Shadow, my loyal and faithful cat was put down last night. I took him to the vet thinking it was going to be a routine check up, believing that he could be fixed. He was too sick, and with out the fundings he would just slowly die right before my eyes. I hate not being able to save the ones I love. I even hate the fact that with these hands of mine; the hands that write so many weird and adventurous stories. They are the same hands that signed the note giving the Vet the permission to end his life. I cried so hard from the time he was alive and even when I went home to get ready for a job interview.

I was so depressed last night that I couldn't even write in my journal. I didn't even have the energy to write in my notebooks and continue writing profiles and storylines for my characters. I couldn't even get a decents night sleep. Shadow, I am so sorry that I couldn't save you and I hope you can forgive me. We will meet again my friend. I promise.

This is something I have had a problem with for god knows how long. I am not a bad writer but I get writers block that you can't even call writers block. Well, I have the original idea for this one story and I start to write and then I stop.

That's not even the worse of it. After I stop writing and say to myself. "I don't want to write right now"; more ideas keep popping up in my head which is being added to the original story. Ideas are good but not if you haven't finished writing the first part of the story.

It becomes more of a burden and a curse then a blessing. I have no idea how I am going to solve this Work Block. I know I will get something done soon it is just the timing I am having trouble with.

As the title say I finally got it. What you ask. Well my friend A.C. (Alley Cat), whom I call Neko-chan was working on a birthday gift for me. I asked her; hon, all I really want is to see my character Alastar in furry form.

She went above and beyond what I asked. She didn't just draw and awesome Alastar in Dingo form, she also put my other character Neil (Wolf anthro character) giving Alastar a hand job. She was going for Neil giving Alastar a blow job but hey I am still happy. The only thing that me and her had a problem with was how Neil turned out in the picture.

Well, my birthday was in December 13th. I got on February 6th, 2008. Now you see why I am Jumping for joy. Anyways it still turned out great and hopefully I will be able to post it on Furaffinty because people should see how well she draws. A.C. is that epic!

There is nothing I hate more then knowing your work is right in front of you but you can do nothing to achieve it. I have been trying to work on my storyline for my future comic but I can't seem to write anything down and the Idea is my head.

I was thinking maybe I am not good enough or maybe I am just too lazy. Whatever the case I know I need to get it done. I am quite thankful that I have a lot of friends to help me with the art but I can't help but feel that I should actually be doing the drawing on my own.

I am starting to think I need to just take a breather and just take the time to think about what exactly I want to do when it comes to my stories. However, in the mean time I getting inspired to do a little story about Fluke's Ryan and Eliot from 'Motion of the Ocean'. I hope fluke won't hate me and I hope even he will like it.