Update on my life 10-04-2025
Posted 3 weeks agoHI Everyone,
So much has been going on in the world. Getting back into writing and art. My Fursuit in the profile is no longer mine. So if you see him out and about give him a hug for me. I gave him up to the Megaplex Auction. I could no longer breath in him. Wrabbit 2.0 is in the works and has a moving Jaw. He is grey with black spots on him. Will be posting some art working on soon.
Last adventure was this past Megaplex, we had over 10k furries. We are working on a better system with checking people in, Megaplex is located In Orlando Fl and will be happening again on AUG 21-23 2026. Hope to see you there.
My next convention is Kami-Con Happening in Birmingham Al on Feb 6-8 2026 at the BJCC , they are very fursuit / furry friendly. Had over 9k attendee's this year.
If ever need to talk, I have two big ears and a big heart.
My other journals make a good read. If your having relationship issues . Look at the "If your in a relationship in trouble" Also If you have trouble sleeping or depressed look at the one " Self hypnosis.
Want to know more about me "Life chapter 16439"
    So much has been going on in the world. Getting back into writing and art. My Fursuit in the profile is no longer mine. So if you see him out and about give him a hug for me. I gave him up to the Megaplex Auction. I could no longer breath in him. Wrabbit 2.0 is in the works and has a moving Jaw. He is grey with black spots on him. Will be posting some art working on soon.
Last adventure was this past Megaplex, we had over 10k furries. We are working on a better system with checking people in, Megaplex is located In Orlando Fl and will be happening again on AUG 21-23 2026. Hope to see you there.
My next convention is Kami-Con Happening in Birmingham Al on Feb 6-8 2026 at the BJCC , they are very fursuit / furry friendly. Had over 9k attendee's this year.
If ever need to talk, I have two big ears and a big heart.
My other journals make a good read. If your having relationship issues . Look at the "If your in a relationship in trouble" Also If you have trouble sleeping or depressed look at the one " Self hypnosis.
Want to know more about me "Life chapter 16439"
Its been a while
Posted 10 months agoHI Everyone
Quick update on my book of life. I am in middle of moving back to Alabama, next year hope to get a replacement convention up and going. Fangcon is greatly missed. Does my heart good to see the fandom growing. People coming forward to help co-create our world.
More to come, also I am in middle writing a book about a furry otter and rabbit in space. .....
    Quick update on my book of life. I am in middle of moving back to Alabama, next year hope to get a replacement convention up and going. Fangcon is greatly missed. Does my heart good to see the fandom growing. People coming forward to help co-create our world.
More to come, also I am in middle writing a book about a furry otter and rabbit in space. .....
No Subject
Posted 5 years agoHi
Hope everyone is weathering everything , If you have ps4 and want to earn some funds on GTA V, let me know.
    Hope everyone is weathering everything , If you have ps4 and want to earn some funds on GTA V, let me know.
Fangon
Posted 6 years agoHi to all , Fangcon is coming up here shortly Feb 5th, I will be traveling up to help out on staff, hope everyone is well in life. If anyone ever needs to chat feel free to message me. If your a Taurus looking for a long term relationship, pm me. Welp thats about it for now. Hugs to all
    Fangcon
Posted 7 years agoHi to one and all, Fangcon has the site up and going, if you can share with everyone you know, this is not just about a convention, its about getting the fandom to grow, bring joy to others. Thanks, www.Fangcon.com 
Hope to see you there.
    Hope to see you there.
Taurin Fox
Posted 7 years agoHi to all, here is a video done by the T F , check it out. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mOJne8ENYeo
    May, 2018
Posted 7 years agoHello to one and all, 
Over last month been adding artists to my watch list. Like to thank them all for the work they do and post. It brings a light into my life like that with music. For those I have not talked to in a while waves. Hope you are well in life.
Hugs to everyone
    Over last month been adding artists to my watch list. Like to thank them all for the work they do and post. It brings a light into my life like that with music. For those I have not talked to in a while waves. Hope you are well in life.
Hugs to everyone
Life - Chapter 16,439... a good read ...
Posted 11 years agoHugs, to all its your story to write, each day. In my thoughts, we are all equal souls, in this journey we call life, each here to learn our own lessons, and sometimes the universe has us help others , in that helping it becomes part of our learning. Do we touch the hot pot, and keep getting burned, in the neighbors home. Or do we leave the place behind, go to our own and not continue to get burned. We really for the most part make our own reality, yes the universe edits it time to time.
Wrabbit..
Ps Chapter 16,439 i my life, today I woke up , its my day off, took nice shower, finished up some dishes, fixed a pop tart and some milk, logged onto computer, found a FA message from DarkIceWolf, and decided to pass on some lessons I have learned over the years, ( in process of being wrote )
each day is a new chapter how will you write yours.. http://www.beatcanvas.com/daysalive.asp
    Wrabbit..
Ps Chapter 16,439 i my life, today I woke up , its my day off, took nice shower, finished up some dishes, fixed a pop tart and some milk, logged onto computer, found a FA message from DarkIceWolf, and decided to pass on some lessons I have learned over the years, ( in process of being wrote )
each day is a new chapter how will you write yours.. http://www.beatcanvas.com/daysalive.asp
If your in a relationship in trouble... this is for you...
Posted 12 years agoHi there...
Finally found the clip I was looking for... when people first meet in a relationship each other is freely giving of their Chi, ( energy ) and as the newness wares off.. people start to argue its because that energy exchange between the 2 is lesser... here is a small clip to watch they helps explain it a little with some visual effects. If you find yourself in a place in a relationship that you want to work. Set down and research this with your partner and work on it. 100% certain that it will open your heart and mind to new view of how relationships can flourish. Hugs to each and everyone out there and hope many years of happiness to all..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lN7FdI-ejeQ
Wrabbit
    Finally found the clip I was looking for... when people first meet in a relationship each other is freely giving of their Chi, ( energy ) and as the newness wares off.. people start to argue its because that energy exchange between the 2 is lesser... here is a small clip to watch they helps explain it a little with some visual effects. If you find yourself in a place in a relationship that you want to work. Set down and research this with your partner and work on it. 100% certain that it will open your heart and mind to new view of how relationships can flourish. Hugs to each and everyone out there and hope many years of happiness to all..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lN7FdI-ejeQ
Wrabbit
Self hypnosis/meditation/energy work
Posted 12 years agoSelf hypnosis/meditation  I learned from a tape back when computers just started to become mainstream... and only basically had the dial up modems...  for local BBS boards... oh the days .... what I was getting at... had no online library, used books and tapes.. and found what came to my mind and used some threw out a bunch... each of us has our own special lock and key.... to ourselves and exploring that is part of the process... there are many online places for self hypnosis help... 
Basic process for me is the following... to give you a start...
Life is energy, so make a spot in your home strictly for you and you alone, no pets included... a quiet place... that you will put positive energy into... Being stressed can cause all sorts of negative emotions.. I now have a past life memory to fall back on for this... Back in the day Egypt... there was a room made entirely for mediation. But there were outer rooms and in each room you were required to meditate and calm the mind to enter the main room one had to be clear minded and neutral in emotions if not more to the positive. In this room you will work with energy, you can charge crystals, rocks and items on days you have more energy to give. Later you will learn how to make energy balls to place in the room for even a better recharge for those low days.
Have enough room where you can be in a rested position in a chair or on the floor... because more often than not you will fall asleep when beginning...
You will want to begin not first with the mind but with the body and routine, you will train your mind that when you go to this place it is for a purpose and it will flow easier. You lay flat and will start with the toes... each one from the big to little or the other way around or mix it up.. but keep it the same... it takes on average of repetition of 22 times for the mind to catch on to something... But take each toe and examine it with your mind with your eyes shut. Stretch the toe, move it around relax and release the thought and move on to the next toe. Then to the base of the foot and then the ball, ankle, up the calf, to the knee, on up the leg to the pelvis and the whole area that goes with it, this is the base area of the red chakra, it deals with creation, this is where you would want to say to yourself what you were wanting to do... just above that and below the belly button is the orange chakra, it deals with sense of smell, this is where you would want to use your sense of smell, take a deep breath in and out 4 times real slow,
( each of these stages you want to try to stretch each area then relax the muscles... )
Just below where your rip cage comes together at the point around your stomach area, is the yellow chakra, this is the main place energy flows from you to others, be it a person your thinking about, a object, you name it... yellow is the mist from which things are clouded so as to be a fog... if you find yourself feeling drained or negative you need only to place the palms of your hands over this energy center and think that you want to raise your shields and block any flow of energy in and out of you in this area. Many I know use this and have had people want to argue or do drama to get energy from one. Only to get a puzzled look on there face when that energy flow is cut off and they wonder off like someone that tried to suck the last drop out of a cup and there wasn't anything.
