When you're around someone so much, for so long, they become a part of you. And when they change or go away, you don't know who you are without them. Some say its painful to wait someone. Some say its painful to forget someone. But the worst pain comes when you don’t know whether to wait or forget. This is the problem with getting attached to someone. When they leave, you just feel lost.

Everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for. The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain. One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else (or don't love anybody at all).

Every heart has a pain. Only the way of expressing it is different. Fools hide it in eyes, while the brilliant hide it in their smile, and I guess I hide it in my eyes, because of being a fool trying to love somebody who didn't love me back at all.

This is for you, you slut! A bitch that acted like shit with me in real life, and also tried to excuse herself by blaming me.

No matter what, I always manage to mess up things. Whatever I do. I'm still considered to be an asshole and a cunt. I'm starting to slowly fall in depression, or maybe I'm already going through it. My eyes are tired and red from nights when I couldn't sleep and crying a lot, lately I had many headaches, and really painful ones. I refuse to eat as much as I used to and my parents just don't help me out of it, even worse, they push me deeper in darkness.
I'm starting to think hell is a better place to live rather than being alive, I hate life... I hate life and everything about it! People have to judge me for everything I do and my parents have to yell at me for every single mistake I make. I think people would rather like to see me dead than alive, I think they have some sort of satisfaction when they see me suffering and going through depression, I can't cope with it anymore! My parents won't listen to me, they just yell at me and make it go even worse, they don't trust me so I have to say they're right, I can't hold up much longer.
Please, somebody, find where I live, bring a gun with you, and kill me.. I beg you.. I beg you! and if it is about another life after death, save me from the next life somehow. *sigh*

My birthday is coming in less than a month, don't know why but I'm not as excited as I used to be back in the days. I'm getting older xP, alright ? Who would be happy because he/she is getting older ? Anyway, 16 years old, here I come!

Today I had the selections for a music contest, and I passed <333 I sang Mad World by Gary Jules and a romanian song, and I made all the people to stand up as they were applauding aggressively. I still can't believe I had such an impact x3 But this means on 15th of February I will have the contest :3 If I see a local post about the selections (which usually has a video) I will give it to you right away :3 Love you all! <3

I hope you didn't think I won't post any more covers, I will :3 and I decided to give you a little list of things I might cover:
Pink Floyd - Another Brick in The Wall (Part II) <- Already out.
The Smiths - Bigmouth Strikes Again <- High Priority.
Avicii feat. Aloe Blacc - Wake me up
BZN - Dance Dance
Depeche Mode - Enjoy The Silence
The National - Exile Vilify
Major Lazer - Get Free <- Not sure about that.
The Ting Tings - Great DJ
Naughty Boy feat. Sam Smith - La La La
Tom Hugo - Open up your eyes
Passenger - Let her go
Loredana - Rain Rain <- Not sure about that either.
The Killers - Read My Mind
Swingfly - Something's got me started
Taco - Puttin' on the Ritz
The Downtown Fiction - I just wanna run
The Asteroids Galaxy Tour - Golden Age
David Guetta feat. Sia - Titanium <- Really not sure x3.
Tokio Hotel - Moonsoon <- Probably.
The Courteeners - Van Der Graaff
How could I forget about Chris Isaak - Wicked Game :3
And Ozzy Osbourne - Dreamer :3
And as a Special if I get a certain amount of views/favorites/ etc. : Ylvis - The Fox ? x3

How it started: I asked one of my teachers what's the song they are using instead of a school ring, and he told me it's from Pink Floyd (never listened to the band before, just heard great things about them) and since then I fell in love with "Another Brick in The Wall" (also thinking of making a cover), just wanted to let you know what I'm listening to lately :3.

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Well, since I'm a bit bored I came up with an idea of translating the lyrics of a romanian song (I like it, maybe some people don't) Hope you enjoy.

Refrain:
Weapons I don't have to defend myself from her,
They say love doesn't bring anything.
From 1000 dreamers,
We're still searching for treasures.
Even though I know love,
Can take away all it gave to you.
From 1000 dreamers,
We're still searching for treasures.

I have a lot of questions and thoughts,
But, sometimes between us
There are some walls..
Made of tries,
You take from me, my happiness gram by gram

And I don't have...

[Refrain]

Today, on my cheeks are flowing the first tears,
And I admit...
It hurts so bad when two hearts,
Are no more what they were...

[I skipped the rap part]

[Refrain]

Note: These are not my lyrics. I just translated them.

If you want to hear how this song sounds (in romanian) you can check this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qhEwAZaQu44

I got the necessary papers for the music contest I'm going :3, I just have to get past the selection and that's it somehow, I will face other singers, the prizes are in instruments, music equipment and other stuff, but I am hunting the trophy, hehe :3 Also, I might record today my first song cover, I'm not going to spoil the surprise, so, it's secret, you'll have to guess what song I will make a cover to :3

Is it alright if sometimes I am thinking of ways to commit suicide ? And then I wake up and I realise I somehow have a beautiful life ? I have a girl friend-zoning me, two guys that hate me to death, hard school and song covers to do, I think the only song I will listen to for a while will be this: http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4N3N1MlvVc4

Hey world, since I decided that this account should contain covers, a big problem ocurred, and more exactly, I will sing, but what will be in the background ? I searched on YouTube for song covers with violin, piano and guitar and I found many clips, but because of the fact that I can't just use them, I don't know what to do. I was thinking of using them and giving credit to the person that created the cover, but being new on the site I am not really aware of the consequences and don't know if giving credit to the persons would solve the issue. So I'm asking for your opinion, what do you think ?

Hey everyone, I wanted to wish you all the best, may the new year bring you only hapiness and hope.
As 2013 has almost passed, I hope you will leave all the sadness behind and enter 2014 as happy as possible :3.

Once again, Happy New Year!

I could say, good job, I have an annoying sore throat for about 3 days now, good start considering I want to make song covers :-S