Hullo, everyone who stills remembers me~! I still remember you guys, how's it going? x3
Truly sorry for pretty much abandoning this page, art and the fanbase in general, there's been so many things going on in my life that's sucked out all my free time and willpower to do anything, including sickness, loss of work and family deaths, but I will come back! Honest!

I will also update whenever I get back into drawing the commissions I still owe.

In other news, one of my best friends in the furdom,  Taniger is conducting some very important research regarding furries, who we are and what we do, without bias of positive or negative outlooks. I think it's a valiant effort which deserves to produce interesting results, which is why I invite you to read his journal for more information, if you're interested. He's also conducting interviews regarding what makes furries tick, so if you wanna help him divinate just what the heck we're all about, go check it out!

Here is his journal for more information:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6282479/

I'm back! I've been away for a while coz of life and depression, but I should be back and posting again soon. Sorry guys...

Also, I have a friend that is streaming and wants people to come watch, please do if you have the time.

http://www.livestream.com/livewiret.....tiger?t=552221

My wacom was pronounced dead today after I noticed that it wasn't responding when I came back from a trip yesterday. I unplugged it to take a look at it and I noticed dozens of ants scampering out from a hole under it. I left it aside for the night and in the morning, ants were still spewing out of it.

My dad took it to a radio tech today who popped it open and brushed off the remaining ants and their filthy residue, but they had already killed it, it doesn't respond anymore when I plug it in and windows doesn't detect it anymore.

So there we go. My already stagnating artistic career cut short by fucking ants. Can't say I'm surprised really. My life was going nowhere as it is.

That tablet cost me around 300$ around 2008, and I'm sure that they're still the same price or more expensive at this point. Not to mention that if I had the money, I'd have to order it in from the US, and I'd have to pay extra for shipping and extra care handling, and that would escalate the price even more.

Heh, it's kind of funny, really. I used to think that ants were so cool and interesting. Shows what the fuck I know.

Yeah, I got laid off from work... And once again I join the ranks of the jobless. v.v

It's kind of a bittersweet thing, really. For one, I'm glad that I'm done with those guys, being a customer support agent is one of the most thankless, stressful, and under appreciated occupations that I've had. But then again, I don't have a regular income anymore, so I'm gonna be a little tight until I find something else to do...

I might be able to get a steady job as an illustrator, I think one of my friends has a graphic design company, I'll see if there's anyway I can get on that one... Otherwise, I'll see if there's anyways I can still finish college, there has to be some use to all that bullshit you have to go through to get graduated.

... So I might start up commissions again. Something stupidly cheap, like 5 or 10 dollars... I know people who usually charge like 30 bucks for drawing, but I'm really not that good or crazy.
So if you want me to doodle something for you, lemme know via note! I can even stream it for you, if that's your thing.

Just... gimme something to do so I can stop thinking about bad things.

Then again, it wasn't really a *bad* weekend, but it wasn't all that good, either.
I had to work on Saturday, and it also was my little brother's birthday, so we had to rush everything in the morning so that I could be there, had lunch and cake and then immediately had to go work on the afternoon.
Work wasn't too bad... I mean, not bad but not all that great. At least I didn't get monitored.

When I came back home, some of my friends were playing Castle Crashers, specifically they were playing the 4 pack of Castle Crashers that I had bought for us all so we could play it together. They said that their party was already full and that they didn't want to make a new one so I could join coz they were already playing with other people.
That made me sad.

It's the same thing with all other multiplayer games I bought to play with friends. Borderlands 2, Torchlight 2, Payday, Team Fortress 2...
The Steam friends list I have is more like the "people who play by themselves and don't really want to play with me" list. It's even sadder that most of the friends I have there is people I know IRL.

Maybe I really don't have any friends. Maybe people who are nice to me sometimes are just that, nice people and I'm deluding myself into thinking they actually like me as much as I like them. I dunno.

Sigh, sad journal. I'm sorry that the first journal of mine that you see in a long time is a whine journal, but I am really kind of sad right now.

I like this game, it's so cute. :3

It was so embarrassing... I got a bad QA monitoring score and a nice lady supervisor hugged me when I went back to my cubicle and saw me crying. It was so terrible. My coworkers must have felt so uncomfortable around me when they saw that. v.v
I'm a big wuss...

Also my dad went to pick me up after work today. The bad thing is that he didn't tell me that he would do so and ended up waiting some time for me to come out of the office because I didn't know and he had to call my cell phone.
And it was his birthday today... He went to bed upset at me.

And I wanted to get a day off next weekend so we could go celebrate his birthday at my granny's house but I don't think I'm gonna be able to have it approved.

No time or energy to draw, either. I just wanna go back in time, it was so much easier a couple years ago. I'm not happy with my life.

I closed down commissions since I had gotten a job, so I thought it would be redundant in a way... But now I'm seriously thinking that I won't be able to keep my job anymore, but I still need to pay my share of the bills...

According to my calculations, if I could get at least 3 or 4 commissions per month, at $10.00 each for example, I should be okay...
It's only until December, but that is still 3 months and a half from now.

So my question to you is, would you please help me out? I will open up for commissions from $5 to $10. Sketches, inked drawings, full pics like the shark lady, anything!
I know I sound a little desperate, but I kind of am at this point. If I'm able to make at least 40 dollars from commissions each month, I should be golden. What do you say? :'(

Yeah, so I hadn't uploaded anything for like a month or something. I've just been so busy, work does not give me time to do ANYTHING anymore.
I'll try to force myself to draw more often now, I'm gonna make some time in my schedule to do so. I have to, I need to do it. Drawing adds color to my life, it's been really dull lately since I can't draw as much as I used to.

