Can't sleep....thinking bout life, love, relationships, money, squirrels, and your mom, especially your mom.


That is all.

Sitting here kinda bored and thinking...thinking about how much I hate my new job. Oh, don't get me wrong, I'm thankful to have said job, but it's just so much work, so much bullshit. People are so lazy, do nothing, and leave it to me, the person who actually gives a fuck. I'm tired of doing the work of 2-3 people EVERY NIGHT I WORK! I'm sorry, but im not paid enough to work like that, and yet if I don't work like that, I look bad and get shit on for it, while the people who have "senority" get off with being lazy. Well fuck it, I've had it. My job is affecting me in ways I never thought possible....I've never had bad heartburn till now....never had high blood pressure till now...I can feel my blood pressure rise while I'm there...and it's just stupid. I try talking to my supervisors about my concerns, but they don't care. I'm trying to find something else, ANYTHING, but nothing. Jobs here are scarce, and the jobs that are available are for people who can weld, or drive trucks, or shit like that, which I'm not qualified for any of that. Money is tight even with my job, i'm still slipping further into debt...and I honestly don't care anymore about it...fuck money. I'm just so sick of this, I'm sorry I moved down south, and I'm even more sorry that I've been thrust into hell all because of my old manager...all because I was hated for speaking my mind...for defending myself....fuck the world...fuck it to hell.....

That is all....

I just want the pressure and stress to go away...I want this heavyness on my heart to be lifted. I know all the shit in my life is mostly out of my control, but fuck it anyway. I'm trying the best I can, but I'm just....I'm not well, and im not looking for sympathy or anything, I'm just alone and using this as my tool to let it out. I know everyone always says that I could have it so much worse, and its true, but being so loving and empathetic, it makes me feel everyones emotions, feelings, and scars, and to be honest I hate it....I love helping people, but I can't make a big difference, no I can't. I'm just a little frog trying to cross the 6 lane highway without being run over by an 18-wheeler.

I have so much in my life and so many people in my life that I love and thank...they are the ones who keep me going. I'll be honest, if I didn't have them in my life....I dont know if I'd still be here right now. So thank you to everyone who has ever been there, I love you all, and will always be here <3

So its been 6 months of joblessness with only a few nibbles here and there. I'm trying not to be picky, but I need something moderatly steady to keep my car...cause no car means very hard to get to work. Unemployment ends in 3 weeks. hopefully if I dont get anything they will extend it, but I don't know. We shall see. Trying my best to be positive, but its been hard, not gonna lie. Hopefully things will get better, just dont know how long. Anyway, thats my lil ranty update. Sorry to bore everyone. Love ya all. <3

I'm so happy I could just....


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Z4m4lnjxkY

83

Stolen from  RoseHexwit

Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done.
Then repost as your __% Virgin Innocent. Lowest number you have the more you've done!

START 100%

( ) Smoked.
(x) Drank alcohol.
(x) Cried when someone died.
(x) Been drunk.
(x) Had sex.
(x) Been to a concert.
(x) given a handjob.
(x) gotten a handjob (female equivalent?)
(x) given a blowjob.
(x) gotten a blowjob (female equivalent?)
(x) Been verbally/sexually harassed.
( ) Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 90%

(x) felt someone up and/or been felt up.
(x) Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
( ) Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
(x) Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
(x) Been to prom.
( ) Cried at school.
( ) Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.)
( ) Given or received a lap dance.
(x) Had someone of the opposite/same sex in your room.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 85%

(x) Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
(x) Slept over at someone of the same sex's house.
( ) Kissed a stranger.
(x) Hugged a stranger.
( ) Went scuba diving.
(x) Driven a car.
(x) Gotten an x-ray.
( ) Hit by a car.
(x) Had a party
( ) Done serious hard drugs.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 79%

( ) Played strip poker/darts.
( ) Got paid to strip for someone.
( ) Run away from home.
(x) Broken a bone.
(x) Eaten sushi.
(x) Bought porn.
(x) Watched porn.
( ) Made porn.
(x) Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
(x) Been in love.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 73%

