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General | Posted 12 years agoCertain events have made me question FA's competence. Not leaving FA, but putting up a Weasyl account, just as a precaution.
Watch me on there:
https://www.weasyl.com/~toxxik
Watch me on there:
https://www.weasyl.com/~toxxik
Worse Than P.C.D. - Video Update of sorts.
General | Posted 12 years ago<FC Fucking rocked!>
General | Posted 12 years agoI was so happy that i got to go. I met some super cool people and made a shitton of new friends, along with seeing a bunch of fags i hadn't seen in a while. I met 
and fixed a few friendships that i was close to giving up on. It's always good when people are understanding about the trials you deal with. <3
I cant wait for CaliFur2014, which will be the next con i attend (sorry! I cant make it to BLFC!). I love you all and ill try and make some more art soon!
and fixed a few friendships that i was close to giving up on. It's always good when people are understanding about the trials you deal with. <3I cant wait for CaliFur2014, which will be the next con i attend (sorry! I cant make it to BLFC!). I love you all and ill try and make some more art soon!
*COUNTDOWN UNTIL FC*
General | Posted 12 years agoIm counting down until i leave! Just a few more hours until im on the road!
I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU ALL <3
I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU ALL <3
Give This Gurl A Watch!
General | Posted 12 years agoSo my gurlfwaan Lithyum wants to get to know more about the fandom! If you guys would go give her a watch and give her info on the fandom, id appreciate it!! <3
Go to
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Update of gheyness.
General | Posted 12 years agoYeah, so i had a fun time at Prancing Skilitaire. :D Saw my friends and had an amazing time.
I cant wait for FC! WOOT. Gonna fuck shit upp! <33
See you all there <33
Kiss kiss!
I cant wait for FC! WOOT. Gonna fuck shit upp! <33
See you all there <33
Kiss kiss!
FC2014 MEME!
General | Posted 12 years ago*stolen from 
*
Hotel:
DoubleTree Hilton, by the airport. [We almost couldnt stay there, because the Hilton Family hates me xD]
Arrival/Departure:
I will be arriving at around 6:00AM on the 16th, and staying through the 20th!
Means of transportation:
My mother's friend is our personal chauffeur. x3
Sharing a room with:
and some other bitch x3
Who do you hang out with?
My own little group of fags, which include 
etc.
Gender:
Guy. Faggy guy. x3
Preference:
on what?
Relationship Status:
SLUT :P
How tall are you?
5'8''
Are you an Artist?
Yes and no. xD im not too good at drawing furries, but i make furries into certain characters that i can draw...
Do you have an artist table?
Nope
Do you take commissions?
Not right now lol
Do you do trades?
I guess... xD
Are you a Fursuiter?
SOON! SOON!!!!
but no, not yet.
Attending parties?
Any i can get into. x3
Do you drink?
*hic* maybeh-h*hic*
Can I buy you a drink?
Yasss...
Do you smoke?
YUS! CANCER STIXXX XD
Are you attending any panels?
Possibly.
Stage or public performance?
If i can sing on stage, fuck yeah!
How do I identify myself to you?
I dunno. Say hi. xD I dont bite that hard.
Rules of engagement (physical contact)?
Just say hi. I usually give hugs :3 if youre hot... huehuehue
How can I find you?
Look for the faggit in makeup. xD I look scarrrryyyy x3
Can I talk to you?
Sure! I give hugs too ^^
Can I give you lots of money?
I guess. Put it in my pants LUL
Can I give you stuff?
Shure :D
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Yup. :P
Can I come to dinner with you?
Depends on who ya are :P
Can I hang out with you?
FUCK YEAH!
Can I take your picture?
I will love you.
How do I know if you're not looking to socialize (angry, busy or upset)?
2 headphones in = fuck off xD
Personality Type?
Just dont be a dick...? XD
What's your goal for the con this year?
TO IGNORE ALL POSSIBLE DRAMAAAAAA AND HAVE FUNN!
*Hotel:
DoubleTree Hilton, by the airport. [We almost couldnt stay there, because the Hilton Family hates me xD]
Arrival/Departure:
I will be arriving at around 6:00AM on the 16th, and staying through the 20th!
