that would be 3 people who have spammed me in the last 24 hours...

well then...

i hope they give up soon this shit is starting to get annoying >.<

yeah in the last 24 hours iv been approached by 2 different people asking me to add them to my skype and the have been going around asking other artists and im not sure if its just one person doing this or multiple people but take my advice!

IF you receive a note from someone asking you to add them to skype to talk about art and critique them and stuff... dont fall for it its bullshit


and first off..... my skype info is right out there in the open on my page... you dont ask me to add you and you dont have to ask me if you can add me.. you can just add me anyways i accept almost every friend request i get :P


OH and on a side note~ i will be streaming today C;

so... im trying to keep it together xP im looking at all my options on what i plan to do for school and my life and iv come to the brief conclusion of sometime by early to mid winter im going to peruse getting my GED because of all the recent events school is still an option but theres just no way i can do it... its very mentally draining its very stressful and i feel like its a big ginormous waste of my time.... i mean i kno its going to be harder for me to get a job and getting into college but i can still do it right? so im not totally giving up on myself or my career plans its just gonna be a little tougher or harder >.<
and of course some of my family members arent too ok with the idea and are doing everything in their power to change my decision.. im sorry iv made up my mind and i dont plan on changing it xP

and as for my living situation.. thats a different story at the moment and it changes everyday v.v im currently with my mate Ichi and im staying here for the weekend but im going to see if i can talk his parents into letting me live there for at least a month or so just to get on my feet.. then i will be either moving into a friends house or me and Ichi will be moving into an apartment together hopefully and if i cant say at Ichis house for now then... im not really sure where im going to go at that point.. i mean i could stay with my mother but shes done more bad than good for me so i rather not.... *sigh* ill just look at my other options then i guess... the absolute worst that could happen is that im staying in a shitty ass trailer in drug central and forced to go to school against my will... OH! thats right i was already living in that situation! ..so lets hope that doesnt happen xP


OK NOW ONTO THE GOOD STUFF!

so with these new plans set in mind im going to need some money cuz im still technically jobless :\ so i plan to draw like a madwoman for the rest of this weekend get some stuff done and out of the way and then i shall be opening commissions again with only 5 slots at a time and i will take on more when i am done with the first batch and i will post a journal and info and all that good stuff very soon! :P i also have some more YCH pieces in mind since i love whoring my characters out hehe so if you like those keep an eye out for them :P oh yes! and i am now able to take on adult commissions again! (even tho i was already doing it years ago lol)


ahh yeah so hanging in there and thanks everyone for your kind words and support even tho i didnt really reply to anyone i still read them all and i appreciated every kind word that was written<3

Thanks you guys you are the best! *hugs you all*


and now some musical entertainment~

so not even a week or 2 later i get kicked out of a house AGAIN! moms bf just all of a suddend went "you guys can stay here anymore" mom told me to grab all my stuff and we left.....

i have nowhere to live... school stats in less than a week....... im royally FUCKED!



and as much as i want to blame my mom for this one cuz it practically is all her fault but its whatever im not getting anywhere by just blaming her for all the shit i have to go through.... idk why me and her cant just stay in one place? iv gone through this more than once before iv been homeless i kno what its like to wake up in the morning not knowing where you going to sleep that night......

i cant take this... im tired of being dragged through her shit...

so i dont think im getting the job im completely homeless now im not going to be able to go to school without a place to live so im left with the options of moving away completely out of state leaving my life behind finishing school and eventually go to college..... but im not gonna leave... theres no way... and or now im just have to get my GED somehow and eventually got to college an get some kind of art degree...

yeah.....




so ontop of all that yesterday i go to kats house (its the only place i can really stay and be comfortable at and not worry about not getting kicked out.... no once again i thought wrong...

so kats step dad really showed his ass to me screaming at me to clean up messes that me and kat didnt even make! But i did like every good subordinate should.. i kept my mouth shut and just answered with "yes" or "yes sir" .......by the time he was done yelling at us both of us were in tears we left the house for a good hour or so maybe less.. we just held each other and cried... i cant believe she has to live with someone like that v.v iv never seen a man just attack someone for absolutely no reason at all >.< especially a guest in their home... so im already starting to feel unwelcome here now...

i have nowhere to go and idk what to do.... i just wanna dig a hole and lie in it and cry.... im so tired of this shit happening... can i just live in one nice healthy home without my life being threatened?

