with scissors, to make it half as thick. and make it even.

i did.

i won.

i won the battle with the beast

despite starting the year by being fucking CHEATED on by my longest-ever partner to end our 7-year long distance relationship together, im surprisingly doing quite well especially because i am still living with my other boyfriend and its been really hard for us but we've been so strongly here for one another that I'm actually feeling fairly good overall. I feel like I'm leaning more into being myself and getting over the highschool trauma every day 💪 I may be autistically burnt out as fuck but i AM making and i WILL make more art. 🖍🖍🖍 i have got to spite the haters

my visit with my family went absolutely horribly and gave me some new trauma so ive been back in NYC for the past several months.... its been really hard trying to stay motivated to make art, considering the world is on fire and the cost of living is fucking SOARING, so I've only really been able to draw fun adoptable designs for the most part 😭....

I like living with my boyfriend though. its the little things

its been a long time since ive really been active here but i may be for the forseeable future since me and my boyfriend have been collabing on these adopts while im at his house :) theres like 5 more i still need to line lol but other than that theyre already done.. i hope ppl like them as much as we do, cause we kinda fell in love with their designs even tho we have no real use for them ourselves 😂

ive been on testosterone since september and its been good. im already getting some of all the changes i really wanted. (now if only my mustache would come in) im trying to get out of north carolina as much as i possibly can though because the political climate there just fucking sucks. Its been really hard because I've been struggling to do art for work lately. Its been 6 years and recently ive just wished I could put my limited energy towards art for fun/real practice and freedom and experimentation but i just dont have the motivation. I may be getting a job trimming flower (yes, that kind) soon and I genuinely hope to god it works out well enough that I can do that and earn some real money instead because right now I'm literally broke :")... I have like 3 dollars in the bank lol. #laughingthroughthepain

I have to go back home for a couple weeks soon though and I'm just not looking forward to it. The way my family treated me before I left has given me multiple nightmares since I've been gone (on top of the ones i already usually had about them) but its only temporary and then I can come back and try to get this money. I dont even know man I'm just trying to scrape by and exist and be moderately happy. Meanwhile I spend like literally 1/58th of my grandpas monthly income in a 2-month span for food and medicine and he acts like I'm doing too much (after he GAVE me permission to do those things) so I'm just unbelievably tired of everything and of money tbh. hopefully something works out soon