Means of transportation:
My mother's friend is our personal chauffeur. x3
Sharing a room with:
and some other bitch x3Who do you hang out with?
My own little group of fags, which include
etc.Gender:
Guy. Faggy guy. x3
Preference:
on what?
Relationship Status:
SLUT :P
How tall are you?
5'8''
Are you an Artist?
Yes and no. xD im not too good at drawing furries, but i make furries into certain characters that i can draw...
Do you have an artist table?
Nope
Do you take commissions?
Not right now lol
Do you do trades?
I guess... xD
Are you a Fursuiter?
SOON! SOON!!!!
but no, not yet.
Attending parties?
Any i can get into. x3
Do you drink?
*hic* maybeh-h*hic*
Can I buy you a drink?
Yasss...
Do you smoke?
YUS! CANCER STIXXX XD
Are you attending any panels?
Possibly.
Stage or public performance?
If i can sing on stage, fuck yeah!
How do I identify myself to you?
I dunno. Say hi. xD I dont bite that hard.
Rules of engagement (physical contact)?
Just say hi. I usually give hugs :3 if youre hot... huehuehue
How can I find you?
Look for the faggit in makeup. xD I look scarrrryyyy x3
Can I talk to you?
Sure! I give hugs too ^^
Can I give you lots of money?
I guess. Put it in my pants LUL
Can I give you stuff?
Shure :D
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Yup. :P
Can I come to dinner with you?
Depends on who ya are :P
Can I hang out with you?
FUCK YEAH!
Can I take your picture?
I will love you.
How do I know if you're not looking to socialize (angry, busy or upset)?
2 headphones in = fuck off xD
Personality Type?
Just dont be a dick...? XD
What's your goal for the con this year?
TO IGNORE ALL POSSIBLE DRAMAAAAAA AND HAVE FUNN!
About January PS:
General | Posted 12 years agoI hope im going, but i dont have a ride yet, and it sucks. :/ So yeahhh... Halp? I ive in thousand oaks.
Another Holiday Spent Alone. x.x
General | Posted 12 years agoI am a holiday virgin.
I have never had a Valentine. I have never been kisses under te mistletoe. I have never been kisses on New Years at midnight.
It seriously SUCKS. Romance seems to like fucking me over x3
Lol
I have never had a Valentine. I have never been kisses under te mistletoe. I have never been kisses on New Years at midnight.
It seriously SUCKS. Romance seems to like fucking me over x3
Lol
I Need A Fursuit D: Halp. I don't know any makers...
General | Posted 12 years agoSo I'm hoping to find a fursuit maker near me who doesn't charge too much ^^" I understand why they do and everything, but I'm on a budget...
I'm hoping I can find someone who can do a partial for around $400 or under that... I've seen a lot of cool suits, and I really want one cx
If you guys know of anyone who does good suits... Lemme knowww.... Thanksssss!!
I'm hoping I can find someone who can do a partial for around $400 or under that... I've seen a lot of cool suits, and I really want one cx
If you guys know of anyone who does good suits... Lemme knowww.... Thanksssss!!
FURTHER CONFUSION: CONFIRMED.
General | Posted 12 years agoI just confirmed that I am going to Further Confusion. I hope to see a lot of you there! I am still working on my art skills, so I don't wanna do commissions right now. I am not that good yet. If you see me at FC, be sure to say hi! I'll probably be in drag of some sort! <3 love you all!
Its My Birthday! <3
General | Posted 12 years agoIm going to go to a concert for my birthday. I have a feeling that this year no one is gonna pay much attention to it, but oh well. life goes on <3
My Birthday Party?!
General | Posted 12 years agoSo my birthday Party's on Saturday. Yeah, i know. Short notice. My computer broke so i couldn't put this up earlier. But yeah, if anyone wants to head out to my party, feel free ^_^ Note me. I live in SoCal, so if youre not near there, probably won't matter. :P
But yeah, lots has been going on with me latley. Getting ready for FC, finishing some art...