oh man iv been waiting to show you guys this video x3
ITS  metalxwolf EATING BUTTER! :D


skip to like 3:31 and youll see him and his face is just priceless! xD
oh god im so glad this is on the internet! if only i could find the video of me groping manass x3

me and my mom are going to be temporarily living with her bf until we can find a place to live... hopefully we will have a place before school starts..

on a much lighter note i might have a job! :D it just so happens that my mom works at dunkin doughnuts and one of her co-workers wanted me to apply so hopefully i get the job! :3 ima be makin doughnuts woot! hehe

im doing ok everythings going to be alright.. hopefully!

thx everyone for you kind words and those who were so eager to help i appreciate it so very much tnakyou!!<3

For those of you who dont really kno my home situation... me and my mother were living with this guy davie who is a paraplegic (paralyzed from the waist down) and we have been living with him for about 2 years now and we would feed and help take care of him but untill recently me ad my mother have been busy and havent been at the house much at all.... so davie goes to the department of children and families and says we have been neglecting him and mistreating him when we didnt even sign an agreement to take care of him! So me and my mother are forced out of his house......

i am as of right now.. i am in good hands im with my good friend kat and i will be staying with her for a few day till me and my mom can go back and get our stuff saturday and hopefully my mom will have a plan for us....

idk what gonna happen.....

ok well i think its safe to say my hiatus is over but i still cant take in any new commissions yet cuz i still need to work on the ones i have already and they have been waiting for quite some time now so i must finish those before i go for any more :P

i also need to get out of my comfort zone with my art... i need to do more backgrounds and explore other styles and do more awesome stuff :P i dont even kno where to start xD but im sure something amazing will come out of this plus i hope it sharpens my art skills :3

i also intend to do more collaborative pieces with some of my friends who are artists as well :3
if you would like to collab with my in the future please let me kno! :D

i just feel the need to expand myself beyond what i am now o3o

anyone got any advice? im all ears C:

wow what an amazing con this was and im so glad it was my first! C:
i met so many amazing furs and i couldnt get over how nice and friendly everyone was i wish i could be surrounded by furries all the time they can be just an amazing group of people<3

I got to meet so many amazing awesome furs!!!! even got to meet some of my friends! :D

 aquilak one of the first to recognize me and was awesome enough to get a badge from me C: it was alot of fun hanging around with ya and i hope you got lots of pics! :3
 shadow-faux LOOOOVED your fursuit and you were alot of fun to hang around too!<3
got too see  kirainu and  aisu10 again!<3
also met one of my fav porn artists  salkitten
AAANNNNDDDD my favorite furry of all time  syber which is like a dream come true for me i nearly had a heart attack when i saw her! :D
Oh yeah remember this icon i got? http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9928992/ got to meet the artist and also got to hang with him too hes really awesome and he also introduced me to  jackpot who is another awesome fur :3

Also got a chance to chat with the guests of honor at the con  foxamoore and  cerberus who are just amazing people to talk to :)

i also made some new awesome furriends!!!!<3
 MilkBoneUnderwear who adored my suit and was with me in the fursuit parade! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gB1ej-heugA
 Inukaza who is absolutely adorable and so much fun to be around!<3 hope i get to go to FWA next year so we can bump into eachother again x3
and of course musicofluie who i cant thank enough for the badges!<3


The con itself was just amazing words cannot express the experience i had x3

i was in the funday pawpet show spazzing out and i had to grope Blitzs butt >u> and Ichi ate a spoon full of butter lol once they post videos of it ill be sure to have you guys chack them out! ;)
Got some derp art from the amazing Uncle kage<3
and along with many other awesome things i just had the time of my life and i cant wait for next year! x3

ALL THE DICKS AND GAY PORN!!!!! :D YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!<3<3<3

i can see porn and now you guys >u>

NOW HIT ME WITH YOUR FAV SMUTTY ARTISTS!!!!!