On up center between your breast, is the green hearth chakra, this is the core goodness that is in each of us, but as also just as well a place to harbor , will not say darkness, but negative thoughts and emotions.. the key is to find a balance in you. But take a moment and listen to the beating of your heart, the ebb and flow of the blood and what it does for your cells in transporting all the things your body needs to function. Green is the color of life.
Now before the throat, you want to take a moment to branch off, down each of the arms, from the shoulders, biceps, to elbows, forearms, the wrist, palm and each of the fingers, stretching and relaxing.
On to the blue throat chakra, this is where one give voice to actions and thoughts, it can cool a situation as well as start one. When I do energy healing work the color blue is a cool down period where coolness is applied.
On to the Indigo third eye area of the body, one would think that the heart is where love comes, for me it is not, the thought of love for another comes from the center of the mind, this is the true heart and soul of where when you feel love of another comes from. When doing energy work.
On up to the top of the head the Purple crown chakra, this is where your outside energy source that flows into you everyday comes from, as more people learn that they have a universal outside source to draw energy from, instead of feeding of others the better the world will become. When doing energy healing this is the thread I use to sew up the wound and put a patch on it while it will heal.
It is important that one of the first things you do is find and envision the source of energy coming to you on a constant basis, if you ever get into working with energy it is important no to use your own personal energy for any large task. The source of energy following into you can be increased when needed, but can not be maintained, and will short circuit your nervous system. Its ok for a bit to use but be sure to turn it back to normal after done working with it.
We have a constant source flowing into us, and you see people who with draw, and succumb to sickness and die are because that flow was reduced if not cut off all together by the will of the person.
Now that were all relaxed ( and if still awake ) this is where we would want to imagine a place where we could do to in our inner-mind, my place is a small water fall with a rock and stream, there is a work area under a tree, where in my mind I go to, to do the things I want to set into motion in my life or send healing to another. Where I light a candle for them and send out energy.
Hope this helps some, and you find your place. Hugs to ya, and safe happy journeys...
Wrabbit
If you have any thoughts or questions, I welcome them.
    Basic process for me is the following... to give you a start...
Life is energy, so make a spot in your home strictly for you and you alone, no pets included... a quiet place... that you will put positive energy into... Being stressed can cause all sorts of negative emotions.. I now have a past life memory to fall back on for this... Back in the day Egypt... there was a room made entirely for mediation. But there were outer rooms and in each room you were required to meditate and calm the mind to enter the main room one had to be clear minded and neutral in emotions if not more to the positive. In this room you will work with energy, you can charge crystals, rocks and items on days you have more energy to give. Later you will learn how to make energy balls to place in the room for even a better recharge for those low days.
Have enough room where you can be in a rested position in a chair or on the floor... because more often than not you will fall asleep when beginning...
You will want to begin not first with the mind but with the body and routine, you will train your mind that when you go to this place it is for a purpose and it will flow easier. You lay flat and will start with the toes... each one from the big to little or the other way around or mix it up.. but keep it the same... it takes on average of repetition of 22 times for the mind to catch on to something... But take each toe and examine it with your mind with your eyes shut. Stretch the toe, move it around relax and release the thought and move on to the next toe. Then to the base of the foot and then the ball, ankle, up the calf, to the knee, on up the leg to the pelvis and the whole area that goes with it, this is the base area of the red chakra, it deals with creation, this is where you would want to say to yourself what you were wanting to do... just above that and below the belly button is the orange chakra, it deals with sense of smell, this is where you would want to use your sense of smell, take a deep breath in and out 4 times real slow,
( each of these stages you want to try to stretch each area then relax the muscles... )
Just below where your rip cage comes together at the point around your stomach area, is the yellow chakra, this is the main place energy flows from you to others, be it a person your thinking about, a object, you name it... yellow is the mist from which things are clouded so as to be a fog... if you find yourself feeling drained or negative you need only to place the palms of your hands over this energy center and think that you want to raise your shields and block any flow of energy in and out of you in this area. Many I know use this and have had people want to argue or do drama to get energy from one. Only to get a puzzled look on there face when that energy flow is cut off and they wonder off like someone that tried to suck the last drop out of a cup and there wasn't anything.
On up center between your breast, is the green hearth chakra, this is the core goodness that is in each of us, but as also just as well a place to harbor , will not say darkness, but negative thoughts and emotions.. the key is to find a balance in you. But take a moment and listen to the beating of your heart, the ebb and flow of the blood and what it does for your cells in transporting all the things your body needs to function. Green is the color of life.
Now before the throat, you want to take a moment to branch off, down each of the arms, from the shoulders, biceps, to elbows, forearms, the wrist, palm and each of the fingers, stretching and relaxing.
On to the blue throat chakra, this is where one give voice to actions and thoughts, it can cool a situation as well as start one. When I do energy healing work the color blue is a cool down period where coolness is applied.
On to the Indigo third eye area of the body, one would think that the heart is where love comes, for me it is not, the thought of love for another comes from the center of the mind, this is the true heart and soul of where when you feel love of another comes from. When doing energy work.
On up to the top of the head the Purple crown chakra, this is where your outside energy source that flows into you everyday comes from, as more people learn that they have a universal outside source to draw energy from, instead of feeding of others the better the world will become. When doing energy healing this is the thread I use to sew up the wound and put a patch on it while it will heal.
It is important that one of the first things you do is find and envision the source of energy coming to you on a constant basis, if you ever get into working with energy it is important no to use your own personal energy for any large task. The source of energy following into you can be increased when needed, but can not be maintained, and will short circuit your nervous system. Its ok for a bit to use but be sure to turn it back to normal after done working with it.
We have a constant source flowing into us, and you see people who with draw, and succumb to sickness and die are because that flow was reduced if not cut off all together by the will of the person.
Now that were all relaxed ( and if still awake ) this is where we would want to imagine a place where we could do to in our inner-mind, my place is a small water fall with a rock and stream, there is a work area under a tree, where in my mind I go to, to do the things I want to set into motion in my life or send healing to another. Where I light a candle for them and send out energy.
Hope this helps some, and you find your place. Hugs to ya, and safe happy journeys...
Wrabbit
If you have any thoughts or questions, I welcome them.
This is me....
Posted 12 years agoHi to one and all... *(Edit) I made this journal originally to give past life history of me..  Below you will find a time line of my past lives and would show you who I have been over the years..
They say within each of us is a book that is being written... I have come to make friends and have people that have come into my life to become family to me. I get people that ask me about me and I give a little info here and there, today I woke up about 3:30 am on the year 2013 Jan 31st. Setting here and decided to write all this down... enjoy if you decide to read it all the way through... This is me... At the end if you have any questions fill free to ask, also I would truly like to ask you to write as much as you like about you and your experiences in life...
Chapter 1 Lets Begin
" Ok lets begin " I heard, as I was seeing the wall turn to a monochrome color. Suddenly I was seeing myself as a Eskimo child holding onto a polar bear standing outside of a village. I knew my body was still setting in the chair, in the home of a dear friend and family member., but here I was. I did not know the year, but I was standing in the snow over looking a village at night. I was asked what I was seeing and as if on some sort of truth serum I was explaining everything to whom I will call my " Guide " who was the one that was doing the session, that was allowing me to experience my past lives. I stood there in the snow and was just looking at the village, I was told to just relax and everything was fine. The images that flowed into my mind were so vivid, I began to walk toward the village and with every step I took leaving tracks in the snow and having my friend and companion polar bear beside me headed toward the village.
When I got to the edge of the village the polar bear stopped and I knew she could go no farther. I turned and gave her a big hug and thanked her for the protection and for guiding me home. I stood there as she turned and began to walk away just as it was starting to snow. She walked into the night and disappeared, but I sensed she was still there in someway. I turned and walked into the village.