You know, ive realized that i cant draw furries all to well. Its just not my style. So im going to put up some of my style of artwork... hopefully y'all enjoy it. <3 Love you guys.
DEUCES!
But yeah, lots has been going on with me latley. Getting ready for FC, finishing some art...
You know, ive realized that i cant draw furries all to well. Its just not my style. So im going to put up some of my style of artwork... hopefully y'all enjoy it. <3 Love you guys.
DEUCES!
Surprise! :D
General | Posted 12 years agoHey Guys!
So i went to Prancing Skilitaire yesterday, and a lot of my good friends were pretty bummed out to hear it was gonna be my last PS. We had a lot of fun...
and i realized something:
Just because there's a couple assholes that dont like me, doesnt mean i have to leave the fandom. There are a great deal of people who care about me so much! Those people pulled me out of my rut and i decided, "You know what? F*CK those people. Im gonna keep being a furry!" People can seriously suck a lot of the time, especially when in such a close-knit group as the fandom is. But, as long as i can push the drama and bullsh*t aside, i can easily keep my head up and have fun in the fandom!
SO IM BACK! AND IM HERE TO STAY!! <33
So i went to Prancing Skilitaire yesterday, and a lot of my good friends were pretty bummed out to hear it was gonna be my last PS. We had a lot of fun...
and i realized something:
Just because there's a couple assholes that dont like me, doesnt mean i have to leave the fandom. There are a great deal of people who care about me so much! Those people pulled me out of my rut and i decided, "You know what? F*CK those people. Im gonna keep being a furry!" People can seriously suck a lot of the time, especially when in such a close-knit group as the fandom is. But, as long as i can push the drama and bullsh*t aside, i can easily keep my head up and have fun in the fandom!
SO IM BACK! AND IM HERE TO STAY!! <33
One more PS. and FC.
General | Posted 12 years agoOne last Prancing Skilitaire for me, and the Further confusion. After that i'm dropping off the fur-dar. I cant keep being a part of a community that has caused me so much pain and drama. I have enough to deal with already. I'm sorry for any of my friends that truly do care about me, but i can no longer connect with this community... :I Ill try and check in once in a while, but... i just cant subject myself over and over to constant hate. even most of this community doesnt want to accept me... :I
[promoting music]So I Usually Hate Rap Music...
General | Posted 12 years agoSo I usually HATE, like, DESPISE, rap music, but theres these 2 rappers i cant get over. I dont know why they aint super famous. Theyre fucking awesome!
Example one:
https://youtu.be/zW4PY8Xubv8
Example 2:
https://youtu.be/szj7efHG-00
^^^I absolutely love this bitch. She can bust some boss flows. <3^^^
So yeah, i found some good rap, not that Drake and Nikki bullshit they be playing on fucking radio.
Oh and this METAL cover of "Niggas In Paris"; Fucking amazing:
https://youtu.be/XDtP3yFZQow[WARNING] Self Harm meme: Why i used to do it.
General | Posted 12 years agoHow old were you when you first started self harming?
[] Younger than 4
[] 5-6
[] 6-7
[] 7-8
[x] 9-10
[] 10-11
[] 11-12
[] 12-13
[] 13-14
[] 14-15
[] 15-16
[] 16-17
[] 17-18
[] 18-19
[] 19-20
[] Older than 21
How often do you self harm?
[] Depends on what mood I’m in
[] More than once a day
[] Every day
[] Once a week
[] Two or more times a month
[] A few times a year
[] I’m trying to stop
[x] I’ve stopped
What form of self harm do/did you use?
[x] Cutting
[x] Burning
[] Hair pulling
[] Scratching
[] Interference with healing of wounds
[x] Hitting or bruising
[x] Bone breaking
[] Cutting and Scratching
[x] Cutting and Burning
[x] Hitting head against walls
[x] Binging
[x] Purging
[x] Starving
[x] Biting
[] Rubber band slaps
If you self harm what sexual orientation are you?
