like to be petted when you have done something good (scratched, not petted)
[] people think you act like a pet
[] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like
[] you like to eat grass
[x] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water
Total: 2
26.5 / Out of 50
Final total: 50.3
Hmmm can you {[/] half} do something?
[x] you meow/bark to get attention
[x] you find pets toys amusing
[] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food
[] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you
[] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection
[/] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and bring it back
Total: 2.5
[x] you love to be scratched behind the ear
[x] you love fish/meat (I like meat more than fish, both are yummy)
[] you like to stick your head out through the window of a moving car.
[x] you like when people pet your head (scratching)
[/] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper
[] you think feathers are fun to play with
Total: 3.5
[] you sleep a lot during daytime
[] you enjoy scaring birds
[x] you lick peoples faces to show you like them
[x] you bite people if they annoy you
[] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours
[] milk or water is your favorite drink
Total: 2
[x] you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it
[] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it
[x] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit (I will own one soon, but I most likely will not be wearing it)
[x] you enjoy long walks in the park
[] you meow/bark when you see something you want
Total: 3
[/] you call your hands and feet "paws"
[x] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about
[ ] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk
[x] you really enjoy cuddling
[x] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up
[] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around
Total: 3.5
[] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep
[x] you meow or bark very often
[] you hide when you get scared
[] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house
[x] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[] you tend to chew on stuff a lot
[x] you like to do tricks to get a treat (depends)
Total: 3
[x] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it
[x] you refer to yourself as an animal
[x] your username has something to do with animal
[X] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[x] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better
[x] you look for edible stuff often
Total: 6
[] you often find yourself looking through the window for a long time
[x] you like to say hi to strangers
[] you like to be petted when you have done something good (scratched, not petted)
[] people think you act like a pet
[] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like
[] you like to eat grass
[x] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water
Total: 2
26.5 / Out of 50
Final total: 50.3
Hmmm can you {[/] half} do something?
Always move foward, never forget to look back
Posted 14 years agoFor those that we've lost you never have nor ever will be fogotten. You will always hold a special place in my heart. I miss you.
Though we must move foward, never forget to look back. Always remeber those we have lost that were close to us and those that without fear did what they were trained to do and those that rose to the occassion. Especially if they are one in the same..
Always remember there are many that share the same void. There is always someone there to lend a hand when in need. Hold them close and cherish them, for if anything we know how fleeting life can be.
Always move foward, make sure to look back, and never forget.
One Love,
~Paul
Though we must move foward, never forget to look back. Always remeber those we have lost that were close to us and those that without fear did what they were trained to do and those that rose to the occassion. Especially if they are one in the same..
Always remember there are many that share the same void. There is always someone there to lend a hand when in need. Hold them close and cherish them, for if anything we know how fleeting life can be.
Always move foward, make sure to look back, and never forget.
One Love,
~Paul
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Posted 14 years agoA Space in My Mind
Posted 14 years agoThough we met under the strangest of circumstance, something that surely would not of ever happened. Most certainly did Jennie my dear. The ups and downs have been staggeringly difficult for me and as well as you, maybe even more so. For that I am deeply sorry and could never express to you in any capacity just how much. All I could ever do is hope for you to accept me, as I am flaws and all. Even though that may be but a dream in the back of my mind, never to progress further. Sadly I doubt it would ever be more then that. A creature as beautiful as you, I could never see with me as I wilt and you blossom. The connection I felt was real but I can speak no further than that. I feel as though you are fading away and it affects me greatly more so than I can express. I can only hope our link can be re-established. You have made a place in my heart, and mean when i tell you so. But due to the reality of this situation I guess that cannot and should not be, for your sake, no matter how i feel. As you deserve so much more in life than this worn soul can give.
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Posted 14 years agoYou gotta love when some lies to you so throughly that it just shakes you to the core. Where every fiber of your being is just laughing at you for being dumb enough to be suckered to such an extent. They finally get what they want, and then run away laughing at you while looking back pointing at you... Then for the kicker come running past for a second lap to rub it in your face. Ah life such a beautiful thing, ah well live and learn right.
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Posted 14 years agoSomething very aggravating and messed up has been going on that I feel I need to get it out in the open. I may end up adding more to this little ditty at some point but due to recent events the pony is leaving the gate. Essentially in It's most simplistic form it breaks down to some people using a person's physical disability against them to try and spin certain things a way that they want a situation to appear that is very unflattering. Say like taking someone who is blind in one eye and then using that physical disadvantage to twist certain things so to make people think things that are not the truth. This past weekend was really the first time that I had really been out for an extended period of time, aside from jaunts with old friends since getting sick years ago. But because of the nature of my ailments I've been very much a home body since '04 due to multiple surgeries. The eye being one of them, but that was for a detached retina in the already blind eye not the lack of sight in it. Prior to getting sick my disability didn't bother me at all, as I had to deal with a lot of people due to my profession be they clients or anyone in between. But I guess since being closed off socially to a degree for this long that is no longer the case and I guess maybe it can make me a bit uncomfortable at times.
pointless rant
Posted 14 years agoI only just thought this recently when I was digging around my accounts that the dates of joining were odd for some reason, and it dawned on me that the dates tie into the last time I was in the hospital for a surgery. When I got back home I found out I got hijacked across the board, like foreign calls on my cell, charges on credit cards, monies vanishing from bank accounts; even my social security card and birth certificate vanished. The whole nine yards, hell there was even alert on my credit from some trying to get a loan on the other side of the country, thank the gods for credit monitoring. I don't quite know why I'm bringing this up or pointing it out maybe it has to do with being over tired but I had initially joined all these lj, devient, fa, yiffstar, back in like early 2000 - 2003 ish and it's kinda irksome that it's listed different. I guess it's kinda stupid and inconsequential that I had to have them re made or reinstated which ever the case was I can't recall. But oh well.