I was your average male child, nothing of special sorts. Not a chiefs son, or anyone with a title. Because the village had no one that was the leader back in this time which I am guessing was like in the year 1500 to 1700, ( There were no real leaders that was not until the colonizations began that people were given titles, ) I lived in a fishing village where the people would fish during the summer season and preserve the fish for the never ending nights of the winter. My mother was a sweet woman as well as my father, the days came and went as would any childhood. My father took me out fishing when I became of age and started to teach me the ways to survive. Time passed and I found myself going out fishing alone one spring just as the ice was beginning to thaw.
I got a little to close to a whale and my boat capsized and I sank like a rock. Next thing I know I was no longer seeing myself from a first person perspective I was seeing a body of a young adult male slip into the dark depths of the ocean. I was not frantic, just a feeling of ummm ok.
( *Of special note always had a deep love for polar bears* )
The whole time this is being told to my Guide, who told me it was ok and to just relax and let the images flow. The next moment I am a little boy in a English type town, playing marbles in the dirt.
I look up and see kids my age all around. Some playing, some reading, and older kids off in there own little groups. It was late and I was heading to home, again time went by on a daily basis, we were not poor but not well off either. I received a good education and went on to become a salesman of woman's clothing. I was a bit of a ladies man and never married, I did have a nice home with Victorian style furniture. I dated a lot of women, and help them have affairs till one day I was shot in my late 30's by a lover of a woman named Kathy. It was not a instant your dead thing, I took a fever from the wound and died slowly over the weeks. Then was no longer looking thru my eyes was standing beside my body just looking down at a man's body. I knew that was me but was no longer feeling it was me.
Again my guide told me it was ok I was safe and to continue to let things flow. This time I was picking cotton, I looked at my hands and had scrapes and cuts. I looked around and I was in a field that looked like it was covered in snow. There were slaves all around and was on a plantation in Louisiana. The owner was not a terrible unkind type but not a nice one either. I lived as a slave until the 1840's when the laws came down where people could not own slaves. I was taken to one of the town halls, where I was forced to sign a paper that said I agreed to be a indentured servant. I remember writing my name down as Tobby and signing the date as April 8th 1840. Everyone was made to sign the papers. I was a rebel at heart and tried to run for the north one day. Only to be caught and hanged. So there I was by a oak tree looking at a body of a man in his early 40's.
( *Of special note I never have liked anything on my wrists, and having the memories of having shackles on I know now is the reason why, also I was raised this time in the south by folks that lean toward being racist I have always been a fighter for civil rights very deeply * ) ( Also the this was a time before the English life but giving it in a way that it came to me as the session progressed )
Once again my guide assured me everything was fine, safe, and to let things just flow. This time I had a stick in my hand play fighting with another boy my age, we were in a back alleyway pretending to be Samurai warriors. I was in Japan, my life was very structured. School, honor and learning for love of country above all else type of upbringing, I worked in a noodle shop with my father. Till one day joining the military and becoming a fighter pilot, in which when I was shot down my plane on fire smashing into the ocean. Then darkness.... My guide was telling me it was time for the session to end after that. It took some time for me to get phased back into current self.
( * Of note, back when computer games were coming out, I got a war fighter simulator, never liked the American planes much, but loved the Japanese Zero aircraft. Also know why I really like kung fu panda show so much lol. )
My guide let me know that memories from other lives may start to surface now that the door was open so to speak, and that they did. Only two others have come to me. One I was a aid to a mid level priest in Egypt, my duties we to prep for ceremonies and be a step fetch person. I was taken from my parents one day authorities caught my father stealing he was killed and I was sent to be a servant who was later sent to be the aid. It was a ok life nothing special, but it had its perks, not being a slave building the pyramids was nice. And yes those blocks were dragged into place no special space aliens or anything like that. Hard core labor and lots and lots of sand. This time was stabbed and berried with the priest, yea for me, not.... I have always had a affinity with Egypt.
And the last one did not come in a dream I was watching a program on TV about Saint Patric's Day, and they were going on about how great the person was, yada yada. Then I look at my remote control in my hand and I had crushed it as I was crushing it the thoughts running through my mind were of total discussed. Lies all lies is the thought coursing thru me. The name Longbeard came to my mind, so with the Internet I looked up the name... Cormac mac Airt came up... and sure enough he was around during dear old St. Pattys time. So somewhere in me is memories of that time just do not recall em but that era is part of me. Part of me want to get the stone from the museum and take it to the mound just to see what may happen. Maybe one day I will.
Chapter 2 So Here We Set
This brings us up to my current life, my earliest memory was one of a brick wall as we stopped at a stop light in Gulfport Ms. I was coming home from the hospital after the first months of being born in Ohio. My mother was visiting relatives in Ohio when I was born early at 6lbs 1oz. My mom was a smoker and the only baby picture that survives to this day is one of her blowing smoke in my face while holding me on her lap.
I have many memories from my childhood back now having gone through the session I did seems to make them easier to access. Had the standard life from day1 to the age of 6 when I died. I had just got home from a trip to Ohio with my grandmother, she was in bed not feeling well and my mom had bought be some Hershey's Kisses, I went to the kitchen and put some in a glass and went running across the floor. Slipped and cut my wrist wide open, we had no car and lived on the outside of town. My mom called a cab, and tried to cover the wound, but there was lots of blood. Just as we get to the doors of the hospital I am suddenly in a white room with people wearing white robes with gold trim on them. One is talking to me telling me everything is ok and will be fine. The person is wearing a medallion around there neck. ( * That medallion I would later be browsing the Internet in 2004 and come across it was the medallion of St. Bartholomew. That blew my mind he is the Patron Saint of skin cuts. I am not catholic, consider myself more Gnostic, I was looking for a present for a catholic friend of mine and wanted to get her a medallion to ware. * ) It turns out they pronounced me dead in the ER and shocked my back after pumping some blood in. I woke up in a room with a boy next to me with a head wound from a pellet gun. I got out of the hospital after a few days and went home not really thinking of the memory of the room until seeing that medallion on the net that day it opened up the memories.
I had friends and family that would come and go, events that would happen. Fish bone through foot, concussion from hitting my head on a sewer grate from doing a Evel Knievel stunt, my aunt hanging a cat from a tree, my grandmother whacking a dogs man part off in the yard when the two dogs were stuck together, just your typical childhood. My father worked off shore and when he came home he would get drunk, my mom started to have a affair with my soon to be first step father. When I was 8 we left in the middle of the night and began our move around the United States campaign, they would run up bills in a town and move over night. I generally was in 3 different schools and states a year. What pictures we had was kept in a paper bag only to be burnt one night in a fit of rage my stepfather had. Then one day when I was 14 I had enough one night my mom had dragged me with her to a bar looking for him, when he started to beat on her like normal, I snapped and all those years just came out. The bar guys got me off of em, the next morning they told me they were once again moving and felt I did not want to go with them. I had a full time job at the age of 14 and worked 7 days a week as well as going to school. Financially I was good, and with the help of the principal at my school I was able to stay on my own. I had my first job working at the age of 10 and where ever we moved to I would find work doing something. Spent most my time away from the house as much as I could. Long as I showed up when it was time to leave a town was all that seemed to matter besides providing income for the family.
I went on to graduate at the age of 17, I had friends in the area and one day my mom shows up at the age of 18 and says my step father got killed. I welcome her, and all seemed ok, till one night when playing poker she shows up with a bloody face and says the guy she was dating smashed her face into a windshield, me and my friend go looking for him and find him in a tree. He runs and the cops catch him and put him in a line up while he is in jail and a woman fingers him for rape. My mom thinks him innocent and tries to smuggle pot to him in jail. Drug dogs at the door... hummm... Yea so I have like had it emotionally so get it into my head to join the Airforce.. to just start fresh and not let anyone know where I am. So mothers in Jail, I lose the weight to join the AF, I wanted to be a flight navigator, was fascinated with it... wonder why??? lol.... Just thought about that...