(x) Made out.
(x) Laughed so hard you cried
(x) Cried yourself to sleep.
(x) Laughed yourself to sleep.
( ) Stabbed yourself.
( ) Shot a gun
( ) Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
( ) Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
( ) Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
(x) Watched an animal die.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 68%

( ) Watched a person die.
(x) Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person.
(x) Pranked somebody.
( ) Put somebody in the hospital.
( ) Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
(x) Kissed somebody of the same sex.
( ) Dressed punk.
( ) Dressed goth.
( ) Dressed preppy.
( ) Been to a motocross race.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 65%

(x) Avoided somebody.
(x) Been stalked.
(x) Stalked someone.
( ) Met a celebrity.
(x) Ridden a horse.
(x) Cut yourself.
( ) Bungee jumped.
( ) Ding dong ditched somebody.
( ) Been to a wild party.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 60%

( ) Got caught stealing something.
( ) Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
( ) Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
( ) Gone out with your friend's crush.
( ) Got arrested.
( ) Been pregnant.
( ) Made a girl pregnant.
(x) Babysat.
(x) Been to another country.
(x) Started your house on fire.
(x) Had an encounter with a ghost.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 56%

( ) Donated your hair to cancer patients.
( ) Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
(x) Cried over a member of the opposite/same sex.
(x) Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
(x) Sat on your butt all day.
( ) Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
(x) Had a job.
(x) Gotten cut from a sports team.
(x) Been called a whore.
( ) Danced like a whore

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 50%

(x) Been mistaken as older than your own age.
(x) Been in a car accident.
(x) Been told you have beautiful eyes.
( ) Been told you have beautiful hair.
( ) Raped somebody.
(x) Danced in the rain.
(x) Been rejected.
( ) Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
( ) Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
(x) Been raped.


TOTAL = 44%
I'm only 44% virgin...yet I feel soo much more innocent x3

Tagged by  Bolt_Leader

The Rules:
- You must post these rules.
- Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
- You have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
- Go to their pages and tell them you tagged them!

1. I'm from Stratford, CT
2. I don't really draw or write anymore.
3. I've been a furry for 7 years.
4. My former fursona is a Lion named Tollo
5. My fave movies are Bolt and The Lion King
6. I love all types of music.
7. I'm unemployed.
8. Even though I'm a gay male, I have a crush on several female characters
9. I have almost 100 stuffed animals in my room
10. I dislike furs who think only of yiff and sex, and who expect all others furs to be the same.

You are now tagged:

1.  Tekhowler
2.  ShadowWalker
3.  dranor44
4.  biopolar-wolfcat
5.  Cavy
6.  dingra
7.  foxCross
8.  Sombra
9.  RabidLocust0
10.  Rosehexwit

Stole this from  RoseHexwit

Anorexia
[X] You hate your body.
[ ] You have starved yourself.
[X] You have low self esteem.
[ ] You use laxatives.
[ ] You need to be skinnier.
[X] People always say you're skinny, but you think fat.
[ ] People think you are way too skinny.
[ ] You skip at least one meal a day.
[ ] You limit your calories or check them constantly by compulsiveness
Total: 3 (Ehhh could be worse)

ADHD
[ ] You are hyper most of the time.
[ ] You barely pay attention to anything.
[ ] You cannot cooperate with people well.
[X] You seem to never sit still.
[ ] You talk all the time.
[ ] You need attention 24/7.
[X] You aren't very shy.
Total: 2

Bipolar Disorder
[X] You can act wild at times then the next you are severely depressed.
[X] You are very irritable.
[X] You barely get any or no sleep.
[ ] You have very high self esteem at times.
[ ] You are have used or abused alcohol, drugs, or sex.
[x] You have thought of/attempted suicide
[ ] You have the worst mood swings of anyone you know.
Total: 4
Meh...