[] Straight Male
[] Straight Female
[] Bi-sexual Male
[] Bi-sexual Female
[] A-sexual Male
[] A-sexual Female
[x] Homosexual Male
[] Homosexual Female
[] Transgender Male(FtM)
[] Transgender Female(MtF)
[] Questioning Male
[] Questining Female
[] Pan-sexual Male
[] Pan-sexual Female
[] Demi-sexual Female
Which of these,if any,are something you struggled with along with self harm?
[] Anorexia
[] Bulimia
[x] Anorexia and Bulimia
[] EDNOS
[x] Suicidal ideation
[] Various Psychiatric Disorders
[] Learning Disabilities
[] None of the above
Do you think you need professional help to stop self harming?
[] Yes, the only way i could stop is with professional help.
[x] No, I have stopped on my own
[] No,i have stopped on my own but i still have trouble and mess up sometimes.
[] No, I have no desire to stop therefore i don’t need professional help
[] Yes, I have stopped with professional help
[] I don’t think i could ever stop without professional help
[] Prefer not to answer
[] I don’t know
Are you trying to stop self harming?
[] No, and i dont want to stop
[] No,but i would like to be able to stop
[] Yes,but im not doing very well
[] I have stopped but i mess up every once in a while
[x] I am self harm free
Does anyone know about your self harm?
[] No. No one knows.
[] Some peolple may have a vague idea of something
[] Yes. But only my closest friend(s)
[] Yes. But only my closest family member(s)
[x] Yes. Some friends and family.
[] Yes, most of (or all of) my friends.
[] Yes, most of (or all of) my family.
[] Yes,people that see my scars/cuts
[] Yes,a few people that i really trust.
[] Yes,my therapist/counselor/psychiatrist
How many years have you been self harming?
[] One or less years
[] 2 years
[] 3 years (almost 4)
[] 4 years
[] 5 years
[x] 6 years
[] 7 years
[] 8 years
[] 9 years
[] 10 or more years
If you self harm were you abused or neglected as a child or later on in life?
[] No(don't think so)
[] Yes,emotionally abused
[] Yes,physically abused
[] Yes,sexually abused
[] Yes, I was emotionally and physically abused
[] Yes, I was physically and sexually abused
[x] Yes,I was emotionally and sexually abused [by people in psychiatric hospitals]
[] Yes,I was physically,emotionally,and sexually abused
[] Yes,I was neglected
[] Yes,i was neglected and abused
[] Prefer not to answer
Would you label yourself as emo?
[] Yes
[x] No
[] I guess
Do others label you as emo?
[x] Yes
[] No
[] I dont know
What do you label yourself as?
[] Prep
[] Goth
[] Emo
[] Punk
[] Nerd
[] Hipster
[] Pothead
[] Poser
[] Skater
[] Druggie
[] Normal
[] I dont know
[x] I dont believe in labels
How do you react when you see others self harm scars/marks?
[x] I want to get to know them
[] I want to know what they went through in order to see that as a way out
[] I want to get as far as possible from them so no one knows about my self harm
[x] I consider them as someone who shares something in common with me
[] I would never acknowledge them
[] What happened for them to start self harming
[ ] Fear
[ ] Interest
[x ] Sadness
[] Hapiness
[] Dont really care
[] No reaction
[] Surprise
[] Relief
[] Jealousy
[] Happy that no one cuts as bad as me
[] Upset that no one cuts as bad as me
[] Younger than 4
[] 5-6
[] 6-7
[] 7-8
[x] 9-10
[] 10-11
[] 11-12
[] 12-13
[] 13-14
[] 14-15
[] 15-16
[] 16-17
[] 17-18
[] 18-19
[] 19-20
[] Older than 21
How often do you self harm?
[] Depends on what mood I’m in
[] More than once a day
[] Every day
[] Once a week
[] Two or more times a month
[] A few times a year
[] I’m trying to stop
[x] I’ve stopped
What form of self harm do/did you use?
[x] Cutting
[x] Burning
[] Hair pulling
[] Scratching
[] Interference with healing of wounds
[x] Hitting or bruising
[x] Bone breaking
[] Cutting and Scratching
[x] Cutting and Burning
[x] Hitting head against walls
[x] Binging
[x] Purging
[x] Starving
[x] Biting
[] Rubber band slaps
If you self harm what sexual orientation are you?