But the recruiter tricked me, and the service is not bad folks, well AF is not, just when you sign up do not sign up under a general carrier field. It means they get to pick, if you do join make sure the job title and number is on the contract, just a heads up. ( If for some reason in the future there is time travelers I joined the AF on Aug 28th 1989, and the on the 30th while lined up to get my shoes 2 people called my name, I went over and the two looked at me like a museum piece. Do not know what I will do, but I have always had that odd feeling about that encounter. )
We were in a classroom and were told no matter what our recruiters said, the jobs on the board would be all that we would get to choose from, I waited till everyone had gone from room and closed the door and it was just me and one training instructor. I told him no, to send me to jail what ever but no. He asked me to calm down and would send me to talk to someone next morning. Sure enough he was true to his word, and I ended up taking a test for the job I had before I went in as a printer. I passed it and went direct duty to my base. Six years went by, during that time have lots of memories of the Gulf War, living in all parts of the world and seeing many things I wish I could forget. But after my 6 year contract I got out. Went to live with my aunt and help them with bills, my mother had gotten out after 2 years in jail and ended up with my sister after trying to commit suicide. ( I can relate with people that get to that point because I have been there a few times myself in this life but I am still here. Even though I am firm believer in past lives does not mean if someone commits suicide they do not have to go back and relive there life till they get over that bump, time and space are a subject to be studied, and I would not want to have to relive this life )
So were up to the year 1995, my sister calls and says her and her family need extra help with support for my mom and need a extra hand hanging sheet rock, her husband was a sub-contractor. I had not spoke with my mother since 1989 when I took her a cartoon of cigarettes to the jail. So the good in me struck out to GA to help out, in 1997 my brother-in-law ran out of work and I got a job as a warehouse manager for Heilig-Meyers Furniture, who turns out was going through bankruptcy. So 3 months later I find myself at the doorstep of my father, that I had just got to talking to over the phone from encouragement of my mom. I had last seen him when I was 13 he had come to my sisters home and proceeded to take me out in the back yard to fight me and teach me to be a man. I stayed with him a few months and moved back up with my aunt in Alabama. My aunt got me and my mom a trailer to live in and life went on. In 1998 I met my wife it was not a love at first sight thing but I grew over time, she was there for me when my mom passed due to cancer from smoking, I carried her body out the the coroners car. I married and moved in with my wife who passed due to organ failure which I totally blame on the hospital. In the year 2008 Aug 25th, I will always remember this messed up date, why you ask.... Aug 25 was the day I was born on in 1969. In 2004 I had went to work for the rail road, the job was good, the people and company I worked for not so much. My nerves were shot and I could not safely operate a train with the nerve meds I was on. I miss the money but one is not treated as a person only a number, they give you rules to go by, but get upset if you go by them. Its all about money... sigh...
So in 2009 me and the rail part company and I move around a little to help family. Now here we are in the year 2013. I have tried to get work, but due to age, past heath issues, most companies check and do not call or they send you a letter going no thanks. I survive well because I live in a multi-household and we all split the bills. I get a insurance check from my wife's life insurance one a month for the rest of my life its not much but it pays the bills. Update : In 2013 my heart got stirred by another, I set out to Indiana where I thought I found someone, turns out not so much, I did find another that is now my mate thru the process, in 2014 we moved down to orlando fl, here it is 2017, have a house were buying and living everyday life. So here we are...
Chapter 3 - Metaphysical life.
I first experience with dealing with the unseen as I call it took place in 1990 when I was cleaning my printing press, those chemicals can give you a trip. I seen a picture in my mind of a eye, that I drew out and looked up. It was the eye of Horus and I dove into reading what I could ( and no none of my reading ever took me near what priests or aids did during those times. Besides having clear memories of walking around and all would not be covered in a book, yes the mind could translate like it does with dreams, but one just knows the difference. ) I met a woman who was into house cleansing, I went with her one day to one and I put my hand on the wall and imagined a blue light filling the home, it was a bright angelic blue. She took interest in that and we went on several trips to others homes doing the same, she taught me how to make energy balls and work with them.
She taught me how to do energy healing which I never really put into practice till 2002 and if you ever get into doing that let me tell ya find your outside energy source to use. Using your own energy is a big no no... come to find out. Each of us have a outside source that flows into us constantly, meditation and connection with that source is fundamental to your health. There are things that have happened to me of the unseen category that would just make one go wow. But I am honor bound not to speak of them. Its all these things that have happened to me over time that only strengthens me.
I see people going through their life's lessons and I feel so much for each and everyone of you all. I see ones just wanting to give up on life been there, get frustrated at the world, the way things are, been there. All I am doing now is giving hugs, a ear to lend listen, or some advice. I do wish the best for everyone and everything on the planet and universe both seen and unseen. But for the most part people are meant to find things out for themselves and to write into their books.
Chapter 4 - The Furry Fandom - All things in there time and reason
All things in there time and reason is a big part of my saying. In 2009 after my wife had passed I was ready to cash in, I felt there nothing to live for, the world being as cruel as it is and was at the time. I friend sent me a video on youtube about a Furry Convention, here was a group of people that wanted to have fun and not be judged by the world for race, age, ethnic background, and I brought the hope I needed for mankind back into me. Over the years, I have become more involved in the fandom. Back in 1990 when I was in the AF I actually was a mascot for the local MWR office called Perry the Pelican. I found him in a closet and fixed him up, loved to see the smile that people get on their face and that's a big part of some of those that are in the fandom, they mostly have had negative encounters with " Adults figures" and just want to be able to be a kid at heart and see the kid in others come out. The love of cartoons, anthropomorphic characters, stories, the whole nine yards. I am glad the fandom is in my life, and I have the label.
Well the sun is up and its time to end this chapter.... I hope you enjoyed the read its all 100% non-fiction. There are all the memories from those past lives to fill the library of congress but its mostly just fillers of general everyday life. I look forward to the coming year and the memories it will bring.
Hugs to one and all
Wrabbit
Astro Chart
Rising Sign is in 20 Degrees Sagittarius
You are known for being open, frank, outgoing and honest. At times, though, you are also blunt and quite indiscreet. Others have to learn not to take everything you say personally, because you usually do not mean any harm. You appreciate living your life in a straightforward and simple manner -- you dislike social niceties and consider them to be hindrances to real communication. You have lots and lots of energy and tend to become quite restless if you feel confined. You demand the freedom to do as you choose -- you must be self- directed or you feel trapped and anxious. With your abundant energy, you enjoy being outdoors, and you should be attracted to physical exercise or to those forms of sport which can help you burn off some of that excess energy. Very gregarious, you love to socialize -- your innate enthusiasm livens up any gathering.
Moon is in 10 Degrees Aquarius.
Very freedom-oriented, you must always be able to do what you wish, no matter what. You become stubborn and recalcitrant when others try to force you into a mold. You are a true democrat -- you are not a follower, but you enjoy being with those who are like-minded. You appreciate emotional self-control -- you practice it yourself and you look for it in others. You solve problems, including emotional ones, with your brains and intellect, not your feelings. Try to be tolerant of those who have powerful and obvious emotional responses -- not everyone is as objective, and cool, as you are.
Mercury is in 28 Degrees Virgo.
Very thorough and efficient, you pay attention to the minor but important details of any project. You are a careful thinker who can learn complicated, intricate techniques. You are attracted to practical, useful skills and are probably good at working with your hands. You are very critical of yourself and others, sometimes too much so, Your first reaction to any situation is to try to organize, classify and analyze everything!
Venus is in 26 Degrees Cancer.
You like to be very close to other people. You need emotional support yourself and are willing to give it to others. When you feel unloved and insecure, you can be very jealous and possessive. You are not interested in casual or superficial relationships -- only deep emotional involvements interest you. Your faithful devotion is one of your greatest gifts, but be careful not to become too dependent on others. Learn to stand on your own two feet and demand your own rights once in a while.
Mars is in 15 Degrees Sagittarius.
Your every action is motivated by high moral standards and ideals. You will work very hard to improve the lot of the world at large, but you demand action about it -- you do not like to just sit around and talk about doing it in an abstract manner. You like to be where the real action is. You resist mightily any attempts to limit your freedom and you will assist anyone who feels put down and restricted. You are extremely restless by nature -- physical exercise is very important to you if you would maintain your health.
Neptune is in 26 Degrees Scorpio.
You, and your entire generation, are extremely interested in anything deep and mysterious. You will explore and idealize the benefits that can accrue from the study of the occult, healing and psychology. You are willing to experiment with substances like drugs in order to push your understanding of your inner being to the extreme.
Pluto is in 24 Degrees Virgo.