Bulimia Nervosa
[ ] You've thrown up all your food at one time
[ ] You thrown it up even when you don't feel sick.
[ ] You have little control over how you eat.
[ ] You use laxatives.
[x] You eat fast.
[ ] You have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out
[x] You always say you are fat.
[ ] People think you are way too skinny.
Total: 2

Conduct Disorder
[ ] You are a bully.
[ ] You threaten other people.
[ ] You often find yourself in fights.
[ ] You have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[ ] You are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] You have raped/molested someone.
[ ] You destroy property on purpose
[ ] You always lie.
[ ] You've stayed out all night.
[ ] You have/attempted to run away from home.
Total: 0
Is a good wusky :3

Depression
[x] You are always, or normally, feel sad.
[ ] You always, or normally, are crying.
[ ] You find no hope in your future.
[x] You find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
[x] You always find yourself around the house or in bed all day.
[x] You are anti-social.
[x] You have low self esteem.
[x] Everything bad that happens is always your fault.
[ ] Hope is no longer there for you.
Total: 6
Depressed wusky is depressed

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
[x] You have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[ ] You have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[ ] You have to keep things in a certain order.
[ ] You have harmed yourself.
[ ] You are afraid you will get an STD, or AIDS.
[x] You have to check some stuff over again.
Total: 2
Wuskies are very non-OCD

Schizophrenia / Anxiety
[ ] You often have hallucinations or sudden memories you can't escape.
[ ] You can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[ ] You think people are always staring or talking about you.
[x] You have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
[ ] You have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite/same
[ ] You do not take care of your hygiene as much as others say you should.
[ ] You are very shy.
[x] You often talk to yourself.
Total: 2

Overall total: 21

Silly wusky is crazy!!!! 8D

I got fired today...for doing my job....and doing the right thing.....fuck my life....no....fuck my managers....fuck them to hell....It just sucks that Ive been there so long....oh well....

I try to do everything I can for those I care about. I try to go above and beyond for them, friends and family come before me, but no one appreciates it. It's to be expected. I feel so torn, I want to be there for those I love, but I can't do everything. I'm TRYING MY HARDEST! And if thats not good enough then they can go piss off, cause I'm only one person. If they can't see how much shit I'm going through, and how much is on my plate, then whatever, figure it out yourself.....how I wish I could say that and mean it, but alas, thats not me....

End rant.

So little life update. Not a whole lot going on, Christmas was ok, everyone got sick with the flu. Yay! x3

Work is hell, but when you work for total and utter douchebags, you wouldn't expect anything less. I'm just doing my job, waiting for something to happen, I know its just a matter of time before they are let go.

The only major change in my life, is that  Dingra and myself are taking a break for a while. He has been a great mate and friend, and I only hope this little pause can bring us closer, but even if we never get back together, he will always be one of my closest friends, and will always be the puppy in this Wusky's pack <3

So heres to great friends, great memories, and great times to come! *raises a glass to toast everyone* Cheers!

Well here we are, the home stretch of the year. Less then a month till Christmas, and only 31 days left of 2010. I can't wait for 2010 to be over, because I'm one of those optimistic assholes who thinks that "next year will be better" when I know in reality that prolly bullshit, but hey...I've been wrong before, so here to hope.

I can't wait for the holiday, just cause it makes people happy. I want nothing material, all I want is togetherness and happiness and other emotions that may or may not be there....in fact somedays I think I have a better chance of getting a million dollars to fall from the sky...but I digress...

I look forward to hanging out with family and friends. I hope I get to see my mate before Christmas...we'll see.

Anywho, so cheers to a great Holiday season and a *Hopefully* Happy New Year. *hugs for all* <3

Male side

[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[ ] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture
[ ] Sad movies suck
[ ] You own an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[x] You watch sports on TV.
[ ] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[x] You own, like, a trillion baseball caps.
[x] You like going to football games.
[x] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[ ] Talk with food in your mouth.
[x] Wear boxers. (Sometimes)

14 points.

Your woman side:

[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[x] You love to shop
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] You wear the color pink.
[x] Go to your mom for advice.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[x] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[x] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[ ] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[ ] You wear girl underwear. HELLS YEAH
[ ] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[ ] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.
10

I'm more female then I thought...LOL!

1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No .

2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks. And believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming... things are not exactly as they seem.

3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!


Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? ---Yes
Been arrested? ---No
Kissed someone you didn't like? ---No
Slept in until 5 PM? ---Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? ---Yes
Ran a red light? ---Yes
Been suspended from school? ---No
Experienced love at first sight? ---No
Totalled your car in an accident? ---No
Been fired from a job? ---No
Fired somebody? ---No
Sang karaoke? ---Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? ---No
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? ---Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? ---Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? ---Yes
Kissed in the rain? ---No
Had a close brush with death (your own)? ---No
Seen someone die? ---No
Played spin-the-bottle? ---Yes
Sang in the shower? ---Yes
Smoked a cigar? ---No
Sat on a rooftop? ---No
Taken pictures of yourself naked? ---Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? ---Yes
Skipped school? ---No
Eaten a bug? ---No
Sleepwalked? ---No
Walked a moonlit beach? ---Yes
Ridden a motorcycle? ---Yes
Dumped someone? ---No
Forgotten your anniversary? ---No
Lied to avoid a ticket? ---No
Ridden on a helicopter? ---No
Shaved your head? ---No
Blacked out from drinking? ---No
Played a prank on someone? ---Yes
Hit a home run? ---Yes
Felt like killing someone? ---Yes
Cross-dressed? ---Yes
Been falling-down drunk? ---No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? ---Yes
Eaten snake? ---No
Marched/Protested? ---No
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? ---No
Puked on amusement ride? ---No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? ---No
Been in a band? ---Yes
Knitted? ---Yes
Been on TV? ---Yes
Shot a gun? ---No
Skinny-dipped? ---Yes
Caused someone to need stitches? ---Yes
Ridden a surfboard? ---No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? ---No
Had surgery? ---No
Streaked? ---Yes
Taken by ambulance to hospital? ---No
Passed out when not drinking? ---Yes
Peed on a bush? ---Yes
Donated Blood? ---No
Grabbed electric fence? ---No
Eaten alligator meat? ---No
Eaten cheesecake? ---Yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? ---Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? ---Yes
Peed your pants in public? ---No
Written graffiti? ---No
Still love someone you shouldn't? ---No
Think about the future? ---Yes
Been in handcuffs? ---No
Believe in love? ---Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? ---Yes

1. Smoked. ( )
2. Drank alcohol. (X)
3. Cried when someone died. (X)
4. Been drunk. ( )
5. Had sex. (X) *fails at it*
6. Been to a concert. (X)
7. Gotten/given a handjob. (X)
8. Gotten/given a blowjob. (X)
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed. (X)
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody. (X)

8/10

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up. (X)
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose. (X)
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before. ( )
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend. ( )
15. Been to prom. (X)
16. Cried at school. ( )
17. Gotten lost in a Wal-Mart or a department store. ( )
18. Went streaking. (X)
19. Given or received a lap dance. (X)
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room. (X)

14/20

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over. (X)
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house. (X)
23. Kissed a stranger. ( )
24. Hugged a stranger. ( )
25. Went scuba diving. ( )
26. Driven a car. (x)
27. Gotten an x-ray. (X)
28. Hit by a car. ( )
29. Had a party. (X)
30. Done serious drugs. ( )

19/30

31. Played strip poker/darts/basketball. ( )
32. Got paid to strip for someone. ( )
33. Run away from home. (X)
34. Broken a bone. (X)
35. Eaten sushi. (X)
36. Bought porn. (X)
37. Watched porn. (X)
38. Made porn. ( )
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex. (X)
40. Been in love. (X)

26/40

41. French kissed. (X)
42. Laughed so hard you cried. (X)
43. Cried yourself to sleep. (X)
44. Laughed yourself to sleep. ( )
45. Stabbed yourself. (X) (by accident with scissors*
46. Shot a gun. ( )
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day. (X)
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours. (X)
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours. (X)
50. Watched an animal die. (X)

34/50

51. Watched a person die. ( )
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present. (X)
53. Pranked somebody. ( )
54. Put somebody in the hospital. ( )
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out. ( )
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex. (X)
57. Dressed punk. ()
58. Dressed goth. ( )
59. Dressed preppy. ( )
60. Been to a motocross race. ()