woooo wow iv been up to all the shenanigans *flails* xD

ok so first off got a sexy new laptop: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11059610/
given to me as a birthday present! ^.^

oh and yes my birthday went well thx for all the birthday wishes i appreciated every single one of them!<3

sooooo yeah im finally legal now! WOOT! and to start it off i got a tattoo: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11122963/
YES ITS REAL! NO I DID NOT DRAW IT ON MY CHEST WITH MARKER... im not a fucking poser wannabe xD

so here you ready for the best part?
Its official! me ichi and  himetiffychan are friends again! we put our issues with each other behind us and i think its safe to say everything is as normal as it ever could be and im so happy to have my friend back :)

and thanks to hime shes been pushing me and helping me out with my fursuit which will be done in a few days! oh and me and hime have something awesome to show you guys :3 hehe lets just say i now legitimately have a derp me to run around with *evil laughter*

i got to meet some really awesome furs in my area~  spazzfur is a very talent artist and fursuit maker as well as a great person to talk to she is awesome!<3 and of course recently i got to meet himes mate  Himes_Calico who is another awesome fur! hope we get to make a suit for her soon she is just adorable! :3



so yeah alot of life changing stuff and even with this frenzy of awesome things going on i have been able to work on a little bit of art and i will hopefully get around to uploading some of said art >.< still working on the few cmmissions i have slowly but surely! Oh and thanks to i now have a nice brand new set of prismacolor markers!!!!! so now i can take traditional commissions now too! :D although i still have alot on my agenda first things first is finishing up my fursuit and going to megaplex this weekend!<3 than after that i will be officially back and in business taking regular commissions as usual but this time i can finally upload porn again!!!!! remember that? haha! i missed posting porn on here i know you all enjoyed it quite alot hehe ^.^ *claps* SO HAPPY TO FINALLY BE 18 WOO! *dances*

now to get back to work! you guys will hear from me again in about a week or so from now ;)

is here invading toxics profile MUHAHAHAHA!

first time ever going to a con so i better do one of these right? xD

Stolen from  musicofluie

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Where are you coming from?
Zepherhills

What day are you getting there?
Friday!

What days are you going to be at the con?
Friday to sunday (not gonna see me much sunday cuz me and  zambarau are going to be at Warped tour!)

What are your favorite places to lurk at the con?
Anywhere o.o this is my first time yo!

Who will you be rooming with?
with my wonderful mate  metalxwolf<3

Who will you be with throughout the con?
and whoever wants to meet up and hang with me! :D

What suit(s) will you be bringing?
Wolico suit! (currently in progress now!)

What do you look like?
if im not in my fursuit ill look like this>>> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10876656/

Do you do free art?
i cant ima be too busy with all the awesome o3o

Do you do trades?
maybe.... ask me and see what i say xD

Do you do commissions?
SURE! ill take some commissions just come to me and give me your info and maybe we can discuss something ^.^

Do you do badges?
uhhhhh.. maybe

Will you have Art in the Art Show?
nope v.v im not cool enough yet

What panels will you be attending?
any that seem of good interest! ^.^

Are you in any panels?
nope still not cool enough for that shit :c

What is your gender?
Completely female! but i carry myself like a guy and im constantly making dick references so i can be kinda gender confusing xD

Taken?
Yes by my lovely puppy

Can I talk to you?
Dude i talk so much i might annoy you haha im very spazzy and fun to hang aound and i have no problem making new friends x3

Can I touch you?
*flails* hugs are welcomed! and who doesnt like to be petted? :D

How can I find you?
look for the loud obnoxious toxic freak hound im not hard to spot ill be wearing lots of bright colors!!!

Will you be at the bowling event Thursday night?
i dont think so unfortunately :C

Will you be dressed for the Megaplex theme?
uhhh yeah no haha


Im very excited you guys! my first fur con and i already kno its gonna be awesome there is just so much awesome going on i just cant contain myself! x3 *spazzes and runs around*

Well turns out the plans that i had intended to happen arent going to happen so i need to take some time off to get my life back in order. it sucks it really sucks and i hate to do this and i really dont want to but i just need to get any stress off my shoulders that i can because im about to go through a rough spot in my life and i just have to work my way through it...