For your entire generation, this will be a time when profound changes in society's attitude toward work, duty and responsibility will be initiated. Radical changes in attitudes toward personal health and general nutrition will be promulgated and gain wide acceptance and practice.
N. Node is in 21 Degrees Pisces.
You're attracted to others who need your assistance. You seem to go out of your way to form relationships with those who are weak, sick, injured, addicted or troubled in some way or other. At your best you can indeed provide the relief that others need. But at times you can be victimized by those who would prey on your good nature and take advantage of you. This can lead to all sorts of negative situations -- make sure that those you assist are truly worthy of your time, energy and commitment. A little enlightened self-protectiveness on your part can make your life work much, much smoother!
Cherokee I am a Owl...
Direction: South
Color: Snowy White
Stone: Jasper
Element: Wateer
Flower: Evening primrose
Herb: Juniper berries
Owl Signs are people of long life, they enjoy good health, they are tall, hale, hearty, vigorous, and robust.
Owl Signs are very talented and have an excellent store of knowledge. They are deep thinkers, hardened to life, realistic, practical, every inch the "Wise Old Owl". They have much to offer the world. But they are strong willed, have rigid convictions, and are not easily swayed by the arguments of others. Owl is inclined to be bold and authoritative, a person who when see's that there is no order must take control of the situation.
Of a serious nature, persons of the Owl Sign are grave, calm, discreet, eloquent, they may be teachers, fond of giving advice as well as setting a good example. They shine in the area of dispensing advice to others. They have usually come up the hard way; faced many challenges; fought tooth and talon; paid close attention to solutions to problems; already know what works and what doesn't. This qualifies them to pass along advantages of their own experience. They are able to analyze a situation and come up with a solution.
Owl Signs have good, down-to-earth business sense. The aspire to be the roll of the boss. They make good managers, they like to control the big picture, with under-managers to carry out instructions from the top.
They have high standards, not only for their own actions but for those around them, often feeling it a duty to censure evil where ever they find it. The Owl's head is capable of turning all the way around; this means they have eyes in the back of their head and do not miss much.
Owl types are very conscious and concerned with how others view them. They have a deep fear of rejection, which can leave them at the mercy of overaggressive, domineering personalities. Owl types are the personification of the struggle between superiority and inferiority. They are a mixture of differences, discrepancies, and imbalance. To control these conflicts, they insist on rules, laws that apply to everyone, regardless of status.
Mixed in with this serious, fatalistic, arcane personality is a bright streak of comic relief. This Sign has a great sense of humor that may come out at the most unexpected times. Although it is mostly sarcastic and cynical, it is sharp and keen and to the point.
Persons of this sign must have much time alone, separate, solitary. They retire to their own private mountaintop to meditate in order to establish wise counsel within themselves. This is difficult for the average person to understand and often leads to broken relationships.
Owl is the Mystic Ferryman who guides Earthlings on the return path to the Stars. Through meditation you are able to tune in and see the unfolding of the pattern of the Cosmos.
Owl holds aloft a torch of White Light that keeps the unfathomable Darkness at bay.
Warning to the Owl... The Great Spirit runs the Universe, it is neither your privilege nor your responsibility to do so.
ROOSTER
1933, 1945, 1957, 1969, 1981, 1993, 2005
Rooster people are very observant. And most of the time, they are very accurate and precise with their observation. Perhaps, you can say that Roosters have a very keen "sixth-sense". With Roosters, what you see is exactly what you get. There are no hidden depths to the Rooster's character: he is neither complicated nor profound, rather, he is very forthright and straightforward.
The rooster likes to be noticed and flattered. He might dress a little flashily with this in mind, but in his heart, he is completely conservative. Roosters always appear attractive and beautifully turned out. They are sociable and love to receive attention.
Believe it or not, it is not an easy task to fool the Rooster. His mind is cautious and skeptical, with this perceptive gift, Roosters make excellent trouble shooters, detectives, doctors, nurses and psychiatrists. Roosters are always up, out and doing. You rarely see a relaxed rooster that sits quietly in the living room, doing nothing. They are also multi talented, and can become accomplished in many different ways.
Though sharp, practical and resourceful, the Rooster also likes to dream. And because he likes to dream, he will disappointed the loved one, for the reality will never match up to the dreams he would like to share with their partner. Although he really is sincere about those dreams.
Rooster make great hosts and adore entertaining. The main virtue in the Rooster character is loyalty: they make devoted friends. They always keep their promises and are always true to their word. When Roosters love and admire someone, they will even catch the moon just to keep them happy.
Hardworking, resourceful, courageous and talented, Roosters are self-assured people. They possess powerful personalities. In groups they are vivacious, amusing and popular. Excellent at small talk, they can be the life of any party. Roosters are talkative types, outspoken, frank, open, honest -- but a little too blunt at times. A polished debater and able to cogently refute any opinion, the Rooster is a talented polemicist, and could be an excellent journalist or writer. With the Rooster's dedication to work well done, he or she would also make a good economist or a gifted administrator.
These people are born organizers, refined and elegant. Their affairs will be all in order, accounts up to the minute and documents systematically filed away. They function best in an environment where everything is organized and their schedules programmed. When it comes to making decisions of any kind, Roosters prefer to carefully consider all sides of a situation before coming to a conclusion. In conflicts, Roosters will push to the extreme but flee before open hostilities break out. Their reflective and analytical abilities sometimes get the better of them. They must constantly question their point of view to ascertain its validity.
The management of finances is perhaps their strength, both on a private and professional level. When it comes to money, Roosters are prudent and careful. They are brilliant managers of other people's money; financial advisers, bank managers, and accountants would all do well to be born in the Year of the Rooster. The Rooster has the reputation of finding money in the most unlikely places, like drawing blood from a stone. In Vietnam they say that, thanks to the strength of his beak and claws, the Rooster can find a worm in a desert. This metaphor goes a long way to explain the continual and restless activity that characterizes him.
The Rooster will touch the heights and depths during the three phases of his life, business-wise as well as romantically. He will go from poverty to riches, from ideal love to the most sordid of emotional entanglements. The Rooster's old age will be happy, however.
Roosters see the world as either black or white; when it comes to individual people, they will immediately either love or hate them on sight. Their love life has all the elements of romantic excitement. Emotionally, Roosters are said to be passionate and, they may possess a very active sex drive. The salient characteristic attributed to these people is their honesty, and Roosters are never backwards in coming forward to speak their mind. They have a no-nonsense, down-to-earth approach to life.
In love, the Rooster will often do himself harm to gain or to keep the affection of the loved one. He will disappoint them often too, for the reality will never match up to the dreams he would so much like to share with her. There's one thing in his favor, though -- he really is sincere about those dreams!
Neither male nor female Rooster will wear their hearts on their sleeves; they keep even the minutest detail about their sexual exploits and love affairs strictly to themselves. Because of their scrupulous honesty, when happily settled in a permanent relationship, Roosters are highly unlikely to deceive or cheat on their partners.
Wrabbit
Pss... I do not know if its because of the Wormhole, but in the future when who ever is going to use the magneton generator for energy to make the WH, please do it somewhere else... In my vision the opening to the WH opened up in the asteroid belt and the exit was where the space station was... yes was,,, I was in a escape pod watching as slow moving huge rocks came out and started pelting the earth... on the plus side on the planet mankind has learn to live in balance with nature.... magnetic rail lines raised of the ground, very few roads... animals are more able to travel... people live in large pyramid like structures, to be able to have more land for farming.
    They say within each of us is a book that is being written... I have come to make friends and have people that have come into my life to become family to me. I get people that ask me about me and I give a little info here and there, today I woke up about 3:30 am on the year 2013 Jan 31st. Setting here and decided to write all this down... enjoy if you decide to read it all the way through... This is me... At the end if you have any questions fill free to ask, also I would truly like to ask you to write as much as you like about you and your experiences in life...
Chapter 1 Lets Begin
" Ok lets begin " I heard, as I was seeing the wall turn to a monochrome color. Suddenly I was seeing myself as a Eskimo child holding onto a polar bear standing outside of a village. I knew my body was still setting in the chair, in the home of a dear friend and family member., but here I was. I did not know the year, but I was standing in the snow over looking a village at night. I was asked what I was seeing and as if on some sort of truth serum I was explaining everything to whom I will call my " Guide " who was the one that was doing the session, that was allowing me to experience my past lives. I stood there in the snow and was just looking at the village, I was told to just relax and everything was fine. The images that flowed into my mind were so vivid, I began to walk toward the village and with every step I took leaving tracks in the snow and having my friend and companion polar bear beside me headed toward the village.