I'm also gonna try to do a little more "anime"-ish style drawings, as well. Stuff like catgirls and humans with animal characteristics... Semi-furry is as cool as full on furry stuff, and besides I feel like I gotta practice that style.
I hope you guys like it as much as my regular furry stuff, I'll to keep it cute and sexy, like always. :3

I noticed today that I have a small hematoma in the spot where they took my blood from yesterday. It's like a little bruise, all purple an blue with red spots... I'm getting kind of worried, but I could not go to have it looked at today since I was working. I'll go to a local clinic first thing in the morning tomorrow, to have a doctor examine it.

I personally don't think it's anything too serious, I am quite fragile and bruise easily. And they did take a whole baggie of my blood... But I dunno, something feels odd about it. I'm applying ice to it right now to see if that helps lower the badness.

I swear, if lose an arm just because I helped out some child somewhere... I'm gonna get a bionic arm to replace it and I'm gonna be a supervillain. :P

OOooouuuuggghhuuuoo... And still feeling a little woozy from it, too. @.@

A children's hospital came to church today, and they told the pastor that they needed some blood for critical condition children. So I thought, why not? I mean, I sure can use my blood, but a kid somewhere else could use a little of it a lot more than I at the moment.
It was my first time ever donating any of my bodily fluids, so I was a little nervous... So I got pale and scared the doctor that was taking my blood. She probably thought I was going to pass out. :P

It was cool, I guess... They made me sit on a chair for like 20 minutes or something while squeezing a funny rubber ball with flour in it. I got all cold and shivery when it was almost done but I tried to be brave. :O
And at the end they gave me some cookies and juice. Happiness for everyone!

Already? People waste no time on trying to get on a bandwagon that they know for sure is gonna get them attention.

I personally think that everyone has every right to say anything to/about anyone at any given time, but there are things that are socially acceptable, humane or appropriate. And there are some things that by sheer force of magnitude are just not to be joked about. Even at this time jokes about Columbine and Virginia Tech are rarely seen and most are frowned upon. People died, lots of people. It's not fair to poke fun at dead people for profit when their families are still mourning for them. That's a jerk thing to do and it makes you come off as mean. >.<

Enough about my ramblings that nobody cares about, here's the comic in question. What do you think?

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8521835/

Well, it's not really a documentary, just a quick spot on Taboo which I assume is supposed to be somewhat of a basic introduction to the fandom.

What do you think about it? Do you feel identified? How did you come into the fandom yourself?

I've come to really like Moleesha. Even if I have not yet developed her too much as a character, she already is a big part of my life.
She is very much the only thing in my life that I can call my own. And she has begun to play a big part in my emotional stability and mental health...

Does that mean I'm crazy? o.O

Another one! This one's so beautiful. @.@

So cool! x3

His music is sex.

The made a Robot Unicorn Attack 2, and nobody told me? D:

http://games.adultswim.com/robot-un.....line-game.html

I spent a couple hours today watching TV with my little sister, and I gotta say, cartoons today have very little in common with the cartoons I grew up watching. x.x

First we watched something called "Regular Show", it was about a bird and what appeared to be a raccoon getting in trouble, mostly concerning a catchy tune that had taken corporeal form and something about a magic soda or something. It was weird.

Next we saw "Adventure Time", which I was surprised to see turned into an actual TV show. I remember seeing it a couple years ago on YouTube, I guess that was some sort of pilot episode or something. :P
Needless to say, the TV episodes managed to weird me out even more than the first one I had seen before. x.x

And then we watched a couple of those senseless teen TV shows with terrible jokes, terrible acting and laugh tracks every 3 seconds. It was a bit unsettling. x3
There were a couple of witty jokes throw in every now and again but nothing too earth-shattering. How do people manage to stay more than 5 minutes in front of the boob tube in the present day is beyond me. :P

I very honestly expected my sis to tune into My Little Pony at some point but she didn't even stop on it when it was airing while we channel surfed. She's 13 years old and quite girlish, so it didn't make any sense to me. xD
I asked her about it but she told me some stuff which I don't believe would even fit in this journal so I'll leave it for a later date.

Thank you all very much for visiting my page and taking valuable time out of your day to look at my silly doodles. You guys make it all worthwhile. <3
I think I'll be drawing something special for this, I think it's kind of a cool milestone that deserves to be remembered. :P

Much love! :3

Like, just rolling over, calling it quits and seeing if you can find something you're actually good at...? I do feel that way. Sometimes even several times a day. Mostly when I browse this site.
Maybe I just expect things to come to me faster, or maybe I feel like I'm developing REALLY slowly. Been feeling that way for 6 years now... Thinking of just giving up right now, actually. :P

Do you ever get those feelings of inadequacy at some point of your life?

I know you guys up there in the States are approaching towards summer, and with it you get breaks, picnics and camping, and fun in the sun... Which is great, I hope you enjoy it. :P
But for me, it's nothing but work, work and winter... It rains and gets real humid on winter down here. x.x

So I was wondering, if you could have Moleesha just for yourself for the entire summer, what would you do with/to her? Take her camping to a secluded mountain house so she can prance around the meadows all day, to the beach for some sunbathing, or just touring around the city? Would you be nice or mean...? o.o
Please tell me! :3

Also, watch watch!

Seriously, thanks to everyone who has ever drawn Moleesha, even if it was just a little doodle in a napkin, thank you for the love. <3
And not just in drawing form, thanks for any stories and snippets, mentions and favorites.
Commissions, gifts, requests and trades, you guys are the best. Thank you!

I dunno if anyone cares, but just in case I'm letting you guys know, I'm going to my grandmother's house tomorrow morning, won't be coming back until Sunday afternoon. So yeah. >.<

 juice87, I'm working on my part of the trade right now but I'm not gonna be able to finish it until I come back. Sorry... x.x

Have a nice weekend everybody!

I love the world. :3