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Posted a year agoRest dear furry travelers! Pull up a chair and enjoy a drink or meal!
Rememberance
Posted a year agoToday in the wake of Dragoneer's passing I went to visit those that have passed that I followed. Within a span of 10 years Dragoneer marks the 10th passing in the list. To see everyone that had passed again brings the feeling of heaviness in the heart. Rereading the passages of journals regarding their passing. I came across those that had also passed that I didn't know about.
It just adds to the gravity of how much is gone. In doing so also brought up memories of happier days from the days gone past.
I wish all those that have passed a restful sleep. And may we meet again in furry paradise.
It just adds to the gravity of how much is gone. In doing so also brought up memories of happier days from the days gone past.
I wish all those that have passed a restful sleep. And may we meet again in furry paradise.
Ill feeling
Posted 2 years ago(Talks of suicide, and depression)
Very ill feeling when I get into my deepest depressed state to the point of wanting suicide.. 9 months of this and still nothing gets me moving. I can't work as it interferes too much to the point no one would hire someone in such a depressed state. I try to push myself only to fall back down thinking "What's the point? It's just going to be the same BS." Therapy is just so slow with little results the past 4 months. I don't bother with my bills as I see it just another burden not worth the time of day. After all it's just going to get written off after I die right? What's the point in paying if I do pick to pull the trigger?
Yes I have people that care about me, but most are nowhere near me to hold and comfort me. I had pretty much given up on keeping up with meds. My depression and guilt of my life has left me with memory issues, and constant dizziness. No motivation to get out of bed and constant sleepless nights. I haven't been eating like I used to just to stretch food out and to not be too much of a burden on family. Only eating my fill on food that is about to go bad.
Very ill feeling when I get into my deepest depressed state to the point of wanting suicide.. 9 months of this and still nothing gets me moving. I can't work as it interferes too much to the point no one would hire someone in such a depressed state. I try to push myself only to fall back down thinking "What's the point? It's just going to be the same BS." Therapy is just so slow with little results the past 4 months. I don't bother with my bills as I see it just another burden not worth the time of day. After all it's just going to get written off after I die right? What's the point in paying if I do pick to pull the trigger?
Yes I have people that care about me, but most are nowhere near me to hold and comfort me. I had pretty much given up on keeping up with meds. My depression and guilt of my life has left me with memory issues, and constant dizziness. No motivation to get out of bed and constant sleepless nights. I haven't been eating like I used to just to stretch food out and to not be too much of a burden on family. Only eating my fill on food that is about to go bad.
Constant
Posted 2 years agoBurnout, depression, burnout, depression...
It's tiring and very demoralizing when not able to get out of it for 6 months now...
I still smile at the ponies at least. So, I have that going for myself...
It's tiring and very demoralizing when not able to get out of it for 6 months now...
I still smile at the ponies at least. So, I have that going for myself...
Last Journal of 2022
Posted 2 years agoOverall the year sucked, and I'm not sure on the future.
Enjoy next year and live your life to the fullest you can.
I would love to go into more detail about it. But I don't think people like hearing about suicide attempts.
Enjoy next year and live your life to the fullest you can.
I would love to go into more detail about it. But I don't think people like hearing about suicide attempts.
I finally deleted my Twitter.
Tired of the bs and lies I keep seeing popup.
Tired of the bs and lies I keep seeing popup.
I don't like it...
Posted 3 years agoIt's too hot out and I'm not a summer kind of girl. @.@;;
R/Place
Posted 3 years agoI can't say much about it but it was one of THE most intense moments in my life. Repeated attacks on our little ponies on the canvas (A grand total of 22 nukings) kept us vigilant. Once the event hit late 3rd day we were targeted less and less. That allowed many of us to ease back and ACTUALLY LOOK at the canvas. There was so many wonderful things on it. The allies we had were amazing in aiding us and I am greatful for it.
So here is to next year and may it be just as glorious!
New pony meme from streamers: Broners! XD
So here is to next year and may it be just as glorious!
New pony meme from streamers: Broners! XD
Ten years
Posted 3 years ago1/2/2012
The day that changed my life forever! I am sure about many of you know of MLP FIM. Well! This month and this year marks a decade of ponies for me! The show that opened new doors of art, audio, and stories! A show that kept me going when things got dark. Why?
Because it helped set the stage for the AMAZING FRIENDS I have made! Some close and that are some distant. Even helped me find love!