When I got to the edge of the village the polar bear stopped and I knew she could go no farther. I turned and gave her a big hug and thanked her for the protection and for guiding me home. I stood there as she turned and began to walk away just as it was starting to snow. She walked into the night and disappeared, but I sensed she was still there in someway. I turned and walked into the village.
I was your average male child, nothing of special sorts. Not a chiefs son, or anyone with a title. Because the village had no one that was the leader back in this time which I am guessing was like in the year 1500 to 1700, ( There were no real leaders that was not until the colonizations began that people were given titles, ) I lived in a fishing village where the people would fish during the summer season and preserve the fish for the never ending nights of the winter. My mother was a sweet woman as well as my father, the days came and went as would any childhood. My father took me out fishing when I became of age and started to teach me the ways to survive. Time passed and I found myself going out fishing alone one spring just as the ice was beginning to thaw.
I got a little to close to a whale and my boat capsized and I sank like a rock. Next thing I know I was no longer seeing myself from a first person perspective I was seeing a body of a young adult male slip into the dark depths of the ocean. I was not frantic, just a feeling of ummm ok.
( *Of special note always had a deep love for polar bears* )
The whole time this is being told to my Guide, who told me it was ok and to just relax and let the images flow. The next moment I am a little boy in a English type town, playing marbles in the dirt.
I look up and see kids my age all around. Some playing, some reading, and older kids off in there own little groups. It was late and I was heading to home, again time went by on a daily basis, we were not poor but not well off either. I received a good education and went on to become a salesman of woman's clothing. I was a bit of a ladies man and never married, I did have a nice home with Victorian style furniture. I dated a lot of women, and help them have affairs till one day I was shot in my late 30's by a lover of a woman named Kathy. It was not a instant your dead thing, I took a fever from the wound and died slowly over the weeks. Then was no longer looking thru my eyes was standing beside my body just looking down at a man's body. I knew that was me but was no longer feeling it was me.
Again my guide told me it was ok I was safe and to continue to let things flow. This time I was picking cotton, I looked at my hands and had scrapes and cuts. I looked around and I was in a field that looked like it was covered in snow. There were slaves all around and was on a plantation in Louisiana. The owner was not a terrible unkind type but not a nice one either. I lived as a slave until the 1840's when the laws came down where people could not own slaves. I was taken to one of the town halls, where I was forced to sign a paper that said I agreed to be a indentured servant. I remember writing my name down as Tobby and signing the date as April 8th 1840. Everyone was made to sign the papers. I was a rebel at heart and tried to run for the north one day. Only to be caught and hanged. So there I was by a oak tree looking at a body of a man in his early 40's.
( *Of special note I never have liked anything on my wrists, and having the memories of having shackles on I know now is the reason why, also I was raised this time in the south by folks that lean toward being racist I have always been a fighter for civil rights very deeply * ) ( Also the this was a time before the English life but giving it in a way that it came to me as the session progressed )
Once again my guide assured me everything was fine, safe, and to let things just flow. This time I had a stick in my hand play fighting with another boy my age, we were in a back alleyway pretending to be Samurai warriors. I was in Japan, my life was very structured. School, honor and learning for love of country above all else type of upbringing, I worked in a noodle shop with my father. Till one day joining the military and becoming a fighter pilot, in which when I was shot down my plane on fire smashing into the ocean. Then darkness.... My guide was telling me it was time for the session to end after that. It took some time for me to get phased back into current self.
( * Of note, back when computer games were coming out, I got a war fighter simulator, never liked the American planes much, but loved the Japanese Zero aircraft. Also know why I really like kung fu panda show so much lol. )
My guide let me know that memories from other lives may start to surface now that the door was open so to speak, and that they did. Only two others have come to me. One I was a aid to a mid level priest in Egypt, my duties we to prep for ceremonies and be a step fetch person. I was taken from my parents one day authorities caught my father stealing he was killed and I was sent to be a servant who was later sent to be the aid. It was a ok life nothing special, but it had its perks, not being a slave building the pyramids was nice. And yes those blocks were dragged into place no special space aliens or anything like that. Hard core labor and lots and lots of sand. This time was stabbed and berried with the priest, yea for me, not.... I have always had a affinity with Egypt.
And the last one did not come in a dream I was watching a program on TV about Saint Patric's Day, and they were going on about how great the person was, yada yada. Then I look at my remote control in my hand and I had crushed it as I was crushing it the thoughts running through my mind were of total discussed. Lies all lies is the thought coursing thru me. The name Longbeard came to my mind, so with the Internet I looked up the name... Cormac mac Airt came up... and sure enough he was around during dear old St. Pattys time. So somewhere in me is memories of that time just do not recall em but that era is part of me. Part of me want to get the stone from the museum and take it to the mound just to see what may happen. Maybe one day I will.
Chapter 2 So Here We Set
This brings us up to my current life, my earliest memory was one of a brick wall as we stopped at a stop light in Gulfport Ms. I was coming home from the hospital after the first months of being born in Ohio. My mother was visiting relatives in Ohio when I was born early at 6lbs 1oz. My mom was a smoker and the only baby picture that survives to this day is one of her blowing smoke in my face while holding me on her lap.
I have many memories from my childhood back now having gone through the session I did seems to make them easier to access. Had the standard life from day1 to the age of 6 when I died. I had just got home from a trip to Ohio with my grandmother, she was in bed not feeling well and my mom had bought be some Hershey's Kisses, I went to the kitchen and put some in a glass and went running across the floor. Slipped and cut my wrist wide open, we had no car and lived on the outside of town. My mom called a cab, and tried to cover the wound, but there was lots of blood. Just as we get to the doors of the hospital I am suddenly in a white room with people wearing white robes with gold trim on them. One is talking to me telling me everything is ok and will be fine. The person is wearing a medallion around there neck. ( * That medallion I would later be browsing the Internet in 2004 and come across it was the medallion of St. Bartholomew. That blew my mind he is the Patron Saint of skin cuts. I am not catholic, consider myself more Gnostic, I was looking for a present for a catholic friend of mine and wanted to get her a medallion to ware. * ) It turns out they pronounced me dead in the ER and shocked my back after pumping some blood in. I woke up in a room with a boy next to me with a head wound from a pellet gun. I got out of the hospital after a few days and went home not really thinking of the memory of the room until seeing that medallion on the net that day it opened up the memories.
I had friends and family that would come and go, events that would happen. Fish bone through foot, concussion from hitting my head on a sewer grate from doing a Evel Knievel stunt, my aunt hanging a cat from a tree, my grandmother whacking a dogs man part off in the yard when the two dogs were stuck together, just your typical childhood. My father worked off shore and when he came home he would get drunk, my mom started to have a affair with my soon to be first step father. When I was 8 we left in the middle of the night and began our move around the United States campaign, they would run up bills in a town and move over night. I generally was in 3 different schools and states a year. What pictures we had was kept in a paper bag only to be burnt one night in a fit of rage my stepfather had. Then one day when I was 14 I had enough one night my mom had dragged me with her to a bar looking for him, when he started to beat on her like normal, I snapped and all those years just came out. The bar guys got me off of em, the next morning they told me they were once again moving and felt I did not want to go with them. I had a full time job at the age of 14 and worked 7 days a week as well as going to school. Financially I was good, and with the help of the principal at my school I was able to stay on my own. I had my first job working at the age of 10 and where ever we moved to I would find work doing something. Spent most my time away from the house as much as I could. Long as I showed up when it was time to leave a town was all that seemed to matter besides providing income for the family.
I went on to graduate at the age of 17, I had friends in the area and one day my mom shows up at the age of 18 and says my step father got killed. I welcome her, and all seemed ok, till one night when playing poker she shows up with a bloody face and says the guy she was dating smashed her face into a windshield, me and my friend go looking for him and find him in a tree. He runs and the cops catch him and put him in a line up while he is in jail and a woman fingers him for rape. My mom thinks him innocent and tries to smuggle pot to him in jail. Drug dogs at the door... hummm... Yea so I have like had it emotionally so get it into my head to join the Airforce.. to just start fresh and not let anyone know where I am. So mothers in Jail, I lose the weight to join the AF, I wanted to be a flight navigator, was fascinated with it... wonder why??? lol.... Just thought about that...