36/60

61. Avoided somebody. (X)
62. Been stalked. (X)
63. Stalked someone. (X)
64. Met a celebrity. ( )
65. Played an instrument. (X)
66. Ridden a horse. (X)
67. Cut yourself. (X)
68. Bungee jumped. (X)
69. Ding dong ditched somebody. ( )
70. Been to a wild party. ( )

43/70

71. Got caught stealing something. ( )
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls. (X)
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend. (X)
74. Gone out with your friend's crush. ( )
75. Got arrested. ( )
76. Been pregnant. ( )
77. Babysat. (X)
78. Been to another country. (X)
79. Started your house on fire. (X)
80. Had an encounter with a ghost. (X)

49/80

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients. ( )
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by. (X)
83. Cried over a family member of the opposite sex. (X)
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for 3 months or more. (X)
85. Sat on your butt all day. (X)
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself. ()
87. Had a job. (X)
88. Gotten cut from a sports team. (X)
89. Been called a whore. (X)
90. Danced like a whore. (X)

57/90

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity. ( )
92. Been in a car accident. (X)
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes. (X)
94. Been told you have beautiful hair. (X)
95. Raped somebody. ( )
96. Danced in the rain. (X)
97. Been rejected. (X)
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying. ( )
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face. (X)
100. Been raped. (X) *cries*

64/100

I am 36% virgin x3

YOU KNOW YOU'RE FROM NORTH CAROLINA IF...