You probably heard it all before, but it doesn't make it any less impactful in others lives! It took me ten years to fully realize that that date 1/2/2012 just shortly after hearing
gillpanda talk about it during one of their art streams. Would be such a pivotal point in my life! And there is no way in this WORLD I WOULD EVER TRADE THAT AWAY!
So here is to everyone who still love to see ponies show up on your submissions, dash, or whatever you call it! Here is to hopefully another wonderful 10 YEARS OF PONIES!
The day that changed my life forever! I am sure about many of you know of MLP FIM. Well! This month and this year marks a decade of ponies for me! The show that opened new doors of art, audio, and stories! A show that kept me going when things got dark. Why?
Because it helped set the stage for the AMAZING FRIENDS I have made! Some close and that are some distant. Even helped me find love!
You probably heard it all before, but it doesn't make it any less impactful in others lives! It took me ten years to fully realize that that date 1/2/2012 just shortly after hearing
gillpanda talk about it during one of their art streams. Would be such a pivotal point in my life! And there is no way in this WORLD I WOULD EVER TRADE THAT AWAY! So here is to everyone who still love to see ponies show up on your submissions, dash, or whatever you call it! Here is to hopefully another wonderful 10 YEARS OF PONIES!
I am back
Posted 3 years agoOn Tumblr after eons!
No interest
Posted 3 years agoI have no interest in Christmas this year.
Strong wanting (Small Vent)
Posted 4 years agoI have been wanting to commission a few artist but they never seem to be open. Or they fill up so fast that I miss them? Or they find ideas they just have more interests in. All in all it makes me jealous, and envious at times. Always going back like they will magically open. Kind of like if I open the fridge there will be food!
This month (vent)
Posted 4 years agoIt wasn't all that great, having been hospitalized, and injuring myself later (Which I have no idea how I did it?) It's been rough mentally and physically. I just want to have something good happen.
Pain
Posted 4 years agoHad nothing but foot pain today, bad it hard to do ANYTHING! Still got it too...
A artist is open for commissions!
Posted 4 years agoThey have some pretty great art!
Go check em out! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/42013976/
Also they are doing a raffle! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/42008546/
Go check em out! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/42013976/
Also they are doing a raffle! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/42008546/
26 years
Posted 4 years agoOver the weekend it's strange how feeling 26 seems like a long time since you felt happiness from ignorant bliss from being a small child. So yeah I am 26 now..
The last nine days.. and further
Posted 4 years agoThe last nine days were rough. For everyone and my personally, as they were the lowest I think I ever felt in a year. The stress of 2020, and the whole post election thing. It's just... I can't say it without getting political.. So I'll just say, this nearly one year worth of days really worn me out. I am hoping (knocks on wood) That this year improves in the end.
Happy New Year!
Posted 4 years agoFrom the East Coast, and here is to a better year in 2021!
Merry Christmas
Posted 4 years agoMay this day be good to you all~
Memory Lane
Posted 5 years agoGoing on DA and going back through some of the artists that never deleted their pages. Really brought back memories of who I eagerly waited to see post something. I have to say I seemed to have looked up to, and forward to see post most was and 
(Formerly known as 
).
Who did you look up to, or looked forward to seeing post when you were still new to the fandom?
and 
(Formerly known as 
).Who did you look up to, or looked forward to seeing post when you were still new to the fandom?
Bots?
Posted 5 years agoThey may appear at any time!
Got noted by a bot named MiscreantMeneanst for a chat site today.
Got noted by a bot named MiscreantMeneanst for a chat site today.
A boredom journal
Posted 5 years agoBecause my boredom knows no bounds!
This is also for a possible thing I may or may not try to do. o3o
Aurora should be?
https://www.strawpoll.me/20539031
Kimono?
https://www.strawpoll.me/20539041
This is also for a possible thing I may or may not try to do. o3o
Aurora should be?
https://www.strawpoll.me/20539031
Kimono?
https://www.strawpoll.me/20539041
A thing I hate
Posted 5 years agoUploading art that I can't remember the names of the artists that made them! Especially those that are done years ago, without the art posted to help find the artists.
Uploads
Posted 5 years agoI am putting ups old and new art I have gotten over the years. So please don't mind the slow flood? o3o
Pride flags
Posted 5 years agoDoes anyone know where I can get some good quality pride flags at?