But the recruiter tricked me, and the service is not bad folks, well AF is not, just when you sign up do not sign up under a general carrier field. It means they get to pick, if you do join make sure the job title and number is on the contract, just a heads up. ( If for some reason in the future there is time travelers I joined the AF on Aug 28th 1989, and the on the 30th while lined up to get my shoes 2 people called my name, I went over and the two looked at me like a museum piece. Do not know what I will do, but I have always had that odd feeling about that encounter. )
We were in a classroom and were told no matter what our recruiters said, the jobs on the board would be all that we would get to choose from, I waited till everyone had gone from room and closed the door and it was just me and one training instructor. I told him no, to send me to jail what ever but no. He asked me to calm down and would send me to talk to someone next morning. Sure enough he was true to his word, and I ended up taking a test for the job I had before I went in as a printer. I passed it and went direct duty to my base. Six years went by, during that time have lots of memories of the Gulf War, living in all parts of the world and seeing many things I wish I could forget. But after my 6 year contract I got out. Went to live with my aunt and help them with bills, my mother had gotten out after 2 years in jail and ended up with my sister after trying to commit suicide. ( I can relate with people that get to that point because I have been there a few times myself in this life but I am still here. Even though I am firm believer in past lives does not mean if someone commits suicide they do not have to go back and relive there life till they get over that bump, time and space are a subject to be studied, and I would not want to have to relive this life )
So were up to the year 1995, my sister calls and says her and her family need extra help with support for my mom and need a extra hand hanging sheet rock, her husband was a sub-contractor. I had not spoke with my mother since 1989 when I took her a cartoon of cigarettes to the jail. So the good in me struck out to GA to help out, in 1997 my brother-in-law ran out of work and I got a job as a warehouse manager for Heilig-Meyers Furniture, who turns out was going through bankruptcy. So 3 months later I find myself at the doorstep of my father, that I had just got to talking to over the phone from encouragement of my mom. I had last seen him when I was 13 he had come to my sisters home and proceeded to take me out in the back yard to fight me and teach me to be a man. I stayed with him a few months and moved back up with my aunt in Alabama. My aunt got me and my mom a trailer to live in and life went on. In 1998 I met my wife it was not a love at first sight thing but I grew over time, she was there for me when my mom passed due to cancer from smoking, I carried her body out the the coroners car. I married and moved in with my wife who passed due to organ failure which I totally blame on the hospital. In the year 2008 Aug 25th, I will always remember this messed up date, why you ask.... Aug 25 was the day I was born on in 1969. In 2004 I had went to work for the rail road, the job was good, the people and company I worked for not so much. My nerves were shot and I could not safely operate a train with the nerve meds I was on. I miss the money but one is not treated as a person only a number, they give you rules to go by, but get upset if you go by them. Its all about money... sigh...
So in 2009 me and the rail part company and I move around a little to help family. Now here we are in the year 2013. I have tried to get work, but due to age, past heath issues, most companies check and do not call or they send you a letter going no thanks. I survive well because I live in a multi-household and we all split the bills. I get a insurance check from my wife's life insurance one a month for the rest of my life its not much but it pays the bills. Update : In 2013 my heart got stirred by another, I set out to Indiana where I thought I found someone, turns out not so much, I did find another that is now my mate thru the process, in 2014 we moved down to orlando fl, here it is 2017, have a house were buying and living everyday life. So here we are...
Chapter 3 - Metaphysical life.
I first experience with dealing with the unseen as I call it took place in 1990 when I was cleaning my printing press, those chemicals can give you a trip. I seen a picture in my mind of a eye, that I drew out and looked up. It was the eye of Horus and I dove into reading what I could ( and no none of my reading ever took me near what priests or aids did during those times. Besides having clear memories of walking around and all would not be covered in a book, yes the mind could translate like it does with dreams, but one just knows the difference. ) I met a woman who was into house cleansing, I went with her one day to one and I put my hand on the wall and imagined a blue light filling the home, it was a bright angelic blue. She took interest in that and we went on several trips to others homes doing the same, she taught me how to make energy balls and work with them.
She taught me how to do energy healing which I never really put into practice till 2002 and if you ever get into doing that let me tell ya find your outside energy source to use. Using your own energy is a big no no... come to find out. Each of us have a outside source that flows into us constantly, meditation and connection with that source is fundamental to your health. There are things that have happened to me of the unseen category that would just make one go wow. But I am honor bound not to speak of them. Its all these things that have happened to me over time that only strengthens me.
I see people going through their life's lessons and I feel so much for each and everyone of you all. I see ones just wanting to give up on life been there, get frustrated at the world, the way things are, been there. All I am doing now is giving hugs, a ear to lend listen, or some advice. I do wish the best for everyone and everything on the planet and universe both seen and unseen. But for the most part people are meant to find things out for themselves and to write into their books.
Chapter 4 - The Furry Fandom - All things in there time and reason
All things in there time and reason is a big part of my saying. In 2009 after my wife had passed I was ready to cash in, I felt there nothing to live for, the world being as cruel as it is and was at the time. I friend sent me a video on youtube about a Furry Convention, here was a group of people that wanted to have fun and not be judged by the world for race, age, ethnic background, and I brought the hope I needed for mankind back into me. Over the years, I have become more involved in the fandom. Back in 1990 when I was in the AF I actually was a mascot for the local MWR office called Perry the Pelican. I found him in a closet and fixed him up, loved to see the smile that people get on their face and that's a big part of some of those that are in the fandom, they mostly have had negative encounters with " Adults figures" and just want to be able to be a kid at heart and see the kid in others come out. The love of cartoons, anthropomorphic characters, stories, the whole nine yards. I am glad the fandom is in my life, and I have the label.
Well the sun is up and its time to end this chapter.... I hope you enjoyed the read its all 100% non-fiction. There are all the memories from those past lives to fill the library of congress but its mostly just fillers of general everyday life. I look forward to the coming year and the memories it will bring.
Hugs to one and all
Wrabbit
Astro Chart
Rising Sign is in 20 Degrees Sagittarius
You are known for being open, frank, outgoing and honest. At times, though, you are also blunt and quite indiscreet. Others have to learn not to take everything you say personally, because you usually do not mean any harm. You appreciate living your life in a straightforward and simple manner -- you dislike social niceties and consider them to be hindrances to real communication. You have lots and lots of energy and tend to become quite restless if you feel confined. You demand the freedom to do as you choose -- you must be self- directed or you feel trapped and anxious. With your abundant energy, you enjoy being outdoors, and you should be attracted to physical exercise or to those forms of sport which can help you burn off some of that excess energy. Very gregarious, you love to socialize -- your innate enthusiasm livens up any gathering.
Moon is in 10 Degrees Aquarius.
Very freedom-oriented, you must always be able to do what you wish, no matter what. You become stubborn and recalcitrant when others try to force you into a mold. You are a true democrat -- you are not a follower, but you enjoy being with those who are like-minded. You appreciate emotional self-control -- you practice it yourself and you look for it in others. You solve problems, including emotional ones, with your brains and intellect, not your feelings. Try to be tolerant of those who have powerful and obvious emotional responses -- not everyone is as objective, and cool, as you are.
Mercury is in 28 Degrees Virgo.
Very thorough and efficient, you pay attention to the minor but important details of any project. You are a careful thinker who can learn complicated, intricate techniques. You are attracted to practical, useful skills and are probably good at working with your hands. You are very critical of yourself and others, sometimes too much so, Your first reaction to any situation is to try to organize, classify and analyze everything!
Venus is in 26 Degrees Cancer.
You like to be very close to other people. You need emotional support yourself and are willing to give it to others. When you feel unloved and insecure, you can be very jealous and possessive. You are not interested in casual or superficial relationships -- only deep emotional involvements interest you. Your faithful devotion is one of your greatest gifts, but be careful not to become too dependent on others. Learn to stand on your own two feet and demand your own rights once in a while.
Mars is in 15 Degrees Sagittarius.