[] Straight Male
[] Straight Female
[] Bi-sexual Male
[] Bi-sexual Female
[] A-sexual Male
[] A-sexual Female
[x] Homosexual Male
[] Homosexual Female
[] Transgender Male(FtM)
[] Transgender Female(MtF)
[] Questioning Male
[] Questining Female
[] Pan-sexual Male
[] Pan-sexual Female
[] Demi-sexual Female
Which of these,if any,are something you struggled with along with self harm?
[] Anorexia
[] Bulimia
[x] Anorexia and Bulimia
[] EDNOS
[x] Suicidal ideation
[] Various Psychiatric Disorders
[] Learning Disabilities
[] None of the above
Do you think you need professional help to stop self harming?
[] Yes, the only way i could stop is with professional help.
[x] No, I have stopped on my own
[] No,i have stopped on my own but i still have trouble and mess up sometimes.
[] No, I have no desire to stop therefore i don’t need professional help
[] Yes, I have stopped with professional help
[] I don’t think i could ever stop without professional help
[] Prefer not to answer
[] I don’t know
Are you trying to stop self harming?
[] No, and i dont want to stop
[] No,but i would like to be able to stop
[] Yes,but im not doing very well
[] I have stopped but i mess up every once in a while
[x] I am self harm free
Does anyone know about your self harm?
[] No. No one knows.
[] Some peolple may have a vague idea of something
[] Yes. But only my closest friend(s)
[] Yes. But only my closest family member(s)
[x] Yes. Some friends and family.
[] Yes, most of (or all of) my friends.
[] Yes, most of (or all of) my family.
[] Yes,people that see my scars/cuts
[] Yes,a few people that i really trust.
[] Yes,my therapist/counselor/psychiatrist
How many years have you been self harming?
[] One or less years
[] 2 years
[] 3 years (almost 4)
[] 4 years
[] 5 years
[x] 6 years
[] 7 years
[] 8 years
[] 9 years
[] 10 or more years
If you self harm were you abused or neglected as a child or later on in life?
[] No(don't think so)
[] Yes,emotionally abused
[] Yes,physically abused
[] Yes,sexually abused
[] Yes, I was emotionally and physically abused
[] Yes, I was physically and sexually abused
[x] Yes,I was emotionally and sexually abused [by people in psychiatric hospitals]
[] Yes,I was physically,emotionally,and sexually abused
[] Yes,I was neglected
[] Yes,i was neglected and abused
[] Prefer not to answer
Would you label yourself as emo?
[] Yes
[x] No
[] I guess
Do others label you as emo?
[x] Yes
[] No
[] I dont know
What do you label yourself as?
[] Prep
[] Goth
[] Emo
[] Punk
[] Nerd
[] Hipster
[] Pothead
[] Poser
[] Skater
[] Druggie
[] Normal
[] I dont know
[x] I dont believe in labels
How do you react when you see others self harm scars/marks?
[x] I want to get to know them
[] I want to know what they went through in order to see that as a way out
[] I want to get as far as possible from them so no one knows about my self harm
[x] I consider them as someone who shares something in common with me
[] I would never acknowledge them
[] What happened for them to start self harming
[ ] Fear
[ ] Interest
[x ] Sadness
[] Hapiness
[] Dont really care
[] No reaction
[] Surprise
[] Relief
[] Jealousy
[] Happy that no one cuts as bad as me
[] Upset that no one cuts as bad as me
[Love journal] I dont think its ever going away <3
General | Posted 12 years agoMood: Determined (/O_O)/
Listening to: Somebody Loves You - Betty Who
Watching: Bob's Burgers
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So in my last journal, i mentioned how someone i have had feelings for for a long time kissed me on the cheek. I've been thinking a lot since that happened, and i know what i have to do.
I have to wait.
I dont care how long, but thats what i'm going to do. I love this guy, more than anyone else ever could, and i just have to wait until i can prove it to him.
