So, I'll keep this short, all my health issues were being caused by heart failure.

Spent the past 2 weeks in the hospital getting tweaked and tuned up, and they found meds that finally got me eating normally again and able to be up and active again... its gonna be a long thing to see if i will fully recover or if i may need heart surgery/transplant at some point but I am hopeful the meds will help me get back to normal. Final weight lose before i could eat again was 100 pounds


Im finally home, which is fucking nice, also tomorrow is my birthday, normally I don't say shit till the day after but after the two weeks... I usually feel selfish saying my birthdays coming up so... gonna be selfish for atleast a day.

I hope you all are doing well though and im looking forward to finally recovering.

So things got worse for a while since the last journal.

I quit nicotine entirely (no gum or patch just cold turkey done)

Been to the er 3 separate times.

Saw several specialist doctors

Was bed bound for about a month

Apparently my heart got dicked because of the pneumonia. Witch was causing a lot of my issues.

I could not eat for days on end and i lost 70 pounds or 30ish KG

There's some other gripes but those aren't health related so that's it for now.

BUT there is some good news to be had, I'm finally up and about and I'm starting to eat again after getting some heart meds that got me feeling slightly normal again. Still get sick if i eat the wrong thing but im workin to get back into better health. Ill try and post again soon i have quiet a backlog i wanted to post but i may way till Decembers over to start posting again.

Either way thank you for takin the time to look over my ramblings and ill see you all around.

So figured I don't update a lot cause im an anti social dweeb but wanted to sort of give some news.

I'm quitting nicotine which is nice... been free of the stuff for 5 days and off the vape and such for 2 weeks. This is in line of the fact that I caught a really rough patch a pneumonia, so much so I was coughing up bloody mucus and ended up in the ER for 4 days... it was scary, but I'm recovering. The docs have assured me as long as I keep up what I'm doing ill do better. And with the nicotine gone I've sort of found a new sense of mental clarity i don't think I have had in a long while, though it feels like my ADHD has gone fuckin rampant as well, I dunno. I'm still finding my normal. I had the pneumonia for 2ish months now, And the new chemical imbalance has left me pretty foggy headed some days but Imma try uploading today. And who knows maybe i can finally sit my ass down and write out some story stuff like i keep telling myself I'm gonna do.

Just been filling my time with escape from tarkov because it keeps my mind off the urge of smoking and such, its helped a lot XD

Anyway I hope you guys had a good halloween... i guess thats it XD