Your every action is motivated by high moral standards and ideals. You will work very hard to improve the lot of the world at large, but you demand action about it -- you do not like to just sit around and talk about doing it in an abstract manner. You like to be where the real action is. You resist mightily any attempts to limit your freedom and you will assist anyone who feels put down and restricted. You are extremely restless by nature -- physical exercise is very important to you if you would maintain your health.
Neptune is in 26 Degrees Scorpio.
You, and your entire generation, are extremely interested in anything deep and mysterious. You will explore and idealize the benefits that can accrue from the study of the occult, healing and psychology. You are willing to experiment with substances like drugs in order to push your understanding of your inner being to the extreme.
Pluto is in 24 Degrees Virgo.
For your entire generation, this will be a time when profound changes in society's attitude toward work, duty and responsibility will be initiated. Radical changes in attitudes toward personal health and general nutrition will be promulgated and gain wide acceptance and practice.
N. Node is in 21 Degrees Pisces.
You're attracted to others who need your assistance. You seem to go out of your way to form relationships with those who are weak, sick, injured, addicted or troubled in some way or other. At your best you can indeed provide the relief that others need. But at times you can be victimized by those who would prey on your good nature and take advantage of you. This can lead to all sorts of negative situations -- make sure that those you assist are truly worthy of your time, energy and commitment. A little enlightened self-protectiveness on your part can make your life work much, much smoother!
Cherokee I am a Owl...
Direction: South
Color: Snowy White
Stone: Jasper
Element: Wateer
Flower: Evening primrose
Herb: Juniper berries
Owl Signs are people of long life, they enjoy good health, they are tall, hale, hearty, vigorous, and robust.
Owl Signs are very talented and have an excellent store of knowledge. They are deep thinkers, hardened to life, realistic, practical, every inch the "Wise Old Owl". They have much to offer the world. But they are strong willed, have rigid convictions, and are not easily swayed by the arguments of others. Owl is inclined to be bold and authoritative, a person who when see's that there is no order must take control of the situation.
Of a serious nature, persons of the Owl Sign are grave, calm, discreet, eloquent, they may be teachers, fond of giving advice as well as setting a good example. They shine in the area of dispensing advice to others. They have usually come up the hard way; faced many challenges; fought tooth and talon; paid close attention to solutions to problems; already know what works and what doesn't. This qualifies them to pass along advantages of their own experience. They are able to analyze a situation and come up with a solution.
Owl Signs have good, down-to-earth business sense. The aspire to be the roll of the boss. They make good managers, they like to control the big picture, with under-managers to carry out instructions from the top.
They have high standards, not only for their own actions but for those around them, often feeling it a duty to censure evil where ever they find it. The Owl's head is capable of turning all the way around; this means they have eyes in the back of their head and do not miss much.
Owl types are very conscious and concerned with how others view them. They have a deep fear of rejection, which can leave them at the mercy of overaggressive, domineering personalities. Owl types are the personification of the struggle between superiority and inferiority. They are a mixture of differences, discrepancies, and imbalance. To control these conflicts, they insist on rules, laws that apply to everyone, regardless of status.
Mixed in with this serious, fatalistic, arcane personality is a bright streak of comic relief. This Sign has a great sense of humor that may come out at the most unexpected times. Although it is mostly sarcastic and cynical, it is sharp and keen and to the point.
Persons of this sign must have much time alone, separate, solitary. They retire to their own private mountaintop to meditate in order to establish wise counsel within themselves. This is difficult for the average person to understand and often leads to broken relationships.
Owl is the Mystic Ferryman who guides Earthlings on the return path to the Stars. Through meditation you are able to tune in and see the unfolding of the pattern of the Cosmos.
Owl holds aloft a torch of White Light that keeps the unfathomable Darkness at bay.
Warning to the Owl... The Great Spirit runs the Universe, it is neither your privilege nor your responsibility to do so.
ROOSTER
1933, 1945, 1957, 1969, 1981, 1993, 2005
Rooster people are very observant. And most of the time, they are very accurate and precise with their observation. Perhaps, you can say that Roosters have a very keen "sixth-sense". With Roosters, what you see is exactly what you get. There are no hidden depths to the Rooster's character: he is neither complicated nor profound, rather, he is very forthright and straightforward.
The rooster likes to be noticed and flattered. He might dress a little flashily with this in mind, but in his heart, he is completely conservative. Roosters always appear attractive and beautifully turned out. They are sociable and love to receive attention.
Believe it or not, it is not an easy task to fool the Rooster. His mind is cautious and skeptical, with this perceptive gift, Roosters make excellent trouble shooters, detectives, doctors, nurses and psychiatrists. Roosters are always up, out and doing. You rarely see a relaxed rooster that sits quietly in the living room, doing nothing. They are also multi talented, and can become accomplished in many different ways.
Though sharp, practical and resourceful, the Rooster also likes to dream. And because he likes to dream, he will disappointed the loved one, for the reality will never match up to the dreams he would like to share with their partner. Although he really is sincere about those dreams.
Rooster make great hosts and adore entertaining. The main virtue in the Rooster character is loyalty: they make devoted friends. They always keep their promises and are always true to their word. When Roosters love and admire someone, they will even catch the moon just to keep them happy.
Hardworking, resourceful, courageous and talented, Roosters are self-assured people. They possess powerful personalities. In groups they are vivacious, amusing and popular. Excellent at small talk, they can be the life of any party. Roosters are talkative types, outspoken, frank, open, honest -- but a little too blunt at times. A polished debater and able to cogently refute any opinion, the Rooster is a talented polemicist, and could be an excellent journalist or writer. With the Rooster's dedication to work well done, he or she would also make a good economist or a gifted administrator.
These people are born organizers, refined and elegant. Their affairs will be all in order, accounts up to the minute and documents systematically filed away. They function best in an environment where everything is organized and their schedules programmed. When it comes to making decisions of any kind, Roosters prefer to carefully consider all sides of a situation before coming to a conclusion. In conflicts, Roosters will push to the extreme but flee before open hostilities break out. Their reflective and analytical abilities sometimes get the better of them. They must constantly question their point of view to ascertain its validity.
The management of finances is perhaps their strength, both on a private and professional level. When it comes to money, Roosters are prudent and careful. They are brilliant managers of other people's money; financial advisers, bank managers, and accountants would all do well to be born in the Year of the Rooster. The Rooster has the reputation of finding money in the most unlikely places, like drawing blood from a stone. In Vietnam they say that, thanks to the strength of his beak and claws, the Rooster can find a worm in a desert. This metaphor goes a long way to explain the continual and restless activity that characterizes him.
The Rooster will touch the heights and depths during the three phases of his life, business-wise as well as romantically. He will go from poverty to riches, from ideal love to the most sordid of emotional entanglements. The Rooster's old age will be happy, however.
Roosters see the world as either black or white; when it comes to individual people, they will immediately either love or hate them on sight. Their love life has all the elements of romantic excitement. Emotionally, Roosters are said to be passionate and, they may possess a very active sex drive. The salient characteristic attributed to these people is their honesty, and Roosters are never backwards in coming forward to speak their mind. They have a no-nonsense, down-to-earth approach to life.
In love, the Rooster will often do himself harm to gain or to keep the affection of the loved one. He will disappoint them often too, for the reality will never match up to the dreams he would so much like to share with her. There's one thing in his favor, though -- he really is sincere about those dreams!
Neither male nor female Rooster will wear their hearts on their sleeves; they keep even the minutest detail about their sexual exploits and love affairs strictly to themselves. Because of their scrupulous honesty, when happily settled in a permanent relationship, Roosters are highly unlikely to deceive or cheat on their partners.
Wrabbit
Pss... I do not know if its because of the Wormhole, but in the future when who ever is going to use the magneton generator for energy to make the WH, please do it somewhere else... In my vision the opening to the WH opened up in the asteroid belt and the exit was where the space station was... yes was,,, I was in a escape pod watching as slow moving huge rocks came out and started pelting the earth... on the plus side on the planet mankind has learn to live in balance with nature.... magnetic rail lines raised of the ground, very few roads... animals are more able to travel... people live in large pyramid like structures, to be able to have more land for farming.
What is a Furry??
Posted 13 years agoThought I pass this along... for those of every type... but if you find this and are new to the fandom... one day and you want to explain what a furry is about this is a good video to show them...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GtkB.....eature=related
Wrabbit
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GtkB.....eature=related
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