I do intend however to finish up my one little commission i have (not sure when it will be done) and when i can i will work on jamessnows comic. then heres the kinda sucky part... i have to drop all my current trades im working on i do sincerely apologize for those who have been waiting and who have already given me art.. after this hiatus is up you are more than welcome to re-trade with me again (and for those who have already done their half dont have to draw another when they re-trade with me)


I will still be somewhat active on FA im just no longer accepting commissions or trades right now




on the bright side my birthday is in 9 days >.>



see you guys later *hugs you all* take care
hopefully things will be better when im back xP

did everyone leave finally? ...shit maybe i should find another site to post my arts and stuff >.>

im literally making little to no money right now idk if its just my art isnt worth it anymore or everyone just kinda packed their shit and left the website :I ..or have i been forgotten? D: *cries in corner*


i get more comments on pics of me than my art like wtf....


what happened? like.. seriously someone explain this to me >.<





or do i complain too much? :C

i would seriously appreciate some honesty right now >.>

i just derped so hard

i had the laptop this whole time i just ... yeah... i derped real hard you guys xD


TIME TO GET TOO WORK WOOT! *flails*

I feel like so fuking stupid right now x.x

Im at  metalxwolfs house right now and im here till sunday...

I had all my stuff packed and i swored i packed the laptop but apparently i didnt.....

I have no way of drawing right now... This sucks ass....FML


I dont even have any of my fursuit stuff to work on... Im gonna get bored and agitated real fast cuz now im going to be behind on everything! D: not to mention i have a fur con to go to and i have almot nothing done for my suit and im still waiting on things to come in the mail... This is great... This is just fucking fantastic right now

yeah sorry iv seemed so quiet over the last week or so iv been a busy bee hanging with friends and doing stuff xP

i have a new phone and if you want my number i will only give it out to me closest friends just note me! :)

iv been working on lots of art slowly but surely i will have something uploaded within the nest few days! :3

how is everyone? iv been keeping a positive attitude and iv been keeping my head up and things are going quite well for me at the moment :P

its just so powerful it brought tears to my eyes.......

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?.....=2&theater

i woke up this afternoon so... unshitty feeling! :D it feels so good i cant describe it! i have my confidence back my stomach calmed down and im happy again! im still working out the kinks of me moving but i think no matter what happens i will be ok :)

so yeah in a bit i will stream and work on some adopts! maybe work on some other stuff too :3

im just so happy right now >3< *flails*

should i do adopts again? im still hurting for money and it seems no one is gonna commission me anytime soon so i thought doing this might help me out a bit.

IF i do this again it will go down just like it did last time~ that means im gonna stream me working on them and id like for you guys to shoot me some ideas :3

you can give me ideas here too as like what colors or species i should do! :D

Is annoying as hell -_-

My internet serves no problems for me but  metalxwolfs wifi is so bad with it x.x

Fa goes out like every 5 min for me here >.>

I hope they fix this soon >.<

yeah another piece of technology shit out on me this time its my phone :I i can receive call and texts just fine its just i cant see my screen x.x its gone black and i cant see shit anymore...... *sigh* just another thing to worry about fabulous! :D

idk when im getting it fixed... most likely never >.>

*flails*
ok so iv been working hard on zams reff these last few days (i cant believe its talking this long omg x.x ) im almost there i will have it done sometime later today and ill also be working hard on other things as well i MIGHT stream today if im feeling up to it >.>

i will post arts today i promise!!!!! hopefully more than one submission >o>

stay tuned for more ;)

ok so as far as anyone really needs to know.. i will be moving in the next week or so (hopefully)
im not sure when i will get my comp fixed hopefully its soon i got a friend who is gonna fix it for me i just need to get a new screen for it >.< and im still forking up any money i have right now towards my fursuit in which im soooooo fucking close to having everything i need for it so i wont have to keep spending my money anymore and hopefully just save up for a new comp cuz im tired of having this one shit out on me.. none the less for now  zambarau is letting me use his untill i get mine fixed

and that brings me to my next order of business. i will hopefully have this reff done either later today or tomorrow then i can finish up these 2 commissions i have (AND IM STILL TAKING MORE: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4718332/ ) and hopefully work on some well overdue stuff like trades and this comic iv been procrastinating on for like ever x.x i still need money so commissions would be highly appreciated :D if not please pimp it out if you could!!!<3

and as far as shipping out stuff i sent out a couple of pieces of art the other day and im currently on the hunt for boxes i will be getting some in a few days and once i get the chance i will ship out the rest of the stuffs~


as far as me.... ugh.. idk im stuck in limbo my mind has been lingering on the fact of me finally moving out on my own and iv been confident and very impatient about it and now when this moment has finally come...... im terrified.. i just dont want to fail and end up on my ass in the end... *sigh* but thankfully Ichi has been keeping my head up and reassuring me that everything is going to be fine and im sure it is but that doesnt make me any less scared xD ..i just try not to think about it too much and just deal with it when it comes to me :P