* You've never met ANY celebrities
* "Vacation" means goin' through Rocky Mount on the way to Kings Dominion
* You've seen all the biggest bands...ten years after their last hit
* You measure distance in minutes
* Down South to you means South Carolina
* You know Pepsi originated in New Bern, Cheerwine in Salisbury, and that Mountain Dew was invented in Fayetteville
* You know Coke tastes better in the little bottles and that peanuts make coke taste even better
* You have an opinion about UNC. You went there and loved it, or you hate everyone who did
* Your folks have taken trips to the mountains to look at leaves
* Your school took a field trip to the State Fair in Raleigh
* You would elect Richard Petty or Ric Flair for governor if he ever ran
* You watched as Dale Earnhardt was the only man who ever lived who could go 200 mph, spin somebody out, flip them the bird, call them a you-know-what, and win the race all in the last lap
* You skipped school to go to Dale Earnhardt's memorial service
* Your friends have to buy gloves and winter coats if they go to college at Appalachian or Western Carolina
* You know a bunch of people who have hit a deer
* You know a few that have also hit a bear
* You remember watching the ACC Tournament on television at school
* The local newspaper covers state, national, and international headlines in one page, but sports require six pages
* Most men in town consider the first day of deer season a national holiday
* Fifty degrees Fahrenheit is "a little chilly"
* You have no problem spelling or pronouncin' "Conetoe" or "Top Sail"
* Your school classes were canceled because of cold
* Your school classes were canceled because of heat
* Your idea of a traffic jam is ten cars waitin' to pass a tractor on the highway
* Your school classes were canceled because of a hurricane
* Your school classes were canceled because of hunting
* Your school classes were canceled because of a livestock show
* You've rode the school bus for an hour...each way
* Brown Liquor is a household staple
* You know more about ACC basketball than professional basketball
* You know everyone claims to hate Senator Jesse Helms but somehow he has never lost an election
* You know the Carolina League is the greatest baseball league in the country
* You think South Carolina was dead weight well shed
* You know tea is served sweet unless you specifically asked for unsweetened
* You've ever had to switch from "Heat" to "A/C" in the same day
* You think ethanol makes your truck run a lot better
* Stores don't have bags...they have sacks and are called Piggly Wigglys
* You see people wearing bib overalls at funerals
* You see a car running in the parking lot at the store with no one in it no matter what time of the year
* You end your sentences with a preposition, for example, "Where's my coat at?" "What's that made out of?"
* All the festivals around the state are named after a fruit, vegetable, or tobacco
* Priming was your first job...and you know what it means
* Your idea of a really great tenderloin is when the meat is twice as big as the bun and comes with cole slaw on top
* You say catty-wampus, yunto, ill-ass, and ah-ite.
* You know the difference between a deer dog, a bear dog and a coon dog by the way they bark
* You put security lights on your house and your garage and leave both of them unlocked
* Your four seasons are almost summer, summer, still summer, and highway construction
* You can tell if another North Carolinian is from Eastern or Western North Carolina as soon as he opens his mouth
* You know Krispy Kreme makes the best doughnuts!
* You can spell words such as Ocracoke, Fuquay-Varina, and Chocowinity
* You know the best BBQ is found in Lexington
* You think the four major food groups are beef, pork, beer, and Jello salad with marshmallows
* When asked how your trip to any foreign, exotic place was you say, "It was different"
* Hyde County is considered a foreign or exotic place
* In the Piedmont, you see all the grown-ups go out and play in the snow
* Schools and churches hold barbecue fundraisers with banana puddin' as the dessert
* Your folks would rather eat at Bojangles's than McDonald's
* You have actually uttered the phrase "It's too hot to go to the pool"
* You consider being a "Pork Queen" an honor
* You carry jumper cables in your car
* You know the following: Duke-Smart Asses, State-Farmer's Kids, Carolina- Preps, ECU- Drunks.
* You faithfully drink Pepsi or Mt. Dew everyday of your life. (diet x3)
* You know what "cow tipping" is.
* You have your own secret bbq sauce. (I makes good BBQ)
* You or your neighbors have more hunting dogs than you have family members. (neighbor x3)
* You visit the NC State Fair mainly to see your neighbor's prize chicken.
* You know where Barney Fife stays when he goes to Raleigh. (The YMCA.)
* You say, “it don’t” instead of “it doesn’t.”
* At least one of your female relatives has dipped snuff.
* You eat collards, hog jowl, and black-eyed peas on New Year’s Day.
* You sometimes eat country ham, grits and eggs for supper.
* You measure your heating bill by the chord
* Your luxury car is a 4x4
* You know what a turkey shoot is
* “Onced” and “twiced” are words.
* It ain't the Civil War, its the War of Northern Aggression
* Ya know what a pig pickin' is
* A seven course meal to you means a pack of Nabs and a Pepsi
* You remember when Easter Monday was a Holiday
* The tractor is under your carport instead of your car
* You know how much a "mess" of anything is
* You say "tater" instead of "potato"
* You say "skeeter" instead of "mosquito"
* You say "possum" instead of "opossum"
* You say "coon" instead of "raccoon"
* You brag on your new John Deere
* You know that "barbeque" means cookin pork on an open pit and a "cook out" is grilling hamburgers and hotdogs
* Your past tense of the verb "to see" is "seen", as in "I seen ya at the auction yesterday."
* You know that "Pop" is a sound; and "Soda" is used for baking
* You show this to some NC friends 'cuz ya know it's true, darlin'


And im not even from NC! X3!!

Homophobia means:

* I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

* I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

* I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

* We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

* I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

* I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

* I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

* I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

* We are the couple who had the Realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

* I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

* I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

* I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

* I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

* I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

* I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

* I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

* I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.

* I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

* I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

* I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.



Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end it.

So many have had to live with these specters hanging over us - help us make the hate stop. Love should never be wrong.

Friend meme....no one did the last one i posted....will someone do this one? :3


1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13) Would you meet up with me?

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Ten things I wish I could say to people:

1. Fuck off, you redneck retard
2. Zombies need hugs too
3. Go away drama llama
4. My relgion is my choice, don't like it, fuck off
5. I'm not fat, I'm fluffy
6. Shut up cracker!
7. I'm a furry! YIFF YIFF YIFF!!! x3
8. I hate stupid people...aka everyone
9. To lose weight, don't diet...just have sex all the time!
10. I am smarter then you, get over it

Nine things about myself:
1. I'm in love with an awesome dingo <3
2. I have poor self-esteem
3. I love all things disney.
4. I work in a pet store, is hel...i mean fun!
5. I collect plushies, is fun ^^ *coughcoughimsogaycough*
6. Music is awesome, I love all music cept country.
7. I love to cook, I'm really good at it too! :3
8. I used to play baseball, is my favorite sport
9. I find several disney canines to be hot :P