I don't think the love i have for him will ever go away. <3
I dont really know why i posted this journal, but i just needed to get this out. This is the first time i've really felt for someone. <3
Goodnight guys <3
Listening to: Somebody Loves You - Betty Who
Watching: Bob's Burgers
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So in my last journal, i mentioned how someone i have had feelings for for a long time kissed me on the cheek. I've been thinking a lot since that happened, and i know what i have to do.
I have to wait.
I dont care how long, but thats what i'm going to do. I love this guy, more than anyone else ever could, and i just have to wait until i can prove it to him.
I don't think the love i have for him will ever go away. <3
I dont really know why i posted this journal, but i just needed to get this out. This is the first time i've really felt for someone. <3
Goodnight guys <3
Prancing Skilitaire Summary.
General | Posted 12 years agoMood: Empowered \(._.\)
I'm listening to: What Are You So Scared Of? - Tonight Alive
Im eating: hangover food xD Scrambled eggies :3
I'm watching: Family Guy
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So PS this month started out pretty good for me.
I went on a 'date' of sorts with someone i liked, and it was going really well! I has having fun and everything! But then it went kinda south when he decided to cuddle with a random girl we had just met today.
So that was the drama for this PS. The funny thing is, i was pissed off only for i little bit, mostly because and were hellbent on making me feel better. I just kept my head up, and moved on through the whole thing.
Then it was like some motherfucking ANGEL came down and touched me inappropriately. O___0 A guy i have had the BIGGEST fucking crush on, since forever came out of nowhere and kissed me (on the cheek, but still).
I just about died.
So you know in the movies, when someone kisses the main character, and the main character is just like, "What..? Um Wha...?" Yeah, that was me. i was flustered out of my fucking mind xD So that pretty much made up for all the bullshit, knowing that he liked me. I'm actually still on a 'happy high'. :D
So yeah, with the help of all my fur family,
and 
i had the best day ever. I couldnt have asked for better. I love you all, and thank you so much for supporting me <33
I'm listening to: What Are You So Scared Of? - Tonight Alive
Im eating: hangover food xD Scrambled eggies :3
I'm watching: Family Guy
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So PS this month started out pretty good for me.
I went on a 'date' of sorts with someone i liked, and it was going really well! I has having fun and everything! But then it went kinda south when he decided to cuddle with a random girl we had just met today.
So that was the drama for this PS. The funny thing is, i was pissed off only for i little bit, mostly because
and were hellbent on making me feel better. I just kept my head up, and moved on through the whole thing. Then it was like some motherfucking ANGEL came down and touched me inappropriately. O___0 A guy i have had the BIGGEST fucking crush on, since forever came out of nowhere and kissed me (on the cheek, but still).
I just about died.
So you know in the movies, when someone kisses the main character, and the main character is just like, "What..? Um Wha...?" Yeah, that was me. i was flustered out of my fucking mind xD So that pretty much made up for all the bullshit, knowing that he liked me. I'm actually still on a 'happy high'. :D
So yeah, with the help of all my fur family,
and 
i had the best day ever. I couldnt have asked for better. I love you all, and thank you so much for supporting me <33I cant believe i met someone that good at art...
General | Posted 12 years ago---
So i met
at LUSH the other day when i was looking at makeup. He said he amde a good amount of his money drawing furry art, so i assumed "Ok he's probably not that bad at art."
Hes fucking BOSS!
This art is fucking amazing! And he's so sweet x3 I found his page and i was like "WTF THIS IS HIS SHIT?" xD I was blown away. I NEVER promote people but fucking seriously, go check him out! He's amazing and he told me he might start going to cons soon for networking xD
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So i met
at LUSH the other day when i was looking at makeup. He said he amde a good amount of his money drawing furry art, so i assumed "Ok he's probably not that bad at art."Hes fucking BOSS!
This art is fucking amazing! And he's so sweet x3 I found his page and i was like "WTF THIS IS HIS SHIT?" xD I was blown away. I NEVER promote people but fucking seriously, go check him out! He's amazing and he told me he might start going to cons soon for networking xD
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