Eight ways to win my heart:
1. Respect me
2. Show me you care.
3. Hug me and never let go <3
4. HAVE A FUCKING BRAIN!
5. Just hold me and never let go.
6. Tell me sappy things of how you love me
7. Tell me you love me in another language!
8. Sing to me/sing with me. I love to sing, and be sang to, even though my singing sucks

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. My dingo <3
2. My kids...aka my doggies :3
3. Music
4. Sports
5. Yiff.....>.>
6. I hate NC....I miss CT
7. I'm ugly and fat

Six things I do before I fall asleep:
1. Family Guy
2. Talk on AIM
3. Facebook
4. DA
5. FA
6. Paw.....x3

Five places I want to visit:
1. Alaska
2. Norway
3. Ireland
4. Scotland
5. Florida

Four things I'm wearing right now:
1. Glasses.
2. Cargo Shorts
3. Polo shirt
4. Black boxers

Three musical artists that I listen to often:
1. Korn
2. Linkin Park
3. Classic rock

Two things I want to do before I die:
1. Spend my life with my love <3
2. Have my own home

One confession:
1. I sometimes sleep with a plushie...hehe

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Why are people so....sex crazed? Ok....now I love sex, and I crave it a lot, but I don't go randomly IM people and start trying to cyber fuck them. And whats worse, is when they find something you dont like or fear. they play on that to make you feel like shit! I'm sorry that I ever joined f-list. Its not what I wanted. I want something that has meaning....not just stupidity......but I suppose my thinking this is wrong, so what the fuck ever....

Oh, and happy Zombie Jesus day

I really don't....

Ok....so I had 2 dreams that have made me uber depressed >.>

First....was a flashback to when I was 11-12, and when my uncle molested/raped me....it was so real...so detailed...was like I was there again >.>

The second...was playing on my fear of loosing my close friends, I basically dreamed that my best friend stopped being my friend cuz they found a mate, and suddenly didn't feel close to me at all anymore....yeah im paranoid, with good reason...has happened twice so far >.<

So my bleh rant is done. Later

I'm tired of my family's divided ways...I'm tired of being left out in the dust...my mom is favoring my sister way too much, and she's treating my dad and me like shit, and it hurts. We used to be so close and loving, and now...its like a slap in the face. I crave love, I love way too deeply, thanks to my upbringing...and now...the one place I was always able to find love...my home....is anything but loving. I'm at a loss right now....I can't deal with this....I just want it all to go away.....but hey....what is love, right?

x3 ok not really...but I work with them everyday, so that counts, right?

Anywho...just bored...feel like making pointless journal. I'm kinda sick, have a stomach bug...is not fun. I'm also starting to realize that....I really need to stop feeling so alone...I really need to stop falling for people who I have no chance with, and most of all...when I am down, I need to just shut up and not say anything...So yeah...I'm trying to get better with holding in my emotions...now I know everyone will prolly say thats bad, but whenever I try to express my emotions I seem to piss people off, which hurts me even more then saying nothing, so I'm just gonna not say anything.

In other news, I'm working to get another part time job to pay for the bills, and hopefully I'll be able to save up to take a vacation, and maybe for AC, or to at least be able to visit some friends that ive met here on FA.

And on a random note...I'm hungry for pizza....someone give me pizza! x3

Take care everyone! <3

So I have a lil life update....I blacked out for about a min yesterday for no reason...the only thing I could think of was stress. So thats just great, but I'm fine now, and thats what's important, right?

So then its been so cold and my parents tell me our water pipes are frozen...great...>.>

And the person who I really REALLY lov...err...liked....is dating someone now. But I'm not emo about it, I just wish him happiness, because I care bout him. I should not have fallen for him anyway, he's too young and too far away....I think my longing for a guy to cuddle just got the best of me, but whatever. I'm not being emo, I'm just...ignoring my emotions right now...maybe not a good thing....but its the only thing I can do, and yeah...its what im gonna do so meh.

So thats it. I hope everyone is doing well. Love you all <3